Anxiety attacks...

I had every intention of going to bed early tonight since I've been exhausted all week. I had everything set up to do just that and was even ready for bed an hour earlier than usual.

And my anxiety kicked in.

It's been a long time since it's been like this. My roommate isn't home and normally I'm just fine. But tonight I'm on edge for some reason. Normally I can calm myself down after a bit, so that's why I'm here writing this. It's subsiding a bit already.

On top of this freak out, I also have my 90 day review tomorrow. I've been pretty good about anxiety at work, and I've even been good about not freaking out about that. My boss has been a little annoyed again lately... Though I'm trying to realize there's a good chance he's not annoyed with me. He's just taking it out on me. People do that. I need to remember that just because someone is acting annoyed at me doesn't mean it's my fault or that I'm a screw up. I've been better lately.

However, 90 day review? Reviews scare me. I doubt I'll be fired and anything else I can work on....

Now if only I could stop hearing creepy noises so I could calm myself down enough to sleep. I've been absolutely exhausted all week, barely making it out of bed. I think I'm mildly sick too. I was dizzy a few times today, my throat is sore, I'm congested even with my Allegra and I've had weird headaches all week. I'm not terribly sick, but maybe mildly? I rarely get very sick anyway.

But yes, I'm so tired... I really considered going to bed around 9 but I called my mom since it's been a few days and we needed to talk. She had an MRI done on her hand for a torn ligament.

I can barely keep my eyes open now. Maybe I'll try to get back in bed... And hope the odd noises stop and that I don't end up getting murdered in my sleep. I can tell it won't be a restful night. Nightmares make for the best stories anyway. At least for me they do :)

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