Thankful Post: Day One
Let's start with the obvious (yes, this gets sappy, so skip if that's going to bother you).
I am thankful for
java_fiend. He has brought so much joy into my life, I never knew it was possible to be this blissfully happy with someone.
Even when we were just friends, I knew if I needed him... He was always there. Even 2,000 miles away, I could count on him to be there for me. Now that we live so close? I have no doubt that he's always there for when I need him. I hope he knows I am always there for him as well.
I never feel like a burden or a bother to him, even when I am at my lowest points. He knows exactly what I need in any given moment, be it certain words I need to hear or just a hug. I am constantly amazed at his ability to read me so well.
He truly is one of the greatest things to have ever happened to me. I can't say it enough and I know it makes people sick sometimes... but truly, I am so happy. I have never had a healthy relationship without resentment by this point. Without trust issues. Without neediness from one party or the other. Lies, manipulation... That's what I thought was essential for any relationship because that's just how people are. When I left my ex, I truly thought I'd never date anyone again. I had no desire to do so. I didn't think I could ever date someone because of my issues, I was not healthy enough for a relationship and wasn't interested in dealing with that stuff.
However, I learned that with the right person, you can build something healthy. There's no underlying resentment here. I don't have horrible memories clouding my brain as I try to make excuses for behavior over and over again. I don't have any of that. I can trust and completely let myself go. I feel as if he truly enjoys my company, that spending time with me isn't a painful obligation. He enjoys doing the things I do, but he also enjoys just talking to me. He listens to me rattle on and on about the most obscure topics, going from one thing to another and back again. All the while, he's smiling and listening and joining in.
It's a great feeling and one I am not used to. My painful past relationships makes me truly appreciate what I have now. I don't take him for granted, I know I have someone special and I appreciate the HECK out of him, trust me. I am truly thankful that I have him in my life <3
I am thankful for
java_fiend. He has brought so much joy into my life, I never knew it was possible to be this blissfully happy with someone.Even when we were just friends, I knew if I needed him... He was always there. Even 2,000 miles away, I could count on him to be there for me. Now that we live so close? I have no doubt that he's always there for when I need him. I hope he knows I am always there for him as well.
I never feel like a burden or a bother to him, even when I am at my lowest points. He knows exactly what I need in any given moment, be it certain words I need to hear or just a hug. I am constantly amazed at his ability to read me so well.
He truly is one of the greatest things to have ever happened to me. I can't say it enough and I know it makes people sick sometimes... but truly, I am so happy. I have never had a healthy relationship without resentment by this point. Without trust issues. Without neediness from one party or the other. Lies, manipulation... That's what I thought was essential for any relationship because that's just how people are. When I left my ex, I truly thought I'd never date anyone again. I had no desire to do so. I didn't think I could ever date someone because of my issues, I was not healthy enough for a relationship and wasn't interested in dealing with that stuff.
However, I learned that with the right person, you can build something healthy. There's no underlying resentment here. I don't have horrible memories clouding my brain as I try to make excuses for behavior over and over again. I don't have any of that. I can trust and completely let myself go. I feel as if he truly enjoys my company, that spending time with me isn't a painful obligation. He enjoys doing the things I do, but he also enjoys just talking to me. He listens to me rattle on and on about the most obscure topics, going from one thing to another and back again. All the while, he's smiling and listening and joining in.
It's a great feeling and one I am not used to. My painful past relationships makes me truly appreciate what I have now. I don't take him for granted, I know I have someone special and I appreciate the HECK out of him, trust me. I am truly thankful that I have him in my life <3