Goodbye, Farewell, The End...
So this was my last and final week in 
therealljidol. I made the boot before the Top 10. by getting this far in the first place. And honestly? I really don't think I deserve it. My guilty conscience can now be at peace even though yeah, it really sucks for me right now. I promised that I wouldn't bad mouth myself at all this season (in public) and I mostly succeeded. I slipped up a few times, but much improvement over last season, don't you think? Though I wish I could say the feelings of confidence went along with it all...I can't say that it did.
Though Top 11 is pretty flipping fantastic. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought I'd get here. Honestly? My only sadness is that I know I didn't deserve to be there.
But I couldn't go out without thanking some people for everything. Of course, we have my wonderful boyfriend,
java_fiend for putting up with me and dealing with my crazy self loathing mood swing week after week. He has helped me grow and get better, he's helped edit my pieces since my grammar downright sucks. I love him to bits and I am so glad he's still in the game, and he will have my continued support throughout.
Next up is my Secret Girlfriend #1,
comedychick. I was friends with her last season, but I got to know her more in the last few months and I love this girl. I always felt like she had my back and I had hers...It's nice. I have very few real life friends, and never really had a best friend. But I'd say that even though she's on another continent, she is the closest thing that I have to be a best friend. She's put up with a lot of my self hatred too and has been so helpful at cheering me up when I needed it most. I love her to bits too. Now we just need to go lingerie shopping together. I mean in RL, we already do it online :P
Andmstrobel who is also an amazing friend. We really clicked through a mud wrestling event in the Green Room last season (don't ask) over my boyfriend java_fiend. We we can certainly see who won that one, huh? Well hey, at least I can win at some things. Seriously though, she's an absolute sweetheart and has helped me out countless times.
I can't forget my AMAZING intersection partner (the only one not mentioned above). I absolutely loveapplespicy and so glad she agreed to work with me. That piece we did together is one of my favorites from the season. She rocks.
There really are so many others. My friends list in general for putting up with me for all these months and supporting me when I needed it. I know I haven't been the best friend lately, but thank you everyone.
And to all the awesome friends I made this season (too many to list everyone), you guys rock and I look forward to talking to everyone more.
Hey, at least Annabelle didn't eat my lube this time. That I know of... (Last season, as soon as I sat down to write my goodbye thread, my Great Dane puppy had a bottle of lube that she ate which required a call to the vet's office. I learned a valuable lesson that night...regular lube is perfectly safe, but if it were the type that warms to the touch? That's BAD).
java_fiend is on his way over to hang out for our typical Friday routine. So I will head off here and there will be more to come in the coming days with my posts and whatnot. Just wrapping things up.
Oh and if anyone wants to add me as a friend, you are more than welcome to do so. I love new friends.
It's been fun you guys. Thanks for supporting me this long <3
therealljidol. I made the boot before the Top 10. by getting this far in the first place. And honestly? I really don't think I deserve it. My guilty conscience can now be at peace even though yeah, it really sucks for me right now. I promised that I wouldn't bad mouth myself at all this season (in public) and I mostly succeeded. I slipped up a few times, but much improvement over last season, don't you think? Though I wish I could say the feelings of confidence went along with it all...I can't say that it did. Though Top 11 is pretty flipping fantastic. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought I'd get here. Honestly? My only sadness is that I know I didn't deserve to be there.
But I couldn't go out without thanking some people for everything. Of course, we have my wonderful boyfriend,
java_fiend for putting up with me and dealing with my crazy self loathing mood swing week after week. He has helped me grow and get better, he's helped edit my pieces since my grammar downright sucks. I love him to bits and I am so glad he's still in the game, and he will have my continued support throughout. Next up is my Secret Girlfriend #1,
And
mstrobel who is also an amazing friend. We really clicked through a mud wrestling event in the Green Room last season (don't ask) over my boyfriend java_fiend. We we can certainly see who won that one, huh? Well hey, at least I can win at some things. Seriously though, she's an absolute sweetheart and has helped me out countless times. I can't forget my AMAZING intersection partner (the only one not mentioned above). I absolutely love
applespicy and so glad she agreed to work with me. That piece we did together is one of my favorites from the season. She rocks. There really are so many others. My friends list in general for putting up with me for all these months and supporting me when I needed it. I know I haven't been the best friend lately, but thank you everyone.
And to all the awesome friends I made this season (too many to list everyone), you guys rock and I look forward to talking to everyone more.
Hey, at least Annabelle didn't eat my lube this time. That I know of... (Last season, as soon as I sat down to write my goodbye thread, my Great Dane puppy had a bottle of lube that she ate which required a call to the vet's office. I learned a valuable lesson that night...regular lube is perfectly safe, but if it were the type that warms to the touch? That's BAD).
java_fiend is on his way over to hang out for our typical Friday routine. So I will head off here and there will be more to come in the coming days with my posts and whatnot. Just wrapping things up. Oh and if anyone wants to add me as a friend, you are more than welcome to do so. I love new friends.
It's been fun you guys. Thanks for supporting me this long <3