Thank you for all your support
I should be in bed...
But I have to say as I watched the Idol polls this evening, I was really amazed at something. I was doing okay...Not great, but okay enough. I probably was safe there at the end (not the entire time though).
Then, somehow, I jumped about 12 or so votes in like no time at all. Whoever is out there supporting me like that, I don't know who you are but I do want to thank you. It really meant a lot to see people supporting me at the last minute and trying to save me like that. You have no idea what it means to me. My confidence has been dwindling, as it does from time to time, and I haven't been feeling my best these days obviously. This really just made my day.
All I have ever wanted out of Idol is for people to like me, and like my writing. I don't want to keep going on and on with pimping myself alone. A bad week here and there? Sure. Everyone has them. But I don't get joy out of this game by just pimping to see how far I can go. I get joy out of the feedback I get. The friendships I make. The support I get. Everyone has different things they want out of this game, and for me, I just want to be liked more than anything. I want to feel included and as if people want me to be around. To me, that means more than how far I go or what the polls say. If I feel that people believe in me and like me, well then I am one happy camper. So to know that there are people out there who would help fight for me? Well that really just warms my heart and turns it to goo.
For everyone else on my friends list who puts up with my pimping and begging? Thank you too. I know I haven't been around much. I have been in a blah state of mind these days. But knowing that you guys support me in something I love? It means the world to me. You guys are really awesome to me.
So if you're reading this, thank you for putting a smile on this girls face today. It really has been rough this last week, and that really flipped my mood around completely <3
But I have to say as I watched the Idol polls this evening, I was really amazed at something. I was doing okay...Not great, but okay enough. I probably was safe there at the end (not the entire time though).
Then, somehow, I jumped about 12 or so votes in like no time at all. Whoever is out there supporting me like that, I don't know who you are but I do want to thank you. It really meant a lot to see people supporting me at the last minute and trying to save me like that. You have no idea what it means to me. My confidence has been dwindling, as it does from time to time, and I haven't been feeling my best these days obviously. This really just made my day.
All I have ever wanted out of Idol is for people to like me, and like my writing. I don't want to keep going on and on with pimping myself alone. A bad week here and there? Sure. Everyone has them. But I don't get joy out of this game by just pimping to see how far I can go. I get joy out of the feedback I get. The friendships I make. The support I get. Everyone has different things they want out of this game, and for me, I just want to be liked more than anything. I want to feel included and as if people want me to be around. To me, that means more than how far I go or what the polls say. If I feel that people believe in me and like me, well then I am one happy camper. So to know that there are people out there who would help fight for me? Well that really just warms my heart and turns it to goo.
For everyone else on my friends list who puts up with my pimping and begging? Thank you too. I know I haven't been around much. I have been in a blah state of mind these days. But knowing that you guys support me in something I love? It means the world to me. You guys are really awesome to me.
So if you're reading this, thank you for putting a smile on this girls face today. It really has been rough this last week, and that really flipped my mood around completely <3