Watching as I change
from the inside
on the outside,
into a strident freak 
with softened cheeks
and widened hips,
as softened lips
scream to exist,
like light in the bleak
pushing back the creep
of my own unmaking,
a joyous playful breaking,
and I will give praise
for those blackened days,
because I found my way
and I became.