Charlene Harris

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phoenix1081 — Fri, 13 Oct 2006 12:40:43 GMT

Just doing a touch of advertising for Matt (my other half)

EDA: Removed advert...

Hmmm

phoenix1081 — Sun, 24 Sep 2006 09:33:47 GMT

Wow, i didn't realise i'd left it so long since i'd last posted...

Sorry all ::is sheepish::

Well, let's see... What's been happening...

Um... I finally got help with my depression, i'm now on tablets... I'm still living in a one bedroom flat with Matt and the girls... Um, i seem to be going out a bit more than i used to, and also losing a bit of weight... I've also gone back in to hairdressing on a more regular basis, last month i done my first home perm, got to do another one soon. Also got to highlight my sisters hair next week! Just wish someone would sort out the mess that is my hair! lol.

Willow starts nursery on Wednesday, she's now 3 years old and growing up so fast!

Jamie's almost a year old, has 6 teeth and is also walking and very into climbing on anything and everything!

Matt's the same as usual, spends his time on his computer playing online games. And if not, then he's at band practise...

I've got a wedding to go to next month... just got to go and buy myself a new outfit due to my wardrobe being practically empty... Saw a lovely long chiffon skirt, just hope i've lost enough weight for it to look alright...

Well i think that's about all for now...

Talk again soon,

Later!

Birthday wishes

phoenix1081 — Sat, 14 Jan 2006 11:43:59 GMT

Wishing you a very

Happy Birthday bloodshedbaby

Hope it's a lovely one for you!

Well, it looks finished!

phoenix1081 — Fri, 13 Jan 2006 11:23:48 GMT

Omg!! I have a new LJ layout that just, to die for!

I can't believe what Matt did! He must have sat up all night trying to work that coding out! ::squees::

I just can't get over how gorgeous it is! I'm very glad, i have a bloke that's good at everything he set's his mind too! God, i'm sooo happy! ::smiles::

Matt, Thankyou so much darlin, it's brilliant! ::squishes you:: lol!

::Squees again::

Help, please?

phoenix1081 — Wed, 11 Jan 2006 16:00:32 GMT

I've been trying to customise my lj, but i've come across a problem! I've seen two new styles that i like,

1) A Novel Conundrum
2) 3 Column

The problem i'm having is, both of them have features i like, but they also don't have features i want. Ie, 'A Novel' has a fancy font, and i love the way it's layed out... but it doesn't support the Header feature... ::sigh:: Or the Calender, or links list... (that i've found)

And the '3 Column' doesn't support the fancy text in entries... or the repositioning of the links, and i really don't like the buttons it has for the comments and stuff...

So, i tried creating a new layer to combine it all together...only i found that it was too complicated...::sigh::

I just have no idea what i'm doing, and would be truly appreciative if someone would be able to help me!

Thankyou!

::Hugs f'list::

::Squee's lots::

phoenix1081 — Tue, 10 Jan 2006 22:33:59 GMT

Omg, i've just been struck by the Anonymous LiveJournal Fairy!!

Thankyou sooo much, whoever you are! I love you forever! ;)

I now have a paid account! I can hopefully now sort out this journal properly...lol.

Thanks again LJ Fairy!

::Huggles Anonymous Fairy::

::Squee!::

Happy New Year to all!!

phoenix1081 — Tue, 10 Jan 2006 16:16:39 GMT

Wow, 2006!

Jamie Ann is now just over 14 weeks old, and is looking more and more like Willow each and every day! the only differences we can see are: 1) Willow was a bit chubbier, 2) Willow had a slightly different hair line!

What do you think?

Jamie at 3 months (And me and Wills too! lol)

Willow at 3 months

On to other things, i thought my journal needed a change in looks! I got fed up with the blues, and wanted something a bit more sophisticated...(ooOOOoo big word for me!! lol) It's not quite how i wanted it, but that's what i get for not having a paid account! ::sigh:: I wanted the same things that you get on the '3 column' style... but i also wanted to have the font that's on mine... and i couldn't get the font on the 3 column one... So i thought sod it!

It sucks not having the money for a paid account! ::sighs some more::

And to top that off, i can't find my hairdressing comb!! And i'm supposed to cut my mother in laws hair today... ::sighs again::

How do you let go of the past?

phoenix1081 — Tue, 27 Dec 2005 19:18:10 GMT

Hello!

Hope you all had a wonderful holiday! (I know it's not over quite yet!)

bodpod thanks for the e-card hun! it was lovely! Sorry for not sending you one... um...i have no decent excuses...;)

How does the past still have so much power over me? I mean it was almost nine years ago, and it's still painful...

I've just found out that my ex cheated on me, i mean i know that he cheated a couple of times, but i just found out that it happened more times then i knew! Alright, he was 16-17, he obviously needed to play the field more... I can understand that! I needed to try more then one guy when i reached that age... but i don't understand the need for continuous cheating! If he needed his space, why not tell me and end things instead?

There was a point in our relationship where he said that he was hanging out with a friend from his college once a week, and me being the type of person that believes in spending time with friends, didn't think anything of it, now i've just found out that was mostly a lie...

::sighs:: I wanted to cry! It just hurt that he obviously didn't care for me as much as he always said he did! And i was stupid and naive enough to fool for it!

So, my question is, how do i completely let go of it all? How can i get to the point where, if he slips up again i won't feel like i've been betrayed? He's supposed to be a friend, i've known him for 12 years (in a couple of months), I was in a relationship with him for almost four of those years... He was my first in everything... my first love, my first lover, the first person to get me pregnant (i had an abortion, i was 13) I thought he cared for me, maybe even loved me... Now i realise that i never really knew him at all! Oh god! I was really naive! ::hides in shame::

This needs to end! Now! I really need to know how to let go of all this completely! How do i get him out of my heart?

::sighs::

Please, if you can help, i'd really appreciate it!

Thanks! ::Huggles f'list::

I need help (Women Only)

phoenix1081 — Tue, 29 Nov 2005 22:38:42 GMT

As most of you know, i have just had a baby girl! Because of that, i am extremely fertile...

I need help, i need which type of contraception i should use...

My doctor's trying to push me into using the Coil... I'm not to sure about this, as i know of people that have used it and still gotten pregnant!

I can't take the pill, as i forget about them, i'm not to sure about the Depo injection, due to last time i was on it i gain almost three stone. I need something that causes as little weight gain as possible...

::sigh:: I really want to be sterilised...but my doctor said there's no chance of that happening, apparently i'm too young!

So, i would really appreciate it if someone could help out! Please!

Thankyou,

phoenix1081 — Wed, 09 Nov 2005 08:58:28 GMT

Well, the funeral's today!

I've been handling it alright till last night! And while thinking of everything that we've got to do today, it finally hit me, you know? That today is my best friend/sister's funeral... (she's not really my sister, but feels like it! I've known her and been really good friends with her for so long!)

I'm not gonna be able to call her anymore, she's never seen going to see or hold Jamie at all or see the girls grow up! She's missing out on so much... Her daughter for instance... ::shakes head:: Poor lil girl, she's only three!

::sigh::

::Sigh::Wipes eyes::

phoenix1081 — Sat, 05 Nov 2005 12:46:27 GMT

Happy Birthday Doe

Love and miss you sweetheart! ::smiles sadly::

phoenix1081 — Thu, 03 Nov 2005 16:13:12 GMT

Just wanted to say a huge thankyou to everyone who congratulated me on the birth of Jamie Ann.

It was lovely to read all of your comments! And made me smile, so thankyou!

I will post more kiddie pics, just with everything going on at the moment, it'll be in a few days or so...

Again thankyou!

::Hugs f'list::

::Cries:: Donna, I miss you sweetheart! I love you, hun!!

phoenix1081 — Wed, 02 Nov 2005 20:10:49 GMT

My best friend, my only true friend, died on monday!

She was almost 24, would've been on Saturday!

Why did it have to be her???

Some of you may remember me mentioning that my best friend was diagnosed with Bowel Cancer after being told that it was piles for about nine months... Since January, Donna has been through so much! She had both radiotherapy and Chemo... even had to have surgery to remove the rest of the cancer that was still there at the end of all the treatment...

She was in so much pain for over a year with everything, she went through so much! And for what?? A few extra months?? Yeah, alright we got to have about six months more, but in the long run was it worth all the pain?

God, I miss her sooo much!!

~Doe,

I love you sweetheart, so much! I'm sorry i wasn't able to help you more. If i could've taken the pain away, i would've! Anything that would've helped you, i would've done it! Please just always remember that i love you and miss you so much! I hope your alright and peaceful where you are! And please, give Joanna and James a kiss for me! ::smiles::

I'll make sure the girls know who you are and how much you loved them! And just know how much you are truly loved!

Goodbye for now Sweetheart!~

Guess what??

phoenix1081 — Wed, 05 Oct 2005 13:08:11 GMT

Just wanted to inform all of you that I went into labour Sunday...

I now have two Wonderful daughters!

My baby girl was born at 01:37 Monday morning and weighed 9lbs 2oz... We decided to name her Jamie, which as some of you know i like to shorten names... So I call her Jay or JJ's... ::smiles::

Jamie Ann

::is happy::

::gonna cuddle the baby::

Bye for now..

Pic update! :)

phoenix1081 — Sat, 20 Aug 2005 10:53:00 GMT

Right, i promised you pics of Willow...

I haven't changed except outwards! lol. So no pics of me today! ::laughs::

Willow

More Willow

And even more Willow

And i've also added one of my...

Stepkids

There we are! Pics!

Hope you all enjoyed! ::smiles::

phoenix1081 — Thu, 18 Aug 2005 09:51:08 GMT

Good morning all!

Yes, i'm still alive! lol.

Things have been really hectic... ::sigh:: Benefit payment people are such a pain in the arse!

For those of you whom maybe curious, i am now almost 33 weeks pregnant, and i really don't think i'm gonna go to term... Baby's too impatient... I'm already getting pressure pains, and the doctor thinks the baby might be slipping in and out of my pelvis already...

I also need new furniture before the baby arrives, and that can't happen till i get the grant that i'm entitled too!

Willow's growing up soooo fast!! She's getting sooo tall!! And although she's still not talking properly, we're able to understand her more now... She's such a wonderful child (when she's not whinging, lol).

I'll post pics of her later...

bye for now...

::huggles::

phoenix1081 — Sun, 10 Jul 2005 10:17:18 GMT

To those of you that may have wondered...

I alright! :) Thankyou for wondering and i apologise for worrying you and not checking in sooner!

We are good! Was nowhere near the blasts, in fact we live about 10 miles from where the accidents occurred, and were safely indoors all day long!

Again, i thankyou foy your concern...

Sorry!

::Huggles f'list::

SFA Notice!

phoenix1081 — Sun, 19 Jun 2005 17:06:02 GMT

Hey!

Just wanted to let you all know that Spuffy Fantasy has moved! And is no longer a '.com' address, it now has a '.net' addy.

So, the new address is www.spuffyfantasy.net, So we have not gone completely!

We also have a new poll up at the site to decide a new layout! We need you to vote, please... Thanks!

We would also like the authors to get in touch with us, please!

Hopefully, we'll be back on track with updates again very soon!

Thankyou,

Charlene (SFA)

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

phoenix1081 — Wed, 25 May 2005 15:03:32 GMT

OMG!!!!!!

I'm soooooo happy right now!!!! We WON!!!!!! Liverpool's brought the cup back home!!!

This is the only time i feel this happy/excited...(enter 'happiness' words here...). I've named this feeling 'Football Happiness'! :)

This is unbelievable! i really wasn't holding out much hope at half time, but they did it! OMGOMGOMG!!

(I apologise for the shouting and over use of the exclamation mark!) ;)

Squeeeeee!! ::giggles::

P.S, When i said they brought the cup back home, i must state that i am not from Liverpool! Just that i'm over the moon that it's in their trophy case! ::smiles brightly::

Help!!!!

phoenix1081 — Wed, 06 Apr 2005 12:22:29 GMT

Does anyone know where i can get a copy of Cool Money from? I've tried downloading from Buffy.nu, but there's not enough sources for it to work properly...

Does anyone have any ideas? At all???

::Huggles f'list::

Spam time!

phoenix1081 — Mon, 28 Mar 2005 14:58:36 GMT

My 15 year old sister asked me to make a flat Scoubidou as a braclet for her! I'm hooked, they're wicked! I want more...

(For those of you that haven't a foggest what the hell i'm babbling about, they're plastic string type things. And can be made into lots of things...)

I love my sis for introducing me to new teen crazes...

::Nods::

phoenix1081 — Mon, 21 Mar 2005 16:40:49 GMT

Hi, Just a quick drive by before bed to wish stevefarrell a happy birthday, since it's after midnight here and all!

Happy Birthday MBB!!!

I hope it's a good one!

::Huggles:: & Luv ya!

Toot Toot, Chugga Chugga, Big Red Car!

phoenix1081 — Fri, 18 Mar 2005 14:11:07 GMT

Quiz gacked from whenbuffysmiles

The One True Slayer
90 Bites of Slayage

Damn. Not only have you died twice doing what you do, but no one understands your burden and you find yourself disturbingly attracted to vampires. You are the ultimate repository of what it takes to be the Slayer, and no one can tell you otherwise. If you don't own all seven seasons on DVD, it's cause they haven't been released in your country yet. I am in total awe of you, and maybe just the tiniest bit creeped out.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 88% on bites

Link: The Ultimate Buffy Test written by Iguanita41 on Ok Cupid

Hey all! Long time no see, I know!

Just wanted to drop by to thank whenbuffysmiles for the birthday wishes at the beginning of the month! (Sorry for the delay in proper thankage... ::smiles sheepishly::)

K, life update... Not much has happened really, still going to the hospital regularly to see my friend, who now has been told that even with treatment, she has about 2 years left to live! Things are going so slowly for the poor girl! She's been told that she's got another 8 weeks in hospital before they're even thinking of letting her come home!

Also found out i'm about 8 weeks pregnant! And keep having really bad stomach pains... been to the hospital about it, was told it could either be an infection or it's possible that i may have a cyst on one of my overies... ::sighs:: I'm really beginning to hate hospitals!!!

In other uninteresting news, I've found out Willow loves 'The Wiggles'! Makes me watch the DVD at least twice daily... lol! I've practically learnt all the songs! Sad, I know...

Anyway, i think that's me done for now!

::Huggles f'list::

Oh god... ::sobs::

phoenix1081 — Tue, 25 Jan 2005 13:40:43 GMT

Have I ever told you of a friend of mine that I have known for just over 11 years?

She is 23 years old, has a daughter who is almost 3, and has been living with Kidney problems since she was 5! By the age of 10 (I think) she was down to only having one kidney left...

4-5 months ago, she was told that her remaining kidney has failed! Apparently, it was to be expected to a certain degree... Almost 4 months ago she had to have tubes attached to a vain in the right side of her chest (just above her breast) to start having dialysis treatment.

Then last month, a couple of weeks before christmas, the tubes stopped working, meaning that they had to be removed and she had to have surgery to have new tubes attached to the left side of her chest... (she had to have the surgery on the wednesday before christmas!).

9 months ago, she was in excruciating pain with her bottom. She went to A&E and was told it was just piles, and that it would clear up soon. Over the past 9 months, she kept going back to A&E saying that the pain isn't getting any better...

About 2 months ago, she was told that she had a cyst on her inside thigh.

The cyst was finally removed just over a week ago, with biopsies taken! We didn't know what they were looking for or at. But we assumed and hoped that they had finally got round to sorting out her piles...

On Wednesday just gone (the 19th), she had to go back into theater to have, what was left of her cyst cleaned up, and another biopsy taken.

Last friday, she had to have a CT scan taken, for reasons i'm not too sure of. It was then, while talking to her doctor that we were finally told that there was no sign at all of piles, but we had to wait until all of the results came back together to find out what was going on.

The results came back today! And it was today that she found out that she has got Bowel Cancer!

::sobs::sniffs::

Hasn't see gone through enough? Do the PTB's really like to cause one single person so much pain and suffering? Why?

I just don't understand any of this at all! Am I going to lose my best friend? The one that's more like a sister to me? This is just so hard!! And it hurts like a bitch!

God, I love her so much! I've tried to spend as much time as possible by her bedside since i found out that she had been hospitalised... I was going to meet her almost every other day at the dialysis hospital, to make sure she got home alright!

And Matt, well he's been wonderful! He's never once questioned me, about my not being there for my family... And my poor lil girl, I miss her so much! I feel like I should be split in half, one half at the hospital with a practically family member and the other half at home with Matt & Wills!

I just don't know what to do... I'm wearing myself out, I have no idea how long i can keep this up, but i do know that i'm gonna try for as long as my friend needs me!

So, i will undoubtedly not be around very often at all! I just hope that the SFA readers will understand why there's no updates... Oh well. My RL is way more important then updating a website at the moment!

::sniffs::