Standing on the Edge

Hee!

2005-10-18T17:06:46Z

Everybody must go out and buy Women's Health magazine so they can catch me in all my camoflaged glory in their Yoga inset.

I'm in a magazine!

perihawk @ 2005-10-16T14:06:00

2005-10-16T18:10:58Z

I've made some improvements on my latest outfit for faire. Including the addition of some trims, a farthingale, and a lace collar, a bit narrower than the lace on the sleeves. I'm thinking of narrowing the collar even more, so it's less overwhelming.

Anyhow,

Whaddya think?

Argh.

2005-10-15T11:16:06Z

We're going to the Ohio Renaissance Festival today, so of course I can't find: my belt, my pretty green hat, or ANY of my pouches.

This is me irritated at myself for my so-called organization. I THOUGHT I'd hunted down all my costuming stuff and stuck it in a very specific drawer, but apparently NOT.

*gnashing of teeth and irritation*

But it's all right, 'cause my mom is going in costume. Because I am brilliant and found A Way.

We're going to Faire! *GLEEEEEEE!!!!!*

perihawk @ 2005-10-13T08:07:00

2005-10-13T15:09:25Z

It's my birthday, and it doesn't suck.

Speaking of,

Happy Birthday, Drea!

Okay, I'm done.

Sheepy goodness.

2005-10-07T18:00:04Z

Your Hair Should Be Blue

Wild, brilliant, and out of control.
You're a risk taker with an eye to the future.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

Kick start, maybe?

2005-10-06T22:17:25Z

I've had this kicking around in my head since we started thinking about doing another Blues Night. I know some of you are on the list for it. I don't want to just post. Don't feel it's right. So I'll post what I have here and get opinions.

The place was nearly empty. The regulars had cleared out in anticipation of this night. Only the employees and a few strays scattered through the room.

It was dark, hazy, as it should be.

A match flared at the bar, touched the tip of a cigarette. She inhaled until her lungs burned, relishing the small pain. She really wasn’t supposed to smoke, her doctors said, but it didn’t make a difference here.

She loved the burn, the stimulus, the menthol tingling in her mouth. Screw what was healthy, what she should be doing. This wasn’t the night for it.

This was a night to dig down into your soul and pull out the pain so everybody else could see. And then smile as you let go, no matter how much it hurt to turn up those lips.

She dressed for it. Spangled slinky satin in forest green clung to curves and hid bulges. She stood and shrugged out of her wrap. Better to go now, before the crowd got bigger, when it would be harder.

She leaned down to whisper into the ear of the piano player. He looked suspiciously like Ray Charles. His hands moved on the piano, pounding out Billie Holiday.

Normally, she didn’t have the voice for something so raw. But special places really made the woman. She pushed back her fall of too-long blond hair and started to sing.

“Ghost of yesterday
Stalking 'round my room
All night long you stay
Walk around profound gloom
When the darkness falls
When I've gone to bed
Weirdly come your calls
Mournfully, scornfully dead

Folly of a love I strangled
Pulsing heart I thought was gone
Gives no peace
Will not cease
Prowling 'round till dawn
Ghost of yesterday
Every night you're here
Whispering away
"Might have been, might have been, oh, my dear"
Foolish heart must pay
Ghost of yesterday
Yesterday.”

Her voice didn’t break on the last word. Good writing and sheer stubborn will prevented it. Instead she went back to her seat at the bar, and took a damaging drag from the mentholated cigarette, to keep her hands from shaking.

Blues Night.

It's not my allergies.

2005-10-03T15:19:19Z

Sore throat, hoarse, post-nasal drip. That could have been written off.

Screaming sore muscles across my back and ribs? Wearing my pull-over and ripping it off in intervals?

Not so much.

Don't have time for this. Going to go drown myself in echinaecea tea. Possibly con parents into juice.

I'm just a wimpy sick person.

perihawk @ 2005-09-23T08:39:00

2005-09-23T12:37:19Z

I know a lot of people are having problems getting onto DALnet. I've set up a channel on Darkmyst for those people. I'm sitting in there, probably be there all day.

Darkmyst has an excellent java client if anyone wants to use it. We'll be on #subcafe.

I'd say something, but I can't cry anymore, I have to work.

WTF, over?

2005-09-13T12:53:00Z

Anybody else hear about this?

What blows me away is that the authorities are protecting them. Stupidity is a defense for cruelty now?

In other news, Paypal needs to get its act together so I can pay for my domain name and everybody can get their webspace back. Now please.

Edit: SFP is back up. Thank you for your patience.

perihawk @ 2005-09-01T18:33:00

2005-09-01T22:34:00Z

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet kymscrazy? Online, in person when she came to visit.
2.~What would you do if you had never met redmonster? Be a lot less entertained.
3.~What do you honestly think of frito_kal? She's cool.
4.~Would or did komera and iamgerg go out? No, and no.
5.~Have you ever liked moonandserpent? Yes.
6.~If dreagoddess died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? I admire her courage in making it through so much school.
7.~Would ashlan and drharper make a good couple? They'd be cute as a button.
8.~Describe foenix in 3 words: Redhead obsessed short.
9.~Do you think girlyskin is hot? Holy crap, yeah.
10.~Would dreagoddess and dexfarkin make a lovely couple? They'd kill eachother inside ten minutes.
11.~What do you think of when you see iamgerg? GERGALANCH!
12.~Tell me something humiliating about drharper: You don't need to know.
13.~Do you know any of reddirtcowboy's family members? No.
14.~What's redmonster's favorite color? Red?
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is jim_smith? 7.
16.~What would you do if hex_16 just professed their undying love for you? Keel over dead.
17.~What language does komera speak? English.
18.~Who is azzinita going out with? She's currently single.
19.~Is fishdoctorpost a boy or a girl? A girl. A CUTE girl.
20.~Would nique and hex_16 make a good couple? Fuck no.
21.~Who do you think aliciam would be great with from this list? .....
22.~When was the last time you talked to girlyskin? It's been YEARS.
23.~What is moonandserpent's favorite band? .....
24.~Does ashlan have any siblings? One brother.
25.~Would you ever date reddirtcowboy? *g* With his wife's permission.
26.~Would you ever date foenix? Too much like a sibling.
27.~Is aliciam single? I think so.
28.~What is redmonster's last name? Not telling you.
29.~What is nique's middle name? Not telling you.
30~What is frito_kal's fantasy? I think it involves carrot cake.
31.~Where does fishdoctorpost live? Illinois.
32.~Would you make out with kymscrazy? *g*
33.~Are redmonster and reddirtcowboy best friends? No.
34.~Does foenix like redmonster? She's a redhead....
35.~How did you meet nique? On the internet. And when I flew up to DreaCon.
36.~Is girlyskin older than you? Yes.
37.~Is dexfarkin the sexiest person alive? He used to think so.

SpiralFire Announcement

2005-08-30T02:14:55Z

Spiralfirepress.com will most likely go down on Thursday until I can get the domain name paid up. If anybody'd like, I can try to figure out how to point there without the domain name.

Note to self.

2005-08-28T13:51:13Z

Read no-one else's reviews of SG Friday. It'll make you happier.

Much love,
Self

Yes, more rants.

2005-08-24T15:40:48Z

This just pisses me off.

Yeah, I don't think kids need to be out randomly firing guns on the street. Or having weapons at all. But even if the lawyer hadn't mentioned the kids developmental problems? He handed the gun to the police wrapped in a banana.

This strikes me as somebody who's watched too much TV and doesn't fully understand that guns are BAD. Yeah, the kid needs legal discipline (as do his parents, but I'm not going there).

What makes that judge think that $250k bail is going to accomplish ANYTHING?

Morons are running this country, I SWEAR.

Edit: Yes, I too am a complete moron. I SWEAR I read that as banana. The whole situation takes on new meaning without the banana......

Going to crawl into an embarrassed hole now.

Birthday wishes.

2005-08-24T13:26:16Z

Happiest of them to my favorite Canadian alcoholic.

There'd be more, but I'm at work.

Guh, if only.

2005-08-24T13:20:30Z

Pure Nerd
56 % Nerd, 30% Geek, 39% Dork

For The Record: A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia. A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one. A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions. You scored better than half in all Nerd, earning you the title of: Pure Nerd. The times, they are a-changing. It used to be that being exceptionally smart led to being unpopular, which would ultimately lead to picking up all of the traits and tendences associated with the "dork." No-longer. Being smart isn't as socially crippling as it once was, and even more so as you get older: eventually being a Pure Nerd will likely be replaced with the following label: Purely Successful. Congratulations!

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 47% on nerdiness

You scored higher than 35% on geekosity

You scored higher than 71% on dork points

Link: The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test written by donathos on Ok Cupid

perihawk @ 2005-08-18T19:14:00

2005-08-18T23:14:10Z

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet xianghua? At a dog show.
2.~What would you do if you had never met frito_kal? Not have enough carrot cake jokes.
3.~What do you honestly think of beverly_mcintyr? BESTEST BETA READER IN THE WORLD.
4.~Would or did heatherly and gilda_slice go out? They would.
5.~Have you ever liked meajur? Always.
6.~If mice died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? Your humor makes my day.
7.~Would iamgerg and trishalynn make a good couple? No.
8.~Describe mike_smith in 3 words: Super Geek Chemist.
9.~Do you think fishdoctorpost is hot? ....very.
10.~Would mice and lytarules make a lovely couple? Nah.
11.~What do you think of when you see gilda_slice? Time for the Funneh.
12.~Tell me something humiliating about trishalynn: She has an ass icon.
13.~Do you know any of lyssie's family members? Yes.
14.~What's firesignwriter's favorite color? No.
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is happy_goth? 10.
16.~What would you do if threnody just professed their undying love for you? Wonder when she decided to be social/sexual.
17.~What language does heatherly speak? English? Some African music languages, I think.
18.~Who is buttercup_ going out with? I think she's single.
19.~Is goingpublic a boy or a girl? Yes.
20.~Would nute and threnody make a good couple? Hell no.
21.~Who do you think brucha would be great with from this list? Jim_Smith.
22.~When was the last time you talked to fishdoctorpost? WWC.
23.~What is meajur's favorite band? Yanni.
24.~Does iamgerg have any siblings? Yes.
25.~Would you ever date lyssie? No.
26.~Would you ever date mike_smith? Yes.
27.~Is brucha single? No.
28.~What is firesignwriter's last name? Not telling.
29.~What is nute's middle name? Not telling.
30~What is beverly_mcintyr's fantasy? Longshot.
31.~Where does goingpublic live? East coast.
32.~Would you make out with xianghua? No.
33.~Are frito_kal and lyssie best friends? No.
34.~Does mike_smith like firesignwriter? Dunno.
35.~How did you meet nute? At SouthernCon, after he drove A Long Time.
36.~Is fishdoctorpost older than you? Yes.
37.~Is lytarules the sexiest person alive? Can't remember.

perihawk @ 2005-08-15T16:39:00

2005-08-15T20:30:58Z

Way back when I first started learning about eukaryot and prokaryot cells, I determined one of the theories of evolution. I looked at the differences between different types of prokaryotic cells and compared them to the organelles of eukaryotic cells. The similarities in shape and function was just logical. Eukaryotic cells evolved of multiple prokaryotic cells. It probably started out as an afternoon snack, then turned into a symbiotic relationship where the cells were stronger together, and thus survived longer and reproduced more.

That's the way evolution works. Things in nature decide that life could be better, and start popping out experiments until one succeeds. Then they keep making that adjustment on the newer models.

Evolution has challenged and strengthened my faith. Maybe the fact that I'm not Christian, and I don't take bible myths literally contributed to that. But this is another case of “I don't understand.”

I don't understand how people can take something with such a strong case, like evolution, and throw it out the window because it doesn't fit stories that were made up more than four thousand years ago.

Phrasing will improve when I'm not at work.

Trying to understand.

2005-08-14T15:27:48Z

So, I was perusing Adelphia, and I came across this article.

Then, two months later, came what she considered to
be a disturbingly placid meeting with President Bush. While she found
him to be a "man of faith," she also said later that he seemed "totally
disconnected from humanity and reality." And when she later heard him
speak of soldiers' deaths as "noble," Sheehan felt she had to do
something.

"To be perfectly honest, I think it is disgraceful,"
said bookkeeper Diana Kraft of Vacaville, whose son is in the Navy. "I
don't know the loss she's feeling to lose a son because, thank
goodness, I haven't had that, but we're in this war and we have to
support the troops."

Disgraceful? Yeah, it's so easy to dismiss death when it doens't touch you. When it's across the globe. It's a noble death when you aren't in danger, none of your loved ones are in danger, but you're out fighting a war for people that don't really want you there. When it's not someone you know.

For the record, here's what she said she wants to
tell him: "I would say, 'What is the noble cause my son died for?' And
I would say if the cause is so noble has he encouraged his daughters to
enlist? And I would be asking him to quit using Casey's sacrifice to
justify continued killing, and to use Casey's sacrifice to promote
peace."

Every time I hear one of those country singers going on about how it's so great to make it to Arlington Cemetary, or how their dad lost his eye in the Army (basic training accident), I want to scream. Have they been there? Have any of them served, take that risk?

How many veterans are in these protests? People who've seen, who know?

I know I'm not making any sense at all, it's just too upsetting for me. My sister's fiance lost his best friend a few weeks ago. My cousin is in Iraq right now. I spent 6 months in Kuwait at the very beginning of the war. To my eyes, it's completely pointless. I know war can sometimes boost the economy, boost country morale. That's just a fact of human nature and economy.

But it doesn't seem to be working.

And I'm tired of people dying for a man who just doesn't understand reality.

Thoughts on the news.

2005-08-10T14:30:09Z

Iran and its nuclear program has been in the news a lot lately. Along side all sorts of heehawing and threats should they develop weapons et al.

And if you think about it, you have to remember that nuclear power is one of the most efficient types available. You get a whole lot of power out of very little product. For a country that just knows it has a lack of energy, nuclear power is an excellent option.

If UN countries are so all-fired against Iran using nuclear power, they need to get off their asses and start presenting them with other options. There's a metric assload of them.

But how can we expect countries that don't look beyond their own coal, oil, and nuclear power facilities to think about green energy. This stance on Iran's nuclear is highly hypocritical and stinks of deliberately keeping Iran in the dark. (Literally?) I see in the news, everything US officials say about the country reeks of racism and religious prejudice.

It's irritating.

I wish I knew more about electricity generation so I could put together some sort of report or something on better ways to generate power.

perihawk @ 2005-07-14T11:40:00

2005-07-14T15:40:51Z

Pay attention, I’m only going to explain this once.

Excluding one month, from December of 2003 until June of 2005, I have paid rent. 95% of the time, I paid half or more. For that entire time, I paid phone and internet and TV. Putting together the internet, TV, electric, and rent for the whole two years of the lease, I have paid $200 more than my share as of this moment.

I offered to help them find someone to sublet. They decided they didn’t need anybody. I have done what I could. I was not kidding when I said I have no more to give.

Last month, I took out two payday loans and borrowed money from my parents to pay these bills. I left the phone on until the new one was set up, the bill is being forwarded to me.

I’m leaving you all to your own devices. Email me if you want to know more.

perihawk @ 2005-07-04T14:42:00

2005-07-04T18:42:17Z

Not dead.

facepalm

2005-06-30T18:56:25Z

Instead of packing, I went through and tagged all the SpiralFire posts through February.....

SpiralFire Important Message!

2005-06-30T17:03:02Z

Anybody who is involved in this project! Please let me know if you've received my email regarding the contracts immediately!

Thank you.

As encouragement to myself and others who are attempting to write a publishable novel, I give you How to write a novel in 100 days or less.

There's also The Snowflake Method of Writing.

Re: WWC

2005-06-29T04:47:51Z

To those who've offered rides, THANK YOU. I can't tell you right now if I'll be able to make it. I have to get a job first. It IS the first thing on my list of priorities.

With the job market in the area, it shouldn't be any problem for me to get it secured. Tell me when you need to know by.

I'm going to wash off the stank now.

By order of Kiwi.

2005-06-28T06:56:25Z

If you woke up and we were in bed together, what would your first thought be?

Now post this in your LJ and find out what mine would be.