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request

2014-01-13T08:11:47Z

Does anyone have Lauren Groff's Monsters of Templeton? I could swear it was once posted here but can't find it.

peppermintwords @ 2014-01-13T11:15:00

2014-01-13T05:15:36Z

I think I'm ready to come back to LJ.

peppermintwords @ 2011-12-01T11:41:00

2011-12-01T05:39:37Z

Does anyone have the BBC4 production of Elizabeth Kostova's The Historian? I've looked everywhere but can't find it.

peppermintwords @ 2011-06-29T21:04:00

2011-06-29T14:57:37Z

For some reason, as of late, my life in Manchester no longer really appeals to me. For starters, I was on limited funds (which were at the same time quite generous and I'm grateful to my parents for that...and God). I always had to keep worrying about how much I spent (even though I ended up spending a handsome amount on food and make up) but the nice thing is, I was able to bring back about £ with me. The MA put me through hell, especially the thesis and it didn't help that I had hardly a clear idea at the beginning and sometimes I feel that my advisor should've helped me a bit more to develop my argument when I started. I remember being so freaked out about double-triple checking my references to ensure I had cited everything properly and that was the thing I was most freaked out about. I hated not knowing enough literary theory to engage with in my 1st semester. I remember that I had to read books on Irish postcolonial theory during the winter break and understand it, all on my own...which wasn't an easy task. I still regret...I still feel that I should've put in more effort to do better in the MA...missed the merit for 3 points, basically, and our school wouldn't curve for everyone :(. And then, I don't miss some of the people I did classes with. Sure, I used to hang out with them but one thing that actually hurt me was, when I came back, they didn't answer my messages, even when I was asking them something important. Tbh, I think it's really rude not to get back to someone. You can say you're busy but hey, make time, especially when someone has an important question for you. And this proves that even graduate school cannot teach you good manners.
There are a lot of things, however, that my year in Manchester did teach me. I learnt how to take care of myself and deal with certain problems on my own. I learnt how to cook and take joy in it. I learnt how to use public transport (something I avoid in Bangladesh). Now that I think of it, there are some things I miss about Manchester. I miss the big, clean dorm kitchen. I miss the streets and the Spar beside my dorm. I miss having access to countless academic resources. I miss being able to just go and talk a walk every time my room felt stifling. I miss the high-speed internet. I miss the regular exercise I used to get. I miss the food. I miss the classes and the intellectual discussions, the environment of learning (though I've had to concede that I'm just not that smart).
I miss. And then I don't miss.

peppermintwords @ 2011-05-31T22:25:00

2011-05-31T16:19:38Z

I have been away from LJ for so long that it's not funny. I thought I'd been done with my blogging life (for the time being, at least; I've kept this LJ since 2004) because I simply had no motivation to sit down and make an update. But tonight, out of the blue, I suddenly felt a strange urge to open iJournal and write something. For starters, I'm really hungry. I got take-out food for my in-laws but we're waiting for my father-in-law to return. My husband has fallen asleep beside me (poor guy must be really tired). He injured his foot in a hit-and-run car accident earlier this month. It's been bandaged/plastered ever since. Thank God nothing serious happened and one blessing is that he took a week off first, and then he gets to come home a few hours early :).
My job is going great. The summer semester just began and I'm teaching the same courses that I was last time. In one of my sections, all students, save three or four, are repeating the course. You'd think they'd know some of the answers by now, but no.
Haven't read much fiction as of late but grabbed a copy of Frankenstein last week from Ahmed, who got it from the college library. Only managed to read a few pages so far. But at the moment, I'm actually reading more literary criticism than fiction because I really wanna become a better researcher/academic writer. Just recently, I got an epub version of David Mitchell: Critical Essays as a belated wedding gift from an acquaintance in London (of course I asked for it first and offered to reimburse him but he said that I should just treat him when he comes to visit next month). And then I started reading this book called Neo-Victorianism: The Victorians in the Twenty-First Century, 1999–2009. Has anyone read John Harwood or Diane Setterfield? I'd been looking for essays written on their novels and while this book has discussed the items in questions (first critical writing I found) but I wasn't that satisfied. Wish the sections on these novels had been a bit longer, though I did manage to get some stuff that I didn't before.
I think my father-in-law is here.
I also think (hope) that from now on, God willing, I'll be more regular with updates. I miss LJ, even meaningless entries lol.

from Times of India

2011-03-16T13:39:44Z

LONDON: A snake attacked an Israeli model during a sexy photoshoot by biting into her surgically enhanced breast and later died from silicone poisoning.

Orit Fox, a B-list model and actress initially looked comfortable during the shoot in Tel Aviv, wrapping the massive boa constrictor around her legs, waist and neck while doing her best to look sexy, reports the Daily Mail.

In a figure hugging red and white striped dress, which revealed maximum cleavage, she gamely tried to take their bonding to the next level by licking the snake's face. As she manoeuvered the animal into position for the 'kiss' Fox loosened her grip on its neck, and after being licked the reptile reacted angrily.

It aimed straight for Fox's prized assets and sunk its teeth deep into her left breast. An assistant rushed in to help her pull the snake off and after a few seconds of struggle the creature released its grip. The peroxide-blonde model was rushed to a nearby hospital and given a tetanus shot. However, the snake wasn't so lucky and died from silicone poisoning.

a little note

2011-03-15T14:44:11Z

I really, really, really need to be more regular with updating this journal, and not because it's a chore but because I do want to keep records of my life. I got back from my honeymoon a few weeks ago. Had a lot of fun and it was a very relaxing stay at a 5-star hotel in Cox's Bazar, where you find the longest beach in the world. I'd been there twice earlier but my husband thought that some places were so romantic that he'd want to take his partner there. We would've gone to St Martin, too, a beautiful island near Cox's Bazar but we didn't have the time. I haven't uploaded the pics on facebook yet but for those of you who are on my FB list, you can see my wedding pics, which are up :).
And then I had a breast cancer/tumor scare, having found multiple lumps. Fortunately the doctors said the growths were benign and they happen for hormonal reasons.
There's something that's been disturbing me a lot as of late - the "natural disasters" taking place in some countries. What happened in Japan was really sad and it didn't help matters for me that my husband had made me watch 2012 just before the disaster took place. It made me recall, all of a sudden, something that Hamza Yusuf said - there's no such thing as natural disasters, it's all the punishment of God. My own country is a risk zone when it comes to such disasters. We often have floods, though in my knowledge, cities are not that much affected. We've known for a few years now that Bangladesh is in the earthquake risk zone and a bad one might happen, but naturally, no one knows when. The present government is doing certain things that many of us can't agree with, taking many moves that go against our religion and ethics. One recent thing they've done is making fatwas illegal. For those who don't know what a fatwa is, it's a ruling passed in Islamic law. And contrary to what a lot of people may think, a fatwa isn't (just) a death sentence - it's about whether something is lawful or not in Shariah. They can be matters like, is it ok to consume gelatine? Then the government wants to remove (maybe they've already done it) the name of God at the beginning of our constitution, saying that they do not want our nation to have an religious bias. While we're a nation with a Muslim majority, there is absolutely no reason in Islam or our constitution that religious minorites should be abused. It's something that Islam forbids as the Prophet Mohammed (pbuh) said that should any of us torment religious minorities, he would ask God to pass judgement on their behalf against us on the Last Day.
Recently, our government has been spending unimaginable amounts of money to bring Indian stars to perform in Bangladesh. Honestly, I was shocked when I heard about the figure they were willing to spend for some Indian stars to sing and dance in a ceremony on our independence day. I'm sure many Bangladeshis' first question was, Do we have that kind of money? So many of our freedom fighters are dying and starving because of the lack of funds and we're bringing in Indian celebrities with ten crore taka!
We need to raise our voice against these absurd and unjust happenings and pray for God's mercy, forgiveness and guidance, for protection from His wrath. God help us and have mercy on us.

peppermintwords @ 2011-02-15T15:21:00

2011-02-15T09:18:47Z

Tired. I'm spending a lot of time in my husband's company (whenever possible, actually, since he works long hours in a bank). For Valentine's Day, we went out to dinner at a restuarant near my dad's place and we ate on the rooftop, which was quite romantic. He presented me with a sapphire ring on white gold. It was something I was supposed to get on my wedding day, actually, but the jewellers couldn't deliver it on time. And then they butchered the design, making it look like a man's ring but never mind.
I got my MA certificate about 10 days ago, which made me happy. But it reminded me of all the hardship and effort spent behind it, and of him.
Seriously, I need to get more regular with this LJ.

peppermintwords @ 2011-02-07T20:06:00

2011-02-07T14:06:20Z

Just a quick update to say that I got married on Friday :). Conjugal life isn't bad. It isn't bad at all ;).

peppermintwords @ 2011-01-31T23:19:00

2011-01-31T17:19:32Z

My fiancé had an accident last week, where a car crashed into his rickshaw, toppling it over on his way to work. He landed about 10 yards away and hurt himself quite a bit, scraped some skin, etc. He had to take the rest of the week off since he couldn't move his neck because his shoulders were really stiff. He's just about recovered now, having gone back to work yesterday.
The big day is approaching fast. I'm questioning myself about a lot of things (as is he), and I'm going through a myriad of emotions that I guess I don't really wanna discuss. What I need the most are your prayers and best wishes on this huge step in my life.

peppermintwords @ 2011-01-21T19:30:00

2011-01-21T13:30:32Z

Wedding is only 2 weeks away. Needless to say, I'm nervous but Shayera tells me that's normal. I wasn't prepared to take such a huge step in my life so soon but as I've surely implied before, my parents couldn't tolerate having me home, couldn't wait to get rid of me. A part of me is looking forward to it but another part is anxious. I'm also nervous because I still haven't received my MA certificate. As I couldn't attend the convocation (which took place on December 16), I asked Student Services to mail it to me but it's been a month. I've e-mailed them twice but no news. I might have to call them next week.
We changed our ISP today. We'd had the old broadband connection since 2002 and when they disconnected us for not having paid the bill for October (which makes no sense), I decided to go for the Wi-Max technology that's much faster and new in Bangladesh. So now, my future husband, me and my older sister have the same ISP.
Feel a cold coming, need to take some medication for that. Perhaps the herbal facial this afternoon was not a good idea.
Peace out, homies.

peppermintwords @ 2011-01-15T17:13:00

2011-01-15T11:13:41Z

Ugh, an update after two weeks! I should start taking my New Year's resolution more seriously. First of all, I quit my stupid job...to go and work in the uni where I did my undergrad :). They starting me off as a part-time lecturer and if things go well for 2 semesters, I'll become a full-time teacher. I did my BA from the top private university in my country so it's very prestigious to be a lecturer there. Things are going well with the betrothed, except for a few fights. I think I do feel fortunate overall since he's a very good human being and I know that many women don't even have that.
I have some students bothering me from the old workplace. One of them wants me to increase her grade, even though she plagiarized a part of her assignment. She didn't take the class test for the course and I told her that I would double the mark for her assignment. Of course at that time, I didn't know that she had plagiarized. I told her today on the phone that her grade wouldn't change and she probably thinks it's unfair because she submitted her assignment early and I shouldn't have marked it so late. Of course that's not the issue, right? Just because you submit it early doesn't mean you have the right to steal.
My wedding is on the 4th. Wish me luck guys, and God willing, you'll have more updates before that :). What do I want for a wedding present? A year's paid time on LJ :p.

peppermintwords @ 2010-12-03T22:24:00

2010-12-03T16:23:56Z

I really need to update this more often. Will be very brief - am getting married next February. Not sure how I feel about the guy. Will make detailed entry on this later.

peppermintwords @ 2010-11-15T01:49:00

2010-11-14T19:49:20Z

I've just replied to three comments on a meme I posted 3 years ago. I know I'm late but it did feel good to know and tie those loose strings :). And while doing that, I had the opportunity to read some of my old entries, which, needless to say, took me on a trip down memory lane when I was a very different person and life seemed much simpler. The entries in question are from 2007 when I tried to go abroad for an MA the first time (and was subsequently rejected by all the schools I applied to). I saw some posts where I was depressed and whining. I see myself now, see how much life has changed. For one thing, thank God that I ended up getting the MA, from a much better place than I expected. And I learnt a lot in the last year, met some great people and had a lot of exposure. My days in Manchester - although there were some rough times - were wonderful and they will always be emblazoned in my mind. Honestly, a part of me feels like I've returned empty-handed. I did get my MA degree, though not the merit but that's ok. I went to England hoping to meet my life partner but all I found was Ben, who seemed emotionally unavaible, preferring to hang out with other people. (Not mention the fact that he isn't Muslim.) I thought I'd find a job there. I did not.
However, if there's one thing I've learnt is that the key to success is patience. I might not get Ben, who still lingers on my mind. But I still harbour the hope that I can settle well abroad some day in the near future.
I did some writing today. Actually it's a redux for an original sci-fi short story I wrote in 2006. I was very proud of it then but now I see that it could do with many improvements. Plus, it's kinda for Ben since it has some intertextual references to his play. The trick is to concentrate and I find that hard enough to do. Nawmi says I need a better diet and she's probably right. I've started taking iron supplements. I only need to calm myself now and focus.

peppermintwords @ 2010-11-13T01:41:00

2010-11-12T19:41:29Z

Checked my MA results about 2 hours ago. I'm glad to announce that I have an MA degree and while I received a merit (60) in the thesis, the department, according to their stupid policy, awarded me an overall pass. Having a final average of 59.5%, that makes me quite sad. I know I can say now that I wish I'd worked harder in Contemporary Irish & Scottish Fiction or Key Issues in 20th c Critical Theory. But under those circumstances, I did what I could...tried my best. Still think I should've taken the poetry course instead of bloody stupid Marxism. I don't know if a PhD is in my fate. Most likely isn't.
I'm just depressed now.

Nano

2010-11-03T05:02:32Z

Three days of Nano nearly past and I haven't written a single thing because first of all, I was (and sorta still am) sick, second, have been facing various anxieties. Might give writing a shot tonight.

Nano meme stolen from speaky_bean

2010-10-22T18:15:25Z

Working Title: Bride, inspired by this photo manip.
Genre: Gothic historical (you could probably say historical Irish gothic)
Projected Word Count: 50k is the minimum since that's what's required for the Nano.

AT THE START DO YOU:
Have an outline? I actually planned one a few years ago (back in 2006) when I first participated. I know what happens more or less sequentially but even that doesn't make things easier.
Scene-by-scene? Nope, but chapter-by-chapter. Scene-by-scene actually sounds like a good idea, though.
Know how it starts? Yup – first, with Sylvia Plath's poem “Lorelei,” which is the name of the heroine, then an obituary, then either a diary entry or a third-person omniscient narration.
Know how it ends? Totally. I don't think I've ever written a story where I didn't know what would happen in the end. What fascinates me is finding a way to that end.
Have your climax in order? I guess so, but the climax isn't going to happen until much later and I'm now thinking of plot fillers and the sort.
Know your main characters yet? Yes. First, there's Nathaniel Donoghue, then Lorelei Waterstone, her sister Sarah and their parents...not to mention a scary, suspicious old maid.

IS YOUR WORK GOING TO BE:
Funny? I can't see it being funny as a whole but I suppose I could try incorporating some dark humor.
Serious? Absolutely. The theme of this work is about doomed love and forced marriage/intimacy (not rape), which would fall under lack of agency.
Sad? Yes, towards the end, there will be some tragedy (man, I hate giving spoilers).
Semi-Autobiographical? Somewhat, since the story deals with how you can often feel that you are subject to forces completely out of your control and the real fear of having to settle down with someone you dislike.
Based on another story? It's based on the Greek myth of Philinnion and Mekhates.

HOW MUCH HAVE YOU PLANNED? HAVE YOU USED:
A paper journal? That's where I wrote down the story outline.
Multicolored pens? Nope but that sounds like a good idea.
A computer? Yes.
Index cards? How do you use those?.
Bulleted lists? No!
Plot Charts? What the heck are those?
Character Charts? See above..
Character formulas? Ditto.
Favorite writing resource? I'm not sure I have any.

ODDS AND ENDS:
A line you would like to use: Not sure yet.
A scene you would like to include: A scene in a mausoleum, I would say. Nathan goes to visit the place in order to do some sketches and he steps inside as it is the Waterstone family mausoleum. He will find a heavy sarcophagus that he will be unable to open.
A concept you would like to explore: Love outliving death? No, I would say, male agency as opposed to female agency. Are females more empowered in society or do men have their moments of helplessness, too?
A cliché you would like to avoid: Necrophilia.
A character you would like to use: An artist who loves to do landscapes!

FORWARD THINKING:
Do you expect to be able to complete it? God, I hope so.
Do you intend to complete it? Why not?
Would you ever try to publish it? Totally, I even decided which independent publishers I'd like to send the manuscript to.
What do you expect to get out of this month of frantic writing? The first draft of a finished original novel, something I can actually take credit for (as opposed to fanfiction).

peppermintwords @ 2010-10-21T02:24:00

2010-10-20T20:23:34Z

I want a paid account.

peppermintwords @ 2010-10-08T01:00:00

2010-10-07T19:00:05Z

The boy is finally on facebook and on my friends list there. Needless to say, I am very pleased about this :). Delivered my first proper MA lecture today to a group of students. Thought I did ok but it should be better. Jon e-mailed me his thesis a while ago and as I went through it (very briefly), I realized that had I known my argument right at the beginning of the summer, I could've written my own thesis a lot better and avoid much useless/haphazard research. I read some Arendt and Fanon, things I never ended up using since Foucault was my main theorist. Also, I really panicked during the last 10 days before the deadline and thus, I wasted a lot of time and energy :(. I know there's no point in saying this now but I actually wish I had done my thesis on how religion is portrayed (through a secular lens) in Fullmetal Alchemist and Death Note (in the thesis I submitted, I showed how older forms of thoughts are still prevalent in our culture, which seems to reject Foucault's revolutionary ideas). Both the manga deal with religion extensively, portraying it oftentimes in a negative light (perhaps a result of our modern, secularised thinking) and I believe that would have been a far more interesting subject to explore than power, truth and knowledge in Foucaultian terms.
Wish I could write another dissertation (in a good way). Maybe I'll write a really long research paper on this but it'll be hard getting the relevant sources in this stupid country :(.

peppermintwords @ 2010-10-04T15:52:00

2010-10-04T09:51:55Z

Sorry for the late update, been sick for about nearbouts 10 days since arriving in Bangladesh and then I had to run around for interviews. The good news is, I have landed a job in a private university nearby as a lecturer but the pay is kinda crap so I have to look for a better offer. We had a fire in our building last Tuesday but thankfully there was no damage. Also met a suitor last week and turned him down easily. He was impressed with me, but the feeling wasn't mutual. And besides, my heart belongs to someone else ;). Started watching the latest Gossip Girl season. Please do not recycle the Dan/Serena romance, I'm just sick of it. Also, Merlin is as entertaining as ever.

back to the drawing board

2010-09-13T21:26:42Z

I arrived in Bangladesh safely yesterday morning, for which I am grateful. It was nice to see my family in person instead of a web cam after a really long time and the best part was seeing my nephews :). My flight was mostly uneventful and smooth, though the plane took off an hour late from Manchester. My mom called me a few times in the airport on my cell phone and then one last time in the plane about 10-15 minutes before taking off. And that's when, as I looked out at the skies and landscapes of Manchester, that I started crying. I lived in that city for nearly a year but I grew quite attached to it. It was difficult to accept that I was finally leaving, and I don't know if I can ever go back. I cried on and off during the journey to Dubai and slept on the journey to Dhaka. When I came back home, showered and ate, blushingsigh and our older sister started unpacking my suitcase. I looked at all the things I'd brought back, especially the clothes I'd worn in England for the past year and I had to fight back tears.
A part of me still can't accept that I've left Manchester; it's like my heart remains there. The year I spent in England feels like a dream, as though I arrived there only yesterday! And so many things happened in this one year - I had good times, bad times, met some great people :). I think of Hayley, whose ailing aunt has probably passed away by now. I think of Ben. I think of how he held out his arms to me for a hug the last time we met, and that I will quite possibly never see him again. I don't want him to forget me.
Last Wednesday, before I moved out of my dorm to stay with my family friends, I went to the university campus one last time to walk through those familiar streets and briefly browse through the familiar stores to say a final goodbye. I made a special stop at Kro Bar and Contact Theater Café, where he and I had often hung out and had coffee, sometimes just alone and sometimes with our classmates. I looked at the places where we had sat together and chatted, drinking fruit juice or something warm, watching football, listening to music. I thought of when I cooked for him and his friends and when I went to watch his play and rehearsal. Honestly, it feels like only yesterday, a different lifetime. He and I shared some wonderful times that will always remain dear to my heart, if not his.
I tried to call Ben several times during the final twelve days of my stay there but he just refused to pick up! I dialed his number from my family friends' and even before taking off but there was no way that he would answer (which is not only strange but hurtful). I suppose he just doesn't want to be found...or something. He has already forgotten me.
I worry about my thesis but as I said, there's nothing I can do about it now, except pray to God. I try to keep a positive attitude and fill my heart with optimistic thoughts, believing there is indeed a light at the end of the tunnel, God willing.

last night in England

2010-09-12T01:14:42Z

Belated Eid mubarak to the Muslims on my list, hope it went well for you :). I'm at my family friends' now, spending the final night in Manchester, or rather, England. I feel sad naturally. I guess this is my final update from England. WIsh me a safe journey and good MA results!

bittersweet

2010-09-08T14:31:26Z

Just about done with packing and waiting in my room for my family friends to come and pick me up. I'm quite sad to leave everything behind, though I will be in Manchester until Sunday. This is my last LJ update from my dorm room and if I don't get internet access when I move out, my last update in England :).
Take care, everyone.

peppermintwords @ 2010-09-06T00:26:00

2010-09-05T23:19:49Z

So I'm 25 today :).

Never wanna wake up from this night...never gonna forget every single thing you do...

2010-09-05T14:49:15Z

I saw Ben for the last time on Friday. I'd set out to the university to see if I would be able to get a letter testifying that I was a student there. The administrator told me to return on Monday for said letter. Then I made my mom call me as I walked about on campus, taking a final look here and there, filled with memories. I chatted with my mom for quite a long time and then she reminded me that I should've bought some copies of the Quran (with accompanying English translations) to give to my non-Muslim friends here. I'd been meaning to do this for months but I hadn't had the time because of the thesis. Anyway, after that, I walked to Rusholme on an empty stomach (was fasting without sehri that day) and bought two copies of the Quran and some small bottles of perfume. I bought one for Shuman and another for Ben. I knew I'd be seeing Shuman that night 'cause she wanted to come visit me but I was wondering if I would meet Ben. I'd tried calling him a few times but he wouldn't pick up and he didn't answer a text either. I assumed he was still busy with the thesis.
I was slowly walking back, nearing my dorm when I saw him across the street :). Thank God the traffic light stopped because I was then able to reach him fast. We spoke for a few minutes. He'd finished the thesis and was on his way to have it bound. Told him I had something for him and gave him the Book. He was quite pleased to get it. Said it was a nice present and he'd read it. There was a guy on the street selling Lebara SIM cards for cheap international calls and Ben said, "I have a copy of the Quran, I don't need a SIM card!" :D. He's just too sweet. We stopped at the traffic lights; I had to go home and he had to keep on going to the binder's. Asked him if he was free on Saturday and he said he'd let me know. (He never did, btw, but it doesn't matter now. He's in Birmingham by this time and then he should be headed to Portsmouth, I reckon.) Told him that it was nice knowing him and we had good times during the past year :). He held out his arms for a hug but I refused, and he was like, "Oh, right, you can't do that." But I appreciate the gesture :). And then, we parted ways.
That was the last night I saw him.
I've stressed over my thesis even after submitting it because I thought I'd made some errors but it doesn't matter now. I've already handed it in so obviously there isn't anything I can do about it. I tried my best and I'm leaving everything else to God :).
I'm looking back at my entire year with Ben now, filled with bittersweet thought. We truly did have some great times, shared some special moments together. It's a shame that nothing happened between him and me but naturally, I must accept that as God's will. And I firmly believe that His decree can never be wrong (duh).
I will miss the boy. Despite the ups and downs, it was wonderful in its own way :). I still have feelings for him and I still harbor some hope that we meet again soon enough in the near future, under more favorable circumstances and we have a chance to make it work, God willing :).
I've added the lyrics under the cut to a song I'm listening to now, a song that reminds me of Ben. It's called "The Hardest Day" by The Corrs and Alejandro Sanz. Enjoy!

One more day, one last look
Before I leave it all behind
And play the role that's meant for us
That said we'd say goodbye
One more night by your side
Where our dreams collide
And all we have is everything
And there's no pain, there's no hurt
There's no wrong, it's all right
If I promise to believe will you believe
That there's nowhere that we'd rather be?
Nowhere describes where we are
I've no choice, I love you
Leave, love you wave goodbye
And all I ever wanted was to stay
And nothing in this worlds gonna change, change
Never wanna wake up from this night
Never wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
Leaving you, the hardest day of my life
The hardest day of my life
I still breathe, I still eat
And the sun it shines the same as it did yesterday
But there's no warmth, no light
I feel empty inside
But I never will regret a single day
I know it isn't going to go away
What I'm feeling for you
I will always love you
Leave, love you wave goodbye
And all, and all I ever wanted was to stay
Nothing in this world's gonna change...
Never wanna wake up from this night
Never wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
I never knew I'd ever feel this way
I feel for you...
Never wanna wake up, I feel for you, from this night
Never wanna leave this moment
Wanting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
Leaving you, the hardest day of my life...
Never wanna wake up from this night