I Hold You As Dearly As I Can
Title: I Hold You As Dearly As I Can 1/1
Author: why me, silly!
Summary: Patrick has an undiagnosed case of autism and writes a letter to Pete.
Rating: G
Disclaimer: yes, i do not own patrick or peter. (otherwise things would be a lot different!) and this looked a lot longer on word....
A/N: Autism is a mental disabiity where autistic people (depending on the severity) can't connect with other people. They don't like other people that much....ehhh, just go look it up!!
Dear Peter,
There is a spoken bond between us, yet I cannot quite figure it out. You say you love me and I say those same words back to you. Yet, I don't understand. Sometimes I feel like a robot, because I cannot really feel for you as they describe in all of the old movies and stories. I love you. But that is all. I do not feel a burst of happiness when I see you, in fact it is quite the opposite.
You could say that I am a terrible person for saying such things, but honestly, I've never been much of a liar. Sorry. I suppose then that you hate me for teling you this. I find I do not care.
Patrick
There is a spoken bond between us, yet I cannot quite figure it out. You say you love me and I say those same words back to you. Yet, I don't understand. Sometimes I feel like a robot, because I cannot really feel for you as they describe in all of the old movies and stories. I love you. But that is all. I do not feel a burst of happiness when I see you, in fact it is quite the opposite.
You could say that I am a terrible person for saying such things, but honestly, I've never been much of a liar. Sorry. I suppose then that you hate me for teling you this. I find I do not care.
Do not get me wrong Pete, I do love you. I just can't seem to see the end of the world if you left. This might have been caused by all my lonely days during school hours, but I am not sure. I might have come to not rely on anyone.
Sometimes I fear I will die alone. But the other times I wish that is the exact thing that will happen. I cannot explain myself and my reasoning to you, I do not think anybody could.
But what is so wrong with just being together? I like being with you Pete, I don't understand why we have to define why we like being together. Can we not just accept it as something we cannot understand?5
You are gorgeous, clever, sarcastic, logophilic, and the most amazing person I've ever met. Please do not hate me for this, I just can't interpret what this all means.
Love,
Patrick