i (don't) care

ugh.

pachuki — Thu, 18 Sep 2008 19:20:49 GMT

i'm such a hyprocrite.

i know i shouldn't be thinking this.
i know it's too far away to even say something about it.
who knows if we'll get to that point.
but still .. it makes me sad

~~but sometimes i think that.. i won't find anyone else that's as awesome as you.~~

i'm such a big fat hypocrite.

EDIT:
so i has occured to me that my friends are the coolest.
she made me realize that shit happens
and it's normal to plan ahead.
but right now, i can't be all sad about it.
i have to appreciate what i have now,
savour the moment.
a lot can happen in 3 or 4 years
best is to think in the present

ahh ...

pachuki — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 00:43:16 GMT

Today was perfect,
no other words to describe how happy i was to have you hug me again,kiss me again
~~[ you look so sexy in those skinnies ]~~
I'm so happy you're back.
and as you were playing ,
i thought to myself;
i feel like i'm in heaven [ if i believe it or not ]
you're perfect, everything i could ask for and more.
i love you so much, it's not even funny.
you're the best, so talented, so sweet,
you amaze me. i love everything about you,
if i let everything out, it'd probably either squeal, smile madly, or pounce on you all the time.

when he called me last night,
my heartbeat grew faster than it was,
it grew so loud that after i hung up, i could hear it in my ears.
you make me feel a feeling that cannot be put into words,
and no, it's not horny.LMFAO.

attempt 1 to confess: failed.
attempt 2 - friday

dedicated to my lover <3

pachuki — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 04:14:08 GMT

Happy birthday noob :)
although i can't spend it with you,
i'm glad you're spending it with your family in california, cause i know you'll be tons happy :D
i hope you're having a blast there, and i'm excited to see you,
lately i've bee having dreams, pretty weird ones xD, and i miss you terribly.
but i know that wednesday will come soon.
SHIET, i hope you like what i got you, even though i know you know what it is,
since i told you. LMFAO.
anywho, i labez j00 mucho.
and i hope you have an amazing time :)

LAVE,
your noob <3

scar tissue that i wish you saw;

pachuki — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 02:58:59 GMT

so a few days have passed by
and i had no troubles or whatever.
i made my lists.
i wrote in my notebook.
and i'm doing just fine :)
~~otherthan the fact that i could develope diabetes~~
This week is gotta be the week i'm looking forward too the most.
tomorrow : beach
Monday : Jose's birthday / Chu's birthday party
Tuesday: Chu's birthday ! / Jose comes back[ at night though]
Wednesday : ~~Ultra sound~~ seeing Jose :]
Thursday/Friday/ Saturday: no clue, probably going out with noob or Chu

but this week is going to be sweet.
and i still gotta make plans to see others before its too late and
BAM. school is here, or should i say hell?

ahh .. i hope i don't edit with something bad happening :[
don't want my good mood to go to waste now.

OH, and before i forget.
i'm uber sad, seeing that i wont be able to get everything i want on my list of things to buy before my brother comes back.
aka:
those are my number one things to buy (Y)
Camp Rock Blanket
Camp Rock Sippy Cup
Tokidoki bag

Camp Rock the actual MOVIE. ;(
A Little bit Longer [ uber sad ]
That UO shirt that i wanted... :(
Sunglasses that i found. IN BLUE AND PINK :D [ fake raybans] HAAAY.

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pachuki — Fri, 15 Aug 2008 04:39:57 GMT

Potential risk for diabetes: high

" EAT RIGHT BITCH " - Cee LOL
yess, i will... try *whitsles*

okay but seriously.
i gotta watch it now,
i laugh how right after i see the results of my blood.
i buy myself a bag of cherry blasters.
LAWLZ

also,
i have to get an ultra sound for ma OVARIES
since i have the shittiest cramps.
not coo'

i gotta watch ma self. :(

Hmm..

pachuki — Wed, 13 Aug 2008 17:06:06 GMT

okay, so i got one confession down,
cause he couldnt bare to wait til next week.
so i only told him one.
now.. if i can only remember the others...
i should start to write things down o_o;

betcha didn't know?

pachuki — Tue, 12 Aug 2008 03:16:27 GMT

betcha didn't know that i woke up to a trail of dried blood falling down my face this morning?

yeah... i don't know what happened. but i wanted to barf.
the bloodline chipped and started to fall onto my drawer.
nts; never work with blood in future career
anywho, it came from the top of my forehead,
but i see no cut.
so i don't know... maybe i scratched myself?
but it was disgusting x_x

pachuki — Fri, 08 Aug 2008 04:54:06 GMT

i'm straightening everything out when you come back.
i hope you'll listen.
and when you said ' no secrets ', you asked for it.
cause i got a lot of stuff on my mind waiting to rant.
and i need you to hug me and tell me it's alright.