Musings of a Wandering Warrior

wow this thing is still here

2016-11-18T17:34:01Z

it has been ages and I just randomly clicked the link in my favorites and this is still here
and still working.

so mayve I will use it again, not sure who is here anymore but whatever.
life is veru odd at the moment, I have had a problem with my back for a couple of months and yesterday got injections to try and relieve the pain.
up to the point it flared up I had b een doing well on the pokemon diet, cut out most all carbs, was walking 5 to 10 kms per day, dropping weight like a madman. and then the pain, sciatica is not something that is at all forgiving. it cripples me, I can work as long as I am sitting on a heating pad, I can drive as the seat in the car provides that same function. but beyond that movement is limited.
the shots do not seem to have really eliminated the pain, its not as bad but still there.
hopefully that will improve or it will be surgery next.
I find that I am missing things in my life, I live alone, which some would say is a glorious state of being. I miss people around me, I miss human contact, I miss just hearing someone else in the house somewhere. Johnny is good but he stays in his room for the most part and I only see him on bathroom trips and when he comes or goes.
maybe more later, I need to think

this night is dark

2013-12-06T04:40:49Z

and as the nights continue to be dark it gets hard to keep focus
I lay in bed today watching the grey skies out my window
all I wanted to do was crawl further under the covers
and hunch into a smaller ball
I feel as if there is nothing I can do
the phone never rings
the door is not knocked upon
the list of people who I come in contact with dwindles
lights extinguish one by one
soon darkness inherits the land

stabby stabby stabby

2013-11-18T22:15:46Z

There are days I just hate my life
I look at all the stupid choices I have made over the years
The lost opportunities
The wrong place wrong time happenstance
The willful bad mistakes
There are days I sit on the edge of the bed when I should be getting up for work and just wonder who would truly miss me when I’m gone
That if it were over the pain I feel daily would be done
It’s not a good solution but it is a solution and then has great temptation
The pangs of loneliness rip through me causing tears to run down my face
And there is no one to notice
It could be days after I do this that anyone even starts to wonder
Most of the time there is no joy, no touch, no warmth.
I can go days without speaking to anyone beyond work
Weeks without touching another human being
Years without intimate contact
They say the pain gets easier and it gets better
They lie
It does not get better
It stays bad or gets worse
Today while working I spaced for a few minutes during lecture and the students wondered if I had a stroke
I wish I had
I wish I got something that killed my brain and body so that it would just be over.

So Lets see an update shall we?

2010-09-27T19:55:28Z

So where is out intrepid hero?
This week I am in the office in Denver.
I dont spend a lot of time out here, just a week or two a month is the plan.
The rest of the time will be on the road or working from home.

Home,
Well Mel and I are still roommates and have not killed each other yet.
In fact we are getting ready to move to a new place.
renting a house next to Framingham State College, 4 bed room with space
for a home office for me, a spot for a carving garage and even a forge.
Also space for her to do her massage stuff.

Faire stuff,
I went to KRF on opening weekend and bittersweet is the appropriate word.
so many that I remember are not there anymore
so many i remember that are still there.
it has changed and it is still the same.

other than that I am just getting along, day at a time type of thing.

once I have the address to the new place it will be available.

and because I will have a decent size place, the Yule Party is back on.

Second week of workinig at home

2010-09-20T16:35:08Z

So I have been working for the new company since labor day.
one week in denver followed by now two weeks at home.
I find this to be both odd and difficult.
I am looking for interaction with other people.
and there really is none here.
Cats unlike dogs are really not good companions, they seem to like sleeping all day and only interacting at the middle of the night.

Oh Lord God

2010-07-08T05:42:33Z

Is there no help for hte widows son.

I have a friend in great distress.
Contact me

williamlchapman@yahoo.com

Looking for suggestions

2009-10-08T20:40:06Z

for my new company name.
I am going to be doing training, consulting, presentation coaching for executives.
any suggestions, as just being the Evil Duke is going to communicate a negative perceptions.

thanks
Bill

Stae of the State

2009-09-09T23:51:46Z

So I have been "unemployed for one week"
I have re-done the resume
I have had phone interviews
I have more set up
I have talked to lots of people at MS about partnership opportunities
I have Courses headed for the Courseware library as we speak
Opportunities abound
I am mostly packed in the apartement, and am moving back to the house in Florida
I will start the drive of the y'allhaul and drive east until I am too tired, pull over into a truck stop, sleep until I wake and repeat until I am in Riverview.
I am hoping three to 4 dayas to go from one corner to the other.
I may spend time on the phone calling people to kill the time and set up things
much to be done so that there is a cash flow and more opportunities than i had last week.

So for those of you following along at home

2009-09-03T08:02:49Z

Today was my last day at Microsoft.
Caught up in various re-organizations, such a nice neutral term for it.
I am now figuring out what comes next.

that is all for now

oxma @ 2009-04-20T14:06:00

2009-04-20T18:07:55Z

sometimes the question really is, why bother

Going back to Philly to philly

2009-01-14T11:58:32Z

wait thats completely the wrong direction
I am heading back to seattle today for 6 more weeks apart
the plague from prague is starting to subside but i am anticipating many long hours of discomfort on the plane
and then much work to be done
or rather being seen to be doing work
often a better thing
other than that not much to report of late
other than the Wife is working for the Stuporbowl here in town.
woot and fun

funniest ad ever

2008-11-12T02:13:27Z

Buying a Harley Davidson because it gets 50 MPG
is like using biology to explain sex, accurate but it takes out all the fun

yet another expiriment with vegetable cooking

2008-11-10T18:45:09Z

so this weekend I made a new meal

Modified Chicken Kiev
Take flattened chicken breast(pound flat in a large bag to about 1/4 to 3/8 inch thick)

in a sautee pan,
1 small onion, diced
1 teaspoon minced garlic
1 package (3x6x9) baby spinach chopped fine
1/2 cup cashews chopped fine
melt butter and slowly sautee all ingredients to a moderate paste.

spread paste on flattened chicken

in a seperate bowl,room temperature melt 2 sticks butter and add shredded gorgonzola, shredded meunster, and shredded parmesan and mix thoroughly.
chill again until mostly solid
make good size cannells and roll this on top of spinach inside chicken

floor. egg and bread crumbs onto the rolled chicken

fry lightly in a pan to sear the edges

back at 325 for 25 minutes

mmmmmm

side dish,
shredd 2 apples, and 2 cups carrots
slow cook in some butter, salt and pepper

add at the end of cooking rissotto

mmmmmmm

something mildly different for lunch today

2008-11-03T20:48:03Z

i made a casserole of cheeseburger macaroni
sort of
started with
2 onions chopped fine
table spoon minced garlic (too lazy to mince fresh)
cup of mushrooms shredded
olive oil
salt and pepper

heat this until the aromatics are starting are clear and looking like they might brown soon

add 1.5 lb lean ground beef and brown

add 3 cups water
1.5 cups beef broth
2 cans cheddar cheese soup (I just like it ok?)
1 lb pasta( elbows for me)
2 cups shredded broccoli crowns

bring to a boil
simmer on medium until cooked stirring regularly

then i put it into a casserole dish covered it with grated parmesan and cheddar cheese and cheezy breadcrumbs and baked for 20 minutes to set and solidify.

it is nummy

and it contains 4 vegetables

on a sunday in seattle

2008-10-26T22:19:09Z

its actually a clear and beautiful day out here in the western edge of the world.
today I got to do laundry, clean the apt and make food for the week.
today was making of meatloaf and risotto
the difference is that in the meatloaf were 4 cups of spinach shredded and 2 cups of shredded carrots.
in the risotto was parmesan and shredded cauliflower
look real vegetables in the food

one of the best ads i have seen this year

2008-10-23T21:47:06Z

for Voting for Barack

http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/cc65ed650d

Pod People no more

2008-09-27T01:26:15Z

the pod is emptied and there is now furniture in the house.
not a lot of it but at least some
i need to get a co-ax cable to be able to move the tv to the other side of the living room
and now announcing

The Yule Party 2008

Thats right, its back.
In the state where it should be, Florida.
12/20/2008
If you are a friend and want to come, let us know.

Bill

home again home again jiggity jog

2008-09-20T12:17:38Z

that is all

I'm leaving on a jet plane

2008-09-19T11:30:52Z

on my way to TPA
and then three weeks in Florida with wife
there is a trip to the mouse
furniture to unload
lawns to mow
looking forward to it all

oxma @ 2008-09-13T23:54:00

2008-09-14T06:55:37Z

3 hours of ironing later
it is all done and i have a closet full of nicely pressed or starched shirts
always a good feeling
and today has been about 12 hours of cleaning work
in a small apartment
it seems a bit much

saturday tasks

2008-09-13T23:15:02Z

lists of errands for a saturday

1. get car
2. pay mechanic to fix bike
3. laundry
a. clothes
b. pillows
c. comforter
d. couch cushion
3. bleach whites
4. clean bathroom
5. clean kitchen
6. run dishwasher
7. vacuum
8. woolite clean kermit couch until it is green again
9. woolite floors to remove final traces of lumpy and leo
10. Iron all clothes for closet
11. prep bills for monday paying
12 see two movies in a double feature tonight

all in all a pretty busy day
I am currently up to number 8

Limits

2008-09-04T04:59:55Z

I have been thinking about limits lately.
first the largest limit is that 8 weeks apart is way over the limit
second sometimes you hit a limit and can push through it
tonight was one of those nights
i stopped about half a mile from my office to get gas
spent 5.00 to fill the tank
and then went to start the bike back up
nothing
the battery was fine
but it would not start
so i sat at 148th and Bel-red road and thought
called geico cause i thought i had towing coverage
found out that I did not
but they hooked me up with a tow company
$200.00 for a 4 mile tow
I thought that might be a little outrageous
so i decided to push it home
4.2 miles later I am exhausted
and everything in my body feels like it is made of paste
loose paste at that
but I made it home
and more of that walk is up hill than I care to consider
and in just over 1 hour 40 minutes
which is about 2.5 miles per hour
and now it is bed time
tonight i will sleep well

Writer's Block: Six-Word Story

2008-08-14T14:58:32Z

Sex, never had, never will, Sadness.

I am a bad boy, i brok the law

2008-07-27T05:04:57Z

i rode my scooter after dark
I went over and got a bite to eat with gordo of the aussie contingent
then i rode back
and it was moderatly scary at night on the 520 bridge
and i need to fix my speedometer cable which came disconnected from the back of the panel and the mirrors are loose again
just need to fix it all
and go out to breakfast in the morning

for the first time in 25 years

2008-07-22T21:59:46Z

I passed a driver license written test

of course it was on the computer

and the questions were straight out of the book

and I got a perfect score

lets hope I do as well on the on bike part

I am now authorized as a motorcycle operator in the state of Washington