Changes ...
Morning, folks,
I've been on Live Journal since July of 2002. Long time. :) Ahhh, the days when Xie used to refer to me as one of those "live journal" people. hahaha.
When I started it was a place for me to deal with the demons and monsters in my psyche. Through that time, I've gotten sober, and changed a lot, and gotten a therapist. Of course, in many ways I've remained the same, and still exhibit the occasional insanity. I'm a work in progress, I guess. LOL. At some point, it turned more into a place for fandom, and following all the fabulous creativity that the ladies of QAF exhibit.
I haven't been journalling for a while though. I guess it started some time ago when I got a very nasty comment from a member of the fandom basically telling me to shut up and quit whining. Basically I told her to go fuck herself and to get off my journal, which she promptly did, but ever since then everytime I think about journalling something here, I get shy and withdrawn, so I don't. And the honest truth is that she was mostly right. I did need to quit whining, and get a therapist. ;)
I'm going through some medical stuff now, and will be going through it for the next 6 months to a year, and I wanted to document it and my life while I'm going through it, especially the artistic side of things as a way of grounding myself in healing and not fear. Unfortunately, I haven't felt safe enough to do it here. I know that it's irrational, after all, where exactly is anybody safe on teh interwebs? But I'm going to honor those feelings, rather than just not do anything, as I really need to keep my monsters and demons out of my head over the next year. And honestly, with a few exceptions, I think most of my real life friends would rather I just go away and deal with the stuff, and then come back when I'm all better because it makes them uncomfortable. Even if I am misreading that, I would rather do it that way, as I'm not particularly fond of being weak. If I could just stay in my house for the next nine months, I think I would, and be totally okay with that. But that's probably not the healthiest thing to do, so this is a way to keep a tether into the real (virtual) world.
So, on that note, I've started a new blog called www.yearofcreativehealing.blogspot.com. I like blogspot's interface, as it's much easier to update from multiple computers. I think. The ironic thing is that it's under my full name with my real pictures on it, so it certainly isn't anonymous, which will give me a reason to censor myself to sane levels.
I'll still be lurking here and on Insane Journal of course, and commenting on your journals and stories, on occasion, because that's what I do. You're welcome to read the new blog or not. I'm honestly not writing it to build a readership, but if somebody wants to follow along, hey, I'm down with it. :)
See ya around!
Travis
I've been on Live Journal since July of 2002. Long time. :) Ahhh, the days when Xie used to refer to me as one of those "live journal" people. hahaha.
When I started it was a place for me to deal with the demons and monsters in my psyche. Through that time, I've gotten sober, and changed a lot, and gotten a therapist. Of course, in many ways I've remained the same, and still exhibit the occasional insanity. I'm a work in progress, I guess. LOL. At some point, it turned more into a place for fandom, and following all the fabulous creativity that the ladies of QAF exhibit.
I haven't been journalling for a while though. I guess it started some time ago when I got a very nasty comment from a member of the fandom basically telling me to shut up and quit whining. Basically I told her to go fuck herself and to get off my journal, which she promptly did, but ever since then everytime I think about journalling something here, I get shy and withdrawn, so I don't. And the honest truth is that she was mostly right. I did need to quit whining, and get a therapist. ;)
I'm going through some medical stuff now, and will be going through it for the next 6 months to a year, and I wanted to document it and my life while I'm going through it, especially the artistic side of things as a way of grounding myself in healing and not fear. Unfortunately, I haven't felt safe enough to do it here. I know that it's irrational, after all, where exactly is anybody safe on teh interwebs? But I'm going to honor those feelings, rather than just not do anything, as I really need to keep my monsters and demons out of my head over the next year. And honestly, with a few exceptions, I think most of my real life friends would rather I just go away and deal with the stuff, and then come back when I'm all better because it makes them uncomfortable. Even if I am misreading that, I would rather do it that way, as I'm not particularly fond of being weak. If I could just stay in my house for the next nine months, I think I would, and be totally okay with that. But that's probably not the healthiest thing to do, so this is a way to keep a tether into the real (virtual) world.
So, on that note, I've started a new blog called www.yearofcreativehealing.blogspot.com. I like blogspot's interface, as it's much easier to update from multiple computers. I think. The ironic thing is that it's under my full name with my real pictures on it, so it certainly isn't anonymous, which will give me a reason to censor myself to sane levels.
I'll still be lurking here and on Insane Journal of course, and commenting on your journals and stories, on occasion, because that's what I do. You're welcome to read the new blog or not. I'm honestly not writing it to build a readership, but if somebody wants to follow along, hey, I'm down with it. :)
See ya around!
Travis