Bees and sobriety ...
Greetings, gentle reader,
Well, my house has a nice little beehive in the wall. The landlord is supposed to be relocating them or something today. I guess he's going to be bringing little winged bee moving vans.
I've been working very hard on my shows. Taming of the Shrew goes up on Sunday, which will clear out some more time for me to work on Sherlock Holmes. I'm trying to get all my lines memorized for Holmes, but it's a bit dicey, since I'm at rehearsal every day. However, I get off tonight, and I'm going down to the theater just to work by myself. If I go home, I'll end up logging onto EQ for an hour or two, and I really need to get this other stuff done.
I've been working hard in my new 12-step program. I had a major meltdown a couple of days ago, when I shared about my past. I literally could barely walk. Lots of blinders and rationalizations came down, and I saw certain of my actions of the past in the harsh cold light of truth. I didn't know if I was going to survive. Thankfully, my sponsor talked me through a lot of it, and other people were very supportive of me. I've been doing my best to do what's in front of me, and not question it. As I told my sponsor, I'm going on blind faith that I can get better, and that the lifting of shame and guilt would be nice, but that I would just be happy if I never had to act out again. He said, "Welcome to the low bottoms club". I never did do anything halfway. hehehe.
My sponsor is already trying to teach me how to do nice things for myself that are simple and healing. It's a fairly new concept for myself.
I've got a long way to go, but for today, I'm in harmony with the world, and I feel loved by the Goddess and able to return that love to Her and my fellow beings.
Light and Laughter,
Travis
Well, my house has a nice little beehive in the wall. The landlord is supposed to be relocating them or something today. I guess he's going to be bringing little winged bee moving vans.
I've been working very hard on my shows. Taming of the Shrew goes up on Sunday, which will clear out some more time for me to work on Sherlock Holmes. I'm trying to get all my lines memorized for Holmes, but it's a bit dicey, since I'm at rehearsal every day. However, I get off tonight, and I'm going down to the theater just to work by myself. If I go home, I'll end up logging onto EQ for an hour or two, and I really need to get this other stuff done.
I've been working hard in my new 12-step program. I had a major meltdown a couple of days ago, when I shared about my past. I literally could barely walk. Lots of blinders and rationalizations came down, and I saw certain of my actions of the past in the harsh cold light of truth. I didn't know if I was going to survive. Thankfully, my sponsor talked me through a lot of it, and other people were very supportive of me. I've been doing my best to do what's in front of me, and not question it. As I told my sponsor, I'm going on blind faith that I can get better, and that the lifting of shame and guilt would be nice, but that I would just be happy if I never had to act out again. He said, "Welcome to the low bottoms club". I never did do anything halfway. hehehe.
My sponsor is already trying to teach me how to do nice things for myself that are simple and healing. It's a fairly new concept for myself.
I've got a long way to go, but for today, I'm in harmony with the world, and I feel loved by the Goddess and able to return that love to Her and my fellow beings.
Light and Laughter,
Travis