Good afternoon ...
Hiya, gentle reader,
Well, it's been a couple of days since I've posted.
I went to my first SCA meeting (sexual compulsives anonymous), and felt very comfortable there. Honestly, the whole idea that I have a problem with sex in any form embarrasses me to no end. But, I'm trying very hard to move on in my life, and, as the army puts it, "Be all that I can be!" Also, I want to be the best I can be, and be comfortable in my own skin and with my behavior. And my sexual behavior has held me back for many a year. So, if this is what it takes, this is what I will do.
I hope to find a sponsor soon. Although, my history with AA tells me that it takes a while for me to reach out to people in real life. In the meantime, there is an online site that has a place I can post some of my stuff on it, and read other folks' experience, strength and hope (to quote the program).
I think that if I can find a good recovery program in SCA, the rest of the four things that I have problems with will fall into place. Drugs brought me to my knees pretty quickly, but to be quite honest with you, sex (and my diagnosis with HIV) was what brought me to drugs in the beginning. And when I've slipped in the past, it's been because of sex.
Rehearsals for my shows are in full swing starting today. I've got to be at every single one of them 'til we open, which only gives me Friday off, and then there's memorization in my spare time.
Whew, I'm going to be VERY busy.
Also, for those of you who read this, and don't know, you are welcome to post comments in response to my entries. There's a link called "post comment" or "make notes" or some such at the bottom of each entry.
However, I will warn you that sometimes I'm going to sound like I'm whining. Feel free to read or not read if you see it going in that direction. *wink*
Light and Laughter,
Travis
Well, it's been a couple of days since I've posted.
I went to my first SCA meeting (sexual compulsives anonymous), and felt very comfortable there. Honestly, the whole idea that I have a problem with sex in any form embarrasses me to no end. But, I'm trying very hard to move on in my life, and, as the army puts it, "Be all that I can be!" Also, I want to be the best I can be, and be comfortable in my own skin and with my behavior. And my sexual behavior has held me back for many a year. So, if this is what it takes, this is what I will do.
I hope to find a sponsor soon. Although, my history with AA tells me that it takes a while for me to reach out to people in real life. In the meantime, there is an online site that has a place I can post some of my stuff on it, and read other folks' experience, strength and hope (to quote the program).
I think that if I can find a good recovery program in SCA, the rest of the four things that I have problems with will fall into place. Drugs brought me to my knees pretty quickly, but to be quite honest with you, sex (and my diagnosis with HIV) was what brought me to drugs in the beginning. And when I've slipped in the past, it's been because of sex.
Rehearsals for my shows are in full swing starting today. I've got to be at every single one of them 'til we open, which only gives me Friday off, and then there's memorization in my spare time.
Whew, I'm going to be VERY busy.
Also, for those of you who read this, and don't know, you are welcome to post comments in response to my entries. There's a link called "post comment" or "make notes" or some such at the bottom of each entry.
However, I will warn you that sometimes I'm going to sound like I'm whining. Feel free to read or not read if you see it going in that direction. *wink*
Light and Laughter,
Travis