Even after convincing myself that everything's okay and that I didn't have to worry, things still go wrong.

I was told that ending it then and there would've been the best but... I still hoped things would turn out for the best. And they seemed that way for a while! But..

I don't think I'm meant to be in love or loved that way. That's okay I guess! I mean do I need it? I can survive fine without it, right?

And I guess that friends cut didn't work. I don't have the heart to cut. I feel uncomfortable being honest there. Even after saying what I did back there, I still feel.. anxious about what someone will say.

Oh well :);