A Peaceful Chaos

obvme — Fri, 10 Aug 2007 23:45:56 GMT

My God. I'm glad I didn't just accidentally post my social security number for the entire live journal world to see.

Fricking hell I'm smart sometimes.

obvme — Wed, 04 Jul 2007 08:37:24 GMT

Songs to Burn to CD for Grad Party:

-Panic!
-Emergency
-Whoa
-Dumb Girls
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obvme — Tue, 01 May 2007 21:57:51 GMT

Your Name: Sarah
Famous Music artist/group: Sister Hazel
3 letter word: Spa
Street name: Salina
Color: Sky blue
Gifts/present: Spoons
Vehicle: Ssssss....uhm....Ssssbuick!
Movie: Sweet Home Alabama
Country: Spain
Boy Name: Samuel
Girl Name: Samantha
Alcoholic drink: Screw Driver
Occupation: Singer
Flower: Sweetpea (hah)
Celebrity: Sean Paul
Something found in a kitchen: Spork!
Reason for Being Late: Sleeping late
Something Scary: Serial killers
A Feeling: Sorrow
Animal: Snake
Something you shout: Sweet!

obvme — Thu, 04 Jan 2007 22:12:28 GMT

Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band::
BAND:: Ani DiFranco
Are you male or female:: Joyful Girl
Describe yourself:: Distracted
How do some people feel about you:: Minerva
How do you feel about yourself:: Shrug
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:: Oh My My
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:: Superhero
Describe where you want to be:: Sunday Morning
Describe what you want to be:: Shameless
Describe how you live:: Imperfectly
Describe how you love:: Out of Range
Share a few words of wisdom:: What if No Ones Watching?

obvme — Tue, 12 Dec 2006 00:24:52 GMT

1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Random but I went camping without parents?

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't think I had a New Year's resolution

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not close, but the girl who sits next to Pablo in Economics had a baby last Sunday....

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No.

5. What countries did you visit?
...USA?

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
A part in the Spring show, a dress for Ball that I like, el boy, confidence and two good knees.

7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
So many things! I think Prom was pretty great...and Green Lakes.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
(LAME) Having the strength to ask several different boys to prom, and turn one down.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Quitting Man Who Came To Dinner

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
My knee was a pretty spiffy injury, no?

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Tickets for Spelling Bee and Wedding Singer.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Harsma has grown SOOOOOOOO much in the past year. It's amazing, I'm so proud of her and (if possible) I love her more and more every day.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
EvaS's complete hypocricy from last year kind of pisses me off but the Danielle/Ball situation was the most appalling...

14. Where did most of your money go?
Random crap.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Prom and all of this summer.

16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
Better Together was the prom theme, so that I guess.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter :(.
iii. richer or poorer? Richer!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Homework.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Crying.

20. How will you be spending Christmas Christmukkah?
BORED. I don't like Christmas all that much.

21. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
With my favorite people on the planet :-D.

22. Did you fall in love in 2006?
No.

23. How many one-night stands?
Zero.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Grey's Anatomy, ANTM, One Tree Hill & House! I miss Related though!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No, I hate less people though.

26. What was the best book you read?.
I just finished Honey, Baby, Sweetheart and that was an amazing book. So was the Gospel According to Larry & Godless.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Wedding Singer.

28. What did you want and get?
A friendship with Brian.

29. What did you want and not get?
...the rest of him.

30. What was your favorite film this year?
Step Up!!!

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Party (was that on my birthday?) and I turned 17.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A boy to make out with would be pretty fun...

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
Jeans and hoodies, as always.

34. What kept you sane?
Friends & my mom.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Dunno.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
AIDS.

37. Whom did you miss?
My papa. Always&Forever.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Brian.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
"It is a mistake to think you can solve any major problem just with potatoes."

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

"We've always had time on our side
But now its fading fast
Every second, every moment
We've gotta make it last..."

P.S.
I can walk in three weeks.
I can half walk now.
I got into Caz! (too bad I don't wanna go, but still, yay!)

Oooooh Myyyyyyyyy Goddddddddddddd

obvme — Fri, 08 Dec 2006 23:22:14 GMT

Dear Sarah:
Based on the recommendation of the Long Island University/C.W. Post Campus Admissions Committee, it is my distinct pleasure to inform you that you have been accepted into the freshmen class for the fall of 2007 semester.

I'm GOING TO COLLEGE!!!!!eleven!!!!111!!!!!!!!!!11!

P.S.
I stole this from dismaldamsel who stole it from glitterhips:

Today, Bristol-Myers Squibb, the pharmaceutical monolith that charges nearly $1,000 for a 30 day supply of one of its HIV/AIDS medications, is donating $1 to the National AIDS Fund for each person who simply visits their website and "virtually lights a candle."

Please, please take a minute to "light a candle":

www.lighttounite.com

obvme — Thu, 28 Sep 2006 22:26:29 GMT

Holy Halloween Costume, Batman!

Sarah is going to look sexy for Halloween, no?

obvme — Mon, 31 Jul 2006 23:40:21 GMT

Learn 63 things about your friends, and let them learn 63 things about you! Nothing special will happen if you do, and nothing bad will happen if you dont, but maybe you'll get to know someone better, and they'll care to learn something about you.

1) How old do you wish you were?
I'm perfectly comfy being 17, thank ya very much.

2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
Mr. Crawford's 3rd period Science class.

3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
punch it once or twice, then kick it a few times :)

4) Do you consider yourself kind?
Yes

5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
Someplace that could be hidden.

6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
(In this order)Spanish, French, Italian, sign language.

7) Do you know your neighbors?
..no.

8) What do you consider a vacation?
Being away from home for at LEAST two days.

9) Do you follow your horoscope?
No because it's always wrong.

10) Would you move for the person you loved?
C'est possible pero yo no se.

11) Are you touchy feely?
..sometimes yes sometimes no..

12) Do you believe that opposites attract?
Sometimes.

13) Dream job?
Photographer.

14) Favorite channel(s)
MTV, VH1, Lifetime, Fox, ABC, WB...

15) Favorite place to go on weekends?
Out with friends.

16) Showers or Baths?
Showers everyday, baths when I'm stressed.

17) Do you paint your nails?
If something important is happening like a dance or an event or whatever, then I let it chip off until the next time somethign important happens. :)

18) Do you trust people easily?
..Sometimes not at all and sometimes too easily.

19) What are your phobias?
Feet, thunder, dying alone, failure...the works.

20) Do you want kids?
I think so?

21) Where would you rather be right now?
With friends.

22) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
..uhm..

23) Heavy or light sleeper?
Heavy.

24) Are you paranoid?
Cha

25) Are you impatient?
ChaX2

26) Who can you relate to?
My friends?

27) How do you feel about interracial couples?
Color shouldn't matter.

28) Have you been burned by love?
Not really, no.

29) What's your life motto?
I do not regret the things I have done but those I did not do.

30) What's your main ring tone on your mobile?
Yo no tengo un cellular device.

31) What were you doing at midnight last night?
I don't remember. TV prolly.

32) Who's bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine.

33) What color shirt are you wearing?
Yellow

34) Name three things you have on you at all times:
Keys, lipgloss and camera.

35) What color are your bed sheets?
I don't have bedsheets.

36) How much cash do you have on you right now?
$11

37) What is your favorite part of the chicken?
Uhhh

38) What is your favorite city?
NY

39) I can't wait till:
EVA CASEY COMES HOME :)

40) Who got you to join myspace?
Aubrey.

41) What did you have for dinner last night?
Chicken.

42) How tall are you barefoot?
5'5

43) Have you ever smoked heroin?
Uhhhmm, no.

44) Do you own a gun?
Nope.

45) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Milk.

46) Do you have A.D.D?
Cha.

47) What time did you wake up today?
11:45 ish :)

48) Current worry?
College/Job/Money/back to school/Portfolio.

49) Current hate?
College/Job/Money/back to school/Portfolio.

50) Favorite place to be?
With my friends.

51) Where would you like to travel?
Paris.

52) Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
I have NO idea. Hopefully NYC.

53) Last thing you ate?
Sub.

54) What songs do you sing in the shower?
Nothing usually.

55) Worst injury you've ever had?
My knee.

56) Does someone have a crush on you?
Hah.

57) What is your favorite candy?
Skittles give me hiccips. Which doesn't make them my favorite, but that's the only answer I have :)

58) What song do you want played at your funeral?
Fur Elise. or To Where You Are

59) Do you like music that's not popular?
Yepp.

60) Do you play an instrument?
Nope.

61) What magazines do you read?
Anything Teen girl-ish.

62) Do you have a hamper or do you just throw your clothes on the floor?
Floor :)

TEN EMOTIONS.
1. are you missing someone right now?: Yessssss
2. are you happy: Yes
3. are you talking to anyone right now: Brian.
9. are your parents still married: Nope
10. do you like someone right now: Un poco.

TEN FAVORITES-
1. televison show: Friends
2. flower: Daisies (gerber)
3. color: Green
4. sport: Soccer
5. mall: Carousel?
6. music: 90's
7. food: Chinese!
9. animal: Penguin
10. state: NY?

TEN FACTS.
1. gender: Female
2. hair color: Brunette
3. hair style: Messy bun.
4. height: 5'5
5. eye color: Grey
6. shoe size: 8
7. mood: Tired
8. currently wearing: Jeans and a yellow tank top.
9. available: Single.
10. lefty/righty: Righty.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love: Nope
2. do you believe in love: Sure.
3. why did your last relationship fail: uhmmm.
4. have you ever been heartbroken: Yeah but it was kind of stupid and over dramatic.
5. have you ever broken someone's heart?: Hah.
6. have you ever fallen for your best friend: Si
7. have you ever liked someone but never told them: Cha
8. are you afraid of commitment: Sort of maybe?
9. have you ever kissed someone you liked: Yepp
10.you ever had a secret admirer: Once in 5th grade.

TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT.
1. love or lust: Love
2. manly guys or metro-guys: Manly. I can't stand metros.
3. night or day: Night
4. one night stands or relationships: Relationship
5. television or internet: Internet
6. pepsi or coke: Pepsi
7. wild night out or romantic night in: Romantic Night in.
8. colored pictures or black and white pictures: B&W
9. phone or in person: In Person
10. makeup or no makeup: Depends on the occasion.

TEN HAVE Y0U EVER.
1. have you ever been caught sneaking out: Nope
2. have you ever skinny dipped: Nope
3. have you ever done something you regret: Nope
4. have you ever bungee jumped: Nope
5. have you ever been on a house boat: Nope
6. have you ever finished an entire jumbo jaw breaker: Nope
7. have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurts: Yepp (Iwassooooooooooocool. hah)
8. have you ever been caught by your parents with a hickey: Nope
9. have you ever danced in the rain?: Cha
10. have you ever had a sleep over?: Many times.

obvme — Fri, 28 Jul 2006 06:04:31 GMT

Who has plans March 30th, 2007?
Mmmm yeah, that'd be me. Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

obvme — Tue, 18 Jul 2006 04:17:57 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ed80N20HCuU

amazing

obvme — Mon, 10 Jul 2006 06:19:37 GMT

Hmmmmm. So my room is haunted :)

Around midnight I think, I started hearing this radio-ish noise. I heard it, and got a little freaked out. So I wanted, but nothing happened. So I got distracted by my computer again, and a few minutes later I heard the noise. So I turn off my sound, just to make sure it's not part of the song. And I heard it again. It sounded like someone tuning a radio, and every 20 or so seconds for like 3 minutes it happened. So I got thoroughly terrified and left my room. And about 20 minutes, I heard this toy axe I have make noise. I got a little more scared. And then it did it again. And again. And again. And then constantly for about 10 seconds.

I came into my room, and with the (real) sword my brother gave me, I poked the toy axe (hoping that the censor had just been hitting something since I had moved it this morning) and it stopped. It has been about 30 minutes since it made a noise, so I think the...whatever that was haunting my room is gone. But wow, scary much?

I just find it odd that I was in my room for 2 hours and the axe didn't make any noise, but as soon as that radio thing happened, it flipped out.

I keep looking around. I'm terrified to sleep.

I need to watch less scary movies. I have to be up in like 9 hours. oy vey.

obvme — Tue, 04 Jul 2006 06:26:39 GMT

1.) Put your music player on shuffle
2.) Press forward for each question.
3.) Use the song title as the answer to the question.
4.) NO CHEATING!!!

1.) How am I feeling today?
Bounce

2.) How will i feel getting married?
Then He Kissed Me

3.) What is my best friend's theme song?
Mall of America

4.) Highschool is...
If I never knew you

5.) I am...
Happy (haha. that actually worked)

6.) How is today?
This is How We Do It

7.) What is in store for this week?
He's a Real Nowhere Man

8.) What song describes my parents?
Heaven

9.) How is my life going?
Welcome To The Jungle

10.) What song will they play at your funeral?
MOSH (hahahaha)

11.) How does the world see me?
Perfection Through Silence

12.) My friends think ___ when they see me.
Lean On Me

13) My life is lived.
I've Done Everything For You

14.) This makes me happy....
Fools Fall in Love

15.) What should I do with my life?
Body Mind Soul

16.) I will be happy when...
I'm Ready

17.) What is some good advice?
Taxi Driver

18.) What do I think my current theme song is?
I'm On Fire

19.) What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
I Will Always Love You

20.) The type of men/women i like are...
You Can Be As Loud As The Hell You Want (When You're Making Love)

21.) How will you feel on your wedding day?
Complicated

22.) What should I do with my love life?
Shout

23.) What will your neighborhood be like?
Top of the World

24.) What will your dying words be?
Rum Is For Drinking, Not For Burning (hahaha j'adore le PoC <3)

Hmmm. J'adore ♥

obvme — Tue, 31 Jan 2006 05:35:17 GMT

Best site I've seen in a long time:

http://www.glennferon.com/portfolio1/index.html

Shed's a new light on the media.

obvme — Sat, 28 Jan 2006 18:23:04 GMT

1. WHAT'S THE STORY BEHIND YOUR MYSPACE USERNAME? It was a sn I made when I was 13 I think? It's easy to remember. It stands for something along the lines of "Who is the coolest person ever?" "Obviously me." shush. I'm cool.

2. NAME FIVE [5] OF YOUR FAVORITE PIG-OUT FOODS: Doritoes, chips&salsa, anything chocolate, gummi worms and sunchips.

3. HAVE YOU EVER HAD A MAKEOVER? Not that I can remember?

4. NAME ALL MEMBERS OF THE BEATLES. I hate the beatles. bah.

5. WHAT'S THE LONGEST TIME YOU'VE STAYED OUT OF THE COUNTRY/WHERE? For like a week in the Bahamas

6. ONE THING YOU'RE GRATEFUL FOR, TODAY: Going last night. I needed some 3 musketeers time.

7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HIGH SCHOOL MEMORY? So far....oh gosh....so many....Semiformal this year....laurens party last year....all of ww2...Global/US with Dave <3...NO! OUR TOWN

8. WHAT IS THE MOST INSANE THING YOU'VE DONE FOR/TO YOUR CRUSH THAT HE/SHE MIGHT NOT/MIGHT KNOW ABOUT? I didn't cut my hair for 2 years because he liked it long. So I got pissed off last year and chopped 6 inches off. :)

10. WOULD YOU EVER JOIN A REALITY SHOW? I'd do Beauty and the Geek if it was the other way around and the girls were the losers.

11. NAME THREE [3] TEACHERS YOU LIKED IN HIGH SCHOOL/ELEMENTARY: Mr. Meeny, Mr Moser, Mr. Haines, Mrs. Cross, Miss Stepowany, Mrs. Heil (okay. you said 3 so I named 6..)

13. MY FIRST REAL HEARTBREAK HAPPENED WHEN I WAS: 13 I think. When Susan died.

14. THE SCHOOL PICTURE YOU BURIED IN YOUR BOTTOM DRAWER? anything pre this year. All SO bad!

15. DO YOU HAVE ANY WEIRD PREFERENCES? WHAT ARE THEY? I hate even numbers, so I have to set the microwave to an odd number.

17. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND? EvaC, Aubrey, Erica, Harsma...

18. NAME ONE TV CHARACTER YOU'D MOST WANT TO BE: uhhh. Monica from Friends just because she got her Happily Ever After

19. IF YOU WERE FAMOUS, AND WERE TO BE A GUEST ON A TALK SHOW, WHOSE SHOW WOULD YOU CHOOSE? WHY? Oprah because I respect her and it's the only one I can stand watching. Or the View. Because they rock.

20. DO YOU HAVE ANY WEIRD SLEEPING HABITS? No actually..

21. WHAT DO YOU PLAN TO DO THIS SUMMER? Hopefully all of the following: get a part time job, quite said job, go to Ohio, see Warped Tour twice, volunteer at the Zoo and camp Good Days and Meals on Wheels.

22. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG RIGHT NOW? "The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage" and "There's A Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered Honey. You Just Haven't Figured It Out Yet " by Panic! At the Disco, "Gravel" by Ani DiFranco, "Come Around" by Sister Hazel and "Do you believe in Magic" by The Lovin' Spoonful

25. DO YOU KNOW AT LEAST ONE DISNEY SONG BY HEART? WHICH ONE? I Won't say I'm In love from Hercules, Colors of the Wind from Pocohantas and Make a Man Out of You from Mulan

26. DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM HOUSE: A Penthouse in NYC with very modern taste and then a guest bedroom (at least one) for my mom thats decorated just like she'd want it.

27. YOUR TYPICAL SLEEPWEAR: big teeshirt or tank top and boxers or PJ pants

28. WHAT'S IN YOUR WALLET? uhm money, list of things I want to do before I die and some buisness cards

30. HOW MUCH MONEY DO YOU HAVE IN YOUR WALLET RIGHT NOW? $86. My mom and brother still owe me $40

31. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PAIR OF SHOES? My Sneaks. so comfy.

32. IF YOU COULD'VE GONE TO YOUR SENIOR PROM IN A DIFFERENT OUTFIT, WHAT WOULD IT BE? I haven't gone yet. I know for Junior Prom I wouldn't change my outfit at all since I designed it myself

33. HOW WAS YOUR SENIOR PROM? ....

34. TELL US ABOUT ANY OF YOUR BIRTHDAYS? My birthday this year was AMAZING. Perfect. Seriously. Although last year's party was pretty amazing...

35. WOULD YOU RATHER BE A DWARF, ELF OR HOBBIT? Elf! Never a hobbit because feet creep me out.

36. WHAT ARE THE FIRST FIVE THINGS YOU WOULD SPLURGE ON IF YOU WERE A BILLIONAIRE? a new house, clothes, makeup, get a really good haircut, new shoes, and lots of stuff for my mom.

37. WHAT IS YOUR DAILY BEFORE-GOING-TO-BED RITUAL? change and pass out

38. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST/FUNNIEST NICKNAME ANYONE HAS EVER CALLED YOU? Irish Speckled One. Or Asparaggus. Or Louise. Okay Eva just calls me weird things I guess.

39. NAME THREE [3] OF YOUR FAVORITE CARTOON CHARACTERS: Daria, Goofy, and Dopey

40. WHAT ARE THE MAGAZINES YOU READ ON A REGULAR BASIS? none

41. Do you know your bloodtype? No but I'm intrigued to find out.

42. Any interesting things your name spells with the letters? no, not really

43. Do you know anyone with the same first name as you? Sarah was like the second most popular female name given the year I was born. I know at least 10 Sarah's, if not more.

44. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you? Yep. People apparently love the middle name Marie

45. Do you know anyone (unrelated) that has the same last name as you? Negative

46. Do you have any weird nicknames that only your family calls you? my mom calls me Raratoo

47. Do you collect anything? old licence plates

48. What is your most treasured item? Fred and Wilma (computer&digital camera) and Betty, my other camera.

50. Who was your hero when you were a child? my mom

TEN random things about me:
1. I listen to bad music and I know it
2. I hate going to school. alot
3. I adore boys
4. I want to live in NYC
5. I like mexican food
6. I have money and I want to spend it
7. I'm listening to a song from Peter Pan
8. My best friend lives in Ohio
9. I do'nt watch the end of romance movies because I get jealous
10. I adopted a penguin named Juan from the zoo

NINE ways to win my heart:
1. cheesy lines work well on me
2. Smart
3. Can make me smile
4. Can make me laugh
5. Gives real hugs
6. Likes the same type of music
7. Realness
8. Good kisser
9. have a sence of mystery

EIGHT of my favorite movies:
1. Empire Records
2. Romeo & Juliet
3. Shakespeare in Love
4. I Am Sam
5. Radio
6. Step Mom
7. Good Disney movies
8. Finding Nemo

SEVEN things that annoy me:
1. pimples
2. drama
3. boys
4. being lonely
5. bad teachers
6. being yelled at
7. obnoxiousness in general

SIX things I want to do before I die:
1. move to NYC
2. Go to Paris
3. Fall in Love
4. write a book
5. go to college
6. feed a llama

FIVE things I am afraid of:
1. dying alone
2. heights
3. spiders
4. beetles
5. snakes

FOUR of my favorite items in my room:
1. My computer
2. My walls
3. My Jewelry
4. My cameras

THREE things I do everyday:
1. sleep
2. talk
3. think

TWO things I want to do right now:
1. blow my nose
2. forget/remember (I cant' decide..)

ONE person I want to see right now:
1. ...a few people...

obvme — Mon, 26 Dec 2005 17:13:13 GMT

Well it's vacation, and that obviously means that I have to be sick. I've felt it comming on for a while but I was in denial. It's not that bad. I'm just annoyed that I can't be healthy.

Going over to Dave's tonight with some people. We were supposed to play in the snow and then go inside and warm up by the fire, but since the rain kind of got rid of almost all the snow (which I'm QUITE pleased about) I'm not sure what the plan is. I may just sleep instead. I'll figure it out around 5.

obvme — Sun, 11 Dec 2005 23:40:43 GMT

I've always wanted a friends only journal :)

ahhh.

obvme — Sun, 11 Dec 2005 05:46:33 GMT

Most Amazing Thing I've Ever Seen

I wish I had thought of that when I took trig. :-D &herats;

"As we go on, we remember, all the times we had together..."

obvme — Sat, 10 Dec 2005 23:51:11 GMT

So this thing is like crack. Where I really don't wanna give it up, but I just don't give a damn enough to post. Okay so I have no idea quite how that is like crack. But it is. Because I said so. I'm really lazy too, so for info about how semi went, go here. haha. And for pictures, look at Everyones myspace. Because I'm too lazy to put them on photobucket and then put them here

This week was overall okay. Wayyy too long though. Seriously the week needed to end on like tuesday. Monday even.

Since I don't remember the rest of the week, we'll go with today:
Bio: Umm. reviewed the first period then took the test the second period. I did better than previously expected. But nothing over an 85. I need to buckle down and actually TRY in that class. it might help
Spanish: oh lord I hate her. HATE HER. bsr;ktjgb;sdktbjsk;bjt;kjb. IM NOT 6 YEARS OLD AND I CAN READ A PASSAGE IN SPANISH ON MY OWN. oh my god. She actually spent 15 minutes reading us a passage, then going over each individual question with us. Because you know, we haven't been taking spanish for 3 years. we couldn't POSSIBLY know anything. I hate being treated like a moron.
English: bitched about Spanish test. I hate Miss Serotnik too. bah. Did Gatsby stuff.
French: took the second half of our test. Did okay I guess. I got a 100 on the first part (happy dance) but not as good on the reading/writing part.
Lunch: there were CHAIRS since paul sat somewhere else and danielle and evaS were dead. Mucho fun <3
US: Umm Dave and EvaC left for the Everson. I've finally figured out miss schoff. She's a great teacher, and I actually learn alot in her class, but she's seriously just an a-class bitch. Whatever.
Photo: oh lord that class saved my day times 10. Miss Cross approved my independent study for next year (I get to do it all year instead of just one semester.) And there are going to be TWO new photo courses next year. AP photo and an OCC photo course. 3 photo classes? I can deal with that
Studyhall: handed in my spanish essay, and started reading/taking notes on Gatsby. When you know what to look for, it's actually somewhat interesting.

So that was my day. Mucho fun ness.

Oh, and P.S.

December 20th
5:30 pm - 7 pm
Opening at the Everson
Be There

Dance, Dance, we're falling apart to half time..

obvme — Sat, 03 Dec 2005 17:25:06 GMT

So yesturday I thought I had cancer. I had a lump on my ear and I was freaking out a bit (mostly jokingly) and Lauren started making fun of me.

Me: Don't make fun of me because I have cancer!
Paul: Okay, Lumpy.

By far the best moment of the day.

I realized later, that the reason I make so many "cancer jokes" is because it's easier for me to make humor out of it, then to come to terms with the fact that cancer exists, and apparently is out to kill my family.

FEMANISM

obvme — Wed, 02 Nov 2005 01:50:12 GMT

I got this from a community I'm in and thought it was so amazing and touching:

If you are a woman voter, thank a feminist.
If your doctor is a woman, thank a feminist.
If you open the help-wanted section of any U.S. paper and see job listings classified by occupation rather than "help wanted - male" and "help wanted - female", thank a feminist.
If your depression is taken seriously rather than considered a byproduct of having a uterus, thank a feminist.
If, in counseling, you aren't assumed to envy a man for having a penis, thank a feminist.
If you can have birth control prescribed to you without first obtaining your husband's written permission, thank a feminist.
If you're allowed to teach school regardless of your marital status, and you're a woman, thank a feminist.
If you're allowed to enter an apprenticeship program, thank a feminist.
If you are told you can become something other than a nurse, a grade-school teacher, a housewife and mother, or a nun, thank a feminist.
If you expect to be considered for admission to university programs based on your qualifications rather than your gender, thank a feminist.
If you expect your qualifications for admission to educational programs to be considered equally, rather than after every male applicant has been admitted, thank a feminist.
If you have ever heard of the crime of spousal rape, and know that there's a law against it, thank a feminist.
If you've heard of the crime of domestic violence, and know that it's illegal, thank a feminist.
If you can drive, thank a feminist.
If you expect to be paid the same wage as a man doing the same job you are, with the same seniority and the same qualifications, thank a feminist.
If you are considered a person in your own right rather than the chattel of a man, thank a feminist.
If you're legally permitted to own property in your own name, thank a feminist.
If you don't expect to be fired because a man "needs your job to feed his family", thank a feminist.
If the phrase "non-traditional occupation" seems a little old-fashioned or, better yet, you don't understand it at all, thank a feminist.
If you can look in the yellow pages of your nearest major metropolis and find a dedicated women's clinic, thank a feminist.
If you hear terms like "firefighter", "police officer", or "postal worker" in everday life, thank a feminist.
If the phrase "she's a woman lawyer" seems odd, thank a feminist.
If you or any person you know receives child support, thank a feminist.
If your parent received child support when you were growing up, thank a feminist.
If you aren't expected to leave the room at a party when the conversation turns to current events and politics, thank a feminist.
If you're a grown woman and don't expect to be called "girl" when you're fifty, thank a feminist.

Feminists brought about all of these things. Before the feminists got involved, the reverse was true in each and every case.

Take some time, today, and thank a feminist.

obvme — Thu, 29 Sep 2005 10:49:46 GMT

I wonder when people will realize that the "scene" has become homogeneous. It's full of 14-year-old girls with uneven bangs, black and white striped shirts, and tattered low-top black Chuck Taylors, who swoon over homosexual kissing and pathetic whiny lyrics and overuse the symbols.

Their favorite quote is, invariably, "The truth is you could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt" because it like, so totally describes their relationship with that one HAWT sophomore who totally ripped their hearts out when they were like, SO in love with him.

Their favorite type of music is, of course, "emo, screamo, and hardcore", three terms which, in their minds, invariably include the bands Taking Back Sunday, Thrice, and Hawthorne Heights.

Their AIM screennames often include "x"s, the words "electrikk," "disaster," or some play on their favorite song from their favorite band, you know, the one they saw on MTV like a couple times, but shouldn't be on MTV because they're like, way too emo for that.

They take hundreds of black and white pictures with way too much contrast of themselves looking plaintively down at the ground, pointing a gun made of their fingers at their heads, or kissing the camera while displaying their expert application of lip gloss around their labret piercing and the thick dark eyeliner that circles their eyes.

They embrace the "dork" that is inside their polished, fashionable exteriors by writing in their LiveJournals or Xangas about how they and their friends had an 'N Sync sing-a-long at one of their sleepovers because, remember, 'N Sync is soooo not popular anymore and they like, sooo wouldn't follow any of the fads of today, so they embrace the fads of yesterday.

They adore "retro fashion," meaning anything from the 80's, because they totally used to wear neon colors and big beaded bracelets, even though they were born in, at the earliest, 1988 and remember jack shit about the fashion and culture of the 80's.

It's full of "emo boys" who often are difficult to differentiate from "emo girls," who have meaningless tattoos even though they're 15, smoke a lot of cigarettes, drink a lot of hard liquor, and are in some shitty band that plays a couple of gigs in someone's basement because they're "too cool to go mainstream" when really, they just suck.

They weigh roughly 90 pounds, wear girls' jeans that hug their asses in just the right places, belts buckled somewhere around the side of their right leg, tight striped 80's style polo shirts or band t-shirts, and skater shoes, even though they don't skate because that's soooo lame.

They write awful poetry about the dark abyss of their souls and how the gun is pointed at their heads, the trigger poised to blast away the bloody memories of a failed romance. They cried when Blink-182 broke up, and they have a secret obsession with Avril Lavigne because, like, she really IS kinda hot even though her music totally sucks.

They spend more time at the mirror than their female counterparts do, making sure that the long black shock of hair at the front of their heads lies covering one eye just so, that their lip piercing is perfectly placed so that it looks hot when they kiss other boys, that their pants are the right degree of tightness so as not to exude gayness.

Emo boys and girls often use the suffix "Xcore" to describe themselves, using a number of adjectives or nouns to accomplish this task. This is a play off hardcore music, or "hXc." Some of these descriptive words include "fashionXcore," "retroXcore," or even "yournamehereXcore."

This way of speaking is retarded or nonsensical to everyone else except those "in the scene", but it totally doesn't matter because they're too nonconformistXcore for anyone to truly understand their "scene."

They couldn't name a Sunny Day Real Estate or Rites of Spring song if it came up and bit them on their Gap Jeans-clad asses, and they claim to like the Smiths because Jesse Lacey of Brand New said they were cool.

Sure, they listen to some new "hardcore" bands, but they're all pretty much the same five bands:
1. Taking Back Sunday
2. Senses Fail
3. Thrice
4. Hawthorne Heights
5. Story of the Year
To these promising young firecrackers, music takes a backseat to fashion in their scene of choice.

Emo girls just want to kiss emo boys, emo boys just want to kiss other emo boys, and they all want to wear tight pants and take lots of pictures of themselves. End of story. Because honestly? It's electrikk!

obvme — Tue, 23 Aug 2005 10:42:13 GMT

I read this confession from dailyconfession.com and I fell in love with everything it had to say.:

Today my big brother was beaten up for being gay - ended up in hospital - by so called 'god-loving men'.
I've studied the bible, I know the bible. It does not directly say 'being gay is wrong'. If you look at the Old Testament it says that straight guys sleeping with each other without loving is wrong. Over the many, many years it has been twisted and turned to say that being gay is wrong.

And if these guys are really bible worshippers and want to follow the bible - it also says that woman are objects - they belong to their fathers and husbands. This isn't practiced in life. It also says that men shouldn't cut their beard or hair (Leviticus 19:27). Again, this isn't practiced in life. It also says that women are 'unclean' for 33 days after giving birth to a son, and for 66 days after giving birth to a daughter.

But does anyone listen to these? No! So why should people listen to wrongly-translated piece of text?

And doesn't it also say not to judge others?

Secrets

obvme — Mon, 08 Aug 2005 00:55:47 GMT

I found a site that people send their secrets to, in the form of postcards. I saved some I that either I could relate to, I thought were thought provoking, or I thought were just kind of funny. Enjoy.

and the funny one:

oh the fun!

obvme — Tue, 02 Aug 2005 03:52:36 GMT

Oh how fun life is when you can screw with 6th graders minds :)

pinkstarz tonite: hey
PeacefulChaos07: hello there
pinkstarz tonite: soo u think im an annoying little kid?
PeacefulChaos07: to put in Lamens terms, yes, yes I do
pinkstarz tonite: why?
pinkstarz tonite: u dont even know me
PeacefulChaos07: I am child-intollerant. It is kind of like being lactose-intollerant, but with people like you.
pinkstarz tonite: i didnt do anything though
PeacefulChaos07: I just read what you said and it was entertaining. In a bad way.
pinkstarz tonite: in a bad way?
PeacefulChaos07: as in..not a good way
pinkstarz tonite: im not an idiot
pinkstarz tonite: i wanted to know why in a bad way
PeacefulChaos07: I never used that term.
pinkstarz tonite: ur confusing me
PeacefulChaos07: Thats shocking. It's like sticking a finger in a light-socket. Very shocking.
pinkstarz tonite: a light-socket wtf
PeacefulChaos07: I ate yogurt this morning. I found a blue-berry, that wasn't shocking because it was blue-berry yogurt. If I had found a rasberry, that would have been shocking, because it wasn't rasperry yogurt.
PeacefulChaos07: understand?
pinkstarz tonite: im kinda
PeacefulChaos07: your kinda alot of things.
pinkstarz tonite: what
pinkstarz tonite: and why are u talking about yogurt
PeacefulChaos07: I was explaining it to you. With examples. It was metaphor
pinkstarz tonite: wats a metahphor
PeacefulChaos07: It's like a metaphore without the e
pinkstarz tonite: what
PeacefulChaos07: I LIKE YOGURT, Okay? Stop badgering the witness!
pinkstarz tonite: wtf
PeacefulChaos07: wtf= what the fuck. without the spaces. or the letters: hatheuck
pinkstarz tonite: ok?
PeacefulChaos07: ok=okay. without the ay
pinkstarz tonite: okay?
PeacefulChaos07: YOU KNOW REAL WORDS?
PeacefulChaos07: it's like a miracle
PeacefulChaos07: kind of like in miracle on 34th street. Except I don't live on 34th street.
PeacefulChaos07: do YOU live on 34th street?
pinkstarz tonite: no
pinkstarz tonite: i live on highland ave.
PeacefulChaos07: ave=avenue without the nue
PeacefulChaos07: to put this simply...If I were really really smart..you'd be the exact opposite
pinkstarz tonite: thats mean
pinkstarz tonite: ur a sfcm
PeacefulChaos07: and you, my friend who doesn't live on 34th street, are a lamicuat
pinkstarz tonite: wats that?
PeacefulChaos07: it's kind of like a sfcm, but with lamicuat
pinkstarz tonite: okay?????
PeacefulChaos07: I'm not getting coal for christmas! I'm Jewish.
PeacefulChaos07: But dont get me wrong, Jesus and I are tight.
PeacefulChaos07: He died for my sins
pinkstarz tonite: wtf
pinkstarz tonite: where did that come from
PeacefulChaos07: WhoBuiltTheArk47: lol no
WhoBuiltTheArk47: because you're taking it so hard
WhoBuiltTheArk47: when we're just having fun
WhoBuiltTheArk47: thats why its so funny
WhoBuiltTheArk47: lol
pinkstarz tonite: well i know 2 ppl that are going to be getting COAL for christmas
PeacefulChaos07: The bible told me to tell you that Jesus died for my sins. Yours too.
pinkstarz tonite: well duh
pinkstarz tonite: sherlock
PeacefulChaos07: actually it's Sarah
PeacefulChaos07: but you got the first letter right
pinkstarz tonite: Sarah who?
pinkstarz tonite: henry
pinkstarz tonite: whit e
pinkstarz tonite: white*
PeacefulChaos07: Sarah Who-doesn't-live-in-Ohio-so-you-can-keep-guessing-last-names-but-you're-most-likely-never-going-to-be-right
PeacefulChaos07: kind of like the rest of the time you talk
PeacefulChaos07: but with names
pinkstarz tonite: why the hell dont u live in OHIO are you INSANE!
PeacefulChaos07: don't=do not. without the space and the o.
PeacefulChaos07: I do not live in Ohio because I wasn't born in Ohio.
PeacefulChaos07: Kind of like you. You don't live in Nebraska because you weren't born in Nebraska
pinkstarz tonite: u live in Nebraska!
pinkstarz tonite: u idoit
pinkstarz tonite: move to Ohio
PeacefulChaos07: I don't live in Nebraska
PeacefulChaos07: Ohio isn't a good state to live in.
PeacefulChaos07: It has two o's
pinkstarz tonite: are u retarded?
PeacefulChaos07: Well damn. If I'm retarted what does that make you? a plant?
pinkstarz tonite: ur a jackass bitch
PeacefulChaos07: well you're sfcm
pinkstarz tonite: do you even know what that means?
PeacefulChaos07: I don't have to know what it means
PeacefulChaos07: because I have Jesus in my life
pinkstarz tonite: u are a retard
PeacefulChaos07: Well that makes you a plant
PeacefulChaos07: What kind? I think I have one of you hanging from my porch
pinkstarz tonite: ur a bitchy jack ass
PeacefulChaos07: I thought I was a jackass bitch? Now your just being indesicive. If you are going to call me a really stupid insult, please pick only one, as not to lower your IQ any farther. I mean you're already at plant.
pinkstarz tonite: no im fucking not
pinkstarz tonite: fucker
PeacefulChaos07: Wow, now I'm a fucker, a jackass bitch AND a bitchy jackass. If I keep this going, maybe I'll be an Ignorant Potatoe by the end of the night
pinkstarz tonite: u already are an ignorant potatoe
pinkstarz tonite: actually no one would eat u
PeacefulChaos07: WellI I hope not. That might be an awkward conversation if someone started eating me
pinkstarz tonite: i would be praising god!
PeacefulChaos07: God doesn't approve of canibalism
pinkstarz tonite: whats that now
PeacefulChaos07: It's like canibalisms but without the s
pinkstarz tonite: wat does it mean
PeacefulChaos07: it's what a canibal practices. Just like a Marxism is what Karl Marx believes in
pinkstarz tonite: ok?
PeacefulChaos07: ok=okay without the ay
pinkstarz tonite: i dont fucking care
PeacefulChaos07: you forgot the ' in don't
pinkstarz tonite: does it look like i care
PeacefulChaos07: You have no respect for the English Language.
pinkstarz tonite: nope
pinkstarz tonite: i dont
PeacefulChaos07: God doesn't approve of people disrespecting the English Language
pinkstarz tonite: ooh w/e
pinkstarz tonite: noah got something rong
pinkstarz tonite: finally!:-D
PeacefulChaos07: what did he do?
pinkstarz tonite: he used a word rong!
PeacefulChaos07: epiphany
pinkstarz tonite: yuppers
PeacefulChaos07: if you can deffine that for me without looking in a dictionary, I'll promote you from plant, to small animal
pinkstarz tonite: ur a bitch
PeacefulChaos07: I'm aware
pinkstarz tonite: dude ur admitting it
PeacefulChaos07: Again, I'm aware
pinkstarz tonite: ur weird
PeacefulChaos07: Once again, I am aware
pinkstarz tonite: ok u need to go to one of those ppl whp
pinkstarz tonite: who*
pinkstarz tonite: helps mental ppl
PeacefulChaos07: ppl=people without the 2e's and the o
pinkstarz tonite: ur crazy
pinkstarz tonite: and u need a life;-)
PeacefulChaos07: I could say the same for you
pinkstarz tonite: i have one!
pinkstarz tonite: thank you very much
PeacefulChaos07: You're very welcome
PeacefulChaos07: I can't even express how welcome you are
pinkstarz tonite: wat?
PeacefulChaos07: wat=what without the h
pinkstarz tonite: ok???????
pinkstarz tonite: u like dorks?
PeacefulChaos07: You are quite observant
pinkstarz tonite: i know
PeacefulChaos07: If there was an award for observancy, I'm sure you would win
pinkstarz tonite: yes
pinkstarz tonite: thanks you
PeacefulChaos07: welcomes you
pinkstarz tonite: its welcome
pinkstarz tonite: not welcomes
PeacefulChaos07: its Thank, not thanks
PeacefulChaos07: when followed by the term 'you' of course
pinkstarz tonite: haha ur a gaywad:-D:-)
PeacefulChaos07: Oh, very creative. I'll give it a B
pinkstarz tonite: no its an A
pinkstarz tonite: actually
pinkstarz tonite: A+
PeacefulChaos07: plants to not deserve an A+
pinkstarz tonite: to not?:-\
PeacefulChaos07: do*
PeacefulChaos07: See, even smart people make mistakes, so don't feel too bad
pinkstarz tonite: i never
pinkstarz tonite: make mistakes
pinkstarz tonite: ppl in my class called me perfect
pinkstarz tonite: bet u neva heard that
PeacefulChaos07: ppl=people without the eoe.
PeacefulChaos07: Out of curiosity, were you dropped on your head as a child? Or is this natural
pinkstarz tonite: i fell outta a tree house
PeacefulChaos07: That explains it. Did you happen to land on a plant? It may have transfered some of its Genetic material.
pinkstarz tonite: no the cemen
pinkstarz tonite: cement*
PeacefulChaos07: I find it hard to believe that millions of years of evolution resulted in you.
pinkstarz tonite: thats harsh
pinkstarz tonite: whats oral
PeacefulChaos07: its like orale without the e
pinkstarz tonite: no whats the definition?
PeacefulChaos07: spoken rather than written
pinkstarz tonite: just tell me what it means
PeacefulChaos07: o·ral ( P ) Pronunciation Key (ôrl, r-)
adj.
Spoken rather than written. See Usage Note at verbal.
PeacefulChaos07: I don't lie.
pinkstarz tonite: whoa
pinkstarz tonite: noah makes no sence
PeacefulChaos07: yes he does. You just do not understand
pinkstarz tonite: he said hes gonna do drugs and oral!:-\
PeacefulChaos07: oh don't worry, he is only hanging out with Matt, and he doesn't go that way, so he won't do oral.
pinkstarz tonite: ooh ok
pinkstarz tonite: its like sex rite:-\
PeacefulChaos07: not rite, rong.
pinkstarz tonite: are u sure?
PeacefulChaos07: I am not allowed to relay such delicate information to someone more than 4 years my junior.

obvme — Tue, 12 Jul 2005 20:47:39 GMT

This was written in a community I am in and thought I'd share it with everyone:

This is my tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood. This is an homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and fuck up the guys in their lives without saying a word. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.

This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude comments and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced. This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.

This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup. This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.

This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. This is for the girls who have been satisified with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys.

This is what I don't understand. Men sit and question and whine that girls are only attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them and belittle them and don't appreciate them and don't want them; who use them for sex and think of little else than where their next conquest will be made. Men complain that they never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely interested and compelling, who are intelligent and sweet and smart and beautiful; men despair that no good women want to share in their lives, that girls play mindgames, that girls love to keep them hanging. Yet, men, I ask you: were you to meet one of these genuinely interested, thrillingly compelling, interesting and intelligent and sweet and beautiful and smart girls, were you to give her your number and wait for her to call... and if you were to receive a call from her the next day and she, in her truthful, loyal, intelligent and straightforward nice girl fashion, were to tell you that she finds you intriguing and attractive and interesting and worth her time and perhaps material from which she could fashion a boyfriend, would you or would you not immediately call your friends to tell them of the "stalker chick" you'd met the night prior, who called you and wore her heart on her sleeve and told the truth? And would you, or would you not, refuse to make plans with her, speak with her, see her again, and once again return to the bar or club or party scene and search once more for this "nice girl" who you just cannot seem to find? Because therein lies the truth, guys: we nice girls are everywhere. But you're not looking for a nice girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that argument you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it.

So don't say you're on the lookout for nice girls, guys, when you pass us up on every step you take. Sometimes we go undercover; sometimes we go in disguise: sometimes when that girl in the low cut shirt or the too tight miniskirt won't answer your catcalls, sometimes you're looking at a nice girl in whore's clothing - - we might say we like the attention, we might blush and giggle and turn back to our friends, but we're all thinking the same thing: "This isn't me. Tomorrow morning, I'll be wearing a teeshirt and flannel shorts, I'll have slept alone and I'll be making my hungover best friend breakfast. See through the disguise. See me." You never do. Why? Because you only see the exterior, you only see the slutty girl who welcomes those advances. You don't want the nice girl.. so don't say you're looking for a relationship: relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend - - but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty and trust, three things you never seem willing to express. Maybe nice guys finish last, but in the race they're running they're chasing after the whores and the sluts and the easy-targets... the nice girls are waiting at the finish line with water and towels and a congratulatory hug (and yes, if she's a nice girl and she likes you, the sweatiness probably won't matter), hoping against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you want at the end of that silly race.

So maybe it won't last forever. Maybe some of those guys in that race will turn in their running shoes and make their way to the concession stand where we're waiting; however, until that happens, we still have each other, that silly race to watch, and all the chocolate we can eat (because what's a concession stand at a race without some chocolate?)