me, january 2013
Briefly, I just want to say - I don't know. I don't know how often I'll be updating my journal(s). I don't know if I'll ever get my writing mojo back. I don't know what 2013 will mean for me in my personal life or in fandom. I have absolutely no clue whatsoever.
But I do know a few things 100% for certain:
01. I love you! All of you. When the holidays came and I had cards from Poland, Belgium, France, the Philippines, Japan, right here in the USA and more - I can't even begin to tell you the amazement and the joy it brought me. I know such brilliant people around the world.
I would not know most of you if I wasn't an Arashi fan. I wouldn't know most of you if it weren't for LiveJournal. I've spent 10 years on this platform come March, and though I can sense things are changing? I'm not leaving here entirely, because I think there are things that can still be expressed here and I need this space.
02. That being said, I have started using tumblr and twitter actively. Because I'm finding more and more that it's where people - including my LJ friends - are spending time. I don't want to be forgotten. I don't want to be left out. I want to have fun, I want to be silly, and I want to see you all! So, if you're using either of those platforms -- you can find me @nicefinalbeam and sparkleboom.
So!
Arashi-related Dream from my weird brain:
Sho was the servant of a king, though I am not sure who the king actually was because he wasn't anyone famous or from my waking world. But said king gave Sho a very important task. Sho had to make Aiba Masaki fall in love with the king in a week's time, enough in love that he would have sex with him at the end of the seventh day. Sho had to do this by magically taking on the king's appearance (I guess like... polyjuice potion kind of deal?). Once Sho had arranged for Aiba to meet the king for sexytimes, Sho would step out of the picture and let the king have him. Aiba would be fooled, Aiba would sleep with him, yay for the king. If Sho fails, he will be killed.
(I know, extreme much? What the hell.)
So Sho goes about this task, I can see it in weird vignettes. Spending time with Aiba, being his completely goofy and charming self. They almost have sex, but then they don't and Sho follows through with his duty - telling Aiba to meet him the next night. Of course he instantly regrets it, because even though he has no desire to die, he doesn't want to see Aiba tricked into sex. So he attempts to stop things from happening, but by the time he gets to the king's chambers - the king is already in an angry rage. Aiba has refused him. Why? Because he could tell something was wrong.
"What could possibly have been wrong? He loves me!" the king cried.
"The person I love? Loves me in return, and I can tell you do not," Aiba said.
And then he looks at Sho and he knows and...
I think they live happily ever after somehow? I don't know because I woke up so it's entirely possible Sho got killed. OOPS >.>
Currently:
I wake up. I drink a lot of coffee. I have greek yogurt. I drive 1hr and 10 minutes to work (on a good traffic day). I listen to my favorite radio show the whole way there. I enjoy what I do. I like the people I work with, I feel accomplished and productive most days, I have a bit of wiggle room to be on the internet and be young. ♥
I drive home, listening to Arashi and CNBlue. I have too many television shows to watch and not enough time. I write sometimes. I don't clean my room enough.
I get back on the internet. I read all your entries. I smile at your tweets and status updates. I roleplay a little, I read celebrity gossip a lot D: I click on every Arashi link I can find. I battle head colds. I occasionally conquer weariness.
I watch YouTube videos before I fall asleep.
And when I wake up the next day, I don't really regret much at all. The only thing I miss is being a little more sociable with all of you, and rolling my windows down (right now, too cold).
:)
But I do know a few things 100% for certain:
01. I love you! All of you. When the holidays came and I had cards from Poland, Belgium, France, the Philippines, Japan, right here in the USA and more - I can't even begin to tell you the amazement and the joy it brought me. I know such brilliant people around the world.
I would not know most of you if I wasn't an Arashi fan. I wouldn't know most of you if it weren't for LiveJournal. I've spent 10 years on this platform come March, and though I can sense things are changing? I'm not leaving here entirely, because I think there are things that can still be expressed here and I need this space.
02. That being said, I have started using tumblr and twitter actively. Because I'm finding more and more that it's where people - including my LJ friends - are spending time. I don't want to be forgotten. I don't want to be left out. I want to have fun, I want to be silly, and I want to see you all! So, if you're using either of those platforms -- you can find me @nicefinalbeam and sparkleboom.
So!
Arashi-related Dream from my weird brain:
Sho was the servant of a king, though I am not sure who the king actually was because he wasn't anyone famous or from my waking world. But said king gave Sho a very important task. Sho had to make Aiba Masaki fall in love with the king in a week's time, enough in love that he would have sex with him at the end of the seventh day. Sho had to do this by magically taking on the king's appearance (I guess like... polyjuice potion kind of deal?). Once Sho had arranged for Aiba to meet the king for sexytimes, Sho would step out of the picture and let the king have him. Aiba would be fooled, Aiba would sleep with him, yay for the king. If Sho fails, he will be killed.
(I know, extreme much? What the hell.)
So Sho goes about this task, I can see it in weird vignettes. Spending time with Aiba, being his completely goofy and charming self. They almost have sex, but then they don't and Sho follows through with his duty - telling Aiba to meet him the next night. Of course he instantly regrets it, because even though he has no desire to die, he doesn't want to see Aiba tricked into sex. So he attempts to stop things from happening, but by the time he gets to the king's chambers - the king is already in an angry rage. Aiba has refused him. Why? Because he could tell something was wrong.
"What could possibly have been wrong? He loves me!" the king cried.
"The person I love? Loves me in return, and I can tell you do not," Aiba said.
And then he looks at Sho and he knows and...
I think they live happily ever after somehow? I don't know because I woke up so it's entirely possible Sho got killed. OOPS >.>
Currently:
I wake up. I drink a lot of coffee. I have greek yogurt. I drive 1hr and 10 minutes to work (on a good traffic day). I listen to my favorite radio show the whole way there. I enjoy what I do. I like the people I work with, I feel accomplished and productive most days, I have a bit of wiggle room to be on the internet and be young. ♥
I drive home, listening to Arashi and CNBlue. I have too many television shows to watch and not enough time. I write sometimes. I don't clean my room enough.
I get back on the internet. I read all your entries. I smile at your tweets and status updates. I roleplay a little, I read celebrity gossip a lot D: I click on every Arashi link I can find. I battle head colds. I occasionally conquer weariness.
I watch YouTube videos before I fall asleep.
And when I wake up the next day, I don't really regret much at all. The only thing I miss is being a little more sociable with all of you, and rolling my windows down (right now, too cold).
:)