It's too close to home, too near the bone

Casualties of War

2010-12-24T06:49:02Z

Medium: Are Pee
Fandom: Sherlock/Inglorious Basterds
Subject: John/Shoshanna
Title: Casualties of War
Warnings: Um, crack pairing, I suppose. Thanks to guysandolls I ship it like HMS Pinafore. And a reused song from my general Sherlock series mix. SHH
Notes: A Christmas gift for joisaverage, Shoshanna's player. MJ, YOU ENJOY TOO. Also, holy shit, a whole mix without a single Smiths song. This is monumental.

1. The Ben Folds Five - Missing the War
All is quiet, his tired eyes
See figures jotted down
And clothes all strewn around the bedroom floor
Now nothing's adding up
And nothing's making sense
She's sleeping like a baby
She doesn't know he wasn't meant for this

2. David Bowie - Cat People (Putting Out Fire) I had to.
See these eyes so green
I can stare for a thousand years
Colder than the moon
It's been so long

Feel my blood enraged
It's just the fear of losing you
Don't you know my name
Well, you been so long

3. Dead Can Dance - Xavier

These were the sins of Xavier's past
Hung like jewels in the forest of veils
Deep in the heart where the mysteries emerge
Eve bears the stigma of original sin

Freedom so hard when we are all bound by laws
Etched in the seam of nature's own hand
Unseen by all those who fail in their pursuit of faith

4. The Arcade Fire - Une Année Sans Lumiere
Hey! The streetlights all burnt out
Une annee sans lumieres
Je monte un cheval
Qui porte des oeilleres

Hey, my eyes are shooting sparks
La nuit, mes yeux t'eclairent
Ne dis pas a ton pere
Qu'il porte des oeillieres

Hey, your old man should know
If you see a shadow
There's something there

5. Bloc Party - Biko
You're not doing this alone

For my sweetheart the melancholic
You have crossed the River Styx
And the waves have taken you away

As I lay my head on your chest
I can hear it in your veins
Wake me up when you come to bed

6. Cake Bake Betty - The Spine Song
you arrive
at the place
it is not what you want
but it is what you chase
so you don't
have to hold
all of the candles
that burn on their own
you will steal
all the smells
that cut through your nose and inside on your cells
when it's time
to escape
you realize you've waited until it's too late

7. Mathieu Boogaerts - Ondulé
Par-ci par-là luné
Pas les idées bien installées
It is a shame
Ondulé
Par-ci par-là luné
Pas les idées bien installées
It is a shame
I never feel the same

8. Regina Spektor - Hotel Song
Come into my world
I've got to show, show, show you
Come into my bed
I've got to know, know, know you

I have dreams of orca whales and owls
But I wake up in fear
You will never be my, you will never be my fool
Will never be my fool

9. Frou Frou - Must Be Dreaming
This is the right turn
Wrong universe
You're taking me in full bloom
Fireball
Careful with that there
See what you made me do?

Must be dreaming
Or we're on to something
Must be dreaming
For I don't fall in love lawlessly
Must be dreaming
Oh, pinch me to waking
So undeniably yours
As long as I'm losing it so completely

10. The Cure - Burn
"Don't look don't look" the shadows breathe
Whispering me away from you
"Don't wake at night to watch her sleep
You know that you will always lose
This trembling
Adored
Tousled bird mad girl... "
But every night I burn
But every night I call your name
Every night I burn
Every night I fall again

11. Billie Holiday - You're My Thrill
Hmmm-nothing seems to matter
Hmmm-here's my heart on a silver platter
Where's my will
Why this strange desire
That keeps mounting higher
When I look at you
I can't keep still
You're my thrill

Download all here.

Merry Christmas <3

nezbit @ 2010-11-19T16:44:00

2010-11-19T21:44:11Z

Medium: Television
Fandom: Sherlock (BBC)
Subject: General series
Title: All Over This Town
Warnings: Possible spoilers for the finale?
Notes: A tiny bit of backstory speculation/headcanon on my part for a few songs, maybe, but I don't think it's anything too outlandish. Track 10 is a bit tongue in cheek considering the context, but whatever. See for yourselves, won't you? :D Thanks to joisaverage for the cover art.

1. Pink Floyd - Another Brick in the Wall, Pt. 2
"Put the wind up everybody, we hated him. He’d come down to have breakfast in the formal hall and this freak would know you’d been shagging the previous night."
"I simply observed."
--
"Clever you guessing about Carl Powers. I never liked him. Carl laughed at me, so I stopped him laughing."

...By pouring their derision upon anything we did
exposing every weakness however carefully hidden by the kids.

We don't need no education
We don’t need no thought control

2. Franz Ferdinand - Ulysses
"I'm pretty sure you could search this flat all day and you wouldn't find anything that you could call recreational."
"John, you might want to shut up now."

Well I'm bored
I'm bored
Come on let's get high

Well I've found a new way
I've found a new way
Come on don't amuse me
I don't need your sympathy

3. Regina Spektor - No Surprises
"If you were dying, if you were murdered, in the very last seconds, what would you say?"
"Please God, let me live."
"Use your imagination."
"I don't have to."

A heart that's full up like a landfill
A job that slowly kills you
Bruises that won't heal

You look so tired, unhappy
Bring down the government
They don't, they don't speak for us
I'll take the quiet life
A handshake of carbon monoxide

No alarms and no surprises

4. Ben Folds Five - Missing the War
"You're not haunted by the war, Dr. Watson. You miss it."

All is quiet, his tired eyes
See figures jotted down
And clothes all strewn around the bedroom floor
Now nothing's adding up
And nothing's making sense
She's sleeping like a baby
She doesn't know he wasn't meant for this

I'm missing the war
I'm missing the war, all night

5. The Clash - London Calling
"Look at that, Mrs. Hudson. Quiet. Calm. Peaceful. Isn't it hateful.
"Oh, I'm sure something will turn up, Sherlock. A nice murder. That'll cheer you up."

London calling to the faraway towns
Now that war is declared and battle come down
London calling to the underworld
Come out of the cupboard, all you boys and girls

6. The White Stripes - Girl, You Have No Faith In Medicine
"Nicotine patch. Helps me think. Impossible to sustain a smoking habit in London these days. Bad news for brainwork."
"Good news for breathing."
"Ah, breathing. Breathing's boring."

Well strip the bark right off a tree
And just hand it this way
Don't even need a drink of water
To make the headache go away
Give me sugar pill
And watch me just rattle
Down the street
Acetaminophen
You see the medicine
oh girl, you have no faith in medicine

7. Elliott Smith - A Fond Farewell
"I'm not the John Watson you knew."

This is not my life
It's just a fond farewell to a friend
It's not what I'm like
It's just a fond farewell to a friend
Who couldn't get things right
Fond farewell to a friend

He said really I just want to dance
Good and evil matched perfect, it's a great romance
I can deal with some psychic pain
If it'll slow down my higher brain

8. Morrissey - Sister I'm a Poet
"Most people blunder around this city and all they see are streets and shops and cars. When you walk with Sherlock Holmes you see the battlefield."

All over this town
Yes, a low wind may blow
And I can see through everybody's clothes
With no reason
To hide these words, I feel

That's 'cause I'm a ...
Sister I'm a ...
All over this town

Along this way
Outside the prison gates
I love the romance of Crime
And I wonder:
Does anybody feel the same way I do?
And is Evil just something you are
Or something you do?

9. Tan Dun - Yearning of the Sword
"Ladies and gentleman, from the distant, moonlit shores of NW1, we present for your pleasure Sherlock Holmes' pretty companion in a death-defying act."

10. Siouxsie and the Banshees - Head Cut
"...There's a head. Is that a head?"
"Just tea for me, thanks."

Oh severed head
I'll feed your head with bread
and paint your lips bright red
I'll keep it fresh on ice
it will look very nice

Can I take it with me
Back to flat with me

11. Piebald - Part of Your Body Is Made Out of Rock
"Will caring about them help save them?"
"Nope."
"Then I'll continue not to make that mistake."
"You find that easy, do you?"
"Yes. Very."

It's a sunny day
But you still have made mistakes
The sunlight may not save you
Laying down pitch less hiss
Under green, green trees
Why would you want to make anybody's life harder?

I wouldn't have guessed you had a heart of stone

12. The Beatles - Paperback Writer
"I see you've written up the taxi driver case."
"Uh, yes."
"'A Study in Pink'. Nice."
"Well, you know. A pink lady, pink case, pink phone. There was a lot of pink. Did you like it?"
"Umm... no."

Dear Sir or Madam will you read my book,
It took me years to write will you take a look,
Based on a novel by a man named Lear,
And I need a job,
So I want to be a paperback writer

I can make it longer if you like the style,
I can change it round,
And I want to be a paperback writer

13. Tears For Fears - Everybody Wants to Rule the World
"I've given you a glimpse, Sherlock—just a teensy glimpse—of what I've got going on out there in the big bad world. I'm a specialist, you see. Like you. [...] But the flirting's over, Sherlock. Daddy's had enough now! I've shown you what I can do. I've cut loose all those people, all those little problems. Even 30 million quid just to get you to come out and play. So take this as a friendly warning, my dear. Back off. Although. I have loved this. This little game of ours."

It's my own design
It's my own remorse
Help me to decide
Help me make the most
Of freedom and of pleasure
Nothing ever lasts forever

14. Rollins Band - Liar
"I will burn you. I will burn the heart out of you."

'Cause I'm a liar, yeah, I'm a liar
I'll tear your mind out, I'll burn your soul
I'll turn you into me, I'll turn you into me
'cause I'm a liar

15. The Smiths - What Difference Does It Make?
"Let him go, or I will kill you."
---
"That, ah— thing that you did. That you, um, you offered to do. That was, uh, good."

All men have secrets and here is mine so let it be known
we have been through hell and high tide
I can surely rely on you
and yet you start to recoil
heavy words are so lightly thrown
but I'd still leap in front of a flying bullet for you

I AM A THIEF

2010-10-13T02:35:06Z

MORNING AFTER MEME

✒Characters wake up in the morning. Commenters to their threads wake up next to them in bed. They have no memory of the night before. Anything goes--the characters can be half-dressed, fully clothed, hung over, already awake, making breakfast, whatever!
✒Make sure you are still IC
✒ ????
✒ PROFIT

(stole this from an RP comm, so yeah, I didn't think of this. I WANTED TO TRY IT ANYWAY)

You guys know who I play, largely. Just add BBC!Sherlock to the pile. THIS COULD BE FUNNNN~

nezbit @ 2010-09-22T21:19:00

2010-09-23T01:19:45Z

Medium: Fiction/RP/whatever
Subject: Jean-Baptiste Girard and Renard de Loux
Title: Chaos in Motion
Warnings: None. Except it's sort of shoddy and has no album art, so it's not even going to fanmix as of yet anyway.
Notes: 1. Ask me for any of these songs, because I don't feel like uploading them all. This is... a lazy mix. More importantly, 2. This is a mix for the pairing that has restored my faith in good m/m existing. Also in vampires not being emo pussies. They are classy, orgiastic, sensual, and dangerous; they are beautiful. Without further ado, the playlist.

1. Hayao Matsuo and the Warsaw Philharmonic Orchestra - Gradus Vita
Admittedly for lulz.

2. The Velvet Underground - I'm Waiting For the Man

I'm waiting for my man
Twenty-six dollars in my hand
Up to Lexington, 125
Feel sick and dirty, more dead than alive

Here he comes, he's all dressed in black
P.R. shoes and a big straw hat
He's never early, he's always late
First thing you learn is you always gotta wait

3. Eagles of Death Metal - How Can A Man With So Many Friends Feel So Alone?

Sometimes I feel all alone
I know it's such a strange feeling
'Cause I used to have so many friends
The few I have left, I hold them close to my heart
'Cause tomorrow I might be all alone

4. Coheed and Cambria - Three Evils (Embodied in Love and Shadow)

Across the floor in the hand of where we drove the drill
A cautious ear to the mouth of your confession
Think of all the things we put him through
In the face of his God would he tell the truth?

Still recorded were the words that dribbled out his kiss
When eyes go blind in this man of what could once become
Sever the limbs off his torso in sleep
And burn what remains so the world may now see no longer
Will we wait for your answers?
Back to the hell where you've come from
Think of all the times you've once had
Write them in a letter that says goodbye

You'll listen to reason while you're face down in the dirt
You'll stomach the hurt and break for him here just how much he's worth

Slowly discarded were the remains of his lonely youth
Among the alley where the dwellers scare to notice
Picture a young boy in pieces and streets with leveled malfunctions
No name to be called redeemer
We'll fix him restore him
With the love if no other
Think of all the things you did before
Write them in a letter that says reborn

You'll listen to reason while you're face down in the dirt
You'll stomach the hurt and break for him here just how much he's worth

Following you across the interstate walking away
I'll fire on

5. Dead Can Dance - In the Kingdom of the Blind the One Eyed Are Kings

If it were within, within our power
Beyond the reach of slavish pride
To no longer harbour grievances
Behind the mask's opportunist's facade
We could welcome the responsibility
Like a long lost friend
And re-establish the kingdom of laughter
In the dolls house once again
For time has imprisoned us in the order of our years
In the discipline of our ways
And in the passing of momentary stillness
We can see our chaos in motion, our chaos in motion
We can see our chaos in motion
View our chaos in motion
And the subsequent collisions of fools
Well versed in the subtle art of slavery

6. The Smiths - I Started Something I Couldn't Finish

The lanes were silent
There was nothing, no one, nothing around for miles
I doused our friendly venture
With a hard-faced, three-word gesture

I started something
I forced you to a zone and you were clearly
Never meant to go
Hair brushed and parted
Typical me, typical me, typical me
I started something
And now I'm not too sure

I grabbed you by the gilded beams
Uh, that's what tradition means
And I doused another venture
With a gesture that was absolutely vile

7. Nirvana - The Man Who Sold the World

We passed upon the stair, we spoke in was and when
Although I wasn't there, he said I was his friend
Which came as a surprise, I spoke into his eyes
I thought you died alone, a long long time ago

Oh no, not me
We never lost control
You're face to face
With The Man Who Sold The World

8. Pixies - I Bleed

As loud as hell
a ringing bell
behind my smile
it shakes my teeth
and all the while
as vampires feed
I bleed

Prithee, my dear,
why are we here
nobody knows
we go to sleep
as breathing flows
my mind secedes
I bleed

9. Tool - The Patient

A groan of tedium escapes me, stuttering, fearful.
Is this a test?
It has to be. otherwise I can't go on.
Draining patience. drain vitality.
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.

But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. and I'm still right
Here.
But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. and I'm still right
Here.

I'm gonna wait it out

If there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.

10. Franz Ferdinand - Words So Leisured

you want this fantastic passion
we’ll have fantastic passion
You can feel her lips undress your eyes
Why should ugly skin that never feels...

Never feel your fingers tingle tense anticipation on it
this one is an easy one, feel the word and melt upon it
Words of love, words so leisured
Words are poisoned darts of pleasure
die...

Yes, she's in her black mood tonight
Watch her dye your black hair white
Rob you of your muscles, slacken
all the skin that was so tight

11. Aphex Twin - Outside Kick Ass Violin Solo

Bonus Track, also for the lulz: The Dundrells - Mr. Nasty

Real Life - Gulf Disaster - Oil! [EP]

2010-07-04T19:41:46Z

Medium: Real Life
Subject: The Gulf Oil Spill
Title: Oil! A Gulf Disaster Mix
Warnings: Depressing subject? The cover picture breaks my heart, I know that much.
Notes: Inspired on day 76 of the oil spill. Being from the northeast part of the US, I've donated a little and have been generally affected little, but I often wish I could go down and help clean animals. Alas, I am poor, and Florida's far away. So this is my meager attempt to express my own outrage and maybe give some other people an outlet for theirs. If you have more ways to help than me, stop reading this and do them.

1. The Arcade Fire - Black Wave/Bad Vibrations

Nothing lasts forever
that's the way it's gotta be,
there's a great black wave in the middle of the sea for
me,
for you,
for me,
it's always for you.
The sound is not asleep, it's moving under my feet.

2. Pixies - Monkey Gone to Heaven

there was a guy
an under water guy who controlled the sea
got killed by ten million pounds of sludge
from new york and new jersey
this monkey's gone to heaven

the creature in the sky
got sucked in ahole
now there's a hole in the sky
and the ground's not cold
and if the ground's not cold
everything is gonna burn
we'll all take turns
i'll get mine, too

3. Beck - The New Pollution

She's got a paradise camouflage
Like a whip-crack sending me shivers
She's the boat in a strip mine ocean
Riding low on the drunken rivers

She's alone in the new pollution

4. TV On the Radio - Staring at the Sun

staring at the sun
oh my own voice cannot save me now
standing in the sea
it's just one more breath
and then down i go

your mouth is open wide
the lover is inside
and all the tumults done
collided with the sign
you're staring at the sun
you're standing in the sea
your body's over me

5. Radiohead - Pyramid Song

Jumped in the river, what did I see?
Black-eyed angels swam with me
A moon full of stars and astral cars
And all the things I used to see

6. Godspeed You! Black Emperor - Sunshine + Gasoline

7. Dead Kennedys - Moon Over Marin

Unlock my section of the sand
It's fenced off to the water's edge
I clamp a gasmask on my head

On my beach at night
Bathe in my moonlight

Another tanker's hit the rocks
Abandoned to spill out its guts
The sand is laced with sticky glops

O' Shimmering moonlight sheen upon
The waves and water clogged with oil
White gases steam up from the soil

I squash dead fish between my toes
Try not to step on any bones
I turn around and I go home

I slip back through my basement door
Switch off all that I own below
Dive in my scalding wooden tub

My own beach at night
Electric Moonlight

Bonus track, for those who volunteer for clean up or otherwise help the effort to keep the environment alive, and for hope: David Bowie - Heroes

I
I wish you could swim
Like the dolphins
Like dolphins can swim
Though nothing
Will keep us together
We can beat them
For ever and ever
Oh we can be Heroes
Just for one day

We can be Heroes
We're nothing
And nothing will help us
Maybe we're lying
Then you better not stay
But we could be safer
Just for one day

Whole mix here

P.S. Happy Fourth of July <3 This is... patriotic in some way, isn't it?

Alex's B-day Mix: Here Comes the Sun (BFFs)

2010-04-23T02:22:39Z

OKAY story behind this. I've been tossing around a few songs Alex and I have casually mentioned fit our friendship for a while, trying to make a proper playlist out of them. When I realized I was shit poor this year and couldn't afford giving her a proper birthday present, I upped the ante and managed to put a decent length of a playlist together. It sort of chronologically fits our relationship up until now, too. I realized that about halfway through and was amused. Anyway. Some of the songs are adorable, some of them are depressing, some of them are hopeful, and all of them are awesome. That's what happens when a multifaceted friendship grows, and when it survives all of the bullshit life throws into the fan you're trying to get relief from. It's always best to have someone there to laugh at you while hosing all the excrement off you, I think.

Whatever, these metaphors suck and I need to do my history paper. I didn't want to put this up late, though. Alex, I love you, and may the chronology aspect of this list make it grow into more than a double LP throughout our lifetime. Happy 20th, and let's quintuple that shit together. &hearts

1. The White Stripes - We're Going to Be Friends (Meeting at McDevitt)

Fall is here, hear the yell
Back to school, ring the bell
Brand new shoes, walking blues
Climb the fence, books and pens
I can tell that we're going to be friends
I can tell that we're going to be friends

We don't notice any time pass
We don't notice anything
We sit side by side in every class
Teacher thinks that I sound funny
But she likes the way you sing

2. Sonic Youth - My Friend Goo (because everyone thought I was some sort of subversive badass for no reason)

my friend Goo has a real tattoo
she always knows just what to do
she looks through her hair like she doesn't care
what she does best is stand and starehttp://www.livejournal.com/update.bml
she can play the drums in two
and the boys say :'Hey Goo what's new?'
[Hey Goo what's new?]
My friend Goo just says, "PU!!"

3. Jem - Save Me (My various periods of depression and Alex's super thick shell in dealing with it that I thank multiple deities for)

Mirror mirror on the wall
Who’s the dumbest of them all
Insecurities keep growing
Wasted energies are flowing
Anger, pain and sadness beckon
Panic sets in in a second
Be aware it’s just your mind
And you can stop it anytime

Save me

4. Hans Zimmer - Not In Blood, But in Bond (The darker times in junior year.)

5. Joy Division - Atmosphere (Things lookin' up a bit)

Walk in silence
Don't walk away, in silence
See the danger
Always danger
Endless talking
Life rebuilding
Don't walk away

Walk in silence
Don't turn away, in silence
Your confusion
My illusion
Worn like a mask of self-hate
Confronts and then dies
Don't walk away

People like you find it easy
Naked to see
Walking on air
Hunting by the rivers
Through the streets
Every corner abandoned too soon
Set down with due care
Don't walk away in silence
Don't walk away

6. Neutral Milk Hotel - Three Peaches (Friendship gave me reason to breathe and stuff. Yeah)

So wake up, run your lips across your fingers until you find
Some scent of yourself that you can hold up high
To remind yourself that you didn't die
On a day that was so crappy, whole and happy you're alive

You seem so bruised
And it's beautiful as it's reflecting off from you as it shines
You're in the bathroom carving holiday designs into yourself
Hoping no one will find you, but they found you
And they took you
And you somehow survived

So wake up, and if the holidays don't hollow out your eyes
Then press yourself against whatever
You find to be beautiful and trembling with life
Because I'm so happy you didn't die

7. The Beatles - Here Comes the Sun (Alex says this song makes her think of me and I am constantly moved by the fact.)

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Little darling, the smiles returning to their faces
Little darling, it seems like it's years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
It's all right, it's all right

8. Dead Can Dance - Don't Fade Away (The bittersweet anxieties of college on the horizon)

Don't fade away, my brown-eyed girl
Come walk with me, i'll fill your heart with joy
And we'll dance through our isolation.
Seeking solace in the wisdom we bestow
Turning thoughts to the here and ever after
Consuming fears in our fiery halos

Say what you mean, mean what you say
I've heard that innocence has led us all astray
But don't let them make you and break you
The world is filled with their broken empty dreams
Silence is their only virtue
Locked away inside their silent screams

But for now, let us dance away this starry night
Filled with the glow of fiery stars
And with the dawn our sun will rise
Bringing a symphony of bird cries

Don't bring me down now, let me stay here for awhile
You know life's too short, let me bathe here in your smile
I'm transcending the fall from the garden

9. The Smiths - I Won't Share You (Whenever I get jealous about you going out with other people and not being here. But I'm not a bitch so I get over it)

Life tends to come and go
That's OK
As long as you know
Life tends to come and go
As long as you know
Know, know, know, know, know
Know, know, know, know
Oh ...

I won't share you, no
I won't share you
With the drive
And the dreams inside
This is my time

I want the freedom and I want the guile
I want the freedom and the guile
Oh, life tends to come and go
As long as you know
Know, know, know, know
Know, know, know, know
Oh ...

I won't share you, no
I won't share you
I'll see you somewhere
I'll see you sometime
Darling

10. R.E.M. - Nightswimming (Memories of being awesome)

Nightswimming deserves a quiet night.
I'm not sure all these people understand.
It's not like years ago,
The fear of getting caught,
of recklessness and water.
They cannot see me naked.
These things, they go away,
replaced by everyday.

Nightswimming, remembering that night.
September's coming soon.
I'm pining for the moon.
And what if there were two
Side by side in orbit
Around the fairest sun?
That bright, tight forever drum
could not describe nightswimming.

You, I thought I knew you.
You I cannot judge.
You, I thought you knew me,
this one laughing quietly underneath my breath.
Nightswimming.

The photograph reflects,
every streetlight a reminder.
Nightswimming deserves a quiet night, deserves a quiet night.

11. The Beatles - Two of Us (Basically everything we have done and still do now)

Two of us riding nowhere
Spending someone's hard earned pay,
You and me Sunday driving,
Not arriving on our way back home.
We're on our way home,
We're on our way home,
We're going home.
You and I have memories
Longer than the road that stretches out ahead.
Two of us sending postcards
Writing letters on my wall.
You and me burning matches,
Lifting latches on our way back home.
We're on our way home,
We're on our way home,
We're going home.
Two of us wearing raincoats
Standing solo in the sun.
You and me chasing paper,
Getting nowhere on our way back home.
We're on our way home,
We're on our way home,
We're on our way home.

12. Neutral Milk Hotel - In the Aeroplane Over the Sea (BFFs fo realz <3)

What a beautiful face
I have found in this place
That is circling all round the sun
What a beautiful dream
That could flash on the screen
In a blink of an eye and be gone from me
Soft and sweet
Let me hold it close and keep it here with me, me

And one day we will die
And our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea
But for now we are young
Let us lay in the sun
And count every beautiful thing we can see
Love to be
In the arms of all I'm keeping here with me, me

All songs found here.

Thanks to Jo for the album art and Ant for digging up the lyrics for me so this didn't take forever. Happy Birthday Alex <3 DON'T GET ALL EMOTIONAL OKAY?

Mischa Satine - Cute Little Heartbreaker

2010-02-28T07:38:11Z

Medium: Fiction
Subject: Mischa Satine
Title: Cute Little Heartbreaker
Warning: Uh. None?
Notes: Somewhat chronological to Mischa's life. Kinda stops being so after track 8.

1. Wedding Dance from Fiddler on the Roof
LOLOL RUSSIAN

2. Beirut - Prenzlauerberg
Life is depressing because of that.

3. Gang of Four - To Hell With Poverty!
Drink and be merry, for tomorrow the resistance may die.

To hell with poverty
We'll get drunk on cheap wine

4. Regina Spektor - The Flowers
Konstantin's death and the aftermath.

The flowers you gave me are rotting and still I refuse to throw them away
Some of the bulbs never opened quite fully
They might so I'm waiting and staying awake
Things I have loved I'm allowed to keep
I'll never know if I go to sleep

5. Green Day - Westbound Sign
Getting through the Iron Cutain.

Boxed up
All of her favorite things
Sold the rest at a rainy yard sale
Big plans and leaving friends and
A westbound sign
Weighed out
Her choices on a scale
Prevailing nothing made sense
Just transportation and a
Blank decision...

She's taking off

6. Sonic Youth - The Sprawl
Newfound freedom, sexually and socially.

To the extent that I wear skirts
And cheap nylon slips
I've gone native
I wanted to know the exact dimension of hell
Does this sound simple?
Fuck you! Are you for sale?
Does 'Fuck you' sound simple enough?
This was the only part that turned me on
But he was candy all over

Come on down to the store
You can buy some more, and more, and more, and more

7. Panda Bear - Take Pills
The less than savory period.

surely there is
no substitute
for company
my mom's ripping
off her hands
one flake at a time
all her children left the house
and left her all alone
but just like she'd tell me
things get better
just wait
and you'll see

take one day at a time
everything else you can leave behind
only one thing at a time
anything more really hurts your mind
i don't want for us to
take pills
anymore
not that it's bad
i don't want for us to take pills
because we're stronger
and we don't need them

8. PJ Harvey - This Is Love
Her first meeting with Paolo.

I can't believe that life's so complex
When I just want to sit here and watch you undress

This is love, this is love
That I'm feeling

Does it have to be a life full of dread
I wanna chase you round the table, I wanna touch your head

I can't believe that the axis turns on suffering
When you taste so good
I can't believe that the axis turns on suffering
When my head burns

This is love, this is love
That I'm feeling

9. The Beatles - Sexy Sadie
Mischa's sexy. Duh.

Sexy Sadie, what have you done?
You made a fool of everyone
Sexy Sadie ooh what have you done
Sexy Sadie you broke the rules
You layed it down for all to see
Sexy Sadie oooh you broke the rules
One sunny day the world was waiting for a lover
She came along to turn on everyone
Sexy Sadie is the greatest of them all
Sexy Sadie how did you know
The world was waiting just for you?

10. My Bloody Valentine - I Believe
Mischa's kinky side.

Taste my (head) and twist my heart
Oh can't you see that I believe
Crawl around and kiss the ground
Oh come back come back come back

Come back with me
And I'll show you that I really believe
Come over me
Where I bleed I bleed I bleed
...
Come with me and I'll come with you
Oh, I'll do whatever you will do
Play with me and I'll play with you
Ooh, ooh, ooh</i>

11. The Velvet Underground and Nico - Femme Fatale
Self explanatory.

Here she comes, you better watch your step
She's going to break your heart in two, it's true It's not hard to realize
Just look into her false colored eyes
She builds you up to just put you down, what a clown
'Cause everybody knows (She's a femme fatale)
The things she does to please (She's a femme fatale)
She's just a little tease (She's a femme fatale)
See the way she walks
Hear the way she talks
You're put down in her book
You're number 37, have a look

12. The Jimi Hendrix Experience - Foxey Lady
Again... self explanatory.

Foxy, Foxy
You know you are a cute little heart breaker
Foxy yeah,
And you know you are a sweet little lover maker
Foxy

I wanna take you home, yeah
I won't do you no harm
You've got to be all mine, all mine
ooh Foxy Lady

13. Pixies - I've Been Tired
Mischa from Trent's POV

I tell a tale of a girl, but I call her a woman
She's a little bit older than me
Strong legs, strong face, voice like milk, breasts like a cluster of grapes
I can't escape the ways she raise me
She'll make you feel like Solomon be one of your babies even if you had no one
(And while we're at it baby, why don't you tell me one of your biggest fears?)
Took my sleep after setting my loins on fire
But that's OK because...

I've been tired

14. The Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Date With the Night
Mischa cruisin' for tail.

Don't tell me to fix her
Don't tell me to fix her
Well, just take a bite
No hang, no picture
Flying out my sight
Dropping brides at the altar
With both thighs squeeze tight

Choke choke choke choke choke choke choke choke choke choke choke choke choke choke choke choke choke

I'll set you, I'll set it off

15. The Waitresses - I Know What Boys Like
She does.

I know what boys like
I know what guys want
I see them looking

I make them want me
I like to tease them
They want to touch me
I never let them

BONUS SONG to piss Alex off (because I'm her BFF and I'm allowed): Hall and Oates - Man Eater

Oh here she comes
Watch out boy she'll chew you up
Oh here she comes
She's a maneater

All here

Halloween mix

2009-10-25T01:43:48Z

Medium: General
Subject: Halloween
Title: Hell Itself Breathes Out Contagion To This World
Warning: WOO SCARY. Well, maybe. I know some of the audio clips I included enduringly freak me out. I recommend the HAL thing as a doorbell ringer for trick or treaters somehow. I know I'd run like hell.
Notes: I apologize for using a couple of songs from other mixes, as I hate doing that, but they were too perfectly fitting to not include.

1. The B-52's - Planet Claire

Planet Claire has pink air
All the trees are red
No one ever dies there
No one has a head

2. Tom Waits - The Ocean Doesn't Want Me

I'll open my head and let out all of my time
I'd love to go drowning
And to stay and to stay
But the ocean doesn't want me today

3. They Might Be Giants - Exquisite Dead Guy

Exquisite dead guy
Rotating in his display case
Exquisite dead guy
Swear I saw his mouth move

4. Basil Rathbone reads The Raven by Edgar Allan Poe

5. Bauhaus - Departure

So pulling himself up
And stepping through pools of moonlight and shadow
He made his bleary way across the room towards the door
And slowly, apprehensively, raised the latch

The latch became a fingertip, touching his own

6. Radiohead - We Suck Young Blood (Your Time Is Up)

Our veins are thin
Our rivers poisoned
We want the sweet meats
We want the young blood

7. Amon Tobin - El Wraith

8. REDRUM!

9. Bauhaus - Bela Lugosi's Dead

The bats have left the bell tower
The victims have been bled
Red velvet lines the black box
Bela Lugosi's dead

10. Library Tapes - Departures (Burning Saints For Your Own Sins)

11. Misfits - Halloween

Bonfires burning bright
pumpkin faces in the night
I remember Halloween
dead cats hanging from poles
little dead are out in droves
I remember Halloween

12. AFI - Totalimmortal

I hear them calling
I feel them gnawing out holes
all through out our flawless souls

13. Willy Wonka's Lazy River

14. Nina Simone - Pirate Jenny

By noontime the dock is a-swarmin' with men
comin' out from the ghostly freighter
They move in the shadows
where no one can see
And they're chainin' up people and they're bringin' em to me
askin' me,
"Kill them NOW, or LATER?"
Askin' ME!
"Kill them now, or later?"

15. Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds - Up Jumped the Devil

Who's that hangin' from the gallow tree?
His eyes are plucked but he looks like me

16. The Beatles - Run For Your Life (I included this more for personal reasons. This song scared the crap out of me as a kid when we listened to it in the car after costume shopping. ..I was easily frightened by the masks)

Let this be a sermon,
I mean everything I said,
Baby, I’m determined,
And I’d rather see you dead.
You’d better run for your life if you can, little girl,
Hide your head in the sand, little girl.
Catch you with another man,
That’s the end - ah, little girl.

17. Vincent Price reads Ozymandias by Percy Bysshe Shelley

18. Sonic Youth - Trilogy: B) Hyperstation

Smashed-up against a car at three A.M.
Kids just up for basketball, beat me in my head
There's bum trash in my hall and my place is ripped
I've totaled another amp, I'm calling in sick

It's an anthem in a vacuum on a hyperstation
Day dreaming days in a daydream nation

19. A Human Error.

20. Vera Lynn - We'll Meet Again (Owl Tiem Mix) (This one recalls the song at the end of the shining, and the mix edits are creepy, so in it goes)

Whole list here

BONUS TRACKS: Added after I realized this mix was overloaded on the hellish. Here's some more lightheartedness~
A. Outkast - Dracula's Wedding
B. The Monster Mash

Enjoy :D

I made this for fanmix, but flist gets it first~

2009-09-23T03:33:59Z

Medium: Movies
Fandom: Inglourious Basterds
Subject: The Basterds and Shoshanna
Title: Here They Come!
Warning: None, really, except for people who haven't seen it, I guess.
Notes: A spur of the moment mix I made within about half an hour out of the powers that be (aka boredom). The result is a magical, romantic period composition, punk, spaghetti western, German anthem extravaganza! I haven't made a mix of something recent before, so hopefully the budding fandom will approve. There's a combination of general songs and a few songs for specific Basterds. Enjoy :D

1. Nico - Das Lied Der Deutschen

Deutschland, Deutschland über alles,
Über alles in der Welt,
Wenn es stets zum Schutz und Trutze
Brüderlich zusammenhält;
Von der Maas bis an die Memel,
Von der Etsch bis an den Belt:
Deutschland, Deutschland über alles,
Über alles in der Welt!
Deutschland, Deutschland über alles,
Über alles in der Welt...

Once upon a time, in Nazi occupied France...

2. Primus - Los Bastardos

Here they come!
Here they come!

SHUT UP YOU BASTARDS

The Basterds come marching through.

3. Suicidal Tendencies - Institutionalized

Wait, what are we talking about?! We decided?! My best interest?!
How can you know what my best interest is?
How can you say what my best interest is?
What are you trying to say? I'm crazy? When I went to your schools,
I went to your churches, I went to your institutional learning facilities.
So how can you say I'm crazy?

They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead

I'm not crazy - institution
You're the one who's crazy - institution
You're driving me crazy - institution

They take me to an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

HUGO STIGLITZ. Living proof that indoctrination through force is not always an effective method.

4. Primus - My Name Is Mud

I'd drink the finest except I haven't earned a dime
in several months--or were it years?
The breath on that fat bastard could bring any man to tears.
We had our words, a common spat.
So I kissed him upside the cranium with an aluminum baseball bat.

Donny Donowitz: The Bear Jew, knocking heads out of the park.

5. Black Flag - You Bet We've Got Something Personal Against You!

The Basterds and Shoshanna never meet, but the common grudge against the Nazis is blindingly obvious.

6. Vienna Teng - I Don't Feel So Well

I don't feel so well
I thought you should know before you fall
I don't call them back
I thought you should know before you fall

I saw it begin to dawn on us both
and somehow it wasn't surprising
and so you're preparing to swear every oath
but all the while, I'm realizing:
I can't love you there

I thought you should know before you fall

Shoshanna has lost the ability to feel after her experiences with the Nazis, and now it's time to take revenge.

7. Chopin - Ballade 2, Rubenstein

The calm before the storm, or rather, the tension before the explosion.

8. David Bowie - Life On Mars?

It's a god-awful small affair
To the girl with the mousy hair
But her mummy is yelling, "No!"
And her daddy has told her to go
But her friend is nowhere to be seen
Now she walks through her sunken dream
To the seat with the clearest view
And she's hooked to the silver screen
But the film is a saddening bore
For she's lived it ten times or more
She could spit in the eyes of fools
As they ask her to focus on

Sailors fighting in the dance hall
Oh man! Look at those cavemen go
It's the freakiest show
Take a look at the lawman
Beating up the wrong guy
Oh man! Wonder if he'll ever know
He's in the best selling show
Is there life on Mars?

After watching Nazi propaganda for so long, Shoshanna's film within a film is the least she can repay.

9. Ennio Morricone - The Man With the Harmonica

And the curtains rise.

10. Iggy Pop & the Stooges - Search & Destroy

I'm a street walking cheetah with a heart full of napalm
I'm a runaway son of the nuclear A-bomb
I am the world's forgotten boy
The one who searches and destroys

Honey gotta help me please
Somebody gotta save my soul
Baby detonate for me

Look out honey, 'cause I'm using technology
Ain't got time to make no apology
Soul radiation in the dead of night
Love in the middle of a fire fight

The climax - The plans unite; beams fall, every(Nazi)one dies.

11. Noel Coward - Don't Lets Be Beastly to the Germans

Don't let's be beastly to the Germans,
Now our victory is ultimately won.
Let us treat them very kindly,
As we would a valued friend.
We might them out some bishops,
As a form of lease and lend.

Let's be sweet to them
And day by day repeat to them
That sterilization simply isn't done.
Let's sweetly sympathize again,
And help the scum to rise again,
But don't let's be beastly to the Hun.

We must be kind
And with an open mind,
We must endeavour to find a way
To let the Germans know
That now the war is over,
They are not the ones who have to pay.

We must be sweet
And tactful and discreet,
And now they've suffered defeat,
We mustn't let
Them feel upset,
Or ever get the feeling
That we're cross with them or hate them.
Our future policy must be to reinstate them.

Don't let's be beastuly to the Germans,
For they're civilized,
When all is said and done.
Though they gave us science, culture, art, and music, to excess,
They also gave us two world wars and Dr. Rudolph Hess.

Let's be meek to them
And turn the other cheek to them,
And try to arouse their latent sense of fun.
Let's give them full air parity,
And treat the rats with charity,
But don't let's be beastly to the Hun!

Don't let's be beastly to the Germans.
You can't deprive a gangster of his gun!
Though they've been a little naughty
To the Czechs and Poles and Dutch,
I can't believe those countries
Really minded very much.

Let's be free with them
And share the BBC with them.
We mustn't prevent them basking in the sun!
Let's soften their defeat again,
And build their bloody fleet again,
But don't let's be beastly to the Hun!

I thought this would have been perfect following the final scene, considering the grotesquely tongue-in-cheek nature of it.

The whole mix here.

And a bonus video! For all the Bear Jew fans, because I know you're out there. I tried to find an actual audio file for this, but it proved impossible (except William Hung, which... I don't think would have worked) Thanks for downloading, happy listening~

AND YAY FOR ALEX'S COVERS <3

Stamps and such

2007-04-20T19:51:00Z

I felt like cleaning out my userinfo, so I'm putting my lesser fandom stuff here. Hellsing and Azumanga are still in my profile, though.

at my own community <3 Also the only Dawn!Walter there.

Stamps for my OCs from affinity_rating

Agent Sixty

I will not stand for this


Everyone Feels This Pain
Show your support

We start, then, with nothing, pure zero. But this is not the nothing of negation. For not means other than, and other is merely a synonym of the ordinal numeral second. As such it implies a first; while the present pure zero is prior to every first. The nothing of negation is the nothing of death, which comes second to, or after, everything. But this pure zero is the nothing of not having been born. There is no individual thing, no compulsion, outward nor inward, no law. It is the germinal nothing, in which the whole universe is involved or foreshadowed. As such, it is absolutely undefined and unlimited possibility -- boundless possibility. There is no compulsion and no law. It is boundless freedom.

Charles S. Peirce, "Logic of Events" (1898)

Join the Blue Ribbon Online Free Speech Campaign!

"Will you walk into my parlor?" said the spider to the fly;
"'Tis the prettiest little parlor that ever you may spy.
The way into my parlor is up a winding stair,
And I have many curious things to show when you are there."
"Oh no, no," said the little fly; "to ask me is in vain,
For who goes up your winding stair can ne'er come down again."

"I'm sure you must be weary, dear, with soaring up so high.
Well you rest upon my little bed?" said the spider to the fly.
"There are pretty curtains drawn around; the sheets are fine and thin,
And if you like to rest a while, I'll snugly tuck you in!"
"Oh no, no," said the little fly, "for I've often heard it said,
They never, never wake again who sleep upon your bed!"

Said the cunning spider to the fly: "Dear friend, what can I do
To prove the warm affection I've always felt for you?
I have within my pantry good store of all that's nice;
I'm sure you're very welcome - will you please to take a slice?"
"Oh no, no," said the little fly; "kind sir, that cannot be:
I've heard what's in your pantry, and I do not wish to see!"

"Sweet creature!" said the spider, "you're witty and you're wise;
How handsome are your gauzy wings; how brilliant are your eyes!
I have a little looking-glass upon my parlor shelf;
If you'd step in one moment, dear, you shall behold yourself."
"I thank you, gentle sir," she said, "for what you're pleased to say,
And, bidding you good morning now, I'll call another day."

The spider turned him round about, and went into his den,
For well he knew the silly fly would soon come back again:
So he wove a subtle web in a little corner sly,
And set his table ready to dine upon the fly;
Then came out to his door again and merrily did sing:
"Come hither, hither, pretty fly, with pearl and silver wing;
Your robes are green and purple; there's a crest upon your head;
Your eyes are like diamond bright, but mine are dull as lead!"

Alas, alas! how very soon this silly little fly,
Hearing his wily, flattering words, came slowly flitting by;
With buzzing wings she hung aloft, then near and nearer grew,
Thinking only of her brilliant eyes and green and purple hue,
Thinking only of her crested head. Poor, foolish thing! at last
Up jumped the cunning spider, and fiercely held her fast;
He dragged her up his winding stair, into the dismal den -
Within his little parlor - but she ne'er came out again!

And now, dear little children, who may this story read,
To idle, silly flattering words I pray you ne'er give heed;
Unto an evil counselor close heart and ear and eye,
And take a lesson from this tale of the spider and the fly.

nezbit @ 2010-04-29T20:52:00

2006-04-30T00:53:05Z

Humanity i love you
because you would rather black the boots of
success than enquire whose soul dangles from his
watch-chain which would be embarrassing for both

parties and because you
unflinchingly applaud all
songs containing the words country home and
mother when sung at the old howard

Humanity i love you because
when you're hard up you pawn your
intelligence to buy a drink and when
you're flush pride keeps

you from the pawn shops and
because you are continually committing
nuisances but more
especially in your own house

Humanity i love you because you
are perpetually putting the secret of
life in your pants and forgetting
it's there and sitting down

on it
and because you are
forever making poems in the lap
of death Humanity

i hate you

E.E. Cummings

New public

2004-12-07T03:08:14Z

Leave one.