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ジョジョ奇妙な冒険ー 30 Days Meme

2013-03-12T16:27:03Z

Any title marked in red contains spoilers!

Favorite JoJo

This charming shitbag.
I think a part of me already was sold when I saw him in the Bloody Stream OP.

Favorite villain

NO ONE SHOULD BE SURPRISED. Dio is really hot and truly wicked and yet still manages to remain one of the most tragic personalities in JOJO fanwork.
What with lines like「お前のいない世界なんていらない」

gdi dio nnkr kono unmei

Favorite character

You had me at 'Mamma Mia'.
no one needs an essay about how much I love him so yeah ok

A character that you wish wasn’t dead

Favorite stand

Crazy D for its really...incredible ability, really. Healing and fixing everyone except for its user...that's wonderful, interesting and very kind.
Then Sex Pistols because HOW CAN YOU NOT LIKE THESE KIDS they're so cute! Everyone is so full of individual personality hgjkd squishes them all

Favorite minor character

Sugar Mountain is a complete cutie and one of my favorite characters in Steel Ball Run. She is the cutest and I love her Stand...though it isn't exactly hers.

ALSO NEVER FORGET MIKITAKA, CUTE ALIEN BOY FROM PART4 I LOVE HIM GHGHGHHGHG /floor

Least favorite villain
Funny Valentine.......though in terms of 'what the hell are you doing' I guess Diavolo's kinda BAD because I still have 0 fucking clue why he wants to take over the world. At least Valentine was kinda all IM DOING IT FOR AMERICA.

Least favorite character
Funny Valentine once more. Because:
1) His ability was so ridiculous it was even worse than King Crimson, which was tbh kinda cool and amusing
2) Just when you thought it was over, lol nope (x75983759858374)
3) He did shit to my babies and I will never forgive you omfg
4) His fight was SO. GODDAMN. LONG. IT WAS BASICALLY LIKE 20-30 CHAPTERS, EACH CHAPTER'S LIKE 50 PAGES.
5) His fight kind of ruined SBR for me because he was such a horrible villain, it was severely tedious to read the back half...
6) Even Cars is less of an asshole than he is goddamn it Valentine you don't even look as good as Cars

Favorite friendship
While everyone knows I'm sort of in love with Joseph+Caesar, in terms of group dynamics it's gotta be these guys:

Favorite ship

If we're talking canon, it HAS to be these two. Shhh i just like them a lot OK and I hardly understand why.
Must be Annasui's devotion to persistence, Jotaro/Fate's cockblocking and Jolyne's 'she's da man' attitude.

Favorite non-canon ship
Technically I have A LOT of ships but okay. Top three-ish.

As if it weren't obvious enough how much I like these two dumbasses already.
They'd die for each other man. ~~And then one of them actually does.~~

When it comes to Jonathan, I sincerely believe that no one can feel the way Dio feels towards him. I love how fanwork attempts to redeem Dio by showing much pain he feels as a result of his actions regarding his relationship with Jonathan. Somehow it's like you recognize that while this is totally Not Okay, a part of me just wants to believe in them still.

Though it was unobtainable in the end, I wish you both happiness in the next world.

My recent thing. They grew on me really fast. Stupid little shitsukoi Diego and Hot Pants being cool, aggressive and in-charge...and lmfao the things they did to each other when they decided to team up couldn't be hotter.

And then honorary mention to Dio/Joseph (harhar) how can you resist Koyasu/Sugita
Recently I've also been growing fond of Caesar and Wham idk why

Favorite story arc

Great main cast, an interesting and challenging villain, and overall really beautiful relationships and feel. They grow on you like...annoying friends...
Their 青春　is something I can really spend forever reading about. Part 4 didn't feel very long at all.

Least favorite story arc
This one honestly depends on taste and all but I have two LMFAO.

First off, I didn't really enjoy Vento Aureo because it was long as hell, the assassins were made to be so interesting by pixiv and their designs that the fact they showed up only to die was REALLY ANNOYING. Plus everyone had no personality. I like Risotto because he kinda showed potential? But that's it. And Diavolo was like this contrite villain I don't even. What was the whole point of his EXISTENCE lmfao.

And then next would be Steel Ball Run...which might not be my least fav tbh but I want to complain about it.
Tthe problem is that I'm not as fond of the designs and characters in SBR - I even like Vento Aureo's better LMFAO, and I felt like I couldn't connect with the main characters AT ALL...while in Part 5, at least I liked Giorno+Mista+Bruno a whole fucking lot. In SBR I was very neutral about Johnny and Gyro despite their problems and development. SBR with its gray morality was great to explore and observe, but...overall, definitely not my favorite. STILL IT HAS REALLY GOOD INTERACTION and cute side characters and interesting Stands. But then Valentine is so annoying I am literally crying blood, he's worse than Diavolo and the boss battle was so tedious I fell asleep.

A scene that made you sad

The end of Stone Ocean. Obvious spoilers.
What the fuck Pucci man why did you have to do that. Now I don't even know what happened to the universe, the whole timeline is officially fucked up - have the struggles of the Joestar bloodline been erased? There's this profound sadness and hope about the end of Part6 because...what happened to Parts 1-5? Are they really gone? And it's basically like erasing the struggles Jolyne went through in Stoen Ocean too ugkjd.

A scene that made you angry
EVERYTHING RELATED TO VALENTINE
BUT ESPECIALLY EVERY SCENE INVOLVING HIM AND DIEGO

goddammit valentine

A scene that made you happy
Remember that part in Part 4 where Okuyasu nearly died
and then he came back

i was so happy i sat there and yelled at josuke

...oh and LMFAO Killer Queen Act 3 nearly killing Rohan that one time
THEN SUDDENLY YO LOCAL TIME LOOP, ACTUALLY ROHAN GETS TO LIVE LOL
I was really happy omg lmfao

Most epic moment
there's a lot in JOJO but props goes to Stone Ocean tbh!!
the ending where Emporio runs off to the New Universe and Pucci is like COME BACK HERE YOU after him...
then when Emporio's all trapped with nowhere to run and then suddenly BAM WEATHER REPORT and i was like holy fucking shit lmfao

then the universe exploded again

Favorite manga cover(s)

I found something really hot about this one and it's one of the covers I really remember super clearly. SO.

Favorite fight
GIORNO X MISTA VS GREEN DAY
it was basically this

DIEGO X HOT PANTS VERSUS FUNNY VALENTINE
it was amazing and it was hot

JOSEPH VERSUS WHAM
a true warrior's fight, i cried so much because of the bandana and the end gdi

A character you feel you are most like
I...honestly have no clue LMFAO I feel really bad if I go associate myself with someone like that because everyone is super amazing.

For the record I've been lumped with Caesar before but.../flips him out of window

Favorite chapter
More like chapter arc I guess how about

HIGHWAY STAR

i laughed so much and i just. rohan you are the greatest, what on earth are you and josuke trying to accomplish LMFHSJKHFJK

Funniest character

my endless source of entertainment HE'S SO FUNNY
HE GETS ALL GRR AT THE WEIRDEST SHIT, SAYS THE BEST THINGS, AND THEN IS JUST A RECLUSIVE CONSTIPATED ASSHOLE ABOUT E V E R Y T H I N G
kishibe rohan more like kishibabe rohan

Most annoying character
have you heard of funny valentine -- ok no i'm sorry

actually i have this grudge against fugo so i'll put him here because why didn't you swim after the boat you little shit

Something you wished didn’t happen
the ending of Stone Ocean
give me back my feelings
it made me really confused lmfoahjgkfd COMPLICATED EMOTIONS EVERYWHERE

Something that you wish happened, but didn’t
at least give the diego brando of this based world a proper sendoff ugh
he didn't even get a flashback even though he had such big ambitions and powerful drive because of what happened to his mother and that was HUGE
even soundman got a dying monologue, even wekapipo got introspective chapters, so why didn't diego

Favorite line/quote
「そして時が動き出す」
somehow i feel that ZA WARUDO's lines embody themes and desires in every arc, i think that's truly very meaningful.

「だが断る」
because rohan's method of I REFUSE is the best

there's also ~DO YOU BELIEVE IN GRAVITY?~

but my favorite line has got to be

SHUT UP, LET IT BURN!!

~~A character~~ Characters you wish ~~was~~ were real

Out of all my biases, they would probably 1) not eradicate humanity 2) reach their GOOD END here.
they deserve a good end come on

Or maybe Giorno so I can laugh at his GANG*STAR thing and draw a ":)" in marker on his hairless chest.

A character you would like to know more about

He showed up, nearly massacred the arc's final boss, and is the leader of this bunch of guys who betrayed the main organisation but are also going after Giorno and co.? That is a very interesting position that IMO should be developed more...like his own personal goals, motivations, involvement in the story and such. Risotto has a REALLY INTERESTING STAND (one of my favs) so it's a real pity we barely know shit about him.

I mean come on just look at Metallica

isn't it cute

If you could change something (character, story, etc.)
I have nothing against you, Pucci, in fact I rather like you but what if you and Dio had never met.
Would he still be the antagonist, would he have different goals this time?
actually it'd probably change Stone Ocean as we know it so hey it'd be interesting

Why do you love JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure?
I fell in love with its aggressively forward-moving characters, the friendships and the strong family themes that are ever-present, and Araki's sense of design. It's incredibly inspiring, and while every character isn't all 'good' or 'bad' because they all have flaws - they've managed to worm their ways into my life and now I am sunk.

nerrin @ 2012-04-10T00:29:00

2012-04-09T16:28:41Z

as requested by uncle priest.

........ok so i didn't want to watch Chihayafuru at first because I was like "it looks shiny but then why is it shojo /puts down" because yes, I am prejudiced against shojo. I have had a lot of bad experiences before, so I was kinda scarred.

But then I heard Hosoya was gonna be in it and wtf it was shiny so I tried it out anyway.
Today I am carrying a lot of feelings over it because of that. GJ self, it was a wise decision to pick it up in the first place, and ty Priest for chasing me to finish it, and ty self for actually finishing it.

So basically fsdfhdsk the main character is so cute, CHIHAYA IS ADORABLE AS A KID, THOUGH REALLY....MUDA BIJIN TO THE MAX NOW............her level of obliviousness to love makes me want to roll her into a springroll but somehow I PREFER IT LIKE THIS. PLEASE CONTINUE TO BE MOE LIKE THIS. I DO NOT WANT ANY OF THAT RIDICULOUS DOKIDOKI FEERINGS TO DESTROY THIS SHOWWWWW. Because wtf, Chihayafuru is less about TWO GUYS ONE GIRL and more about TWO GUYS ONE GIRL ONE BIG FAMILY ;___; CRIES ALL THE BROMANCE IS BAD FOR MY HEARTTTT

I mean uuu watching everyone develop and get serious about Karuta a a competitive sport. Karuta actually being damn exciting and somehow blindsiding the romansu and becoming a platform for it. Getting more teammates one by one and growing closer and getting stronger....I like seeing people move forward......

o so basically my reactions are mostly just Kjashkajshajshas VS UUUUUUURRRRHgHGHH ARATAAAAAA because while Arata aka Hosoya is away in Fukui and attaining deity-status amongst his friends, I like how he's like...not all-powerful. He's not the best at Karuta and is still SUPER FAR from being a Master. But he's good and he's so far away but he's still trying hard and i want to fluff his hair when he appears He IS SO FLUFFY AND MOEEEEE

then ep20, can i just have my heart back. ot3 life....bromance life.........arata coming back to karuta ide i wept all over it sob. him and taichi are cute. him and chihaya also cute. arata why are you so bulliable, so moe. when taichi was like "he's back. arata's back." i think i just lost it LMAO

then i cried when chihaya called arata on...christmas?? forgot the date but idk why i cried. I cried a looootttttt then all my "UUUU WHYYY WHYYYYY".

I also ship the current Master and Queen, i think their chemistry very intense.

...ok but s2 where. that was not a conclusion. ep25 cheated my feelings even though I still liked it. SEASON TWO, I NEED.

a big fish in a little pond.

2012-01-04T07:07:45Z

HAPPY 2012 HAVE A POST

- Got into Saint Seiya: The Lost Canvas. Fuck El Cid for being hot and fuck Kardia for being PRECIOUS and fuck Aspros for being so bigheaded, and fuck Asmita for being flawless and beautiful. THESE ARE MY TOP 4...

- Watched the Wicked Musical last week, goddamn the tears I cried ;____; I want to finish the 4th book now because LIIRRRRRRR (he's my favorite character ORZ)

- Also got VERY into Fate/Zero, I like the system a lot. My favorite team from F/Z has to be the Berserker-duo though, because Kariya is beautiful when he's dying and Berserker is a BAMF. While I love Gilgamesh, he's a bit ridiculous and I like making fun of him and Kirei with elle_ryn too much LOL

RIDER PAIR IS STILL PRECIOUS AND BROMANTIC AND I CRIED SO MUCH ABOUT ISKANDAR'S NOBLE PHANTASM OK

- I don't look forward to school duties at all, it brings a sick feeling to my stomach.

AND!!
BL MEME
doing this because tsuruhime showed me this and it seemed fun
also because I have nothing to do!

【Awakening】
1:あなたのオタク歴(801以外含む）、腐女子歴(801）はどのくらいですか？それぞれお答え下さい。
(When did you become an otaku (non-yaoi) and a Fujoshi (yaoi)? Answer each respectively.)

I don't know, I guess it only properly began when I discovered the FMA original anime, after which I very readily took a liking to Envy. I loved the ass, and from one of his AMVs I ended up finding Deidara from Naruto, and ended up falling into that? Though the Great Descent really began when I found out Katekyo Hitman Reborn and started shipping 6918 LMAO. Though the first homopair I shipped was ofc Edward/Envy (FMA), which I...don't remember why I shipped besides "lol envy is pretty hot". I guess I was already an Everyone/Everyone shipper back then LAMO. Up still now I still ship my then-OTPs for Naruto and KHR.

2:初めてパロディ萌えした作品は何ですか？CPも教えてください。
(What was the first series you liked slash for? Please tell the couple.)

As mentioned above, my initial 'big three' were Fullmetal Alchemist, Naruto (specifically Shippuden), and Katekyo Hitman Reborn.
Pairings respectively were Edward/Envy, Sasori/Deidara (or Hidan and Kakuzu huffs) and Mukuro/Hibari. ...Now that I line them up like that, they all seem very dangerous HAHAHA.

3:初めてはまった商業BL作品は何ですか？
(What was your first actual BL series?)

GRAVITATION...........I suffered so much second-hand embarrassment watching it oh god.
WHY DID I WATCH IT AGAIN SOB (Answer: because I saw a Gravitation card deck in a store, and the friend with me was like 'this series is gay, i mean literally gay' and I was like 'guy on guy eh', so I went home to watch it LMAO)

4:初めてプレイしたBLゲームは何ですか？
(What is the first BL game you played?)

I've never played any! I have a Macbook, and most run on PC I think? So, yeah.

5:初めて買ったBLドラマCDは何ですか？
(What’s the first BL drama CD you bought?)

I don't buy drama CDs, and I'm actually not very interested in them. I find them quite pointless for myself (sorry) because I can't understand Japanese. And since my voice recognition is poor (unless it's the singing voice, I can only recognize people when they're singing) I generally can't even get enjoyment out of listening to them even because of seiyuu or anything. So yeah...and I would never spend money on dramaCDs anyway.

Though I admit I DID go off and download Nakai Kazuya's entire drama CD discography at one point because...because I don't know sob. I do love the guy a lot though.

6:同人イベントデビュー（一般参加含む）はいつですか？
(When was your first doujin event debut?)

I don't draw well enough to do doujin! Though I would LOVE to go to comiket and go bankrupt.

7:同人サイトを開設したことはありますか？
(Do you have a doujin site?*)

No, I am not of that level yet ;__; ONE DAY, BUT NOT RIGHT NOW!!

【Inclination】
8:攻について
以下の設定に［◎＝大好物！、○＝割と好き、△＝あんまり…、×＝勘弁してください］で答えてください。
(Concerning the ‘seme’: Assign them to your preferences.
［◎＝Something I love!、○＝Like relatively well、△＝Don’t like very much、×＝ give me a break!］)

オヤジ (older men) → ○ (DEPENDS WHAT KIND OF OLD MAN YOU ARE, YOU KNOW??)
ショタ (shota) → ×
鬼畜 (brutish) → ◎
強引 (pushy) → ○
へたれ (pitiful) → ◎◎
ワンコ (devoted) → ○
ワイルド (wild) → ◎◎◎◎◎
ツンデレ (tsundere) → ◎◎◎
不器用 (awkward) → ◎◎◎◎◎◎◎◎◎◎◎◎
メガネ (glasses) → × (well ok i don't like ~smooth~ megane types)

9:受について
以下の設定に［◎＝大好物!、○＝割と好き、△＝あんまり…、×＝勘弁してください］で答えてください。
(Concerning the ‘uke’: Assign them to your preferences.
［◎＝Something I love!、○＝Like relatively well、△＝Don’t like very much、×＝give me a break!］

オヤジ (older men) → ◎◎◎◎◎◎◎◎....... (especially moe. just give me moe. MOE.)
ショタ (shota) → ×××××××× (unless it's slutty porn then ◎ ok)
女王様 (queen-type) → △ (not really)
誘い受 (‘inviting’ type) → ◎◎
襲い受 (‘top’ type) → ◎◎◎◎◎◎
ワンコ (devoted) → ○
ワイルド (wild) → ◎◎◎◎◎◎◎◎◎.........
ツンデレ (tsundere) → ◎◎◎
けなげ (pure) → ××× (unless you're moe and older then ◎, because corrupting people is fun)
メガネ (glasses) → △ (i don't like megane stereotype characters in general)

10:作風・シチュエーションについて
以下の設定に［◎＝大好物、○＝割と好き、△＝あんまり…、×＝勘弁してください］で答えてください。
(Concerning the writing style and situation: Assign them to your preferences.
［◎＝Something I love!、○＝Like relatively well、△＝Don’t like very much、×＝give me a break!］

アホアホ (idiots) → ◎◎◎◎◎...
ダーク (dark) → ◎
リーマンもの (salary men) → ○
学園もの (school setting) → ○
幼馴染み (childhood friends) → ○ (hi kyuugou hi)
主従もの (master/servant) → ○ (depends on characters involved sob)
時代物 (period drama) → ○
ファンタジー (fantasy) → △ (unless PIRATES or ~OUTLAWS~ or some sort of illegal adventure element!! ...then ◎)
総ホモ (100% homo) → △
複数プレイ (threesome, etc.) → ◎ (depends on characters involved.)
リバ (role reversal) → ◎◎◎
下克上 (‘subordinate overtaking superior’) → △ (depends on the subordinate. if he's a jerk then no go away.)
女体化 (feminization) → ×××××
方言 (dialect) → !?!?!?
年の差 (large age difference) → ○ (depends on character.)

11:一番萌える！カップリング設定を教えてください。
（例:へたれ×女王様、部下×上司など）
(Please tell us the hottest coupling setup, in your opinion!
i.e. no-good type x queen, superior x subordinate, etc.)

I don't know, I ship too much of everything to have a set type...I think...
But the one that really makes me screech really has to do with much older people, or growing up and having to leave behind some things to gain others. I think it's because maybe it's my image of growing older, or something. Two people and their own personal problems, growing older and tbh the clincher is the inability to express oneself. I like pairs where both, or one, simply cannot communicate properly even though they desperately want to.

...And on the other end of the spectrum I just like it crazy and hot and very very handsome on both ends. :9 I don't care if you're a gangster a pirate or a businessman or what age, as long as it's handsome and dirty and NO ONE pulls that "noooo it hurtssss" thing.
basically this is where all my terrible preference for wild pairings comes from.

and in case you haven't noticed i really really like people with pretty illegal occupations so elements of that would be nice, yeah.

12:上のリストには無かったけど、これは萌え！or萎え！なものがあれば叫んでください。
(Please give a type that isn’t in the above list that makes you excited or dissatisfied!)

I like highly competitive pairs also, but only in certain combinations (aka bighead dumbass vs the tsundere idiot etc)...actually tbh I don't know, I just like what I like soooob. Also girly uke and shota get on my nerves, and I am SO sick of student!seme/teacher!uke ok.
Also no doctors, I don't really like the doctor stereotype.

【Currently】
13:作家買いしているBL作家さんはいますか？（何人でも！）
(Do you currently have any authors that you seek out to buy? (As many people as you want!))

I only care about Kyuugou because she is my personal god ok
But still, I would only really buy stuff from Kyuugou, or Sumomo Yumeka. Both of them are masters in the art of producing heartfelt stories ;__;
Also I really like Suekane Kumiko and I would buy her stuff but not her BL works so idk if that even counts

14:毎月BL系の雑誌を何冊くらい買っていますか？
(Around how many of the BL monthly magazines do you buy?)

NONE, I READ IT ALL ONLINE
LIKE A PIRATE

15:毎月BLコミックスを何冊くらい買っていますか？
(Around how many BL comics do you buy each month?)

NONE, I'M TOO CHEAPSKATE FOR THAT AND ALL MY MONEY WENT INTO BUYING SAINT SEIYA - THE LOST CANVAS.

16:今一番アツいジャンル（or作品）は何ですか？
またそれについて熱い思いを語ってください。
(Currently, what’s the ‘in’ genre (or work)?
Please talk about your thoughts on this trend.)

I have no idea, I've been out of it for awhile. I've never really paid much attention, I guess. It seems like there's quite a thing with going for old or more handsome men these days, but at the same time it's not like the pretty and lean bishonen types are losing any popularity either...everything is still as it is, only just...slightly more popularized.

I don't even know what I'm saying sob but TL;DR I don't know and I don't really care
I just want to ship my people

【In Closing】
17:バトンを回す5人を指名してください。
(Please name five people you’ll pass the baton to.)

i refuse, please do this only if you want to!

another one of those days

2011-11-19T15:54:34Z

► INAZUMA GO I'm actually catching up with it and I LOVE IT SO MUCH O M G. It's like...a totally different spin that still carries the same feelings of i11 sakka. I thought it was SLOW, I take it back. Every match is now x100 more dramatic and intense with the whole Fifth Sector and Avatar (a la PERSONAS!!!) stuff. I tend to really enjoy all this FIGHT AGAINST THE TYRANNY thing so THIS IS GREAT.

Also, I love how each character from Raimon is designed in a way that allows each of them to have their own time in the spotlight?? It's like I never forget anyone anymore, and I actually had so many emotional moments watching inaGO HAHAHA. It's been so long since I last felt the whole "COME ON GUYS WIN ITTTTT" thing. ;__;

also i love tsurugi everyone go away
and I'm somehow randomly suepr attached to Kurama??? IDK ANYMORE I LOVE EVERYTHING Q__Q also omg I love the TYL characters arghghh I seem to ship everything harder when they're older sob
I need new icons huffs

► MOVIES watched some recently, aaaand.

Real Steel is just utter BADASSERY lmao I loved it. A straightforward underdog story featuring robot boxing. Just enough action, just enough "awww ;__;" moments, along with the whole father-son thing AND robots? No wonder I enjoy it so much. Great action, really cool universe, and it's a simple yet interesting concept. I think it's blunt, heartwarming and exciting. Expecting something abstract would just be pretentious. Also the OST is just gangsta to the max ok. /DLed it

500 Days of Summer ...was alright. Really not my kind of story but I liked how they told it. Very, very smooth, very pretty. Really aesthetically pleasing. Sadly I don't really like anyone in the film, and felt pretty much zero emotional connection to it (unless this was the point of the story in the first place). I loved the narrator's lines. They're the best written parts of the film, and the whole film was pretty clever with the editing.

Nine Dead seemed promising, actually not quite. While it had potential, the execution just fell a short of the premise of having "9 people locked up together, 1 dies every 10 minutes, they have to figure out why they're all here to escape". Yet at the same time, I kinda really liked one of the characters. He was just BADASS all the way and tbh, the characters weren't memorable but they were strong in the context of the film. As a side-note, one female character was so irritating it made it hard to watch. (Bonus: there was proper Mandarin in the film!!)

Big Fish - A son tries to reconnect with his dying father by reliving the myths and stories his dad told him of his youth. His dad is badass, and because this film was directed by Tim Burton, it's really prettily done. Southern Gothic tales on top of that. While maybe cliché, I think it's really heartwarming and all my TEARS over it okay. The stories are fun, pretty, epic (my favorite is the one about the creepy town of Spectre)...and it was engaging to watch. Definitely worth my time, and certainly worth the tears.

► SCHOOL gave us iPads to use for a semester. I am busy trying to DL free stuff like apps and games for it OK. I'M TOTALLY WARMING UP TO IT ACTUALLY. Been out and filming for school these few days. IT'S SO PAINFUL ARGHHH because we spend hours of our time outside...everyday is going out now sob, if not for one thing, then for another.

► REALITY - randomly I WANT ANOTHER GAME CONSOLE LMAO. But I think investing in something like a PS3 or w/e would...cost a lot, yet at the same time I selfishly wish I had one :la ...I want one so badly sob (in b4 PS4 or something)

(｀･ω･´)

2011-11-15T17:38:47Z

FIRST OFF thank you everyone who wished me a happy birthday ovo) ♥
being 18 is not exactly a big step yet because I'm halfway through my course and nowhere near graduating but...I'm getting there I suppose!

The day wasn't too bad either, I was surprised quite pleasantly by most of the YJ team, ilu guys!!
by 'YJ team' I mean Young Justice because like I said, we have an unofficial team within the class! And a tumblr to record the weird shit we sometimes say LMAO. I'm their Miss Martian, but I'm not funny okay, so hush.

These days something is happening and I think I've gotten, well...ruder. I don't entirely get it myself but it's like a part of me has more or less stopped caring about censoring a bunch of my thoughts. I don't know if that makes me blunt or just flat-out rude, but ike I said, something's happening. Maybe I'm turning into a deadpan snarker, or I'm just like...deadfish.

Also at the point where I'm considering that I totally made the wrong choice in coming to this course. It was alright in the first year, but the second year is just...I mean, for the love of god. TRASH.
Not only are our CA (aka exam projects, Continual Assessments, that's it) briefs wonderfully confusing, it doesn't tell us what we're supposed to REALLY do at all. Confusing. No samples to refer to. What's the format? NO ONE KNOWS. This is like yeah, my god, utter trash.

The other part is that right now, it seems like they're demanding too much of us again. If only we could study for everything, then I'd at least be still screaming and crying (because come off it, it's not like I don't whine) but slightly more assured that I've done what I can because I guess there's more insecurity with mercurial work. Or something.
The main point is that school right now is demanding shit from us that we don't have the TIME to provide.

Though if I stopped whining and got around to doing it, things will be different. The only problem is, I can't do anything about most of it right now. We're stuck.

TL;DR I hate schoolwork, I feel like my body is giving up on me, CAs are the bane of my LIFE fuck this shit, and I'm questioning my life choices and feeling angry about everything.

WHY CAN'T FYP JUST GET THE FUCK OVER HERE ALREADY
GET OVER HERE AND LET ME GRADUATE

...My theory is that the internet is making me self-destructive and angry, stress from school is not helping, coupled with ever-present boredom and my fickle nature. Maybe I need a hiatus.

Except the only thing that's keeping me from self-destructing from boredom is the computer. So maybe I'll just turn off all means of communication or something.

SCHOOL AAAAAAAAH

2011-10-19T15:50:34Z

- New Intro Post! Now it's Steins;Gate themed, I am very pleased.
- New flavors.me layout! This piece is so soft and pretty. I like the color balancing the fanartist uses.
- Got a last.fm account! It seems I listen to Owl City a bit too much. Add me on there!!!!
- I've been writing a lot recently. It feels good being productive. I'm trying to fill up my fanfiction comm properly now, do keep an eye on it. :)
- My tumblr is becoming a foodblog LMAO

SCHOOL HAS STARTED idk how to feel about this. On one hand some classes seem better than I thought. On the other hand, we're not any less busy these six coming months. Because my GPA was very surprising last semester (3.9...which is nothing short of a miracle) I really hope I can maintain my cumulative GPA after that (and no, it's not 3.9). Expectations, expectations. :/

I've been trying to watch more of the films I've downloaded. Will write more about them later, I suppose?? I've finally watched Thor and X-Men: First Class, and my only comment is that I forgot the former was supposed to be an adaptation of the comic and ended up wondering a bit TOO much, and the latter is a good romance film. Very nicely done.

My desk looks roughly like this right now and here have a closeup. And have the other side too. It better not get worse.

SCHOOL ADVENTURE so after one of the projects last semester we were camping outside the teacher's room and we saw THIS GUY.

It may seem like an ordinary box but here's what we did: it's one of those stage prop boxes, and there was nothing in it. So I was all "LOL try and fit people in it!!" and our group tried to squish inside. Turns out I was the only one who could fit in, and just as i managed to, a teacher walked by and my groupmate slammed the lid down on me LMAO. I didn't know what was going on so I was all "???" Exciting life, trying to be stealthy in boxes. It was dark and cramped.

I've got a million writing projects for utaite lmao they're such a fascinating bunch of people with their quirks, friend circles, song tastes and personalities. But even so, I want to find a new fandom HAHAHA I feel so bored and restless.

Trying to write one of those 'Pick Your Own Adventure' novel-things. It reminds me of the Goosebumps books I used to read AHA. They're quite fun actually, if not confusing sometimes...
and like if i opened fic requests and actually say that I'll finish them who would want me to write stuff?? I need the practice oh man. Writing for fandom is like a foreign concept now.

❤ I'm an angel with a shotgun, fighting till the war's done

2011-08-30T17:18:56Z

FIIIIIIRST. I keep saying I need to come back to LJ but SCHOOL HAS EATEN MY LIFE. Welcome to those I've added anyways!!!! \o/ I am more or less back now cause it's the holidays, I suppose!?

➔ New profile! I've drawn up a quotes page to put down nice words. In case anyone's wondering, the quotes-page image is of Oia, Santorini, in Greece! I would say I have a new layout, but that idiotic vertical ad is fucking it up for me D:

➔ Will quit Colors TCG. It was a fantastic platform for me to reconnect with some people and I love you all dearly, but I simply have no patience. I may go on hiatus but, well, I'll just master whatever I want to first. Then we'll see where it goes. Also, no, you are not allowed to take my cards unless I give them to you. I've no patience for Credits either, so we'll see about that.

Went to Natsu Matsuri, film project's finished. There is food involved here.
A collection of pictures, and of some mostly old news.

Film Project.

First, the cranes. We needed many, many bags. Snapped these pictures on Day One - we had to see what the long staircase would look like if we filled it with cranes.

On the actual day, this was our preparation area. I've got more pictures, but I like this one.
You can't see the thread, but these cranes were strung together.

Filling up the staircase with cranes again. Took about an hour and we were sweating.

I'd rather prance than just walk down the staircase.
Candid shot before filming began. I edited the colors in this; the original looks very greenish-yellowish…

Natsu Matsuri.

Went with Theo and Kuro!
First order of the day: Theo gets separated from us. Can you spot him in the crowd?:

More pictures.

Theo was still fasting so to make time pass faster, I showed him and Kuro Lux-Pain. Which is a game with very great art, a stellar seiyuu cast, and interesting gameplay IMO. The game script isn't perfect, but most of the gist is there. Half my time in-game was spent going through the plot with the lovely main cast and panicking at and loving the "you're the MC therefore you ~know~ this" gameplay. The other half was spent flirting with everyone and trying to max out my affection with one of the guys…and yes, you play as a guy, ok.

Honestly, one of my favorite characters seems to be gay for his childhood friend and there's an in-game fujoshi who asks you which one of them is the seme. Anyway!

At night. I was eating ice cream! I had no idea what to expect though, but thank god it was Mint, not Milk or something. Came out from this. Drank lemon juice with jelly after that.

And then I brought home macaroons! They were really cheap, but wtf so tasty ;__;
I should've bought more.

Food.

I took these pictures AGES ago when I went out and ended up eating this…the color of the pictures is nothing like the originals on my phone. As always, the dull greenish hue is bleh.

Cross-section. Inside is layers of cream, cake, mango and strawberry. It was a very fruity...dessert...

No matter how this may seem, the cake/pie/tart/whatever it was looks even more high-def IRL. I would like to eat there again, because their banana-chocolate ones look terrifying. It's piled on really high...

Sky.

The view outside my room window around dusk. I like clouds!

➔ 999 - I've finally picked up this game again! Thanks, Jazlyn! I'm trying to go for every ending before the True End, and Santa is my favorite hands down I mean oh god, look at him. He's all rude, snide and snark but also really, really intelligent. When he gets all sad I just really wanted to hug him. ;__; Puzzle-solving visual novel with mystery blended into horror; along with good art, characters, writing, and real information incorporated into fiction with amazing symbolism...words cannot describe the greatness of 999. Proper post about it later.

➔ Good People Die - If you see me screaming about this, THIS IS THE 999 SPIRITUAL SUCCESSOR OH MY GODDDDDDDDDD. I want to draw them so bad UNFFFF Sigma is hot and sadkskjdhdaj SO INCOHERENT ABOUT THIS RN

➔ Next Post: a quick analysis of my desktop!! Which is awesome right now, even if I do say so myself, ehehe////

☁ you take to the sky

2011-07-07T11:41:09Z

EXACTLY ONE MONTH. That's how long it's been since my last journal update. I WILL POST MORE LMAO, THERE'S GONNA BE FOOD+PICS IN THE NEXT POST.

► DEVIANTART I actually have one so gogogo I'm like, TRYING to use it lmao. There's actually some stuff there. Fanart is like, a distant dream (for now). Again, I can't 'art' that well yet LOL

► LIFE SKILLZ am trying to learn how to cook+bake. Anyone know a good 'starting point' for this stuff LMAO because I will be embarking on this quest...in September FOR REAL OKAY!!! So far I have basic baking skillz only.

► TELEVISION AND FILM - Someone rec me more things because most of the stuff on my EHD are like, cyberpunk and horror. I need variety. I've been watching a whole bunch and holy shit, why didn't I watch Minority Report sooner, it's beautiful.

I actually watched Legend of the Guardians: The Owls of Ga'Hoole for Owl City; turns out that I am actually a surprisingly big fan of these linear "Hero's Journey" plots. It's so CLASSIC and so...so easy that when I watch it I feel like it's not trying to be 'deep, dark and pretentious'. It's just a straight-up tale of good Owls VS bad Owls. I need more of this simplicity. Somehow it's relaxing.

...YEAH, I DEFINITELY NEED MORE RECS.

► GIJINKA/OCs - STARTED DESIGNING THE TETRIS BLOCKS. Yes, Tetris gijinka. BELIEVE IT! I've also started designing the Greek Gods young generation idiot trio, but ALL THAT HAIR. While I'm still stuck on Apollo's color scheme, Dionysus is so fucking purple in my mind. Actually, my favorite Greek Gods are like, Hermes, Ares and Poseidon LMAO, I'm predictable ok. I'm going to design the older generation later, but that will take SO MUCH TIME ;______; it is damn tedious but I LOVE THEM LOL i can't wait to start on the Egyptians though omg, Horus my bb

► SCHOOL - well, I guess I've come quite a distance since that last time. I like my class, in all honesty. We're not perfect people, but at least I feel like the people here make sense. If anything, drama is minimal (if any) and being elitist is always best left to other courses.

Got inducted into the unofficial Young Justice group in class. I'm Miss Martian, because my class 'name' is Megan. LMAO they surprised me with the 'HELLO, MEGAN!!!!' thing in the morning and I was like '!?' HAHAHA. In the words of our Robin during nap-time: The team that sleeps together, fights together. N'er have truer words been spoken.

There was this activity in class where we had to write scripts of two or more of our classmates, ten years later in time. The results were...interesting. And hilarious. It is also accurate to say that I would pretty much do anything to see Owl City live in Singapore. COME TO SINGAPORE, ADAM ;__;

brb sending my teacher some Joseph Ducreux

Good Evening, shuttle bus!

2011-06-08T06:30:45Z

HELLO NEW FRIENDS name's Nerrin but you can call me Nerr too! I has a intro post here and contact post here! LET US GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER. I'm often on Twitter and MSN. I also clearly have a fetish for N-names, my god why so many 'N' usernames. ANYWAY.

FINALLY MADE MYSELF SOME DEEP-FRIED OREOS - and oh my god, they are fantastic.

It looks scary, but actually it's not so bad!! The brown stuff is pancake mix, fried. :9

And this is how it looks on the inside! Smallpics from here on, cause bigpics are tough.

And this is what happens when I put some Raspberry Ripple ice cream on it! Should've done it when most of the oreos were still hot, cause they taste like a BOMB.

I tried frying some fun-sized Mars Bars because I saw a shop selling Mars balls (deep-fried) before, and I was curious! IN THE END I THINK, TOO MUCH CHOCOLATE THERE, EVEN. Cut them into small bits next time, self! This is my half-consumed fried bar, with ice cream. Still tasted good though. Pic looks much better high-res and upright...anyway. This little frying adventure was quite fun, I'd love to fry more sometime soon, when I'm done recovering from sugar rush 8Db

★ QUIT CHOIR. Best fucking decision of my life.

★ GOT WISDOM TEETH REMOVED. Dustin was gross that day pffttt. Looked like that time I walked into the girl's toilet in school and it looked like a bomb went off inside it (tissue paper and...stuff...everywhere). Got the stitches in my gums removed in the end, and now it feels muuuuuch better than before! Life is good-er again.

★ Getting back to being used to my tablet. Art tumblr is becoming steadily filled and I need to fanart again HAHA. My PC partition BSOD'd on me so many times though, I'm so sick of seeing the color blue at this point fffuuuu. In the end my sketching speed increased to a level which I'm comfy with, and I think it's fact by this point that I CANNOT color properly because I have no technique fffuuuu. Always so sloppy.

★ Went back to watching White Collar. I really love everyone on the right side of the line (ish) and I do like the dialogue, it's very well-written, very nicely shot. In the end it still boils down to certain...defining moments, where you're really just like 'YES' or 'AWWH' or 'OMG ;__;'. It's great.

★ Hyped for Bulletproof Heart's MV on June 13, and All Things Bright And Beautiful on June 14! I truly love My Chemical Romance and Owl City, though stereotypically speaking, some would call that an odd combination of favorites. But I don't really care, music is music - and good music is still music. I love Adam Young; I randomly clicked on a video of him performing Vanilla Twilight live and...I don't know why but man, I cried. Call me crazy but I love his writing and he's become, again, one of my inspirations in life.

Wow, my life inspirations are kind of questionable when placed side by side sometimes.

ANOTHER ENTRY from nowhere!!

2011-05-12T12:37:17Z

taken at night, 4 days ago, after striking a random pose

★ RL - Got new spectacles!! Here is a bigger picture of what I look with them on now. And one from the side! Sorry about the quality HAHA, and seriously now with these spectacles+scarf+hat, my hipster points just +20'd. No, really, it's quite scary how glasses like these can change the whole atmosphere...I want a lightning-themed scarf omg where do I get one ;__;

★ Tumblr - I have an art tumblr at souhi@tumblr!! Follow if you want! IDK when I'll even start posting there though since I've been pretty frustrated about my art recently. Like, idk, I really need to buck up and clean up nicely! Also, learn how to lineart and color properly, because my styles don't match. And that's really bad. I SUCK UUUUUU.

★ Tiger & Bunny - It's actually a surprisingly entertaining show. It has slow moments where it doesn't shine as bright - though seriously, is there really a flawless show - but overall, it has really endearing characters whose interactions make me smile. KEITH IS ADORBZ. AND HEY IVAN WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO GET SCREENTIME INSTEAD OF Y'KNOW, BACKGROUND TIME!? Seriously I am so mad over Ivan (aka Origami Cyclone) and seriously, WHAT has he done other than photobomb??? But he makes me 'EEEE////' something bad anyway...WHY. SOMEONE. TELL ME WHY.

GIVE ME EPISODE 8 SHRIEKS

★ Gokaiger - SUPER SENTAI, SPACE PIRATES, FUCK YEAH BEST COMBI OMG. I watched episode 11 and 12 and died. Everything was just done so well, I can't even complain. Marvelous, please never stop hitting on people. I just, goddamn it, don't make me ship Marvelous/Joe any more than I already do sob. Joe, why are you so woobie when you want to be omg ;___; MY BABY. There were just...so many bromance, kizuna, trust, moments I just kind of fangirled myself to death. And then the whole way Marvelous and Joe's relationship was expanded on, from how it began to how they are right now...man. I just...unf.

★ School - IS ACTUALLY SEEMINGLY LESSENING LIKE, FUCK YES. Cause choir vocal auditions, I was there talking to the people there, it was pretty cool! I met quite a few interesting people:

Noisy girls, one girl that had this AMAZING voice, someone that reminded me of Kurt from Glee, a Malaysian-Singaporean who looked Korean-hipster with this great voice, and a Vietnamese with this really cool British accent and totally rad taste in music, etc. AND a really amazing girl who was also into tokusatsu omg. She was like, 'Ore...sanjou. /POSE' and I blurted out "OMG, DEN-O". We had a brief 'OMG FYEAH TOKUSATSU' moment a la stanning Gokaiger then she started singing Ride On Right Time...which reminds me I gotta memorize the lyrics to OOO singles!!! And then there was this bromance trio of two bros and a sis omg. SO COOL. I talked more with the bros later, they're really nice people haha, not to mention really musically talented!

MAN I WISH I COULD SING BETTER T______T
Also deadlines are coming up. In the scriptwriting class our group for the first time ever got a good 'okay' from the teacher. OH MY GOD SO HAPPY CRIES.

✂ i had to put this somewhere

2011-04-21T13:37:08Z

Ugh I'm so, so sorry but I really need somewhere to say this and I don't like IMing people just to talk about things like this because it's so whiny. Whining about school annoys me, quite frankly, and it pains me that I have to do it too but I just...can't. I've made short comments in the past but this is on a different level than just 'omg too much work'.

I fucked up in a way that can't really be amended and I clearly am not ready to handle multiple responsibilities. First day of school, and I already have classes and commitments from 8AM to 11:30PM. Not to mention constantly having to stay back at that exact same timing every day of the first week because of choir. So anyone who complains about a 10AM-3PM school day or something...if I've ever been passive-aggressive about it (which i probably MIGHT have?) at least now we all know where I'm coming from.

And that brings us to what my main problem is mentally and emotionally - choir. Clearly, it has become something I no longer can 100% enjoy. I already am so stressed out over the upcoming semester and my exam projects, now I'm expected to do a shitton of paperwork just because I am now randomly the treasurer. I seriously had a complete emotional breakdown in school complete with tears because I nearly screwed up one form because no one told me that it had to be signed? (I ended up cheating with it in the end and THE DAY WAS SAVED but holy shit, never again.) lol not to mention the minor panic attack i had on the first day but that was nothing.

But well, I guess it's all my fault in the end, isn't it. I can't handle things. I always take on more than I think I can because as an Asian, I overachieve anywhere and everywhere because that apparently determines my worth in this world. The saddest part is that it does - in the end, your grades do matter. Your grades determine your worth as a person.

It's just that recently I've been so high-strung about my upcoming projects - which are basically exams that can stretch over two months and have already started. The first week of school isn't over yet, in case anyone needs a reminder. Adding to that, all my additional responsibilities as a treasurer and choir's absolutely UNGODLY schedule has me wishing I could throw up blood all the time. I swear, I'll probably quit after this year is over since I need the extra CCA points. It's way too much stress for me to take. I want my time back. I want to be able to sit at home and rest. I want to be able to get home early so I can actually watch a proper sunset because I actually haven't seen the setting sun in fucking ages, I always reach home at around 11:30PM??? God I just want to go home early again. I want to be able to ride the damn train with my classmates. I want my life to go back to normal.

This is one of the many, many reasons why I tend to be all '...tch' at school-related complaints. I'm sorry, but since everyone appreciates honesty, then I'll be honest. This is just the beginning. Even my teachers say it'll get worse from now on. Everyone has different forms of workload, but I'm unreasonable like that.

There's a lot of stress in this post, I'm sorry. I always say 'it's okay, i'll be fine, i'm just being silly' when it comes to things like this but while I'm not totally alright now I AM MUCH BETTER NOW THANKS GUYS ;A;

I already feel super guilty for whining about all of this lmao .___.) will delete tomorrow morning maybe idek. ~~Provided I have time, I'm forced to skip the birthday party of a friend I haven't seen in YEARS for choir tomorrow morning too.~~ the session was cancelled so hurrdurr

EDIT2: can university just come already jeez I AM READY TO TAKE YOU ON, better to put me through hell on earth now than to do it later right? and then I am going to quit choir next week, wish me luck lmao .__.)

EDIT3: one day i shall practice my drawing skillz because i have not drawn properly in uh, a year. And apparently people pay a lot for commissions, idek why tbh, but they do so I am like 'welp'.

ミ☆ always lookin' back

2011-04-07T14:15:49Z

► I now have a list of ALL THE FIC I HAVE TO WRITE. Watch me never finish half of those. And my flavors.me got a short revamp. I'm happier with this but uhhh changing the BG later. Also, I love the title quote, it's from Matantei Loki Ragnarok. lokiiii thorrrr why are you two so cute.

► RL - Bought a set of headphones at last! They're pink, but I don't really care LOL. If I can, I'll find a way to make them snazzier but IDEK I love the sound quality. I NEED A NAME FOR THESE BUGGERS maybe I'll call her 'Nouhime' since my iPod's name is 'Nobunaga'??? /waitwhat

► Star Driver - one word: intense. I just. That ending. I cannot even. I would LOVE an epilogue, otherwise I'll write my own...but this is good, too, since it's open enough for the fans to think up what crazy shit everyone gets up to after this whole fiasco is over. SUGATAAAAAA why are all your scenes so beautiful, even with that ridiculous peacock thing on?!

► Steins;Gate - is exactly what I hoped it would be. It's not an action-oriented series, being focused around the mystery of time-travel and the repeat deaths of Makise Kurisu in various time continuities. Changing the past can have disastrous consequences on the future, and if I'm not wrong Steins;Gate has a pretty trippy plot. I LOVE STUFF LIKE THIS.

► Hanasaku Iroha - Unexpectedly, this is pretty good. I wasn't planning on watching it but when I did...the art and animation seem consistent, the backgrounds are oh my god all that housing, and I think I will come to like it very much, since this is supposed to be a story about growing up and maturing? Like, coming-of-age tales are always good.

► Beelzebub - THIS MANGA IS SO GOOD JFC, my favorite arc ever. Maybe it's just me but I really love MMORPG wars.

So your opponent hacked the game and they're pwning you. What do you do? Himekawa's solution: BUY THE ENTIRE GAME. THIS IS HONORABLE AND NOT CHEATING he says, my god this manga. And then this page is just made of GOLD hi there giant robot I LOVE THIS MANGA

► Children of the Red King - My brother ended up borrowing the last three books of the series which I never got around to reading. I stopped maybe about 6-ish years ago, but I guess I missed reading about nightmarish adventures with underaged kids, their freaky powers, and backstabbing grandmothers. NGL the series is like one long, extremely amazing nightmare.

SO ANYWAY. JFC I never knew how much I could actually stan for a single character until I hopped into fandom. So there's this kid called Tancred Torsson, he has roots in Scandinavia and is basically a walking storm. As a kid, a part of me liked seeing him and his African BFF, Lysander Sage, together.

Which means that now I officially ship it, no regrets.

Also there's this other kid called Dagbert Endless. His power is the ability to drown people anytime, anywhere. HE'S A JERKFACE WHO IS VERY MOE INSIDE, SO CUTE GDI and spoiler!!! he drowned Tancred once, and I was like 'OH NO YOU DIDN'T' but then Tancred came back to life and forgave him after Dagbert's Heel Face Turn so I was like 'man this is cute' and 'oh holy shit i ship this too'. WHAT IS MY LIFE. Right now, I'm working on a long, futurefic involving the characters of the series. I'm really not sure where I'll be going with this, but RULE OF COOL okay. Everything operates on how cool it's supposed to be. THE END.

from start till the end...

2011-03-26T13:46:13Z

I'm not on Twitter as much anymore. So if anything, I'll just be on MSN :) ...though I honestly suck at it, haha ;;;
Also, did great with my results for school. Nearly all A's this round. I hope I do this well again...

FIRST! happy birthday, milkfed, seisai, and putain! Unless LJ is lying to me, of course. Happy birthday to you all, and I'm really glad that we're friends. ♥

SECOND! So, have a POKEMON BLACK AND WHITE UPDATE. Beat the game, I cried. Now I'm lost in Undella Town. I have a HUGE LOVE for SIGILYPH seriously that beast is AMAZING. Also Garbodor, which is like, disgusting but cute ok. I love all the Pokémon this generation wtf. My team sucks though, I never got around to much training. And I think I nearly got wiped out post-game by a trainer's Altaria JESUS CHRIST SO SCARY and Ghetsis nearly owned me too OTL So much level-grinding and jumping around auuuuugh

THIRD! So I am now caught up with Kamen Rider OOO and I'm halfway through Den-O and on the first quarter of W!! SOBBING DEN-O IS ADORABLE.

SERIOUSLY WHY DON'T GUYS LIKE KINTAROS EXIST IN MY LIFE OTL also momo, every time you appear augh my heart. Ura is a creep but I like him, and I'm 50/50 on Ryuuta - sometimes I really want to strangle this kid...
Yuuto is so cute so cuuute, instantly in my top3 favorites from his first appearance. WHY DID I WATCH THIS SO LATE, my regret. When it comes to OOO, I just...omg, Uva, it's not fair for an Insect-themed villainguy to have such a handsome human form. I DON'T LIKE INSECTS BUT AUUUUUUGHH. When it comes to W, I'm still to early to say much but THIS SERIES HAS GREAT FASHION WTF.

Okay seriously, I think I can talk way too much about this. And I ship everything, no regrets. I have a long road ahead of me with Kamen Riders though, GO BACKWARDS.

FOURTH! So galearc helped me onto the Gokaiger boat as well, and I never got off. If you're wondering, it's Super Sentai. With Pirates. Also seriously these guys look waaay too cool. Captain Marvelous, our protagonist, makes amazing close-up HERPDERP faces and is generally badass without trying too hard. Please don't get me started on the crew, I might never stop. ;____; ♥

Also was passed stuff like Go-Onger and Shinkenger, I should watch them too...soon...SOBBING

FIFTH! I ship Bjorn/Max now. As in Inazuma Eleven.

► isn't this just grand?

2011-02-28T14:22:47Z

☆ I have a new journal layout, new and edited intro post, a new profile page, and got off my ass to do a contact post. LOL I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF, I actually really like how everything turned out! :')

I'll go add credits to the original fanartists tomorrow, and Lupin, hope you don't mind that I kind of took two of your profile codes and combined them to make my intro post......I also edited the colors and multiplied the tables and changed the fonts+font size so I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND... ;A;)
I still suck at making graphics like proper banners...sobbing, graphic artist-ing is hard. 'Least I'm kinda happy with what I did!!

☆ LAST DAY OF "SCHOOL" FOR YEAR ONE OF COLLEGE
and I am just, FUCK YES because this is amazing. You know why, because I moved from staring at textbooks to doing actual fieldwork of all sorts in the span of months and GJ SELF, like the only thing I really panicked like crazy with was extra curricular activities -- I mean, first year, new to singing, already in a concert?? I HAD ALL OF ZERO SESSIONS TO GET USED TO THAT. (No lie, they kind of threw us into it...)

What’s important is I MADE IT; I actually have rather okay results this time round omg? I am so fucking happy urgh. 79; nearly an A for the ONE BIG MODULE and with my first CA, I will definitely get an A for this little bastard. But my third CA project is in the works, I’m going to pray for it since it’s the DECISIVE one.

Also one of my group projects was so good, we aced the class by a nice margin 8Da and my teacher liked it so much she’s actually gonna pitch it to MTV and I am just ‘WOW WHAT’…

Overall, I am really proud of what I've managed to do! Even if I still suck at a few things, I learnt a lot. Like, I am a better editor and I kind of improved with graphics. My teachers and classmates and even industry workers keep saying I have vocal talent...I DON'T...ACTUALLY HAVE A GOLDEN VOICE OR ANYTHING...I'M JUST VERY GOOD AT PRESENTING...

☆ Utaite - Four entries ago I had only recently discovered Mii-chan and I still didn't really like clear. TIME PASSES REALLY FAST LMAO, or maybe I just...post damn slow. Alright. I've been really big on these guys recently, and I love listening to the lesser known singers ;w;) like jfc apo* is so cute etc etc. And I really like Alilem, Jigiru, Shirokuro and Ten now.........sorry I don't have a lot to say nghfgk.

Also my current wallpaper is Mii-chan's Panda Hero art. I don't even know why. I love the song though. BUT THEN ALL I'VE BEEN DOING IS LISTENING TO CHORUSES OF URAGIRI NO YUUYAKE...and looking up A Whole New World covers on niconico.

I'M HERE FOR YOUR ENTERTAINMENT aka you can ignore this entry really

2011-02-19T15:05:14Z

SO RECENTLY I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO THIS LITTLE BABY ON LOOP.
Not only are the lyrics endlessly classy (aka reads like porn) I AM SO IN LOVE IDE.

Actually my favorite is All Night, because there is no song classier than that okay, okay HNNNNGGHHH NERO WHY DO YOU HAVE TO SOUND SO GOOD, IT'S UNFAIR. THE CHORUS IS THE SMOOTHEST THING UGH MY HEART.

I really don't want to use font size 8 because I am embarrassed sobbing ;//////; but he sounds so good my heart cannot take it. LOL OH GOD THIS ENTRY IS EMBARRASSING, THIS WHOLE THING IS POINTLESS AND EMBARRASSING AAAAAAAH

lol I am going to die if I read this tomorrow but SOBBING, every time I stan him I just feel very happy...

yes the whole point of this entry is to please this person and declare my endless love for Nero ok, which is VERY LEGIT.

# you're awful, i love you

2011-01-25T14:10:03Z

WELCOME BACK TO THE WORLD OF POSTING
or at least, posting when I have stuff to say. Most of the time I kinda don’t, and I’m sorry I haven’t caught up on all the backlog…

★ SO I am back on PLURK. It’s been a long time and I kind of miss it, except I cannot Plurk as regularly as before either! DUDE WHO HAVE I NOT ADDED YET WTF.
Also I am still terrified of talking on MSN/AIM yet lmao how do I start conversations /)___(\ I am so bad at this.

★ I need actual good music in my sad life right now. Quick I need recs!!! Recently I’ve been listening to a lot of rock/punk, and stuff like Sukima Switch, Monkey Majik, and Funky Monkey Babys because they are actually legit good.

★ Got myself a flashcart which means DS games, here I come. Tried Etrain Odyssey and died, Time Hollow ROM froze (I need it undubbed now), playing Lux Pain and LOVING my own confusion, and now I am addicted once more to Apollo Justice. ARGGGH. Started 999 and indeed it is really fucking long. Also Ghost Trick, which is super stylish.

★ Finally read The Umbrella Academy; you have no idea how much I adore the art. Gorgeous. The designs, the layouts of the covers. Kind of makes me want to start comics, but the paneling coupled with art styles/coloring techniques often make my head ache. To anyone who knows what I’m talking about, Klaus is beautiful and I have no idea why I like Ben so much. He’s dead, and this is not a spoiler.

★ RAGE: I am like, up to my armpits right now in some weird frustration over certain people posting their art, and then whining all over the ‘artist’s comments’ about omg I suck whine whine kill it with fire and quite frankly I finally understand how those F!Secrets people feel. Shut up and kindly stop whoring for attention, thank you. I used to be exactly like that but the fuck man, I’m proud of what I’ve done. I’m not the best, but certainly not the worst. And when I look back I can go ‘oh, I’ll do this right the next round’.

★ Something bad is brewing in class, and the storm that is class politics might just be starting. This is a bad sign; we still need to survive two years together.

★ Currently Watching: Beelzebub, Infinite Stratos (it’s so fucking BAD jfc), Cardfight Vanguard, Level E (lmao this is the best, the best), Starry Sky and Hourou Musuko for the latest season. The rest aren’t performing :(

so many new original series and character designs to sort out, and I need to set up a couple more programs. I feel very busy, yet I am not. WTF IS THIS FEELING.

THAT PAIRING MEME:

2011-01-04T13:42:12Z

FIRST ENTRY OF 2011 FUCK YEAH ★
alright now we got that out of the way --

Give me a pairing and I'll tell you:
1. When or if I started shipping them:
2. What I think their challenge is:
3. What makes me happy about them:
4. What makes me sad about them:
5. What moment I wish had never happened:
6. Who I'd be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other:
7. My happily ever after for them:

- new layout and new profile! I'm very proud of them, they're so nice ;__; (I think…)

★ 2011 IS A YEAR FOR CHEESY CHINESE DRAMAS. I love it so much, this K.O.3an Guo show. So me and nomi watched it together on the anniversary of our bromance! If you want Three Kingdoms Highschool AU meets stupid gangsters meets adorkable MCs meets hilariously good humor - this is the show for you. THE CHARACTERS ARE SO BRO OMG? The Chinese are good with team-based shows omg.

God I laughed till I got a stomach ulcer when Liu Bei was crushed by a giant rock. This makes sense in context, trust me. IF ANYONE KNOWS A SHONEN KOREAN DRAMA, TELL ME K.

★ Also Samurai/Dynasty Warriors Series F M L I am knee-deep into this shit and OH MY GOD WHY AM I SO OBSESSED…I mean jfc lmao WHY DO I LIKE ALL THE IDIOTS, I love them all so much omg??? I like Mitsunari and Date Masamune best from Sengoku Musou…Cao Pi from DW. (CRYING) These days I am just insanely obsessed with Mitsunari WHY IS HIS VOICE SO CUTE!! When he's dere, he's just really moe. Also Motochika looks like a slutty daddy, that ho.
I AM ALSO VERY INTERESTED IN ZHONG HUI. No one gets away with calling himself the 'Chosen Human' without piquing my attention. And he fights with five floating swords, omg?? WHY IS JIN SO PRETTY, WTF.

I SHIP TOO MUCH SHIT FOR THIS SERIES!!! I HATE MYSELF FOR 95% OF IT, SO GUILTY……..CRIES

★ Started watching the Starry Sky Anime recently and LMAO IDE, it's so…hilarious. I tend to treat adaptations as separate from the original work so I am totally fine, if not HAPPY that 'omg I LIKE THIS VERSION OF YOH' but LMAO THE ART, I HAVE NO WORDS, CRIES!!! IDK what to ship man, anime!Tsukiko is so cute……MAYBE I'LL JUST SHIP EVERYTHING SINCE I THINK IT'S A PRETTY HOMO OTOME GAME ANYWAY. [just omg, Miyaji bb when will I see you in this?]

★ SCHOOL IS BUSY. Very busy. Like, 'by the way you're done with 5 graded projects? Here have more!!' kind of busy. Then again I AM USED TO THIS HAHA, if this has to happen to balance out the joy I've gained, I am ok with this.

what're you gonna do with a girl like that?

2010-12-29T16:50:47Z

IF YOU'RE NOT desuta DON'T READ THIS, it's embarrassing!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RISE ♥

and as usual idk where to even begin with these things...firstly, I'm really sorry I haven't done as much as I should for your birthday.
AND I HOPE I'M NOT LATE OMG, I am going to kill myself if I am ok.
Getting straight to the point of this entry, er I shall begin with an anecdote of our friendship, I guess. I know your impression of me has probably changed over the short time we've known each other. I don't really know when exactly I added you, but in the end I'm glad I did. I don't know if you are though, lmao I also realize that I am filled with false impressions sometimes and I'm sorry if you were ever disappointed in me for that - it's my fault though.

feel free to use any of these if you want, they're not as good as I hoped but orz /)__(\

Knowing you has been great, I enjoyed talking to you over Twitter a lot, and the times I more or less sort of TL;DRed to you on MSN ?__? lmao oh god that was awful of me OTL, I hope we can share more normal conversations in the future.......anyway!!

~~ignore the dogs in the background they aren't mine ok!!!~~

OK, so yeah. Rise, I know these days I've just more or less sounded crabby and stuff but it's my fault and not yours. I'm happy I'm your friend, we should talk more; idk where we'll be in five years but I hope if anything that we'll still be friends ok. I hope your birthday will be a good one! :)

EDIT: also damn you tsuruhime, you may be a kimoi officer but you're my kimoi officer
proper entry later, I am back from my (unannounced) hiatus!! I think...

so much keysmashing

2010-12-12T13:19:51Z

MINOR F-CUT. If you’ve been cut, please remove me!
Also the Time Capsule meme in case you missed it!

★ Now I have a listography and a still half-done flavors.me! Will work on them later.

★ Yu-Gi-Oh: HOLY FREAKIN' SHIT I am so EXCITED I don't even, this is like Pokémon all over again asjkfhasjkhs o/////o FOURTH YGO GENERATION FUCK YES although how they will top card games on motorbikes and Team Satisfaction I have no idea. I mean jfc THIS WILL BE SO SEXY. Maybe it'll be like the Incredibles, only with cards. Or maybe just card games. With mecha. CHRIST I LOVE MY 5D'S BUT I CAN'T HELP BUT FEEL PSYCHED.

★ Inazuma Eleven: FOURTH GEN INAZUMA GAME holy fucking shit WHY IS THE PROTAG SO CUTE AKSJAKSAK I think he’s adorable, and I don’t know who else is as excited as I am but I sure won’t be missing like 80% of the old crew. In fact, I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE NEW POSSIBILITIES. I mean, I love my Team Unicorn and all, but new awesomeness totally makes me SUPER happy. THE NEW MC IS CUTER THAN ENDOU, SHUT UP ASKAJSK o/////o

★ MOVIES: Holy shit have you seen the movie trailer for Thor (2011) it is so fucking awesome I have no words. I just. HI LOKI, THOR, SUP ODIN SKAJSKJAKSJAK have I mentioned how Nordic Mythology is one of my Forever No.1 fandoms??? Even though yeah this is the Marvel comic thingy but hey, it’s an inspired work of art!!! I WANT TO WATCH THIS NOW OMG ;_____; SO EXCITED.

★ Niconico Singers: Holy shit Clear+Nero album I NEED THIS NOW OMG. I honestly don’t really care about Clear; he’s good, but Nero is amazing. AND THEN SUP NODOAME, I go on tumblr randomly and find pictures of you and I CANNOT STOP SCREAMING IRL. This man is my favorite FOREVER, he covered Kiseki by GReeeeN, ASJKAJSAK. And I think he knows what El Shaddai is, which makes him a total god. I need this in my life right now. SOBBING FOREVER, especially Last Note.

Recently I’ve discovered a Mii-chan through an Ao Oni-inspired song and realized that he sang Mosiac Roll in Engrish. He's quite interesting! Also, Zebra and Hashiyan’s Matoryshka collab is so godly, I think my ears imploded.

This post has been nothing but screaming, wow. ALSO, SOMEONE NEEDS TO WATCH THIS WITH ME ASAKSJAKJS

#390

2010-12-05T02:50:41Z

【THE TIME CAPSULE MEME】
seriously, if you don't tell me you have one of these I might not do it...
then again I'll check everyone's journals for it so yeah o__o

★ NO POINT MOPING ABOUT SHIT THAT HAS PASSED gotta focus on the future! A lot of things seem to have happened and I'm sorry I wasn't around to witness them. Hopefully I'll find time to.

★ Started The Big Bang Theory LOL HOLY SHIT RAJ IS ADORABLE, I love all of the characters wtf ;__; and Sheldon I love the way you speak, never change please

★ Started White Collar; LMFAO I LOVE THIS SHOW?? I'm like, on the pilot as I type this and I love the characters, I love their chemistry together, and ughhh see, this is one example of great characters right here.

★ Also started Lie to Me; oh my god the science behind this show is utterly fascinating. I love it, how they manage to mix psychology and science and crime into a show like this - I'm not very far into the series yet so perhaps my view will change.

I don't regret watching more TV, this stuff is great. I've been falling behind on a lot of things though, gotta set aside some day to marathon like 80 days' worth of manga OH MY GOD LMFAO WTF IS LIFE
met up with galearc, shiosaki, milodrums and asteraoth yesterday and uhh Ben and that guy I DID NOT CATCH HIS NAME AAA and Shan, was it?? Got How I Met Your Mother, LIFE IS GOOD. ♥ ILU all ok

I NEED TO HURRY UP WITH WATCHING KAIBA AAARGGHHH I'm behind on a lot of things and this was a mostly pointless entry. Kinda want to create a series where people from different fields come together to solve crime or something, I love team-shows. And recently I just really wanna watch Tron legacy, I'm a sucker for things ~in the future~ and stuff.

time capsule meme!

2010-12-03T01:03:58Z

Feeling a lot better today, thanks anyone who noticed that last weird entry!

【THE TIME CAPSULE MEME】

thought that maybe I should do this for this year as well.
IF YOU GUYS HAVE TIME CAPSULE MEME THREADS, GIVE THE LINKS TO ME. NOW.

I can get behind that.

2010-11-24T04:54:33Z

Just posting a little about Pokemon again with a side-helping of i11, okay anyone who is not interested kindly ignore this entry, etc. In which I am very selfish and rude, you have been warned.

lol @ the name changes. As with everything, it takes getting used to for a lot of people. Isshu is technically the 'USA' in the games, or whatever it is (answer: amazing). It would make reasonably logical sense for the region to undergo a name change. If you don't like it...that sucks, I'm sorry for your loss but no one can really help you. (I liked the name Isshu and I'm sad to see it go, but hey, life goes on.)

If you don't like the new names, too bad? Opinions definitely vary on them, sure. This is merely mine. But - I mean, name changes happen every generation and they're kinda official and everything. IMO the English ones are better. Not that the Japanese names are bad, but...really not my thing. And seriously, half of the haters get over themselves eventually (I HOPE).

Inazuma Eleven is this fandom that continually baffles me. WHY DO 'KID' FANDOMS HAVE SUCH...STRANGE FANS. I mean, we've seen how bad Pokemon can be and please keep that shit off my flist tyvm, but this fandom. THIS FANDOM. What is going on, and I just have to say that I am so sick of hearing the ~whispers~ of it or whatever. Wow I just, I have no idea, the fans of this series are so hardcore. So yeah really, wtf is going on??? I mean, even at the height of my obsession I guess I never really...became like that...

Tell me when The Kingdom comes in, because I really have managed to force myself into a state of 'IDGAF' or else I will have some sort of brain damage over this fandom. Seriously.

TL;DR - I need to get over myself, obviously.

this might get pretty long

2010-11-20T13:30:44Z

Firstly, THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES, I LOVE ALL OF YOU AND I WISH I HAD TIME TO SAY HOW MUCH. ;___; ♥

FUCK YEAH FOR EXAMS BEING OVER, but time to start on the exams right after those. You gotta love projects that stretch. Life is pretty boring right now but I kinda made my wardrobe more COLORFUL!!! Color is GOOD. So what’s up with you guys?

★ RECOMMEND ME TELEVISION SHOWS and not Glee because I AM WATCHING THAT. Kurt is beautiful, I love Brittany, I like Puck and I swear to god I cannot understand what they are trying to do with Rachel. But I’m on the third quarter of the first season so IDEK.

★ Afterschool Charisma Vol4; bought it today. Holy shit I love Mozart. VOLUME FOUR IS AMAZING: IN WHICH MOZART IS A BAMF, HITLER BECOMES DEPRAVED AND BISEXUAL, PEOPLE DIE IN CRUEL WAYS, CHARLES DARWIN IS HOT, FREUD IS ALWAYS RIGHT, NAPOLEON IS MOE AND A LOT OF PLOT TWISTS ARE HAD. I need someone to SRS TALK with over this series.

★ Also, Pokemon! PokeSpecial Vol 34. Riley being suave. Byron being a BAMF. Fuck yeah Dia and Pearl are super adorable. I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE VOLKNER VOLUME.

and YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I AM HYPERVENTILATING OVER THE OFFICIAL ART. Gym Leaders aside, E4 OMG. Shikimi is SO cute, Caitlin is ADORABZ, HOLY SHIT RENBU WAY TO BE A BAMF, and Giima, DAT POSE. But Adeku. Just. Adeku. WHY MUST YOU BE SO FUCKING AMAZING, YOUR POSE MAKES ME WONDER WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF YOU USED TO HAVE TEENAGE HIKING ADVENTURES WITH PALMER.

★ If you knew me in my 2006 days, you’ll know how much I love My Chemical Romance. These boys changed my life in a big way, and it’s one of those ‘big’s that if you haven’t gone through it yourself, you won’t understand just how big it is. After four years, FUCK YEAH DANGER DAYS. I am so stoked for Monday omg and I am usually /never/ psyched for albums, no lie.

These guys went and created a post-apocalyptic story setting in 2019 for this album and it’s like some TV series, or even an anime-esque thing. It has the group of rebels fighting authority. Said evil authority has led the world to perfection after a nuclear fallout that shook humanity - law, order, and peace, all at the cost of expression. Art is gone. Now everyone is the same (think: brainwashing) because ~differences~ create strife, right? The good guys are this group of people from all over the world – the Killjoys, who resist this system using art as their weapon. Though scattered and in separate groups, they all work towards one common goal - the downfall of Better Living Industries.

Zones from 1 to 6 surround the ‘perfect’ Battery City, 1 being the safest and 6 being the…well, yeah. Fucking amazing setting, and it happens to be right up my alley of ‘what I love in any series’. You gotta love how they promote their albums. Actual in-verse websites, in-verse TV shows & ads, Thought Adjustment clips used by Better Living Industries (BL/ind, the evil guys), radio transmissions, all those freakin’ fan submissions in the form of ‘Killjoy video transmissions’ - IT IS ALL SO REAL, SO PERFECT. You have to see this to believe it, my words alone cannot tell you the full story.

Hey the costumes were all originally designed by the lead singer and holy shit they are beautiful. Also lmfao I LOVE THE JAPAN INFLUENCES, shit is like some blockbuster anime. All that color and detail. And the evil dude is Grant Morrison. There’s even a Japanese lady in this. Watching the band's adventures in the MVs is like reading an intense comic or watching a film.

It has all the elements I love: a ragtag bunch of misfits, rebel gangs, fighting the good fight against authority and have I mentioned that the MVs have the most amazing detail put into the setting, props and costumes? JFC THE KILLJOY COSTUMES. With that sheer amount of wild joy and color, this stuff is PERFECT for OC material. And I usually hate OC material in canon verses.

I also happen to think that they’re a lot more creative and better than Lady GaGa but this is subjective. I also happen to actually like Lady GaGa a little.

More important stuff maybe later!!! I swear I am so lost with LJ right now. And being politely disinterested in a lot of things...I have to curb this.

★ breaking hiatus

2010-11-09T01:14:45Z

HI GUYS

I haven’t been on here in ages! I’m awful at keeping up, I have a lot of things I’ve promised to do that I haven’t, I’m sorry. ;___; Right now I’m tied up with school – had to just finish an exam report, studying for an exam on Thursday, writing another report for next Friday, working on a presentation for next Tuesday, one really annoying concept and another annoying community service project that spans till December.

I’ll try to be around more but these things just keep piling up, it’s so annoying and I never have time for things like Twitter anymore. And NaNoWriMo, I have to put it on hold. I’ll try to keep up with LJ at least!

Ugh I don’t know, I just feel kind of left out of everything because I can’t speak with a lot of you as often anymore. It’s both frustrating and annoying.

★ Baccano!; HOLY HELL GRAHAM IS AMAZING jfc and Claire ~~hi morita~~ has my absolute favorite fighting style. It’s hard to pick favorites I LOVE SO MANY but I guess it’s the two of them (and Elmer omg ELMER and Huey is so handsome holy hell). I love the whole convergence of all the characters' stories, it's brilliant! More stories need to be like this.

★ Tegami Bachi; This is that one series that is both so well animated and well drawn I want to die every time I watch it because it is just so pretty. The character designs are of the same quality dalskdjs This needs a whole post to itself because LMFARGH JIGGY PEPPER IS AMAZING, HE’S A DELIVERYMAN WHO RIDES A MOTORBIKE POWERED BY HEART THROUGH AN ALTERNATE REALITY. HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE HIM. HE EVEN HAS GOGGLES AND COOL POSING!!!!
And he’s voiced by Nakai Kazuya but that is really not the point. I also have this intense OH BB thing for Gauche Suede why is this boy so precious, and lmfao he’s Fukuyama Jun, why are the both of them here aaaaaa I love this show.

★ Kuragehime; this show makes me feel so lonely, but IDK I kind of believe in life a little bit more after watching it. It’s amusing, well drawn and well animated, but I think it’s a lot deeper than people make it out to be. If Star Driver didn’t exist, this would be the best show this season.

❤ writing this half-asleep ffuuu

2010-10-24T20:09:08Z

Happy Birthday nomi!!
so the three icons are actually more or less relevant, feel free to use them idk what to say. It's like gonna be 4AM soon, and yeah I am pretty incoherent, sorry. Happy Birthday anyway, it's been about 10 months and 25 days-ish since we met and if anything, our friendship has been a hideous series of...of...of idk what. NGL this is difficult to type up because I never know what to say. lol I suck in comparison because you're waaaaay better with these things than I am, how do I type up nice-sounding entries without being a dick I DO NOT KNOW. But hey, I'm really glad I met you, and you know the rest because I bullshit in IMs/tweets to you like every day, I would think that I've said more or less what I wanted to say. And telling people you love them is EMBARASSING so no gtfo lolsob I cannot say it but you get the point

So anyway HAVE THIS holy shit it's so late right now it's 4AM; sorry it's so late gnfghg ;__;
Nice/Alex, Inazuma Eleven, G That's Alexander from the German Team, Brocken Bogue, and Nice Dolphin from Big Waves (Australia).
disclaimer; they have practically no personality so I just winged it.
WordCount: 2177 words

01.
Their first date could've been considered a disaster on many counts, but to them it was perfect.

Perfection, Alex said, was subjective. Nice agreed at the end of the day, draped lazily over Alex's shoulders, holding the smaller boy from behind.

God knew how they'd found each other. Alex reckoned that his twin had been a key factor in this - Reef, Nice's teammate back in Big Waves. Nice liked to think it was fate.

"You're heavy," Alex muttered, but made no move to push the other boy off. Still moments like these made him feel uncomfortable.

Nice smiled a smile that Alex couldn't see, something slow and hesitant, in the same pace Alex always appeared to take the world by. He buried his face in Alex's wild green hair, that somehow always managed to stay so beautiful - Nice's own hair had been through a lot of conditioner after all that chlorine and salt water.

When he spoke, his was voice low and tired, but happy. "Yeah, I know."

02.
Nice thinks that when Alex smiles, it's ridiculous. Most of the time the boy does smile, but it's a haltingly slow smile, like a blooming flower that slowing transforms from a bud into something that isn't entirely there. There's a quiet sort of fear in that smile, and sometimes Nice can't help but wonder what Alex's problem is.

Maybe it was him, but Alex was the anchor of rationality here. If there was something, he'd say it out no matter how difficult the words were. Maybe this time there were other consequences to consider. Maybe. Nice could only guess, because he did not know.

But he likes it when Alex smiles, and by that he means when Alex smiles for real; the way his blue eyes that are usually shadowed over by his fringe light up - a blue the color of the sky, and it's beautiful.

He wants to see those eyes light up like that again.

Nice's only seen Alex smile like that once, though. That was the second time they'd kissed, because the first had mostly been 80% accident and 20% confusion, and all the subsequent ones after the second had to be stolen.

Quick, fleeting kisses when they thought no one was looking. All the times the both of them hung back, waiting for the other to pass by. Finding time in the gaps of their schedules to meet up. Stealing time, stealing little moments for their fingers to brush lightly against each other.

"I want more time," Nice announces suddenly. Beside him, Reef looks up from his work, surprised. Soon enough, his green-eyed gaze narrows and becomes a knowing sort of look. Nice eyes him carefully, unsure of what to think.

Reef nods. It's a brief nod of acknowledgement. "You'll find some."

He returns to his work, but not before Nice catches the sly twinkle in Reef's eyes. Frowning to himself, Nice decides that he doesn't quite like that look.

03.
According to some, they are young and reckless teenage hearts without a care in the world. Devil-may-care attitude included.

Nice begged to differ. No matter how many cheesy thoughts he had about Alex being an angel, he knew the guy worried far too much. Thought too much about the technical things, too. Maybe Alex did his share of the thinking for him, because Nice simply didn't.

It's been three days since Reef looked at him in that way he didn't like, and Nice sits on the edge of his seat, anticipating. There's only so much that can happen now.

04. Smile.
Nice flirts a lot without meaning to.

Alex understands this, or at least he tries to, to the best of his ability. Often he finds himself failing; it'd be better to just ignore it and pretend that he doesn't see anything, doesn't feel frustrated and angry that he can't possibly do anything to make things easier for the both of them.

So he starts faking things.

It's difficult. It's difficult pretending he doesn't care when Nice smiles at that one rather attractive girl, doesn't care when he leans in to hiss something in her ear. Pretends that he doesn't care when Nice leans into the hugs his friends smother him with on good days, pretends that it doesn't matter to him one bit when in fact it does, and it hurts.

Alex gets better at pretending. These days he can nod and smile when Nice catches his eye across the corridor and waves to him, the blond grinning in his large and stupid way. Everyone looks at them strange when it first happens - how did you two know each other, I thought you never talked?

Oh, if only you knew, Alex thinks. If only they knew.

Eventually, it stops hurting. He should never have felt like that anyway. It was irrational and stupid.

These days it only hurts when Nice pulls him into hugs, stays back after school till 7PM to kiss him in empty classrooms, or drags him into a lonely corner of the school where Alex is tempted to scream and cry because his heart keeps melting over and over again at these moments and it's just ridiculous how it seems to come so easily, so naturally to Nice.

They walk home sometimes, holding hands but not quite. This is when Alex doesn't have to stay back too late for club duties, because Nice is more or less an official member of the local Going-Home Club. Alex doesn't know how Nice kills all this spare time but somehow he does, and the taller boy would wave at him from the ground floor when Alex pokes his head out of the window to check if he's there. And then Nice would smile in that wide, unassuming and unselfish way and Alex realizes every single time that he cannot stay mad at someone like him.

It's no use trying to tell himself he doesn't like it.

Because he does, every single time, and he can't help but smile back.

05.
It's not to say that he doesn't try, but sometimes Nice just doesn't know how to. What should he do, how should he make things better? He doesn't know, because there's certain personal rules he tends to follow and none of them are entirely helpful.

But sometimes there are moments that call for drastic measures.

"What are you doing!?" Nice hisses, but Reef ignores his protests and attempts to dig his heels into the ground. Instead he hauls Nice along so roughly that the blond is afraid his arm will pop right out of its socket.

Reef glares. "Shut up and come with me."

"What, where are we going!?"

"Your house," says Reef, and the look he gives him is one that promises bloody murder.

Nice shuts up out of sheer terror.

06.
Reef has somehow managed to secure the rights to his house in about three days, and Nice is entirely unsurprised.

"What's going on?"

"You'll see."

The front door swings open to a cozy living room by any normal standards. The furniture is a little haphazard and the cabinets demanded a little dusting, but the red carpets still feel fuzzy under Nice's toes. Home is exactly how he remembers it to be since he last saw it maybe two hours ago. All is well, so far.

Nice inclines his head, staring at Reef. The green-haired boy throws his schoolbag at him. He misses and it lands neatly on the couch with a little poof noise, and Nice breathes out a sigh of relief. "Hey, answering me would be great, you know."

"Go upstairs," Reef sighs, rolling his eyes. "Gosh, do I have to arrange and take care of the both of you all the time?"

"Huh?"

Reef massages his temples. "Seriously! How long has it been since the both of you last met up properly?"

Nice thinks back to all the little moments and the in-betweens, all the times he stayed back till 7PM just waiting for Alex and ended up with hours to kill. He'd done rounds on the track field, explored every cranny of the school, and sometimes even crashing the music clubs or had hung out briefly with some of the other students. But he always got back on time.

All the time he had stolen, but never one proper day. Not the times in the corridors, not the times after school, not the times when they walked home together with their hands barely touching.

Nice frowns. "Can't remember."

"Oh my god," Reef sighs in mild frustration. "You two are idiots. Now run along upstairs, I gotta go back to school."

"Hey, what about me?"

Reef frowns, haughty and indignant at Nice's continued protests. "Hey, catching up is a lot more important." He wheels around suddenly, almost knocking Nice back, and the blond takes a few steps backwards just in case. "Good luck, and tell my twin hello for me."

07.
Nice ascends the stairs to his room that don't feel like his stairs or his room anymore. Reef leaves a lasting impression, he realizes. Scary guy.

He clears his throat nervously, the impression Reef left on him still lingering in the corners of his mind.

Just do it, Nice. He thinks, and then decides to kick the door open.

08.
"Are you insane!?" Alex yells, and Nice is half-surprised and half-miffed that the first thing Alex pays attention to is the door and not his sore foot. "What if it broke!?"

"It'll live. Why're you here?"

"Reef told me I was needed, what happened to you?"

"And...what did he tell you?"

Nice realizes, when Alex pauses to stare at him, how long it's been since the last time they were this close together. Discounting the walks because it had always been cold and quiet, one hand buried in a pocket and the other hanging loosely by their sides. Alex looks at him in the way he looked at him the first time, so long ago, and something in Nice begins counting down the time he has left before his restraint breaks and he floods Alex with gross stuff like displays of affection he knew the boy would be terribly embarrassed by.

"He told me," Alex says slowly, carefully, "That you needed me. You know I'm not the type to call." He looks almost sad when he takes a breath to continue.

"And I guess I missed you."

09.
"I want more time," Nice says, and an echo of the past bounces back to him as he steps in to close most of the distance between them. He misses him too, and stark revelations like these were like the soul-burning gazes that always made his stomach twist. Their foreheads bump when Alex looks up at him. His eyes are confused, his expression slightly pained, and Nice wonders if whatever invisible line there was, had he crossed it too far?

"Why?"

He blinks. Damn you, Alex. Always so vague. It's unfair, Nice thinks, it's unfair when Alex looks at him and says vague nonsense like that because it suddenly becomes hard to breathe. It's like heartburn, except a more pleasant sort.

"Why what?"

And then Alex stands on the tip of his toes, leaning forward till both their faces are just micrometers apart and he holds that distance, incredibly; Nice stands there frozen and unblinking, entirely unsure of what to do or say. Alex stares at him with those intensely blue eyes of his. It's one of those looks that hold for too long, and Nice has to either frown, look away, or his eyes would start watering.

"Why do you like me?"

"It sounds really stupid but I thought we went through this before!?"

"Remind me."

Nice sighs. "I'll keep telling you over and over if I have to," he says, and he feels the breath leave his lungs with every word. They're so close, so very close.

"I don't just like you. I love you."

10.
When Alex kisses him it's like the world holds its breath, because Nice suddenly finds himself with the sensation of being deep underwater. The pressure pulling at his heart and chest, he cannot breathe, blood pounding in his ears and rushing in his veins.

The sound of Alex's heartbeat is like thunder.

Alex smiles at him, his hands in his, and Nice watches the way those blue eyes light up to mirror the sky and he wishes he was good at photography. Then he'd take a snapshot of this moment, and keep it forever. Alternatively, he could always just continue making Alex happy; it seemed the both of them had still a lot to sort out.

"I need more time," Alex whispers. It's a quiet wish that echoes in every hollow of the space above their heads, growing and filling the empty gaps. Something small that becomes loud, deafening. Like a flower blooming, a bud that becomes something bigger and unashamedly beautiful.

Nice laughs. "I've been trying to steal that stuff since forever."

END.

holy shit I think I just killed myself, I am never writing fluff again, EVER. I suck at it!!
IT'S 4AM HOLY SHIT, GOODNIGHT.
when i wake up tomorrow i will never show my face again omg so embarrassing