Life isn't always beautiful...

mourningglory @ 2010-10-22T14:55:00

2010-10-22T18:56:02Z

hi.

I have not posted on here in ages.

I am currently home sick from work. I had a vice grip on my head this morning, all my muscles ached and I could barely move. Chest was on fire and my face was swollen all around my nose, and forehead like sinuses were ready to explode!

I should post on here more often.

I was accepted to grad school, and start nov 1st. So I will need a distraction!

So, Hi old friends, are you still there?

mourningglory @ 2010-01-17T17:01:00

2010-01-17T22:02:02Z

“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.”

mourningglory @ 2009-11-03T00:01:00

2009-11-03T05:01:40Z

Hello Live Journal World.

How are you?

I am doing pretty darn good.

mourningglory @ 2008-10-26T16:42:00

2008-10-26T20:43:47Z

Hi.

I'm never on here anymore. I dont know why. I have nothing to say. I work, and then sometimes go to hockey games. then I work more.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a pessimistic or optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my partner in crime or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favorite and least favorite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

mourningglory @ 2007-10-23T18:21:00

2007-10-23T22:22:53Z

1.Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

1. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
2. Whats your philosophy on life?
3. Would you have my back in a fight?
4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
5. What is your favorite memory of us?
6. Would you give me a kidney?
7. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
9. Can we get together and make a cake?
10. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?
11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
12. Do you think I'm a good person?
13. Would you drive across country with me?
14. Do you think I'm attractive?
15. If you could change anything about me, would you?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
18. Would you go on a date with me if I asked you?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

mourningglory @ 2007-08-02T18:54:00

2007-08-02T22:55:23Z

I was reading back on entries i made, looking for a certain one and I came across this.

http://mourningglory.livejournal.com/147834.html

I never ever thought that one little note, or even day would mean so much to me.

mourningglory @ 2007-07-29T00:27:00

2007-07-29T04:16:03Z

I also have mixed feelings with Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I just dont know, parts I liked, parts really really annoyed me. Overall I was unimpressed.

mourningglory @ 2007-07-29T00:21:00

2007-07-29T04:11:01Z

Things are not getting easier.

I still cry myself to sleep every night, find myself randomly crying for no real reason.

I miss him so much, completely. My heart hurts, my head hurts. I am scared and lost and I just want to be held by someone, to tell you the truth. I want someone to hold me and tell me everything will be completely alright.

I think of random memories, things that happened when I was 3,4,5,6,ect...just us together. The smell of him, his touch...

I remember vividly the day he left, my parents got divorced. I remember him walking out. I keep thinking that this is just like that, he only walked out. went away to rest for a while and he will be back, but he will not.

I am just very sad. Everyone always asks how Im doing, want to make sure I am okay.

Well I am not. I am NOT okay. I am NOT doing good.

mourningglory @ 2007-07-25T11:32:00

2007-07-25T15:20:07Z

My dad passed away at 330am, eastern time today Wednesday July 25th.

I am writing it here to inform you and make it seem more real, it all seems fake, like so sick morbid story.

mourningglory @ 2007-07-09T11:31:00

2007-07-09T15:40:19Z

so. I am writing because my dad is now in the ICU. He was in critical condition, but last night they sedated him so he is now in a self induced coma and on a respirator.

As much as I hate it, I did spend most the night crying, then talked on the phone with my friend Jim for an hour and a half, talking about everything but that.

I am sad, devistated and heartbroken...but I just dont want him to hurt anymore. And if you read through any of my old posts, you know he has been very sick for a long while. He has been battling for so long, I just want him to not have to battle anymore.

I also hate feeling weak, or even showing any emotion at all, and now here I am hopeless and crying.

mourningglory @ 2007-07-08T13:33:00

2007-07-08T17:40:08Z

I found this rather funny.

mourningglory @ 2007-02-21T21:05:00

2007-02-22T02:05:31Z

"It's much easier not to know things sometimes. And to have french fries with your mom be enough."

mourningglory @ 2007-01-28T17:00:00

2007-01-29T00:02:48Z

So, I thought my voice post went through, but it did not.

I tried calling from the airport and it wouldnt let me, but then i tried again the next day and spoke to the voicethingy but it is not here.

I have made it to Phoenix, obviously and now I am here in a hotel because we leave early tomorrow morning.

I'll update lots when I get back.

Some quotes for you to enjoy...
"Wait...is that elvis and dorthy?"
"I just want to lick his nose.....oh, I didnt mean to say that outloud." lol

mourningglory @ 2007-01-11T17:26:00

2007-01-11T22:31:38Z

So. Yeah. I have a full time job working at the cyc. 8am-430pm.

I really do enjoy it, working wiht Alecia is fun, but the kids arent so bad.

They are 2 years old, and I love trying to make them say long words like tyrannasaurs rex. Its cute, and its educational.

Somedays I want to scream, but hug them at the same time. Strange I know.

I have also been going to sleep really early. (Sorry Steve!!!) I shower and lay down around 7 (mostly because the Penguins games are on, so I lay down watching them and read). I doze off! Last night I must have dozed off around 930, then Steve called a bit after 10, or sometime around there. I dont remember. After a brief conversation I fell back to sleep.

I'm just tired, the kids get a 3 hour nap in the middle of the day. I want a three hour nap!

mourningglory @ 2003-06-16T21:06:00

2003-06-16T18:07:11Z

Reasons this journal is friends only, because trust me I have my reasons:

-Privacy
-I want to know who is reading my journal
-So i dont get stupid comments, you add me as a friend means you dont bash my posts or feelings or criticise my way of life.

Who gets on:

-Comment and I might add you, but you need to give me a reason, such as how we know each other.

Also, PLEASE comment when you add me, because if not, then you will never read a post that I write, so do yourself a favor and comment.

The friends only banner in my post was made by ayeshalee from the community header_friends. The work there is all very beautiful.