Silvercat's Thoughts

Hahahahahaha! FEAR ME!

2010-07-14T03:24:55Z

Apparently, according to using a bit of one of my LJ posts for this.....

I write like
Stephen King

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!

Does this mean I should be scared of myself? I really do find this rather amusing.

Hoookay...

2010-04-16T17:58:07Z

So I'm trying to get my energy back. Trying to not be the worry-wart that I am over things I have no control of. I worry about people, it's like (as one of my friends from art school put it once) I am the mom. Not that I feel as if I'm the best mom by any means, but I try. I try to be compassionate and sympathetic. Maybe that makes me come off as fake, I don't know. I would like to think that I'm a genuine person. Even though I do tend to bitch and rant a lot. God do I ever complain. I think what's gotten me the worst lately is the sheer lack of friends I have. Except online. Is it bad that all the friends I really deem as good friends are the ones I have over the internets who live pretty much way out of my proximity? I care about all you guys, I do, with all my heart. Because you are the ones that keep me sane, who listen when I'm all ranty-pants about stupid shit. You put up with me (at least I think you do) and my whining. I want to thank all of you who have been there, in some capacity or another, because I don't do enough thanking. And I am grateful.

I think right now, I'm plowing ahead solely because of friends (the online ones because you guys are better than the shallow prats that apparently don't give a damn in this town), my mom, and my little girl. Sure the munchkin sucks most of the energy right out of me, but when she smiles or laughs it's so goddamn worth it.

So to those of you who might feel neglected, or are pissed at me, or have other issues with me being online (or not online), I want to know about it. And I do want you to hopefully at least know on some level that I am here for you. Even if I'm not online. E-mail is always open, I always reply. And hell, if you want my phone number, ask me and I'll e-mail it to you so you can call me. I miss people, I really do.

Anyway, I think I'm done posting for the day on this topic. Did my workout this morning, got Emma down for a nap, and now I think I'm going to work on the commission of doom for a while before she wakes up. Then we're off to my mom's house for the afternoon/evening.

If you need a pick me up as far as happy music, the new Train CD (cheesy as some of you might think it is) "Save Me San Francisco" is a good one to listen to.

I love you guys, I really do. I hope I say that enough.

Split brain...or something

2010-03-07T03:49:58Z

So I find myself sitting here wanting and not wanting to do something. I want to be creative, I have about a thousand things floating around in my head that I want to do, hell I even have stuff that I need to do. Am I doing any of those things? Nope. I think my go drive is broken. I'm lacking any kind of motivation what-so-ever, of course it doesn't help that my art-juju-ness seems to be broken. Lately I have to scrap everything I attempt to draw because I don't like any of it. Bah. And here I have some really cool trades/gifts/entries/randoms that I want to do. Apparently that's not happening. It really sucks feeling like I'm creatively dead. I don't know if it's exhaustion, stress, or what. Flargghflfgrmmff. I want to do something, yet I also want to sit and do nothing. I don't like this. Really what I need to do is work on a freaking coloring commission that I have to get done. Don't feel like doing that either. Damnit. Stupid brain.

So guess what? I'm completely screwed.

2010-02-25T14:32:59Z

And by screwed I mean FUCKED, completely and totally FUCKED. So I am subbing today, and got to attend a lovely staff meeting. Of course staff meetings are inherrantly boring as all hell, but basically I got to find out that there is pretty much no way in hell that I'm going to get a teaching job in this district in the foreseeable future. Ever. They're cutting everywhere to try and save money. Basically if any teaching position opens up they're going to fill it with someone who is already employed with the school district - REGARDLESS of the fact that they're qualified for that position or not. This is to "keep people from being laid off" apparently. To preserve people who already have jobs within the district. So that fucks any of us who are waiting for positions that we are qualified for in favor of someone who has been with the district longer and is not so qualified, or not qualified at all. Honestly, how fair is that? Life isn't fair, sure, but that's just royally fucking over people who would like to have an opportunity k thanx.

Basically that means I get to cling to my barely-more-than-minimum-wage retail job at a bookstore and the job I have subbing for teachers that I could teach better than but won't get the chance to. Hooray for clawing your way to a teaching licence you'll never use, paying money for something that is a worthless scrap of paper, and basically running yourself ragged for absolutely FUCKING NOTHING!!!

Needless to say finding this out on top of being sick is not helping me in the slightest. I'm angry, bitter, and just royally fed up with everything right now. Where's the justice in this world? Apparently there isn't any. I'm tired of the bullshit. So. Fucking. Tired.

Update on Lee

2010-02-13T04:37:54Z

Hey, for those of you who don't already know and were wondering about Lee's eye surgery, here's an update. She left me a voicemail to let me know (and so I could tell all of you) that her surgery went fine and she's home resting. No problems with the anesthesia this time and hopefully there will continue to be no problems. Keep her in your thoughts, though. She is home now, she's eating okay, and so far so good. I'll keep a journal update going as I know more. Thanks!

Lee UPDATE (about her eye surgery stuff)!

2009-11-13T00:39:12Z

For all of you guys who might be wondering, worried, or otherwise want to know what's going on, I called Lee today. Turns out there were complications when they put her under the anesthesia. She ended up getting fluid in her lungs and couldn't breathe. She's doing all right now, she'll be in the hospital overnight but should be home tomorrow. They'll have to try again with the surgery in a couple weeks. She assured me that she's all right, just feeling cruddy because of coughing and whatnot, and tired. Hopefully she'll be able to give you all more details when she's home.

Romantic movie scene? Pff, one isn't enough...

2009-11-06T02:42:29Z

Soooo...I figured I ought to do this, being the consummate sap that I am. It's terrible really how much I enjoy romance. I am, in this regard, the stereotypical girly girl, clinging to a pillow and giggling. Ok, maybe not THAT bad. I am not (for a good example) interested whatsoever in whiny teen wangst wannabe romances. *coffTWILIGHTcoff* If you're going to try and impress me with a romantic scene, even as sappy as I am, it has to have some real substance.

I suppose if I'm going to be giving examples, I could be naming off movies and that kind of thing, specific scenes in which I approve (and even heartily applaud) the romance.

Let me begin how a friend of mine ended. The princess and the rogue. Love it. Doesn't matter that it has been overdone and overused and is prone to cliche. I. LOVE. It! The Empire Strikes Back is a prime example of this. Seriously, Han and Leia? Spot on. Also in the event of Firefly despite the fact it's a TV series and not a movie, though I suppose Serenity might count, there is the scoundrel/princess dynamic as well. And often it is the whole idea of characters starting out with an extreme dislike of one another (for whatever reason) who end up attracted and/or madly in love with each other. Of course once they figure it out, they're not particularly willing to admit it, which can bring much amusement to the supporting characters and the audience with the awkardness that follows. And the BANTER the BANTER! I always love love love the banter between characters of this type (though they don't always have to be princess/rogue, they can also just be characters that may not like each other in the first place). See also examples - Beauty and the Beast and

I am also a huge fan of the tragic love story. Again, quite possibly another overly used cliche. But I can't help that I enjoy it. I'm an angst monger, I do enjoy angst (in appropriate situations and used well of course) and what better way to give me satisfaction in that but by tormenting the characters! Underworld: Rise of the Lycans is my most recent favorite example of this. The stolen moments, the way the characters look at each other when they believe no one is watching, the way they hold out hope that someday there might be a chance they can be together. But it has to be done well, if it isn't it gets too whiny and TEENAGEWANGSTY! for my taste. Another example of this I highly enjoy is in 300 because you know that he's not going to come back. At the same time she understands why he is going, what he has to do, and is strong regardless. They also don't have to say sappy parting words, they know how they feel about each other. And another example (with a happy ending even) is Ladyhawke in which a curse keeps the lovers apart. Very fairy-tale esque.

I also highly enjoy the idea of characters that have been friends for a while who realize that "oh hey, I think I LIKE this other character!" One of my favorite examples of this (though I'm not always one for chick flicks) is Someone Like You where the male lead is a known player and isn't really the type that the female lead would date, and they end up as roommates, though they were friends before that, and figure out during the course of the movie that they really like each other in more than just a platonic fashion.

Unrequited love (though not in a TEENANGST! pathetic way) is another theme I enjoy in romance. I would have to say my favorite example of this is Labyrinth because in Jareth's twisted way he really is in love with Sarah, but of course the feelings aren't mutual. Also I did somewhat enjoy the unrequited dynamic in The Dark Knight with Bruce and Rachel (before she gets blown up). It gives him more humanity I think, that he's Bruce Wayne and yet the girl he wants most just happens to want to marry a guy that's not him.

Another approach I enjoy is a more classic one I guess, where you have a relationship that's either getting stale or just losing that new shiny aspect. You have one character that is willing to call it quits and who may even decide to date other people or what have you. Then you have the one character that is determined to prove that the relationship is worth saving. The Rocketeer is one of my favorite examples of this.

Granted a lot of times I can get sucked in to the generic romantic drivel that makes you go "awwwww" but mostly what I am drawn to has substance. The reason the scenes I love have good substance is because of well written characters. If the characters don't have a good dynamic, then whatever you're trying to do with them is pointless. And if you HAVE to try and put romantic dialogue in there somewhere for the love of GOD find a writer that doesn't make it sound STUPID! (*coughTWILIGHTcough* and *coughPREQUELSTARWARScough*)

Ghosts of Relationships Past

2009-10-16T02:55:57Z

I don't know what it is about certain past relationships, but sometimes one of mine comes back to haunt me occasionally. Not necessarily in a bad way. Just unexpected. I took a nap today and ended up dreaming about the person in question. It was strange because all the old feelings were still there. I guess sometimes when you let someone so deeply into your heart, a part of them always lives there.

Picture Meme

2009-09-06T05:09:53Z

Davina's image meme. Pictures only is the rule. Here we go, under the cut so that it'll save all your flists.

Five Favorite Artists:

Five Favorite Actors:

Five Favorite Bands/Singers:

Five Favorite Animals:

Five Favorite Places You've Been:

Five Favorite Places You've Never Been:

Five Favorite Vehicles:

Five Favorite Characters (Not Of Your Own Creation):

If you guys want to know what any of these are (if they aren't already obvious) post a comment and I'll tell you. :)

Icon Meme

2009-04-14T23:27:32Z

Gacked from pariahsdream.

1. Reply to this post, and I will pick six of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.

1. "mirrormask" (I made this one from some promo stuff for the movie Mirrormask)
I really enjoyed the movie Mirrormask, even though on some levels it was quite bizzarre and I've found a lot of people didn't like it. At the moment this one serves as my default icon, mostly because I think it's pretty (if a bit on the darker side XD).</i>

2. "jeezy creezy" (Icon by almostaday)
This is one of my Eddie Izzard icons. I fell in love with him after one of my friends introduced me to his stand up comedy. This is from a bit off his show "Dress to Kill" which is laugh out loud funny if you ever get the chance to catch it. I use this one mostly for things that are either WTF kinds of things or for more low-key "hello, what's this?" kinds of things.</i>

3. "no flag no country" (Icon by ainabarad_icons)
Another Eddie icon (I do have a lot of them because I enjoy him so much), this one is just a general kind of haha! fun! icon I use. Again from his "Dress to Kill" stand-up comedy show. I giggle every time I think of this bit.</i>

4. "han leia sap" (Icon by mrbnatural)
If you know me at all you know that I am a complete and utter romantic sap. SAP!!! This icon definitely plays to that, and I've ALWAYS loved the Han and Leia pairing, it's my favorite in Star Wars. Probably one of my favorite fandom pairings ever. I generally use this icon when I'm feeling sappy, or there's some kind of sap involved. ^___^ </i>

5. "grim reaping" (Icon by almostaday)
Hahaha, another Eddie icon. I did say there were a lot of them. I can't remember which bit of his this was from, but it amusing me to no end. I like this icon for when I'm irritated on someone else's behalf, or when I'm feeling random and one of my other icons just doesn't seem to fit the mood. It entertains me. I want some grim-reaping equipment!

6. "jack lurk" (Icon by padabee)
I'm not sure how long I've had this icon, probably one of the most used out of my current lot. How can you not love Jack Sparrow? I mean really, he's my favorite PotC character, and is constantly hilarious. This is my "lurk" icon, for when I'm just meandering through people's entries, or hovering, or not doing much of anything in particular other than well...lurking!

Anyone else up for this? Haha, it's fun!

Tummy Update - with pics!

2009-02-05T06:26:59Z

Hey all! Finally I've got something non-whiny and wangsty to report. I went to see my doctor today and she gave me a freebie! ultrasound. I wasn't scheduled for one until after the 23rd, but this was definitely cool. So I've got some pics for you all if you're curious to see how the podling (my mom's term) is progressing.

From Misc Art

It's sucking its thumb!!! I was totally amazed, and it's so cute. Pointed out the arm and head and whatnot cause it's kinda fuzzy.

From Misc Art

Another one of the thumbsucking, it crazy how well you can see the bones and stuff. o__O

From Misc Art

Last one here is of the foot. And it looks like a foot!

Anyway, enjoy. Hopefully I'll have some more after my next appointment to show and whatnot. Everything is going well, except for the hormonal emotional upheavals and whatnot. And colds SUCK when you're pregnant, so much harder to just get over them. That's it for now, I'll try and keep you guys updated and all. *LOVES*

Holiday and Tummy Update

2008-12-17T00:45:52Z

Sooooo yesterday I went in for my first ultrasound. Talk about a surreal experience. I mean I don't really feel all that different, aside from being tired all the time. But wham, right there on the screen there's this tiny little tadpole thing with arms and legs. It's like whoa, I really am growing a person! So I'm three months and three days into this thing and it's exciting and scary at the same time. As a side note I must add that those ultrasound tech people must take some kind of sadistic glee in telling you to drink a crapton of water and then mashing the holy hell out of your bladder. AGH! I really have a tiny blatter to begin with, but that was just torture!

Onward to other things! I still have so much freaking Christmas stuff to do it isn't even funny. I still have to get cards mailed to family, and so many little art gifties to finish up. They're all in varying degrees of done-ness and I'm just hoping that none of them are going to be late. Eek! Anyway I hope you guys are doing well with the impending holidays and all that. Much love!

ATTENTION - Lee ETA

2008-11-29T19:40:28Z

Hey guys! Lee called me today and wanted me to let you guys know she's staying at her grandparents for an indeterminate amount of time. She wanted me to tell you she's okay but she's not sure when she'll be home. She doesn't have internet there so she'll be AFK for a while. She says she's really sorry but it's kinda emergency stuff and she can't bring her computer up there with her while she's staying.

If you guys want me to relay anything to her, let me know.

updatethingermajig

2008-11-26T02:40:26Z

Not really a whole lot to update on, but I finally got approved for insurance for my prenatal care. Which means I finally get to go to the doctor and find out how things are going. Lemme tell you it's weird being pregnant. I don't feel tons different, just more tired than usual. But yeah, next Friday is when my appointment will be, so I'll let you all know then what's going on and whatnot. Art is kinda...really slow still, but hopefully I'll be able to pick up again sometime in the future. Loves to you all!

500 Movies Meme

2008-10-16T05:25:48Z

Gacked from scribe_kitten

Bold if you've seen it
Italics if you've seen part of it/think you've seen it but not sure
Strike if you have no intention of ever seeing it EVER

1. The Godfather (Francis Ford Coppola, 1972)
2. Raiders of the Lost Ark (Steven Spielberg, 1981)
3. Star Wars Episode V: Empire Strikes Back (Irvin Kershner, 1980)
4. Shawshank Redemption (Frank Darabont, 1994)
5. Jaws (Steven Spielberg, 1975)
6. GoodFellas (Martin Scorsese, 1990)
7. Apocalypse Now (Francis Ford Coppola, 1979)
8. Singin’ in the Rain (Stanley Donen, Gene Kelly, 1952)
9. Pulp Fiction (Quentin Tarantino, 1994)
10. Fight Club (David Fincher, 1999)
11. Raging Bull (Martin Scorsese, 1980)
12. The Apartment (Billy Wilder, 1960)
13. Chinatown (Roman Polanski, 1974)
14. Once Upon a Time in the West (Sergio Leone, 1968)
15. The Dark Knight (Christopher Nolan, 2008)
16. 2001: A Space Odyssey (Stanley Kubrick, 1968)
17. Taxi Driver (Martin Scorsese, 1976)
18. Casablanca (Michael Curtiz, 1942)
19. The Godfather Part II (Francis Ford Coppola, 1974)
20. Blade Runner (Ridley Scott, 1982)
21. The Third Man (Carol Reed, 1949)
22. Star Wars Episode IV: A New Hope (George Lucas, 1977)
23. Back to the Future (Robert Zemeckis, 1985)
24. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (Peter Jackson, 2001)
25. The Good, the Bad and the Ugly (Sergio Leone, 1967)
26. Dr. Strangelove Or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (Stanley Kubrick, 1964)
27. Some Like It Hot (Billy Wilder, 1959)
28. Citizen Kane (Orson Welles, 1941)
29. Die Hard (John McTiernan, 1988)
30. Aliens (James Cameron, 1986)
31. Gone with the Wind (Victor Fleming, George Cukor, Sam Wood)
32. Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid (George Roy Hill, 1969)
33. Alien (Ridley Scott, 1979)
34. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (Peter Jackson, 2003)
35. Terminator 2: Judgment Day (James Cameron, 1991)
36. Andrei Rublev (Andrei Tarkovsky, 1969)
37. A Clockwork Orange (Stanley Kubrick, 1971)
38. Heat (Michael Mann, 1995)
39. The Matrix (Andy & Larry Wachowski, 1999)
40. Vertigo (Alfred Hitchcock, 1958)
41. The 400 Blows (François Truffaut, 1959)
42. Kind Hearts and Coronets (Robert Hamer, 1949)
43. The Big Lebowski (Joel & Ethan Coen, 1998)
44. Schindler’s List (Steven Spielberg, 1993)
45. Psycho (Alfred Hitchcock, 1960)
46. On the Waterfront (Elia Kazan, 1954)
47. E.T. The Extra-Terrestrial (Steven Spielberg, 1982)
48. This Is Spinal Tap (Rob Reiner, 1984)
49. Evil Dead (Sam Raimi, 1987)
50. Seven Samurai (Akira Kurosawa, 1954)
51. 8 ½ (Federico Fellini, 1963)
52. The Shining (Stanley Kubrick, 1980)
53. Donnie Darko (Richard Kelly, 2001)
54. The Lord of the Rings: Two Towers (Peter Jackson, 2002)
55. La Dolce Vita (Federico Fellini, 1960)
56. Casino Royale (Martin Campbell, 2006)
57. Lawrence of Arabia (David Lean, 1962)
58. His Girl Friday (Howard Hawks, 1940)
59. Close Encounters of the Third Kind (Steven Spielberg, 1977)
60. Come and See (Elem Klimov, 1985)
61. The Usual Suspects (Bryan Singer, 1995)
62. The Graduate (Mike Nichols, 1967)
63. Sunset Boulevard (Billy Wilder, 1950)
64. Oldboy (Park Chan-wook, 2003)
65. Harold and Maude (Hal Ashby, 1971)
66. Edward Scissorhands (Tim Burton, 1990)
67. Tokyo Story (Yasujiro Ozu, 1953)
68. Annie Hall (Woody Allen, 1977)
69. Three Colours Red (Krzysztof Kieslowski, 1994)
70. Stand by Me (Rob Reiner, 1986)
71. The Night of the Hunter (Charles Laughton, 1955)
72. 12 Angry Men (Sidney Lumet, 1957)
73. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (Michel Gondry, 2004)
74. The Treasure of Sierra Madre (John Huston, 1948)
75. A Matter of Life and Death (Michael Powell, Emeric Pressburger, 1946)
76. Manhattan (Woody Allen, 1979)
77. Spartacus (Stanley Kubrick, 1960)
78. Rosemary’s Baby (Roman Polanski, 1968)
79. The Thin Red Line (Terrence Malick, 1998)
80. The Life and Death of Colonel Blimp (Michael Powell, Emeric Pressburger, 1943)
81. Batman Begins (Christopher Nolan, 2005)
82. The Great Escape (John Sturges, 1963)
83. Brazil (Terry Gilliam, 1985)
84. L.A. Confidential (Curtis Hanson, 1997)
85. Blue Velvet (David Lynch, 1986)
86. Carrie (Brian De Palma, 1976)
87. The King of Comedy (Martin Scorsese, 1983)
88. Ferris Bueller’s Day off (John Hughes, 1986)
89. Magnolia (Paul Thomas Anderson, 1999)
90. When Harry Met Sally (Rob Reiner, 1989)
91. Star Wars Episode VI: Return of the Jedi (Richard Marquand, 1983)
92. Once Upon a Time in America (Sergio Leone, 1984)
93. Spirit of the Beehive (Victor Erice, 1973)
94. The Wild Bunch (Sam Peckinpah, 1969)
95. Yojimbo (Akira Kurosawa, 1961)
96. American Beauty (Sam Mendes, 1999)
97. Reservoir Dogs (Quentin Tarantino, 1992)
98. North by Northwest (Alfred Hitchcock, 1959)
99. Toy Story (John Lasseter, 1995)
100. Network (Sidney Lumet, 1976)
101. Raising Arizona (Joel & Ethan Coen, 1987)
102. The Hustler (Robert Rossen, 1961)
103. Rear Window (Alfred Hitchcock, 1954)
104. The Rules of the Game (Jean Renoir, 1939)
105. One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (Milos Forman, 1975)
106. A Man for All Seasons (Fred Zinnemann, 1966)
107. An American Werewolf in London (John Landis, 1981)
108. The Tree of Wooden Clogs (Ermanno Olmi, 1978)
109. Touch of Evil (Orson Welles, 1958)
110. Before Sunset (Richard Linklater, 2004)
111. Fitzcarraldo (Werner Herzog, 1982)
112. I Am Cuba (Alexander Payne, 1964)
113. Anchorman: The Legend of Ron Burgundy (Adam McKay, 2004)
114. The Conversation (Francis Ford Coppola, 1974)
115. Blazing Saddles (Mel Brooks, 1974)
116. Rio Bravo (Howard Hawks, 1959)
117. Miller’s Crossing (Joel & Ethan Coen, 1990)
118. Withnail and I (Bruce Robinson, 1987)
119. The Wages of Fear (Henri-Georges Clouzot, 1953)
120. The Battle of Algiers (Gillo Pontecorvo, 1966)
121. Los Olvidados (Luis Buñuel, 1950)
122. The Princess Bride (Rob Reiner, 1987)
123. A Woman Under the Influence (John Cassavetes, 1974)
124. The Silence of the Lambs (Jonathan Demme, 1991)
125. A Bout de souffle (Jean-Luc Godard, 1960)
126. Pat Garrett and Billy the Kid (Sam Peckinpah, 1973)
127. The Sting (George Roy Hill, 1973)
128. Lost in Translation (Sofia Coppola, 2003)
129. Harvey (Henry Koster, 1950)
130. The Man Who Would Be King (John Huston, 1975)
131. The Last of the Mohicans (Michael Mann, 1992)
132. Pan’s Labyrinth (Guillermo del Toro, 2006)
133. Double Indemnity (Billy Wilder, 1944)
134. Seven (David Fincher, 1995)
135. Duck Soup (Leo McCarey, 1933)
136. Amadeus (Milos Forman, 1984)
137. Dances with Wolves (Kevin Costner, 1990)
138. Cool Hand Luke (Stuart Rosenberg, 1967)
139. Blow Out (Brian De Palma, 1981)
140. As Good as It Gets (James L. Brooks, 1997)
141. Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (David Hand, 1937)
142. Almost Famous (Cameron Crowe, 2000)
143. Cyrano De Bergerac (Jean-Paul Rappeneau, 1991)
144. There Will Be Blood (Paul Thomas Anderson, 2007)
145. Sophie’s Choice (Alan J. Pakula, 1982)
146. Shampoo (Hal Ashby, 1975)
147. Notorious (Alfred Hitchcock, 1946)
148. Z (Costa-Gavras, 1969)
149. The Red Shoes (Michael Powell, Emeric Pressburger, 1948)
150. The French Connection (William Friedkin, 1971)
151. Gladiator (Ridley Scott, 2000)
152. Boogie Nights (Paul Thomas Anderson, 1997)
153. The Innocents (Jack Clayton, 1961)
154. Betty Blue (Jean-Jacques Beineix, 1986)
155. Badlands (Terrence Malick, 1973)
156. Saving Private Ryan (Steven Spielberg, 1998)
157. True Romance (Tony Scott, 1993)
158. Unforgiven (Clint Eastwood, 1992)
159. The Royal Tenenbaums (Wes Anderson, 2001)
160. Being There (Hal Ashby, 1979)
161. The Year of Living Dangerously (Peter Weir, 1982)
162. A Nightmare on Elm Street (Wes Craven, 1984)
163. The Bridge on the River Kwai (David Lean, 1957)
164. The Searchers (John Ford, 1956)
165. Partie de campagne (Jean Renoir, 1936)
166. Goldfinger (Guy Hamilton, 1964)
167. Don’t Look Now (Nic Roeg, 1973)
168. Tootsie (Sydney Pollack, 1982)
169. Viridiana (Luis Buñuel, 1961)
170. La Haine (Mathieu Kassovitz, 1995)
171. Brief Encounter (David Lean, 1945)
172. The Wizard of Oz (Victor Fleming, 1939)
173. Memento (Christopher Nolan, 2000)
174. Superman the Movie (Richard Donner, 1978)
175. Rushmore (Wes Anderson, 1998)
176. A Canterbury Tale (Michael Powell, Emeric Pressburger, 1944)
177. City of God (Fernando Meirelles, Kátia Lund, 2002)
178. Hellzapoppin’ (H.C. Potter, 1941)
179. Toy Story 2 (John Lasseter, 1999)
180. To Kill a Mockingbird (Robert Mulligan, 1962)
181. Beyond the Valley of the Dolls (Russ Meyer, 1970)
182. Performance (Donald Cammell, Nic Roeg, 1970)
183. Le Samourai (Jean-Pierre Melville, 1967)
184. Dirty Harry (Don Siegel, 1971)
185. Paths of Glory (Stanley Kubrick, 1957)
186. United 93 (Paul Greengrass, 2006)
187. The Big Country (William Wyler, 1958)
188. School of Rock (Richard Linklater, 2003)
189. Ghostbusters (Ivan Reitman, 1984)
190. Big (Penny Marshall, 1988)
191. Brokeback Mountain (Ang Lee, 2005)
192. Eraserhead (David Lynch, 1977)
193. Ed Wood (Tim Burton, 1994)
194. Bicycle Thieves (Vittorio De Sica, 1948)
195. It’s a Wonderful Life (Frank Capra, 1946)
196. Amélie (Jean-Pierre Jeunet, 1999)
197. Point Break (Kathryn Bigelow, 1991)
198. Fargo (Joel & Ethan Coen, 1996)
199. The Texas Chain Saw Massacre (Tobe Hooper, 1974)
200. Before Sunrise (Richard Linklater, 1995)
201. JFK (Oliver Stone, 1991)
202. The Killer (John Woo, 1989)
203. Life of Brian (Terry Jones, 1979)
204. The Bride of Frankenstein (James Whale, 1935)
205. The Addiction (Abel Ferrara, 1995)
206. The Exorcist (William Friedkin, 1973)
207. The Misfits (John Huston, 1961)
208. The Departed (Martin Scorsese, 2006)
209. Local Hero (Billy Forsyth, 1983)
210. Platoon (Oliver Stone, 1986)
211. Moulin Rouge! (Baz Luhrmann, 2001)
212. M (Fritz Lang, 1931)
213. Songs from the Second Floor (Roy Andersson, 2000)
214. Army of Shadows (Jean-Pierre Melville, 1969)
215. Jackie Brown (Quentin Tarantino, 1997)
216. Sunday Bloody Sunday (John Schlesinger, 1971)
217. The Magnificent Seven (John Sturges, 1960)
218. Mr. Hulot’s Holiday (Jacques Tati, 1953)
219. The Outlaw Josey Wales (Clint Eastwood, 1976)
220. Far From Heaven (Todd Haynes, 2002)
221. McCabe & Mrs Miller (Robert Altman, 1971)
222. Mother and Son (Aleksandr Sokurov, 1997)
223. Safe (Todd Haynes, 1995)
224. Distant Voices, Still Lives (Terence Davies, 1988)
225. Get Carter (Mike Hodges, 1971)
226. Romeo + Juliet (Baz Luhrmann, 1996)
227. Léon (Luc Besson, 1994)
228. No Country for Old Men (Joel & Ethan Coen, 2007)
229. Festen (Thomas Vinterberg, 1998)
230. Howl’s Moving Castle (Hayao Miyazaki, 2004)
231. Shaun of the Dead (Edgar Wright, 2004)
232. Jurassic Park (Steven Spielberg, 1993)
233. Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom (Steven Spielberg, 1984)
234. The Bourne Ultimatum (Paul Greengrass, 2007)
235. Battle Royale (Kinji Fukasaku, 2000)
236. Black Narcissus (Michael Powell, Emeric Pressburger, 1947)
237. Delicatessen (Jean-Pierre Jeunet, Marc Caro, 1991)
238. Requiem for a Dream (Darren Aronofsky, 2000)
239. Cinema Paradiso (Giuseppe Tornatore, 1988)
240. Forrest Gump (Robert Zemeckis, 1994)
241. Brighton Rock (John Boulting, 1947)
242. King Kong (Merian C. Cooper, Ernest B. Schoedsack, 1933)
243. Heimat (Edgar Reitz, 1984)
244. Dazed and Confused (Richard Linklater, 1993)
245. Downfall (Oliver Hirschbiegel, 2004)
246. The Philadelphia Story (George Cukor, 1940)
247. All That Jazz (Bob Fosse, 1979)
248. Pandora’s Box (Georg Wilhelm Pabst, 1929)
249. My Darling Clementine (John Ford, 1946)
250. Sunrise (F.W. Murnau, 1927)
251. Darling (John Schlesinger, 1965)
252. The Leopard (Luchino Visconti, 1980)
253. First Blood (Ted Kotcheff, 1982)
254. The Verdict (Sidney Lumet, 1982)
255. Ninotchka (Ernst Lubitsch, 1939)
256. Le Quai des brumes (Marcel Carné, 1938)
257. The Black Cat (Edgar G. Ulmer, 1934)
258. The Blues Brothers (John Landis, 1980)
259. Groundhog Day (Harold Ramis, 1993)
260. Field of Dreams (Phil Alden Robisnon, 1989)
261. Roman Holiday (William Wyler, 1953)
262. The Virgin Suicides (Sofia Coppola, 1999)
263. Das Boot (Wolfgang Petersen, 1981)
264. American Graffiti (George Lucas, 1973)
265. A.I. Artificial Intelligence (Steven Spielberg, 2001)
266. Ghost World (Terry Zwigoff, 2001)
267. Crimes and Misdemeanors (Woody Allen, 1989)
268. The Lady Vanishes (Alfred Hitchcock, 1938)
269. A Place in the Sun (George Stevens, 1951)
270. The Death of Mr. Lazarescu (Cristi Puiu, 2005)
271. Pee-Wee’s Big Adventure (Tim Burton, 1985)
272. The Bird with the Crystal Plumage (Dario Argento, 1970)
273. The Maltese Falcon (John Huston, 1941)
274. Sin City (Robert Rodriguez, Frank Miller, 2005)
275. My Neighbour Totoro (Hayao Miyazaki, 1988)
276. Layer Cake (Matthew Vaughn, 2004)
277. On the Town (Stanley Donen, Gene Kelly, 1949)
278. Carlito’s Way (Brian De Palma, 1993)
279. National Lampoon’s Animal House (John Landis, 1978)
280. Mad Max 2 (George Miller, 1982)
281. Interview with the Vampire (Neil Jordan, 1994)
282. The Godfather Part III (Francis Ford Coppola, 1990)
283. Ran (Akira Kurosawa, 1985)
284. Scarface (Brian De Palma, 1983)
285. Solaris (Andrei Tarkovsky, 1972)
286. L’avventura (Michelangelo Antonioni, 1960)
287. Secrets and Lies (Mike Leigh, 1996)
288. Who Framed Roger Rabbit (Robert Zemeckis, 1988)
289. John Carpenter’s The Thing (John Carpenter, 1982)
290. Rashomon (Akira Kurosawa, 1950)
291. Rocco and His Brothers (Luchino Visconti, 1960)
292. Le belle et la bête (Jean Cocteau, 1946)
293. La maman et la putain (Jean Eustache, 1973)
294. The Red Balloon (Albert Lamorisse, 1956)
295. The Untouchables (Brian De Palma, 1987)
296. All the President’s Men (Alan J. Pakula, 1976)
297. It Happened One Night (Frank Capra, 1934)
298. Le cercle rouge (Jean-Pierre Melville, 1970)
299. The Palm Beach Story (Preston Sturges, 1942)
300. Sawdust and Tinsel (Ingmar Bergman, 1953)
301. Love and Death (Woody Allen, 1975)
302. The Best Years of Our Lives (William Wyler, 1946)
303. Together (Lukas Moodyson, 2000)
304. Radio Days (Woody Allen, 1987)
305. The Prestige (Christopher Nolan, 2006)
306. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade (Steven Spielberg, 1989)
307. Midnight Cowboy (John Schlesinger, 1969)
308. The Terminator (James Cameron, 1984)
309. Transformers (Michael Bay, 2007)
310. Gremlins (Joe Dante, 1984)
311. American History X (Tony Kaye, 1998)
312. Suspiria (Dario Argento, 1977)
313. Battleship Potemkin (Sergei Eisenstein, 1925)
314. Sweet Smell of Success (Alexander Mackendrick, 1957)
315. Sense and Sensibility (Ang Lee, 1995)
316. Trainspotting (Danny Boyle, 1996)
317. Midnight Run (Martin Brest, 1988)
318. Rebecca (Alfred Hitchcock, 1940)
319. The Lion King (Roger Allers, Rob Minkoff, 1994)
320. Braveheart (Mel Gibson, 1995)
321. Funny Face (Stanley Donen, 1957)
322. Aladdin (Ron Clements, John Musker, 1992)
323. The Last Seduction (John Dahl, 1994)
324. Lone Star (John Sayles, 1996)
325. Kill Bill Vol. 1 (Quentin Tarantino, 2003)
326. Out of Sight (Steven Soderbergh, 1998)
327. The Nightmare Before Christmas (Henry Selick, 1993)
328. The Truman Show (Peter Weir, 1998)
329. The Lives of Others (Florian Henckel von Donnersmarck, 2006)
330. Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith (George Lucas, 2005)
331. The Green Mile (Frank Darabont, 1999)
332. The Sixth Sense (M. Night Shyamalan, 1999)
333. Grease (Randal Kleiser, 1978)
334. The Magnificent Ambersons (Orson Welles, 1942)
335. The Seventh Seal (Ingmar Bergman, 1957)
336. Titanic (James Cameron, 1997)
337. 300 (Zack Snyder, 2006)
338. Jules et Jim (François Truffaut, 1962)
339. Spirited Away (Hayao Miyazaki, 2001)
340. High and Low (Akira Kurosawa, 1963)
341. The Passenger (Michelangelo Antonioni, 1975)
342. The Gold Rush (Charlie Chaplin, 1925)
343. Monsters, Inc. (Pete Docter, 2001)
344. The Last Waltz (Martin Scorsese, 1978)
345. Fatal Attraction (Adrian Lyne, 1987)
346. Leave Her to Heaven (John M. Stahl, 1945)
347. All About Eve (Joseph L. Mankiewicz, 1950)
348. Au hasard Balthazar (Robert Bresson, 1966)
349. Arthur (Steve Gordon, 1981)
350. Planet of the Apes (Franklin J. Schaffner, 1968)
351. Zulu (Cy Endfield, 1964)
352. Unfaithfully Yours (Preston Sturges, 1948)
353. Bugsy Malone (Alan Parker, 1976)
354. Un chien andalou (Luis Buñuel, 1929)
355. Sunshine (Danny Boyle, 2007)
356. Napoléon (Abel Gance, 1927)
357. The Long Goodbye (Robert Altman, 1973)
358. Russian Ark (Aleksandr Sokurov, 2002)
359. The Lady Eve (Preston Sturges, 1941)
360. The Return (Andrei Zvyagintsev, 2003)
361. Clerks (Kevin Smith, 1994)
362. The Elephant Man (David Lynch, 1980)
363. Good Morning, Vietnam (Barry Levinson, 1987)
364. Natural Born Killers (Oliver Stone, 1994)
365. The Bourne Identity (Doug Liman, 2002)
366. Predator (John McTiernan, 1987)
367. Cabaret (Bob Fosse, 1972)
368. Airplane! (Jim Abrahams, David Zucker, Jerry Zucker, 1980)
369. The Breakfast Club (John Hughes, 1985)
370. Rocky (John G. Avildsen, 1976)
371. Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl (Gore Verbinski, 2003)
372. Army of Darkness (Sam Raimi, 1992)
373. Wall-E (Andrew Stanton, 2008)
374. Hot Fuzz (Edgar Wright, 2007)
375. Four Weddings and a Funeral (Mike Newell, 1994)
376. Zodiac (David Fincher, 2007)
377. Mean Streets (Martin Scorsese, 1973)
378. The Goonies (Richard Donner, 1985)
379. Ratatouille (Brad Bird, 2007)
380. Children of Men (Alfonso Cuarón, 2006)
381. Monty Python and the Holy Grail (Terry Jones, Terry Gilliam, 1975)
382. Caché (Michael Haneke, 2005)
383. Serenity (Joss Whedon, 2005)
384. The Shop Around the Corner (Ernst Lubitsch, 1940)
385. Ace in the Hole (Billy Wilder, 1951)
386. The Great Silence (Sergio Corbucci, 1968)
387. Rain Man (Barry Levinson, 1988)
388. The English Patient (Anthony Minghella, 1996)
389. Election (Alexander Payne, 1999)
390. 2 Days in Paris (Julie Delpy, 2007)
391. Mulholland Drive (David Lynch, 2001)
392. Paris, Texas (Wim Wenders, 1984)
393. Garden State (Zach Braff, 2004)
394. Cloverfield (Matt Reeves, 2008)
395. Casino (Martin Scorsese, 1995)
396. The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford (Andrew Dominik, 2007)
397. Night of the Living Dead (George A. Romero, 1968)
398. Killer of Sheep (Charless Burnett, 1977)
399. Greed (Erich von Stroheim, 1924)
400. The Incredibles (Brad Bird, 2004)
401. Batman Returns (Tim Burton, 1992)
402. Little Miss Sunshine (Jonathan Dayton, Valerie Faris, 2006)
403. Do the Right Thing (Spike Lee, 1989)
404. RoboCop (Paul Verhoeven, 1987)
405. Dirty Dancing (Emile Ardolino, 1987)
406. Iron Man (Jon Favreau, 2008)
407. The Jungle Book (Wolfgang Reitherman, 1967)
408. Zelig (Woody Allen, 1983)
409. Men in Black (Barry Sonnenfeld, 1997)
410. A Hard Day’s Night (Richard Lester, 1964)
411. Spider-Man 2 (Sam Raimi, 2004)
412. Heathers (Michael Lehmann, 1989)
413. Finding Nemo (Andrew Stanton, 2003)
414. The Double Life of Véronique (Krzysztof Kieslowski, 1991)
415. Dawn of the Dead (George A. Romero, 1978)
416. Bad Taste (Peter Jackson, 1987)
417. Lords of Dogtown (Catherine Hardwicke, 2005)
418. V for Vendetta (James McTeigue, 2005)
419. Days of Heaven (Terrence Malick, 1978)
420. Jerry Maguire (Cameron Crowe, 1996)
421. Lethal Weapon (Richard Donner, 1987)
422. A Man Escaped (Robert Bresson, 1956)
423. Kill Bill Vol. 2 (Quentin Tarantino, 2004)
424. To Have and Have Not (Howard Hawks, 1944)
425. Wonder Boys (Curtis Hanson, 2000)
426. Enduring Love (Roger Michell, 2004)
427. Spring in a Small Town (Mu Fei, 1948)
428. The Enigma of Kaspar Hauser (Werner Herzog, 1974)
429. Danger: Diabolik (Mario Bava, 1968)
430. Big Trouble in Little China (John Carpenter, 1986)
431. Electra Glide in Blue (James William Guercio, 1973)
432. X-Men 2 (Bryan Singer, 2003)
433. Good Will Hunting (Gus Van Sant, 1997)
434. The Cat Concerto (William Hanna, Joseph Barbera, 1947)
435. American Psycho (Mary Harron, 2000)
436. Beauty and the Beast (Gary Trousdale, Kirk Wise, 1991)
437. Spider-Man (Sam Raimi, 2002)
438. The Lost Boys (Joel Schumacher, 1987)
439. Grosse Pointe Blank (George Armitage, 1997)
440. Akira (Katsuhiro Otomo, 1988)
441. Being John Malkovich (Spike Jonze, 1999)
442. Atonement (Joe Wright, 2007)
443. Dog Day Afternoon (Sidney Lumet, 1975)
444. Hairspray (John Waters, 1988)
445. Dumb and Dumber (Peter and Bobby Farrelly, 1994)
446. High Fidelity (Stephen Frears, 2000)
447. Ten (Abbas Kiarostami, 2002)
448. A History of Violence (David Cronenberg, 2005)
449. Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace (George Lucas, 1999)
450. King Kong (Peter Jackson, 2005)
451. Speed (Jan De Bont, 1994)
452. Unbreakable (M. Night Shyamalan, 2000)
453. Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull (Steven Spielberg, 2008)
454. The Bourne Supremacy (Paul Greengrass, 2004)
455. Top Gun (Tony Scott, 1986)
456. 28 Days Later (Danny Boyle, 2002)
457. Full Metal Jacket (Stanley Kubrick, 1987)
458. Batman (Tim Burton, 1989)
459. Ikiru (Akira Kurosawa, 1952)
460. Crash (Paul Haggis, 2004)
461. Halloween (John Carpenter, 1978)
462. Dead Man’s Shoes (Shane Meadows, 2004)
463. Juno (Jason Reitman, 2007)
464. Seven Brides for Seven Brothers (Stanley Donen, 1954)
465. 12 Monkeys (Terry Gilliam, 1995)
466. Snatch (Guy Ritchie, 2000)
467. The Deer Hunter (Michael Cimino, 1978)
468. The Crow (Alex Proyas, 1994)
469. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas (Terry Gilliam, 1998)
470. Glengarry Glen Ross (James Foley, 1992)
471. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Alfonso Cuarón, 2004)
472. Le Doulos (Jean-Pierre Melville, 1962)
473. Into the Wild (Sean Penn, 2007)
474. Enter the Dragon (Robert Clouse, 1973)
475. Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man’s Chest (Gore Verbinski, 2006)
476. Santa Sangre (Alejandro Jodorowsky, 1989)
477. Rebel Without a Cause (Nicholas Ray, 1955)
478. Flesh (Paul Morrissey, 1968)
479. The Secret Life of Walter Mitty (Norman Z. McLeod, 1947)
480. The Son’s Room (Nanni Moretti, 2001)
481. Topsy-Turvy (Mike Leigh, 1999)
482. Scream (Wes Craven, 1996)
483. The Big Red One (Samuel Fuller, 1980)
484. The Fountain (Darren Aronofsky, 2006)
485. The Wicker Man (Robin Hardy, 1973)
486. Breakfast at Tiffany’s (Blake Edwards, 1961)
487. Superbad (Greg Mottola, 2007)
488. Princess Mononoke (Hayao Miyazaki, 1997)
489. Brick (Rian Johnson, 2005)
490. Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street (Tim Burton, 2007)
491. Ben-Hur (William Wyler, 1959)
492. Amores Perros (Alejandro González Iñárritu, 2000)
493. In the Company of Men (Neil LaBute, 1997)
494. Sideways (Alexander Payne, 2004)
495. Jailhouse Rock (Richard Thorpe, 1957)
496. Superman Returns (Bryan Singer, 2006)
497. Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon (Ang Lee, 2000)
498. Back to the Future Part II (Robert Zemeckis, 1989)
499. Saw (James Wan, 2004)
500. Ocean’s Eleven (Steven Soderbergh, 2001)

Some of these I wish I hadn't wasted my time seeing. Some of them I want to see and haven't gotten the chance. Guess I haven't seen as many movies as I thought, though a lot of movies I HAVE seen aren't on the list. Ah well.

Meme - Yes/No

2008-10-07T03:24:44Z

Thieved from a bunch of people who already did it.

Only two rules-- and you MUST follow them:
1. You can only say Yes or No.
2. You aren't allowed to explain anything unless someone asks you.

1. Taken a picture fully naked? --- no
2. Painted your room? --- yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? --- yes
4. Driven a car? --- yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? --- yes
6. Have a crush? --- yes
7. Been dumped? --- yes
8. Stolen someones heart? --- yes
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? --- yes

10. Been in a fist fight? --- no
11. Snuck out of your house? --- yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? --- yes
13. Been arrested? --- no
14. Made out with a stranger? --- yes
15. Left your house without telling your parents? --- yes
16. Had a crush on your neighbor? --- yes
17. Ditched school to do something more fun? --- yes
18. Slept in a bed with a member of the opposite sex? --- yes
19. Seen someone die? --- no
20. Been on a plane? --- yes
21. Kissed a picture? --- yes
22. Slept in until 3? --- yes
23. Love someone or miss someone right now? --- yes
24. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? --- yes
25. Made a snow angel? --- yes
26. Played dress up? --- yes
27. Cheated while playing a game? --- yes
28. Been lonely? --- yes
29. Fallen asleep at work/school? --- yes
30. Yelled at a friend? --- yes
31. Felt an earthquake? --- yes
32. Touched a snake? --- yes
33. Ran a red light? --- yes
34. Been suspended from school? --- no
35. Had detention? --- no
36. Been in a car accident? --- yes
37. Hated the way you look? --- yes
38. Witnessed a crime? --- no
39. Pole danced? --- no
40. Been lost? --- yes
41. Been to the opposite side of the country? --- yes
42. Felt like dying? --- yes
43. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? --- yes
44. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? --- yes
45. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? --- yes
45. Sang in the shower? --- yes
46. Made out in a park? --- no
47. Had a dream that you married someone? --- yes
48. Glued your hand to something? --- yes
49. Got your tongue stuck to a pole? --- yes
50. Ever gone to school partially naked? --- no
51. Been a cheerleader? --- no
52. Sat on a roof top? --- yes
53. Didn't take a shower for a week? --- yes
54. Too scared to watch scary movies alone? --- yes
55. Played chicken? --- yes
56. Been pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on? --- yes
57. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? --- yes
58. Been easily amused? --- yes
59. Mooned/flashed someone? --- no
60. Cheated on a test? --- yes
61. Forgotten someone's name? --- yes
62. Slept naked? --- yes
63. Gone skinny dipping? --- yes
64. Blacked out from drinking? --- yes
65. Played a prank on someone? --- yes
66. Gone to a late night movie? --- yes
67. Looked at your reflection as you walked past a window? --- yes
68. Failed a class? --- yes
69. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? --- no
70. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? --- no
71. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? --- no
72. Thrown strange objects? --- yes
73. Felt like killing someone? --- yes
74. Felt like running away? --- yes
75. Have you ever ran away? --- yes
76. Made a parent cry? --- yes
77. Cried over someone? --- yes
78. Had sex more than 3 times in one day? --- yes
79. Dated someone more than once? --- yes
80. Had/Have a dog? --- yes
81. Own an instrument? --- no
82. Been in a band/orchestra? --- no
83. Drank 25 sodas in a day? --- no
84. Broken a CD? --- yes
85. Shot a gun? --- yes
86. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? --- yes

Why?

2008-10-02T19:32:02Z

Just when I think I've had some kind of breakthrough in communication with my hubby it seems like it all just gets erased or forgotten or whatever. We had this nice little coversation (read as Ruthie meltdown) about me working too much and other various things. He said it was fine, that I shouldn't worry, that I should only take sub jobs when I thought I could handle a full load. And for the past month I've been working my ass off 6 days a week. I commented today that I wish I could have tomorrow off, and he came back with "well we should get the money while we can, take all the jobs you can that are available" and I'm sitting there like WTF?! Apparently he's forgotten everything he said about wanting me to be less stressed and happier. So much for communication. I love him, I really do, but sometimes I think he has no concept of how hard I work. Being a substitute teacher is NOT easy, and neither is being in charge of multimedia (music/movies) merchandising at Borders while the merch supervisor is gone on vacation. Why? Why is it so hard to understand that working at a book store is not a "fluff" job, and neither is spending a day in a classroom full of hellions. That and his dad is here again (always an irritation because the man is OCD to the extreme and half deaf so the TV is always on full blast) and hubby just happened to forget to tell me his dad was coming. I really want to escape right now, to go somewhere else, but I don't have a good excuse. Damnit! /rant

Damnit...

2008-09-27T00:28:21Z

Feeling cruddy. Emotional bullshit that I get piled up on me. I don't know how to feel better about it either. Gonna go watch some Supernatural I guess. Damnit, this always happens when I have a decent day...

Oh well, go get me a Dean Winchester fix and maybe I'll feel better. Hopefully.

Art Block + New Addiction

2008-09-19T22:46:51Z

Suffering through another art block, trying to get through it, but I haven't had a lot of free time. It's complete hell when I'm trying to get commissions done and when I really want to do art for myself like Terina designs and the like. But on the upside, Lee has turned me on to a new addiction, I'm totally and completely loving Supernatural. Bahaaa, I watched the pilot for season 1 last night and then I had to stop by work today to buy season 1 on DVD. Oh yeah hook, line, and sinker.

WTF? (update on me)

2008-08-02T07:57:48Z

Hoookay, so on Wednesday my car decided that it wanted to take a dirt nap. Some kind of electrical problem I think because it's not my battery, but the damned thing won't start. I have to borrow my mother in law's car until I can get it fixed. Which won't be until after Monday. *headdesk*

Moving on. Tonight was the release party for Breaking Dawn by Stephanie Myers. *GAG* And O. M. F. G. SHRIEKING FANGIRLS! I have a headache the size of Africa and just the pure idiocy of it all was just obnoxious. (No offense to those of you who like the Twilight series, but personally my opinion is that it's crap, and I'll spare you all and not get on my soapbox.)

Now I'm just drained. Can't sleep, but drained.

I'm having trouble working on my commissions. Of course I'm highly distracted by other fun projects *coff* but hopefully I'll be on track with my commissions again soon.

Watched Mama Mia with my mom today at the theater. Actually it was pretty good. A cute movie, definitely something I was glad to see with my mom. It's kinda one of those mom and daughter movies. Not fantastic by any means, but I did enjoy it.

Speaking of fantastic...THE DARK KNIGHT!!! OMFG!!! AWESOMESAUCE! I've seen it twice now, once with Kate when I was in Denver, and then again on Wednesday. It's completely and totally made of awesome. I absolutely LOVED it. /batmanrant.

Now I'm going to um...do something else before my brain totally crashes.

'nother meme, threes!

2008-07-14T08:24:13Z

Nobody tagged me, but it looked kinda fun. XD

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Ruth
2. Ruthie (mostly my family and my friends who have known me since childhood call me this, though it's a nickname I like so I don't mind it when people call me that)
3. Roo (or Rue, or Ru, or any other variation of spelling: another childhood nickname, only a few people actually call me this)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. moraya (the name of my first ever RP character, she was a Star Wars OC)
2. ladysilvercat (um, silver is one of my favorite colors, and I love cats?)
3. roothee artist (phonetic spelling of Ruthie, and well...I'm an artist)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My eyes.
2. My lip mole. (sounds weird, but it's unique to me)
3. My sappyness. (I'm a hopless romantic and I'm not ashamed to admit it or embrace it)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My weight. (I'm a pudgy bunny)
2. My bad knees. (they pop and lock up and ache - seems to be genetic, my mom has bad knees)
3. My hair. (I can never get it to look right, ever, and I usually end up wearing a "frumpy ponytail" as my sister calls it)

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Swedish
2. German
3. Scottish

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Arachnids, and bugs of any kind really.
2. The idea of ever losing my mother.
3. Extreme heights and falling from them.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. IM-ing friends online.
2. My imagination.
3. Laughter.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW:
1. Ratty cotton pajama pants.
2. Purple tank top.
3. Underpants.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS: (I only get three? Really? WTF?!)
1. Tonic
2. Sarah McLachlan
3. Goo Goo Dolls

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW): (See above...WTF only three?)
1. "Last Train Home" by Ryan Star
2. "Human" by Jon McLaughlin
3. "Shake It" by Metro Station

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Compassion.
2. Faithfulness.
3. Love (above all things love, and more than just the romantic kind everyone assumes, this can go for any relationship).

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE, IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER:
1. I live on a peach farm.
2. I used to pretend I was Wolverine when I was a kid.
3. I'm a "daddy's girl".

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Expressive eyes.
2. A genuine smile.
3. Strong arms.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Reading books that a whole lot of other people would call cheezy.
2. RP.
3. Creating characters.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Have a teleporter so I could go wherever I wanted, whenever I wanted, instantly.
2. Become independantly wealthy and be able to never have to worry about money again.
3. Eat ice cream.

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
1. Illustrator.
2. Writer (fiction, probably romance XD).
3. Animator.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Texas (used to be Florida ;) ).
2. Scotland (and other European places).
3. Canada.

THREE NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Kellan
2. Lilia
3. Grace

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Have a book(s) published.
2. Teach at least some of the younger generations to love art as much as I do.
3. See the people I love find happiness.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. I like to paint my fingernails and toenails.
2. I sometimes get all fangirly over certain actors.
3. I'm a romance whore.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. I like video games and comic books.
2. I get excited by explosions and large weaponry and pointless action flicks. (hahaha, totally on the same wavelength Kate!)
3. I think a lot of things that typical girls do are stupid.

THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Uneide
2. Pariahsdream
3. Anyone else who wants to

memememememe...yeah

2008-07-12T04:48:44Z

Gacked from a buncha people that did it before me.

WRITE EXACTLY WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND, AND DON'T CHANGE IT:

I'm tired of:
feeling cruddy about myself and everything I'm doing

I am listening to:
whatever Nate has going on the TV, not sure what it is, not really paying attention

Maybe I should:
just slap an "epic fail" sticker on my forehead

I wish:
I had enough money to do whatever the hell I wanted and not have to worry about scraping by, and I could give money to all of my friends that are in the same sitch as far as not having money goes

Chocolate is:
mmmm...tasty

I have lost my respect for:
I'd say politicians, but I never had any respect for them to begin with, so let's say uhh...people in general, because really working in retail makes you respect people as a whole a lot less

I last ate:
a whiskey river bbq cheeseburger from Red Robin

The meaning of my display name is:
moraya was my first ever RP character, waaaay back when I was doing Star Wars RP for the first time, I still love the name

Right now I'm craving:
ice cream

Someday:
I'll be happy with myself...I hope

Love is:
something I wish everyone knew I have for them, I wish I could express it more without bombarding people and being overly sappy

MySpace is:
full of a lot of idiots, even if I do have an account there...hahaha

Today:
I actually finished two commissions, and my trade for Ren, and had dinner with mom

Tomorrow:
I wish I could stay in bed

I get annoyed:
a lot, mostly by idiotic customers who either don't listen or blame me for everything that's not my fault, people who tailgate me while I'm driving, people who don't think before they speak, people who talk on their cell phones and ignore you while you're trying to ring them up for items

Parties:
can be fun depending upon who shows up, but only if I'm not the one running them because I'm a terrible hostess

QUESTIONS:

Is your cell phone right by you?
it's in my purse on the floor...so not really right by me

Are you wearing chapstick?
yep, I like burts bees

Are you tired?
yeah, my cat woke me up early and I couldn't go back to sleep

Are you wearing pajamas?
yes sorta, lightweight cotton pajama pants and a tank top

Are you mad?
uhhh, mad crazy yes...I'm not particularly angry at any one thing at the moment though

Are you upset?
not really

FOUR LASTS:

Last beverage?
mango-strawberry smoothie that my aunt made

Last phone call?
called my mom yesterday to set up dinner tonight

Last time you cried?
it's been too long, wish I could...I might feel better

FIVE HAVE YOU EVER...

Dated someone twice?
yes

Been cheated on?
uhhh...I don't know, not to my knowledge

Lost someone close?
yes

3 Favorite Colors:
red, dark blue, black

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU...

Made a new friend?
online yes, in real life no

Fallen out of love?
no

Laughed until you almost cried?
yes

Is there something you want to tell someone right now?
I wish that you could understand me better, or at least try to, my brain doesn't work the way yours does. I'm emotional, not logical, and I'm sorry but I can't change that.

Okayyy...

2008-07-10T17:48:43Z

I'm feeling a thousand kinds of antsy. I have no idea why. Like I'm all restless and shit. It's weird as hell because I'm sitting here thinking about working on commission and tradey stuff, but just the idea of sitting still, just actually sitting still is driving me bonkers. I usually don't get like this. I can sit down, put my iPod on random, and be happy as a clam. I can't explain it at all. And it's kinda irritating me. Ok, it's a lot irritating me. At least I get to have some vacation time of a sort, I'm going over to Denver the last weekend in July, so that's a good thing. Just to get out of town for a bit, and I'm going with my mom, so that's a bonus. Gah...I'm so edgy I feel like I'm just going to go off at a moment's notice. WTF? Ok, yeah end of rant...just gonna go try to chill out or soemthing.

WTF-ery at its finest

2008-06-25T04:58:02Z

Ok, so I'm passing this on to freaking everyone. Found this book at work today and LOL'd so hard I about peed myself. I also had my co-workers rolling. Regardless of your political affiliations, this shit is funny. http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/51tBTIqEvPL._SS500_.jpg George and John OTP!!!

And I HAD to post Kate's response because I about fell out of my chair:

Kate: "Oh, George, your shirt smells so good. Mmm, can I kiss it?" // "Wtf, John, Laura would see your lipstick..."

Idiot PB users

2008-06-10T05:51:01Z

So yeah...photobucket at its finest, with the little thieves running rampant. Just reported this one today - http://s124.photobucket.com/albums/p33/ShadowAngelHell/Star%20Wars/ - has (had? hopefully) some of my Star Wars art in it. If any of you guys recognize the other stuff, you may want to let the artists know so they can report. Mostly stuck this here to save the link so I can put it on idiot reports elsewhere if needs be.