SUM CRAY SHIT HAS HAPPENED SINCE I LAST POSTED

• my mom got hitched with a guy i don't particularly like
• we moved into his house with him and his daughter
• I turned 18 (sex is legal aww yiss)
• while I was living with my mom and her husband my life was really stressful for me, I got really really depressed and got to the point that I wanted to kill myself. Things I was stressed about:

1. I failed algebra 2 twice in highschool (it's necessary you pass w a D to graduate) so I almost didn't get to graduate but my nice AF teacher gave me a D even though I really deserved an F
2. My mom wanted me to find a job so I could start paying rent, even though I've never held a job and really had no plans to ever work ( I KNOW HOW AM I SO DUMB/LAZY)
3. I got rejected from the only college I applied to

• I moved out of my mom's place the day of the Harry Potter premier July 14th?? idk and in with my sisters then girlfriend
• I worked at a carnival in the meantime while I got a job and started going to the closest community college
• I quit the carnival once school started and started dating my boss (he's 12 years older than me, making him 30)
• My BF broke up with me
• I got a job at a laundromat and a movie theater
• I had to quit my job at the movie theater bc it conflicted with my laundromat job
• I've sorta started dating the same guy again but we're not official, I want to take this as slow as possible

That's pretty much what's happened to me since I stopped posting here! On monday I'm going to the clinic with my mom again to get another assessment about my depression. I already went once a while ago ( i even made a post about it) but nothing ever came of it; I really do need help. Wanting to kill yourself and hurting yourself when you're upset/stressed out it NOT OK, if any of my LJ friends ever feel this way just give me a holler at kristina.hash on skype and we can talk about our feelings and shit <3

WELP I'M DONE 4 NOW. If you guys have any questions about all the crap I've been through go ahead, I want to start using this blog again :)