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My japanese name is 猿渡 Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) 和子 Kazuko (friendly child).
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so uh, i'm not comfortable without 'teen following a number.

so i made a rule: i'm not twenty

i'm twenteen

fuck yes, i beat the system!!! i rule!

i'm krista copy kitten.
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ok krista, i took it for you!

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mow...

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so, i havn't updated in about a month, so i figured that this was an interesting enough subject to update on. i got my surgery today and it went well. the only part that sucked was the IV, but the nurse who did it was really nice and told me what was going on as it happened. i had to have an EKG done too, but that wasn't a big deal except that people kept comming in and out of the room like it was no big deal and i really wanted privacy considering i had to get topless and the surgeon was an eye surgeon, not an MD - so it wasn't like "oh, he's a doctor, they see boobs all the time". it was like "no, this is a creepy old guy who i think doesn't like me very much." i don't remember going under, but i remember waking up going "hey, where the fuck am i? what the fuck is going on?" and the nurse was all like "laura, you're in a hospital and you need to calm down - here suck on this oxygen tube" and i remember just being really freaked out, and then i felt really irritated and pissed off. my poor mom and granny had to deal with me. but seriously, i have the best mom in the world. she knows i hate christmas music, and i know she hates my music, but she let me listen to a burnt c-d i made for the ride home. my mom's pretty conservative so it was really cool of her. she didn't even skp the song when "MTV makes me wanna smoke crack" came on. then came home and i can't really walk straght. and i've kinda been sleeping since then....okay - i just threw up. i feel like i'm getting into character for bend. that's the 2nd time i thew up today and i just wanna be all like "it's ok, happens all the time" i'm saving my script bottles for bend...so far i have 3. if anyone else wants to donate empty script bottles, that'd be aweosme. heheh, fill 'em up with pez. well, i updated a lot, but i think i should try to sleep considereing i have family comming over tomarrow. the only reason i'm up now, is 'cause i've been down since about noon. i've woken up a couple times since then, but yea. that's what drugs do!
well, if you're still reading this...g'night!

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look look look! and i answered all honest and everything! yay!

You Are Ani Difranco! Honest, real, and well liked. You're not limited by any boundaries. "And you can call me crazy But I think you're as lazy as white paint on the wall" Who's Your Inner Rock Chick? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

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Which Silver Screen Siren are you?
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i actually lied, i just wanted to support my marilyn so i answered the questions that i knew would get me those results.

i'll take it seriously next time and see what i get...

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here chandra, you can link from here!

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why is the ducky one the only one that looks all retarded?

i have been so fucking random and i'm in such a great fuckin' mood. dunno why, but i want it to last. i think leigh is supposed to come down this weekend, i hope she does, i miss her. i havn't seen her in eleventy billion years (mad props to mah bro zac) dude, i just want to go crazy and make out with my face. my own face! i came up with some good quotes today. i will now share them

gentlemen, behold!!!

ok, so i came up with all of these during biology

"i just want to eat my fist!"
-me

"I am hungry for mouse fetus!"
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"poop out your anger! muwar!"
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"i'm experiencing feel good fashion!"
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"pen blowing toilet humor!"
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"live life like you have to pee!"
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"PROFOUNDLY RETARDED!"
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"fruit roll up...."
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ok....bye now...

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Tues, Sept. 7, 2004
Soundtrack is:
“imperfectly/
little plasic castles/
Both hands/
two little girls/
In or out/glass house”
- Ani Defranco
Essay by: Fred ( I am high on life )

I have come at comfortable state by thinking this breakup has made me realize that I need not be sorrowful about this event.I’ve become more honest an more happy with myself. I feel like I can be happy, know who I am, and celebrate it I can think of my sexuality, right now, I mourn it, but soon I will celebrate it and I have the support of some of the best friends I will ever have. For example, nik, Julia, cindy zac, Krista, jamie, leigh, heidi, monica, TARA (MY EFFING SISTER!!!) and soon (if not now) - Tom. They will halp me discover and celebrate my coming out. but for now, I have my recently mentioned friends to inspire and lead me. God made for me to be social (just a pinch) and need a little help and some fun from others.

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me and tom broke up.

the distance was just too hard.

i'm so fucking emo right now

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well, Tom is the best. he called me today to tell me that he loves me and that he's going to skip going to kira's party for me. i told him that i wanted him to go and have fun, but he said, "no, i miss you and i really want to see you, so i'm going to stay here and see you instead."

god i love him so fucking much!!!

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i'm really upset right now. i was in a great mood earlier and i was so happy and then i called Tom. i'm not going home until labor day weekend and he says, "oh yea, about that, i forgot to tell you that i'm going to the lake for kira's birthday." and all i could think of to say was, "...oh" so he says "maybe i can ask kira if you can come too" and i said "i can't, my family and friends want to see me too"...so that's it. i don't know when i'm going home again after that so i have no idea when i'm going to see Tom again. so i just started getting upset and i waited until i got off the phone to start crying. i'm so fucking upset right now. i can't just go home when i want to because my car isn't in the best of conditions. i don't know what to do. i just really need a hug, a gallon of ice cream, and emo songs at the moment.

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wow - i love lincoln. it was beautiful. full of NICE people. anyhow - Jason and Patrick were fucking awesome hosts, and yea, i so appreciated them letting us stay. Tara's mom is fucking awesome too for taking out happy asses up there, and TARA IS MY EFFING SISTER!!! we had so much fun. i was so drunk off my ass... i'm surprised i didn't vomit everywhere. got some cool shit from the thrift store, and yea - I SAW A DRAG SHOW!!! lemme tell you, it was the most fun i've had in a looooooong time. jason's parents rock so hardcore, they are so supportive of jason, that they always go to see him as JEZ-E-BEL when she performs. ah, yes. i needed to go, and i just had a wonderful time, i really did. and yesterday was Tom's birthday so me and him and Jeremy all hung out. that was fun as well. they played halo while i downloaded porn (i found some really good shit too!) and i got drunk off of wine....again - and WHILE i was drunk, i made the statement that Jesus was probably a stoner...i felt the wrath of God that night, i had cramps so bad that i couldn't sleep and i had to piss every 5 minutes. but thankfully, i am hangover free. so that's good.

i'm off to eat leftover pizza. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.