Accomplishment

I am so exhausted and frustrated at not being able to complete daily tasks.
Being so lost and so weak I can’t dust a floor.
Never mind running to the store to get milk and bread.
I’ve been this way more than once in my life, more than once I have been lost and stuck in bed.
Scarlet Fever, Measles, Rubella, Strep Throat, Difficult Pregnancies, Depression, Broken Ribs, Ear Infections, Sun Stroke, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and now this.
This feeling of loss, the self loathing and guilt caused by getting others to care for me, my home, my kids, is almost enough to trigger more illness.
But what can I do?

I knit.
One loop at a time I accomplish something.
One stitch at a time I heal.
One row at a time I process.
One skien at a time I grow.

I may not move mountains in my illness, but one stitch at a time I achieve.

Some days the little victories are what matters. Like drips of water on a stone.
I knit.