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circle lenses..

2009-08-25T23:32:55Z

ALSO.
forgot to add..
i won a lottery!!! AYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY.. like the first time i EVER won ANYTHING.
anyways i get two pairs of circle lenses..
which ones should i choose?
btw. for GEO brand only ><

Hypnotherapy.

2009-08-25T23:25:56Z

It's been a while since i posted..
and theres probably noone that reads it haha ^^ sigh ==
anyways yes as the subject suggests.. im going to talk about hypnotherapy..
for those that dont know its the whole.. ''stare at this while i swing it back and forth and click..''
anyways i'm going to get hypnotherapy done. and it's to help me forget some bad memories..uhm.
i dont really know what else to say?
any got some tips on other ways to quickly and efficiently lose your memory?

ALSO. there's this piano piece thats really really gorgeous and lots of people cant find the link to it..
so i'll put it here./
http://www.4shared.com/file/119812231/be382573/Shining_Inheritance_OST_-_Geuriun_Nuna.html

it's from a korean drama called shining inheritance and its the piece theat eun woo plays for his sister eun sung.
(:
^^

explanation for absence.

2009-07-14T07:24:39Z

hey..
havent posted here for about a day or two. but i thought if i was going to be all depressed and everything, there's no point for me to post >..< so the next time i post, hopefully ill be a little more optomistic and happy(:

tata for now. xx

p.s. the song is absolutely GORGEOUS! but its a love song..

nephews place.

2009-07-12T11:04:19Z

HEYY.

i'm at my nephews place right now. HES SO ADORABLE(: btw he's 1(: but yeahh im baking a cake.. and right now looking for a cake recipe.. and i just found out that he did a number 2.. so.. hmmm ): anyways im gna go google some recipes(:

and plastic surgery. found some alternatives, so gna try that now.
ex bf. havent found an alternative.. still trying to try that (: ?
if we have time i may add more or do another post(:

ok tata for now.
xx

p.s. nephew is the boy version yes?

hair bleaching.

2009-07-10T13:25:11Z

well i bleached my hair again today.. its been like the 16th time in the past month.. i did it consecutively for a few days in hong kong.. actually.. more than once a day.. hmm. yeah NOT a good idea. but my hair now resembles more of a haystack.. but its become an addiction now(: hahaha..

anyways a warning to people that wanna bleach their hair to ash blonde or white or silver &c..

1. deep condition your hair the day or two days before..
2. when bleach.. use 30 or 40 for frst time (maybe for virgin hair also) or use 20 or 30
3. use toner or purple/blue shampoo to wash out.
4. wash out with toner again leaving for 3-5 minutes..
5. DEEEEEEEEEEP condition.

ok when i do my bleaching its WAAAY hard on the hair.. so if i were you i wouldnt listen to me >.<

anyways thats all. been out and about these past few days so not much net time xP

OH and i discovered picnik (: its cool, you should try it!

TOODLEZ xx

morning

2009-07-09T05:03:40Z

good morning.. or afternoon since it's 1pm.. woke up about two hours ago. feeling slightly better, but still shit.

anyways. i was looking at circle lenses today. >.< kyaa so cutee.
anyways... yeah. just thought id update. plus i have a dentist appointment later >.< and im staying over at a mates place tonight so i wont be going on.. >.< so tata

TOODLELZ xx

heartbroken.

2009-07-08T16:45:18Z

again. i feel so pathetic trying to cling onto him. i was the one that said break up. so why am i the one thats heart broken? he doesnt even seem fazed. and thats what hurts the most. but then again.. i guess people dont break up because theyre happily in love. i dont even know if i love him. i think i just love the idea of him. always listening to me. and always there. it was so convenient. so what am i supposed to do?

i think ill go continue with my cry now.

liposuction, liposculpture,, plastic surgery, ...

2009-07-08T13:34:56Z

yess.. read the subject and then start yelling at me..

honestly speaking i have seriously considered this for a long time now.. well not really.. if you count the fleeting thoughts you have about being gorgeous as ''consideration''. uhm.. anyways. tonight ive been thinking quite seriously about it.. :/ so i did a little bit of reasearch.. and i found that liposcultpture is better than liposuction.. that boob jobs can look natural.. and well.. just a lot of things..

but ill tell you my prrob.
height: 150cm ishh.
weight: fluctuates between 44-47kg.
and my boobs.. eh. b cup.. yes.. its depressing. :/

anyways.. just thought id share. cos plastic surgery's looking REAL good atm >.<

a new leaf?

2009-07-08T10:50:30Z

I know ive said this a lot.. but this time i am actually going to try really really really hard to turn a new leaf and start over.

so the boy i was talking about before.. wait.. we should give him a name.. uhm. lets call him uhm.. "TERRAN" if you wanna know what it means.. >> http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=boys+break+hearts

yes.. i googled "name break hearts" ok.. i know. its sad AND grammatically incorrect.. so shut up.

i keep getting distracted.. i think ive already been writing this blod for like 15 minutes and this is all i have to show for it.. anyways back to terran, uhm, well my friend who is practivally my sister called him up and talked to him last night to try and sort everything out.. then i found out and called him.. yes.. BAD idea.. RELLY BAD idea.. he said "i just want to be friends" and all that. ergh well a LOT of stuff happened.. and yeah. so i made up my mind last night when i had a guy confess to me.. actually he said " i love you, and i dont want you touching anyone else" it was actually pretty sweet.. anyways.. we were both drunk.. actually 'I' was drunk, he was tipsy.. but yeahh. he said a lot of nice things. its flattering actually.

oh well. anyways this morning it was just awkward.. :/ we both kinda pretended we didnt know what happened.. mm.. but yeah . i got really off track.. uhm.. yeahh well i decided then that i was going to forget about terran, and move on. and for real this time.. i hope i can. HELP ANYONE?? and im not going to cry in public again. or in front of ANYONE. which is going to be REALLY REALLY hard cos im such a crybaby ): but if anyones got anytips and stuff yeah.. email or msn me..

TOODLEZ xx.

FLABERGHASTEDD.

2009-07-07T01:47:26Z

OMBOMBOMBOMBOMB. [btw that's BUDDHA if you didnt know.. i'm part buddhist part christian] yeahh it doesnt really work.. i know..

anyways.. i found out something AMAZING TODAYY! well anyways i got woken up at 7.44am this morning. yess, i checked my phone and remembered the exact time. anyways i had a shower then went on the comp. i was on fb, and they're doing the new cover votes for the cover shot in kawaii boys&girls. so i had a look.. and one of the pictures was of this...
http://www.wretch.cc/album/show.php?i=tin911094343&b=5&f=1824037734&p=4
yeahh.. its a boy right?? WRONGGG its a girl.. i just found out and i was like OMBOMBOMB. but yeahh.. just thought id share.4

and i was also checking my email and marcus sent me this email of like thailand cannibals.. yeahh and they had my name on the back of their jackets.. i was lik OMG :O im a cannibal king man.. :/ yeah.. but it was actually pretty grotty since i was eating pasta bolognase.. they had like 20 pics of them, from a whole body, cutting out eat limb and taking the bones out, cooking then eating.. yeahh.. they even skinned and cooked the head :/ but uh yeahh//

OH. and whilst i was eating my pasta bolognase brekkie.. [yeah its like spagbol sauce but with pasta cos my mum thinks the screws are prettier (:] i was watching enchanted.. you know the disney one with mcdreamy?? (: ANYWAYS... i then i got a PING when the squirrel or the bird or something gave giselle the blue eyes.. AHA! its not prince edward she dreamed of.. but MCDREAMMYYYY :D yeahh.. then ed came in the picture with his blue eyes and i was like PFFFFT >.< but yeahh// i kinda really hate giselle at times cos its like.. DUDE you stupid?? but then i guess you gotta understand she just came outta a fairytale so she gotta be all annoying like that(:

anyways.. it's 9.44 EXACTLY now.. woo.. thats a coincidence.. im gonna go have a slice of toast.. with condensed milk, butter and a little bit of peanut butter... TRUST ME... it's WAAAAY GOOD(:

TOODLESS. xx

p.s. does anyone know anything by nude by nature mineral makeupp?? i heard its pretty good but i dunno...

sleep. epiphany? how to spell?

2009-07-06T11:43:33Z

YESS well ive decided after some serious thought which lasted a whole 2 seconds that i quite like blogging.. (: i'm off to sleep now.. so now more blogging tonight.. and maybe tmr after i come backk laterzz.. you should sleep early ok? because you need your beauty sleep :P im jjking.. really(: but not really lol. siight, im just high from listerine(:

xx

p.s. i just google epiphany and that IS how you spell it.. YAY!! i wonder if you could epiphanize,,, :/ yes.. i think i should stop too..

FIRSTTT>.

2009-07-06T10:47:03Z

Hi mina(:

Well this is my first time blogging so, sorry for when i make mistakes or piss anyone off >.<" wait.. am i allowed to say piss off? well if i annoy anyone.. I'm basically going to write stuff how i say it, so if you dont understand what i type.. you probably wouldnt understand me in rl either(:

Basically, i started this blog thing because my boyfriend used to have one. wait, my bad.. EX-bf.. ): hahaha yeahh.. not getting used to it yet. Yeah, so as i was saying, my ex-bf used to have a blog.. although he only wrote two entries.. and they were both kinda about me. the thing that annoyed me was the fact that he put my FULL NAME on the internet.. yeahh.. i would die if anyone read it.. cos the first blog was a semi-dodgy topic..

So yeah.. about me, you're probably wondering how i look and stuff.. [i have a major urge to type ''and shit'' cos thats what i usually say..] Well, i'm from Hong Kong.. so ASIAN ~_~" and being from hk and asian.. it comes with the following.. short, small eyes, asian teeth&c. [although i have had braces so they're ''straight'' now(: ] yesss... i know youre thinking that im racist and like.. wth is she basing herself on stereotypes and stuff.. well honestly speaking.. i am racist.. i'm not really proud of it.. but since i was little, thats how my parents brought me up, so i kinda followed after them.. ANYWAYS.. i'm gettin WAAAAAAY off track):yeahh.. i'm like average i guess. for an asian..

anyways back to my ex.. yeahh.. well to this date, we would have gone out for 4.5 months.. but yeahh.. this is basically what led to our BIG BIG breakupp..

i leave for hk. my father is trying to make me move back to hk permanently, so to satisfy him, I say that i will go back. the original plan was to go back for a few months and depending on how things work and my health&c, maybe end up moving back there permanently.. During my stay in hk, i found out something about my health. this made me pretty messed up and confused, and i really really missed my boy, so i bought the first ticket i could get back to aus to spend as much time as i could with him.

After I come back, all i could think about was how much i missed him so i didnt see all the things that changed.. later on that week i started to realise and i asked him if he still felt for me. he said ''to be honest i dont love you as much'' ... ''he likes me'' blah blah.. you catch the drift. I was really broken after that. I tried to fix it.. mend it back.. but i dont know. it never really worked.. i guess maybe he just didnt want us?

sorry for jumping all over the place.. i dont even know what im talking about anymore.. but its good to get stuff off my chest.

i guess i probably knew that he never actually loved me.
my relationship with him has always been with me as the ''guy'' because he hardly opens up, even to me. I call him, txt him, arrange outings, go over to his place, buy him presents.. yeahh.. you get the picture.. i'm not saying that he wasnt a good bf, because he was amazing to me. but; he never smiled when he saw me,
it seemed effortless for him not to contact me, like call or txt or even msn.
he never had the urge to just wake up at 4am and catch uses for 2 hours at 2 degrees celcius to go see him for 30minutes before school.
he never had the urge to come over to my house unannounced to surprise me.
he never had the urge to just buy me a gift because he saw it and it was cute.
he never wore the presents i bought him, just because i was the one who bought it and when other people compliment it or anything say ''yeah, thanks, my gf bought it for me''
he never felt a need to tell me how much he loved me or needed me
he never just zoned out and stares at me when im speaking cos he cant take his eyes off of me.
he never neglected anyone or anything because of me [this is probably a good thing..]
he never offered to come over when i was feeling broken and down and needed him.
he never did a lot of things to show me that he actually knows i exist and care.

yeah.. this is getting really bitchy and emo.. }:

and because he never did a lot of things;
i always pretended to be happy without him even though i was crying inside, just to see if he would show an ounce of emotion.
i always pretended to notice other boys, just to try and make him jealous, to see if he would be possessive of me.
i always pretended to flirt with other people to make him get angry with me, then hug me and tell me he loved me afterwards.
i always started the fights just so i could hear those three words from him, without asking for him to say it.
i always went over unannounced and tried to surprise him just to see if he would take a hint and do the same just once for me?
i always created chances for him to do anything for me.

yeahh... these two lists are endless...

well i think im heading off to bed now, evcen though its 6.40pm.. i havent slept for a few days.. yeah we broke up a few days ago..
OFFICIALY?? i guesss? i think it's official because he hasnt called me, txted me, or even talked to me on fb or msn or anything.. it's quite depressing actually.. ): hahaha.. heh.. erm, yeah it's killing me.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
xx

p.s. if you think i should stop with the blog thing, tell me so.. because i think im boring and i suck t this too.. :/

p.p.s SORRY FOR ANY INCORRECT GRAMMAR AND/OR BAD SPELLING.. dont really have an excuse except i'm sleepy??

p.p.p.s i swear this is the LAST ONE!!! good song(: Tong hua {fairytale} - Michael Wong and SWIFTYS WHITE HORSE AND YOU BELONG WITH ME. cos you do :D (: