heartbroken.

again. i feel so pathetic trying to cling onto him. i was the one that said break up. so why am i the one thats heart broken? he doesnt even seem fazed. and thats what hurts the most. but then again.. i guess people dont break up because theyre happily in love. i dont even know if i love him. i think i just love the idea of him. always listening to me. and always there. it was so convenient. so what am i supposed to do?

i think ill go continue with my cry now.