I feel old

I can't believe I'll be 26 next Saturday. Given my depression and the things I've lived through, I never expected to make it to 25, much less nearly a year beyond that. It's really strange to think that when my mom was my age, she'd had two kids and spent a few years in the Air Force already. It makes me feel lazy when I realize that I'm still a student with a vague sense of direction and health just barely getting on track.

...and then I feel greedy because all I want for my birthday is money. I have meds to fill that'll cost me $28 but even that's more than the contents of my bank account. Don't wanna dip into my savings because that's next month's rent.

/stops whining now