medicate — Tue, 03 Apr 2012 02:34:57 GMT

after he is gone
you will go to the cinema

and sit in the front
and center
in the seats that he said always
made him light-headed

you will see the film
that you would like to see
and he will not be there to say
"but I don't want that one."

after the cinema
you will eat at your favorite restaurant
that he had declaimed.

after he is gone
you will bathe in the morning
and the water will be hot
because he has not used it up

and the soap will be
on the plate where you left it

and the towels will be dry
and folded on the rack

and you will sleep
with the covers pulled up to your chin
and you will not wake in the night

to find your skin bare
and the bedsheets wrapped around his body

you will not wake in the night
to a kiss on your shoulder
to "wake up. I'm bored."

you will not wake in the night
to find your skin bare
and your body wrapped around
his body.

you will wake in the morning
and you will smoke a cigarette
and all of your cigarettes will be where you had
left them.

the matchbook will only be missing
as many matches as you have struck

you will put a record on
and he will not put his hands over his ears
and frown at you,
across the room.

you will listen to the record
you will smoke your cigarette
you will go to the cinema, again,
to see your favorite film.

you will think
that it is
lovely.

love's the boy stood on the burning deck