MazeHao

yeah ,my life.

mazehao — Thu, 14 Jul 2011 11:17:24 GMT

My English is not very good. My life is very simple, is work and the Internet.I now is hard to do, let my own life more diversified.I think I should let their own life meaningful. And also, I think love is probably are late, but it knocking my heart. But I don't know what to do.

Some people say I'm old. I think about it, and they do. After all own in this age, be regarded as more mature.
But I think doing my own, do I like, let it be. It would be better for it.

Now ,I'm miss my friends ,they are very important in my life.I can't lost they.

I just want to have a free

mazehao — Tue, 12 Jul 2011 14:23:06 GMT

Honestly, I'm not very happy.Not only out for others, in order to.
And she ,seems to make and I rejoice and hate.I don't know how to go in the face of such a person.Most of the time, the head is all empty. Now, and have a friend is going to leave, side, may be quiet.
Looking at several people busy, and then after the meeting after the cold and cheerless. A say don't come out feeling.
或许我真的适合一个人安安静静的过。我不需要，也无法得到那些人们一样的爱。只是这样。

miss my all friends.

mazehao — Mon, 11 Jul 2011 13:38:30 GMT

In fact, it is not quite good. How life In reality, some just before the bitter.
Thao said to leave. Actually I also don't know what to do. The day after tomorrow, this is go a little something difficult. In fact even I don't know what to do. He has work is is very good. But for me, but will lose a can in the side with friends. Busy
Maybe, I should be in silently upsurge in for him, and for each one blessing. Each to his own, and this is always the same truth. Perhaps, after, he and I, I and their contact, will be stopped at the department small mobile phone.
I hope that he and I, each and every person can live happy, very well. So good.

I love my friends.

mazehao — Sat, 09 Jul 2011 22:57:00 GMT

I love some people. I also love all men. As long as is my friend, I love attentively. But I don't want some people, because of the partner for other friends have opinions or conflict, this is I don't want to see. Because I two in the middle, and I will be the most painful that person.

Writer's Block: My name's Forrest, Forrest Gump

mazehao — Sat, 09 Jul 2011 11:59:56 GMT

First read the forrest gump, then be moved by its. Tom Hanks, is a what kind of person, I natural unknown. However, he made the image, but worth people to experience.

sorry

mazehao — Thu, 12 May 2011 08:34:43 GMT

tell myself , I don't love her .Never not .No why .Just we are the best friend.
And lun Fan. Please don't take our kidding.I don't want to do that.
Just like that ,we are very happy.
So ,I have more things want to do.Job is first one. but that is so fucking bad.
JUST all.

当这一天

mazehao — Tue, 03 May 2011 02:59:12 GMT

当这一些东西，有的即将远去，有的渐渐消失，淡忘的时候。我发现以前所拥有的他们和它们。都知是过眼云烟。而我，也只是行尸走肉般的，去享受着那些短暂的记忆。
现在，似乎一切都倒退到了一年前。那是个很痛苦，很挣扎，很矛盾的时候。但唯一改变的，是对很多事情，都麻木了，也称之为习惯了。
看着很多人，恋爱，工作，学习。一切都似乎过得很美好。
但我并不这么认为。至少我有点糟糕。但，天将降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，。这是有道理的么？以后再看了吧。

difficult life

mazehao — Tue, 19 Apr 2011 23:46:11 GMT

These days for me is too bad.
Didn't work. But I do not regret my choice. Just choose the rest of the way will happen many troubles and difficulties.
Nonetheless. But the most important is, I want to rest. The insomnia recently been, let all day, listless.
I just want to rest to go after what I am doing and I can insist to do things. But in China, want to get such a job is very difficult.

Fatigue life

mazehao — Mon, 21 Mar 2011 08:15:58 GMT

Now as a result of working relationship, rarely had time to write his diary here. Another month also can go home two days. Work is not easy. It makes me feel very tired. But I also have no way.
My English is very poor. So sometimes depends on translation software to solve this problem. Ha ha.
Some days ago, all that experienced by just makes me want to kill. Don't like it, don't want to, but have to cope with that kind of face. I'm really afraid really someday, I would tell them to fight. Despite that are very extreme behavior. But I also have done that thought preparation.
The only annoyed me is home at this moment of self-parody. I also want to let parents have good points of the day. But it seems I'm not a very good children. How to be good? With their parents around? Give the parents enough living expenses? But I don't even the most basic let parents not to worry about the abilities have no. I can still do?

Writer's Block: Friends of old

mazehao — Mon, 21 Mar 2011 07:54:03 GMT

I have an old friend. From a first-grade until now. Small when we are very good friends, every day together. But now, I also entered society, he also go away to college. We almost lost contact. But I think we two should be can also meet at the same, as friends. But we all had grown. No longer as did.
And also only he is my understanding of the longest friends. About ten 1967 it.
He also didn't what happened. Or, I don't know him what happened. But he would have been very good. I believe.

Life

mazehao — Sun, 20 Mar 2011 11:12:22 GMT

My english is not good . So , I don't know what I want to say . Just this it .

呵呵。。。

mazehao — Sat, 02 Oct 2010 11:07:13 GMT

突然，感觉今天和昨天，在和朋友一起，过得挺开心的同时，也过得有些许累。
因为这个国庆假期，回来的朋友虽然不多，但仅有的那两个。让我在这两头间感觉相当矛盾。顾及了桂崽，却无法和HAIBO出去。感觉真的是很矛盾。虽然在以前，平时也都是不怎么联系。也不是经常一起出去的。但是怎么说也是几年过来的朋友了。可是他的假期也有限。很快也就要走了。虽然是无所谓，但心头总是感觉怪异。呵。真的很奇怪。
今天桂崽远道而来。。。。。
三四个人，一起出去吃，一起回来坐着聊。边吃边上网。呵呵。爽死了。
虽然少了以前的那种热闹。呵呵
呵呵。。。。

无聊的一天

mazehao — Fri, 01 Oct 2010 13:12:20 GMT

十一，国庆，三天假期，就这样在无聊中度过了第一天，浪费了一天。好戏都搬到明天上演。
感觉，那些走远方的朋友，一放假，回家，就会想到要相聚，会打个电话来问候，发个短信来通知。那感觉，一种感慨的幸福。尽管人生这条路，最终还是要自己去终点，但途中有如此知己，足矣。
三天，浪费了一天，明天，桂崽要过来。木老头又说要过来。海波也就这么两天在这，晚上说要出去逛，迫于与另外两朋友语音聊天，无奈，推卸。或许他会自己过去找晓鹏吧。但没和他一起，感觉心中有个梗。但也无奈。或许也无所谓。好朋友，无所谓。只能这么说了。哪怕以后会变得怎样，至少目前来说，一切都是无所谓，没关系的。
刚刚和俩兄弟语聊了。呵呵，尽管说的大堆废话。但开心，是真实的。
嫦娥二号也成功了。转瞬，三年过去了，在接下来的三年里，嫦娥还会怎么发展呢。不知道。

National Day

mazehao — Fri, 01 Oct 2010 00:03:17 GMT

很快，一年就这么过去了。
想想去年的今天，此时我已经坐在电视前，等待着观看祖国六十年的生日。那是很隆重，很震撼的画面。军人，国歌。欢腾，就这样快乐的欢腾着。
如今一年过去了，今天的主题，将会是嫦娥二号的出征。愿它能够永远健康得放飞。

gifts

mazehao — Tue, 28 Sep 2010 15:20:09 GMT

听着许巍的歌，一种坦荡，一种奔放，一种自由，一种向往从心中油然而生。
嗯，我喜欢他的风格，和李健的传奇般的音乐，那是一种天籁。
现在是十一点多了，这么晚，其他时候或许该睡了，说是睡了，其实是躺在床上做着白日梦罢了。
不想再提及这份工作。真的，已经没什么好提的了，该提的都已经提了。现在，只盼望着自己所期望的时间能够早些到达，或者能有一次机会降临于我。这样无论如何，我都能够脱离苦海。不是我懦弱，无法出来。我得为自己考虑条后路。但只要到了那时，无论如何，悬崖也好，都得跳。
听着朴树的《那些花儿》，就会想起那些曾在一起的朋友。虽然随时都能够联系，但感觉，早已不是当年的那种感觉。没句字眼里，都透露着来自生活的压力和成长的烦恼。而当年的那几分稚嫩和青涩，也在生活和时间里慢慢变淡了。
毕业后才知道，读了三年高中是多么的无用，无论怎么说，也有些许的后悔为什么要这么糟践。但我依然坚信，这三年里虽然没有获得知识上的收获，但我真的，的确是收获了他们这些朋友，这些发自内心，最淳朴的友情的朋友。尽管如此，让我再考几个零分，我或许也会坦荡一笑。

我想改变生活。

mazehao — Sun, 26 Sep 2010 14:45:57 GMT

又是加班！每天都会提及这份工作。我也腻了。
现在更糟糕的是父亲的嗜赌。输了，还要赌。我真的不知道该怎样继续描绘着这个家庭的美好前景了。
看着父母微笑的脸庞，那是很幸福的事情。但看到父母板着脸，不为别的，只为经济时。你（我）会联想到自己的目前的状况，简直就是生不如死。真的很想就这样撇下这样一份受气的工作，然后一个人跑到新疆去好好地感悟自己，感悟自然。虽然我不知道我所描绘的新疆会是什么样子的。但我坚信，那里一定比这里，我的故乡，多了一份宁静和安详。
这样的生活环境，生活境遇，生活方式，会在什么时候结束或者改变呢？！这似乎是个很遥远的问题。但我知道，我和哥都不小了，都已经二十几岁了。这样的日子不能再继续下去了。
其实，我也很想有所作为。我很想突然间改变自己和家人现在的状况。但我不能。我是生活在空气中的人，不是生活在阿拉丁神灯里的灯神。

tired

mazehao — Sat, 25 Sep 2010 13:16:30 GMT

Tired,I'm so tired.So, let oneself of work due, pain.I want to go somewhere far away.Don't stay in the home. Despite this violated the heart of faith.I want to go to no one, only open grasslands, mountains, rivers and everything quiet place. Here I'm fed up with all the noise and vulgar.I know, I do not enough courage. In some things are difficult to me on the choice of choice. So, can form today.Now, I want to have some peace and stability on a bed.

Writer's Block: How is it going to end?

mazehao — Fri, 24 Sep 2010 11:28:59 GMT

If I only had one month left to live,what would I do ?I have never thought.Because, the only one hypothesis. But if I really want one for it, I think, I should be in this month's time to make these things: family, friends, spend every day, perhaps can have fun, maybe not, but can only and they spend more time, it is also a kind of joy.But I also think very beautiful very empty place to take a trip, so, this contradiction, I have to abandon one of them. So, I chose and I love people spend a month of time. And in this month you with my family and friends, do a lot of meaningful and happy. Although ending is a tragedy.

good friend.

mazehao — Wed, 22 Sep 2010 14:49:14 GMT

在这么几年，可以说每个中秋节的夜晚，都会看到晓鹏在门口喊我。这让我隐约感到朋友就应该这样，朋友就是这么的无声无息。尽管相聚短暂，交流甚少。但，足以。

mooncake

mazehao — Wed, 22 Sep 2010 08:43:32 GMT

今天，是中国的传统节日，中秋节。
中秋节最为重要的，莫过于月饼。在今天看来，很多的方式都已经让这个流传数千年的节日感觉不到传统的味道。取而代之的是一种种的新颖的方式。这让一个流传千年的节日越来越远离人们的生活。这或许是时代，社会发展的弊端吧。
我很难想像几千年前的今天古人们是如何品位月饼，和品位今天这样的一个浪漫，温馨的节日的。
祝所有的人，节日快乐。

I can shine

mazehao — Mon, 30 Aug 2010 13:34:54 GMT

这是我在这里的第一篇正式的日记。
这些天来，一直很郁闷。我不知道我到底是不是该结束这样的一份工作。虽然，结束它是肯定的。但我不知道该不该在这个时候结束它。结束了，会发生什么样的后果。在还没找到一份更好的工作之前，我是不是该结束它？！
在我们这个阶段，在我们这个时段的人们，都很感慨，也都很压抑。确实，这就是九零后的特点。虽然有阳光积极的一面，但昏暗压抑的一面也是存在着的。
我知道我是个问题男孩，我在努力的改进当中。但我知道我也不小了，我的想法很天真，但很真实，我想去新疆，想去那仙境般美丽的地方去走一趟，那是肯定的，我绝对要到那里去一次。哪怕就那么一次。尽管现在这样的条件，我还不能够做到。
我相信阳光会到来的那一天。

Writer's Block: Let the sun shine in

mazehao — Mon, 23 Aug 2010 11:10:55 GMT

我并不认为这个是可持续发展的好方法。若让阳光普照，虽然可以给我们带来更多的可利用能源，但与此同时，我相信也会带来更多的温室效应。

unhappy

mazehao — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 08:19:17 GMT

在我看来每个人都那么他妈的开心，为什么我就不行呢？
很好，这句话非常地与我贴切。
确实，我为什么就不能像有些人一样那么开心呢？
虽然眼泪不曾流泪，但心中，却是伤痕累累了。
这样的日子是非常累的。甚至想到了死。
真的真的很累。

累

mazehao — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 03:27:35 GMT

昨天的面试，估计也就如此结束了吧。虽然没抱希望，但心中总想有点曙光。结果，却是冷淡冷淡的。接下来，我如何走，我不知道了。虽然有很多的机会可以去尝试。但都不在我所熟知或期望的范围内。虽然此时已经没有什么条件可以去选择。但我总得拥有一份可以毫无理由，值得我去争取的。
越来越累了。真的。

life is pain

mazehao — Fri, 26 Feb 2010 03:23:22 GMT

这几天，一直在为日后的工作操心着。从来没有工作经验。不知道这个社会到底在想的是什么。不敢去尝试。但又希望能够脱离这个肮脏的地方。能够到外面，看一看其他的地方，城市的夜景。看看其他地方的繁荣。总之，只要能够离开这个一双双熟悉的眼睛的注视就可以了。
但这中想法似乎并不简单。很天真。老天爷真就瞎了眼。从来没有顾及每个人的感受。或许是因为他也收受了其他人的贿赂。我知道这个世界本不公平。但他妈的就为什么这样让人这样的过日子。
这些天，真的累到了极点。每天就算睡得很晚，起床来总是很疲惫。尽管没有做过任何体力活。每天的胸口总是像被石头压着一样，无法呼吸。甚至想到了死。我知道只有死才能够摆脱这样的境地。那也是一种很好的解脱。但似乎没有办法。我也很怕死。虽然在那么一瞬间会很痛苦。但家人并不会。我必须考虑到家人。
我很懦弱。但我也不想这样。可是我就是这样不想开口。我不想与任何人沟通。我只要安静，很安静的过完每一天。但我做不到。永远也无法做到。