Desolate

Back to Reality

marad — Fri, 04 Jan 2008 16:38:18 GMT

My Christmas holiday ended officially last Monday when I had to return to home by train. I took a bus from San Martino di Castrozza and then two train... I've travelled 7 hours continuously but in spite of all that I enjoyed my time . I simply love to travel by train because I can see the beautiful italian landscape that we have out of our cities and meet lots of people who don't know me but who has to take the same train to go to a place different from mine...

I meet a wonderful boy on the second train I took from Padua to Milan. He was sitting in front of me with her girlfriend but something was happening through us. It was an intense exchange of glances that leave me without breath... He looked to me during all his journey but unfortunately he got off at Verona station leaving me alone, just observing him walking away with her girlfriend...

I simply love travel and look around me but now I'm back in my office and I need to work.. Uff, I can only look out through a little window near me...

But what if I search for a job position in Verona? :)

Happy New Year!!!
Xo Xo

Waiting for my Prince, preferly someone like Darcy

marad — Sun, 30 Dec 2007 11:21:16 GMT

What Kind of Guy Will You Fall For?
	You would fall for the gentleman. Keep an eye out for your love at your next formal or field trip to the opera. Watch out for bad boys who walk on the inside of the curb and don't hold the door for you, and you'll end up with the guy who's suave, sophisticated, and classy through-and-through.
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Sense or Sensibility

marad — Sat, 29 Dec 2007 22:40:18 GMT

This year is ending and a new one is gonna begin soon... But when did 2007 started? If I browse my memories, I only can see me at home while I'm writing or me at the office while I'm working but in both cases, no one else can see me... I also can remember just the bad things that happened to me during this year and not the good ones... Can I know why?

Now, I think about next year... I dream about my friends and wonder what they will do next year... I hope that they will find all the happiness and the inspiration/chance to do all the good things they want... I hope that my family will be healthy and my parents will be enjoying being 63... I hope that my brother and Eleo realize all their dreams and they'll finally found a work in the same country...

I hope happiness to people I love but do you think I will find some happiness as well? Well, I'm not unhappy but I have to say that I still have lots of dreams to fulfill... I sincerely don't know why some dreams are still only dreams and not reality... Maybe there's something in my personality that I have to change... Maybe it's my fault that some dreams are still dreams... Maybe I have these problems because of my high sensibility... Maybe I have to reduce it because too much sensibility creates only unhappiness...

Life can surprise you!

marad — Sat, 22 Dec 2007 11:06:50 GMT

Last week I went to a Xmas Party and I have to say that it was awkward...

The location was good even if it wasn't closer to where I live and at the end of the night it was difficult to return to home... The food was delicious, beautifully presented and plentiful... The problem was that I had no idea that too much alcohol could change people's behaviour so much and how terrible it could make me feel to see people I know in this state... I thought I know everything about some friends but I simply was wrong...

When you realize that you don't know your friends as you thought, you become sad furthermore when you realize that what you think about their "new behaviour" is shared with those who are your real friends and those who are your daily colleagues... I was very excited about going to a Xmas Party to meet some friends and to talk with them but I dind't know that I'm so different from who I thought my friends were... I wasn’t prepare for the feeling that I would find...

I simply belong to a different world and this huge difference can absolutely change everything... I have to go away from this strange world for awhile... And yes, I really have to understand people around me before opening my soul up again...

Put the gun down or I swear to God I'll kill ya!!

marad — Sun, 16 Dec 2007 21:26:45 GMT

This week end was great!!!!! :) I need more weekends like the one just past because in this period I'm really under pressure... At the office I have lot of work to do and, due to this holiday, I have too much deadlines for the mag as well.... As if this were not enough, I have some thoughts I have to sort out... My best friend Marta helped me to understand how to move in this situation and I swear to God I'll follow her advises because she is completely right all the time...

Friday night we went to an Eritrean restaurant with Ca', Lu and Fede... It was wonderful and really funny! Too much food and... maybe too much beer :) We have ended the night with a specific plan: we need to change our routine and seize the day, of course! So we're gonna plan a travel every two months together with Lu and Ca'... First location Vienna in February, second one Copenhagen in April... We need to choose the location for the third holiday in June... I wanna propose Canary Islands... You know, girls just wanna have fun :)

Before ending the post, let's just spend some words writing about tv serials I've watched during this week end: "Gossip Girl" and "Traveler". The first serial is based on a series of novels written by Cecily von Ziegesar and it follows a group of scandalous teenage socialites who live in the glamorous and sophisticated Upper East Side of New York City. If you love teen dramas, you need to watch it :) I think it's really interesting and now I'm curious to read the Gossip Girl book... The second tv serial is called "Traveler" and it follows two Yale University graduate students (Jay and Tyler) who become suspects when Drexler Museum in New York is bombed while they are pulling a juvenile prank. This serial was officially cancelled after eight first-run episodes but if you want to descover the real final, you can read the author's post at TvGuide.com

Put the gun down or I swear to God I'll kill ya! - I love dramas :)

Xo Xo

My mind is generating chaos

marad — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 20:43:45 GMT

Maybe I can write a book, this kind of book that tells existential stories... I don't know... some stories like impossible love, dramatic life, long solitude... Like Banana Yoshimoto's or Haruki Murakami's novels... I think I can write good things but be careful, I don't think it's an easy thing to do or that I'm a "writer"... I can write good things as I wrote in the title of this post... And maybe I have already found an intro...

My mind is generating chaos. It's a state of mind that can destroy you or make you invincible. Maybe I can survive this but the risk is to high to find it out. That's why I need to end my life before it is too late... I'm not scared because the only way I would be allowed to be afraid is if I had people who loved me, but it's not my case.

This is a scary example of what can I write with my chaos mind... my words... my pen...
Perhaps I need to change my opinion and return to my classical hobbies. These words are too strong...

Yes, That's me...

marad — Tue, 11 Dec 2007 21:38:23 GMT

I simply love polls :) And this result, this profile... yes I'm absolutely Jasmine...

Which Disney Princess Are You?
	You are Jasmine. You are loyal and would visit the ends of the earth for what you believe. You would never let obstacles stand in the way of true love.
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Hola a todos el mundo...

marad — Sun, 02 Dec 2007 22:34:47 GMT

Finally I'm back... It is a long time since I wrote up this blog, but in spite of everything I've been through, there isn't a lot to tell you guys... First of all, I've deleted all my old messages here... Why? Simply 'cuz life is changed and it's not useful to have my old memories on line again...
Now, my private life is simply "an updated version" of my old one... I still haven't a boyfriend and sometimes this thing lies heavy on me... That's why I'm still living with my parents and I'm often melancholy although I smile everyday... Yes, I confess to you that around my friends and my family I'm always smiling because I simply love them... :) Btw, Why don't I have a boyfriend? Just because every guy I meet seems to see too much far ahead and he doesn't realize that I'm near him and I have interest in him... But it's a truth universally acknowledged that everything we do in life is another way to be loved a little more, isn't it? So why are boys not looking at me if I'm always there for them? Sob... Sob...
On the other side, my professional life seems to be in much better shape... I still work on a multimedia editorial office as ad sales coordinator. I follow the implementation process of all client advertising campaigns, from brief to creative agency, to subsequent customer feedback and to online, mobile and satellite integration. Nowadays ad servers, statistical programs, power point and excel are my best friends... Ah yes, I can't forget outlook and my phone... :) I think I send almost 50 e-mails daily and I receIve the same number of calls... Is it possible to live without e-mails? No, but I can live without phone... Omg, it's one of my most important dream and goal :)
After the office routine work, I have a second "little job"... Same as most of my friends, I have lots of interests... including writing... And here I am with my second love: writing... I usually write for an italian tv serial magazine where I have a monthly column dedicated to spoilers... I like tv serials and that's why I love to write about this tv genre...
At the same time I like reading a lot... The latest book I read was "The Sword of Shannara" by Terry Brooks... 500 pages in 2 days... Yes, I'm crazy! :) And I absolutely need to buy the sequel, "The Elfstones of Shannara"...
What's my latest discovery? Squash!!!!!!!!!! But I'll write about it next time... The new episode of Grey's Anatomy" is waiting me... :)