Maltray's Journal

And End and a New Beginning...

2009-12-14T12:55:12Z

Well here we are finally gogt the courage up to do it, this lj will be ending as of today and new one starting.

I guess the last few years have not been kind to me or my family. I mean it's not exactly been a laugh a miniute and all. Anyways that's that I guess, you can't undo history only change what lays ahead.

So here we are an end to what was, I don't think I regreat anything in this LJ, it's the truth and bare faced truth. Some might not like it but as someone once said: you can't please everyone.

To explain the post before this, I've been rather down of late mostly because of X-mass coming and such. It's not a good time for me anymore I'm not going to say I hate it, but the sooner it's over the better if you ask me.

I mean the last few years have not been good, an uncle, family friend, my dad, my aunt, all in months of each other.

So all in all it's been an unpleasent set of circumstances if you ask me, X-mass just reminds me off all the family members we've lost it's not a lot of fun.

To thine own self be true William Shakespeare said this. I guess I have to wake up to my true self, some might not like it and I really don't care anymore.

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind" - Dr. Seuss

I guess I need to be who I am, I can't say I've done much that would be considered 'male' lets face it I hated everything and still do things that most 'males' like to do, fighting, sports and such shit.

*laughs* I was much happier with a doll or a book :P

As I have said before in myself I'm more female than male. I have to admit that to myself from the start and go from there. Whatever life holds I hope the weight isn't to hard to handle.

I can only hope the friends that have linked me will do the same for my new LJ, you can find it at:

melinaswiftwind

Friendship is a pack of shit, you can only rely on yourself...

2009-12-09T19:51:10Z

How true this is.....

Meredith Kercher....

2009-12-06T15:19:57Z

Amanda Knox, and Raffaele Sollecito got exactly what they deserve, I hope they both serve their full sentance. Between you and me I'd leave em both to rot.

That's my two cents

A Change of stuff.......

2009-11-20T11:17:27Z

Decode my furcode:
FCWw2amw A C- D+++ H++ M+ P++ R+ T+++ W Z Sf+ RLCT* a+ cn++ d++ e++ f h+ iwf++ j+ p- sf+

Right that's it that's the real finished one so Nyah

Who am I?

2009-11-16T13:32:10Z

You know for a long time I have been thinking about this. I'm not sure who I am or if I ever will be, why becaue of the way I feel at times.

I was born male but have the feelings and wants of a female, come might call me a 'sissy' and you know what I don't care. I really don't care any more, I want to be wheever or whoever I am.

My relgion I believe in but I think parts are wrong to my view and that of my heart.

I'm stuck living with my remaining parent in a town, that if there was a center of fun and happiness it would be on the outter limits.

Fuck sometimes I wonder if my life isn't an episode of the Outter Limits after all.

Nature must have been taking the piss with me or something.....Everyone around me is finding someone and me...fuck.

If I turn out like Martain X and his sister next door I am going to shoot myself, or get someone else to do it, it would be a mercy killing. I mean the both of them must be in their 70's easy and neither has married or such cos their parents kept a very tight rein on them both.

Telling you it would be a mercy killing.......

I know someone you will say move, I just can't afford that my income is not as good as I would like.

Soooooooo now what.... I am so depressed

"Is this all that I am? Is there nothing more?"

Le Sigh

2009-11-15T17:22:50Z

Why can't I find anyone....I mean I'd love a Mistress

Poirot

2009-11-06T19:14:35Z

But today mesame, Poirot will produce a murder who's viciousness he stands in awe....

There was no accident of gas in Mann Street. No no no a letter recievied today from scotland yard contained expert forensic evidence confirming my suspisions, there was only the premeditated explosion of a bomb, a device built and operated by you, David Hunter engineer and road builder. How depraved, how evil does a man have to be to cause the slaughter of so many innocent people, for the concelment of a single murder.

I am NOT a racist

2009-11-05T15:34:25Z

I'm not raciest but its true
You call me:
"redneck"
"Hillbilly"
"Slaker"
"Cracker"
"Honkey"
"Whitey"
"Gringo"
"Sage"
and you think it's OK.

But when I call you:
jungle bunny
spear chucker
coon
wet back
jiggaboo
porch monkey
sand nigger
rag head
towelhead
Camel Jockey
Gook
Spook
NIGGER
KIKE
slant eyes
or Chink
you call me a racist.

--You have the United Negro College Fund.
--You have Martin Luther King Day.
--You have Black History Month.
--You have Cesar Chavez Day.
--You have Yom Hashoah
--You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi
--You have the NAACP.
--You have BET.

--If we had WET(white entertainment television) ...we'd be racist.
--If we had a White Pride Day... you would call us racist.
--If we had white history month... we'd be racist.
--If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives... we'd be racist.
--If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships...you know we'd be racist.
--In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights...you would call us racist.
--Did you know that some high school students decided to make a club for only the white students because the other ethnicities had them. they all got sent to court for being racist but the african-american, Latino, and Asia clubs were not even questioned.
--You are proud to be black, brown, yellow and orange, and you're not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride, you call us racists.

I am white and I am proud.
But, you call me a racist.
Why is it that only whites can be racists?
Now watch, I'll be racist for reposting this....

So what? no-one will re-post this for fear of being called racist

If you agree with this then repost saying "I'm not a RACIST but it's true."

Writing

2009-10-30T21:44:05Z

well I've started my new toryline after all, I am now writing under the name of Chakat Goldmane

Hmmm

2009-10-26T18:15:29Z

I've never claimed another's love
And when I give, I give my all
A mortal soul, I've suffered much
I do not heed resentment's call
For vengeance just perpetuates
The inner pain of sorrow's taste
The "me" inside stands sentinel
The path I walk is not a waste

A little something for Hollyann

2009-10-19T10:52:26Z

Thought you might be intreasted in this Hollyann, came across it while I was searching for something else :)

http://ponystars.acclaim.com/pslanding2.html

Earth Eternal

2009-10-15T18:16:42Z

Well I'm finally playing, I can be found as Serim Eastbrook on server 5

Trick or treat!

2009-10-13T10:52:04Z

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
maltrayfox goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Captain Scarlet.
eliki tricks you! You get a piece of paper.
maltrayfox ends up with zero pieces of candy, and a piece of paper.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

You know what I miss.....

2009-10-07T18:30:36Z

I miss the 'The Outter Limits' I use to watch that with my dad and I'd shit myself when the music came on and oo 'The Twighlight Zone'

A Questions about... MMORPG's revisited

2009-10-04T17:46:14Z

playing a game called vanguard, seems much better than aion for a start.

I can be found as Fermald Swiftpaw on Halgaar EU server see you there I hope :)

External cd drives

2009-09-30T11:45:20Z

hmm got a external cd drive, having problems with it I keep getting 'please insert cd drive' the disk is already in any suggestions?

A Questions about... MMORPG's

2009-09-27T12:35:55Z

Looking through a few things and such I've noticed that there seems to be only human species on most of these games.

Does anyone know of any MMORPG's that have furry forms in them, yes I know of the tauren in World of Warcaft

Standby For Action!

2009-09-24T11:07:37Z

Well I finally fell for it, I finally got myself a copy of Silent Hunter for the PC. I'll write a review as soon s I've played itt a few times. Nice to see Ubisoft making decent games again. I can name at least one very bad games compnay *Cough* Mindas *cough*

I don't buy a ton of games mostly because of the high amount on my credit card which is slowly coming under control.

I have other stuff to talk about to, mostly furry stuff and how it seems I've appected my more shall we say femme side. To be honest I've not really settled on one or even to perhaps I will if I ever get time to sort things in my head.

Perhaps I will go for a wolfette and a Chakat. More on that at another time.

World Of Warcraft

2009-08-26T09:52:14Z

World Of Warcraft coming to and end?

Movie to Mp3?

2009-08-10T13:32:15Z

Ummm anyone know how to convert youtube movies to MP3 I'd be very grateful for the help :)

Arrrrrrgh! Helpies!

2009-08-04T19:22:41Z

anyone know a good FLV that will be ok with youtube?

Tuuuuuuuuunes!

2009-07-28T10:43:00Z

Somewhere a Heart a million miles,
away in space and time,
is calling out for love to hold the line,
it's calling out across theses endless stars.

Somewhere a heart is locked in darkness
waiting for the key,oh but freedom means
nothing till your free, and into this darkness
there shall come a light, we will bring you light.
Ohhh this love goes on and on forever,
we're still a universe apart, somewhere a heart.

Somewhere the fight still rages on,
against a starlight sky,
the pounding of our hearts the battle cry,
and like lightning rips across the black of night,
we will bring you light.

Ohhh this love goes on and on forever,
we're still a universe apart, somewhere a heart.

Somewhere a heart is waiting to be free, and it's calling out to me.
Somewhere a heart, sending love across the sky,
Somewhere a heart sends love, sends love.

Ohhh right across this universe, a little lost and now
we're feeling pounding in our hearts
Ohhh right across this universe,
somewhere love is shining in the dark,
Somewhere a heart, is waiting to be free,
I hear you calling out to me,
Somewhere a heart, Somewhere a heart.

Writer's Block: Youthful Transgressions

2009-07-24T10:56:55Z

Messing about to much and letting to many arse holes get to me, and not getting on with school better

5 Year Anniversary R.I.P. Dad

2009-07-22T11:12:45Z

William (Billy) McDonnell

25 November 1939 - 22 July 2004

Father, Friend

'Firm but fair'

You shall cross the barren desert, but you shall not die of thirst.
You shall wander far in safety though you do not know the way.
You shall speak your words in foreign lands and all will understand.
You shall see the face of God and live.

Be not afraid.
I go before you always.
Come follow me, and
I will give you rest.

If you pass through raging waters in the sea, you shall not drown.
If you walk amid the burning flames, you shall not be harmed.
If you stand before the pow'r of hell and death is at your side, know that
I am with you through it all.

Be not afraid.
I go before you always.
Come follow me, and
I will give you rest.

Blessed are your poor, for the kingdom shall be theirs.
Blest are you that weep and mourn, for one day you shall laugh.
And if wicked men insult and hate you all because of me, blessed, blessed are you!

May the choirs of angels come to meet you
may they speed you to paradise
may the lord enfold you in his mercy
may you find eternal life.

There is one thing I ask of the Lord;
That He grant me my heartfelt desire.
To dwell in the courts of our God
Everyday of my life in His presence.

May the choirs of angels come to meet you
may they speed you to paradise
may the lord enfold you in his mercy
may you find eternal life.

Oh Lord here my voice when I cry;
Have mercy on me and give answer;
Do not cast me away from heaven:
For you are a part of my prayer;

May the choirs of angels come to meet you
may they speed you to paradise
may the lord enfold you in his mercy
may you find eternal life.

I am sure that I will see my inheritence;
I shall dwell in the land of the living:
For once stay firm and take heart;
Place all your trust in the Lord;

May the choirs of angels come to meet you
may they speed you to paradise
may the lord enfold you in his mercy
may you find eternal life.

Bomber Harris

2009-07-15T20:18:12Z

Recently I started reading a certain web comic, this comic I won't be bothering with any more. I sent an e-mail as I thought it was wrong to comapair the man with a butcher.

Dear sir/Madam

I would like to point out that Air Marshal of the Royal Air Force
Sir Arthur Travers Harris, 1st Baronet* GCB OBE AFC Air Force Cross RAF
(13 April 1892 – 5 April 1984), was not a 'butcher'

In wars terrible things have to be done the innocent suffer with the
guilty, this page brings offence to most of the United Kindgom, and
insults those who gave thier lives to keep my country and your own free.

'The Nazis entered this war under the rather childish delusion that they
were going to bomb everyone else, and nobody was going to bomb them. At
Rotterdam, London, Warsaw, and half a hundred other places, they put
their rather naive theory into operation. They sowed the wind, and now
they are going to reap the whirlwind.'

I hope that the writers of this comic are ashamed of their unilatral
feeling. Many of bomber command did not return home and lay somewhere
within europe with and without offical graves.

We hear again and again how deadful the fire bombing of dresden was but
no one metions coventry and such other cities. Perhaps one day we will
be able to put the blame where if firmly belongs with one Adolf Hitler.

well that the email and the reply wwas rather IMHO rather rude, it wasn't England
that started bombing cities for no reason the Nazi's did it in every country the
over ran.

Harris was only doing a job he had to do, it is unfair to go around calling him a murder and such, once agin it seems to me we are ignoring the warnings of the past. I would also point out the marjority of german were behind Hitler and his 'programme' if it could be called that. In many ways.

'for whatsoever a man soweth, then so shall he reap'

The Germans didn't mind bombing out cities and I think they got what they deserve. There's no one screaming about the Luftwaffe bombing the hell out of Coverntry or wwhat a bastard murder Hermann Göring was.

No we have to toe the line and not upset the germans who started both world wars. But hey lets not talk about that eh? *My arse*