is it real

with https://soundcloud.com/nameswinter


you're gonna have to try to let me go

you arrived like a stranger on my path
might've loved you at first now i don't love you back
wish i wasn't the one you got to know
now i want you to try to let me go

try to let me go w/ winter

2 year old demo. not that proud of it anymore, but had to put it out there so it doesn't gets forgotten on my hard drive

Hate It When You Leave

this daily shit hard
made in ~6 hours
daily #3
1.13.23

I'll stay inside, and wait for my turn
To be forgotten and returned
To place that I despise the most
You haven't seen me at my worst

I don't know what you're going through
And I know you won't tell the truth
I know it's hard, but I'm with you
Am I just a toy to you?

a toy

100%

have sent this already 1.5 years ago
aka ghosted remix/edit
made in 2021

reghosted

all nighter 8 submission, made in 24 hours

lyrics:

When I was 12 I didn't know
That I'd be laying on the floor
Screaming for help
From the voices in my head (x3)

Remember when I asked you for help
You just said "It gets worse"
You kept saying that shit 'till it could not
Get worse anymore (x2)

(trauma)

childhood memories

IF SOMEBODY KILL THEMSELF THAT MEANS SOMEBODY GETTING KILLED

KENDRICK LAMAR - XXX FEAT. U2 (EVAEIGHT REMIX)

I'd change a lot about all these all rn 6 months later, but still curious what you think. all basses done with Vital and Trash2

ID SHOWCASE

my submission for bitbird create together 4

NOT EVEN NEAR

TRASHTALK

hold on - tails beat battle

prod. me

lyrics:

2024 is
about to end I'm
still battling thoughts in-
side of my own head I'm
still not doing well but
keep on seeking help but
nothing seems to help and
I'm going through hell it's

2024 I
just turned 21 I
wanna cut my throat out
wanna have some fun
but it's illegal to exist for me
no, I don't want your empathy
you stupid fucking cunts just wanna feel good that you feel for me

don't have enough for food but
have enough for drinks, yeah
catch me sipping vodka till I don't know how to feel, please
god, if you are hearing me
I hope you fucking bleed
'till you feel same pain as me
want to die as bad as me

hope you spill your guts and
everybody laughs at
what a stupid fag you are
I hope you choke on glass
hope you never feel as save as normal fucking person would
and I hope that your wounds so deep
they never have to think of you

2024

prod. me

don't wanna wake up tomorrow
oh no, I don't-don't
you know that every time I fall, I lose my hope
I'm calling you won't pick up for me
funny, how you love me
another coffin for me, please

and every time we talk, you end up at my place-place
and every time I close my eyes, I see your face-face
and now I'm sad as fuck
don't wanna wait another day
I'm gonna smoke another pack

float to the surface, feel like I'm dying
you know that I'm hopeless, you don't see me crying
I know I'm obsessed and I gotta be patient
but it's just so hard when you're so fucking perfect

and when you talk, don't even know the fuck you said
just want a pretty boy to shoot me in the head
I know I gotta fix myself
I don't know how to fix myself
I don't know how to fix myself

coffin

lyrics:
sit myself in the backseat
I don't wanna talk
and I don't want you to ask me why
play my song on the tv
then I shut the door
cuz I don't want you to see me cry

seen all of this shit before
you've cut me up in pieces
and then suddenly you wanted more
fuck you, I don't wanna talk
fuck you, I don't wanna talk

locked inside my own head and my mind's going vicious
wish that I didn't but popping prescriptions
I look at you, all I can see is a loser
I wish we could make up
you know we can't do that

yeah, why would you say that
you that it hurts
there're some things that you can't take back
I know that you're hurt, and I know that you can be rash
you know that you're loved
and you know you got a bright mind, yeah

nah, fuck you
gotta put myself behind the wheel
got a lot of work to do
gotta eat gotta do things
can you just leave me alone

you know you tried that
failed like a thousand times
you need my help, bud
so please don't make it hard

got a bright future, don't have to argue
don't have to make it worse
you know you need me
you know I need you
babe, we can make it work, yeah
we can make it work, yeah
we can make it work, yeah

put myself behind the wheel
got a lot of work to do
gotta eat gotta do things
but you know I can't do this alone
can't do this alone, yeah
can't do this alone, yeah
can't do this alone

cover by t.me/VovanSykinSON

dispute

prod. https://soundcloud.com/nepuhz
cover уля

lyrics:

yeah, wanna see your guts spilled
wanna see you trust me
I know I'm sick as fuck
and don't know the fuck I'm asking for
take all around the world
tell me what's it even for

my whole body melts every time that you talk
you make it all worth it, you make my pain stop
my heart's beating faster when I hear your name
when you're not around, my whole world's turning gray

for you (tell me I'm perfect)

just fuck whoever, it's not like I fucking care
and if you leave me, I will fucking kill myself
I spend my days just fucking rotting in my bed
don't fucking leave, baby, don't you fucking dare

yeah, tell me you love me
tell me I'm perfect
tell me I'm worth the hustle
and if you don't
I'll cut my head open
and make you watch me suffer

falling apart, in need of your love
you don't want me dead, do you, buddy?
don't wanna fuck, I don't wanna kiss
I just wanna know, that you love me

just fuck whoever, it's not like I fucking care
and if you leave me, I will fucking kill myself
I spend my days just fucking rotting in my bed
don't fucking leave, baby, don't you fucking dare

for you (tell me I'm perfect)

for you (nepuhz)

prod. me
cover уля

evaeight:

I'm hanging by a thread, I
all I see is redeye
I'll try not to cry
but I know that it's just too late now
your love was a fakeout
you're just a fake now
all I wanted you to do
is just to help out

it's all my fault
turns out that you don't love me at all
my head's bout to blow
now you hate the place that you called home
please don't come back
no one will wait for you
bitch, just pack your bags
it never lasts
it never lasts

all I see is a light glow
calling out my name, but
we are not the same
I wouldn't do all of that
you begged for all forgiveness
you could ever ask for
but no one has answered your calls

you're hanging by a thread, I
all you see is redeye
you'll try not to cry
but you know that it's just too late now
your love was a fakeout
you're just a fake now
all I wanted you to do
is just to help out

I'm hanging by a thread, I
all I see is redeye
I'll try not to cry
but I know that it's just too late now
your love was a fakeout
you're just a fake now
all I wanted you to do
is just to help out

nepuhz:


leave me in the snow
let me sing for the crows
blood on my neck, shes upset, its so boring
wake up in the morning
still chasing glory
all these bitches on me, I'm geeked, I'm a zombie
take what u want from me
I'll tell u about myself
the money and drugs - I need it all
yeah, yeah
just cause' we fucked
don't mean that I want you
shi-

I pull up looking fresh as fuck, shi-
I told that bitch better luck
better luck next time
remember what I told u?

leave me in the snow
let me sing for the crows
blood on my neck, she's upset, it's so boring
wake up in the morning
still chasing glory
all these bitches on me, I'm geeked I'm a zombie
leave me in the snow
let me sing for the crows

better luck next time

prod. me
cover уля

lyrics:

sometimes it feel as if she isn't there

hate that you were right
all I think 'bout
getting high and pity suicide
been a couple years but still can't get you off my mind
if I ever gave up, would you even give a fuck? no
babe you can come closer, you know that I never bite
baby, don't be scared, I cannot even end me right
it's another day and I have lost another fight
baby, I don't want us to talk about it
I really don't want us to cry

slice my heart open
like, why would you do that
so deep in my own mind
can't even fool you
you don't believe me
when I say I'm fine
when I say I'm fine

once the dust settles
and I get better
hope I can find it in me to forget you
hope I can fight it in me not to fall for you

got like 5 bucks in my pocket
don't ask how I am, I don't know yet
yeah, I can feel it in my bones
that I'm about to die, 'bout to die

godlike, got knives in eye sockets
I don't need your help, I'm all set
yeah, I'm admitting this to you
while trying not to cry

fucking hate that you were right
all I think 'bout
getting high and pity suicide
been a couple years but still can't get you off my mind
if I ever gave up, would you even give a fuck? no
babe you can come closer, you know that I never bite
baby, don't be scared, I cannot even end me (I can't get out)
it's another day and I have lost another fight
baby, I don't want us to talk about it
I don't want us to cry again

cry again

@j896


lyrics:

don't tell me how to feel, bitch (ya, ya)
I try - call me selfish (fuck you)
I cry - call me pity, but you know that you're wrong
haven't even seen me ball out

ten deep, throwing up in the bathroom
you tell me I'm cringe, did I ask you?
you want me to die, is it all true? (huh)
what they tell you, what they tell you

telling me to hustle, but I just wanna die
truth is that I never wanted you by my
side, side, side, side
yeah, pop another pill, think I'm gon' be alright

I give it all, still you want more
try not to crash, when they all gone
for couple years running on fumes
rotting inside of my dark room

ten deep, throwing up in the bathroom
you tell me I'm cringe, did I ask you?
you want me to die, is it all true?
what they tell you, what they tell you

telling me to hustle, but I just wanna die
truth is that I never wanted you by my
side, side, side, side
yeah, pop another pill, think I'm gon' be alright

don't tell me how to feel (junoes)

cover by @zeromandia
pic by уля

I wash away my tears with blood
I wash away my tears with blood
I'm so done

oh boy oh boy
you wont believe
the stupid shit that bitch said
oh boy oh boy
she said she'd leave
and she would close all dms
feel like toy
what does it mean
when she is lending her hand
I know she knows
I fucking hate it
but its not gonna help

I know I know
I know you always seeing what I've never seen
I know you don't believe it when I say I'm here
I know the world is ending, the fuck do I do
I know you fucking hate it here, I hate it too
you say you're fine but I don't think your words are true
both of us know that we are not making it through
do you hate me too?
do you hate me too?

blow smoke, yeah I feel like shit
you're all talk, you're not even near at all

dead end (mona veilvate)

prod. me
cover уля

текст:

две тысячи восемнадцать
лежу в крови своей луже
двадцать таблеток на завтрак
гнилые гвозди в желудке
тело ебаное мясо 
знаю что не будет лучше
седце ебашит 160
ты никому бля не нужен
ты никому бля не нужен 16х (пожалуйста убей себя) 8х

пожалуйста убей, на коленях я молю тебя
так устала терпеть, рассвет будто нихуя не ближе
о эти крики в голове, они просят меня убить себя
все тяжелее делать вид будто бы их не слышу

еще одна сигарета
каким то хуем за 20
я так устала умирать
и каждый раз просыпаться
из крови соткана куртка
забыты старые сказки
пустая пачка таблеток
надо пойти проблеваться

и мне как будто 15
лежу все в той ещё луже
всегда надеялась на чудо
но теперь только хуже
факсин и сиги на завтрак
сон на обед и на ужин
седце ебашит 160
ты никому бля не нужен
ты никому бля не нужен 8х (пожалуйста убей себя) 6х

ты никому не нужен

with @ghastwolf
all nighter 5 submission, made in 24 hours.

i see again
i feel again
i see again
i dream again
im finally awake

i see again
i feel again
i dream again
im finally awake

i see again
i feel again
i dream again
im finally awake

I'm Finally Awake w/ Ghastwolf

made in 24 hours with @ghastwolf

i dont wanna stay inside
i dont wanna leave the room
i dont wanna stay alive
even if i have to
i dont wanna tell a lie
i dont tell the truth
i dont wanna waste my time
even if i have to

evaeight

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