A conversation in the night
detobenson16 : It was early in the morning and Olivia had woken up because of a nightmare. She sat up in bed and ran a hand over her damp brow and glanced at the clock. It was only 3:30 a.m. "Shit." She got up and went to get a drink of water, knowing that she would be unable to go right back to sleep.
CPerrinsS : A shrill noise rang out in Melinda's quiet bedroom. She groaned when she realized it was her cell. She fumbled around for the lamp, the bright light blinded her. She blinked her eyes a few times. She prayed she wasn't getting called into work. When she checked the caller id she frowned a bit. "Hey Liv you ok?"
detobenson16 : Liv hesitated for a few seconds, feeling bad about waking her up, but she needed to talk and get the images from her nightmare out of her mind. "I'm sorry...I didn't want to wake you up." Her voice was quiet and a bit unsure, very unlike Olivia Benson in a normal situation.
CPerrinsS : Melinda knew whatever was troubling Liv was serious. She was fully awake now, she sat up in her bed. "It's ok, Liv" she said in a soothing voice. "Tell me what's going?"
detobenson16 : Now that she was talking to her, she felt kinda dumb and rubbed the back of her neck as she sat down on her couch. "I dunno...it's kinda stupid now..."
CPerrinsS : Melinda glanced at the clock on her beside. It read 3:20 am . "Liv I'm sure whatever has you up at 3 in the morning must have upset you so I'm sure it's not stupid. I hope you feel you like you can talk to me."
detobenson16 : "I know..." She scrubbed her fingers through her hair and sighed. "I had a nightmare. I have them sometimes..."
CPerrinsS : She propped her pillows behind her and got comfortable. "Oh honey I'm sorry. Do you want to tell me what it was about?' She wasn't going to push, but she wanted Liv to know that she cared.
detobenson16 : "It's silly...really." A recent case triggered memories of her own childhood and thus, the nightmare. "Mel...I...I'm sorry, you should just go back to bed." She hung up before Melinda could respond, feeling bad she had called her so late....early..in the morning.
CPerrinsS : "Hello? Liv?" Melinda frowned and looked at her cell. Either Olivia just hung up on her or the called got dropped. She was hoping it was the latter because she really didn't like being hung up on especially at three in the morning. She scrolled through her contacts looking for Olivia's name. She pressed the button waiting for the call to connect.
detobenson16 : She stared at the phone, letting it ring for a few seconds, then snatched it up. "Melinda....please, just go back to sleep. I shouldn't have called." She got up and started pacing, wishing she could be in the arms of her lover, but she knew that her daughter was probably at home and so it wasn't possible.
CPerrinsS : Melinda was listening to the ringing sound on her phone. She was wondering if Liv was ever going to pick up. When the call finally connected the detective's words came out in a rush. "Whoa slow down there, I said before it's ok that you called. What I not ok with is the fact that you hung up on me." She tried not to sound too harsh, she was only mildly annoyed. She softened her voice and asked "Is there anything I can do to help?"
detobenson16 : "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that." There was something she could do, but it was almost selfish of Liv to ask. "Ummm...I..probably not."
CPerrinsS : Melinda sighed she knew Olivia wanted to ask her something but she was having trouble. "You know when Angela would wake from a bad dream I used to go into her room and lay down with her and rock her back to sleep. I would even sing softly to her."
detobenson16 : She smiled softly. "That sounds nice...Angela is at home isn't she?" She went to her room and sat on the bed again, sticking her legs under the comforter.
CPerrinsS : "No she's at her father's for the rest of the week. She was supposed to spend the weekend but she begged me to go earlier. I gave in since according to her I tortured her on Christmas. She snorted at her daughter's description of their Christmas dinner.
detobenson16 : She sighed a bit. "I'm sorry she is giving you a hard time about me being there." She wondered what Angela would do if they became more serious. Liv looked at the clock and twisted the covers a bit. "Can I come over?"
CPerrinsS : The request was made in such a sweet way it melted Melinda's heart. "Of course you can baby."
detobenson16 : Olivia smiled softly. "Thank you, honey. I'll there in a few minutes. See you then." She hung up again after saying goodbye and quickly dressed and through some clothes in a duffle bag. She got her badge and gun, putting them in the duffle as well and shrugged into her leather jacket as she headed out. Taking a cab, she was there in about minute and buzzed to be let in.
CPerrinsS : Melinda closed her cell and placed it on the table. She grabbed her robe and slippers. She made her way downstairs and into the kitchen. She put the water on to make tea. She heard the buzzer a few minutes later. She pressed the button to let Liv and waited by the door for her.
detobenson16 : She carried the bag on her shoulder and came to Melinda's door, her hair still a bit mussed and looking a bit sheepish. "Hi."
CPerrinsS : Melinda wrapped her arms around Liv in a tight embrace. She placed a small kiss on the side of her neck. "Hi yourself." She motioned for the bag that Liv had slung over her shoulder. "Let me take that for you."
detobenson16 : She hugged her in return, feeling better within the warmth of her embrace. She pulled back and handed Melinda the duffle bag. "Thanks for letting me come over." Liv walked into the apartment and took off her jacket.
CPerrinsS : She smiled at her lover and placed her bag at the foot of the stairs. Melinda walked into the kitchen and pulled out two mugs. "Why don't you have seat on the couch, I made us some tea." She poured the water into the mugs. She looked for a tray to bring everything out on. She wasn't sure what Liv wanted in her tea so she set out a variety of things.
detobenson16 : She wandered over the couch and sat down. The room was very homey with how it was decorated and the personal touches Melinda had added. Slipping off her shoes, she placed them on the side of the couch and looked out the window. It was a cold night and the stars were small pinpoints in the dark sky.
CPerrinsS : Melinda carefully brought out the tray and set it down on the coffee table. She took a seat next to Olivia. She put her arm around Liv shoulders and hugged her close.
detobenson16 : She smiled and relaxed into her embrace, settling her head in the crook of her neck. "This is exactly what I needed." She almost surprised herself by the need she felt for the older woman. Liv had to admit, her feelings for Melinda were growing stronger, though they still scared her and she still had considerations about giving up her dreams of having her own family
.
CPerrinsS : Melinda smiled and placed a small kiss on her forehead. She grabbed one of Liv's hands and laced her fingers with hers. "If you want to talk about your nightmare I'm willing to listen. Or we can just sit here and enjoy each others company. I'm happy to do whatever you want Olivia."
detobenson16 : She sighed a bit as she moved her thumb over their linked fingers. "It was just some dream about when I was little. I guess the case we have been working triggered it." She wanted to trust Melinda and tell her, but she was a bit afraid of her reaction. She didn't want pity.
CPerrinsS : Melinda motioned for Liv to lay her head in her lap. She pulled the afghan she kept on the back of the couch and covered the detective with it.
detobenson16 : She did as Melinda suggested and smiled with a slight blush. "You're spoiling me again."
CPerrinsS : Melinda smiled down at Liv. "I think we all deserve a little spoiling now and then." She brushed a few stray hairs away from Liv's forehead.
detobenson16 : She caught Melinda's hand in hers and kissed it. She held it to her cheek for a moment and then released it. She felt so confused. Liv had always wanted a family, but Melinda sounded like she didn't want anymore kids. Yet, she knew she was developing feelings for the lovely doctor. Feelings that went beyond a friend with benefits.
CPerrinsS : Melinda smiled as she felt the kiss on her hand. From the look on the detective's face she could tell she was lost in her thoughts. She wondered if it still had to do with her or dre or something else. She began running her hands through Olivia's hair, hoping to relax her.
detobenson16 : Liv decided to trust, just a little bit and began to softly speak. "I wish I could show kids like Angela how good they have it. I know it's not my place, but she needs to know how good her Mom is to her. Not every Mother is a good Mom, no matter how they try." She drew the blanket over her shoulder as a sudden chill ran down her spine.
CPerrinsS : "I know it must have been hard for you growing up in the environment that you did. But look what you did with your life Olivia, you've accomplished so much in spite of everything."
detobenson16 : She smiled gently. "It usually doesn't bother me and yes, I have accomplished a lot despite what happened then. However, we get cases like this last one and sometimes I will have nightmares, like tonight. I wish I could forget the past, but I think it helps me help others, ya know?"
CPerrinsS : Melinda nodded her head in agreement. "That's what makes you so special Liv, your ability to connect with the people you help. You understand where they are coming from." She finished her comment with kiss to her cheek.
detobenson16 : She moved her head after the kiss and regarded Melinda. "How would Angela react if things were to get serious with you and another woman?"
CPerrinsS : Melinda quirked her eyebrow at the question. Was Olivia asking the question out of sheer curiosity? "Well if we go by her behavior at Christmas, I would say she wouldn't be all that agreeable. Though I think she would come around in time."
detobenson16 : She nodded, her brow furrowed a bit in concentration. "Are you even wanting something more serious....down the line?"
CPerrinsS : Melinda thought carefully before she answered. "Are you talking in general or are you talking about you and me?"
detobenson16 : Liv sighed a bit. She hated playing games and decided to bite the bullet. "I'm talking about you and me. I really like you Melinda and I feel like our connection is deepening the more time we spend with each other."
CPerrinsS : Melinda let out the breath she had been holding. She smiled at Olivia, I've felt the connection too. I've enjoyed spending time with and I've started to feel happy again and that's thanks to you"
detobenson16 : Olivia smiled as she reached for her hand and held it. "I'm glad of that, you deserve to be happy, Melinda. You are an incredible woman. Beautiful, smart, dedicated, compassionate...shall I go on?"
CPerrinsS : Melinda laughed and poked Liv in the ribs. "Thank you for the lovely compliments, you're not so bad yourself detective."
detobenson16 : She squirmed a bit and laughed. "Ahh, but they are true." Liv's fingers played with Melinda's and she leaned her head against her middle.
CPerrinsS : Melinda leaned down and pressed her lips to Olivia's. She deepened the kiss and slipped her tongue into her mouth.
detobenson16 : She returned the kiss and welcomed the tongue into her mouth. She suckled on it gently as she cupped the back of Melinda's head in her palm.
CPerrinsS : Melinda moaned as she felt Olivia's tongue tangle with hers. When breathing became an issue she slowly pulled back. She licked her lips. "I love the way you taste," she purred.
detobenson16 : She smiled and ran her hand down her neck and along her arm. "I love the way you feel, especially when I in your arms." Liv picked up her hand and kissed Melinda's palm.
CPerrinsS : She shivered with pleasure at Liv's touch. "Mmmmmm how about we go up stairs, I have a nice queen size bed that would be much more comfortable than the couch."
detobenson16 : Liv answered by pushing aside the cover and rolling to her feet. She held a hand to her lover and smiled. "I like how you think, Warner."
CPerrinsS : Melinda got up from the couch and took Olivia's hand. She turned off the lights in the living room and headed upstairs with the detective trailing behind her.
detobenson16 : She admired the view from behind as she grabbed her duffle and went up the stairs with Melinda. Being with her felt so right in many ways, but she wasn't one to declare her feelings for someone quickly. Besides, what was the rush?
CPerrinsS : A shrill noise rang out in Melinda's quiet bedroom. She groaned when she realized it was her cell. She fumbled around for the lamp, the bright light blinded her. She blinked her eyes a few times. She prayed she wasn't getting called into work. When she checked the caller id she frowned a bit. "Hey Liv you ok?"
detobenson16 : Liv hesitated for a few seconds, feeling bad about waking her up, but she needed to talk and get the images from her nightmare out of her mind. "I'm sorry...I didn't want to wake you up." Her voice was quiet and a bit unsure, very unlike Olivia Benson in a normal situation.
CPerrinsS : Melinda knew whatever was troubling Liv was serious. She was fully awake now, she sat up in her bed. "It's ok, Liv" she said in a soothing voice. "Tell me what's going?"
detobenson16 : Now that she was talking to her, she felt kinda dumb and rubbed the back of her neck as she sat down on her couch. "I dunno...it's kinda stupid now..."
CPerrinsS : Melinda glanced at the clock on her beside. It read 3:20 am . "Liv I'm sure whatever has you up at 3 in the morning must have upset you so I'm sure it's not stupid. I hope you feel you like you can talk to me."
detobenson16 : "I know..." She scrubbed her fingers through her hair and sighed. "I had a nightmare. I have them sometimes..."
CPerrinsS : She propped her pillows behind her and got comfortable. "Oh honey I'm sorry. Do you want to tell me what it was about?' She wasn't going to push, but she wanted Liv to know that she cared.
detobenson16 : "It's silly...really." A recent case triggered memories of her own childhood and thus, the nightmare. "Mel...I...I'm sorry, you should just go back to bed." She hung up before Melinda could respond, feeling bad she had called her so late....early..in the morning.
CPerrinsS : "Hello? Liv?" Melinda frowned and looked at her cell. Either Olivia just hung up on her or the called got dropped. She was hoping it was the latter because she really didn't like being hung up on especially at three in the morning. She scrolled through her contacts looking for Olivia's name. She pressed the button waiting for the call to connect.
detobenson16 : She stared at the phone, letting it ring for a few seconds, then snatched it up. "Melinda....please, just go back to sleep. I shouldn't have called." She got up and started pacing, wishing she could be in the arms of her lover, but she knew that her daughter was probably at home and so it wasn't possible.
CPerrinsS : Melinda was listening to the ringing sound on her phone. She was wondering if Liv was ever going to pick up. When the call finally connected the detective's words came out in a rush. "Whoa slow down there, I said before it's ok that you called. What I not ok with is the fact that you hung up on me." She tried not to sound too harsh, she was only mildly annoyed. She softened her voice and asked "Is there anything I can do to help?"
detobenson16 : "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that." There was something she could do, but it was almost selfish of Liv to ask. "Ummm...I..probably not."
CPerrinsS : Melinda sighed she knew Olivia wanted to ask her something but she was having trouble. "You know when Angela would wake from a bad dream I used to go into her room and lay down with her and rock her back to sleep. I would even sing softly to her."
detobenson16 : She smiled softly. "That sounds nice...Angela is at home isn't she?" She went to her room and sat on the bed again, sticking her legs under the comforter.
CPerrinsS : "No she's at her father's for the rest of the week. She was supposed to spend the weekend but she begged me to go earlier. I gave in since according to her I tortured her on Christmas. She snorted at her daughter's description of their Christmas dinner.
detobenson16 : She sighed a bit. "I'm sorry she is giving you a hard time about me being there." She wondered what Angela would do if they became more serious. Liv looked at the clock and twisted the covers a bit. "Can I come over?"
CPerrinsS : The request was made in such a sweet way it melted Melinda's heart. "Of course you can baby."
detobenson16 : Olivia smiled softly. "Thank you, honey. I'll there in a few minutes. See you then." She hung up again after saying goodbye and quickly dressed and through some clothes in a duffle bag. She got her badge and gun, putting them in the duffle as well and shrugged into her leather jacket as she headed out. Taking a cab, she was there in about minute and buzzed to be let in.
CPerrinsS : Melinda closed her cell and placed it on the table. She grabbed her robe and slippers. She made her way downstairs and into the kitchen. She put the water on to make tea. She heard the buzzer a few minutes later. She pressed the button to let Liv and waited by the door for her.
detobenson16 : She carried the bag on her shoulder and came to Melinda's door, her hair still a bit mussed and looking a bit sheepish. "Hi."
CPerrinsS : Melinda wrapped her arms around Liv in a tight embrace. She placed a small kiss on the side of her neck. "Hi yourself." She motioned for the bag that Liv had slung over her shoulder. "Let me take that for you."
detobenson16 : She hugged her in return, feeling better within the warmth of her embrace. She pulled back and handed Melinda the duffle bag. "Thanks for letting me come over." Liv walked into the apartment and took off her jacket.
CPerrinsS : She smiled at her lover and placed her bag at the foot of the stairs. Melinda walked into the kitchen and pulled out two mugs. "Why don't you have seat on the couch, I made us some tea." She poured the water into the mugs. She looked for a tray to bring everything out on. She wasn't sure what Liv wanted in her tea so she set out a variety of things.
detobenson16 : She wandered over the couch and sat down. The room was very homey with how it was decorated and the personal touches Melinda had added. Slipping off her shoes, she placed them on the side of the couch and looked out the window. It was a cold night and the stars were small pinpoints in the dark sky.
CPerrinsS : Melinda carefully brought out the tray and set it down on the coffee table. She took a seat next to Olivia. She put her arm around Liv shoulders and hugged her close.
detobenson16 : She smiled and relaxed into her embrace, settling her head in the crook of her neck. "This is exactly what I needed." She almost surprised herself by the need she felt for the older woman. Liv had to admit, her feelings for Melinda were growing stronger, though they still scared her and she still had considerations about giving up her dreams of having her own family
.
CPerrinsS : Melinda smiled and placed a small kiss on her forehead. She grabbed one of Liv's hands and laced her fingers with hers. "If you want to talk about your nightmare I'm willing to listen. Or we can just sit here and enjoy each others company. I'm happy to do whatever you want Olivia."
detobenson16 : She sighed a bit as she moved her thumb over their linked fingers. "It was just some dream about when I was little. I guess the case we have been working triggered it." She wanted to trust Melinda and tell her, but she was a bit afraid of her reaction. She didn't want pity.
CPerrinsS : Melinda motioned for Liv to lay her head in her lap. She pulled the afghan she kept on the back of the couch and covered the detective with it.
detobenson16 : She did as Melinda suggested and smiled with a slight blush. "You're spoiling me again."
CPerrinsS : Melinda smiled down at Liv. "I think we all deserve a little spoiling now and then." She brushed a few stray hairs away from Liv's forehead.
detobenson16 : She caught Melinda's hand in hers and kissed it. She held it to her cheek for a moment and then released it. She felt so confused. Liv had always wanted a family, but Melinda sounded like she didn't want anymore kids. Yet, she knew she was developing feelings for the lovely doctor. Feelings that went beyond a friend with benefits.
CPerrinsS : Melinda smiled as she felt the kiss on her hand. From the look on the detective's face she could tell she was lost in her thoughts. She wondered if it still had to do with her or dre or something else. She began running her hands through Olivia's hair, hoping to relax her.
detobenson16 : Liv decided to trust, just a little bit and began to softly speak. "I wish I could show kids like Angela how good they have it. I know it's not my place, but she needs to know how good her Mom is to her. Not every Mother is a good Mom, no matter how they try." She drew the blanket over her shoulder as a sudden chill ran down her spine.
CPerrinsS : "I know it must have been hard for you growing up in the environment that you did. But look what you did with your life Olivia, you've accomplished so much in spite of everything."
detobenson16 : She smiled gently. "It usually doesn't bother me and yes, I have accomplished a lot despite what happened then. However, we get cases like this last one and sometimes I will have nightmares, like tonight. I wish I could forget the past, but I think it helps me help others, ya know?"
CPerrinsS : Melinda nodded her head in agreement. "That's what makes you so special Liv, your ability to connect with the people you help. You understand where they are coming from." She finished her comment with kiss to her cheek.
detobenson16 : She moved her head after the kiss and regarded Melinda. "How would Angela react if things were to get serious with you and another woman?"
CPerrinsS : Melinda quirked her eyebrow at the question. Was Olivia asking the question out of sheer curiosity? "Well if we go by her behavior at Christmas, I would say she wouldn't be all that agreeable. Though I think she would come around in time."
detobenson16 : She nodded, her brow furrowed a bit in concentration. "Are you even wanting something more serious....down the line?"
CPerrinsS : Melinda thought carefully before she answered. "Are you talking in general or are you talking about you and me?"
detobenson16 : Liv sighed a bit. She hated playing games and decided to bite the bullet. "I'm talking about you and me. I really like you Melinda and I feel like our connection is deepening the more time we spend with each other."
CPerrinsS : Melinda let out the breath she had been holding. She smiled at Olivia, I've felt the connection too. I've enjoyed spending time with and I've started to feel happy again and that's thanks to you"
detobenson16 : Olivia smiled as she reached for her hand and held it. "I'm glad of that, you deserve to be happy, Melinda. You are an incredible woman. Beautiful, smart, dedicated, compassionate...shall I go on?"
CPerrinsS : Melinda laughed and poked Liv in the ribs. "Thank you for the lovely compliments, you're not so bad yourself detective."
detobenson16 : She squirmed a bit and laughed. "Ahh, but they are true." Liv's fingers played with Melinda's and she leaned her head against her middle.
CPerrinsS : Melinda leaned down and pressed her lips to Olivia's. She deepened the kiss and slipped her tongue into her mouth.
detobenson16 : She returned the kiss and welcomed the tongue into her mouth. She suckled on it gently as she cupped the back of Melinda's head in her palm.
CPerrinsS : Melinda moaned as she felt Olivia's tongue tangle with hers. When breathing became an issue she slowly pulled back. She licked her lips. "I love the way you taste," she purred.
detobenson16 : She smiled and ran her hand down her neck and along her arm. "I love the way you feel, especially when I in your arms." Liv picked up her hand and kissed Melinda's palm.
CPerrinsS : She shivered with pleasure at Liv's touch. "Mmmmmm how about we go up stairs, I have a nice queen size bed that would be much more comfortable than the couch."
detobenson16 : Liv answered by pushing aside the cover and rolling to her feet. She held a hand to her lover and smiled. "I like how you think, Warner."
CPerrinsS : Melinda got up from the couch and took Olivia's hand. She turned off the lights in the living room and headed upstairs with the detective trailing behind her.
detobenson16 : She admired the view from behind as she grabbed her duffle and went up the stairs with Melinda. Being with her felt so right in many ways, but she wasn't one to declare her feelings for someone quickly. Besides, what was the rush?