lydiamaroon

Between two lungs...

2013-05-22T00:11:59Z

So hello,I will just cut right to the chase!i am in love...with not a typical option for me!and he loves me back..and it's great!but the thing is I have another love...and he is also not a typical kind of love for me!!
He is just not into me that much...we r real good friends!nothing more!
I don't know what to do...part of me wants to end this...I am nor cut out for love!i am the fat girl with the cats!!i think I will mess everything up!
I am so confused..I can't tell if this is real love or just me being happy I am not alone anymore...
This is the infatuation phase...I am waiting for it to be over..
Until then..I dunno I'll just keep going out with my guys!
I feel like such a whore!
Good night everyone!

the little things count the most :)

2013-05-08T00:17:11Z

so last week was a complete sad bluee and dark time for me!to be fair it was the whole of last month!!I was just in a bad shape!mentally and psychologically.Anyway,the thing is when I go dark side I just go all the way!and it always ends up of me getting extremely sick and spending like three days in bed or so!!and that's what happened!the thing is it's been a week and I'm like still sick!!runny nose and headche and just fatigue!!bleH~.~ so,now I am feeling much much better!I pulled my head out of my ass and I looked around to the things that makes me happy!most of it was either on tv or on a social network lol but in the end..this is what makes me happy and makes my world less depressing!so what all my friends turned out to be asses?I can make new friends!i am just not in the mood of making new friends!I am in the phase of being a loner wolf!AWOOOOOH!(yea yea too much teen wolf I know!!)when the time comes i'll get me some fun good friends and get it it over with!
one more thing!my mom is being a massive bitch and she's like always sad and depressed and I am trying to make her feel better but she's stubborn!but I am not mad at her!usu I will be furious!but I am not!you only get one mom and if i don't tolerate her who else is gonna??\
so yeah!whatever crazy shit you got out of this crazy lil thing just ignore it!you will forget that you have read this blog in three two one...
TEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET

Solo dolo

2013-02-23T19:42:56Z

So it happened....I went out alone gaaaaaaah!
I was gonna go around nearby in my car as I always do,but I was way too bored to do so..
And then I was like hell I will drive to Dubai wherever my wheels take me...just coz I have lose selfish friends,and no other half,doesn't mean I have to stay at home all the time!
I went to thenirish village..was planing on going to the midriff city center but then I got lost and drove till I got there!unintentionally!,!
It was so crowded apparently they have some sort of tennis championship going but thank god normal ppl could enter as well...
I chose an isolated diner!drank me some!smoked me A LOT! And then went home!i had fun alone!
Conclusion is,I was not bored or scared alone as I usually am!and now I think I have the balls to go out alone again yay hehe
My friends are always busy and even when they r not i am always finding them together!just the three of them...and they act as if I don't have the right to get upset about it so I won't...I am past the point of getting upset!when ur close friends hurt u so many times u just get numb after time and time again...
So yeah!this is a new me!and I love her.
Le fen
Till next time bitches hehe

THE FEELS!!!

2012-12-28T13:20:50Z

I can't get over Merlin yet!I am reading a lot of fiction about reincarnation and shit but I AM JUST NOT OVER IT!I AM SO DAMAGED WITH ALL THE FEEEEELS!
okay need to get that out there for some ppl who know what I am talking about!other ppl just give me weird looks...bitches!:p

GIVE ME LOVE BROLIN

2012-12-02T20:37:42Z

SOMEONE MAKE ME A VIDEO OF BROLIN TO THAT SONG!SO SAD!GOES WITH ALL THIS SADNESS OF AXING THE SHOW AHWAAA

All is wrong!

2012-06-30T23:17:32Z

All is wrong and falling down!things in my life were not that good but today's morning was the cherry on the top.
I woke up to find the door to my room(that my mom force shares with me by the way!) locked!coz my mom doesn't want the cats to get in the room!anyway!after I woke up,called her to come from the other room to open the door for me,I calmly and I repeat CALMLY! asked her to not lock the door again!she flipped!and kept saying that whatever good she does in this house is repaid in bad to her!I was like O_O and I was too sleep drugged up on sleep to even answer!anyway, I let her go!then when I went to make coffee,she was starring daggers at me!I was like:what?and then she was like WHAT?WHAT?WHAT IS IT?WAAAAAAAAAAAH*Que Hurrican Katrina*
anyway,the day didn't get any better!and I still have a heavy heart!I feel that the whole house is shit!

lydiamaroon @ 2012-06-21T16:50:00

2012-06-21T12:50:44Z

SO I know It's EARLY but I have to say it before RL

makes me forget!HAPPY LGBT DAY PPL!it's not

just gay pride any more is it?lol anywhoooo me and

wifey will be celebratign from afar!but it's all good

in under the hood!!!! XD

PARKED!EPIC!(SPOILER ALERT!)

2012-03-16T17:35:04Z

MAN!PARK WAS JUST SO GOOD!AND COLIN!OH MAAAAAN HE SURE KNOWS HOW TO ACT!=(((( SO SAD HE DIED IN THE END¬.¬ BUT THAT MADE THE STORY REAL!BUT STILL I WISH HE HAD A HAPPY ENDING NOW I FEEL HEART BROKEN!!!=( AGAIN!AM SO SAD ABOUT HIM DYING!

this just came over me!

2012-01-13T15:21:11Z

Sometimes I set outside,

Watch the breeze floating things by

Now that I got what I want

I see the end of

Everything thing that’s been my life

Never asked them why

They chose to leave there things behind

Locked inside my heart

The ache it causes

No I can’t hide...

I laugh a lot coz I

Can’t let anyone one know what I hide

It’s so hard at times

My head aches and my heart sinks low

Letting go is hard,no matter how hard you try

You’ve done it so many times before

But every time it seems worse than the one before ...

So I’ll just stay outside

Think of nothing

And let the breeze

Fly things by...

Writer's Block: Poetry Break

2012-01-10T14:55:40Z

I know where you are,

Lying there under the ground...

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust...

But you linger within my skin

All the little things

That was you

But that’s all I have

A memory none the less

A hole in my heart

That’s never filled

And yes I do look at the moon

Coz i always thought you were looking too!

But what’s the point now...

The moon is lonely

Just like this heart of mine

And you are like the sun

Always there

Always bright

Always guiding my way

Giving me some sense of right

But I never get to meet you

Just like the moon

Never meets the sun ...

For my sister

Writer's Block: Background players

2011-11-27T11:05:40Z

Colin Morgan as Merlin =D

Writer's Block: It's payday!

2011-11-15T20:36:24Z

travel!DUH!

no title!

2011-10-24T17:23:05Z

It's just so hard,when u r so dead inside but can't do anything about it!except feel the hurt,and pretend to be happy...coz no one cares!and it hurts to know that...

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I GOT A NEW PHONE!FINALLY!

2011-10-20T11:39:45Z

So I don't know if I mentioned this in the other post or not but WOOT!I GOT A NEW PHONE! it's BlackBerry 9780 and it's SHIBBYYYY!so good!I mean it'a a whole lot better than the old bb I used to have!the curve one!
I can't stop playing with it!and I FOUND A PODCAST THINGY IN IT!ooh podfic here I come to u baby!not that I am much a fan of it but I will give it a go =D
anywho =D this is the highlight of my day!which will probably be the highlight of this month!I want the good things to keep coming =D mwahahaha
byeeee

A big GAH moment!

2011-10-17T18:52:52Z

So my stuiped blackberry BIT THE FUCKING DUST!and now I am running around with a stuiped Nokia!well it does the basic shit!call and recieve calls and send and recieve text on good days LOL
and just now my mom broke my shades!MY SHADES! I have no shades now!so when I drive THE FUCKING SUN WILL HIT ME EYES!
ooh I am complaining like a bitch!oh so fucking what the phone got ruined right?I mean it's not like I don't have a phone at all!tyeaaa sucks but still!at least I can still call ppl!(I miss using twitter phone tho gaaah) and so what the shades got ruined too?I will go buy me some cheap ones to do the job!till I can get me another!
and I spent the whole day driving my mom around!round and round!running an errand after the other!well she was running the errands!I was just the driver yooooo!but ish cool tho!kinda!as long as she pays for gas! =p
okay I was planing to complain a lot here!now I just convinced myself that's it's okay to be gay AHRHH I mean it's okay to get things damaged!
on the good side =D XD I discovered that the PSP browser is HAWESOME for reading Merlin slash OHWEEE hot sweet Merthur dream NIHIHIHIHI
okaay so that's it!
hmmm yupp yupp that's all!
CHUSS!

Writer's Block: One sweet day

2011-10-15T18:39:04Z

Watched dolphins swimming in the sea when me and my late sister(RIP) were travelling to Egypt with our parents!we weren't expecting anything exciting to happen but suddenly a lot of dolphins appeared and they were jumping up and down beside the ship!one of them was with her little baby dolphin which was so adorable.It was the last time me and my sister got on a ship together,and the first time for me to ever see dolphins..that's why it's the sweetest experience ever!

Writer's Block: Freewill vs. fate

2011-10-08T16:52:14Z

a bit of both!

Writer's Block: Best song of the year

2011-05-03T17:41:59Z

Writer's Block: Best song of the year

2010-12-11T20:53:28Z