Abash'd the Devil stood, And felt how awful goodness is

Sweet Charity Auction

2009-03-28T04:06:18Z

Wow. All I can say is Wow. $2,151.19 USD in less that 5 hours? err $2,197.72 USD now..
The FINAL Sweet Charity auction lasts until midnight GMT March 31sts
There are A LOT of talented people contributing this time around so Seriously head over to
http://www.sweet-charity.net/auction
and bid bid bid!!

final Sweet Charity Auction

2009-03-23T17:26:18Z

This will be the final Sweet Charity Auction. all the monies from the auction will go to RAINN
(RAINN--Rape Abuse and Incest National Network)

I am offering up only one thing this round, because what I am offering will end up taking me the 3-4 months to finish properly and if I tried to offer more than 1, I would screw up something somewhere.
So what am I offering up the Auction gods this round?
Well since you asked..
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One Medieval Style dress of your Choice!

Deadline: Wednesday 1st July 2009

Minimum bid: £1.00

Quantity: For one top bidder

medieval dress, you pick which of the patterns you would like me to use (or if you know of a style you would REALLY like and I don't have the pattern I will find it) from my selection of them and the colors and Materials you would like.
All seams will be serger finished so they do not unravel or fray. embellishments like trim, embroidery, appliques and beading will be added as I work on the dress to compliment the colors/materials so they might vary.
The finished dress will be suitable to wear to any Renn Fest or costume party - or even an SCA Event if thats your thing :)
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Sweet Charity has been a wonderful experience for me and while I am sad to see her go I am glad she will be going out with a Bang
for more info, to bid or sign up to sell something, go to http://www.sweet-charity.net/

30 random Icons

2008-12-07T23:02:03Z

making kazbaby's birthday present gave me the urge to icon again so I made these. some have text, some dont. take what you want. comment if you want.
enjoy

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Birthday Present for kazbaby

2008-12-07T20:12:10Z

I thought and thought about what to make you, finally I figured Id whip up some Farscape comic Icons for you. Enjoy hun- glad to hear your birthday was enjoyable!
PS there wasnt too many pages for me to choose from obviously to make these so I will make more when I can find more pages :)
xoxox

brief update- AKA Fate you fickle b%tch...

2007-10-10T04:48:47Z

Kat is in the hospital again..
this time for chest pain. the nurse called from school, and told me, so I went up there to see her. she was pale, and in a lot of pain. when I asked on the 1-10 scale what it was, she said an 8. we left from there to the ER.
tests were run at the ER, and due to that hospital having no pediatric staff, she was transported to the children's hospital. once there, the docs looked over the numerous catscans and Xrays and now suspect the pain is being caused by her severe chest deformity. which is now crushing her already screwy heart up against her left shoulder. She also appears to have an infection in the lining of her chest wall, which apparently is common with how deformed her ribs/back is, the rib puncture the lining causing a line for infection.

what they would like to do is calles a Nuss Surgery http://www.chkd.org/Services/NussProcedure/Overview.aspx to repair it, and will also attempt to realign/remove/move some of her ribs which have become somewhat deformed from the pressure from her back.But first they want to run a couple more tests (echocardiogram being one of them since they can not find her previously scarybig aortic anurysm which could be caused by how compressed her heart is in her chest now) Strangely this heart compression is new. It was not doing this 6 months ago when we had out last check up, so its problematic. she is not really a good canidate for surgery but she really isnt a canidate for sitting around and waiting for her heart to be crushed.

for now she is resting comfortably in a very nice childrens hospital which, so far, does not have the laxed lets wait and see what goes wrong we are afraid of malpractice that florida had when dealing with Kat. I had to come back home to deal with the youngins, and once I get them off to school in the AM, I will head back up to the hospital.

For those of you who pray, say a little pray for Kat.

Vid: Beautiful Tragedy BSG

2007-07-30T17:04:35Z

title: Beautiful Tragedy
Music & Artist: Beautiful by James Blunt
Fandom/Pairing: Battlestar Galactica Lee/Kara
Size: 35.7 MB (37,440,748 bytes)
Link: Imeem - OR - download from savefile
Notes: this is a video from Lee's POV about his love for Kara and how by the end of Season 3 he knows he will never be with her. this is my first video in some time and I know of several moments were the video does some sort of weird jumpy thing it didnt do before compression but I figured it I didnt upload it soon I would never upload it. so here ya go :)
this video is dedicated to all my lovely friends on livejournal who helped me be able to make this. I love ya all. :)
ps this is a non-beta'd vid I lost all the source files when I changed computers and its one giant chunk of video now so all mistakes are my own and sort of.. stuck until/unless I redo it.. and since I'm not sure I ever want to hear this song again LOL not sure when/if that will happen

Bush is going to do WHAT?

2007-07-16T18:09:54Z

I'd like to pass this post made aware to me by jebbypal to the masses. She normally keeps me updated on news, given my lack of interest in it generally. and this particular article makes me very growly.
Bush Veto's well... anything important!

Oh Birthday girl jebbypal..

2007-07-10T22:49:29Z

Wash was very upset that I didnt use him for a Birthday WP for you..so he demanded that I do one ASAP.
I've always been fond of this black and white image of him you sent me some time ago, for another layout I did for you, I thought it would make a nice yet simple WP. I hope you like it.

1024 x 768 version here
Info:
image Alan Tudyk
brushes: paper sweets
textures: charmax & gender
Unlocked for viewing/sharing ease.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY jebbypal

2007-07-10T20:03:29Z

a Little present for you I've been working on for.. uh.. well let's not discuss it shall we? it took me a while to remember how to use some of the tools in photoshop again :P
I hope your birthday is wonderful. you being born is so far the only Good Thing thats come out of the month of July :) love ya hunny!

1024x768 Version here

John and Aeryn- Always and Forever
image: Stargate promo (yea I know its not farscape but well it was a good image of them :)) moya model creator is unknown to me
Backgrounds: Charmax & Hybrid Synthesis
Brushes: dedault and sdodies big collection
Lyrics: none

this entry is unlocked/public so it can be shared

Fanart Post - Helo for the love of, for Poisontaster

2007-07-09T18:27:21Z

its been a long time since I made fanart huh? this is for PT - a little something to ~~make her drool~~ cheer her up..

1024x768 Version here

Info:
images from BSG media
Textures by gender
Brushes by paper sweets (will find the link in a moment, for some reason their ID isnt showing up in semagic atm)
Lyrics used are "Dolly" by Hyde
public/unlocked entry so this link can be shared

Movie Review: The Messengers

2007-05-27T17:39:59Z

this is a review of The Messengers (2007)
movie information: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0425430/
date Viewed: 5/26/07

so.. Ive battled for a while with the notion that I might be mildly desensitive to violences/gore on TV and movies. course I always chalked it up to the movie just, you know,sometimes suck more than I can possibly put into words.
So when several of my horror movies buff friends recommended "The Messengers" to me. I thought I was in for a good scare. Mike and I sat down to watch it at about 12:15am last night. We had the lights off, m&ms and popcorn, sodas... we were set.
Except one little thing….
Hairy Texan Mountain Men scare me more than this did.
I can see why it might frighten some. The movie is based around the premise that little kids can see/sense ghosts because they haven’t closed off their minds like adults have. This is an interesting concept and something many ghost hunters to believe to be 'fact' (as far as Facts can go in the realm of the "supernatural")
Plot (or what they try to pass off as one anyway)
Dad Mom and their teenager trouble starting daughter, and little non-verbal rug rat move out to the country in South (or was it north?) Dakota to raise sunflowers on some dilapidated farm they’ve bought. It takes the movie a while to get into the reason why Bratmisterflex doesn’t speak and why mom and dad are so spastic on the teen. Seems in Chicago, she was drinking, got into a wreck with her baby bro in the car and the kid's not spoken since. Dad has lost his job (it’s not really covered why he lost it or why it took him 2 years to not find a new one and decide to move the family out to the boonies) and mom's got guilt issues and so the only solution is to move out to BFE and raise plants. It’s never clarified if Dad actually has a clue how to raise sunflowers except for a comment made brief and early in the film that his "Dad" did it too.
This house also has a crow/raven issue. They are everywhere on the property and that’s not really ever explained either. But I digress.
No one has lived in this house for 6 years but once the Family moves into it the bank man, played by the X files- Cigarette smoking man looking as pallid as ever, shows up with an offer from “someone else” saying they will not only pay what the family did for the house but an additional 15%. See now any smart person would have said “hell yea were do I sign” and moved into a nice apartment in the city somewhere. But nope, not these folks; they are in it for the “long haul” after all you cant have a horror movie if you move from the place right?
Enter: The Stranger. See Dad cant afford to hire any help he tells the local feed store guy when he mentions that there’s plenty to be had thanks to all the lay offs (Lay offs from what? When?) But when dad’s working on the field and getting terrorized by the Hitchcockesque Crow action The Stranger shows up and scares them off by shooting his shotgun into the air. Dad instantly hires the stranger, with room and board as payment until the first harvest. Stranger says that sounds good. And Dad doesn’t find anything fishy here, at all?
Right so. Maybe I’m paranoid...
So you have Bobby Joe and Mary Sue, there kids Annie May and baby-Jed and the stranger (not their real names no, but strangely befitting). Dad and the stranger work on the field (and the stranger seems to know a good deal about Sunflower Farming) while Momma Mary Sue is scrubbing this stain off the wall that wont stay away, Teenage Troublemaker Annie May beats the cute-boy-in-town at basketball and lil Jed’s pointing at ghosts running on the ceiling ala the Grudge that no one else is seeing but him.
The movie goes on like this, anticlimactic, for some time.. and then suddenly!! Dumdumdummmmmmm!!
Dad cuts his hand working in the field, Ohnoes! And he needs stitches! So mom says to pack up the kids lets go to the hospital, but Dad says no leave the little demons here so they can get eaten by the ghosts! Plot Woman! Plot stick with the script!
Dad and mom leave. The Ghosts all play helter skelter on the house in another grudge like rip off, Troublemaker almost gets sucked down into the basement, lil Jed shows up in the hallway which never is the same scene for scene, and then she pulls herself out grabbing him and trying to get out. She is “Saved” by the stranger who tells the cops that he didn’t see anything. It’s all chalked up the Teenage Angst.
*yawns* Parents don’t believe her anyway because “it’s happening again” – right. So.. Drinking and driving makes you see ghosts? Sweet.
The plot continues in a downward spiral from here. At some point Daughter finds a locket she cant open, the after the ghosts attack her again – which the hospital calls self inflicted wounds, right, uhuh- it opens up and she sees the picture of the mother that used to live in the house. Daughter runs off to find cute boy and they go to the feed store because she remembers seeing the woman before. Cute boy and Troublemaker rush into town, look up on the bulletin board in there and.. and and… guess who she sees? The Father of the family who “Disappeared” from the house is none other that the Mysterious Stranger!!!
At this point I think Mike and I threw m&ms at the TV screen.
See things have already gone horribly wrong back at the farm. Stranger gets attacked by the crows, causing him to suddenly remember he’s a murderous psychopath when he sees Ma Kettle trying to leave the house because she finally sees the mom’s ghost come thru the wall on that cantberemovedeveromg stain on the wall. Ma Kettle trying to leave reminds him of his wife trying to leave and he rushes up to the house, and theres some exchanging of words calling her his wifes name, yadda.
Things, like the Plot, get fuzzy here. Troublemaker and Cuteboy return to find no one home, and then go upstairs to find mom, except instead they find a pitchfork trying to kill em through the door. They get downstairs, cute boy gets knocked out, Trouble maker gets down into the basement. Long story made short, theres a showdown and Stranger gets sucked to the grave by his loving family when they ooze out of the floor in the basement.
Everyone lives happily ever after, including baby Jed who talks again in a touching moment at the end with his sister. Puke.
This movie was about as scary as cornflakes (unless your Jebby, then you know, Cornflakes can be pretty scary). The plot was a bad mix of Hitchcock’s Bird and the Grudge but a lot less entertaining to watch. The idea that kids can see ghosts has merit but it’s poorly addressed. Ma and Pa might be some of the most unobservant self consumed parents I’ve seen in a long time make me wonder how they’ve managed to even raise one kid to teenager-hood. If I came home and found my teenage daughter white and trembling from fear, I would notice that as a real concern and not chalk it up to her being a troublemaker. Good lord.
And since Troublemaker never showed previous signs of self-inflicted injury, I mean besides the drinking thing, why would the parents assume she was self mutilating now? Doesn’t make a lot of sense but I’m sure the Pang brothers thought it made perfect sense when they directed it.

Rating (1 star to 5 stars): *
Why? Cigarette smoking man as a banker amused me and the special effects were decent.
Would you buy it? No.

Wallpaper- Max Martini- Lust

2007-03-14T06:11:45Z

Title: Lust
Fandom/Actor: Max Martini from the Unit
Size: 1024x768
Full Sized Image located: http://www.lurid-eidolon.org/art/MaxLust.jpg
Info/Credit: couldn't sleep so I played in photoshop, this was experimenting with my dream suite filters to do the torn paper. Textures are my own, picture from Max's website. no brushes used. Dedicated to jebbypal Though I shouldn't be feeding her Max Lust, it will make the frog go all useless again.. but I couldn't resis
Preview:

and now, I'm going to bed.

Firefly Wallpaper

2007-03-09T15:35:38Z

Made for jebbypal by request..
who said after she saw it, "I can't believe you made the torture shots sexy." HA!

Title: Only the Dead Have Seen The End of War

1024x768 Image Here

credits: Caps from Still-flying.net Texture is my own, brushes from sensi_incanto

I have another update to make, covering my medication fun and my neighbors, which I will make in a private post a bit later if I can find my brain.
Enjoy

2 Wallpapers-Supernatural Fandom

2007-03-06T04:00:18Z

I've had a "special" beginning to my week, which I will explain in a non-public post either later tonight or tomorrow depending on if I have the energy. For now. 2 Wallpapers

1. Monsters Live Within..

1024x768 Full Size Image here

2. Heartbreak (Dedicated to poisontaster and mona1347)

1024x768 full sized image here
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In other news I have begun overhauling and updating Lurid-eidolon It's been just a shell for sometime with nothing on it, the layout was something I half pieced together before the serenity preview and is now something slightly less fannish and alittle more professional looking. so, that's something.
Currently is has my photography half up, some freebies (textures I made for now, stock images can be found at the photo link) and other misc. junk. Still need to figure out what of my fanart I'm going to show case. we shall see.
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the site I was using to get BSG images has been closed down, it wasn't a screencap site, but a promo site. seems Universal got them. Anyone have any good BSG media sites?
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Anyways. there you go. I will update you all on the fun of my Arsehole neighbors and the Health Dept later.

Wallpaper for jebbypal

2007-02-06T02:24:44Z

Your Wish is My Command
one without lyrics:

1024x768 Full Version here
and one with Lyrics, Just a job to do by Genesis (recommended by bhanfhlaith )

1024x768 Full Version Here

Hope you like! :)

credits: Texture by charmax
Brushes: unknown. if they are yours please let me know so I can credit thank you.

New Wallpaper: Here's Looking at you (Firefly)

2006-10-15T22:31:38Z

Title: Here's Looking at You Kid
Series: Firefly
Pairing: Simon/River
Theme/info: the basic look/feel is of one of those old Boggart Casablanca style movies. I added a Fedora to Sean, darkened Summer's dress, added the background in and tada.
Comment if you want.

Full Size Image here

Buy Me, Baby!!

2006-07-11T11:26:47Z

This round Im offering 2 graphic type things, and a piece of jewelry..

Graphic work: I can make LJ layouts, Banners, Friends Only things,Wallpapers and Icons. I can do mood themes but as I learned this round they are very very time consuming if they are dedicated to 1 person but if you want one I am your slave.
Fandoms: buffy, Angel, Firefly, Supernatural, and pretty much anythingelse I can get my hands on picture wise I can make into something.

Jewelry: Okay this is a strange one but here it goes. My daugher has Marfans, the charity we are helping out, and I have the ability to make the winner something with the Marfans "have a heart" emblem. Necklace, Bracelet, Keychain, probably even a bellybutton ring dangle if yourreally wanting one. Ive never offered jewelry before but Ive been known to make several pieces for friends and family. this would be a one of a kind piece and a reminder of Sweet Charity.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY bhanfhlaith

2006-02-19T03:07:13Z

Happy Birthday bhanfhlaithHappy Birthday bhanfhlaithHappy Birthday bhanfhlaithHappy Birthday bhanfhlaith

SMOOCH darling, Wishing you the best of days
and just because I know you like history and stuff, heres some things that happen on your birthday :)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/February_19

pimp pimp pimpity pimp (for a good cause)

2006-02-16T01:56:57Z

This is a charity auction, selling the (mad) skills of Charity Hos for cold hard donations. You can buy, okay rent, the talents of vidders,writers and artists and they will create goodies just for you, to your specs.
all proceeds from this goes to a very very good cause..http://www.rainn.org/

go..if your an artist sell youself..if not, buy one of us :)

Birthday WP for mona1347

2006-02-02T01:10:03Z

I hope this is what you had in mind hunny and I hope you enjoy :)
We're on a Highway to Hell... (seemed befitting dontcha think?)

full sized image here

BSA Straberries!

2005-12-15T16:28:01Z

Announcing the 2005 BSA Strawberries: Firefly Fanfic and Fanvid Awards

Click on the picture to get to the BSA Strawberry Website. The website lists the nomination window dates, the guidelines for nominating fanfic and fanvids (which differ so check them out), and also has the nomination form (to be emailed to the address listed).

Any questions, feel free email bsastrawberries at yahoo dot com

New Video!

2005-11-13T03:28:35Z

Well its not the much anticipated Jayne vid, but it is firefly :)
(will finish the Jayne vid someday I swear, I just need neroli on more so I can get when all the sexxy Jayne moments happen)

Name: Ghost of You
Subject: Mal/Inara
Music: My Chemical Romance's Ghost of You
size: alittle over 5mbs.
Comment: was wanting to make a video to this song and the more I listen to it the more it reminded me of Mal and Inara.
Lyrics:

I never, said I'd lie and wait forever
If I did we'd be together now
I can't always just forget her
But she could try

Well,At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever...

Ever...
Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies!

Well,At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fall…
If I fall…
(Down)

Wooaawoahoa...

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna..

Download Mal and Inara- Ghost of You video
PS: your welcome to share this with others if you want and stuff.

When there's no more room in hell, the dead will walk the earth

2005-10-30T13:50:13Z

Halloween Meme
(gakked from something I got in my email this morning.. but, Im bored so, here you go)

Reply to this entry and tell me your favorite scary movie, then paste this into your journal and let your friend's do the same.

10 years meme -- tagged by jebbypal

2005-08-26T18:43:01Z

1. Ten years ago: 1995 Jeesus that seems like ages.... "J" was becoming a seriously abusive jerk. 2 kids, trying to go to college and deal with "J".. Crap. him and I were married Nov. 5th, 1995 too while I think about it. Uggh.. can I strike 1995 off the calendar?

2. Five years ago: Pregnant with Arcadia. Working, trying to still decide what I was going to do with my life. In love with e_tsarran and he was the light of my life. without him I dont think I'd have made it through this particular year, alot was going on..

3. One year ago: was just learning how severe Kat's marfan's would effect her. Was also realizing someone who'd I thought was my best friend was truly a lying psychotic bitch and I'd given up on someone who'd always been a friend but was too blind to see if because of "K".. would take me almost another year to do something about it though.

4. Yesterday: Died. Well feels like it. woke up at ass crack of dawn to go to the wellness center and do my fitness checkup. Found out Im much healthier then I was 6 months ago. so, bonus

5. Today: woke up at the ass crack of dawn.. AGAIN (I was so hoping to get to sleep in the end of this week for the last time. waaa) went to do my drug test (passed) and such for work. All is set and Monday's my first day of REAL Employment after 5 yrs.

6. Tomorrow: Scrubs shopping, swimming and watching Hurricane Katrina (ooh the irony) make a mess.

7. Five snacks I enjoy: Fresh strawberries with creamcheese, Cantalope, Watermelon, anything with Caramel, and anything chocolate.

8. Five bands (or artists) I know the lyrics of most of their songs: uhh.. no idea.

9. Five things I would do with $100,000,000: buy a big ass farm and make sure my kids got set up for college, spoil them. Alot.

10. Five locations I'd like to run away to: New Zealand (to see Tryn) Ireland, Scotland, Romania, Greece.

11. Five bad habits: Procrastinating (stolen from Jebby), self doubt about my "talents", OCD obsessions, biting my nails and clicking my tongue ring on my teeth.

12. Five things I like doing: Reading, writing, Talking to "The Girls" on yahoo, RPing in 11th, playing with the kiddies..

13. Five TV shows I like: Firefly, LOST, Farscape, Supernatural (damn you Jebby Im addicted!!) and Buffy/Angel

14. Famous People I'd like to meet, living or dead: Joss Whedon, Sean Maher, Josh Holloway, Issac Newton, Vlad Tepest.... tom cruise only if I can tell him to shut the fuck up.

15. Biggest joys at the moment: Work! yay! and my friends.

17. Five people to tag: fleshlycherrybhanfhlaithbluewillow29mugshot214 and peekz

Farscape WP- Having a bad day

2005-08-11T00:54:09Z

Dedicated to mona1347 I hope this cheers you up some
*hugs*

Full sized image here