Living Loz

Dear Livejournal...

lozenger8 — Thu, 05 Nov 2015 09:59:09 GMT

I am still alive.

1. I'm still walking a lot. Still trying to teach myself how to run. I recently participated in the Zombies, Run virtual race. It was awesome.

2. I'm hoping to lure Life on Mars fans back to lifein1973 for the 10th year anniversary of the first series airing, January next year.

3. I am going to become an aunt early next year AND I am planning on going back to England for a holiday. I have the money, I'm about to get the passport, and I have the will.

Song lyric title, or witty pun?..

lozenger8 — Wed, 23 Jul 2014 09:09:04 GMT

Things I have done in June and July:

1. Most of the time I have followed my self-prescribed routine, although lately sleep has been difficult again. I'm back at school after a leisurely 2 week break, so it's probably stress keeping me awake. As soon as I settle back into school and work on some behaviour management stuff with my students, exhaustion will take over.

2. I've been trying for a year and a half to kick my coke zero habit, so, I may only have one can a day. This works until the weekend, at which point I'm a flake.

3. In attempting to stop drinking soft drink, I have bought a metric butt-tonne of tea! A specialist order came today with such tea titles as: terrific toffee (which I just had a cup of, and which was delicious), Adelaide breakfast, orange zing and morning red. I already have my favourite english breakfast and a few fruit tisanes.

4. Cauliflower crust pizza. That's the entire dotpoint. Cauliflower crust pizza. Pizza on a crust of cauliflower! When I finally discover how to stop it sticking at all as opposed to half the time, I'll be ecstatic.

5. I wrote a fic and completely changed the ending from that which I had originally intended, because I couldn't do it to the characters or the readers. I couldn't do it at all. I felt physically ill and headachey at the idea of ending it the way I thought I would. I think I've become a soft touch. I almost can't believe I ever wrote Palimpsest, Keep Me Hanging On or Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometimes. I can't end on tragedy, ambiguity or bittersweetness anymore, it seems. I'm trying to decide if this is a good or bad thing.

I am a werewolf...

lozenger8 — Sat, 03 May 2014 01:30:45 GMT

This post is all about menstruation.

I bought my first menstrual cup at the end of last year. I'd been interested in doing so for ages, but just hadn't got around to it. At first I found it very tricky to place, so it wasn't a comfortable experience. Sometimes, I still get it wrong, and it can be downright disastrous. I have also discovered that on my bloodiest day I have an exceedingly heavy flow in counterpoint to its dimensions (and yes, I purchased the one for heavy flow, as I predicted I did.) When I'm teaching I can't just jet off to the restroom whenever I wish, so it can be annoying. I have washable/reuseable pantyliners, though, and they're amazing.

I also purchased some washable/reusable night-time/regular pads. I love them. They're so pretty and comfortable. I never realised it was actually the chemicals in disposable pads that made that smell I've always associated with my period. Of course, it's extra work, soaking and cleaning before they can go in the washing machine. You need to have enough so that you can be without one while washing. Plus, the initial cost seems exorbitant. But then you remember how much you might spend on tampons and pads per month and in the end you've saved hundreds of dollars.

I don't think I could have done this in my early twenties, due to 'urgh, body' issues, but I wish I had. It's been a positive experience.

Ow ow ow ow ow...

lozenger8 — Wed, 23 Apr 2014 12:26:07 GMT

My older brother bought a place of his own, so for the first time in a year I have my house all to myself again. It is awesome. \o/

My parents and I helped him move yesterday and today I am in so much pain, it's incredible. I feel like I've been placed through a meat grinder. I also really, really want to drink some coke zero. I've been trying hard to quit soft drink, but damn, my body keeps telling me I shouldn't. I don't like the taste of coffee and my body wants caffeine.

A small drop in an ocean...

lozenger8 — Sun, 13 Apr 2014 06:49:28 GMT

In one of the rambling conversations we managed to have last week, Lovely M recommended that I listen to the first episode of Wil Anderson's podcast Wilosophy. I absolutely love the Gruen shows Anderson hosts and I went to see him live at the Adelaide Fringe, but I have listened to parts of Anderson's other podcast TOFOP, and didn't really find it something I wanted to put any effort into listening to again. This episode of Wilosophy with Todd Sampson was really interesting, however, so I'm glad I followed Lovely M's advice.

(I recommended Warhorses of Letters to M. I immediately regretted it, although he must surely know I have an odd sense of humour by now. I have offered to murder for him multiple times in the last couple of years.)

One thing that Wil Anderson and Todd Sampson talked about was this idea of everyone having 5 or 10 people who have influenced them so strongly that their lives will never be the same again. Todd called them 'nodes'. These might not even be people they know, but their impact has been indelible. Todd initially talked about it as being a positive experience, but Wil then pointed out that sometimes it can be a negative one. So it got me thinking --- who would be those people for me? Will I ever be that person for someone else? Have I already been that person and don't know it? As a teacher, aren't I automatically in a place where I have the potential to influence, inspire and connect people to possibilities they may never have thought of before? I've always thought of myself as ultimately inconsequential and insignificant, but I feel like some of the people who are my nodes could have thought of themselves as ultimately inconsequential and insignificant too, which is a fascinating thought --- just what unknown impact will I have?

Things in the life of Loz...

lozenger8 — Fri, 11 Apr 2014 14:42:31 GMT

1. I have started my new T-shirt collection. It is aces. And 17 t-shirts strong already. I'm very proud of myself. I actually rebought three of the tees I had before, because I love them so much.

2. I've been expanding my musical repertoire, thanks in part to walking and needing to have a wider array of things to listen to. I'm really in love with Stromae, Mø, Sivu, Autoheart, and a near-monthly compilation of indie rock songs that frequently delivers tracks that are awesome to walk and drive to. But I'll always come back to this song. (This version is possibly my most favourite. Yeah. I mean, I miss Steven's voice in it, because his is one of my favourite ever voices, but the simplicity and yet beauty of this gets me. Plus, it's Bruce. Bruce is the best.)

3. I am on Easter holidays for two weeks. I really enjoy my new class most of the time and I don't have major behaviour issues with them at all, but boy did we all need this break.

4. I bought myself a slow cooker and it is wonderful. The smell of a delicious dinner awaiting me when I get home from work is joy making. I've still been making different cakes/sweet things each month. This month was jam doughnuts. The first go was an unmitigated disaster, but I wasn't going to let myself be defeated, so I went for another recipe, and gosh, the next batch turned out perfectly.

5. Under the cut you'll find discussion of weight loss, body image issues, me rolling my eyes about fatphobia, and some reflection.
The reason for my new t-shirt collection is that I well and truly had to stop wearing my other tees when two fellow staff members basically told me to. I was going to try and wear them until the end of time, regardless of the fact they now all look rather tent-like on me. The thing is, they were all XXL, because that used to be comfortable. And now I fit into a medium. Um. \o/?

Once again, importantly, I sang and danced 4 songs with my students today and only got a little breathless. I was dancing and doing very uncoordinated aerobics in my bedroom earlier and I was not only enjoying it, but I lasted 35 minutes. This time last year I probably would have done 10 minutes worth and then felt crappy. The human body is an amazing machine, sometimes. With a little bit of training it can change quite a bit. Which brings me to:

It manages to continue to astound me how frequently and verbosely others feel the need to comment on my body. You'd think I'd be used to it by now, and part of me is of course, but I was particularly taken aback by a lady I've literally never spoken to before, and whose name I don't know, talking with my current student teacher about my weight loss yesterday. First, she asked me how much weight I'd lost. (I lied and said 30 kg [66 pounds] when the truth is 40 kg [which apparently is 88 pounds, huh.] I still don't know why I did that.) When my student teacher said I didn't look like I'd lost a lot of weight because I have quite a thin face (???), this other lady said, "she was big". Yup, with emphasis. What the fuck? Like, I get it, I was bigger before, but saying that is the opposite of tactful isn't it? I was sitting there, staring. My other favourite exchange was when a parent of a student I don't teach/have never taught came up to me and said, "you look different, have you lost a tonne of weight by any chance?" Um, no. I just changed my aspect ratio.

I know I have to shut the hell up about this, (I wrote about it a month ago on my tumblr too), because I am such a cracked record, but it's annoying and displays a pervasive and frankly worryingly virulent fatphobia amongst my work colleagues/others that I honestly hadn't realized existed. I knew that a metric fucktonne of people buy into anti-fat propaganda, but I hadn't truly figured that this then meant they were so judgemental of others. I tend not to be. I was joyfully ignorant in how all of these people must have been viewing me for my first year of teaching at the school. Like, yeah, I'm probably being a huge hypocrite, as I am deliberately attempting to lose weight, but seriously, being fat, having fat, is not so fucking terrible. And I fail to see how it's relevant to anyone other than the person whose body happens to be or have fat, y'know?

On the whole I am only slightly happier now than I was before and any more happiness I derive generally is because of tricking my body into releasing certain hormones. I also sometimes have to pull myself back from slipping into some really unhealthy thought processes --- partly inspired by the relentless fucking comments. I haven't gone a week at work without someone saying something since January. This is not hyperbole. (Lovely M still hasn't said anything and I am still in love with him. Not just because of this, though. It is also still a hopeless love. Ha. Hahahaha.)

I guess my point here is that I was brilliant before, I continue to be brilliant. It's really sad to me that people are only recognizing my brilliance now. Perhaps I project more confidence, but way more people start talking to me now than ever did before. I --- rationally I know I should block it all out, or take these things as compliments, but I am not always a rational person.

Urgh, other people.

2014 isn't much different from 2013 for me...

lozenger8 — Tue, 25 Feb 2014 10:12:09 GMT

Nothing in particular has been happening in my life this year. Still walking, still watching.

Too cool for school...

lozenger8 — Thu, 23 Jan 2014 20:57:24 GMT

I'm back at school! Things aren't the smoothest they could be. We've had a major technological meltdown which is causing several of my colleagues troubles and strife. I feel wholly unprepared for a new lot of little monsters. But! It should be an interesting and rewarding year.

And I do my little turn on the catwalk...

lozenger8 — Wed, 08 Jan 2014 01:32:14 GMT

Some of you may remember that I won a competition through ASOS. The dress I won arrived today, so naturally I had to pose.

A Phenomenon When You Came Along

lozenger8 — Tue, 07 Jan 2014 10:50:09 GMT

I don't think I remembered to post this here.

Title: A Phenomenon When You Came Along
Fandom: Teen Wolf
Word Count: 17,366 words.
Rating: Explicit
Pairing/Notes: Scott/Stiles. I named this after a line from the Katy Perry song ‘Double Rainbow’. I continue to have no regrets. Thank you to my dearest snoopypez, who was a sounding board, an Ameri-picker, and a generally awesome cheerleader and beta.
Tags: Road Trips, Disney World & Disneyland, Friends to Lovers, Sharing a Bed, Growing Up, Fluff, Panic Attacks, References, Loss of Virginity, POV Stiles
Summary: Stiles and Scott embark on a road trip together. This isn't a metaphor (except for how it is.)
“It’s okay, I’m good.”

“Yeah, you’re the best,” Scott replies automatically.

It’s one of their stock phrases, something they’ve said since childhood --- as natural to them as their ability to communicate through eyebrow-raises, their super-secret handshake and their unending loyalty to one another, but Stiles thought they’d retired it when they were fifteen, so he glances at Scott quickly.

“Sometimes I think we’ve forgotten how to be us and then you say something, or look at me a certain way, and it all comes back.”

A Phenomenon When You Came Along

Ahh, show...

lozenger8 — Tue, 07 Jan 2014 06:51:37 GMT

Teen Wolf 3.13 Liveblog

This opening is super effective.

I love Scott's and Stiles' clothes. The fact that they match makes it sweeter.

Oh my God. I was completely faked out. :D :D :D (Just want to point out that Stiles dreams about Scott, and he and Scott in matching shirts, la la la la la la.)

Scott actually throwing Isaac makes basically no sense to me. I am going to dismiss it as Alpha shenanigans.

I love Melissa.

Aww, Kira's dad continuing the Teen Wolf parent tradition of being a bit of a dick :D

o_O

I am starting to ship Allison/Lydia harder.

I REALLY HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THIS BEING USED AS HUMOUR. Isaac used to get habitually beaten up by his Dad. Throwing him into a wall isn't cool. I don't believe Scott would do it, sorry, but I don't.

SO THEN THEY DO BRING ISAAC'S DAD UP? AND ... i JUST...

(Meanwhile, I like Isaac and Stiles together. I want them to have more interaction.)

It's SCOTT who knows the solution to the riddle.

I love that Stiles is starting to decode Deaton's expressions.

I'm enjoying all of these Scott & Stiles scenes.

I am appreciating the little moments of humour, too. (Though not the one where Isaac gets flung through the air.)

Stiles definitely looks taller than Scott in this scene. No, I don't know why this is important to me either.

I LOVE YOU, SCOTT. You tell Douchebag McCall where to go.

I KIND OF LOVE THIS BIT. UM.

Dylan is such a master of physical comedy, oh my gosh. That was so well stumbled.

Poor Derek. :(

Overall: I liked it! I think the parents won the episode for me, with Melissa being amazing and the Sheriff being sympathetic. I think it did a pretty good job of balancing exposition with action. I especially liked that Scott and Stiles and Lydia and Allison spent so much time together. I didn't like the Scott and Isaac interaction much at all.

Happy 2014 <33

lozenger8 — Wed, 01 Jan 2014 14:14:16 GMT

I hope everyone had a safe and lovely New Year celebration.

Yuletide!

lozenger8 — Wed, 25 Dec 2013 11:59:18 GMT

\o/ Look what I got for Yuletide.

Going On - Sleepy Hollow gen fic about the Mills sisters. It is perfection.

Wonderful voices, fantastic lyrical description, storytelling that makes you never want to stop reading. And oh, OH, the relationship between Abbie and Jenny is all I could ever have asked for.

Thank you, Yuletide author. You are amazing.

\o/

lozenger8 — Mon, 09 Dec 2013 07:46:43 GMT

I won a competition! I've basically never won anything before, so you can imagine my surprise when I was told. I won this dress, which makes me so happy. Other skater style dresses suit me really well and I've wanted something lacy and feminine for a while. For reasons.

I also bought myself a coat for next winter, and with a birthday coupon bought two skirts and a pair of tights. My wardrobe is so aces now. I really need to start a new t-shirt collection next year, though.

I have decided to give HarvestBox a go because I don't have enough nuts in my diet and I am super lazy. They're similar to Graze, only don't appear to have the same range. Yet. I'm hoping yet. I'd go wild for some of the Graze options.

I've bought most of my Christmas presents already and I'm going to put up my tree this week. \o/ I'm in my final week of school for the year. Next January I will have an all new class. I'm a little sad, because I could happily keep 7/8ths of my current class for another year. I have some lovely personalities in this little bunch.

And, finally, I've been pulling a prank on my kids about us growing candy canes*. I think, from tomorrow, they're not going to believe it. But they did at first, which made me laugh and laugh and laugh. I told them that it wasn't really about growing so much as sugar crystallising and bonding together, and oh, the poor munchkins, they fell for it hook-line-and-sinker. It's been a brilliant morale boost for a stressful end of term (for me, though they've enjoyed it too; we wrote a scientific report, we've recorded our results, they check them every session!)

We started off putting a pink and a white tictac in drinking chocolate and adding some green food dye (as all the candy canes I had acquired were pink, white and green.) Then, that night, I added some crushed candy cane. Another night, more crushed candy cane. And then the next night, a little piece! Then, there was the weekend and they didn't grow, because they were 'out of the sun' (i.e: Loz had to sign off on reports and didn't have time to make the switcheroo.) So tonight; bwweeeehehehe. One final stage: the tall candy canes. JOY.

(*Prank not of my devising, though I have modified it a little.)

This show...

lozenger8 — Wed, 20 Nov 2013 12:49:09 GMT

THE FUCKING HELL PERSON OF INTEREST? THE FUCKING HELL.

I CANNOT EVEN. CANNOT. NOT. CAN. NOT.

Food, glorious food...

lozenger8 — Sun, 03 Nov 2013 09:33:35 GMT

Does anyone know why I've been especially hungry this week and just wanted to eat all the things? I survived Winter okay, but I've constantly found myself craving sweetness this week (and indulged, because I don't so much have an iron will as an aluminium one.)

\o/

lozenger8 — Sat, 19 Oct 2013 11:55:50 GMT

Today I went for a walk along the river, ate one of the best salads in my repertoire, and spent the evening baking buttermilk donuts and buttermilk scones. Today was a good day.

In which Loz shamelessly begs for money - for charity!

lozenger8 — Tue, 15 Oct 2013 09:14:35 GMT

Hi!

So, if you follow me on twitter or tumblr, you'll have seen this already, but, I'm doing a charity walk on November 3rd to raise money for research into pancreatic cancer and I'd adore you forever and ever if you could donate something to the cause. No amount is too small. Thank you!

Yuletide Letter 2013

lozenger8 — Tue, 08 Oct 2013 14:00:55 GMT

Dear Yuletide Author,

Thank you! Before you even start, thanks so much for writing for me. I know how difficult this can sometimes be. I also know how fun this can be, and that's what I want you to concentrate on, the fun part. I'm sure you're going to do an absolutely wonderful job. I'm going to copy and paste what I signed up with shortly, but I don't want you to feel hemmed in or constrained by what I say. If you have a story idea I haven't mentioned in the slightest, go for it.

Things I enjoy in general are: happy endings, humour, banter, friendship, estranged people coming together, friends to lovers and ensemble pieces. Style-wise, I like meta, out-of-chronology fic, epistolary fic and conventional fic. Themes I adore are: fish out of water, self-growth, issues surrounding identity, time-travel, people working together. Themes I dislike are: infidelity, loss of control, self-hatred that remains to the end of the story. Kink-wise, I'm mostly quite vanilla. I like non-penetrative sex as well as penetrative, and rimming is a kink I love. I go heart-eyed for hand-holding, sweeping hair away from faces, kissing necks, rubbing shoulders --- all of that sensual but not necessarily sexual contact. Kinks I don't like are: watersports, scat, incest, food-kink and underage.

But now, onto the fandom specifics. I haven't changed anything from my initial sign-up.

Parks and Recreation
I have so many different things I would be thrilled to bits with. Gen, het, femslash, slash: it's all golden. Close to canon, Alternative Reality or Alternative Universe would please me.

I have especial love for many different relationships, including: Leslie/Ben, Leslie/Ann, April/Ann, Chris/Ben, April/Andy, Andy/Ben, Ann/Chris, Ron/Diane, Tom/Donna, Ron/Leslie.

I don't hate Jerry, I just don't ship him with anyone either.

I'm not hugely into threesomes or moresomes, but if you have an idea you want to run with, go for it, I'm not drastically opposed to them either.

I would love a story surrounding a relationship, or 'a day in the life of' for any of the characters, or an episode-style problem to be overcome for a character of your choice, or even a 'History of Pawnee'. Sex is fine, but not necessary. Squicks I have are watersports, scat, incest, food-kink and underage, so please avoid those kinks.

What I love about the show is how so little of the humour is mean. I love the character dynamics and the sense of optimism. If you include any of that, I will be ecstatic.

Go On
One of the things that I adored about Go On was the ensemble aspect, so anything that includes that will have me grinning from ear to ear. My favourite characters are Owen and Anne, with very close runners up in Fausta and Steven. I have a big place in my heart for Ryan and Ryan/Janie.

I'm happy with gen, het, femslash, slash, but not hugely into threesomes or moresomes, but if you get an idea involving a threesome or a moresome, I won't stop you, because I don't hate them either.

Ideally, I'd like something similar to an episode of the show.

Jonathan Creek
I can't help it, I really want Jonathan and Maddy to be reunited. But if you feel like writing a story set before Maddy left, that's aces too. I'd be happy with a murder mystery or a relationship story, or Plot What Plot, or something that combines them all. I don't mind if it's romantic or platonic.

Style-wise, I like out of chronology stories, or stories that are meta and have a present or unreliable narrator. An epistolary fic would be cool!

Eternal Law
I'm happy with gen, het, slash, femslash

I would adore Zak/Tom. As far as I'm aware, I'm the only person who actually actively shipped them, but oh they made my heart sing. I do also love Zak/Richard, Zak/Hannah, Richard/Hannah, Hannah/Mrs Sheringham though.

This is one of the rare fandoms when I wouldn't be opposed to a threesome, specifically Zak/Tom/Mrs Sheringham or Zak/Richard/Hannah.

I'd love an ensemble piece, or a story from Tom's perspective about adjusting to life on earth, or something Zak-centric, or Richard-centric, or Hannah-centric. I'd go gleefully wide-eyed about something post-apocalyptic as long as it had a hopeful/optimistic ending. I'd be happy with a character fic, or Plot What Plot, or oodles of plot.

Sleepy Hollow
I'd prefer gen for Sleepy Hollow, please. I'd like a fic that goes into Ichabod adjusting to life in modern day America. How does he cope with technology? What does he love, what does he hate? I adore his friendship with Abbie, so anything that utilises their dynamic will make me happy. A story about Abbie and Jennifer growing to trust one another again would also fill me with glee.

Hahaha, I should so be asleep...

lozenger8 — Sun, 06 Oct 2013 14:55:47 GMT

I REALLY LIKE THAT I CAN STILL GET INCANDESCENT WITH RAGE OVER LIFE ON MARS, AND SPECIFICALLY, SAM/GENE. \o/

(No, really, I actually do.)

Podfic! Of my fic!

lozenger8 — Thu, 12 Sep 2013 12:56:49 GMT

Oh! Oh! talkingtothesky has recorded 'time was running wild' (the second part of the Changes series) as a podfic. You can listen here. Tell her how awesome she is <33333

You're free, born you're free, born you're free...

lozenger8 — Sun, 08 Sep 2013 08:49:12 GMT

I went to see The Cat Empire live on Friday and it was incredible, the band was incredible. I danced my arse off, until my hair was soaked, my shirt was sticking in places, and my feet felt like they wanted to fall off. I discovered afterwards that I'd smeared mascara all over my face. They are always so high energy, with wonderful and expertly played music and truly great singing. I love their albums, but they really are better live. It was so cool seeing the Adelaide crowd go off (they are the worst concert/comedy-goers in the world and usually show the charisma of a stunned mullet. Only time I've seen them go crazy is for The Cat Empire and my second time seeing Bill Bailey, when he did a sing-a-long.)

And, wow, oh wow, Wild Animals is fucking aces live. Harry does this thing at the end that's stunning and really shows off how his voice has grown. I may have posted this before, but here's an example. He didn't sing my other two favourites (Boogaloo and The Car Song), but that's okay, because every other song was the best to dance to. And I have to mention Felix, who was also out of this world. He actually sings better live than he ever does in recording and his percussion is phenomenal.

Plus, PLUS, the support act, Tinpan Orange were really fucking good, even though the crowd talked through their entire set. They do a cover of the theme to 'Round the Twist' (which means little to the non-Australians here, but is amaaaazing.)

\o/

Also listening to a lot of Indie rock and hopelessly pining over a co-worker...

lozenger8 — Sun, 25 Aug 2013 03:11:32 GMT

My friends list has been having a bit of a resurgence lately and it's been so beautiful. <3_<3

As for me, I am still having an enjoyable time with exercise and trying new foods. I've discovered I like fennel (which I didn't expect, because I hate licorice) and kale a lot. I need to try tofu in a few other ways before I can decide whether I like it or not.

Anyone else tried any foods/meals they hadn't eaten before recently?

Teeeenie Wolves...

lozenger8 — Tue, 06 Aug 2013 09:26:09 GMT

Wait... Stiles knows? About Kate? He knows and he isn't more sympathetic towards Derek?

... my mind is kind of blown on this. I don't know how to parse it.

(Also, I really like the cinematography/direction in this episode. Some nice camera angles and lighting going on.)

(Also, also; Melissa is a BAMF. The McCalls win all.)

(Plus Posey is such a good actor now. So good.)

(And I actually really liked that episode. It felt like it had a good balance of everything.)

Teen Wolf Liveblog...

lozenger8 — Tue, 23 Jul 2013 09:30:16 GMT

LITTLE DEREK IS INSUFFERABLE. Ian Nelson's a pretty good actor, and he looks like young Hoechlin, eye-colour aside. But, yeah, this dude's a pain.

I am finding that they're really drowning scenes out with music these days.

I'm kind of sad that she didn't just say 'Jennifer'. But! She might still be her, so. We'll see.

Stiles is great in this episode. (Stiles is great in every episode.)

... this makes no sense. What? Whaaat?

Young Deucalion was so lovely. Ugh.

This is really discomforting. This is way more discomforting than when the 20-somethings pretending to be teenagers do sexy stuff.

Young Peter, while he looks way too young, is actually perfect beyond that. Unreliable narration! Interesting that Peter was always relatively sociopathic and incredibly manipulative.

Right! So he was fifteen.

Gerard is the actual worst.

I really like the use of unreliable narration in this episode.

HOW THE HELL IS THIS SHOW CALLED 'TEEN WOLF'? Jesus fuck. :( Deucalion, dude, I'm now kind of on your side regarding the whole revenge plot.

Scott, bb, you're the best. (And Posey is SO GOOD now. So good!)

I wish I liked Cora/Stiles more.

HAHAHA. I love that they just want to really drive the point home, but also highlight how smart Scott and Stiles are. My boys.

This was not what I wanted out of this episode. It was... I mean, it was fine, I guess. But it doesn't actually tell us much about Derek beyond that which we already know. They shouldn't have been going on and on about it as if it's amazing and truth revealing --- because it's same old, same old. (Why am I surprised? Why did I let myself get suckered into thinking it'd be better?) Derek's foolish enough to listen to Peter. He's short-sighted enough to make rash decisions, then try to back out of them when they start to go wrong. He blames himself when everything goes to shit, but still doesn't take full responsibility or attempt to mend his ways. How is any of this new?

(Did Derek not realise Ennis would go about it this way? We know Peter's lying, so how far does Derek's involvement run? It's creepy as fuck, it really is, but it is also typical Derek.)

And, actually, what's the time frame? Did Kate happen the next year? The year after that? What was he doing having another intense romance so quickly when he'd likely be scarred from this one? I just --- seriously? The sense, it makes none. And in terms of moving the plot forward? It doesn't. Even flashback episodes need to move us forward.

Blech.