The Subject Was Huang Po

We could have chosen any parking place, but the choice of course was out of our hands. In the golden light of a late Sunday afternoon, we turned off the motor and together faced the obvious fact: above, below, and all around us, everything is spontaneously existing, and there is nothing anywhere that is outside of mind.

As this recognition was settling in, we noticed that, caught on the branch of a young oak tree, a streaming length of multicolored scarf was billowing out to share with us its secret of how to ride the wind. We immediately exclaimed together: “See!” Then we got out of the car and set the scarf free. It danced through the air across the parking lot and into the vastness of the oncoming night. May all beings be released from whatever hooks have snagged them!

Earlier, a paper airplane had been tossed from an open office window somewhere in downtown Manhattan. It sailed across the Hudson, soared swiftly over New Jersey, curved around the beltway of Washington D.C., cruised down the Mississippi, lifted higher on the air currents across the open prairie, then over the Colorado Rockies, circled Mt. Shasta, then breezed through a window in Paradise, while we were out and away for the day, admiring the sky and its clouds at play. Returning home we found it waiting for us on the living room floor. Curious, we opened it and read what turned out to be a verse from Ghalib:

“All that can be seen is nothing but a dream;
and even when we think ourselves awake,
we have only wakened in a dream.”

It seemed obvious enough, as Venus arrived to waltz with the new moon in its promenade through the oaks, firs, and pines. Nevertheless, by now we had heard enough about dreams, illusions, and fictional stories, and what difference does any of it really make — here we are, and we like it this way. Watched over by the Gracious Ones, generous in their blessings, we stand together holding hands in mudras of pure wonder.

Knowing that we exist without the slightest doubt or hesitation is our own perfect bliss. Likewise, realizing directly that we actually don’t is none other than our own perfect bliss. Hence, this way can be neither fabricated nor experienced, rendering it an excellent case in point of unspeakably perfect bliss. To clarify: the one who is here to break our hearts has brushed its lips upon our souls, and what remains is not a thing, not even a fading shadow blazed long ago on a crumbling wall.

For a current example, we like the way the light of day slips itself into the welcoming body of night with the confidence of someone who’s done it before. The bird songs are the most haunting then, and even the breezes slow to a stop, as the crack between two worlds opens up, and hosts of invisible beings ascend and descend, chanting their mantric hymns in a unison of celestial praise and angelic celebration.

There are times when love’s mounting flames leap higher into heaven, when the night spins off its dharma wheels in waves of joy ecstatic from the basement to the attic. At other times, let the record show, it may come as no special revelation — it’s just a matter of being reminded, and so the subject tonight was a word from Huang Po:

“To the great majority of people, the moon is the moon and the trees are the trees. The next stage (not really higher than the first) is to perceive that moon and trees are not at all what they seem to be, since all is the One Mind. When this stage is achieved, we have the concept of a vast uniformity in which all distinctions are void; and, to some adepts, this concept may come as an actual perception, as ‘real’ to them as the moon and the trees before. It is said that, when enlightenment really comes, the moon is again very much the moon and the trees exactly trees; but with a difference, for the enlightened are capable of perceiving both unity and multiplicity without the least contradiction between them.

 The Mind is no mind of conceptual thought, and it is completely detached from form. There are those who, upon hearing this teaching, rid themselves of conceptual thought in a flash. But whether they transcend conceptual thought by a longer or shorter way, the result is a state of BEING: there is no practicing and no action of realizing. That there is nothing which can be attained is not idle talk; it is the truth.”

 So true indeed, we both agreed. No one has ever gone anywhere, nothing has ever happened. There is nothing to be gained, yielded to, or grasped, nor is our own particular snap, crackle, and pop of any more consequence than the migratory patterns of the now extinct great-beaked birds of the Mezazoic. Still, we can feel — we can feel their heart-throbbing songs even as they echo and resound through distant uncharted galaxies, illumined by the perfectly magical bliss of waltzing paper airplanes, streaming multicolored scarves, and love beyond imagining!



 

 


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The Third Body

“A man and a woman sit near each other, and they do not long at this moment to be older, or younger, nor born in any other nation, or time, or place. They are content to be where they are, talking or not-talking. Their breaths together feed someone whom we do not know. The man sees the way his fingers move; he sees her hands close around a book she hands to him. They obey a third body that they share in common. They have made a promise to love that body. Age may come, parting may come, death will come. A man and a woman sit near each other; as they breathe they feed someone we do not know, someone we know of, whom we have never seen.”
 
~ Robert Bly
 
When we first met again,
we couldn’t stop laughing.
 
It never ends, we never stop –
the stories we dream up
all turn out the same.
 
Nothing shall remain, and so
we laugh – there is no better option!
 
We say that we came a long way
to meet again, and yet we’ve
never truly been parted.
 
When this sinks in, I know
who you are, you know
what I am.
 
Together,
we have no idea, and so
sometimes we just have to laugh.
 
It’s not as if we’re strangers to ourselves —
we’re stranger than ourselves, born happy and free
just so we can freely be together, waking together
at the same moment in the middle of the night,
and both of us breaking out laughing . . .
 
Darling, you put your hand on my heart
and the tiny laughter in your fingers
brings laughing tears to my eyes,
these open eyes of a love that
leans to kiss itself into some
deeper laughter still.
 
This laughter is the third body
we’ve been feeding, but honestly, Love,
we never can say who’s feeding, nor
who is being fed, and so, just so —
we burst out laughing
all over again!
 
 
06/11/2003

 

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The Train

 
Ah, Beloved, Beautiful Heart —
shall we once more disembark,
far from the daze of hazy dreams,
wan emissaries of the Mystery Queen,
between our words on this flat screen
and mind imagined, sight unseen?
 
We tumble now through black hole cracks
where streetwise devas leave no tracks,
astride the waves of passion’s motion
overwhelming any notion, drifting
deeper in our ocean on the sails
of Heart devotion.
 
Who can fathom such emotion –
 
could it be, inherently, we’re free of all identity,
or is it all just more words, just another façade,
like the idiot play of an idiot god, and is there
a train and this is that train, and all the pain
and doubt is carried off in love’s elation –
will this be a cause for laughter?
 
Or is this our disaster — that the train
we prayed would finally come
has never left the station?
(2004)
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Wanderer

The Absolute dons a cloak of illusion to wander like a fascinated botanical tourist through the luscious garden of its own creation, redolent with the scents of life, death, pleasure, pain, and all the vivid richness that sentient beings crave and fear.

This world itself is a realm of imaginary playmates with no solid or enduring reality of their own, except for that which is bestowed on them in the mind of that wild wanderer — You, Beloved!

As You casually stroll along a shoreline called “Eternity”, lucidly dreaming out into the shimmering mirage of Yourself, the transparent forms of Your flowing creative energy weave and dance in a seamless choreography of ocean and wave, while You mindlessly drift through the luminous radiance of the mysterious Unknown.

In Your grand mood of sublime intoxication You stroll naked and delirious through self-lit star fields, gathering just the right amount of fragrant light to permeate jewel-like water worlds with the irresistible perfume of dawn.

Wordless in Your innocent wonder at the synchronicity of the vast totality of infinite manifestation swarming around You now like drunken mayflies in summer, You delight in the inexhaustible play of cause and effect, at visions of love at first sight, at rainbow worlds of wondrous lyricism innocently spun from the potent seed of Your own divine curiosity.

Although there are those reputed wise ones who will claim that You are formless nothingness, just as others assert that You are the basis of everything, all such conceptions are simply Your own humorous jests, compassionately spoofing the compounded charades of identity, while effortlessly transmuting the chill of chaos and doubt into the welcome warmth of genuine humility.

You immediately know what’s alive in the heart of all, since it is Your heart in which all arise and dissolve, already self-liberated beyond any thought or story in the same way that there is no actual birth or death, or even any paradox that can account for the perfection that outshines both existence and non-existence in one innocent smile.

A chorus of rapturous melodies emerges from that silence pregnant with Your Joy, a tonal architecture of mounting ecstasy expanding in all directions simultaneously, while You gaily dance in the exquisite mirror of Your own mind, casting ever-new reflections sourced from the inconceivable fullness of sky-like emptiness.

Every door is but another shining portal to You, and yet only You alone pass through them in Your dream of distance, time, and motion. In that same ineffable way, without anticipation or regret, hope or fear, desire or its lack, but with only the breathless spontaneity of a Starling flock’s sudden soaring murmuration, I bow down forever to You, the Light that lives me, the vibrant miracle of Love that breathes me.

Yes, Your Light is Love, and since what You are and what I am are not two, this unspeakable brilliance has no beginning or end, no before or after, no place or stage where it leaves off and something else somehow somewhere appears.

This Love which makes all dreams possible, all dreaming and even the end of dreaming too, will forever revel in Itself as the magical display of all there is, was, or ever shall be, and to that I say, with a happy Hallelujah Chorus leaping from my lips:

“Wanderer, walk on!”

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Emptiness Becoming Self-Aware

The miracle of this emptiness becoming Self-aware:
it cannot be forced by effort or strategy, which
only spawn a complementary resistance.

Rather, it is only by relaxing completely
into it in total trust and surrender, released
of all motive to control or modify the process
with mental constructs and vain self-definitions.

Now our breathing heart is open to receive
and transmit the effulgent living light, the light
before and after any word for it, any conception
or perception of it, so that by grace we spiral forward,
though no such location exists in the space/time matrix
of our dreaming, nor any need for movement, except
as prompted by the generosity of love Herself,
the perfect living heart of awareness.

Just so, we walk on, smiling, hand in hand,
our hearts softly beating as one — one heartbeat
filling the oceanic void with our easy child-like mirth
and wonder at the blessed appearance of anything at all!

8/21/25

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Three Scenes with Birds

(For Mazie)

Sometimes one day just seems to fade into the next until they can’t be told apart, they become a river bearing its contents swiftly to the sea, all just a single moving, flowing thing, but then on one early evening you are out walking with your dog, you are absently turning over the inconsequential thoughts in mind which begin to dissolve even as soon as they emerge, and maybe it is a warm soft breeze which you barely notice as it quietly slides around you in your state of semi-trance, until you suddenly look up and spot a gathering of Robins perched, silent, in the stripped tree top of a Maple at sunset, and they are glowing golden, impossibly, in the shine of the late day light, and you can’t look away, and even as the sky darkens, you are still standing motionless in place.

Then again, you are sipping on your first coffee while gazing out the window into your front yard when a large flock of pearl-grey doves descends from above on the fruiting Cherry tree and begins feeding greedily on the ripe fruit in a blurry frenzy of motion, the crimson juice smearing their beaks, staining their iridescent feathers red, and then suddenly they rise into the air as one immense being, fly off in a swirl into the vast blue void of a mountain morning sky, leaving not a single cherry behind.

And then there was the time the little Hermit Thrush collided into the front window, and you quickly ran out to see if he had survived, but he was lying on his back, his spindly little legs stuck straight up in the air, and you gently picked him up, you wrapped him in a soft towel to keep him warm, you let your own life flow out into the tiny creature, your love, and you set him down in a box, on a bed of bunched cloth, you waited as his soul flew out into the heavens and learned everything a bird could ever know, and then he returned at last, went straight up to a nearby perch in the tall pine, and there he was joined by a hummingbird, and they sat for a very long time, together, and then he flew away, but now he returns again and again — you named him.

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To Infinity

You showed me a dog-eared book from your college
days, an anthology of poetry which you somehow
kept throughout all your moves because you loved it.

When I opened the pages, I saw where you had used
a yellow marker to highlight certain lines and passages,
and tears sprung to my eyes — God am I lost in you!

Time fell away, and I was sitting inside you, looking
out through your young eyes as you let the words
reach out and touch you, just as I love to touch you.

We are so many parts of other parts, all circling around
the great pillar of brilliant light that makes everything
so dear, so perfect in its own moment, so clear.

I don’t know how this happens, that we are brought
together in a scene so brimming with this wild ecstasy
that I can barely breathe when you take my hand in yours.

And sometimes, in moments like these, I imagine
that if I loved you any stronger I would dissolve this
form and shine forever as the light around your body.

Our kind of radiance would be like the struck tone
of a great bell rung through pristine emptiness —
it would ripple out, ripple out, feeling to infinity.

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Touch

From the silent depths of the fathomless void,
love calls out to itself, and love answers
in these shining forms of you and I.
 
Without fear or hesitation
we wander into the innermost chorus
of this love call, answering with our whole being,
and lose ourselves so completely in such communion
that our twining presence becomes a beacon to all hearts.
 
The pure radiance of this bliss-permeated transformation
is the gracious boon of an exquisite remembrance
transmitted in our every touch, the joyous way
we weave the Love we are into the robes
we wear at our homecoming in light.
 
It is the clarity of touch itself,
a touch without subject or object,
but only this touching, touching.
 
This is for everyone — whether in mind,
body, heart, or soul — every being
feels this intimate touch.
 
Everybody is this touching, the perfect satisfaction
of the Heart’s outstretched hand, caressing itself
from the pure silence of its primordial source
into Life, Gratitude, Godhood, Yes.
 
And now, spiraling out to us in a primal urge
to feel its own pulse, to circle its own zero
and know itself as the touch that grants
the galaxies light, this Love, irresistible,
lifts and shifts us fearlessly into each other
like lyrically blending echoes, vanishing
in a singing transparency of air.
 
What yet remains transmits
the exquisite yes-ness of our union
through the gentle touch of a loving hand,
the ancient mudra of happiness itself, clearlight
radiating in every direction and filling our hearts
with the mysterious power of euphoric dissolution –
 
beyond anything with name or form,
beyond these transient memories of two,
beyond any known or wished for thing,
beyond even the softest a whisper,
or even, at last, a touch . . .
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Traveling Light

During the deep forest night as we soundly slept
our house embarked on a journey through space

we knew when we woke that something had changed
when we looked out the window and Saturn flew by

it was just like the pictures but enormously bigger
we checked out the kitchen, the fridge was still running

we decided on bagels, cream cheese and lox
brewed up some coffee, it was out of this world

we enjoyed the peace deep space can provide
our canary was singing, Easter was near

Mazie baked beer bread while I scrolled
through the memes, inspiration was overflowing
as we grazed by Neptune in that part of the dream

we stood by the window, enjoying the scene
our old dog was napping, dreaming of dinner

at this stage of his life he is focused on food
perhaps were not so different in that way

tonight as we leave the solar system behind
we’ll fry up some chicken and down a fine wine

 

Picture by Joanna Abra

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Trees Are Praising

1.
 
All across these mountain ranges, streaking madly
from a whirling vortex of sky and sea, great winds
blow up and everything breaks into ecstatic praise —
all flying things, flimsy leafy fronds, tall falling firs,
torn flags pointing the way for two willing children
gazing ever skyward from their bedroom window,
a rising sensation in their heart, an astonishment
that there is anything at all, that they are present,
sharing in such wonder, not even any word for it.
 
To hear their heart they become that heart,
it is blowing up, and everything is so lost
in some ecstatic praise that they realize
there is no other way, then they laugh
and utterly lose themselves in this.
 
The whole world loses itself
forever in that embrace.
 
This is what the real God
wanted — only this.
 
Amidst the windy reckoning
every tree is praising too.
 
 
2.
 
 
A given gift, gladdened glance,
a splendid view across the vale:
misty-mellow moonshine mantras
sweep the valley down to sandy shore,
the wide-open door to our bright core
of breathless awe and symmetry sweet,
where winds will wander, will-less,
through a prayerbook window, praising,
as two children, cuddle-clutched together,
in the effortless embrace of a never-more night,
await the dawn, and then the dying into it, ecstatically –
the sung-out sounds within their ears such simple songs
of perfect praise the breezes sing; yes, trees are praising too.
 
 
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