Slightly Out of Tune

The dusk sky does not complain when the evening stars come out, nor is the silence which prevails between the realms of day and night an indication of some absence.

Ours is not a light that briefly shines, only to inevitably be extinguished. In this wide world, which is a trickster’s shifting stage, pleasure and pain alternate with each other perpetually, but they have nothing to do with who and what we really are.

Place your hand over my heart – the silence shining there is not an absence. I am reaching out of some darkness to share my humble piece of light with yours, letting whatever moves me have its voice, though my head is like a lump of stone, gently placed at your doorway in this home away from home.

There are infinite forms of expression, though none of them are “it”, except that all of them are, as all of us are – each a fractal of some incomprehensible immensity.

Amidst tentative sighs and murmurs in the dark, these arms are reaching out like some sleepwalker on a dream mission, drawn mysteriously into the waiting embrace of the holy lover.

Pure light slides into itself in a rapturous sexual union, then ecstatically gives birth to the infinite cosmos, yielding this bliss of divine ignorance, the same timeless space in which we find ourselves afloat, at peace, at one.

Emerging from the ceremony of that sacred fire, let’s allow the weightless ashes from our personal holocausts to scatter in all directions, nurturing the tender new growth, the flowerings spawned from our mindless loving here.

In our naked vulnerability, unafraid, we can gladly open like the waiting hand of a smiling child to eagerly receive the whole blessed thing and then spontaneously offer it back to That from whence it came.

Compelled by forces beyond my ken, I’m improvising little songs to the void, just happy to sing some sweet old rhymes recalled from the ancient innocent days:

“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine,

you make me happy when skies are gray;

you’ll never know Dear, you’ll never

know Dear, you’ll never

know, Dear. . .”

Ah, Beloved of my heart, can you hear me now, the soft wan voice inside of every yearning, the yearning to be done at last with any yearning, and yet the worship of that very yearning, of life reaching out to itself eternally, only to finally relax and fall so deeply into itself, singing softly to the choir of itself, always so endearingly just slightly out of tune?

 

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Smiling Faces

Shapes shift, light and shadows alternate,
facades appear and disappear as Love
plays the ancient masquerade.
 
From Her oceanic depths
a flowing dream of waves arises
in Love’s disguises born of water.
 
As bedazzling as Love’s masks may be,
we won’t stop at any liquid image,
we’ll go further – Love
compels us.
 
When our yearning becomes as urgent
as that of a drowning man’s gasp for air,
we will become available at last
for Love’s true revelation.
 
Until then, Love will mostly be
an empty word for those of us still deaf
to the transmission beaming from the depths
of our own Heart’s deepest desire.
 
Most who come this way stop
at the Image, worshiping an Icon,
carved by conditions, sanded by time,
polished by devotion to a yet tyrant mind.
 
All the while, Love’s arrow buries itself
deeper, burrowing further, until at last,
in the abundance of graces, Love
looks up and recognizes Itself
here in our smiling faces!
 
Just so, my Pearl, tonight
let’s get fetal with each other;
 
let’s curl up in that wooing
womb of emptiness,
 
wound together in this
wild wonder of our loving,
 
afloat in the warm amniotic fluids
of Love’s supremely cuddly satisfaction,
 
dizzy in the exquisite vernal perfume
of our unborn bliss, the simplicity
of the blessed revelation
that you and I are
only This,
 
our daring dharma of desire
flowering into freely letting go
of what’s already gone, gone beyond
any letting go of all that never was,
just smiling that smile we smile
when you see me, I see you,
and only Love is Seeing,
being Seen, loving . . .
 
Ah, open and see – this Love is
the nurturing midwife of our delight,
attending the mystery of innocent Light,
the mother of the radiant children of Love,
the conception, womb, and labor of Love,
and there is nothing in the beautiful body
of Love that is less than the perfect
expression of Love.
 
All form is but the dress of Love,
the wondrous random design of Love,
though seeking it only postpones true Love.
 
When we die to that search
we arise in Love;
 
when we empty ourselves
we are filled by Love!
 
All glory, praise,
and thanks to Love –
 
this is our song
and it’s sung
by Love!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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Softly Laughing

All throughout this dark and windy night
everything is tipsy and translucent.

Light is swaying drunkenly
between the visible and invisible.

I wonder if perhaps it’s only me, wobbling
on my feet, swaying to some spirit beat, listening
to soft laughter echoing through the midnight air.

There is no apparent source for this muffled mirth,
and so it must be my wine-soaked imagination.

Here we are tonight, face to face in our happy place,
smiling without reason like two dazed dreamers,
sharing the same intriguing dream, rolling
in soft and distant laughter.

Now look, Love, can’t you see –
what pours through you swoons in me!

Our blood runs through incandescent arteries
that connect the planets, moons, and stars
with sweet and liquid laughter, laughter
flowing through our pulsing veins
like a rich and heady wine.

I wonder how this can be –
the invisible pouring into visibility.

So entrancing is this unknown laughter
that we have lost our way back
to the sobriety of the known.

I wave my empty glass for more while
you look on, barely hiding your laughter.

The little drops of wine I’ve left behind
to mark our way have one by one evaporated –
ascending silently in the air throughout this
deepening dark and wind-wrought night
as I scribble these words and phrases.

Having things be visible or not
now goes the way of lovely wine drops,
drips of galaxies – all laughing softly in the air,
having never known sobriety, having
never set foot there.

I wonder how this can be:

I set out at dusk in search of the only true one
whose laughter lingers in the air, not knowing
it was You and I, swaying between the visible
and invisible, intoxicated by the light of love,
writing all of our beautiful lines on water,
enveloped in sweet tears of laughter.

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Some Glad God

I rise to mate my voice with yours, darling poet of my heart, but in the gentle devastation of your presence, all my simple songs melt into silence and I stand here mute, lilting softly off balance against the background of a perfect balance reflected in the brilliance of your solar smile.

The listening born within this silence, the intimacy of the sky with the horizon, the way some meandering streams just end in the middle of nowhere in particular, exhaling an invisible secret that every light-eyed creature bathes in – all of this is evidence to anyone who may imagine some distance from their Source that there has never been a trace of separation.

You are closer to me than I am to myself. Each delicious poem-sound we make is carried on the breath of some glad god nobody has yet found a way to worship. Such living poetry is our prayer of gratitude and praise for the appearance of each other in the midst of this utter astonishment.

We float, a feather on that breath, blown far beyond any mythic archetypes of grace-granting divinity by the loving grace of a divinity for which none can account, any more than for this touch we blissfully share.

There are magnificent shining beings who let their love flow through the universe with no limit or recoil, no fear or demand. Their true sanctuary is none other than our own abode, as we come to rest within the warm and spacious sufficiency of our radiant Heart.

 

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Straight Ahead

She mixes peas, green onions, chopped celery,
spices and herbs into the basmati rice, fries it up,
sprinkles a handful of crispy onions over it —
every mouthful reveals the richness of love,
its warm fullness and humble simplicity.

I don’t want to hear anymore about separation
and oneness, emptiness and experience,
karmic causality or pristine space;

I don’t want to listen to another wasted word
about the famous nondual nothingness;

I don’t care anymore about conditioned concepts,
wisdom systems, intriguing mental fabrications,
or the persistent illusion of individuality.

Friend, whatever you imagine you have to say
about consciousness, wouldn’t silence
be a more elegant option?

Buddhas and gods no longer have a place
here; any talk of enlightenment is a cloud
momentarily obscuring the full moon.

Last night as we slept, the whole sky
was filled with exquisite light.

Outside, there are overgrown blackberry bushes
in need of being cut back; plum, apple, pear,
and apricot trees to be tended; garden beds
to clear and turn over; fallen leaves
to rake and burn.

Maybe I’ll get to them, maybe not.
It’s all a grace, inexplicable.

After these many years, finally
I surprise myself:

free of care
gazing straight ahead —
everything, nothing.

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Strange Beautiful

All of the beautiful strangers that I happen to meet
are really no stranger to me than I am to myself.
 
I hear their chorus of voices, like breezy harmonics,
echoing through trackless space, vaguely familiar,
a remembered dream perhaps, perhaps . . .
 
Like the soft, intermittent hiss of a wispy wind
on a warm Summer night, a Saturday night
slipping out of time when nobody is looking,
their voices melt into the primordial spaciousness
of this infinite realm, finding a home there,
a place to rest awhile, to just let go.
 
Then they rise to re-emerge in the plane of time
like a strangely captivating fragrance, un-nameable,
that haunts the nostrils, but with no apparent source,
carried on the same breeze as all voices, hopes, and fears.
 
In just that way I came to you, breezing around you,
silking you like a light-seeking fluttery night moth,
puzzle pieces of a stranger’s dream coalescing
into the single mute voice of all strangers,
happy or sad, living and dead.
 
No, not a wasted word is spoken,
nor any introduction boldly proffered,
just a sudden brush of lips against your cheek,
and then your head turns, and then our eyes
meet, meet in the dark of the inmost heart,
the Source itself that makes everything shine,
and the thrill of you loving my lips on your lips,
my skin on your skin, is beyond any knowledge,
even beyond the reach of desire, but no stranger
than this, the most real of the real, which happens to be
the strangest of all — the strangest, yet the most beautiful.
 
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Submariners

There is a joyous impulse
within the mechanics of all happiness
to spill out of itself, the same motion of the ocean
composing waves from its own foamy liquidity
to adorn the thirsty shore.
 
It offers its briny devotion there, in turn
receding back to the sum of itself,
only to arise and surge again,
in mantric perpetuity.
 
This love play is all
impersonal tidal business –
wet praise and glory to it –
yet in the heart hold of the sea,
deep dreamless sleep now enchants
the many brave souls whose eye sockets
have become portals for tiny self-lit beings
to eel through in darkened slippery wonder.
 
Seeing nothing of themselves, they soundlessly
glide through an elegant ebony spaciousness
which no surface poetry can approximate,
even that fashioned by water savants
sublimed in their own element.
 
Wringing watery words
from my own sympathetic chemistry –
 
little fluid offerings on the altar
of uncharted aquatic desires –
 
I sift, smiling, through the silence
of nocturnal languidity, harmonized
with those same sightless creatures
of sunken submarine serenity,
where all concealed is now
revealed as the presence
of my own being.
 
From the depths I offer
Salutations to all drowned
and drowning ones, my Dears –
 
where even light can’t penetrate,
no chalice made of name or form
shall any more contain us.
 
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Swing Time

Freedom –
it’s a door that’s always open,
yet nobody passes through.
 
Some try to make themselves
small enough to squeeze through, others
big enough to smash the door and burst through –
neither realizing this door swings on the edge of a cliff,
opening into a fathomless abyss that freely swallows
big and small alike and burps up ecstasies of light!
 
The only obstacle which seems to block our way
is nothing but our own conviction that we are
something capable of being bound or freed,
or that there is some special threshold
which we need to cross to become
what we always already are,
and yet all the while:
 
we’re the thing that swings, sings,
echoes throughout this endless arcade,
swept up in the breeze of a song called love,
played as a Swing tune, tuned to our twin hooves,
tapping us tongue-tied out of time’s tease, turning us,
twining us, free as you please, across the dance floor
of this ever-fresh now while we swoon and spoon
to the pulsing sound of each precious heartbeat
marking our rhythmic moves and waltzing us
in tandem twists and twirl-a-ways of light
through this exquisite night of shimmer
and shine, sheared at last of the weight
of our burdens, free to glide and slide
together in unabashed delight!
 
 
 
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Teeth In the Dark

Seeing you walk into the room
makes my whole body smile
life with you is precious
 
I am no longer naive
I know behind you
in the darkness
there are creatures
with horrendous mouths
who are trying to consume you
 
You are that wavering flame
struck in the dark, see
the whole body smiles
not because you are fearless
but because you have known them,
the teeth creatures, and you have been
afraid, yet you continue on, you continue on
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Tell the Truth

I was sitting in the old Oak laughing when those eager
evangelists waved their pamphlets at you, but you were
teaching your dog a new trick, and didn’t even notice.

While the angry politicians were threatening to annihilate
everyone, we were intrigued by the way the young Blue Jay
jerked his head back and forth, standing over the seed bowl.

When we strolled the rows together at the old apple orchard,
we didn’t mention Eve or Adam — the shapes the bare branches
cast against the deepening blue sky were far too captivating.

We don’t waste a moment worrying about whether or not
all of this magnificent beauty is going to end some day.
Whatever it is that still persists, we will be that too.

Some feel a kind of melancholy as evening approaches,
but we appreciate how the vast and limitless immensity
slowly shrinks down to the shining tip of a candle flame.

Some words and phrases can grow fangs which will pierce
through the thickest leather, so we handle them carefully.
When we say “I love you”, we always tell the truth.

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