I'm blinded by the darkness.

Title: I'm blinded by the darkness.
Author: littlepluto
Author Notes: I wrote this during the darkest period of my life. It was the only period in my life that I felt that maybe, just maybe I would be better off dead. I never want to think like that again.

The eyeliner I wear was just a disguise,
to hide the sadness behind my hazel brown eyes.
Misery and angry were what's locked up inside,
it gave me fear, that I could no longer hide.

Tried to erase the words that made me so blue,
but turning back time was impossible to do.
With the music up loud I sat alone in my room.
I talked to the stars and howled at the moon.

I made myself fake but I got caught short,
nothing but music was there for support.
Memories and taunts went around in my head,
one time I thought I'd be better off dead.

I wanted to be slim not fat nor thin,
not some leftover body left in the bin.
Time moved fast yet I stood still,
thinking like that was making me ill.

Stop all these feelings and set me free,
I wanted to be happy, fuck, I wanted to be me.