Amanda's Journal

lilduh — Mon, 14 Feb 2011 04:11:56 GMT

When you spend 2 hours of your Saturday trying to decide the easiest way to off yourself - you know there's a problem.

-_-

lilduh — Sun, 11 Jul 2010 19:37:13 GMT

Life is busy - busy - busy.

lilduh — Sat, 29 May 2010 01:31:22 GMT

Start Weight: 155.5
Current Weight: 141-141.5
Goal Weight: 140

Almost there!

In other news - boys are dumb.

lilduh — Sun, 09 May 2010 16:29:42 GMT

Start Weight: 155.5
Current Weight: 148
Goal Weight: 140

Yay!

Strategy: Eat less junk, smaller portions, and walking every damn day!

lilduh — Fri, 07 May 2010 03:25:58 GMT

Life.

lilduh — Sun, 02 May 2010 20:37:12 GMT

Nothing is ever simple.

lilduh — Thu, 15 Apr 2010 02:27:54 GMT

Current Weight: 151.5

Starting Weight: 155.5

Total Weight Loss Thus Far: 4 Pounds

Goal: 140

Strategy: Walk 30 minutes to an hour every day - and eat less shit.

lilduh — Thu, 15 Apr 2010 02:26:09 GMT

What is my calling in life?

lilduh — Sun, 04 Apr 2010 18:34:12 GMT

I have a spending problem.

Sagittarian Woman

lilduh — Fri, 26 Mar 2010 15:21:55 GMT

A Sagittarius woman lacks tact and her flat, on-the-face statements may make you feeling like running away from her. Then, suddenly, she will say something so charming that you will feel as if you are on the seventh heaven. There, you go again! You will be trapped in her charm once more. Once you have been enamored by a Sagittarius girl, you will be staying with her for a long time. She is pleasant, friendly, outspoken and very talkative. Her forthrightness comes form the fact that she has no illusions about the world.

She sees it exactly as it is and says what she sees. At times, you may wish that she were not so honest. But then, she would be like any other girl, wouldn't she? In all probability, you will not like it. A Sagittarian female is very optimistic, but she is not irrational. She will judge the entire situation as per the facts, analyze its probable outcome and still believe that things will get better. Usually, she is very calm and composed. However, when you become rude to her or offend her, she may become like the fire-spitting dragon.

Sagittarius women are quite independent and love their freedom. They are attached to their family, but not too much. If you want to get something done from a Sagittarian female, just ask her; don't order. She will never ever do it. She is your better half and don't you dare forget that. On the other hand, she doesn't want a sissy for a husband or boyfriend. He has to be a real man, who has his ego and won't stand for nonsense. So, you will be expected to balance politeness with firmness.

I know it's difficult - but then, since when was winning someone easy. With a Sagittarius girl, you will never have to guess. She says what she thinks and how she acts shows what she feels. This bluntness may cost her heavily at times, even to the point of ending the relationship. Still, she would act as if she's not hurt at all and it is just one of the many harmless flirtations she's had. People will even believe all this, while inside she will be weeping and nursing her wounds. All this time, she will be analyzing what went wrong and when.

The word 'marriage' makes a Sagittarian female a little nervous and you will need to tempt her in order to make her settle down. She is a little hard to catch and tends to be one of the boys all the time. That doesn't mean she looks or acts like a man! Infact, she is as female as any other girl is. The society and its norms do not matter to her. She can never be the hypocrite that some people are and tend to wiggle a few tongues. Her honesty and brusqueness further add to the negative opinions.

Don't be fooled by them. Look deep inside a Sagittarius female and you will find a woman who is so enthusiastic about life and who trusts easily. Infact, this extreme belief makes her heart vulnerable and defenseless. It gets broken too often, but then, she knows how to move on with life. You will be tempted to care for her. It's natural. There are hardly any people who can resist the bright and charming disposition of a Sagittarius girl. She will not be too good with money and will most probably be on the extravagant side.

She is very sentimental and emotional, though it seems otherwise. It just that, where her feelings are concerned, she becomes too shy. After marriage, your house will always remain sparkling clean, even if you don't have a maid to do that. She cannot stand sloppiness, it doesn't appeal to her sensibilities. She may not be too good at cooking, but she will also not burn your egg every day. A Sagittarian girl may pass the most sarcastic comments when she is angry, but she will forget the resentment soon enough. Then, she won't understand why are you so upset.

As a mother, she will be very friendly with the kids. Infact, she will be more of a chum, than a mom. Only, you will have to teach them to take her bluntness with a pinch of salt. Apart from that, she will be wonderful and make them as independent as she is. She will be a lovely hostess to guests and make them feel at home. Just let her be what she is. Don't try to change her and don't curb her individuality. She will brighten your life with her optimism, boost you with loyalty, trust you blindly and shower her affection on you. She will encourage you to see dreams and help you in making them come true!

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As I get older, the more these things become true.

lilduh — Tue, 23 Mar 2010 02:54:46 GMT

Starting Weight: 155.5
Goal Weight: 140

Chance that I'll Actually Get There: About 10%
Motivation: Belly Button Piercing and Pictures of Michelle Rodriguez (Just cuz she's hot)

lilduh — Sat, 20 Mar 2010 03:52:40 GMT

:: rolls eyes ::

You know exactly who that is directed at.

lilduh — Tue, 16 Mar 2010 03:00:29 GMT

Working in the medical field is the absolute definition of surprise.

You call a patient back expecting to just take a few vital signs and smile and giggle at their lame jokes...but things are never as simple as they seem like they're going to be.

The schedule may say the reason for the visit is a "6 month follow-up visit on asthma" - but as soon as that patient sits down in that chair - the world's problems are thrown into your lap as if you..and you alone..are to solve them.

Things I've Learned from working in Medicine
1) Old people love to chat. Everyone knows this - but work in healthcare..and the truth will really be driven into your head. A phone conversation that should take less than 3 minutes can somehow be drawn out into a 5 hour story about what they did all morning and how they finally got around to calling you. A simple health questionnaire can be turned into a narrative of every single health problem they have ever encountered.

2) All people are crazy. Everyone thinks they have some sort of special new rare disease that no one else has.

3) People believe doctors are the ones scamming them of their money - not the insurance company. Seriously people! The insurance companies are the evil ones - not us. We provide a service, we deserve to get paid. Your insurance company is the one short-changing us and overcharging you!

4) Children are evil - but parents who do not disicipline their children are Satan.

5) Old men like to flirt with young nurses and their favorite line is typically "My blood pressure is probably up - with a cute girl like you in the room" or some variation of that. One man actually offered to let me listen to his chest..but without using the stethoscope. I could cuddle right up to him and just lay my head right against his chest....if I was so inclined.

6) Disregard number 2. Some people really aren't crazy - and they really do have rare new diseases.

7) Never give out your name unless prompted to do so. You will regret it.

8) People like to pretend to be stupid to avoid filling out forms. People are terrified by two things at the front desk. Filling out forms and paying their copay. Why? Not sure. Americans just have some odd bias against filling out a few papers. Is it really that hard to fill out your name and insurance information? You're going to be waiting in that waiting area for anywhere from 10 minutes to 3 hours anyway - might as well work on something.

9) Some people really are just stupid.

10) Never ASSUME anything. Assumptions kill people.

11) There are people using medications without knowing the name, the proper way to take it, or what the medication is even for. This is why we sit you down - after your appointment - and go over your medications with you. This includes what the medication is for, a demonstration of how to use it, as well as some nifty hand-outs. Yes..we charge for this service. Yes your insurance company (because they blow) may not cover this service and you will be stuck with the bill - but at least you will understand how to use your medications. Improper inhaler use can lead to uncontrolled asthma. Uncontrolled asthma can lead to ER visits. Pay the 20-45 dollars for the medication information...instead of the 500 dollar ER bill.

12) HIPPA is a bitch. It's a rat trap and everyone is out to catch you breaking a HIPPA rule.

13) Doctors are not out to kill you. Please don't be so suspicious of them.

14) Your copays are determined by your insurance company - not us. Don't bitch at the lovely young woman at the front desk because you have shitty insurance which includes a 50 dollar copay and a 2000 dollar deductible. It isn't her fault, it isn't even our office's fault. It's YOUR insurance. Take it up with them...or your company - who decided to be cheap on the health care plan.

15) Three skills are MOST important in medicine. 1) Ability to problem solve - and quickly. 2) A caring nature (Which is hard to maintain due to the crazy people mention in number 2, and the assholes mentioned in number 14) 3) a sense of humor.

16) Did I mention insurance companies are assholes? Sorry..I didn't know it was okay for them to practice medicine without a license. Yes, my doctor did order a very expensive test - but yes we did exhaust all other revenues first. Oh, I'm sorry Mr. Insurance Company Rep ..you want a different test done because you're banging the hot blonde that happens to work for the company that provides that test...or they're paying you to prefer that test? Which is it? Because my doctor is doing it ebcause it's the best course of action..but..who knew that you guys were actually sitting with the patient, taking a thorough history, examining, testing, and diagnosing the patient. Please. continue. Oh..you're not doing any of that? You haven't even spoken with the patient? THEN DON'T DENY OUR TESTS. You have blood on your hands.

17) Scrubs rock. It's like wearing pajamas to work.

18) Boys mature much slower than girls. Rarely does a 22 year old girl's mom call to schedule her appointment - but mom's schedule appointments for their sons until well past-30.

19) The word penis never becomes easier to say without wanting to giggle.

20) Medicine is rewarding.

lilduh — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 23:35:43 GMT

Wow.

It feels so weird to tell people that I'm 22 years old.

I'm old as fuck.

When did this happen?

I totally feel Cyndi Lauper's pain in this video - in the diner - when she pulls off her hat..and her man just looks at her like "What the fuck did you do?"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VdQY7BusJNU - First song I ever memorized the lyrics to.

lilduh — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 03:10:55 GMT

So - I was looking through my AOL favorites and realized that it is a complete history of what-ifs.

Potential College Major Descriptions- everything from nursing to journalism to hospitality management are bookmarked.

Wedding planning from Ohio to New Hampshire, and just about everywhere in between.

Apartments in Omaha, NE.

Houses in Cincinnati, Ohio.

Information on hamsters.

:: sigh ::

I need to get myself together.

lilduh — Wed, 06 Jan 2010 02:31:29 GMT

My life has spun out of control.

Sometimes I'm not even sure who I am anymore or why I do the things that I do.

My relationship with my parents, which used to be super strong, has completely unfolded into nothingness.

I barely get out of bed for work. I got up at 8:50 today - had to be at our Mason Office by 9:30. Literally gave myself less than 10 minutes to get ready. Needless to say, I was late. I'm always late now.

:( I don't know what to do anymore.

lilduh — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 02:20:16 GMT

* Always make decisions for yourself. Don't go through life worrying about everyone and their mom is going to think about your decision. When you're 30, and can look back at a decision and think "Wow..I did what I really wanted to do" you'll be much happier (even if the result was negative) than looking back and wondering "What if?"

*Don't go to Walmart. It's a money trap. You go in for one thing and buy 30.

*Utilize the library.

* Have confidence in yourself and don't try to be something you're not. Life is so much more stressful when living behind a mask or walking with your head down.

*Don't marry someone because of only what's in their soul - the practical things actually do make a difference.

*Don't be afraid to tell people to "Fuck off" - some people just need to hear it.

*Don't call strangers ma'am or sir.

*Music is free therapy.

lilduh — Mon, 28 Sep 2009 22:37:00 GMT

Life is confusing....but I love it and I love the people in it. <3

Eh..What the hell.

lilduh — Sat, 14 Mar 2009 17:13:00 GMT

While I'm here tracking down an old friend, might as well do a quick update. I remember when this thing seemed so cool.

I'm still alive. That's a good thing, of course.

I'm done with school - for now. Who knew the chick with fantastic grades would settle for an Associate's degree? It made me happy. :) That's all that really matters.

I don't really do much, but at the same time, I do a lot.

I work 40-45 hours a week for a group of doctors, a group of excellent doctors.

I take care of an apartment. I do dishes, I clean, I cook (or try to anyway).

I have a boyfriend who works nights at Krogers.

But other than that, I really don't do much. This is the longest (about 2 hours) that I've been on the computer in like 3 months. :p Taking care of a home is ridiculously annoying. I'm sooo tired of doing dishes.

But life is good, for the most part.

Every once in awhile I get very nostalgic and want to go back to the good sunny days of living in Northside and going to grade school. :P

Just Some Random Thoughts

lilduh — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 01:39:58 GMT

I abandoned livejournal for facebook, myspace, and life.

I have returned to post some thoughts I've been having. No real reason other than I want to get them written down in some form so I can look back in a year and go "What the hell?"

1) In the Nightmare Before Christmas, what if Jack had gone through another Holiday's door? Like Easter? The easter bunny is pretty freakin' weird. Or Valentine's Day? Cupid with his arrows?

2) A lot of things have shaped the person that I am today - for good or bad. The friends I've had, the friends that I still have, working at Winton Wood's, dating Erik, etc etc. It's just weird to think about how one small experience can shape who a person becomes. Every decision matters, or maybe it doesn't. I don't know.

3) Speaking of friends, I miss a lot of my old friends. :(

4) I understand the appeal of Obama. I disliked both candidates until about a week ago. Obama seems genuine. He inspires hope, and he seems trustworthy. The lack of experience argument is a joke. When people say they want someone with experience, they just really want someone who is capable of good judgement. Obama seems to have this. McCain is scummy anyway. His political ads are absolute trash. Not that I really care that much anymore anyway.

5) People, stop asking me when I'm getting married. I don't know. Why do you care so much?

6) I'm overworked and underpaid. This will change soon.

lilduh — Thu, 24 Jul 2008 02:33:22 GMT

Reading old school entries about my first few months at the boat house cracks me up.

So much has changed, yet so much is still the same.

Just random..

lilduh — Sun, 03 Feb 2008 00:45:03 GMT

lilduh — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 04:23:02 GMT

Life is good.

lilduh — Wed, 28 Nov 2007 01:45:08 GMT

Erik is moving to Cincinnati.

December 9th.

:D

lilduh — Thu, 15 Nov 2007 22:56:31 GMT

SYDNEY (AFP) - Santas in Australia's largest city have been told not to use Father Christmas's traditional "ho ho ho" greeting because it may be offensive to women, it was reported Thursday.

Sydney's Santa Clauses have instead been instructed to say "ha ha ha" instead, the Daily Telegraph reported.

One disgruntled Santa told the newspaper a recruitment firm warned him not to use "ho ho ho" because it could frighten children and was too close to "ho", a US slang term for prostitute.

"Gimme a break," said Julie Gale, who runs the campaign against sexualising children called Kids Free 2B Kids.

"We are talking about little kids who do not understand that "ho, ho, ho" has any other connotation and nor should they," she told the Telegraph.

"Leave Santa alone."

A local spokesman for the US-based Westaff recruitment firm said it was "misleading" to say the company had banned Santa's traditional greeting and it was being left up to the discretion of the individual Santa himself.