Dean Winchester

counted_stars tracking | august | completed

2011-11-06T20:09:10Z

Thurs, Aug 4

+ Dean and Buffy talk about the Crimson Terror terrorist cells and dealing with them, and she judges his criminal lifestyle and immoral similarities to Faith. And then they talk briefly about having died before back home. She also talks about how Faith is shady, and Dean worries about her being a security risk if she's on Sam's dick.

Wed, Aug 10

+ Jo tells Sylar the tale of Dean Winchester, and gossips about him with Sam. Dean is unamused by Jo swiping his Captain's chair

Tues, Aug 16

+ Dean offers to help Chloe with her whole 'being haunted' issue.
+ Dean and Okita bond over space soap operas....
+ Dean and Catty threaten big brother with phone sex

The Enterprise is docked again, so Dean seeks to round out the crew roster.
- Jason pitches his resume
- Dean makes plans with Catty to take her out for her birthday at 8
- Lily's got some work for the crew
- Jo wonders how long they're staying
- Sylar has some thoughts on expanding the crew
- Claire helps patch up the crew and makes them baked goods
- Sam informs Dean that he's off planet with Faith and Dean assumes all the wrong things
- Dean and Jack talk about the plague. And swap insults and threats, of course.
- Dean offends Buffy with all his talk about jizz. He thinks she totally wants him.
- Han Solo talks to him and he creams himself
- Dean thinks Jimmy is too nerdy for this crew
- Miku is oblivious to Dean's jizz humor
- Vietnam is so hired
- Okita works on getting a gun that chucks throwing stars
- Dean and Gabriel talk about ... Gabriel... man, these names are confusing
- Eliot rambles her way to a medical job
- Janeway wants to see Dean's credentials. (IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEA-- wait no)

+ Dean comments on Bellatrix's vagina dentata.
+ Dean takes Catty out to a ~~fancy restaurant~~ burger joint for her belated b-day

Wed, Aug 24

+ Jo gets sick, and Dean fails at noticing
+ Mostly because he's too busy reuniting with Sammy and showing off the Enterprise. Sam fills him in with a slapdash version of events back home: Cas and the angels, the Apocalypse, Michael and Lucifer, all those high points. Dean can't handle this shit.
+ Sylar interrupts Dean's tour to tell him about Jo and he goes to see her
+ Vietnam keeps the pantry stocked

Thurs, Aug 25

+ Dean greets Andrew with talk about Twilight, Sharks vs. Jets, Mexican buffets, and going darker.
+ Oh no, Katherine got exploded :C

Wed, Aug 31

+ Welcome to space, Cordelia. Captain Winchester will give you a ride whenever you want.
+ Dean greets Riley with talk about vibro-things and mentioning how much Buffy gets around 8) Buffy is not amused.

counted_stars tracking | september | completed

2011-11-06T05:02:25Z

Thursday, Sept 1st

+ An infected Jo turns into a rakghoul and Buffy and Sam enlist Dean's help in fighting it. Sam & Dean realize they only have one choice: they have to kill it, even if the thing is Jo. It's really angsty: Dean can hardly bring himself to do it and afterwards sheds a single manly tear and refuses to talk to anyone ever about it.

Tues, Sept 6th

+ Jo's zombie incident makes the Captain a little paranoid about anyone getting sick on his boat, so when Sylar gets the sniffles, Dean does the logical thing and puts him on lockdown in the panic room. Brennan later helps Sylar escape.
+ Dean welcomes Elle back again.
+ He ends up going for a drink with Black Widow that night.

Thurs, Sept 8th

+ Dean signs him and Sam up for Buffy's raid of Crimson Terror HQ to find the cure for the virus.

Tues, Sept 13th

+ Jo comes back to life, and after talking to Sam about why Dean's avoiding her, she goes to find him, and he sucks at talking about it. No one is surprised. But she manages to get him to sing REO Speedwagon for her, because he's feeling so guilty, which leads to them having a ~moment~, and she tells him that if he ever makes up his mind about what he wants with her, she's there, and the sexual tension mounts a bunch until he kisses her. And then cockblocks himself because he actually doesn't like the idea of having sex with her while she's in the emotionally screwed up place of having come back from the dead that day ... right after he KILLED her. That's right, he actually turns down sex. Mark your calendars.

Wed, Sept 14th

+ Dean talks to Sam (Flynn) about what he's been up to, and Sam declines to assist on the cure run, because of his fears of facing his father :C
+ Dean, Sam, and Cordelia team up to raid the Crimson Terror and they do some exciting raiding

Sunday, Sept 18th

+ Dean greets Buffy's kid sister.

Thurs, Sept 22nd

+ Dean mistrusts Sylar's optimism. And makes accusations about his sexuality.
+ Dean offends Tali's entire life multiple times and suggests Quarians are all born with AIDS. Shepard can't even.gif his iife.
+ Dean recruits Sulu to be the enterprise's helmsman! And learns what a helmsman is....
+ And fails to recruit (or pick up) Uhura.

Sun, Sept 25th

+ Dean meets Mordin and pisses off Jack some more.
+ Buffy tries to get a ride from Dean to Korriban to help Jacen, but he can't get her there fast enough

Mon, Sept 26th

+ Nu!Kirk arrives and Dean fears losing his ship/crew/captain status :C

Wed, Sept 28th

+ Dean goes to the festival and is offended by the lack of pie, but Vietnam provides for him, and Dawn shares some with him too. Sylar & Dean talk about taking a beach vacay to Mon Cal.
+ He also hits up all the kissing booths: Lily, Buffy (but only to measure hunterchan dicks), Cordelia, and Isabela
+ He gets a tarot reading from Willow and trolls Jack's facepainting stand
+ He gets his flirt on with Inara, and talks to her about dead people being alive here and stuff.
+ Jo, Dean, Sylar, and Sam go to watch the fireworks, which makes Dean all nostalgic inside. Jo is googly eyed over Dean which makes Sylar a sulky puppy.

Thur, Sept 29th

+ Dean meets Ron Burgandy and is not impressed
+ And mistakes Constantine for a demon, and they talk about hell

counted_stars tracking | october | completed

2011-11-05T07:46:29Z

Sun, October 2nd

+ Dean meets Shepard's newest scary crewmate, Wrex
+ Dean and Cordy discuss their mutual egos in the wake of their festival kiss
+ When a certain trenchcoated angel arrives, Sam and Jo warn him about Dean's chrono impairment. Dean and Castiel proceed to get off to a smashingly awkward start.
+ Castiel and Nathan Young discuss the threat of the human centipede. Dean's not even involved, I just never want to lose this link.

Mon, Oct 3rd

+ Dean hits on an AI because it sounds like Tricia Helfer
+ Dean is not afraid of dark elves and all that World of Warcraft shit
+ He asks McCoy for some hangover cures

Tues, Oct 4th PROJECTED THOUGHTS EVENT BEGINS

+ When Sam calls to check up on Dean about all this Castiel stuff, Dean starts splooging thoughts everywhere. They talk about what the hell might be going on, and then Sam gets to hear Dean thinking about how he kissed Jo, and he gives Dean a pep talk about not letting himself 'get in his own way' when it comes to her. Dean slaps that down by informing Sam that future Jo dies back home. Sam later talks to Jo about all this.
+ Dean tells Cas that stalking is not cool, but then an event afflicted Cas reveals that future Dean thinks of him as family. ;__;
+ Turns out Jo's afflicted too, so when she wants to talk to Dean bout Cas, they end up talking about a helluva lot more. Feelings that have been all confusing and hidden and shit get thrown out there in the open and they decide to give going for it a try. Dean suggests they adjourn to the Captain's chambers.
+ [Locked/NSFW] And then they have hot telepathy sex with all kinds of lame mushy feelings that they don't have to say out loud. And both of them get to hear mentally about the other's commitment issues, and then Jo gets Dean to agree to being her boyfriend without throwing that word out there yet. And then they have more sex etc. forever.

Wed, Oct. 5th

+ Put two blondes on a comm together spewing their thoughts out and all sorts of secrets tumble out. Like Buffy finding out about Jo & Dean having sex. Dean defends his honor against Buffy's incredulity (and she asks him to pilot her and her friends to Mon Cal for the Jedi summit), but Sam does a better job of it. There's a lot of talk about threesomes. Dean decides to stay home on the Enterprise while Buffy, Sam, and Jo get their research on to try to combat this.
+ While they're out, an angry Sylar, whose found out about Dean & Jo from Buffy's very public broadcast, confronts Dean and punches him a few times, before Dean's woobie thoughts about family send Sylar running off like a bitch. Sylar runs into Jo on his way out of there and makes her think he's going to kill her. He then goes to steal Claire's power so that he can never die and be the specialest snowflake so Jo will love him.
+ Dean calls Sam to warn him Sylar's on the warpath, and talks to him about what they found at the library.
+ He also checks on Jo, who tells him what Sylar did, and then they head to the ship bar so she can nurse Dean's bruises. They talk about going to Mon Cal with Buffy and her crew, and then about killing Revan, and make each other silly promises about not doing stupid things, that neither one will be able to keep. And then they have sex on the bartop. Yep.

Thurs, Oct 6th

+ Balthazar arrives to troll Dean about his future spooning with Cas.
+ Dean has no empathy for Jack's hard life.
+ Sylar calls Dean and Jo to apologize, and then they let him back on the ship and it's awkward as hell

Mon, Oct 10th

+ At least, Bobby's arrival brings a dose of levity to things.

Wed, Oct 12th

+ Dean is (unsure) forever when Jo wants to invite angels over to play cards on his ship. She convinces him to give Castiel a chance and let him stay on the ship, and they agree that he can take Jo's room and she can move in with him. They discuss their feelings on people with weird freaky Force powers, prompted by Sylar telling Jo in confidence about his abilities. And then there is a lot of sadness when the night Jo dies comes up in conversation, and he offers her what support he can, in his Dean-like way.

Thurs, Oct 13th

+ Dean asks EDI to replicate him some Metallica
+ And buys some weapon upgrades for his crew from Garrus and Thane
+ Dean teases Joker about the Normandy.
+ Just when Dean dreamed Cas' arrival had scared him away forever, Gabriel returns. Which at least results in Dean & Jo talking to each other about labeling their relationship officially.

Fri, Oct 14th

+ Dean trolls Merlin and Arthur's newly arrived lives

Sat, Oct 15th

Dean announces all aboard for Mon Cal.
+ Sylar's a jerk about it
+ Catty congratulates Dean on the girlfriend
+ Jo & Dean make preparations for the trip. And she promises him some ~special surprises~ on the trip and when they get back.
+ Lily is disappoint that Dean is a Force racist
+ Sam tries to convince Dean not to be a dick lololol
+ Dean makes a lot of colorful threats to Spike about strapping him to the ship's hull
+ X-23 asks Dean about the Force
+ Shepard has to make some obligatory commentary about his captaining
+ Dean tries to set up Willow with Sulu
+ Anya invites herself along
+ So does Cordy, who vouches for Spike
+ Kirk gives Dean permission to rent his Sulu for the time being
+ Sulu agrees to teach Jo & Dean how to pilot
+ Dean and Buffy argue (and argue and argue) about letting Spike on the ship. Jo calms him down and he agrees to let Spike come on board only if he's supervised non-stop by Buffy.
+ Tonks inquires about Dean's racism and profession
+ Jack calls him a pussy
+ Castiel agrees to angel proof the ship, and reluctantly agrees to a beer with Dean. Cas asks him about his life here and it's really an angsty and beautiful time, as Castiel is happy to learn Dean's found some peace, but baffled by this younger, more innocentchans Dean. THEY MAKE PROGRESS!!11

Mon, Oct 17th

+ Dean's magnificent face twin Alec shows up, and they get along SO SMASHINGLY. Dean threatens to kill him multiple times, especially if he gets near Jo, Alec offers to beat him up in exchange, etc. etc.
+ The Buffy and Enterprise crews meet up to board for Mon Cal. Dawn made Dean some 'Please don't kill Spike!' cupcakes.
+ Cas is skeptical of Dean's spaceship life, but he boards too.
+ SYLAR ATE SOME OF DEAN'S CUPCAKES it is so on
+ That night, Dean and Jo catch up on how the trip is going so far, and he tells her about how Cas offered to take out the hellhounds of Nar Shaddaa. Her answer's the same as his was it's something they have to do. They have a horribly depressing talk about their deaths, and Dean cries, and then Jo admits that she loves him in a way that doesn't require him to say it back. And then they spend the rest of the night in bed together. Bow chicka wow wow.

Tues, Oct 18th

+ Dawn steals a weapon from Dean's locked armory and blasts a hole in his ship wall, and then Buffy tries to lecture Dean about keeping loaded weapons around. Sulu gets a sword.
+ Dean swipes Spike's beer and the hunters and Buffy/Spike awkwardly discuss the weather??

Wed, Oct 19th

+ Anna arrives and Dean gets to meet another angel who is ~different~, just like all of them here. Jo prevents him from asking about Alastair and lets him live in blissful ignorance. :(
+ Dean talks to GLADoS b/c I guess he has to befriend all the AIs. This one talks about cake.
+ Andrew annoys the shit out of Dean by documenting their space travel life

Thurs, Oct 20th

+ Jo starts a water balloon fight
+ Dean meets Xander
+ When Bobby goes missing mid-flight, Dean immediately suspects Spike, and accuses the vamp of killing him. Everyone else has to talk Dean down.

Mon, Oct 24th

+ Dean does not like Anya's face doubles theory.
+ He gives gun advice to the newbie, Adam

Dean unwinds on the beach or something. In his... flannel and jeans.
+ Buffy manhandles him into agreeing to go in the water. They measure monster hunter dicks. Again.
+ Jo seduces him in, which works much better. They discuss their drunken lives, and Jo threatens Dean's life for calling her 'chick' and 'sweetheart'
+ Sam and Dean have a dramatic argument about family and Sam leaving him and Dad to go to California. Dean tells him about some mysterious missing locals and a legendary sea creature.
+ Anya criticizes Dean's life and choices
+ Sylar plants awful lies in Dean's head about Brennan having feelings for Jo

Becky Rosen arrives and ruins the entire rest of Dean's night by bringing Wincest into the world of CS. It's a trainwreck. In the middle of which, Dean learns about Bangel.

Dean and Jo proceed to drink away all those horrible mental images of Sam/Dean and get really sloshed on an alien hard liquor and make embarrassing public network posts by accident
+ Gabriel doesn't even have to expend effort to mock them
+ Dean tells Sylar he should drink more
+ Cas tries to be helpful
+ Dean digs a giant hole with Buffy
+ And defends himself against Spike's implications
+ And talks to Xander and Willow too idek

Thur, Oct 27

+ Dean and Stefan talk music
+ And he meets a teen wolf

Fri, Oct 28

+ The gang takes a submersible underwater to the domed city of Aquarius

Sat Oct 29

+ Dean and Sylar fight a vending machine. Andrew helps defeat it.
+ Buffy interrogates Dean about Sylar and bitches him out for not telling anyone he'd killed a girl back home

Sun Oct 30

+ Dean talks to Buffy about her dreams that involve dark magic, and she tells him she knows about the deal he made for Sam's life
+ Dean, Xander, and Spike hit up the bar

Mon Oct 31

+ The gang goes to the Mon Cal ballet Squid Lake. Dean and Sylar measure dicks, Dean has intermission sex with Jo, Sam talks about how much he fails at trying to culture his brother, basically everything you would expect out of this

counted_stars tracking | november | in progress

2011-11-05T05:48:13Z

Tuesday, Nov 1st

+ On the way back from Aquarius, the submersible is attacked by a gigantic tentacular kraken monster, because that's just their luck.
With the help of everyone on board, Dean manages to ~~make things worse~~ help kill it.
+ During the fight, Sylar's powers are revealed, so afterwards, Dean confronts him on the beach, and they beat each other up, Fight Club style.
+ After getting healed up by Cas, Dean spends most of his night hacking up the krakana carcass and grilling it up, so everyone can enjoy some beach tailgating that night before they leave. During the evening, he talks to Buffy about Spike and they form a semi-truce, Spike manages to gross him out, he offends Xander's delicate culinary sensibilities, and then he confronts Jo about keeping Sylar's powers a secret from him, and they agree not to keep anything else from each other. She says it's up to Dean about whether to keep Sylar on board or not, and then pitches the idea of setting up a roadhouse HQ on Coruscant, which he ends up agreeing to.

Wed, Nov 2nd

+ Dean talks to Claire about these wacky dreams, who is busy thinking about Sylar's implications that they're dating
+ Dean talks cars with Tony Stark. Sorta.
+ Dean loves daddy issues. Constantine should too.
+ He talks to Catty about how the world turns or... doesn't, back home

Thurs, Nov 3rd

+ Event: Dean wakes from a nightmare about kissing some dude and talks to Jo about it and her pregnancy nightmare. And then goes and gets a beer from the kitchen and talks to Buffy.

Fri, Nov 4th

+ In the morning, Dean takes a moment to troll the Normandy crew, and admire Jack and Joker's handiwork
+ Event: Dean also has to face up to talking to Amy Pond re: his horrible dude-kissing nightmare
+ A mysterious nebula causes the entire Enterprise crew to pass out and then wake up with no memory of who they are or how they got there. Hilarious shenanigans ensue. Dean thinks his name is Jim Kirk, and that they've been abducted by aliens. They find Dean's fake passenger manifest full of classic rock names, and figure those must be theirs. Buffy is Joan Jett, Xander is Alexander VanHalen, etc. etc.

Sat, Nov 5th

+ Dean hits it off s-so well with Vala 8|

Sun, Nov 6th

Dean suits up and announces the Enterprise II is docked. And has some business to take care of.
- Sulu suggests they talk to Kaylee Frye about being the new ship Engineer since they're giving Sylar the boot
- Dean and Jo go shopping for a building to house the Roadhouse
- Cas and Dean talk about the impending plans to face hellhounds and reaffirm Cas' role in it
- Dr. Daniel Jackson asks Dean exactly what it is the Enterprise crew does
- Dean tells Sylar he's got to leave the ship.
- Buffy and Dean have a remarkably civil conversation.
- Spike has to troll.
- Catty talks to Dean about Nar Shaddaa
- Dean explains the game plan to Vietnam

+ And that night, Ellen Harvelle shows up, throwing everyone off.
+ And Dean catches up with the exploding Scoobie drama surrounding Buffy going to take on Angel. And offers to help her find a way to hold him.
+ And then finds Sam at the bar and they argue over Buffy's approach, but Dean fills him in on the plan to turn the panic room into a vamp prison.

Mon, Nov 7th

+ And the Roadhouse crew expands as Ash shows up
+ He talks to Jack about her dreamshare experience

Tues, Nov 8th

+Dean & Sam are sent coordinates of Coruscant and come to one conclusion: Dad's back. Jo & Cas offer to help them find him.

counted_stars : Enterprise II Crew & Ship info

2011-10-25T21:04:15Z

ENTERPRISE II CREW \| PRESENT
	Captain. DEAN WINCHESTER \| likedillinger
	Vice-Captain (yeah, Dean totally made up that title, so he didn't have to demote Jo) SAM WINCHESTER \| imnot_likeyou
	First officer. JO HARVELLE \| incaution
	Chief Engineer. Wafflemaker. GABRIEL GRAY \| intuitivelyapt
	Pilot, on temporary loan from Kirk. Token minority. HIKARU SULU \| leapfromgreat
	~~Science~~ Theology officer / Spock. CASTIEL \| ofinsurrectum
	Ship cook. Token female minority. VIETNAM \| dawnlotus
	Occasional stowaway. Asshole angel. GABRIEL / "THE TRICKSTER" \| painhumbles

ENTERPRISE II CREW \| PAST
	Former Captain. JAMES T. KIRK \| boldly_goes
	Former first officer. ALICE HAMILTON \| notlookingdown
	Former pilot. TROY BARNES \| disco_spider
	Former Communications Officer. ABED NADIR \| narrativedevice
	Former ship cook. RAPUNZEL \| gleamandglow
	Former tech specialist. SAM FLYNN \| mrangrybuttface
	Former navigator. SAKITA SHIORI \| lily_schlaflied
	Former ship ninja. OKITA SOUGO \| sadisticprodigy

ENTERPRISE II SHIP SPECS

Make: Corellian
Type: Cruiser
Model: Early Corvette, a smaller version of the CR90 developed many millenia in the future
Crew: Can hold up to 15 comfortably; requires a crew of about 6-7 minimum operations

Layout includes:

Bridge
Pantry/Kitchen
Captain's quarters
Engineering Deck
Armory
Shipboard bar
6 other individual quarters
Barracks with bunks
Hidden smuggling compartments

The ship has had shielding and weapons upgrades courtesy of Czerka Corp.

memebells

2011-10-19T22:52:11Z

Dean on the horror movie meme

Drabble Meme Redux

2011-10-08T22:07:08Z

It's been awhile since this journal saw any posting action. /CHANGES THAT

I hope everyone on my f-list that I haven't talked to in awhile is doing well. ♥ Time for a MEME REDUX.

01. Put your music player on shuffle all.
02. Write a drabble for whatever song comes on.
03. You only have the time of the song to write it.
04. Once the song is over you’re done. ~~You can’t write anything more for that drabble.~~ Cheat like crazy on this step.
05. ~~Do this five times~~ Do this once to get back in the swing of writing drabbles 8|

This is counted_stars specific so Sam is imnot_likeyou and Gabriel Gray is intuitivelyapt. They are used without permission, nyah nyah nyah.

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#1 (and only): Secret Karma Serenade by Yasushi Ishii

Most of the cantinas Dean tended to frequent were the kind of New Hope fare that he could feel right at home in, but this club on Zeltros was something else. He would have sworn it was a strip joint with the way chicks were writhing to the sensual pounding beats, if it weren't the fact that Sam had come along willingly, and he'd been the one to research the place before they arrived.

Their contact lounged in a purple vinyl couch near the back, two chicks with bright red skin and minimal clothing cradled up to either side of him. Dean raised an eyebrow in appreciation, as Sam rolled his eyes.

"Rykk?" Sam asked pointedly, and the guy touched a button on the side of his shades. The dark lenses retracted, revealing two eyes that were completely blue, void of pupils. He looked between them both, and behind them, where Gabriel was skulking, with an expression that made it clear he thought they were as good as the dirt on the bottom of his dura-shoes.

"Who's asking?" he said coolly, in a smooth voice that would have made Lando Calrissian envious.

"Karma," Dean said, tossing a datapad onto the table in front of him, where it clattered right into the guy's plate of exotic appetizers. "She's a real bitch like that." Rykk shot him a poisonous glance as if he knew what was coming and picked up the datapad hesitantly. The manifests laid out a pretty dark trail. One that would land him in jail pretty easily, if it got out to the right authorities.

He smiled, revealing teeth as sharp as knives, and his voice dripped with malice.

"You have my attention," Rykk said, making that sound remarkably like a threat. "What can I do for you boys?"

Dean grinned.

"I was hoping you'd ask."

counted_stars tracking

2011-07-03T04:35:22Z

COUNTED STARS: all the threads

Katherine | Enlist hot chicks

Sam Flynn | Clear all debts

Sylar | Discuss Sylar's wacked out love life

Love Memeee

2010-09-16T19:30:19Z

LOVE, SWEET LOVE
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Application Ω squarewarts WIP

2010-08-28T19:27:03Z

Player Information

Name: Arden
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Current characters, if any:
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In-Game Character Information
Name: Dean Winchester
Series: Supernatural
Age: 26

Personality:

Dean's life has been fairly defined by fulfilling the 'good soldier' role. It meshes well with his instincts - he is, at the core, the big goddamn hero type. However, he's also capable of being so notoriously stubborn, that it's almost a surprise how easily he'd bend to his father's orders. In truth, his desire for his father's acceptance and respect has been one of the driving forces in his life: whereas Sam managed to step away from the path they were born into, if only for a little while, Dean's stuck to it every inch of the way. His entire personality's been crafted to fit the business: he doesn't form attachments quickly, except to the people involved in his line of work, the skills he's mastered and knowledge he's memorized all have to do with ways to most effectively hunt, track, and/or destroy demons and other supernatural baddies, and he has a sense of humor that takes things other would consider horrific lightly.

The most important thing to Dean is family, and he'd really do basically anything for those he puts in that classification. At the same time, no one in the world can piss him off so much as family, because of how much he has invested in them. So when Sammy screws up, it bothers Dean to no end: especially because he considers himself so responsible for his brother. He practically raised Sam, given the way their father was always so invested in his work, and so he often slips into acting as more of a father-figure to his brother than a sibling.

Dean comes across as a real 'man's man', indulging in women, booze, pie, classic rock, cars, and guns, and bashing on anything he considers to be below his tough guy image. It takes a lot to shake him to the point of tears. He's always ready to face things with (maybe too much) bravado, and probably some foul language, just to spice things up. He's stubborn as hell, and he'll break whatever rules (or faces) he needs to in order to get the job done.

Dean's time in Azkaban did quite a number on him, and forced him to face some of the darker sides of himself. He was already emotionally stunted before he did time there: but coming out the other side has screwed him up royally. He has an even more difficult time forging new emotional connections than he did before, and he's never been particularly good at making himself vulnerable by making friends in the first place. Dean may rock a serious ego on the outside, but in reality, he hates himself, and the things he's been through, and feels a constant need to prove himself.

I've also got a fairly long analysis of Dean's psychology here.

Background:

Dean's actual childhood seemed pretty normal, at least for the first four years of his life. He had no idea, and neither did his wizard father, John, that his mother Mary was descended from a line of muggles who had fought demons for generations, and so when her past caught up to them, it turned the Winchester family's lives upside down. Mary was killed by the demon Azazel, and their family home was destroyed: Dean's little brother Sam only survived because their father charged young Dean with getting him out of the house. Dean would take that order to protect Sam as a pledge to revolve his life around, even as time wore on.

Dean's father was utterly transformed by his wife's death, and delved into learning about the occult and the demonic, and ways to fight them, including the muggle techniques his wife had once used. His driving goal was vengeance, and it led him to raising both his sons on the road, carting them from town to town, hotel to hotel, school to school, in his '67 Impala.

Dean was taught how to utilize these same techniques and weaponry from a very young age, and John also shared magical techniques with him regarding Defense against the Dark Arts. Given that John had abandoned his post at the Ministry of Magic when he went on this crusade, he protected both himself and his boys from the eyes of the Ministry for some time given protective charms and anti-scrying magics. Dean really took to the lifestyle they led, and never wanted anything else for himself, so when the Ministry finally managed to contact them, and invite him to Hogwarts, he didn't want to leave his father or his brother. However, he was never able to refuse his father's orders, and John demanded he go.

Even though he was pretty pissed off about being rejected by his father (in his eyes), and jealous that Sam still got to spend time hunting with him, Dean was going to make the best of his experience at Hogwarts, and threw himself into getting anything out of the few classes he saw as profitable to his hunting career as possible. Any classes that he saw as useless in that respect, however, he slacked off in terribly, and he was known to cut classes for a variety of reasons: whether sneaking off with some girl, or trying to sneak into the Forest on some self-styled hunting trip of his own.

Occasionally, John would yank Dean out of school when he required his assistance on a case, and Dean cherished the time he was allowed to spend with his family again, working twice as hard to prove to his father that he'd become more valuable to him in his time at Hogwarts. Summer and winter breaks were the best times of Dean's life, and while some students dreaded returning to their dull lives, he'd be antsing at the bit every time the weather changed. It became a little easier for him when Sam also entered school, but the two would fight over how much Sam actually enjoyed it there. It pissed Dean off to no end that his brother seemed to dread the same breaks that he lived for.

Dean could barely scrape by in school, by the end of his time there, but managed to graduate anyways, and happily returned to the hunting trade with his father. He'd managed to keep plenty of distance between himself and everyone else at the school who he never thought would comprehend his life outside Hogwart's walls, so he didn't feel as if he were leaving any friend behind. Sam was 2 years away from graduating, when there was a huge family blowout between him and John, in which Sam revealed that he had no interest in being part of the hunting lifestyle anymore, and that he felt his path belonged with finishing school and concentrating on his studies there. He refused to leave school to participate in a hunt, and John stopped speaking with him. When Sam went to stay with a friend the next summer, Dean broke off contact with him completely as well, dropping the few attempts at communication he'd been making before. He felt completely betrayed.

Though he missed Sam, Dean saw this as his opportunity to prove to his father that he deserved to be his favorite, because he'd never gotten the kind of attention that Sam ever got. However, things remained pretty much the same, until John abruptly turned up missing on a hunting expedition. Dean, unsure of where to turn, showed up at Hogwarts. Sam was days from graduation, but Dean demanded he come with him - just for one weekend - to find him.

The weekend ended with them right where they'd started, and Dean had no choice but to fulfill his promise and return Sam to Hogwarts. However, a horrible surprise was waiting for his brother: his girlfriend, Jessica, killed in the same way their mother had been years ago, by Dark Magic. Dean barely managed to save his brother from the flames. Rather than stay and try to deal with the authorities and questions, they left that same night, spending the next two years traveling together around the U.S. again. Between attempting to find John, and to hunt down the demon who'd killed Jessica and their mother, they had a lot of leads to follow, and solved a large number of supernatural cases on the way, while making some progress towards mending their own fractured relationship.

When they finally caught up to John, they learned that he was keeping his distance from them on purpose, and it took a lot to convince him to let them help him in the fight against Azazel. The defeat of the demon didn't come without a price though: before dying, several other demons were freed from hell and set loose in the muggle world, and Sam and Dean tasked themselves with stopping them. John took off again, and it was down to the two of them to right what they had done.

Fighting demons was tricky business however, given their ability to possess human hosts, and when a powerful demon took over a Minister of Magic, it got down to the line, and Sam had to destroy the host in order to defeat the demon before he could get away, or kill others. A particularly powerful demon named Lilith, who had been working to stop the boys' crusade, made certain that the murder was traced back to them. Desperate that his little brother not be hauled off to Azkaban, Dean went off on his own to claim responsibility for the crime and alleviate Sam of any of the consequences that might result.

This meant, of course, that Dean himself was dragged off to the horrible prison, where he was subjected to the horrible presence of the Dementors, which drove him to a state of extreme internal isolation. The Minister who Sam had killed had twisted friends outside Azkaban's walls, who paid off a guard named Alastair to make certain that Dean's time in prison was extra excruciating. The guard tormented Dean physically, occasionally doing as much as to disfigure him, and then use spells to heal him back up again, only to repeat the procedure the next day. The guard, half-crazed himself from the proximity of Dementors, began a twisted mind game with Dean wherein he would offer to discontinue this abuse if Dean would begin doing it to other prisoners, for Alastair's amusement. It took nine months of this cycle of torment for Dean to give in and agree to this offer, and he hated himself for doing it, but tormenting the other prisoners - who he had to convince himself were all terrible people who deserved to be incarcerated even if he did not - allowed him to work out his resentment towards Alastair. He assumed he would be trapped in the prison for life, and thought it would be better to be feared by the inmates than victimized by them.

No one was more surprised than Dean when he was abruptly cleared of all charges and released a year from his admittance. Someone had apparently found a clause in wizarding law wherein Dean's sentence was rendered illegal, but no one was able to tell Dean who it had been, and he was wary of what exactly his 'savior' had in mind for him. Reuniting with Sam, Dean was horrified to learn that he'd fallen under the influence of a demon named Ruby, and had been drinking unicorn blood in order to strengthen his psychic abilities. This led to a huge fight between the two of them, and Dean ordered Sam to cut it off.

Meanwhile, Dean teamed up with a family friend named Bobby in order to investigate who had gotten him out of Azkaban. His sources led him to an encounter with agents of the Ministry itself - apparently someone in high levels of wizard government had plans for Dean : they wanted him to work for them directly. Dean refused, never willing to swear allegiance to anyone who wasn't family, but they continued to make threats about getting him thrown right back in where he came from, and he began to crack. Sam began having premonitions about something going down at Hogwarts, and the Ministry agents who had been contacting Dean ordered him to go with his brother under cover as teachers there to keep an eye on things. Dean pitched the idea to Sam, keeping the reality of why he was doing it from his brother, and they struck up jobs there. Dean took the position of teaching Defense against the Dark Arts, for which he was well qualified, but eventually tensions between him and Sam reached a breaking point when he discovered his brother was still using unicorn blood on occasion. He left, swearing not to return, and basically saying screw you to the Ministry who wanted him to remain there as their agent.

However, after a few months of hunting out on his own, these same agents told him that a prophecy had been brought to their attention that involved his brother, and would put him in serious danger. They allowed Dean to see the prophecy, though he knew it was possible they were simply yanking his chain in order to get him back at Hogwarts, and had conjured up a fake. In it, Sam was no longer himself, but was possessed by a dark wizard, and fighting at Ultimecia's side to take over the world. Despite his misgivings, Dean couldn't risk something happening to Sam, so he agreed to go back under -his- terms, and told them they shouldn't expect him to do any of their dirty business. His previous job having been taken by Sam in order for him to be able to return to it sometime, Dean could have taken the position back - however, he's still wary of dealing directly with Sam, and instead agreed to come in as a phys ed instructor. He intends on keeping an eye on Sam from a distance, though that's not likely to... remain the case for long. What Dean -doesn't- know is that these "Ministry agents" aren't exactly working for the ministry, but rather an ancient powerful wizard named Michael... who has plans of his own for Dean, and isn't about to let him off the hook so quickly.

Blood: Half-blood

Preferred House: Gryffindor
Why you think they belong in this house? Dean's practically a Gryffindor poster boy. His personality is geared around ~~stupidly~~ reckless bravery, and except where his father's orders were concerned, Dean's never had a particular penchant for rules. He's basically a big ol' hero, and at heart, he's a really good selfless person, despite however rough or heartless he may appear at times.

Staff Position: Physical Education, 6-7
Why you think they fit this position? When Dean left Hogwarts last, he was teaching Defense against the Dark Arts, which is really his preferred position. However, he's fine with letting Sam take the reins on the upper level class now so long as he can keep an eye on his brother and his behavior. Given that a lot of his motivation for returning to Hogwarts is to make certain that Sam is safe, it makes sense that he'd agree to a position teaching a class that he doesn't have to ... prepare a lot for, in his eyes. Dean's an incredibly physically fit person, and knows a lot about sports and the importance of staying in shape to being a badass wizard. Even in canon, he was able to pose as a gym teacher with surprising ease.

The one kink in his plan is that Dean is terrified of flying, and won't touch a broom, but luckily he can stand on the ground and shout orders with the best of them. If any students so much as mention that their teacher doesn't ever actually demonstrate flying techniques for them, that'll be twenty laps for them. 8|
If Professor would you want them to be Head of House? Nope.

Roleplay Samples

Journal Sample:

[Locked to Staff]

You heard rumors that there were freaking zombies potentially hanging around and nobody thought to call me?

Can’t leave this place for five minutes.

[See Dean. See Dean pretending that Ultimecia’s attack is his main reason for coming back to Hogwarts. See Dean lying his face off.]

Anyways, hopefully Sammy hasn’t screwed up too much as the new DADA teach. If he’s been slacking off, somebody tell me, and I’ll set him straight.

[Unlocked]

Yo boys and girls. This is Professor Winchester - the cooler, better looking one - and I’ll be teaching Phys Ed to the upper class kids this time around. You need me, I’m in my office.

Oh, and bring your A game to class. I don’t need to deal with any slackers on my first day. I’m lookin’ at you, Moroboshi.

Roleplay Sample:

Dean was pissed off.

And so he’d just gotten in the Impala, and taken off, with no direction in mind. Driving helped take the edge off. Or focus it at least.

He was trying not to replay the images in his mind, trying to drown them out with a worn out AC/DC tape, and a foot glued to the accelerator. With the wind rushing in through his rolled down windows, and miles and miles of broken yellow lines.

Wasn’t working, this time.

He hated those punks, in their fancy ass Ministry robes, and their shady habit of just arriving in his damn hotel room whenever they decided it was time for a visit. He’d like to know just how they were tracking him, when he was rocking several types of anti-scrying protection charms. But damned if he was going to give them the satisfaction of asking about it.

He’d thought he’d been doing a damn good job of cutting them out of his life, keeping five steps ahead of them, but there they were, and bringing more bad news than ever before.

The Prophecy.

Dean had always hated those freaking things. He hated anyone telling him what was meant to be. What was unavoidable. He didn’t believe in situations you couldn’t change. Not if you tried hard enough. Not if you fought hard enough.

But what royally sucked the most about this was that in order to fight this Prophecy - in order to save Sammy - he’d have to stop fighting those Ministry mooks, and fall in line again. Report back to Hogwarts like a good little agent.

Screw that. Screw them.

His foot cranked the Impala angrily up to eighty, as if he could outrace the reality of where he was really heading: towards the resolution that no matter what, he was going back there now. No two ways around it.

With a growl, his foot switched to the brakes, and he swung the car around in a wide arc.

“Gonna miss you baby,” he murmured.

Essay; "Daddy Issues & the Batman Complex"

2010-08-28T17:20:10Z

Note: A lot of my friends have written extensive metas on their characters, and I actually have a lot to say on my personal head canon for Dean and his psychology. However, instead of posting it in one giant chunk, I'm going to write a series of individual essays, and create an index pinned in his journal to all of them. This is the first of those.

Each of these essays are not me saying I know everything about Dean and this is the only way I will ever look at things: rather, I invite people to discuss, question, or argue with me in the comments to each one. There are still episodes of the show I've only seen once or twice, and so I'm bound to have forgotten some things; if you know details of the show that contradict my ideas, I'd appreciate hearing them so that I can amend my personal view of Dean, and play him better. :) Or if you'd simply like to discuss the kinds of things I'll be talking more, I always love talking about Dean.

Daddy Issues & the Batman Complex
Dean’s relationship to John, hero-worshiping issues, and the impact of secret identities.

Dean and Sam's differing views on hunting have a lot to do with their respective childhood experiences. Dean remembers what it was like to have a normal life, family, and home, and he's had to watch how losing all that transformed his father. Given that the loss of his mother was something very real to him, unlike it was to Sam, it's hardly surprising that Dean chose the subconscious route of justifying his father's transformation, rather than condemning it, because this allowed him to not also lose his father, so to speak. If he accepted that the path his father was taking was not a healthy one, or chose to be resentful about it, it would put a wall between them that would leave him without any parental figure to look up to, and the loss of his mother hurt him too much to be able to willingly accept that and make that choice. Instead, it was easier, and more conducive to his relative sanity, to simply find reasons to believe that all his father's actions were just.

So how did a very young Dean grow up justifying the questionable actions of a man who ripped his childhood from him, and his chance at a normal, real life or identity? How did he come to practically worship a father who was bent on vengeance, and showed more passion for his obsession than love for his children?

Very easily, actually. He simply applied a child's lens to things.

He believed that his father was a superhero.

It's a common enough childhood fantasy to think that one's mom or dad is a secret crime fighter, but in Dean's case, he had every single reason to believe it. John Winchester used aliases everywhere he went, making who he really was into the secret identity he only shared with spare friends and his family. He didn't have to hide behind a mask - this was modern America, and we're identified by our paperwork. Fake IDs, passports, credit cards - they were all as good as a mask, or better. Sharing in his father's secret became empowering for Dean, and was one reason he's always been so determined not to share it willingly. Next to ordinary, every day people, John's occult knowledge and martial skill would seem practically like superpowers to a child. Though that perspective, having his father pass that knowledge and those techniques down to him was a particularly sacred type of apprenticeship. He was expected to carry on his father's legacy, fighting the forces of darkness, while sacrificing his own normal life for the greater good. It was every child's dream: it was Dean Winchester's reality. It's no surprise also, then, that he took to the role with so much enthusiasm, and attempted in every way possible to imitate his father.

Dean's mimicry of his father extended to more than just learning the tricks and trades of fighting the supernatural. He also mimicked his father's "costume" - wearing the same sort of battered leather jacket and same style of clothes as his dad. Sam points out that Dean even listens to the same music as their dad, and Dean is deadset on not even trying to listen to anything more modern. Being given the Impala by his father was a huge symbol to Dean of "becoming" his father, as he long hoped to do, as the Impala was as symbolic of John's heroism to him as the Batmobile was to Batman.

Speaking of whom, it also only makes sense that Dean's favored superhero is who it is: if John Winchester is any sort of superhero archetype, it's most definitely Batman.

John and Dean might not have come from a family of wealth and privilege, but they find a lot of their wealth in freedom - and with a string of fake credit cards, money's never been something Dean's really had to be too anxious about. But the real Batman similarities lie strongly in John's motivations. Bruce Wayne transforms into Batman so that he might enact vengeance on the one who killed his family - and anyone like them. He felt his action were tied to the greater ideal of justice, but in truth, they were rooted in a very personal desire for revenge, that turned his personal crusade into an obsession that warped his entire sense of reality.

Unlike Superman, or other heroes whose powers are derived from some supernatural source in and of itself, Bruce Wayne's powers came simply from his own resources, physically, mentally, and tangibly. To Dean, this seems the ultimate sort of hero: someone normal, who through their own cunning and training turns themselves into something that the dark side of the world needs to be afraid of.

Most importantly, perhaps, Dean's view of his father as a superhero did a huge number on the development of his actual personality. When it comes to hunting, Dean's serious, sharp, and dangerous, but when it comes to interacting with people outside of this context, he's come to view himself as presenting a "secret identity" of his own. Problematically, when this is the majority of the interactions he has, this becomes his prominent personality, so that he, for all intents and purposes, is the face he chooses to show the world. Just like with Bruce Wayne, most of this personality is designed specifically to keep others at bay, to throw off suspicion, or to disarm others so that he might extract whatever he wants from them. Bruce himself comes off as someone entirely self-involved, irresponsible, superficial, and hardly heroic by any definition of the word. Dean comes off as equally self-involved when he is in fact, probably the most selfless character on the show. It's that selflessness, actually, that keeps him from wanting to advertise the fact, so that he won't be celebrated for the trait. In the same way, Dean's incredibly responsible when it comes to things he actually cares about, and he prides himself on the fact, but you'd be hard pressed to find someone who would actually call Dean responsible. Dean's personality seems incredibly superficial, given his tendency to turn even the most dire situations into jokes, but he knows exactly what the reality of the situations he's dealing with are, and he doesn't screw around when it comes to the safety of others.

Dean's 'secret identity' personality is also what is responsible for his inability to connect with others readily. It's his natural instinct to hide things about himself from people, whether they're the reality of what he does, or simply the truth about what he's feeling in any given situation. Having any of this laid out makes him vulnerable, and puts his entire "quest" at risk. Obviously, it's much easier for him to keep relationships with others on a superficial level, and this is especially applicable when it comes to women. He maintains the same sort of tendency towards a number of casual surface level flings that Bruce Wayne has, more to cultivate an image of himself (and as part of the coping mechanisms I'll discuss in a later essay) than anything.

Even Dean's perspective on Sam is influenced by this superhero lens. In almost every superhero story, the hero keeps his identity a secret from those loved ones in his life that he needs to protect, and who wouldn't be able to handle protecting themselves. The fact that Dean knew their father's secret for a long time before Sam ever did, meant that during those interim years, that's how he saw Sam: as someone who needed to be protected, which is obviously a sentiment that has stuck with him for the entirety of their lives. Sam's inability to look over their father's flaws, which Dean has always justified as simply necessary evils, is a threat to Dean's carefully constructed fantasy about their lives, and is why it's such a point of emotional contention between them. Very little is as effective at getting Dean pissed off quicker than when Sam attacks his view of his father.

Of course, as the series progresses, Dean is forced to face up to the possibility that Sam is right. Dean's been able to make it to his late twenties without ever having to really grow out of his childhood fantasies, and so it's especially difficult for him to try to realign his way of looking at the world at this point. He still continues to scrabble to justify his father's actions, but the truth is, that the attention his father always directed towards Sam, as a result of Azazel's plans for him, made Dean feel as if he was always second best, no matter how hard he tried. There's a level of resentment that simmered under the surface of Dean's relationship to John, that despite toeing the line to an extreme degree throughout his life, he still got cut less breaks than Sam ever was. Given the degree to which he hero worshiped his father, and aspired to be like him, so much of his self-worth became tied to his father's approval, and the fact that John rarely ever evinced it is one of the main reasons that Dean's seeming egotism is nothing more than a front for his incredibly low sense of self-esteem. The fact that his father managed to last as long as he did under Alastair's knife without giving in, while he gave in after only thirty years was just the nail in the coffin of his self-delusion that he could ever be the kind of hero he sees his father as.

By current canon, Dean's been forced to face some of his father's more questionable decisions at face value, and been sent back in time to learn that his father used to be a perfectly normal person, both of which rearrange Dean's own ideal end game. Dean used to think that there was no reason he would ever want to hang up the cape, so to speak, but now he realizes that what drove his father was the impossible desire to be able to return to that state of normalcy. Dean ends up reversing roles with Sam: he wants the white picket fence and family, and retirement. Problematically, however, at the end of the 5th season, his experiences, his time in Hell, losing Sam, and his anger at God all culminate to one very terrible truth: there is no going back for him, because he will never truly escape what he's been through, like a veteran returned from the worst of wars. Just like his father, just like Bruce Wayne, just like so many heroes, his identity is the hero within, and escaping it may simply be an impossibility.

Meme; not the first time he's been called a dog

2010-08-27T04:20:46Z

You Are a Dog

You are a giving and thoughtful person. You truly want the best for those around you.

You are hardworking and loyal. You will do anything for your "pack," and you are a total team player.

You are spirited and energetic. You have the highest energy levels when you're with a group.

You have a strong protective streak. You will always step up to defend your friends.

What Origami Animal Are You?

Blogthings: Free Quizzes for Everyone

Drabbles for autophoenix ; 5+1 meme

2010-08-19T02:20:28Z

Title | Five times Dean wanted to strangle Claire and the one time he really needed his baby sister.

Info | Claire is autophoenix . Verse is BNW + 1 from Everybody's Fucked verse. The last one is some... ambiguous future verse apparently where things ... are going well somehow. Timelines vary.

"Why does my car smell like disinfectant?"

Claire had been hoping he wouldn't notice right away after all the time she'd spent aiming fans at the interior, but she hadn't been stupid enough to not realize he probably would notice eventually.

She had, however, really just hoped that it would have taken longer than the two seconds between him opening the door and sliding behind the wheel.

His eyes turned towards Claire, who was slouched in the passenger seat already, legs carefully crossed and positioned to conceal the stain she'd failed at getting out completely. His gaze was so accusing considering it could have been anyone, really.

"Maybe Sam was Febreezing a suit in the back seat," she offered helpfully.

"Sam went to the dry cleaners last week."

"Wow, you guys are moving up in the world."   He deflected her attempt at humor with another cutting glare.

"What'd you do?" he demanded.

She let out a loud sigh and theatrically rolled her eyes. "Dean, it's not a big deal, really."   Her confirmation only served to have him slam his seat back further and start examining every inch of the interior, eyes even scraping the ceilings as if she'd slaughtered someone in the back seat and gotten blood splatters everywhere.

"It's not like you and Sam don't get blood in here all the time," she objected, even as he reached across her to yank the glove compartment open, as if he expected to see a severed hand.

"Not answering my question," he growled.

Finally, she nudged her thigh aside, so that he could see the stain, and his eyes zeroed in ~~like a sniper meteor.~~ "What the hell was that?"

"Nail polish," she answered simply, examining her pink nails, while carefully avoiding his eyes.

"You painted your nails in my car?!"

"You guys took forever interviewing that guy," she pouted slightly.

Dean couldn't even figure out anything else to say, so he angrily threw the car in gear. She couldn't help but take his lack of ordering her out of the car as a small victory.

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Dean tried not to curse as he slammed the door of the motel. No use cursing when no one was around to hear it. Sam wouldn't be back til... well who the hell knew when?

It wasn't as if he hadn't spent plenty of nights out with a girl, but that was different. He was always back in plenty of time to get moving the next day, and all cords were severed the second he snuck out their door.

Sam and this Claire chick on the other hand...

He'd used the word love. Coupled with that damn doey look in his eyes, he knew this meant trouble. Not that he didn't want Sam to be happy - 'course he did. But he needed him to be on the same page he was, if there was any chance they were gonna pull this off. And plugging a woman into the equation was gonna unbalance that. Fast.

He wondered vaguely if maybe she'd turn out to be a monster or a demon or some shit too, and this story would end the way all of Sammy's seemed to.

He wouldn't call it wishful thinking, but just past experience. Sammy seemed to have all the luck.

He'd slip her some holy water over lunch the next day. And maybe drop some salt in it.

Couldn't hurt, at least. Well, might burn the bitch's throat out.

But if she was a demon, she was askin' for it.

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This was the most awkward fucking dinner of his life.

And he knew there was only one person at fault here, from the way Sam seemed so stupidly oblivious to anything other than his birthday bliss with Claire. And the way Claire avoided too much eye contact with him, except for the sly glances she kept casting between him and Brooke, who sat with an entire foot between them on the booth bench.

Seeing as how there wasn't much conversating being done on his half of the table, he spent his time devising elaborate revenge schemes mentally. Maybe he could convince her he and Elle had hit up Vegas and gotten hitched. That might spike her blood pressure a bit.

But it wouldn't be the same damn thing as this freaking torture she was inflicting on him. He smiled tightly at Sam, not wanting to ruin his birthday, but he couldn't help thinking that what he should have gotten his brother for the occasion was the news that he'd stuffed Claire in a rocket bound for the outer reaches of the cosmos.

It wasn't like living on Pluto would kill her.

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Dean was seeing red as he stormed down the steps out of the apartment building. He wanted to go back in there, clock Sylar, or shoot him right between the eyes. But it wouldn't make a goddamn difference in the least. Sylar would toss him around like a rag doll again, do whatever the shit he pleased, and there wasn't a single thing Dean could fucking do about it. His existence mocked Dean's limits, and he ground his teeth against the inevitability of having to accept that.

But some things he didn't have to accept.

Claire being a self righteous complete idiot was definitely one of them. Thinking it was alright to ask Sylar to do that, when it would put everyone else in danger if he snapped. Put Sam in danger, considering whatever Sylar might deny, he still felt something for Claire, and Sam would be a logical first victim. But Claire Bennet hadn't thought two feet past herself to think about the implications of her stupid decision. If she wasn't a chick, he would have punched her right in the goddamn mouth too. But she was, and she was like his freaking sister, so instead he had to ball all that anger up inside and have no idea how to deal with it.

Maybe that was part of the problem here. He led a life where 99% of his problems could be solved or at least temporarily assuaged by the judicious application of violence. But ever since Claire waltzed into their lives, all that had changed.

And right now, he wanted to tell her to turn right the fuck around and march straight back out of it.

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He heard the slow click of the hammer behind his head, and froze solid.

"Didn't know demons were using guns now," he shot, even as all empty hope of this pointless trip coming to anything drained out immediately.

"Not a demon," came an all too familiar voice behind him, and that empty hope was quickly replaced by a creeping chill, worming its way through his stomach where it boiled all too quickly into anger.

"You gonna shoot me, Claire?" he asked, daring as much to turn around and look her in the face, beyond the hollow barrel of the gun aimed straight at him. He saw his own physical changes mirrored in hers - all that black leather, and slicked back hair, and sharp angry planes of her face. And those dead, fucked up eyes.

He knew those pretty well. Saw 'em every morning in the mirror.

"You wish I'd make it that easy," she said, and there was so much bitterness crammed into the statement, that he was surprised it didn't leap out her fingers and fire the gun anyways.

"Still blaming me, huh?" he said, spinning the bitterness right around and spitting it back at her. "Blaming me for losing Sam, blaming me for losing your damned self after--"

"I didn't lose Sam," she spat, and the gun quivered in her hand as she held it higher, brandishing it wildly at him.

He could see how ugly she'd become and he hated the way she made him doubt his own words.

Maybe she'd chosen the only sensible thing, grabbing onto the little bit they had left of him. Maybe he was just fighting to destroy the only thing that he could have even pretended to live for anymore.

Maybe it was his fault she was like this now.

No. Wasn't true. Wasn't Sam. No matter what this crazy bitch said.

He knew he was probably gonna have to kill her himself. He knew he should probably feel something about that.

Instead, he could have choked the life out of her right then and there, and he wasn't sure he'd have felt one single damn thing.

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It wasn't the kinda thing he was ever gonna be able to ask Sam about. He couldn't even get the words out, and he'd tried, while they were driving around, sitting in a diner, any number of things. Sometimes he even started, and Sam would look over at him, and knit his brows together and go "What?" in such a demanding voice that the words would retract back in, recoiling back to wherever they'd come from.

He still wasn't sure exactly where that was. He had a sneaking suspicion it was somewhere in the vicinity of his heart, which was what made this damn conversation so freaking hard.

But finally he found himself rapping on Claire's door, rain ricocheting off his coat, while he rocked on his heels like he was five seconds away from taking off like a shot.

The door opened, and some light and warmth escaped from her apartment as she looked out.

"Dean?"

She wanted him to take a seat, but he helped himself to a beer and stayed standing in the door frame. She looked at him critically, arms folding across her chest.

"What happened, Dean?  Is it Sam?  Did you two get into something?"  Her accusations started flying immediately, and he shook his head, almost relieved that her guesses were so far afield.

"No, nothin' like that," he said, taking a sip, and peeling at the label.

"So what is it?  Or are you just here to say hi?"  There was a bit of an apology there, as she seemd to realized she'd jumped down his throat before jumping to any positive conclusions.

"It's uh... I need ... advice."

That seemed to take her by surprise. She tried to hide it behind a mask of nonchalance, and a little half shrug. "Ok. Advice on what?"

The words sat heavy and awkward on his tongue, but it was nothing like it was when he tried talking to Sam about it. A deep breath, and it just spilled out.

"I need you to help me pick out a ring."

Her eyes were as wide as her follow up smile, and before he knew it, she'd thrown her arms around him, and it wasn't awkward or humiliating or anything but happiness.

And he was grateful as all hell, as he ruffled her hair, to disguise that the hug meant something real to him.

"I'm not very good at this kinda thing," he mumbled.

"She'll love it," Claire beamed. "I'll make sure of that."

Meme; Letters, Day 8

2010-08-17T01:21:19Z

✓ Day 8 → Your favorite internet friend
✓ Verse: BNW
humanmapquest

Molls

Some day when you're older, I'm takin' you to a concert. Until then, something's coming in the mail for you.

Dean.

Meme; 5 times Arden didn't complete a fic meme & 1 time she did

2010-08-15T23:00:19Z

5 + 1 meme!

Comment with a 5 + 1 list (five times X did Y and the one time s/he didn't, for example) and I'll write a little drabble about it! Include the names of the characters, the ship (if applicable), and a general rating to go along with it. This goes for any of my characters.

Characters

BNW | Dean, Angela, Zeus, Lois, Jacob, Quinn, Baltar, Mulder, Sydney, Michael, Jay, Dumbledore
DDD | Sam
Time is On My Side | Sam
Amityville | Buffy
Last Voyages | Buffy
Laid!verse | Buffy

Or other people here.

Disclaimer: it might take 6 months for me to finish. srsly guys. That last one did. >< I WILL TRY.

Meme; Letters, Day 7

2010-08-08T01:48:04Z

✓ Day 7 → Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
✓ Verse: BNW

Cassie

I don't know where you are now. Or what you're doing. Or how you're reacting to all these crazy things happening in the world.

I do wonder if they make you stop and think of me. Hell, maybe just in that they piss you off the same as I always did.

Sometimes I'm tempted to go find out. But it feels like six lifetimes ago, everything we had. It sorta was.

I don't know even know why I'm writing this. I guess I just want you to know that back when I could still imagine the road ending somewhere, I liked imagining it was gonna end back with you. I know you never believed it, but doesn't change facts, that you were the first one who ever made me even consider a happy ending.

Don't think you'd really recognize me anymore, though.

Guess that's one reason I can't go back now.

~~Though the sex might be worth it.~~

Hope you're ~~happy~~ safe out there.

Dean.

Application Ω counted_stars

2010-08-02T05:32:28Z

Player Information:

Name or Handle: Arden
LJ: dancinpenguins
Email: kiwi4ever13[at]hotmail[dot]com
AIM or MSN name: thegreatmuldini
Any current characters here?: THAT IS LESS THAN POSSIBLE 8|
Would you like a protocol droid?:   Only the assassinating kind. So. No. I'm good. o7

Character Information:

Character Name: Dean Winchester
Age: 29
Canon: Supernatural.

Appearance: Dean's an attractive dude with brown hair, green eyes, and an athletic build. He stands at 6'4" and has a pentagram tattoo on his neck to ward against possession. He usually wears the same brown leather coat, and wears a lot of jeans and plaid.

Personality: Dean's life has been fairly defined by fulfilling the 'good soldier' role. It meshes well with his instincts - he is, at the core, the big goddamn hero type.   However, he's also capable of being so notoriously stubborn, that it's almost a surprise how easily he'd bend to his father's orders. In truth, his desire for his father's acceptance and respect has been one of the driving forces in his life: whereas Sam managed to step away from the path they were born into, if only for a little while, Dean's stuck to it every inch of the way. His entire personality's been crafted to fit the business: he doesn't form attachments quickly, except to the people involved in his line of work, the skills he's mastered and knowledge he's memorized all have to do with ways to most effectively hunt, track, and/or destroy demons and other supernatural baddies, and he has a sense of humor that takes things other would consider horrific lightly.

The most important thing to Dean is family, probably evidenced best by the fact that he sold his soul to save his brother, and he refuses to accept what the angels and devil see as the inevitability of him and Sam being used as vessels for a battle of Apocalyptic dimensions.

Dean comes across as a real 'man's man', indulging in women, booze, pie, classic rock, cars, and guns, and bashing on anything he considers to be below his tough guy image. It takes a lot to shake him to the point of tears. He's always ready to face things with (maybe too much) bravado, and probably some foul language, just to spice things up.

I've also got a fairly long analysis of Dean's psychology here.

Background: Dean Winchester was the first child of John and Mary Winchester, born in Lawrence, Kansas, on Jan. 24, 1979. The first few years of his life were about as normal as you could get - although his parents had some marital problems, they were still a pretty peaceful household. These suburban formative years would become a cornerstone of Dean's emotional attachment to his family, and despite only having lived there until age four, he possesses incredibly strong impressions of this time. The truth was, however, that this 'idyllic' childhood had come at a steep price for his mother, who had come from a family of hunters, and made a deal with the demon Azazel. When Dean was four, the demon came to collect, feeding its blood to his baby brother Sam, and killing his mother when she tried to interrupt the process. Dean's father charged him with getting the baby out of their burning house, and in that moment, Dean adopted a level of protectiveness over his brother's safety that would remain for the rest of their lives.

John was irreversibly changed by Mary's death and became consumed with seeking knowledge of the supernatural realm and trade of hunting that would allow him to locate the yellow eyed demon and extract vengeance for the murder of his wife. This meant a life spent on the road, taking both his young boys from town to town, school to school, motel to motel, all in his '67 Impala, stuffed with weapons and tools of the trade in the trunk. Dean was taught from a very early age how to handle weapons, fight demons and monsters, use supernatural protection, and develop a wide array of criminal skills necessary to their job. He believed that his dad was a superhero, and never saw their lifestyle as a burden - they were helping people, as a family, and those were the two most important things to him. When Sam learned the truth about their dad, Dean helped train his brother. He never really expected their lifestyle to change, nor particularly wanted it to.

Like it or not, however, change it did.

Sam announced one night that he was leaving, going off to college, and it sparked an explosive fight between him and John. Dean felt as if his brother was abandoning the family. The relationship between the brothers became strained when Sam left, and eventually they broke off contact completely.

Den was running some missions by himself by this time, and that's when John went missing. Dean showed up at Sam's in the middle of the night, to secure his help in locating their dad. What they found instead were clues - and their dad's notebook full of occult knowledge. When Sam's girlfriend Jessica was killed in the same manner as their mother, he agreed to help Dean track the thing down, and find John, no matter what. Along the way, John dropped more hints leading the boys to various cases, until the message became clear: he wanted them to pick up where he was leaving off. They found him again eventually anyway, and learned about a weapon their father had tracked down - the Colt, that could reportedly kill anything. This led to a confrontation with Azazel, who possessed John, attempting to secure the Colt for himself. Upon escaping from the showdown, the Impala was involved in a car accident that resulted in Dean and John being admitted to the hospital.

Dean was stuck between life and death, until his father made a deal with Azazel, trading his own life for Dean's. Before his death, he told Dean that if Sam could not be saved, it would be his duty to kill him.   It was, however, Dean who saved Sam from death later, by making a deal with the crossroads demon to bring Sam back when he was killed. He, like his father, traded his own life for his brother's, but instead of dying instantly, he was granted one final year. Dean then used the last bullet of the Colt to kill Azazel, and release his father's soul - but in the process, legions of demons escaped into our world. The boys swore to track them down, and Sam vowed to find a way to save Dean before his time was up.

Dean tried to argue Sam out of any attempts to save him, though his brother wouldn't listen - and Ruby, a demon who offered to help him find a way - certainly didn't help matters.   An encounter with a thief named Bela ended up with the boys losing the Colt. They learned that the demon who held Dean's contract was named Lilith, and Dean took Ruby's demon killing knife and tracked her down. They were, however, too late, and were tricked by Lilith's body hopping into Ruby. Lilith granted entrance to her hellhounds, who proceeded to tear Dean to pieces. His soul went directly to ~~Hell.~~ STAR WARS WORLD 8D

I chose this canon point because it's before Dean was... tortured in Hell, which allows him to still make connections to people and things in the world, and I think he'll be much more likely to accept the new situation/world he's thrust into if it's... sort of a reprieve for him anyways. STAR WARS WORLD IS WAY BETTER THAN HELL.

Special Abilities or Weapons: While he doesn't possess any innate superhuman powers, Dean's been trained since a very young age in hunting supernatural beings, and he possesses a wide array of knowledge on that subject. He's proficient with a variety of ~~firearms~~ BLASTERS and bladed weapons, but also skilled in utilizing improvised weaponry, and able to combat hand to hand in a fist fight.   Dean's skilled in tracking as well, and has a life time of experience in the realm of investigation, including questioning people and reading behavioral cues. He can be an incredibly charming individual when he... wants to be, and is especially good at getting his way with women. He has extensive knowledge of creating explosive devices, often from limited resources, and seems to have a good grasp of practical chemical and electrical engineering, as far as it relates to his profession.   He's got a lot of shady skills as well, manipulating credit cards, creating fake IDs, picking locks, escape artistry, stealth, carjacking, etc. etc.    He knows how to use a variety of supernatural tools. He's a great driver, pool hustler, and mechanic. He's also adept at ruining lives. And downing copious amounts of Corellian brandy without getting drunk.

Sect: Civvie.

Job: IDK either a smuggler or a bounty hunter. :3

Samples:

First Person:

Did someone typo my contract? Because last time I checked, sending me to rock out with the Jedi wasn't exactly my personal idea of what Hell was gonna be like.

Not that I'm freaking complaining over here. Maybe I did enough good deeds to make it through the pearly Lucas ranch gates anyways.

So where's the Falcon? I wanna see that baby up close and personal. And bring on the alien babes. Blue chicks, green chicks, Jabba dancing chicks, ones with crescent rolls on the sides of their heads - I don't care. If this is heaven, I'm not gonna be choosy.

... Also, what the shit is a 'gizka' and do I want to order it for dinner or get tested to make sure I don't have it?

Third Person:

It was difficult to know where the act of dying ended and hell began.

Dean had been through the wringer time and time again: been beat up, bitten, shot, clawed, and worse. But being ripped shred to fucking shred, by vicious teeth of unearthly strength, knowing this was the absolute end of all things: that moment itself was as much hell already as whatever he was about to go face.

Knowing he was leaving Sam alone, to who knows what kind of fate? That was the worst of it all.

One thing was for sure, though: he hadn't accepted the pain to end when he got to hell.   Hadn't expected to feel so whole again.

Hadn't expected to be sitting up on the floor of some extra-clean looking room, in his freaking boxer shorts.

Must be some kind of mind game, he figured. Make him think it was over, make him doubt where he was, before throwing the fiery torment at him. He could still hear the growls of the hellhounds ringing in his ears, as he got to his feet, and made his way cautiously towards a window.

Well. He certainly didn't expect that either.

"Holy shit." Dean stared out at the otherworldly cityscape, jaw dropped slightly, as he tried to reconcile why it looked slightly familiar.

"Did I take a wrong turn at Purgatory?" he asked no one in particular, as exactly why it did began to sink in. A nearly manic looking half smile tugged at his lips, and he fought against it. Maybe it was an illusion. Better not believe it too soon.

Or maybe just maybe... he'd landed in the dead center of his childhood dreams.

Extra samples located here.

Anything Else: Dean would like to room with Sam :'D

Drabble challenge for blueshocks

2010-07-31T02:24:54Z

Prompt: Our Space by the Cardigans
Characters: Dean Winchester and Elle Bishop
Timeline/Verse: Everybody's Fucked verse, non-binding.
Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural, or Heroes. Dean is likedillinger and Elle is blueshocks .

And with that, I have finally conquered this drabble meme! \o/

my dear, please see my dear
how we invented the fear
inside that space
no one could interfere
my dear, please see my dear
how we invented the tears
inside that space
no one could interfere

Hell on earth didn't come in storms of fire - or at least, it didn't stay that way.

It was cold, and it was empty - and the reality of it was in the way it scraped out the survivors from the inside out.

Armageddon came internally.

Maybe he was hoping she'd snap, and he'd go the way of her last Dean. It'd be easier that way, some days.

He didn't go into her arms to feel alive. He went with a death wish.

She never fucking followed through.

He wondered what she was getting out of this some days, but he figured it might be the same thing he got sometimes. Pretending. Or self-loathing. Both were pretty popular hobbies in the post-Apocalyptic era.

He thought he might hate her. But it required an effort of emotion he didn't feel like summoning up.

So they just existed. Shared space. Shared nothing.

It was theirs, at least. That was something.

Meme; Letter, Day 6

2010-07-27T02:24:50Z

✓ Day 6 → A stranger
✓ Verse: BNW

~~Dear... whatever your name was~~

So I'm not actually an FBI agent. My name's not Dave Coverdale. And when I said I'd never seen a girl as beautiful, or done it on a pool table in a bar after hours... I was lying. In fact, pretty much everything that came outta my mouth the entire short time we knew each other was a lie.

I don't think you ever even told me your name. For all I know, you had a boyfriend, or a fiancee or a husband. Hell, maybe it was even your first time.

I don't really think about that kinda thing. Call me selfish.

But I wasn't lyin' when I said I wouldn't forget you. I remember ~~most~~ all of you, in your own way.

It's more than just a nice distraction to have an escape from what I really do. It's kinda necessary.

That's probably not what you'd wanna hear, but it's worth thankin' you for anyway.

It's Dean, by the way.

Meme; Letters, Day 5

2010-07-18T19:43:53Z

✓ Day 5 → Your dreams
✓ Verse: BNW.
✓ elsolgirl

Carmen.

I used to wonder if you weren't just something that came outta my head and nothing more. Or if you were real. And out there somewhere. More than that, I used to wonder if what we could've had was real, even with the life I live here.

Meeting you, actually running into you, knowing already you could be everything I wanted...

I probably seem freaking crazy for passing that up. Not that you know anyway. To you I'm just another guy who never came back around.

But the truth is I'm not who I was in the world where we worked out, and I'm not even the same guy who dreamed you up.

I'm pretty sure you couldn't love that guy. And I'm damn sure you'd never understand him, or what he's gone through.

To be honest?

I wouldn't want you to.

Hell, I wish I didn't understand it.

I hope you're happy though, wherever you are. ~~That's more than I could probably have given you.~~

And I still buy your beer. You're a pretty convincing sales pitch.

Dean.

Meme; Letters, Day 4

2010-07-17T22:36:58Z

✓ Day 4 → Your sibling (or closest relative)
✓ Verse: BNW.
✓ getyourownpie

Sam.

I don't know what I'm supposed to say anymore, but you're crazy if you think it's ever gonna be "goodbye".

So maybe there's not a snowball's chance in hell this is even gonna work. And if it does, we both know trapping him is trapping you if we do this crazy plan.

I promised that sonuvabitch I'd let you walk into it anyways.

You know what?

I lied.

I keep telling myself I could have been stronger for you, or a better brother, kept you around instead of driving you away. Done something to protect you from this a long time ago. That somewhere along the line, I screwed up.

But I'm not gonna stop fighting, Sammy. I'm not giving in another inch.

~~I refuse to let it really end this way.~~

Maybe God's a dick, maybe he really did just walk away and not give a shit.

But I won't walk.

I've got your back.

Don't ever doubt that.

Dean.

Meme; Letters, Day 3

2010-07-17T04:19:00Z

✓ Day 3 → Your Parents
✓ Verse: BNW 
✓ John: learnedthetruth / Mary: no associated journal

Dad

I've stopped waiting for you to call. I get it. You know me and Sammy gotta do this - that it's all on us two, and hell, I'd say anybody who's died fighting this fight has more than given their share already. ~~I know I have.~~ I figure somewhere, wherever you are, you've got your own plan, and that's what you're doing. ~~I wish you'd let me in on it. I wish you could trust me with that much.~~

But sometimes, I still catch myself hoping that you'd just show up. Or call us up. Complete with fresh orders.

It's been hard when the only orders I'm taking are my own. When I make the wrong calls, I'm not just answering to you. People die, dad. Or worse.

And it's all on me.

I always wanted to be just like you, you know. To be as strong as you were. But I'm not.

But now... I have to be. That's why you're not around, isn't it?

I've gotta be strong enough, because no one else is gonna be.

I guess I kinda want to thank you for that.

I love you, Dad.

I miss you.

Dean.

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Mom.

I know that a lot of the stuff I remember about you is more just an impression of a feeling than anything. I guess meeting past-you just proved to me how much I never really knew you, even when it was just us and Dad.

But I wish I could talk to you now and ask you one thing.

Ask you how you did it.

How you went back from everything you'd seen, and everything with Yellow Eyes, and living your life like a hunter, and just made a regular life in a regular house for yourself. If he hadn't come to collect, we'd still be together. I wonder if you'd be happy. I wonder if it helped you forget, having us.

It's not something I can really talk to Sammy about, or anybody, but I'm just tired, Mom, and I want to know how you did it.

~~I need to know if I can do it.~~

And I need to know that wasn't you up there. That it was just Zach screwing with us.

Tell me you don't hate me. Don't resent me. I just need to hear it.

I love you.

Dean.

Meme; Letters, Days 1 and 2

2010-07-12T01:44:25Z

No guarantees how many I'll do a day. Just however many I feel like.

✓ Day 1 → Your Best Friend
✓ Verse: BNW
✓ intuitivelyapt

Sylar

So here's the thing.

I used to fucking hate your guts.

I'm not just talking about being annoyed by you. I mean I used to sit around and think about how I was actually going to kill you some day.

The worst part was that I never settled on a plan that would actually work. It only made me hate you more. Knowing you were hanging around Claire, like a freaking ticking time bomb waiting to go off and hurt her... or Sammy?

I used to wonder if the Colt would work on you.

I don't know when things changed, really. After we talked that one time, part of me only wanted to kill you even more. You knew too much. You saw too much. You knew shit I'd worked hard to make sure no one else ever would.

But I guess, as much as I'm never gonna say this to anybody, I think you understand what it's like better than anyone I know. They could never get it. And it's not like you've been to Hell, but you still...

Anyway, I guess that's why it pisses me off so fucking much when you screw up. We're too alike. If you can't stop fucking up, then what does that say about my odds?

I guess the long and short is this:

Stop fucking up. And if you kill anybody else, I'll stick your head in a meat grinder.

~~Because you're the only real best friend I've ever had outside of Sam and Cas and I've kinda gotten used to it.~~

Dean.

✓ Day 2 → Your Crush
✓ Verse: BNW
✓ snarky_blonde

Elle

It's nice to have somewhere where the door's always open, and no one's gonna be pissed at me when I walk out of it.

~~Except that one time.~~

You deserve something good and solid and real though.

I know another one of you, who was actually dating one of me. It weirds me out anytime I hear about mes in relationships. Especially when those assholes seem happy. I know they're hiding something.

He cheated on her. Don't look surprised. I wasn't. Nothing to do with her. But you get it, I hope. Why I can't stick around.

I already know how that kind of story ends.

~~You deserve better.~~

Dean.

Drabble meme from painhumbles

2010-07-03T01:02:02Z

01. Put your music player on shuffle all.
02. Write a drabble for whatever song comes on.
03. You only have the time of the song to write it.
04. Once the song is over you’re done. You can’t write anything more for that drabble.
05. Do this five times.

All of these are Brave New World verse, or... crack therein. Sam is getyourownpie , Cassie is farsees , Meredith is pyrokinetic_mom , Claire is autophoenix , Cas is holy_hand_print , Bela is insilksheets

--------------------------------------------

#1: Stuck In A Moment You Can't Get Out Of by U2

"I'm not scared, I just have very valid concerns about us bring supplies along. How much experience do we have going overseas anyway?  When was the last time you summered on the Reine?" Dean snapped at Sam, who was standing, with folded arms, next to Cassie, who was imitating his pose, despite being half his height. It was a pretty comical image, but Dean was really missing the joke right now. There had to be a way outta this.

"We just... you know..."

"Dean," Sam said, in a calm voice that made Dean want to throw things at his head.

"Those airport security guys are real douchebags these days, you know, 9/11, and all..."

"Dean."

Dean felt a sweat breaking out that he could tell Cassie could just see, because she was smirking, and glancing up at Sammy, shaking her head.

A brilliant thought struck him and he burst out suddenly:

"Cupcakes!"

Sam looked at him like maybe he had snapped. Cassie looked as if she had seen that coming.

"Excuse me?" Sam finally managed to say.

"Cupcakes. Hiro brought me some of Meredith's cupcakes from New York when we were at Bobby's," Dean said, speaking too fast, feeling sort of like he was going to trip over his tongue, but needing to get this out there as soon as possible. "He could take us. It'd be the quickest way."

Cassie and Sam both looked at each with raised eyebrows.

And smirked.

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#2: Looking For It (Finding Heaven) by Jann Arden

There were a lot of things that were the same in every motel room. People who used them sparingly even knew that much, but those things had special significance to someone who basically lived in one.   The cable channels, where they kept the spare towels, if you were lucky enough to be at a good enough place for spare towels...

The Bible stuck in the drawer next to the bed.

Dean didn't know when he'd started noticing when they were laying on top of the drawers upon arrival, but at some point, it'd come to his attention, and without even thinking about, each time, he'd yank the drawer open, and slide the book inside.

Cas noticed once. He stared at Dean with inscrutable eyes, as the hunter grabbed his bag of gear off the bed, but he said nothing as Dean moved past him.

He didn't really have to.

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#3: See You Again by Miley Cyrus

Dean stood in the doorway of the motel room, an expression of pure horror on his face but at the same time, he just... couldn't bring himself to move or react or do anything despite a lifetime worth of hunter instincts.

He was just rooted to the spot.

The music was blaring so loudly off from MTV that Sam didn't notice at all that Dean had even opened the door which was the only way to explain why he was sitting on the end of the bed, on his phone, head bopping back and forth as he ... sang along loudly into his phone.

That fucker really did know every ... single... word.

Of a fucking Miley Cyrus song.

"The last time I freaked out I just kept looking down... st-st-st-stuttering..." His epic head boppery caused him to look to the side and he froze, eyes popping open widely, and the phone did gymnastics in his hand and clattered to the floor.

Dean could hear Claire laughing, and then "..Sam?  Sam, you there?"

Dean just shook his head slowly as Sam slammed his hand on the TV off switch.

"Dude. I refuse to admit that we're actually related," Dean said, and grabbed a beer outta the mini fridge, slipping right back out the door.

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#4: You Knew What This Was by Far-Less

The message was clear: this was a demon town.

They were behind every store window, staring out like moving mannequins, eyes following the boys down the street. Mannequins that housed little fedex-ed demonic packages delivered straight from hell.

It was all the worse now because Dean knew what this world looked like to them. He knew why they wanted to crawl up here.

He also knew why they wanted to desecrate it. Because they could never be a part of it again, no matter how much they might fool themselves.

Sometimes he hated himself for understanding it quite so clearly.

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#5: Ascot Gavotte from My Fair Lady

"I look like a freaking idiot," Dean murmured out of the corner of his mouth. Bela, an arm arched gracefully through his, smiled with all together too much satisfaction.

"You know, you look almost dashing, Dean. Though the scowl doesn't do much for you," she mused.

"I look like I'm here to sell ice cream," he growled, yanking at the bottom of his white suit jacket. "You're never dressing me again."

"Funny," she said, steering him towards their box, as the bell sounded and horses stampeded out onto the track. "I do believe that's what you said the last time."

"Would you like me to throw you down on the track?" he asked under his breath, even as he smiled widely and nodded towards the other people in the box turning to look them up and down, with obvious judgment, and... as much as he hated to admit it, approval.

"Actually, I was hoping to stick around long enough to hear you perform with the rest of the Barbershop quartet," she smiled back.

"I really hate you."

Drabble challenge for phasing_cat

2010-07-01T18:14:02Z

Prompt: Freedom of Choice by A Perfect Circle
Requested By: phasing_cat
Characters: Dean Winchester and Kitty Pryde with mentions of Claire Bennet, Tony Stark, Liz Sherman, and Sylar.
Timeline/Verse: Brave New World verse. In the future, right after Tony Stark's proposed mutant registration act goes through.
Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural, Heroes, or X-Men. Dean is likedillinger and Kitty is phasing_cat . The mentioned Claire is autophoenix , Sylar is intuitivelyapt , Liz is liz_firestarter , and Tony is newagedavinci . All are used with permission and love. Events are non-binding to all muses.

Still accepting requests here!

We're victims of sedition on an open sea
No one ever said that life was free
Sink, swim, go down with the ship
Just use your freedom of choice

I’ll say it again in the land of the free
Use your freedom of choice
Freedom of choice

In ancient Rome there was a pawn
Who followed along and watched it fall
He cast a stone
He felt secure
He felt that he would never be heard

Freedom of choice
Is what you got
Freedom of choice!

You've been given a voice- you don't want it
It seems to be the rule of thumb
Don’t be tricked by what you see
You've got two ways to go

"Yeah. Fine," Dean said, glad Claire couldn't see his face on this end of the phone. There was displeasure etched pretty clearly across his features. "Thanks for the heads up." His thumb slid to END before she could get in another word.

Paying attention to the news had kept him aware that this was coming, and he'd heard things, peripherally, from Claire and Sylar.

Still, it didn't sit well with him that this was happening now. Yeah, the dangerous mutants had to be kept track of, but they were the ones likely to dodge registration somehow anyway. And he didn't like the thought of the government keeping lists of people who were his friends - or in some cases, basically his family.

Sylar would've already heard the act was going through, so his mind traced over who else he knew, who might be out of the loop.

He had to get her number through Liz, in the end. It wasn't like he had her on speed dial. They didn't talk much except on the rare occasions they bumped into each other.

But she'd trusted him, with a pretty hefty secret, no less. And he hadn't forgotten her or the burden she was carrying. This would just be another thing to add to the pile.

She was just a kid.

Except not, because murder had a way of speeding you past that adolescent phase pretty damn quickly.

Would that show up in her file?

Would she end up stamped 'dangerous'?

Not if he could help it.

"Hello?"

"Hey kid," he said, keeping it light. Cheery.

"... who is this?" Suspicious. He couldn't blame her. He threw around a few potential responses in his head before settling.

"It's your supplier," he joked. "I heard you'd be needing a new set of fake IDs soon."

Silence for a second. Then:

"Dean?" She was excited to hear from him. That would be short lived. "... what are you talking about?"

He settled into a chair, grabbing himself a beer and popping it open with his free hand. He had to catch the overflow by quickly bringing it to his lips. That, at least, felt comforting.

"Hope you're sittin' down."

ENTERPRISE II CREW \| PRESENT
	Captain. DEAN WINCHESTER \| likedillinger
	Vice-Captain (yeah, Dean totally made up that title, so he didn't have to demote Jo) SAM WINCHESTER \| imnot_likeyou
	First officer. JO HARVELLE \| incaution
	Chief Engineer. Wafflemaker. GABRIEL GRAY \| intuitivelyapt
	Pilot, on temporary loan from Kirk. Token minority. HIKARU SULU \| leapfromgreat
	~~Science~~ Theology officer / Spock. CASTIEL \| ofinsurrectum
	Ship cook. Token female minority. VIETNAM \| dawnlotus
	Occasional stowaway. Asshole angel. GABRIEL / "THE TRICKSTER" \| painhumbles

ENTERPRISE II CREW \| PAST
	Former Captain. JAMES T. KIRK \| boldly_goes
	Former first officer. ALICE HAMILTON \| notlookingdown
	Former pilot. TROY BARNES \| disco_spider
	Former Communications Officer. ABED NADIR \| narrativedevice
	Former ship cook. RAPUNZEL \| gleamandglow
	Former tech specialist. SAM FLYNN \| mrangrybuttface
	Former navigator. SAKITA SHIORI \| lily_schlaflied
	Former ship ninja. OKITA SOUGO \| sadisticprodigy