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lee_eun_hee — Thu, 16 Feb 2012 07:58:45 GMT

So completely fucking useless, I am a worthless crap of nothing- I don't understand why I had to fuck my life over this badly, and I'm a steady minded person.
I know when I didn't try, I know when I --

I ...
I don't understand why student advisors can't just tell me the truth about what I have the legal ability to do or not.

If I can't get back into a faculty, why raise my hopes, why say I can?
They gave me the standards, that I had to get to go back into my DAMN FACULTY, AND THEN it says I can't get back in.

That rejection letter hurt like a fucking bitch.
I want to cry.
I did everything they told me to, and still I can't get back in.

I tried so hard for those grades,
I can't redo what I did in my first 3 years, where I fucked up.
I can't change that, but I tried to change my future and..

It got me no where.
I tried so hard, and it only gave me false hope, and I'm trying to remain optimistic but..

I tried so hard to be optimistic for the past 9 months that it fucking feels useless.

I just feel ashamed for my parents as well, as they've supported me so much throughout all my fuckery, and now I'm just here disappointing the shit out of them while all my friends graduate.

I really, really hate myself right now. I don't know what I can do.
I just.. I'm so depressed right now, there's nothing I can do.

Nobody to talk to.
I'm just crying the night before an important day of school.
But what's the point when I can't get back into my faculty.
What's the point?

I'm such a fuck up.
I don't even want consolation because I know it won't get me anywhere.

I don't have friends to confide in this, and writing by hand into my diary is way too hard right now.

I can't even kill myself.
What else is there more to say........

well.

lee_eun_hee — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 05:48:48 GMT

Today I had a bad day .

i mean. i'm actually crying while listening to KISSING YOU .
is that even POSSIBLE ? someone answer me this .

lee_eun_hee — Thu, 17 Jan 2008 04:33:55 GMT

January 17

it's my birthday. oh joy.

obviously i'm not too thrilled.

Vin is sad right now, I've sprained my ankle, and I have to go to school for science tutorial sessions tomorrow.

Ghey. Ghey.

happy birthday to dear chan hee (mini yoochun) , hwanhee (fly to the sky), and kangin too.

and of COURSE my fi-butt xcandystripper ; she's my twin .

WOW, those dorky things called resolutions.

lee_eun_hee — Mon, 31 Dec 2007 10:25:23 GMT

Hello and welcome to lee_eun_hee's list of absolutely generic 2008 resolutions.
I am so thankful for new years, because it's the only way I "quit" something.

Only two regarding LIVEJOURNAL :)
- Not lose contact with catnip1613 because there's something about her that makes me want to scream "I LOVE YOU!" at. And that hasn't happened to me in much. Too. Fucking. Long. What happened to the days when --(Sorry if this is very random!)
- Write a whole story for miracle______ and fucking FINISH IT!

Resolutions regarding me.
- Stop going online so much and do good so I can graduate with a 72.0% average to get into my University.
- Probably eat one meal a day, called lunch. :)
- Lose a lot and lot of weight so relatives can stop fucking ruining my life like they did today.
- Control my anger management, somehow...?
- Make my hair something I like. Stop idolizing people and going to extremes.
- Restudy my Korean and learn a new phrase each week -_-
- Learn how to rap. Well, I sort of already know how to 8D♥.. but since SINGING isn't working out for me, lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUNGMIN-BEAR♥♥♥♥♥
HAPPY PINK DAY~!!!!♥♥♥♥♥

(well in 4 and a half hours, but I'm CLOSE KAY?)

Anyway, ONE AND A HALF YEARS UNTIL I'M MOVING OUT!

name: Rachel Lee
age: 16 (17)
birthdate: Kangin-day (January 17) 1991
height: Sunny-height (158cm)
weight: much too much!
hometown: verysunnyasia
passport nationality: Canada
ethnicity: joseonjok
likes about self: perfect pitch, critical thinking
dislikes about self: laziness, physical outlook, anger problems
likes: music, mathematics, singing, dancing
dislikes: my grandma's cooking, my dad's cooking, and my dad's side of the family, and the fact that i have no friends in real life.
my favourite thing in the whole world is: my pillow.

STAR FANDOM!
Favourite actor: Jae Hee
Favourite actress: Song Hye Kyo (beautiful)
Favourite girl singer: BoA
Favourite boy singer: Kyuhyun
Favourite rapper: Nicole Jung / G-dragon / Tablo
Favourite girlgroup: So Nyuh Shi Dae / Wonder Girls / KARA / CSJH
Favourite boygroup: Super Junior / Big Bang / DBSK
Favourite stars: Sohee, Ryeowook, Yehsung, Go Ara, G-dragon, YoonA
Favourite disbanded group: K.I.S.S

More dumb facts about me
Favourite color: Pink, white, black
Favourite addiction: makeup
Favourite thing to do: Sleep but I don't get enough of it
Myself in one word: contradition
Favourite song in the world: DBSK - One (korean)
Ring tone: Super Junior - Lovely Day
Favourite scent: Limited Edition Summer 2007 Anna Sui Dolly Girl Bonjour something something ..
Favourite makeup brand: M.A.C

lee_eun_hee — Wed, 21 Nov 2007 03:14:59 GMT

^ o ^
i luv Jae Hee ♥

Hair!

lee_eun_hee — Tue, 13 Nov 2007 01:29:43 GMT

I've decided to do my hair like :

lovely SooYoung for the time being !

Instead of studying, I worked on that banner for AMBN forums...

THIS is genuinely creepy.
"How to look like an uhljjang" -___-;;

But omg, gotta study for my social and chemistry exams. *sigh* TT__TT