one life with one dream on repeat

Fanmix

2010-09-19T02:16:40Z

It's been almost half a year since my last fanmix :O Anyway, for my newest little fandom...

i. Florence + The Machine – Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up)
I must become a lion hearted girl
Ready for a fight
Before I make the final sacrifice
“‘I volunteer!’ I gasp. ‘I volunteer as tribute!’”

ii. Ani DiFranco – Not A Pretty Girl
I am not a pretty girl
That is not what I do
I ain't no damsel in distress
And I don't need to be rescued
“No one will forget me. Not my look, not my name. Katniss. The girl who was on fire.”

iii. Everclear – She’s So High Above Me
She's blood, flesh and bone
No tucks or silicone
She's touch, smell, sight, taste and sound
But somehow I can't believe
That anything should happen
I know where I belong
And nothing's gonna happen
'Cause she's so high
High above me, she's so lovely
She's so high, like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite
She's so high, high above me
“But now Peeta has made me an object of love. Not just his. To hear him tell it I have many admirers.”

iv. Keane – A Bad Dream
I wake up, it's a bad dream
No one on my side
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
To be fighting
Guess I'm not the fighting kind
“‘…when the time comes, I’m sure I’ll kill just like everybody else. I can’t go down without a fight. Only I keep wishing I could think of a way to…to show the Capitol they don’t own me. That I’m more than just a piece in their games,’ says Peeta.”

v. Blue Foundation – Eyes On Fire
Eyes on fire
Your spine is ablaze
Felling any foe with my gaze
“Something happened when I was holding Rue’s hand, watching the life drain out of her. Now I am determined to avenge her, to make her loss unforgettable, and I can only do that by winning and thereby making myself unforgettable.”

vi. The Hush Sound – Carry Me Home
Wait for the wind to blow
Can't carry myself, can't carry me home
On my own will
Can't let you go just yet
Can't bury myself, can't carry us both
On my own will
“‘You’re not leaving me here alone,’ I say. Because if he dies, I’ll never go home, not really. I’ll spend the rest of my life in this arena, trying to think my way out.”

vii. Better Than Ezra – Desperately Wanting
I remember running through the wet grass
And falling a step behind
Both of us never tiring
Desperately wanting
“I’d begun to think that he’d given up on me in the weeks that had passed. Or that he no longer cared about me. Hated me even. And the idea of losing him forever, my best friend, the only person I’d ever trusted with my secrets, was so painful I couldn’t stand it.”

viii. Marina & The Diamonds – Mowgli’s Road
Ten silver spoons are chasin’ after me
One life with one dream on repeat
I’ll escape if I try hard enough
‘Til king of the jungle calls my bluff
Oh Lord, I have been told
That I must take the unforsaken road
There’s a fork in the road
I do as I am told
‘Til I don’t know, don’t know
Don’t know, don’t know
Who I wanna be
“I will never have a life with Gale, even if I want to. I will never be allowed to live alone. I will have to be forever in love with Peeta…He means there’s only one future, if I want to keep those I love alive and stay alive myself. I’ll have to marry Peeta.”

ix. Beck – Lost Cause
Your sorry eyes; they cut through bone
They make it hard to leave you alone
Leave you here wearing your wounds
Waving your guns at somebody new
I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of fighting
Fighting for a lost cause
“‘You’ll see the choices you’ll have to make. If we survive this,’ says Haymitch. ‘You’ll learn.’”

x. Anberlin – The Resistance
Silent alarms are ringing
Sounds of revolt draw near
A new united front
That you will come to fear
We will hold together
To become the change
Voice for the voiceless
With every common man engaged
“When they chant my name, it is more of a cry for vengeance than a cheer. When the Peacekeepers move in to quiet an unruly crowd, it presses back instead of retreating. And I know that there’s nothing I could ever do to change this.”

xi. Disturbed – The Game
It doesn't really seem I'm getting through to you
Though I see you weeping so sweetly
I think that you might have to take another taste
A little bit of hell this time
You always wanted people to remember you
To leave your little mark on society
Don't you know your wish is coming true today?
Another victim dies tonight
“It’s just too perfect an answer for the troubles that face the Capitol today. Getting rid of me and subduing the districts all in one neat little package. I hear President Snow’s voice in my head. ‘On the seventy-fifth anniversary, as a reminder to the rebels that even the strongest among them cannot overcome the power of the Capitol, the male and female tributes will be reaped from their existing pool of victors.’”

xii. Hoobastank – The Reason
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
“So that’s who Finnick loves, I think. Not his string of fancy lovers in the Capitol. But a poor, mad girl back home.”

xiii. Lady Gaga – Dance In The Dark
Some girls won’t dance to the beat of the track
She won’t walk away but she won’t look back
“‘They can’t hurt me. I’m not like the rest of you. There’s no one left I love,’ Johanna say, and frees her hand with an impatient shake. When she brings me back a shell of water, I take it with a silent nod of thanks, knowing how much she would despise the pity in my voice.”

xiv. The Afters – Keeping Me Alive
It's like I never lived
Before my life with you
So much was missing here
I never even knew
I still picture the place we were
When I fell into your world
“I realize that only one person will be damaged beyond repair if Peeta dies. Me.”

xv. Howie Day – Collide
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide
“And suddenly, it’s as if there’s no one in the world but these two, crashing through space and time to reach each other. They collide, enfold, lose their balance, and slam against a wall, where they stay. Clinging into one being. Indivisible.”

xvi. Audioslave – Doesn’t Remind Me
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget
“Prim asks the question that’s in my mind. ‘Is that what they’ve done to Peeta? Taken his memories of Katniss and distorted them so they’re scary?’”

xvii. Jimmy Eat World – Carry You
Maybe a lie is what I need sometimes
You told the most and best of anyone
You said to "keep me in your pocket"
So I carried you
“‘Real,’ I answer. It seems to require more explanation. ‘Because that’s what you and I do. Protect each other.’ After a minute or so, he drifts off to sleep.”

xviii. Rob Thomas – Mockingbird
Maybe you and me got lost somewhere
We can’t move on and we can’t stay here
Well maybe we’ve just had enough
Well maybe we ain’t meant for this love
You and me tried everything
But still that mockingbird won’t sing
Well man this life seems hard enough
Well maybe we ain’t meant for this love
“I’m searching for something to hang on to, some sign of the girl and boy who met by chance in the woods five years ago and became inseparable…Would they have been happy, out in the wild, or would the dark, twisted sadness between them have grown up even without the Capitol’s help?”

xix. 30 Seconds To Mars – This Is War
To the edge of the earth
It's a brave new world
From the last to the first
“The point of my arrow shifts upward. I release the string. And President Coin collapses over the side of the balcony and plunges to the ground. Dead.”

xx. Goo Goo Dolls – Better Days
So take these words and sing out loud
'Cause everyone is forgiven now
'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
“‘Now we’re in that sweet period where everyone agrees that our recent horrors should never be repeated,’ he says. ‘But collective thinking is usually short-lived. We’re fickle, stupid beings with poor memories and a great gift for self-destruction. Although who knows? Maybe this will be it, Katniss…The time it sticks. Maybe we are witnessing the evolution of the human race. Think about that.’”

xxi. Stars – In Our Bedroom After The War
Lift your head and look out the window
Stay that way for the rest of the day and watch the time go
Listen! The birds sing! Listen! The bells ring!
All the living are dead, and the dead are all living
The war is over and we are beginning
“Slowly, with many lost days, I come back to life. I try to follow Dr. Aurelius’s advice, just going through the motions, amazed when one finally has meaning again.”

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The single fannish activity I just can't seem to quit

2009-05-02T04:06:35Z

It's been forever, but finally a new fanmix, this time for one of my favorite little subplots of The Silmarillion. I love the symmetry of the this one. Also, Míriel is the only one on the cover due to A: lack of people pretty enough to be Finwë and Indis and B: my lack of Photoshop skillz xD Please comment if you're taking/with comments, questions, concerns~~, meta xD~~.

FIVE ACTS IN A HEARTBREAK
a Míriel/Finwë/Indis fanmix
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I. The Beginning
A Fine Frenzy – You Picked Me
Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me

Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me

“The love of Finwë and Míriel was great and glad, for it began in the Blessed Realm in the Days of Bliss.”
The Silmarillion

Keane – Walnut Tree
Underneath the walnut tree
Where you said you'd wait for me
And I waited a long, long time

Why, why do I come here?
Seeking out the memories I hold in
'Cause you put your spell on me
Made me live in memory
And I’m frozen in just the wrong time

I waited a long, long time

“Now it is told that in the bearing of her son Míriel was consumed in mind and body; and that after his birth she yearned for rest from the labor of living. And she said to Finwë: ‘Never again shall I bear a child; for strength that would have nourish the life of many has gone forth unto Fëanáro.’”
Histories of Middle-Earth: Morgoth’s Ring

II. The Despair
Seether & Amy Lee – Broken
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

“Míriel’s death was of free will; she forsook her body and her fëa and went to the Halls of Waiting, while her body lay as if asleep in a garden. She said that she was weary in body and spirit and desired peace.”
Histories of Middle-Earth: The Peoples of Middle-Earth

III. The Emptiness
My Chemical Romance – Helena
Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

“Finwë’s grief was great, and he gave to his son all the love he had for Míriel.”
Histories of Middle-Earth: Morgoth’s Ring

Howie Day – Ghost
I know there's little use in crying
It's more wide awake and dying then I'm used to
I thought we'd walk these streets together
Now I'm hoping that I'll never have to meet you
Step aside from all this anger
And somewhere in between I can feel you

“When it became clear at last that Míriel would never of her own free will return to life in the body within any span on time that could give him hope, Finwë’s sorrow became embittered. He forsook his long vigils by her sleeping body and sought to take up his own life again; but he wandered far and wide in loneliness and found no joy in anything that he did.”
Histories of Middle-Earth: The Peoples of Middle-Earth

IV. The Hope
Stars – Your Ex-Lover Is Dead
It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love

Live through this, and you won't look back

“There was a fair lady of the Vanyar, Indis of the House of Ingwë. She had loved Finwë in her heart, ever since the days when the Vanyar and the Noldor lived close together. In one of his wanderings Finwë met her again; and her face was lit by the golden light of Laurelin that was shining in the plain of Ezellohar below. In that hour Finwë perceived in her eyes the love that had before been hidden from him.”
Histories of Middle-Earth: The Peoples of Middle-Earth

V. The End
The Veronicas – Everything I’m Not
‘Cause you’re so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend so this is the end
Of you and me

Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

“She was a Vanya, golden-haired and tall, and in all ways unlike Míriel. Finwë loved her greatly, and was glad again. But the shadow of Míriel did not depart from the House of Finwë, nor from his heart.”
The Silmarillion

The Fray – All At Once
Maybe you want her, maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it, maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

“Then his heart turned at last to her, and he believed that this chance, as it seemed, had been granted for the comfort of them both.”
Histories of Middle-Earth: Morgoth’s Ring

Fanmix #1,307,836

2007-12-22T20:53:41Z

For my OTP.

- - - A B O U T

& Who puts Toby Keith, Kelly Clarkson, and Cute Is What We Aim For on the same mix? Lmao.
& I tried to follow a pattern of his POV, her POV, etc.
& 95% of this is just my perception of their relationship. All we really know is that they got married, had seven kids, and then separated. And then he died ~~and there was hot ghost!sexing~~.

- - - [zip] - - -

Cute Is What We Aim For – The Curse Of Curves
I’ve got the gift of one liners
And you’ve got the curse of curves

The Hush Sound – The Artist
I know that you’re an artist
You’re the hardest one to deal with
Everything you conceal is revealed on your canvas
You find all of your ugly meanings in the things I find beautiful
Don't you see the fall is coming?
Come falling into you

You perceive all of these things I never have known
Love please turn out the lights ‘cause we’re already home

Toby Keith – Huckleberry
Baby I’ll be your huckleberry
You don’t have to double dare me
If the storm gets wild and scary
Count on me to be right there
You’re so extraordinary
Sweet like maraschino cherry
We’ll grow up and we’ll get married
I’m gonna be your huckleberry

Anna Nalik – In My Head
Under the weight of your wings
You are a god and whatever I want you to be
And I wonder if truly you are
Nearly as beautiful as I believe

Goo Goo Dolls – Iris
And I’d give up forever to touch you
‘Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t wanna miss you tonight

Kelly Clarkson – Beautiful Disaster
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain’t right, it just ain’t right

Oh and I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?

Boys Like Girls – The Great Escape
Tonight we’ll change our lives
It’s so good to be by your side
We’ll cry, but we won’t give up the fight
We’ll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they’ll think it’s just ‘cause we’re young
And we’ll feel so alive

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We’ll make the great escape
Won’t hear a word they say
Don’t know us anyway
Watch it burn, let it die
‘Cause we are finally free
Tonight

Stars – One More Night
Try as he might, he’s unable to speak
He grabs her by the hair, he strokes her on the cheek
The bed is unmade like everything is
Dark little heaven at the top of the stairs
Take me like that, ruin it all
Then build it again by the light in the hall
He drops to his knees, says “please, my love, please,
I’ll kill who you hate, take off that dress you won’t freeze”

One more night, that was a good one
One more night, I dreamed it was a good
One more, one more night, that was a good one
One more night, the end should be a good one, a good one

He starts with her back, ‘cause that’s what he sees
When she’s breaking his heart, she still fucks like a tease
Release to the sky, look him straight in the eye
And tell him right now that you wish he would die
You’ll never touch him again, so get what you can
Bleeding him empty just because he’s a man
So good when it ends, they’ll never be friends
One more night, that’s all they can spend

Fanmix (this time with 100% more incest!)

2007-09-17T23:12:57Z

Okay, so let me just justify this with the fact that people don't seem to find Peter/Claire gross or squicky just because he's HER uncle.

Dashboard Confessional – Stolen
And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well
You have stolen, you have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in your highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel
You have stolen, you have stolen my heart

Kelly Clarkson – Miss Independent
Miss on her own, miss almost grown
Miss never let a man help her off her throne
So, by keeping her heart protected
She'd never ever feel rejected

Little miss apprehensive
Said ooh, she fell in love

Snow Patrol – You’re All I Have
There is a darkness deep in you
A frightening magic I cling to
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a change to hold on

Just give me something to hold on to

It’s so clear now
That you are all that I have
I have no fear
Now you are all that I have

Vanessa Carlton - Unsung
If I could be the lesson that you learn
I could be the last one that love burns
If only I could get into that corner of your head
Where things finally match and meet the standards that you set

Oh how I wish I was the treasure that you were looking for
Bet I would feel better if only I could find the door

Papa Roach – Forever
In the brightest hour of my darkest day
I realized what is wrong with me
Can't get over you, can't get through to you
It's been a helter-skelter romance from the start

Take these memories that are haunting me
Of a paper man cut into shreds
By his own pair of scissors
He'll never forgive her, he'll never forgive her

Because days come and go
But my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go
But my feelings for you are forever

Samantha Ronson – Built This Way
And I wonder if I’m just built this way
‘Cause every man that I know
Makes me feel like
I’m to blame

When it’s over
Me and my selfish ways
Go back to start again
Go back to start again

Muse – Time Is Running Out
I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted

Now that you know I'm trapped
Sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation

You will squeeze the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Howie Day – She Says
Sweet is the sight
Of her room
Window opened by candlelight
How would you know

Cold winter on the shore
Chills the dress she wore
It's on the floor
Still it feels so warm today

And that's why I'm wondering why
You had to tell me
What's going on in your head
What's wrong

Come around to another time when you
Don't have to run

And when she said she wants somebody else
I hope you know that's she doesn't mean you
And when she breaks down and makes a sound
You'll never hear her the way that I do

And when she says she wants someone to love
I hope you know that she doesn't mean you
And when she breaks down and lets you down
I hope you know that she doesn't mean to

Cute Is What We Aim For – Moan
We all wet our lips to prepare for the kiss
But it never came
And we all wet our lips to prepare for the kiss
It was but a game

You have a moan all of your own
And I can feel it down to the bone
And you have a moan all of your own
And I can feel it down to the bone

You trained these lips when they were champs
Now they’re itching for a comeback, so comeback
It’s a shame that your claim to fame
Hangs on someone else’s name, so comeback

Lifehouse – Blind
After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind

But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
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Please tell me if you're taking, share my love of the pairing, or think I'm a sick, sick person! ;D

Yet another fanmix

2007-07-01T20:55:24Z

A mix for my favorite Silmarillion character, the one, the only, Fëanor. 25 songs plus a bonus track, featuring Muse, Breaking Benjamin, Snow Patrol, Imogen Heap, and more. Enjoy!

C H A S I N G S T A R L I G H T: a Fëanor mix

1 - RYAN ADAMS – FIRECRACKER
Well everyone wants to go forever
I just wanna burn out hard and bright
I just wanna be a firecracker

“…Fëanor grew quickly, as if a secret fire were kindled within him.”

2 - SNOW PATROL – RUN
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice

“He became of all the Noldor, then or after, the most subtle in mind and the most skilled in hand.”

3 - VANESSA CARLTON – ORDINARY DAY
Just an ordinary boy
But he was looking towards the sky
And as he asked if I would come along
I started to realize
That everyday you find
Just what he's looking for
Like a shooting star he shines

“While still in his youth he wedded Nerdanel…”

4 - ALEXZ JOHNSON – CRIMINAL
Cause I won't live through you or beneath you
I walk this way where these winds won't bring me down

“Few ever changed his courses by counsel, none by force.”

5 - THE AFTERS – BEAUTIFUL LOVE
Maybe a greater thing will happen
Maybe all will see
Maybe our love will catch like fire
As it burns through me

“For Fëanor was driven by the fire of his own heart only, working ever swiftly and alone; and he asked the aid and sought the counsel of non that dwelt in Aman, great of small, save only and for a little while of Nerdanel the wise, his wife.”

6 - KELLY CLARKSON – ADDICTED
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You’ve taken over me

“The heart of Fëanor was fast bound to these things that he himself had made.”

7 - ANA – WE ARE
See the devil on the doorstep now, my, oh my
Telling everybody oh just how to live their lives
Sliding down the information highway
Buying in just like a bunch of fools
Time is ticking and we can't go back, my oh my

What about the world today
What about the place that we call home
We’ve never been so many
And we've never been so alone

“Thus the lies of Melkor were made true in seeming, though Fëanor by his own deeds had brought this thing to pass; and the bitterness that Melkor had sown endured, and lived still long afterwards between the sons of Fingolfin and Fëanor.”

8 - SMILE EMPTY SOUL – WHO I AM
The fire grows inside
The feeling can not be denied
When everywhere I turn there's signs because they push me
Well I was falling down
But it's okay right now

And all along the way I feel a part of me I have to fight
Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin
The emptiness in me is fading I can see my life is waiting
Now I know I'm living for who I am

When everything seems gray
When everyone is fake
No one really knows you
Look into their eyes
Rip off your disguise
Let 'em see the real you

“…Fëanor looked upon Melkor with eyes that burned through his fair semblance and pierced the cloaks of his mind, perceiving there his fierce lust for the Silmarils. Then hate overcame Fëanor’s fear, and he curse Melkor ad bade him be gone…”

9 - THREE DAYS GRACE – RIOT
If you feel so empty
So used up, so let down
If you feel so angry
So ripped off, so stepped on

You’re not the only one
Refusing to back down
You’re not the only one
So get up

Let’s start a riot
A riot
Let’s start a riot

“…and he rebelled against the Valar.”

10 - RELIENT K – BITE MY TONGUE
It seems I'm always close minded with an open mouth
And the worst of me seems to come right out
But I've never broken bones with a stone or a stick
But I'll conjure up a phrase that can cut to the quick

“Fëanor was a master of words, and his tongue had a great power over hearts when he would use it…”

11 - DAUGHTRY – THERE AND BACK AGAIN
You have made a choice to hear your voice
Or hold on to what you said
Now shine
Now here’s your moment to shine

“…and that night he made a speech before the Noldor which they ever remembered. Fierce and fell were his words, and filled with anger and pride…”

12 - PANIC! AT THE DISCO – THE ONLY DIFFERENCE BETWEEN MARTYRDOM AND SUICIDE IS PRESS COVERAGE
And I believe this may call for a proper introduction
Don’t you see I’m the narrator and this is just the prologue
Swear to shake it up if you swear to listen
Oh we’re still so young and desperate for attention

“Long he spoke, and ever he urged the Noldor to follow him and by their own prowess to win freedom…”

13 - TORI AMOS – DARK SIDE OF THE SUN
Is there a way out of this?
If there is I don’t see it
Can heaven and hell coexist?
Not when both battle for dominance

Brush back my tears
And he said, “girl, we have to soldier on
Yes girl, even when we don’t feel strong”

So how many young men
Have to lay down their lives
And their love of a woman
For some sick promise of a haven

“ ‘Fair shall the end be,’ he cried, ‘though long and hard shall be the road!’ ”

14 - IMOGEN HEAP – ANGRY ANGEL
And he loves to rebel
To go against his Ten Commandments
To him, that’s just being free

“Then Fëanor swore a terrible oath. His seven songs leapt straightway to his side and took the selfsame vow together, and red as blood shone their drawn swords in the glare of the torches. They swore an oath which none shall break, and none should take.”

15 - JEFF BUCKLEY – HALLELUJAH
Well your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you

And she tied you to her kitchen chair
And she broke your thrown and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the hallelujah

“…she fought fiercely against Fëanor in defence of her mother’s kin…”

16 - BUFFALO SPRINGFIELD – FOR WHAT IT’S WORTH
There’s battle lines being drawn
And nobody’s right if everybody’s wrong
Young people speaking their minds
Getting so much resistance from behind

“…he went to the Haven of the Swans and began to man the ships that were anchored there and take them away by force.”

17 - MUSE – STARLIGHT
Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if i live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

“…and Fëanor slipped away secretly with all he deemed true to him, and went aboard, and put out to sea…”

18 - SWITCHFOOT – MEANT TO LIVE
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?

“For Fëanor, in his wrath against the Enemy, would not halt, but pressed on behind the remnant of the Orcs, thinking to come at Morgoth himself; and he laughed aloud as he wielded his sword, rejoicing that he had dared the wrath of the Valar and the evils of the road, that he might see the hour of his vengeance.”

19 - 3 DOORS DOWN – GOING DOWN IN FLAMES
Don’t tell me what to think, ’cause I don’t care this time
Don’t tell me what to believe, ‘cause you won’t be there
To catch me when I fall
But you’ll need me when I’m not here at all
Miss me when I’m gone, again

I’m going down in flames
I’m falling into this again
I’m going down in flames
I’m falling into this again

“…for he was fey, consumed by the flame of his own wrath.”

20 - BREAKING BENJAMIN – UNTIL THE END
It’s over, no longer
I feel it growing stronger
I live to die another day
Until I fade away

Why give up, why give in
It’s not enough
It never is
So I will go on until the end

We’ve become desolate
It’s not enough
It never is
But I will go on until the end

“Long he fought on, and undismayed, though he was wrapped in fire and wounded with many wounds; but at the last he was smitten to the ground…”

21 - DRY CELL – BODY CRUMBLES
Finally I find when I lose control
Inside, my body crumbles
It’s like therapy for my broken soul
Inside, my body crumbles

“…Fëanor bade them halt; for his wounds were mortal and he knew that his hour was come.”

22 - MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE – WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE
A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call

To carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches

“…but he cursed the name of Morgoth thrice and laid it upon his sons to hold to their oath, and to avenge their father.”

23 - SARAH MCLACHLAN – FALLEN
Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through to fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

“Then he died; but he had neither burial nor tomb, for so fiery was his spirit that as it sped his body fell to ash, and was borne away like smoke…”

24 - DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL – VINDICATED
Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

“Thus ended the mightiest of the Noldor, of whose deeds came both their greatest renown and their most grievous woe.”

25 - COLDPLAY – FIX YOU
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

“But Mandos said: ‘And yet remain evil. To me shall Fëanor come soon.’ ”

BONUS: AARON CARTER – I JUST CAN’T WAIT TO BE KING

D O W N L O A D
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NJO fanmix

2007-01-26T20:05:15Z

Notes, cover art, song list, and zip behind the cut!

About

A lot of people hated the New Jedi Order. And if you read it without getting pissed at least every now and then, you're obviously not a Star Wars fan.

But still, it wasn't awful. It had redeeming qualities. So I decided I needed to make a mix. It shifted from a Solo Brat mix to an Anakin mix, to an Anakin and Tahiri mix, to a Luke, Mara, and Ben mix. In the end, I decided to make a general mix for most of the major characters. Sure, there are a few that didn't make it, and yes, I did favor some characters above others, because if I like a character better I'm more likely to find a song that fits them.

Anyway, enjoy!

the {[ Z I P ]}

Bono – Children Of The Revolution
Well you can bump and grind
If it’s good for your mind
But you won’t fool the children of the revolution
Oh no, no, no

Jaina, Jacen, and Anakin, and their friends are growing up and learning they must do their duty as Jedi and make difficult choices.

Guns ‘N’ Roses – Knockin’ On Heaven’s Door
Mama put my guns in the ground
I can't shoot them anymore
That cold black cloud is comin' down
Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Chewbacca dies, changing the game for the rest of the war.

Evanescence – All That I’m Living For
I can feel the night beginning
Separate me from the living
Understanding me
After all I've seen
Piecing every thought together
Find the words to make me better
If I only knew how to pull myself apart

Mara’s disease has left her fighting for her life, and hoping not to become another casualty, she tries to find what the cause of it is.

Heather Nova – Blood Of Me
You're the blood of me
You're the truth that hurts
You're the memory
You're the drug that works

Why do people change
When hearts still beat the same?

Han and Anakin are split and torn over Chewie’s death, and a rift has formed between Leia and Jaina.

U2 – Tryin’ To Throw Your Arms Around The World
Nothin’ much to say I guess
Just the same as all the rest
Been tryin’ to throw your arms around the world
A woman needs a man
Like a fish needs a bicycle
When you’re tryin’ to throw your arms around the world

Luke is plagued with indecision, only wanting to keep everyone safe.

My Chemical Romance – Welcome To The Black Parade
He said, "Son when you grow up,
Would you be the savior of the broken, the beaten and the damned?"
He said "Will you defeat them,
Your demons, and all the non believers, the plans that they have made?
Because one day I'll leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join the black parade."

Ben is born, and the Skywalker legacy continues through him.

The Ark - One Of Us Is Gonna Die Young
We gotta hurry in our worry and get done today
Cause one of us is gonna die young
Let’s put our money where out mouth is and get out today
Cause one of us is gonna die young

The Mrykr Strike Team were young Jedi who were ready and willing to give their lives for the galaxy, and they proved it.

Megan McCauley – Die For You
And I bleed you since I've healed you
Your pain escapes through me
'Cause I breathe you, but I hate you
'Cause they say we could never be

It seems the pain's been traded
Since I pulled you through
And now my mind's been so jaded
And I would kill myself for you
I'd die for you

Anakin saved his brother from torture and he saved his sister from death while consumed by guilt.

Relient K – Who I Am Hates Who I’ve Been
Stop right there, I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change

Han worries that Anakin never knew how sorry he was for blaming him for Chewbacca’s death.

Everclear – I Want To Die A Beautiful Death
Everybody they just want to forget
Everybody wants to feel like they did when the sky looked good
And the world was perfect

I don't care
I just want to die pretty
I just want to get lost in the motion
I just want to get lost in my beautiful self
I just want to get lost in the city
I don't want to live forever
I want to die a beautiful death

Jaina wants to block out the pain of her brothers’ deaths by causing more.

Sarah McLachlan – World On Fire
I watch the heavens and I find a calling
Something I can do to change this moment
Stay close to me while the sky is falling
Don't wanna be left alone, don't wanna be alone

Kyp helps Jaina move from the brink of self destruction; Jag comforts Jaina when she feels everyone is leaving her.

Papa Roach – Scars
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Jacen’s view of the world is unsteady and constantly changing as he deals with his grief and the war.

Oasis – Little By Little
You know I didn't mean what I just said
But my God woke up on the wrong side of His bed
And it just don't matter now

Little by little we gave you everything you ever dreamed of
As little by little the wheels of your life have slowly fallen off
Little by little you have to live it all in all your life
And all the time I just ask myself why are you really here?

The Jedi fight for the support of the government that often shirks them even as they protect the citizens.

Elton John – Rocket Man
And all this science I don't understand
It's just my job five days a week
A rocket man, a rocket man

Luke carries the weight of the world on his shoulders while searching for Zonama Sekot.

The Calling – Our Lives
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments, these are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered I know it wouldn't matter
These are the moments, these are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

The good guys win and the bad guys get their special paradise planet, and they all embark on their own journeys to continue living their lives.

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New fanmix

2006-09-22T21:31:26Z

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Vampire – Bif Naked
Watch me do my dance for you
I want you, nothing you can do
Baby get ready I’m coming for you
I’m a vampire
"I could pick the wisest and bravest knight in all the land and make him mine forever with a kiss."

Satin In A Coffin – Modest Mouse
Are you dead or are you sleeping?
Are you dead or are you sleeping?
Are you dead or are you sleeping?
God I sure hope you are dead
"Eternal torment. Am I learning?"

Starfuckers, Inc – Nine Inch Nails
I am every fucking thing and just a little more
I sold my soul, but don’t you dare call me a whore
And when I suck you off not a drop will go to waste
It’s really not so bad, you know, once you get past the taste
"I remember that lust for the kill."

I Want To Die A Beautiful Death – Everclear
I just wanna get lost in the motion
I just wanna get lose inside my beautiful self
I just wanna get lost in the city
I don’t wanna live forever, I wanna die a beautiful death
"They claim that death is our art."

Buried Alive By Love – HIM
To die is to know that you’re alive
And my river of blood won’t run dry
I never wanted to lose you
But a cold heart is a dead heart
"Love isn’t brains, children, it’s blood—blood screaming inside you to work its will."

Passive – A Perfect Circle
Don’t play dead, ‘cause maybe
Someday I’ll walk away
And say you fucking disappoint me
Maybe you’re better off this way
"What we once were informs all that we have become. The same love will infect our hearts -- even if they no longer beat."

Home – Depeche Mode
The heat and the sickliest sweet smelling sheets
That cling to the backs of my knees and my feet
Well I'm drowning in time to a desperate beat
And I thank you for bringing me here
"If we could live without passion, maybe we’d know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow."

FANMIX LOLZ.

2006-05-21T04:48:53Z

Please, please, please, just drop a comment if you take a song. Or if you just want to give me a pat on the back. It makes me feel all good, y'know. Anyway, enjoy.

For You I Will : Teddy Geiger
I’m gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannonball into the water
I’m gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
"She's gonna have it tough, that Slayer. She's just a kid. The world's full of big, bad things." - Whistler
"I wanna help her. I want...I wanna become someone." - Angel

You & Me : Lifehouse
Cause it’s you and me
And all of the people
And I don’t know why
I can’t keep my eyes off of you
"What are you afraid of? Me? Us?" - Angel

Temporary Insanity : Alexz Johnson
It's temporary insanity
What's going on with you and me?
Is it real or is it fantasy?
Forever or just temporary?
"You dreamed about Angel again?" - Willow
"Third night in a row." - Buffy

What’s Left Of Me : Nick Lachey
Now I’m broken
And I’m fading
I’m half the man I thought I would be
But you can have what’s left of me
"100 years, just hanging out, feeling guilty. It really honed my brooding skills. Then she comes along." - Angel

Over My Head : The Fray
Everyone knows I’m in over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She’s on your mind, she’s on your mind
"I'm just trying to protect you. This could get outta control." - Angel
"Isn't that the way it's supposed to be?" - Buffy

Drunk On Shadows : H.I.M.
Drunk on shadows and lost in a lie
Killing ourselves a kiss at a time
Devils dance while angels smile
Drunk on shadows and lost in a lie
"When I kiss you, you don't wake up from a deep sleep and live happily ever after." - Angel
"No. When you kiss me I wanna die." - Buffy

Iris : Goo Goo Dolls
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
"I love you. I try not to, but I can't stop." - Angel
"Me too. I can't either." - Buffy
"Buffy, maybe we shouldn't..." - Angel
"Don't. Just kiss me." - Buffy

Angry Angel : Imogen Heap
This is an obsession, a kind of aggression with himself
It’s the way he’ll always be
He loves to rebel, to go against his Ten Commandments
For him, that’s just being free
"She made me feel human. That's not just the kinda thing you forgive." - Angel

#1 Crush : Garbage
I will pray for you
I will pray for you
I will sell my soul for something pure and true
Someone like you
"You're still the only thing he thinks about." - Willow

Close Your Eyes : Christophe Beck
{ instrumental }
"What's happening?" - Angel
"Shh. Don't worry about it. I love you." - Buffy
"I love you." - Angel
"Close your eyes." - Buffy

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2005-07-25T01:48:10Z

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