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Shoujo Manga List

lavhire — Sun, 28 Sep 2014 16:55:26 GMT

Ultimate Doki Doki!
Midnight Secretary
The Hands the Demon Adored
Mishounen Produce
Skip Beat (218/?)
Kyou, Koi wo Hajimemasu
Biyaku Cafe
Hapi Mari
Mars

Favourites
Ao Haru Ride (44/44)
Hana Kimi (46/162)
Himitsu no Ai-Chan
L-DK

It was okay
Aiomou Hito (Collections)
Ookami Shoujo to Kuro Ouji (19/32)

Mixed Feelings
Black Bird

Dropped
Strobe Edge (14/37) - Disliked female heroine acting all innocent when she's a bitch
Desire Climax (20/49) - The smut was just getting all creepy and overdone
Kaichou wa Meido-Sama - Don't get the appeal
Rhapsody in Heaven - errrr

COME

lavhire — Sat, 15 Feb 2014 10:42:15 GMT

Waiting my days to come again.

lavhire — Sat, 02 Feb 2013 03:33:13 GMT

You really can change, your reality is based on the way you think. -Oprah

Heck yeah I need to bring myself out from this emotional self-pity-everybody-hates-me bubble again. I deserve to be happy no matter what. Will own up to the mistakes I do and show them the person I am that been misjudge from time to time.

And yes this positivity works before and it'll work again!

So I've been addicted to Dr Phil

lavhire — Fri, 01 Feb 2013 22:18:33 GMT

Latecomer I know.

But I live in a country where they don't air shows like that or not that I'm aware of.
I rarely watch reality TV (because most of them sucks) and the only one I keep up with was ANTM? (even that was partially scripted). Funny thing is I think I've heard Dr Phil mentioned in some songs that I was listening to

So I went on Youtube, click on the video about 'Mum hating Daughters' and ta-da there is where my hooking started. So I've been watching videos under the user who uploaded them and then I couldn't stop. It's showing a lot of those people who have issues with hate, self-rightousness, ego, denial etc are mostly due to insecurity issues.

I guess I was fascinated with the minds of the people who are going through issues that honestly shocked me at times, although yes maybe sometimes Dr Phil wasn't really be soft to some people but heck from where I am coming from we're freakin harsh and yeah I do think some people that he told off deserve some scolding.

What shocked me are rape cases by their own family repeatedly for YEARS and they come out courageous and so strong by it. Not even acting like a victim nor acting traumatic. Like seriously props to people like that. And after watching shows like that.. suddenly my problem (and the peoples' problem around) is like a small grain of sand compared to an ocean.

Makes me want to deal my problems with more dignity.

Yes I still can't stop watching Dr Phil and I sleep at late hours because my mind keeps thinking and keeps being curious about the minds of people that do the crimes/perpetrator and goes through all these problems. I couldn't comprehend how people would do the things they do (especially criminals) and I learn that enablers play a big part on letting these people commit their faults repeatedly.

It's just funny how the more problematic, weirdest, egoistic person can married and have children and still have people sticking to be with them while the nicest people in the world are still single. Maybe it's just .... hmm fate or time and circumstances?

Such a world we're living in.

I do read up on comments that a lot of people do not agree with Dr Phil's method but I do like him so far. And it certainly woke me up from my self-pity pool these days.
(Thought I'm still struggling with finding myself and connecting with people)

Back from the dead

lavhire — Thu, 24 Jan 2013 15:59:24 GMT

So my last LJ entries was 2 years ago.

Wow just wow.

So what have I been doing my life. Been exploring things, going through mishaps, left old friends meeting new people, changing perspectives in life, well despite everything I'm the same old me :)

Life has anything been funny.
And well karma happens for certains I did in my life.
I'm paying back for some of the things I had used to take for granted.
And honestly I felt very relief for getting this karma because it makes me stronger.

I'm not living a lie anymore.

So I heard Yui went on a hiatus.

And hey new LJ layout!
Will be here more often to get in touch with my music side I guess.
BTW I have my own band!

RECAP

lavhire — Mon, 11 Jan 2010 19:32:34 GMT

After being absent from LJ for so long. I literally missed LJ. Really! And I have NEVER made a proper entry for like almost half a year? Also, I've kinda missed the feeling of being in a cocoon shell. Just wrapped up in that small area where I will feel at peace. Even if it's just for awhile. And to my f-list, I know I have been a very bad LJ friend so major apologies. ~~as usual if you want to remove me please do so.~~

What have I been up to? Internship semester! I wanted to go to Masako-nesama's company but that company chose my classmate instead of me and he complained working there. That bugger! Oh well anyways I'm working at my boyfriend's company instead so I have some freedom. Like surfing the net all day long and laze around! But of course, I can't take advantage and still have to do some work. I've yet to be evaluated by my boyfriend's partner.

Movies and Shows
As usual. I has no watch any blockbuster epic movie besides Avatar. Guh.. I really has no time. As for TV Series, I've only been following up on Chuck and I HAVE TO watch CSI DVD boxset that my_chris borrowed me. *swt*

Music
Ironically, Lord of Vermillion's music sounds more Final Fantasy-ish than whatever FF is out now. (oh god Leona Lewis *rolls eyes* don't remind me) And it's by the great Nobuo! Ahh he's still the best! *cries* I feel like playing the game already but no time. I'll just stick to my DS-su. Besides that, been listening to Macross Frontier songs on repeat. ( I grieved, coz I missed seeing May'n TWICE!). Listening to random bands like Air and The Postal Service for something different. =D

Dolls
Yep, I have decided to sell one of my dolls. ;-;

Sidetracked : Adagio Project
Recently opened a booth with the Adagio gang at Comic Fiesta 2009. I can't believe my lousy badges can be sold ;_;. And yeap hope to improve my drawing this year yosh!

Cosplay
Guess what spark is back? My cosplay spark! Yes I'm into this expensive hobby again. And I'll probably be 100% COSPLAY MODE : ON this year. I guess I feel inspired again. I recently did Ciel Phantomhive from Kuroshitsuji. My cosplay was borderline satisfied for me though. I really hope I don't ruined Ciel because I really love him! A few of my cosplay groupies includes akiyumi87 (Maylene) and checkerzelda (Sebby)! Gah I planned to do another photoshoot of Ciel this year <333

Clickie to DA:

More at my Deviantart

starting anew..

lavhire — Wed, 10 Jun 2009 20:51:02 GMT

semi FRIENDS

♥ nomad / dreamer

it's comfirmed

lavhire — Fri, 29 May 2009 16:40:37 GMT

KATH IS SATAN MORROC!!!!

supposed to be doing assignments..

lavhire — Wed, 29 Apr 2009 10:10:17 GMT

..but I so lack motivation. *sigh* I was trying to give my LJ a facelift but a lot of layout don't suit my content and my currents look retarded. I'm too lazy to figure out the codes so I just change the background. And yes different icons now? Totally different right?

And now I am totally digging Lady Gaga's Fashion song. It's so literal lol. I like the part where she mentions the her favourite designers name in French.

Lady Gaga - Fashion

Ohhh Ohhh
La La La

I am, I'm too fabulous
I'm so fierce that it's so nuts
I live, to be model thin
Dress me, I'm your mannequin

J'adore Vivienne, habillez-moi. Gucci, Fendi, and Prada. Valentino, Armani too. Merde, I love them Jimmy Choo.

Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be (2x)

Ohhhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We love designer

I need, some new stilettos
Can't walk, down the street in those
You are, who you wear it's true
A girl's just as hot as the shoes she choose.

J'adore Weitzman, habillez-moi. Louis, Dolce Gabbana, Alexander McQueen, eh ou. Merde, I love those Manolo.

Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be (2x)

Ohhhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We Love Designer

Ohhhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We Love Designer

Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be
Fashion put it all on me
Don't you want to see these clothes on me
Fashion put it all on me
I am anyone you want me to be (x2)

Ohhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We love designer

Ohhh Ohhhhh
La La La
We love designer

Gah besides that the swine flu outbreak kinda freaks me out. My condolences to all the victims. I heard its starting to spread into Asia. And I have a flu now so I hope I don't get paranoid. Guh I'm having headaches now.

I should be starting on my packaging design, typography design and the alfa city website. It should all be finished tonight! Man I have not touched a thing! *sob*
MOTIVATION COME TO ME!

daily dose of uhh?

lavhire — Tue, 28 Apr 2009 13:40:38 GMT

That's it from today onwards. I will babble more about my life. Hmm... but I seem to forget what I had to do whenever I come home.

Despite being busy and having a very bad time management as usual. I am re-watching Eureka 7 and lovin it! (thanks Chris for introducing it!)

I don't know why this anime is like so quiet. Maybe to me. It was around 2005? What was the anime craze round 2005-2006? *checks* Oh ya it's around Trinity Blood/Blood+/School Rumble/Rozen Maiden/Honey and Clover era and around 2006 is the Code Geass/Nana craze. I guess this anime never had that big chance to be overhyped? Nevertheless, I can't believe it missed this back than.. Eureka 7 is definitely up in my list!

My favourite character in the whole show shockingly was Anemone! (And that time I really like Koshimizu Ami because of her BUT the Kallen thing turn me off GUH.) But when I rewatch the whole show and I ended up having my fair share love for each of the characters. Heck I even grow to like Renton because I feel I can relate to him? (he's kinda like Naruto.. I don't fangirl over him but I will kinda support him)

Yeah the main reason why I love this anime a lot is because of the feeling. Why did I say this because usually when I watch an anime.. whether I will have an everlasting liking for it..it must have this nice feeling. Yes I do love fanservice/WOW storylines kinda anime but I won't really go crazy for those for long. I like the blending of the story with the mecha .. the mecha scenes are not overdone,the battle scenes are not too long unlike other mecha animes. The background setting and whole story comes into place around the end of the anime. Mix ethnicity characters. Surf bots yeah! Most people might find find Eureka 7 boring because they don't have much of the usual typical ELEMENTS inside and maybe that is why I love it! Other people though might find it typical after watching the first 10 eps... it's because the first 10 is just the beginning!!

And this is getting long dammit. I'm support to make this short and sweet! Basically Eureka 7 is a happier, less-confusing, less-emo, less-frustrating, less-annoying version or NGE (it's a classic but it DOES get annoying when you don't know what is going on or at SHINJI) or RaXephon or something. Maybe because there are aiming for the younger population? AND IT HAS A HAPPY ENDING. GOSH I'm sick of HIGH DEATH RATE ANIMES. It's so overrated. WHAT? Killing people off makes the story cooler now? NO! It means running way because its obvious directors don't know how to end it!

I think I should be done with this. Anyways I wikied Eureka 7 and the anime/manga actually won TONS of awards. I think it has a such a great story. Okay done nuff said!

AND I TOOK THIS TEST!

I think I AM a nerd in a different way I guess. Maybe I was just a dork? But gosh all these questions are about Star Wars and I don't know much about Star Wars though I do wish to own a light saber actually one day for the lolz but they are SOO expensive!

Okay Thursday nite. I have this Karaoke nite event. I hope you guys can come and join! Well it's not a big thing but I have not seen you Adagios for a such a longgg time.

friends cut and notes

lavhire — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 07:26:07 GMT

Oh yeah I feel so much better now! Man these PMSes are getting the hang out of me sometimes and I can't even control it. Guh. I have slight motivation now. I hate my head. Man I hate being a girl sometimes. These uncontrollable hormones!

Anyways I have decided to do a friends cut. I'm sorry if I'm cruel to some people but this is because :
- we never even communicated in any way
- u never commented here ; i never commented in your lj
- we just never clicked

anyways if I ever made a mistake and accidentally deleted someone I know. Please do comment here!

sorry sorry sorry shawty shawty shawtty

lavhire — Mon, 09 Mar 2009 07:35:28 GMT

dance dance dance OH OH OH
dubidubidubi oh.. oh OH.. Oh OH...
sorry sorry sorry
makeup makeup makeup
shawty shawty shawty...
push up push up push up
da dan da dan da da da papappappa
dance dance dance OH OH OH OH
....

Okay I'm not making any sense but Super Junior's new song Sorry Sorry is indeed addictive. Well following DBSK's and BoA's footsteps of synthesizing their voices and they music is as usual very similiar to American music these days (Timbaland, Keri Hilson, Neyo etc.....). Anyways despite all that it's pretty addictive. Hahahaha.

And the part they kept going "Dance Dance Dance" remind me of Lady Gaga lol.

Naruto Chap 437

lavhire — Sat, 28 Feb 2009 09:13:55 GMT

Yes I'm gonna be a Narutard for day. Yes spoilers ahead!
But OMG ♥♥ NARUHINA

I mean after how many yearrrss. I thought Kishi wouldn't even developed them or rather push Naruto to Sasugay or Sakura instead. I mean yes I do like SasuNaru but only for the lulz and fanservice but NaruHina is really special in my heart.♥♥

And it was an epic confession. I couldn't think of anything else. I mean maybe Kishi wanted the confession to be at the right moment and the right time. He couldn't do it earlier because maybe he can't find the right moment. I mean the confession was cliche in a nice way. And it really blends with the current theme and direction of the manga. It doesn't feel odd or anything! ♥♥

This quote says it all: Dorkpie from Narutofans Forums

I refuse to be on the last page!

These are excellent posts and LAPs I've been reading. My turn, kay? Unspoiler tagged, because I'm tired of being ignored. ;)

The Chapter Cover and Title: The picture was semi-NaruHinaish. We see Hinata, Naruto, and... Shino? Well.... it's focused on Hinata mostly. The title... self explanatory. "Confession".

I don't want to lose him, he feels so close to me, I've always felt this way. <- That's EXACTLY what her feelings are.

This chapter was for us. (Oh Kishi, you are full of surprises. This chapter came from out of no where. Many didn't expect it, but it was amazing) It was an epic, emotional, touching chapter. In my opinion, the NaruHina confession scene.... may even surpass the emotions in the SasuSaku confession scene. It's not every day Naruto hears "I love you" directed at him.... And... just wow. One word: Sacrifice.

Hinata rushing in: So she decided to disobey orders after all. That's fine. She wanted to protect the one she loves even if it meant she could possibly loose her life. She KNEW she wasn't strong enough. She gave Naruto a quick explanation of why she wasn't going to get the hell out of there. I don't think she saw it as a ZOMG big moment of confession. Perhaps her intention was to distract Pein, so Naruto could come through once again?

Naruto's concern: Annnnnd there you have it. He tells her to leave for her sake. He can't have her getting hurt. His facial expressions express his concern for her as well.

Hinata's confession and thoughts: Daisuki = love. It's not a mistranslation nor can people argue against it. Databook one confirmed Hinata is in love with Naruto, yet people argued it false. Well, tough now. You can't argue it anymore, as a confession came straight from her mouth.
She thinks about her memories with him. She thinks about his smile. She lets him know she is there on her own free will...

"I wanted to be with you" <- Now that's powerful. Whether she meant stay by his side as a lover or simply because she loves him. She wanted to walk with him. And we see a close up of his eye, going wide, when she states this. Kishi is exaggerating his expressions for a good reason.

Oh! And her lack of stutter! Even WHEN she says "Because I love you, Naruto-kun". No blush. No stutter. Just confidence. Did you notice? She really has improved. =]

Hinata's possible death: People do tend to bleed when they get stabbed. Actually, I loled when I saw her being stabbed wasn't even visible. And the fact Naruto didn't state she was dead.
Character's have gotten stabbed before. Characters have bled from the mouth before. Does that mean they died? No.

Hinata already had a near death experience before. The result of her fight with Neji in Chuunin lead her to be in critical condition (even coughing up blood). However, she was stronger than that.

Don't freak out about this. Remember that Hinata is part of the Konoha 12. Kishi has pulled this multiple times in the past where he would "kill" one of them (Sasuke, Chouji, Neji, Gaara), leave us hanging for a few chapters, and then they would be perfectly fine in the end. What I expect to happen is someone (Sakura, Shima, Koh?) running towards Hinata, and attempting to heal her up. If it's Sakura - let's hope she's not useless and doesn't just stand there. If that happens, then I'll loose all respect for her. A medical nin DOES NOT simply watch anyone, especially a friend/team mate, bleed to death.

I don't see Hinata dying. Not at all. Especially because her death was NOT foreshadowed (unlike multiple other "important" characters who have themes and a background), and think of the.... fans. Hinata and Sakura basically share the same amount of popularity in Japan. Kishi is smarter than that. You could argue Kakashi, but remember, he's uncertain. Oh, and the fact that we haven't even seen how much she's improved post time skip yet. That could play a factor.
She's completed one part of her theme - confronting Naruto and telling him that she loves him. The other part has yet to be completed. Remember the arguments? Her change isn't solely based off Naruto amirite?

Think about Koh too. He's as good as dead also if she was killed.
Hinata is heir to nobility. She won't be left for dead so easily. Knowing Kishi's style and tactics, I'd say there's a good chance she's going to survive.

I'm not really one to base it off of technicalities, but some people have studied the panel of her lying on the ground after she was stabbed. Most tend to say she's just severely injured.

If she DOES die (even though I believe that has a 2% chance of becoming reality), at least we could say we were right from the beginning in which Hinata always did love Naruto romantically and it wasn't mere admiration. We were also right about the fact she was important to him; that he wouldn't brush her off.

Naruto going six tails: The first time ever that we have seen this form. And it was Hinata to trigger it. He raged not only because his friend was stabbed in front of him, but that very friend also confessed love to him right before. Don't you think that WOULD have an impact on him? Especially since no one has ever confessed to him before.

"Love breeds sacrifice, which breeds hatred". And Naruto raged.

Arguments I've seen:

"Naruto would have gone crazy over anyone else!" - Perhaps. But if so, then why DIDN'T Kishi use anyone else? This isn't for fanservice purposes. If it was, Kishi would have used Sasuke (somehow) or another male character to please yaoi fans. Or heck, even use Sakura.

Naruto has not seen someone (WHO LOVES HIM EVEN) 'die' in front of his eyes since the wave arc. (Sasuke) Could it be that Kishi used Hinata for a reason? Especially ~~when~~ if she survives?

Hinata was the last straw. And she will be the one that Naruto actually does save out of them all. It makes sense.

"Confession doesn't make it canon! Naruto won't like her instantly!" - That's correct. However, he didn't reject her like people said he would either. =P You could argue it was because there was no time to, but I don't think so. Perhaps we'll see his thoughts after the whole fight is over with. I honestly see him returning her feelings, thinking "Hey, she has loved me all along. I have finally found someone who loves me. I want to see where this goes". Or something like that. Honestly why shouldn't he give her a chance? Everything he's always wanted is right there in front of him. Someone who looks up to him, someone who he can cheer up easily, someone who loves him romantically. Sakura has rejected him time after time out of plain disinterest. Naruto would be an absolute IDIOT if he passed this opportunity (Him and Hinata) up.

Man, this whole scene (The KN6 scene as I will refer to it as) really does sound like something from a romance novel. Usually in these types of scenes, both characters survive.

If this wasn't a true act of love I don't know what is. She is willing to SACRIFICE her LIFE for the boy she LOVES. Naruto definitely see's that.

Seriously though, this is an action manga. Kishi wasn't going to have Naruto and Hinata sit at table one day and have her say "Um... Naruto-kun... I have a confession to make.... Of course he would go with the angst and dramatic romance scene.

By the way just to make it clear. I'm not a Naruto fan. I just really really love NaruHina. I mean I really love Hinata and I think she deserves something after all these years!

I just hope she survives and I read that apparently she managed to master a technique that EVEN Neji or other Hyuugas couldn't even master. How great our little shy girl has grown!!

[PG-13]TEDDY BEAR (old fic @_@)

lavhire — Tue, 13 Nov 2007 17:17:38 GMT

Title : TEDDY BEAR
Length: Oneshot
Author : Lavena (Lavhire)
Beta : joeykaiba
Rating : PG-13
Pairings : Jaeho/Yunjae.. yesh it's mild BL!

Note : Man this fic was lost in jaeho_detox. I couldn't find it again. OMG I would like to thank joeykaiba for being my beta-er that time. ^^ Anyways this fic is OLD. So if you interested to read it. I'm grateful *bows*

Teddy Bear...

Silence echoes. How do you perceive it?

Unknown voices approach your mind despite the overwhelming stillness. All hope has disappeared so that it’s just a waste of time living... When it felt like your life had just stopped ticking.

Thoughts spun around in Jae Joong’s mind, one after another as he ran around aimlessly in the dark, hugging his teddy bear tightly to his chest.

Yes his teddy bear, his only friend.

Once again, he found himself running away from the scars forever etched deeply inside his soul. Yes wounds will heal, but the scars will remain forever. Avoidance is temporary, but just how long could he avoid it? No matter how far he runs, he can never escape.

His memories and nightmares will linger as long as he exists on the face of this earth. Oh, how the world loathes his presence. Just by living, just by walking...

His friends are found in the depths the forests rather than the humans scattered in the cities.

The trees, the leaves... the creatures.

Jae Joong cried and ran until he couldn’t anymore. Away from a person who he was supposed to call his father. He slowed into a walk and panting, bumped into a solid figure causing him to fall painfully onto his knees.

With growing dread, he looked up and immediately shrank back in fright at the unknown form looming threateningly above him. He clutched his teddy bear as if it was his only life... his only hope.

"Trying to run away eh? I haven't had another round with you... Hehe, doing it in the forest seems like another refreshing place, huh?"

Jae Joong whimpered, tears streaming down his face as the figure ripped his shirt off roughly. His struggling was to no avail as a strong hand pinned him down.

‘No, noo.. nooo! This can't be happening again!’ Jae Joong wanted to run but the figure’s grip on Jae Joong hands was like steel. Steel as cold as the fear within him.

Suddenly, a loud shot was heard as Jae Joong felt the person jerk slightly towards him. Jae Joong could barely see the whites of his eyes in the moonlight when the figure above Jae Joong fell on top of him. Jae Joong was too terrified to feel the pain of the weight that crushed him against the ground.

He laid there helpless as he felt a wet stickiness spread slowly through his shirt onto his stomach. The smell of the figure's breath reeked of alcohol and the pungent, metallic stench of the blood was getting stronger and stronger. Jae Joong momentarily blacked out as felt a wave of dizziness hit him.

It felt like hours had passed when the cold air hit Jae Joong's face. Jae Joong gasped, breathing in the sweet night air. Taking deep breaths, he finally realized that the weight had been pushed aside. Looking up, he could make out a young boy staring worriedly at him.

"Are you okay?"

Jae Joong stared, too terrorized to move. The boy grabbed Jae Joong, pulling him up. Jae Joong weaved a little on his feet, when the boy unexpectedly gave him a hug. Jae Joong hazily felt himself lean into the embrace.

"It's okay. Everything is going to be okay now Jae Joong"

Jae Joong looked into the boy’s eyes, his own wide and trembling, reflecting his curiosity.

"Haha, its okay Jae... You might not remember me but I know you ‘coz I gave you this teddy bear. I promised that I would come back for you remember?"

Jae Joong just stared.

"I'm Yunho"

Flashback

All the kids were kicking Jae Joong who could not control himself, crying on the spot.

"HEY! YOU PEOPLE!!" Yunho yelled. "COME HERE! You are all such ugly FATASSES!! Catch me if you can!!!"

The kids stopped bullying Jae Joong and ran after him as Yunho darted away, taunting them. Jae Joong wobbled to his feet painfully, and stumbled onto the side of the road, where he sat, waiting for the boy to come back. He wanted to thank him.

One hour had passed as Jae Joong, standing, scanned the area eagerly, but the boy was nowhere to be found.

Suddenly there was a tap on his back. Jae Joong whirled around and he saw the boy that rescued him from the bullies.

"Listen, I gotta go to another town today. By the way, my name is Yunho! I've been noticing you around; you're so pretty and cute! Hehe! I can't talk to you much now, but here is my teddy bear… I might need it back in the future."

Yunho gave a shy peck on Jae Joong's forehead, shoving the teddy bear into Jae Joong’s arms.

"Bye Jae Joong"

And that was the last time that Jae Joong saw him. Three years ago.

Now, a 14 year old Jae Joong stared at Yunho.

"How did you…"

"I promised you that I will come back for the teddy bear, and for you right?"

A soft breeze wafted around them, bringing the scent of almost forgotten memories as Yunho leaned in to kiss Jae Joong. It was a kiss that forever sealed the promise of Yunho protecting Jae Joong. An everlasting kiss that completed both of their souls.

in the end jae joong realize there is hope in life after all but it pops out when you least expects it.

And his presence in this earth finally has a meaning.

DBSK@MALAYSIA - 17th Oct 07'

lavhire — Thu, 18 Oct 2007 12:15:23 GMT

Okay so after a few hours of sleep and spazzings to some of my friends. I am finally able to make a report about yesterdays events. I may not know what fully happened throughout the whole day. Yes I was kinda trying to follow DBSK the whole day. Just to catch a glimpse of them at the hotel. It was hard to find them because we kept making wrong predictions of how Dong Bang is coming in.

@ HOTEL

So yeah *winks* I was told that they are at Sunway Resort Hotel for the press conference. Since my house is like 3 minutes walk from the Sunway Resort. Of course I shouldn't waste my opportunity to catch them in the flesh. Initially I wanted to go for the airport but I guess it was too expensive. So thanks to renaldomoon SHO much I'm able to go for departure. (Arrival pictures anyone?)

So met up with a few people I know like checkerzelda, Sora, Melissa, Yin Ling and many more.

Yes waited inside the hotel. All my nervous systems are twitching. And when I'm nervous I'll have gastric. Oooh those butterflies really exist in my stomach.== So yeah the the van came and it was WHOA! I remember seeing Chang Min's beanie first. Then other SM staffs came out from the other van. It was frantic seeing fans following them into the Hotel. The security have to protect them by linking their hands to form a loop around Dong Bang Shin Ki. So I ran over to the other lift and HOMG I caught a glimpse of Chang Min's beanie/behind.(BOY I was like OMGGGG when I saw him.. nice features, tall, nice body built and YES I'm not the biggest Chang Min fan mind you) And a mysterious white hat which either belongs to Yoochun or Yunho. But yeah I did not scream surprisingly.. but I heard fans yelling "Junsu!" then I decided to walk straight down to the press conference. (lots of fans were yelling BTW)

So we fans kinda gathered there for a long time. Thinking Dong Bang would pass through the press conference. BUT NO. Maybe because the management doesn't have any trust or confidence that the fangirls wouldn't bang or push themselves into DBSK so they decided Dong Bang should use ANOTHER way to go to the press conference. (Some of the Secustars aka bodyguards specializing in protecting superstars were lying to us..)

So a lot of fans waited like a fool thinking that Dong Bang Shin Ki would come from the main route. But next thing you know they were already in the press conference. Few of my friends have access to the press conference and get to ask Dong Bang questions. Serena C from HITZ.FM was MC-ing was the press conference as well as asking question for the reporters.

So slowly the the fans waiting outside the press conference are becoming lesser and lesser. Some of them are restless, some of them have curfew so they had to go home. Or some of them just got the wrong information. (some of them were bored and started making the Chang Min's GHOST noises outside) Being so short it's not funny not seeing anything when ALL THE TALL people in front can see Dong Bang Shin Ki so clearly when THE BOIS switched between the press conference room to the Exclusive Interview Room. And even not funny when they PUSHED me behind and some were rude. (GUH hey I'm 147 cm and I see NOTHINGS!)I was pretty restless at the time already and I really wanted to go home. Thanks to my friend and some staffs for the info I was able to go to the floor where Dong Bang Shin Ki would go out.

I really wish checkerzelda would stay longer coz she misses her chance to see her Minnie. So after a looong day and many fail predictions. We decided to take a gamble and go through the floor where DBSK would probably pass by.

AND THEY DID. OMOalsjdlaksjdskldjskldjskljslkdjsldkjsldkjdskdj. Honestly and seriously I wanted to run home already before that. Coz I thought i was wasting my time and I couldn't SEE even see an inch of them. So me, Sora and renaldomoon decided to check out the floor just in case. But if they did not come out of that floor I wouldn't even care BUT THEY DID!

So from far I heard fans yelling meaning Dong Bang already went out from the Interview Room to the floor we were waiting. So we waited. And a few SM securities came out and MY HEART STOPPED WHEN I saw Jae Joong coming out. LIKE OH.MAI.GOD! Seeing that BEAUTIFUL CHARISMATIC BLONDE GLORY coming out walking towards our direction was SOOO AMAZING. The best thing is? It was ONLY the three of us fans.

I wanted to yell "Yunjae HWAITING" actually ( but I stopped coz yunho was err fan away). But you know I can't EVEN THINK when KIM JAE JOONG the YOUNG WONG JAE JOONG the HERO JAE JOONG was RITE in front of ME. Without security, without barriers, without screaming fans. (Hey we were the sanest fan that they faced throughout the whole day). We were calm. HONESTLY we weren't yelling or running towards them. I was sitting down when Jae Joong started walking out with the SM staffs. I waved at Jae Joong and HE WAVED BACK! I was like going "Jae Joong Oppa Saranghaeyo!". Despite being so exhausted from the flight + press conference. HE SMILED! It wasn't his biggest one or the best. But he tried! *squishes Joongie*.

Then slowly ( it happened like WHOOOOSH) I saw Yoochun and Chang Min next and I yelled "Chang Min HWAITING!!", "MICKY YOOCHUN HWAITING!!" (Dude I know I was biased calling ILU ONLY to Jae joong but my brain wasn't thinking that time. I love them all so don't misunderstand yeah!) respectively. OMG and BOTH of them SMILED AND WAVED!!!.. they were ALL SMILES.. Chunnie had this nice cheeky grin XDDD and Chang Min too! Seriously I declare 17th Oct was Chang Min HAPPY day. He was happy since Arrival -> Hotel -> Departure. (and no fujis I can't really tell Chang Min to be with Se7en coz my brain wasn't thinking straight and I don't know how to speak in korean. Damm I can't even yell YUNJAE!). I'm seriously added more favorite points to Chang Min already since that day! AND UMG Chunnie! eeeeee..

So now, anticipating HoSu anyone? YEP they were next in line. Maybe I was unlucky to catch Junsu and Yunho at their bad moments. (they are still human so won't blame them... Junsu made it up later for singing in the airport). Yunho had his arm around Junsu and they seemed to be discussing something. In a real buddy buddy and casual way. Like Yunho's trying to comfort Junsu at the same time making a bet with him. So the 3 of us waved and said hi to them but erm... they sorta ignored us or more like they stared at us weirdly. And then back to their conversation. But oh well. MEETING them was a shocking thing already. I wanted to yell Yunjae dammit! (blames HoSu but thanks to them has a YUNJAE plunny in mind now).

But you know what? Even though Yunho had this stuck up look on his face. HE IS STILL SO SEXY. OMG LEADERSHII! How can you have this effect on meh! Anyways I don't really blame them for their behavior, they were just tired from the flight and press conference and all they want to do is get away from the fans for little awhile. I dunno why Junsu seems to be the person who is in a bad mood throughout the whole day unlike Chang Min? HAHAHA gosh JunSu.

OKAY NO PICTURES (only one blurry one) coz I thought it was pretty rude. I mean they used the OTHER way just to escape from fans and media.. so I thought it was rude to take pictures. SO I DID not. But yeah ONLY ONE blurry one. And It's a HoSu BOO. I suck at event photographs. I FAIL!

Anyways my friend Sora.. yelled an Oyagi Gag at Junsu. But he just stared at her with a blank face and then look in front. *swt* *sigh* OH JUNSU-yah!!!

So hahaha. After all that excitement. I still cannot register the fact that they were right in front of me! I was still gawking. LIKE OMG DONG BANG SHIN KI!! So three of us followed them to the corridor and from the lobby where many fans gathered starting screaming seeing them again. And a fan screaming she wants to marry Yunho *snorts*. So after seeing DBSK leaving through another "escape" doorway. SHEESH Sunway Resort Hotel has so many ESCAPE ROUTES! No wonder they chose that place!

So next STOP KLIA AIRPORT! Thanks to renaldomoon so much for the transport and Sora dear for being with me. Thanks already for letting me SPAZZ with you on the phone. NEED TO LET OUT! XDDD EEEEE

@ KLIA AIRPORT - DEPARTURE

So yeah met up at airport with hyungie, kahel_luna and mickey8.Whoa maybe coz I've never been to arrival so I don't know how that happened. But yeah it was so frantic. SM/CMG staffs kinda played a trick on us fans coz some of us were being stubborn. LOL. Coz the SM/CMG security ask us to give way for Dong Bang.. so yeah being fans they are NOT listening and still insist on standing in front of the van's door. So I think the SM staffs decided to settle their passport and tickets first before letting DBSK down for the departure arena.

So yeah SO WHEN DONG BANG CAME DOWN.. yes another frenzy event. Screams and all that jazz. (mickey8 has a nice fancam for that event. XDDDD). I was sho happy YUNJAE sat in the same VAN. AWWWWW teh Yunjae.. mebbe they sorta patch things up later? So yeah Chang Min was first and he was all smiles again. (And BOY LOVE THEIR CLOTHES. I think it's their best dressed airport outfits so far!! Not kidding). Jae and his lovely skeleton beanie!! OMG I should have worn them as well. XDDDDDD So yeah it was frantic... coz they have to run to the departure area. Some girl managed to give Jae a cute BUNNY PLUSHIE.. haha suprisingly Jae smiled waved a lot to the crowd during departure. Hmm something made him happy??? OMG I rarely see HAPPY JAE@ airports. Usually he seemed down.

Is it me or I noticed Yunho had facial hair. HAHAHA SMEX. GOSH when jae took off his jacket and his tight body hugging sweatshirt made me drool. GORGEOUS JAE!!! *_____* He was being an attention whore I heard. He kept waving to cameras!!

Chunnie (I thought it was Junsu LOL) was curious with the Keris(s) Displays. He pointed it out to Chang Min but he seem uninterested. (For your information Keris is some kinda of a Traditional Malaysian knife. @_@ It's curvy and stuff). Some irritating things happen though. Some fangirls were banging on the glass like NOBODY's business!! HELLO BE CIVILIZED =. I know you want to get Dong Bang's attention but .. ==

After that I was super tired. I was the only fan who went back to the entrance to rest. XD Seriously my POWER battery is all gone. So my other friends went and told me what happen. Like how Yun cared for Jae before they went off down coz Jae was last. And Junsu singing in the airport. Coz he was really in a bad mood. Chunnie waved a bit but not that much. HEHE.

And to more blurry pictures. MUAHAHAHA!!

NOTICE the displays? MYAHAHA @ Yunho's man purse.

BAD PICTURES I KNOW. Don't throw me STONES!! *hides*

THE PICTURES DO THEM NO JUSTICE. ALL OF THEM WERE SO FUCKING GOOD LOOKING AND ALMOST PERFECT in real LIFE!! YOU can really feel their AURA! I'm still starstruck. *___*

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SO YEAH in conclusion.. fangirling is not an easy job. In fact u lose weight and and loose a lot of your money. But if you like the outcome. It's so worth it!!!! And so much CRAJAENESS!!! NOV 24th here I COME BABY!!! Oh man a dunno when will the arrived to Malaysia before that! XD And good luck for mickey8 and kahel_luna for the TVXQ! Encore in Seoul this weekend! XD