Alka Polka

[life] It's been a while.

laronmi — Fri, 30 Jan 2015 07:34:55 GMT

The problem with not properly updating in over a year is that I'm left with a lot to say and no idea of how to say it, nevermind the order I ought to say it in.

The most important thing relative to my online presence is that my laptop is nearly dead. The screen doesn't work, so I have it hooked up to an external monitor, but that won't save it from age. Youtube doesn't work. Tumblr doesn't work. Plurk half-works, but it's so much trouble that I don't bother with it anymore.

The places that do work are the places that are mostly text-based. Such as Dreamwidth.

That may be the only reason I'm updating.

Other than that, it's been so long since I used DW that even the things that have become regular and normal and taken for granted technically counts as news. I'm a barista. It is simultaneously as hipsterish and as not hipsterish as one imagines. Having a steady flow of income is wonderful.

I've fallen out of keeping touch with everyone that I do not see face to face on a daily basis. Yes, online friends are a large part of this group, but so are the friends from college that I don't live with. I'm a horrible hermit, in the end, and no amount of working with people will change that. In fact, it is because I work by interacting with people all day that this has gotten worse. It's too tiring to talk to others when I have to talk to strangers all day.

I'm doing pretty well overall, although my mood will be what it will be. I'm trying to get myself to do more things, which is a goal I've had since I was young. Adulting is hard. And exhausting. But I'm doing it, kind of. I'm still bad at it, but I'm doing it.

In more recent news, the cold storms caused my windows to leak earlier in the week. It was fixed, eventually, but there are now holes in my walls thanks to the water damage. Sigh.

I'm also more active on Twitter, of all things. Username is laronmi, as always.

Originally posted here with comments!

Oh, LJ

laronmi — Sat, 22 Jun 2013 04:01:24 GMT

Ah, yes, LJ spambots. Thanks for reminding me that LJ exists. No thanks to the e-mail alerts that's flooded my inbox, or the reminders of how self-motivated I used to be.

...Man, I haven't used LJ in so long that I forgot what did what. And, haha, comments still won't load properly for me. Some days I really miss the old LJ culture. Tumblr's too chaotic and you can't build proper communities on Plurk since it goes everywhere. =(

Originally posted here with comments!

laronmi — Sun, 03 Jun 2012 21:54:13 GMT

DOOOOOUUUUUUBLE RAAAAIIIIIINBOOOOOOW

If anyone needs me to cut this, I will

Originally posted here with comments!

Long time no update!

laronmi — Fri, 01 Jun 2012 06:02:30 GMT

I've been sucked into the Plurk = Not updating DW trap, except I haven't been even checking my list, so, uh. Oops. I'm sorry for being such a terrible friend, guys.

I'm trying to pull together what happened to me since I last updated in late March, but my memory is a fail thing of fail, so my typical disjointedness applies here.

Courtesy of zombielab5, I've begun playing Amnesia: The Dark Descent. For those of you who don't know, Amnesia is a pants shittingly scary horror game. I am, at my bravest, a chicken wuss who cries easily and clings onto people in fear. I've been livingstreaming it with questionable success on Sunday nights, EST.

During the second of half of last semester, Pitt got bomb threats just about every day. A lot of students' schedules were messed up, dorms got threats at four in the morning, inconveniencing and dislocating a lot of people, and basically fucked up the campus. The bomb threats totaled over 100. There was no bomb. People are dickheads.

Anime I'm currently watching: Tsuritama and Bodacious Space Pirates. Contrary to what the title says, Bodacious Space Pirates is absolutely amazing. Here's a series with a bunch of high school girls, in space, wearing miniskirts, yet not a single panty shot to be found. The main character grows, learns, and becomes strong with plenty of help, but none of it's forced or shoved in her face. She's the captain of a pirate ship, and her second in command is the FEMALE MEDIC. At points, her school yacht club—composed of entirely high school girls—takes charge and does things by themselves, and succeeds at them even after messing up. It's curiously and refreshingly empowering in ways, and the pace is slow and the worldbuilding excellent. I love it to death, and wish it didn't have such a terrible name, because HOLY SHIT.

Also there are canon lesbians, and they don't shy away from the kissing.

RP-wise, I'm playing Wako from Star Driver in enrichment_center. The downside of that is that I feel like I've become less active in cfud than I was before, which is impressive considering how not-active I was there before. The new game is tons of fun, though, and I love my castmates to death. Uhuhu, threesomes.

This happened in mid-April, but one of my favorite threads with Lunatic of all time.

I've been experimenting and cooking different things, such as ACTUAL CREPES THAT LOOK AND TASTE LIKE CREPES HOT DAMN, tamagoyaki, okonomiyaki, and probably something else that I'm forgetting.

Since it's summer, I've been doing things with my roommates, the ever lovely zombielab5, tea_destroyer, and brevityiswise. linkhs, our roommate in spirit, has been tagging along as well. Recent events included a barbecue and a trip to the amusement park in Pittsburgh. Monday's brother is also staying with us in the summer, so there's been no shortage of excitement. People!

Speaking of excitement, Monday's bro went out one afternoon, but didn't return for a long, long time. Around midnight, I started worrying because I didn't know where he went, and no one had his new phone number. I was worried that he had gone missing, but he ended up showing up at around one-something in the middle of the night, then ducked back out when I threatened him for another hour. Turns out he was with his dad. I beat him up in the morning, and changed the wifi password and name. Our wifi network is now known as "[Monday's brother] is a butt".

I've known for a while that I hadn't done a lot of things that most people have in their childhood, so a lot of firsts have occurred for me so far this summer. It's nice to do things, and I really appreciate all my friends for sticking with me, even when I'm being a brat. I mean, I had friends in high school, and I appreciate what they did, but...it's different now. IDK. I feel less alone, less lonely. I feel like I'm not isolated anymore, and I like it.

Overall, I've been pretty good. A recent bout of stress and anxiety came from my mom, but... I'm used to her. I've dealt with her my entire life, and as much as I love her, she can be suffocating. I just have to get used to it again.

Finally, have some Actual Vigilante Yuri Petrov.

If you're confused, take a look at this first.

Originally posted here with comments!

[life] The power of friendship

laronmi — Sat, 03 Mar 2012 05:04:30 GMT

Spring break has started for those who are going to classes (Not me, in other words), which meant that Tea House was canceled tonight. To make up for it, we invited linkhs over to the apartment. We also planned to cook dinner with each person chipping in some ingredients, so that by the time tea_destroyer came back, she'd have a nice homemade meal waiting for her.

We ended up making vegetarian lasagna since linkhs couldn't have meat on Fridays for Lent. It was my first time making lasagna ever, and it turned out amazing! I did burn myself a few times, but they were just minor things. Me pouring boiling water on my finger instead of in the teapot was not so minor, but the finger's stopped twitching and mostly stopped hurting now.

Monday and I talked about plans for what to do for the evening, but we ended up loafing around, watching Let's Plays, and eating Girl Scout cookies. It was my first time trying them, and I wanted to support them for standing up and supporting trans youth. I may be a little hooked on Samoas now. Coconut!

I think that pretty much blew the last of the bad mood I was in away. Good food is nice, but good friends are even better. Before we left to buy ingredients, I had a moment where I realized that I had plans on a Friday night. Plans that involved doing something fun with people I cared about and whom cared about me. It was a moment of "WOAH" at the realization that I've got really amazing friends who don't put up with me because they have to or forced to, but they spend time with me because they actually like me. It was a bit mind blowing, and I had to give them hugs.

I'm happy. It feels nice to be happy again.

Originally posted here with comments!

[luceti] MAKING POOR CHOICES

laronmi — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 03:56:01 GMT

OH GOD vyctori, TELL DHAOS'S PLAYER I'M SORRY FOR BEING A DICK AND THROWING CRESS AT HIM.

I should have seriously considered whether or not I was capable of playing him before jumping in like the impulsive loser I am. I AM SORRY I AM FAILING WITH HIM. sob

also I know nothing about Luceti and am terrified of stepping on anyone's toes. LET ME KNOW IF I DO SOMETHING I SHOULDN'T BECAUSE OH GOD WHAT AM I DOING. I apologize for being a creepy jerk.

Originally posted here with comments!

[life] blarg sleep blarg dehydration blarg

laronmi — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 01:58:41 GMT

"It tastes like the crushed hopes and dreams of children who got a creepy clown at their birthday party instead of a pony."

- tea_destroyer, on ice cream

I've been fighting a losing battle with trying to straighten out my sleep schedule so that I was awake before the sun set. It ended up doing something weird to me, and now I sleep and not sleep in roughly two to five hour phases. It's rather frustrating.

Getting dehydrated and collapsing didn't help matters much.

I've been avoiding people online because... I'm not sure. I wasn't in a great mood, thanks to the weird sleep thing. Slowly getting out of that mood feels kind of weird, but I want to be able to talk to people on Plurk and RP again without feeling like I want to throw myself out the window while doing it. Socializing in person is still the same. It's strange to think that I'm more comfortable talking to people in person rather than online, since it was the exact opposite in high school. Five-ish years changes things!

I had something more to say, but I got distracted and forgot.

Originally posted here with comments!

And this is why I don't drink or do drugs

laronmi — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 07:01:51 GMT

What I did tonight:

Went out and played in the snow

Went shopping and played in the snow and resisted the urge to eat it

Consumed too much chocolate, sugar, and caffeine

Stacked traffic cones on top of each other

While on this joy high, recorded a terrible song about Scarf Girl from Tiger & Bunny

Embarrassed myself greatly on Plurk and CFUD's T&B chan

Did not give a shit

Prompted a prompt about Barnaby bathing in buttons. Had it filled and was gleeful.

Crashed.

REGRET EVERYTHING

Originally posted here with comments!

Valentine's Day preparation

laronmi — Sat, 14 Jan 2012 20:47:11 GMT

Guys, I think ❤ Valentine's Day ❤ might be my favorite holiday. Not because I have a special someone with whom I can be disgustingly saccharine with, but rather because it's my favorite time of the year to do terrible things.

I am, once again, in need of everyone's bad love poetry. Or not-poetry. I'm not particularly picky! I did this in 2009 as well, and it was a smashing success.

Basically, on the Friday before Valentine's Day, I will be at the Oakland Teahouse, passing out candy and valentines to complete strangers. The valentines will have poems on them. The poems will hopefully cause feelings of 'oh god what' in their recipients. Full details and examples can be found in the post I linked to from 2009.

GIVE ME YOUR DELICIOUS BAD POETRY. I must increase my trolling levels this year!

As an aside, and while I'm on the topic of ~romance~, a few weeks back, the roommates and I decided that I would be the worst person to date long term, because I would propose on April Fool's day and provide no clear indication of whether or not it was a joke. Or, I would tell the person of my affections that I actually hated their guts and dated them only to manipulate them into a vortex of self-loathing and unhealthy codependency, with no indication of whether or not it was a joke.

I'm pretty sure this is why I have never dated in my life.

Originally posted here with comments!

[meme] I love TFLN

laronmi — Wed, 11 Jan 2012 06:35:51 GMT

Taken from traincat!

1. Give me a pairing
2. Give me a text from last night.
3. I'll write you a short fic based on the scenario.

Originally posted here with comments!

[html] Character profile...things...

laronmi — Sun, 08 Jan 2012 08:42:17 GMT

Inspired by this remake of the original arrow-tabbed table. Now with 300 times more gradients and extraneous code!

You can use this for whatever you would like, although I'm currently using it as a muselist.

Other than the usericon on the left, this uses no images to produce the effects.

Preview

L'Arachel

Canon: Fire Emblem: The Sacred Stones

Played at: Camp Fuck You Die

Journal: farfromcommon

Notes:

You can type as much as you want. Insert line breaks with <br /> or use the <p> tag around paragraphs.

text talk blah blah blah something about cats and a penis joke, sure.

Yuri Petrov | Lunatic

Canon: Tiger and Bunny

Played at: Camp Fuck You Die

Journal: lunadickery

Notes: You can't say much; overflow looks bad.

Code

<lj-raw>
<table style="width: 400px;">
<tr>
<td style="padding: 5px; vertical-align: middle;">

<span style="font-size: 1.5em; font-style: italic; text-align: left; text-shadow: ****TEXT SHADOW COLOR**** 2px 2px 2px;"><a style="color: ****CHARACTER NAME TEXT COLOR****;" href="****CHARACTER JOURNAL URL****">****CHARACTER NAME****</a></span>

<p>
<div style="border-bottom: dashed 1px ****BORDER COLOR****; font-size: 10pt; padding-bottom: 2px; text-indent: 3px; width: 300px;"><b>****BOLDED/LEFT ALIGNED TEXT****: </b>
<span style="float: right;">****TEXT****</span>
</div>

<div style="border-bottom: dashed 1px ****BORDER COLOR****; font-size: 10pt; padding: 6px 0 2px 0; text-indent: 3px; width: 300px;"><b>Played at: </b>
<span style="float: right;"><a style="color: ****TEXT COLOR****;" href="****URL****">****LINK****</a></span>
</div>

<div style="border-bottom: dashed 1px ****BORDER COLOR****; font-size: 10pt; padding: 6px 0 0 0; text-indent: 3px; width: 300px;"><b>****MULTI LINE HEADER**** </b><br />
<span style="float: right; padding-top: 2px; margin-left: 3px; text-indent: 0px;">
<p>****MULTI LINE TEXT****</p>
</span>
</div>

</p>
</td>
</tr>
</table>
</lj-raw>

Explanation of the code

<lj-raw>
<table style="width: 400px;">
<tr>
<td style="padding: 5px; vertical-align: middle;">

The vertical-align is what determines where the usericon will be. Middle will be in the middle of the table, top will be the top of the table, and bottom is for the bottom of the table. The first live preview sets it to the top. The second has it in the middle.

<div style="background: ****BACKGROUND COLOR FOR ICON****; padding: 6px; height: 100px; width: 100px; -moz-border-radius: 55px; border-radius: 55px; -webkit-border-radius: 55px;">

The background color for icon is that border around the rounded icon image. Change the color by inserting a hex value. You may change the border size by changing the padding value. If you don't want the border to be a circle, strip out the code in blue.

<div style="background:  url(****ICON/IMAGE URL****) center center no-repeat; height: 100px; width: 100px; -moz-border-radius: 50px; border-radius: 50px; -webkit-border-radius: 50px;"></div></div></td>

Insert the url of the icon you wish to use. If you don't want the icon to display as a circle, strip out the code in blue.

<td style="background: (****BACKGROUND COLOR FOR OLDER BROWSERS****; color: (****TEXT COLOR****; font-family: 'Georgia', 'Times New Roman', serif; width: 300px; -moz-border-radius: 15px; border-radius: 15px; -webkit-border-radius: 15px; padding: 15px; filter: progid:DXImageTransform.Microsoft.gradient(startColorstr='(****STARTING GRADIENT COLOR****', endColorstr='(****END GRADIENT COLOR****'); background: -webkit-gradient(linear, left top, left bottom, from(****STARTING GRADIENT COLOR****), to(****END GRADIENT COLOR****)); background: -moz-linear-gradient(top,  ****STARTING GRADIENT COLOR****,  ****END GRADIENT COLOR****); background: -o-linear-gradient(top,  ****STARTING GRADIENT COLOR****,  ****END GRADIENT COLOR****);">

OKAY. This is where it gets a bit complicated, but it's not hard! Promise! Gradients are pretty easy, once you know what goes where.

First, the background color for older browsers is needed because not all browsers display gradients.The text color should be self explanatory.

For the gradients themselves, you'll notice that the property is repeated several times. This is done for browser compatibility. The starting gradient color is the color at the top, and the end gradient color is the color at the bottom. The CSS and browser will take care of the blending for you. Just input those hex values in their correct spots, and assuming your browser can display CSS gradients, they'll show up! Like magic!

If you don't want the gradients, then strip out the stuff in green (And any red stuff in between). If you don't want the rounded corners, strip out the stuff in blue.

<span style="font-size: 1.5em; font-style: italic; text-align: left; text-shadow: ****TEXT SHADOW COLOR**** 2px 2px 2px;"><a style="color: ****CHARACTER NAME TEXT COLOR****;" href="****CHARACTER JOURNAL URL****">****CHARACTER NAME****</a></span>

Text shadow is that funky effect the character names have in the preview. It will not display in all browsers, and some people don't like it. If you don't want it, strip out the code in blue (And any red stuff in between).

Everything else should hopefully be self explanatory. The character name text color was added to make the text not clash horribly with the background, or to make it match the rest of the text.

<p>
<div style="border-bottom: dashed 1px ****BORDER COLOR****; font-size: 10pt; padding-bottom: 2px; text-indent: 3px; width: 300px;"><b>****BOLDED/LEFT ALIGNED TEXT****: </b>
<span style="float: right;">****TEXT****</span>
</div>

This creates a single line with bolded text on the left and non-bolded text on the right. Repeat this as many times for as many single line elements as you want. Adjust the color value for the border as you like.

<div style="border-bottom: dashed 1px ****BORDER COLOR****; font-size: 10pt; padding: 6px 0 2px 0; text-indent: 3px; width: 300px;"><b>Played at: </b>
<span style="float: right;"><a style="color: ****TEXT COLOR****;" href="****URL****">****LINK****</a></span>
</div>

This is a single line element with a link. The link color is included to make the link text not clash horribly with the background. You may use <user name="USERNAME">, but as far as I know, there's no way to change the link color that way, and the corresponding link may be unreadable or ugly to look at, depending on what color your background is.

<div style="border-bottom: dashed 1px ****BORDER COLOR****; font-size: 10pt; padding: 6px 0 0 0; text-indent: 3px; width: 300px;"><b>****MULTI LINE HEADER**** </b><br />
<span style="float: right; padding-top: 2px; margin-left: 3px; text-indent: 0px;">
<p>****MULTI LINE TEXT****</p>
</span>
</div>

This element will create something that allows for multiple lines of text. Unlike the previous two, making paragraphs and multiple lines will not cause the entire table to look weird. Use this if you've got something to say.

The multi line header simply means what you want the bolded font (See the first live preview) to say.

IMPORTANT: You will need to surround paragraphs with <p></p> or use <br /> for line breaks. Because this code uses <lj-raw>, it will NOT automatically put in line breaks. They must be inserted manually.

</p>
</td>
</tr>
</table>
</lj-raw>

Closes all the tags. Do not mess with this unless you've added/removed elements.

Known issues

Depending on the layout, the usericon circles may look strange if displayed in the journal layout view. Not ugly, but strange. The border/padding won't be centered around the icon, but rather shifted to the left.

The table cells will not show rounded corners in Opera.

Not accessibility friendly. Usericons will not display alt text.

Strong use of CSS3 elements means that these will not display properly in all browsers. Use with caution.

Tested in Chrome, Safari, Firefox, and Opera, all on a Mac. Not tested on Windows or Linux browsers.

On LJ, the default link colors override what you set. You'll have to style the link itself, which is doable, but I'm too lazy to add that in at the moment. MAYBE LATER.

If you run into any issues, or if you spot errors in the code, please let me know! Likewise, if you have any questions, or if my explanations are confusing, also let me know.

Originally posted here with comments!

[writing] This goes beyond lazy...!

laronmi — Fri, 06 Jan 2012 05:01:21 GMT

I told myself that since I find writing actual prose to be too much effort, I would write up summaries of the twenty-something story ideas I have go-karting in my brain. I started with the summary of what I had planned on writing for NaNo last year (Before that idea of zombielab5's biography popped into my head), but I barely got sixty words down before I decided that it was too much .

Where does motivation come from? I'd say I'd follow it to its source and steal it all for myself, but it's almost too much effort for me to even type this out.

Originally posted here with comments!

laronmi — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 20:04:57 GMT

I've been struggling with words for the past few days. I've been in and still am in a weird mood, which is...okay, but I don't think it's fair for people (Especially the people I live with) to not know what's going on and be at a loss when I act like a jerk to them.

Not that it's okay for me to act like a jerk in the first place, but I like making excuses for myself.

SO! I am not going to school this semester! Partially because of money, and partially because I am not...okay enough to handle school. I am probably not okay enough to handle work, breathing, or existing, but I'm stuck with the latter two and getting the first would be helpful.

My mother is not quite pleased with this, and she still doesn't really understand why I'm not capable of pulling myself together enough to go to school, but I've been talking to her. Telling her things. I really dislike talking about my feelings to her. It's not something I enjoy doing because of the language barrier and the guilt complex I have since I feel like not being okay means I am personally failing her. That, and she has a tendency to make me feel like I'm just lying and attention seeking, which is actually more true than I'd like to admit.

She doesn't want me to stay in Pittsburgh, though, which is something that I will not accept. I don't want to go back to China, and I don't want to go back to Texas. Yes, things would be easier financially if I went back, but I don't feel safe there. I can't be me there, even if I don't know which me I am or want to be. I can bottle things up and take things for indefinite periods of time, but once I stop bottling things up and start letting things out, I can't stop until everything is out. In China, I can't communicate effectively. In Texas, I am alone. In both places, I am extremely uncomfortable talking about some of my problems concerning gender and sexuality, which is a can of worms that I don't want to touch and haven't talked about, but it too is starting to uncork itself.

And I have been struggling to get this out because I don't want to talk about it, but I also realize that not talking about it and keeping people and myself in the dark won't help me. WHY IS THIS SO HARD.

But this is why I've been avoiding online things. And selfish and not commenting on DW/LJ/Plurk. I will probably continue to be selfish for a while longer, although I'm trying to make my brain go "ME ME ME ME ME" all the damn time.

Also, I had the cat in my lap, and he clawed my thigh and then farted in my face. Thanks, Schrodie.

Originally posted here with comments!

[friends] 0489qotaijfsd

laronmi — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 22:23:28 GMT

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vyctori! I just got your card! Thank you so much, aa094taiosd;ldjfa; I AM TEARING UP. ❤ THANK YOU. You are so sweet and. Yes. ;_; ❤

...oh, crap, I still haven't sent of my cards and it's past New Year. orz

Originally posted here with comments!

[meme] Year in review

laronmi — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 06:00:39 GMT

YEAR IN REVIEW. Not cutting this unless people want me to.

JANUARY:
FEBRUARY: Star Driver fandom, you are doing a good job of pissing me the fuck off.
MARCH: To all on my f-list who are playing Pokémon!
APRIL: There's this novel I've been working on for the past five and a half years.
MAY: The last couple of days were spent packing and moving my things to storage.
JUNE: Posted this on Tumblr, but reposting here as well.
JULY: Thanks to oraien, I can now send out Google+ invitations!
AUGUST: I am really sick of me flipping back and forth between "okay enough to function" and "useless bag of meat".
SEPTEMBER: I should...probably post!
OCTOBER: Pittsburgh, why?
NOVEMBER: During breakfast, I was telling Monday and Tea D about the Build Your Own Hero Contest, and my incredibly slim chances of winning.
DECEMBER:Hey, cinnamonical!

I hereby dub 2011 The Year of Breakdowns and Tiger & Bunny.

Because that's pretty much what the year was like for me in the second half, and I remember fuck-all about the first half except Star Driver.

And now a meme from dineru about 2011.

1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?
Admit some things I'd been in denial about for 10 years, work at clinic, forge signatures, participate in RTP, troll an academic mailing list, stalk /a/, make quiche, get kissed.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I made secret ones. I didn't keep any of them.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Not that I can remember, but I've discovered that my initial reaction to people dying is to deny it ever happened or that person ever existed.

5. What countries did you visit?
...Holy fuck, I actually did not leave the US at all this year.

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
Goals? Dreams? Directions for where I want to go in life?

7. What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
None.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Probably apping into CFUD, sad as it may sound.

9. What was your biggest failure?
HAHAHAHAHAHA

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Video games.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My friends. I should celebrate their existence every single day because that is how much I fucking love them for putting up with me and caring about me.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My own.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Living.

15. What did you get really excited about?
Fandom! CFUD! Living with tea_destroyer and zombielab5!

16. What song will always remind you of 2011?
I don't know.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
Sadder

b) thinner or fatter?
SO MUCH FATTER. Sob, I think I'm the fattest I've ever been.

c) richer or poorer?
I feel poorer, even though I actually made money this year.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Believing in myself! Not giving fucks! RPing! Writing!

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Being depressed and having breakdowns.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I don't like this question.

21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
Phone...?

22. Did you fall in love in 2011?
I developed a crush on someone I probably shouldn't have, but other than that, nope! I still love all of my friends for being my friends, though.

23. How many one-night stands?

24. What was your favorite TV show?
Tiger & Bunny

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No.

26. What was the best book you read?
Sunshine. I'd never thought I'd like vampire fiction until I read it. orz

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Follow the Nightingale by KOKIA

28. What did you want and get?
Friendship, antics, not being a complete and total failure at normal people interaction.

29. What did you want and not get?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA sob

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
The Adolescence of Utena. I saw it this year, so it counts.

31. What did you do on your birthday?
Played Radiant Historia and was stressed and depressed. Considering that I did not get a bucket of water thrown at me or spend it alone in the dark while stressed and depressed, this year's birthday was a vast improvement over my last two.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Not...breaking down?

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Clothes. I have to wear them.

34. What kept you sane?
My friends. Even the ones that I don't talk to much or know that well. Guys, I love you so much, and I really don't know how I would be or even if I would be alive right now if it weren't for you. Thank you so much. You have no idea what just even knowing you means to me.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I don't do that. Having an actress for a mother tends to ruin that.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
So many. So. Many.

37. Who did you miss?
It's like this meme is poking my trauma with a pointy stick! Maybe I should stop doing it! No, I feel masochistic.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
EVERYONE AT CFUD

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011:
Running from your problems, denying they exist, and forgetting bad things won't make them go away. Sometimes you have to just face them head on, suffer, and fight.

But you don't have to be alone. There are people in the world who care and love you, and it hurts them when you reject their love because you don't think you deserve it.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
FUCK.

There has to be a song with that as a lyric.

COME AT ME, 2012. I'm not afraid of you! In the meanwhile, I will creep on linkhs until she falls asleep. o‿o Friiiieeeeeends.

Originally posted here with comments!

They already have my money, so...

laronmi — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 08:23:08 GMT

I know with the mass move to Dreamwidth that there probably won't be a lot of interest, but I have 10 LJ tokens left because LJ does that ridiculous EVERYTHING IS $_.99 thing.

Does anyone want them? 10 tokens isn't enough for anything, but they would sit there, unused, on my account. Let me know!

GONE. Thank you, scientific

Originally posted here with comments!

[meme] Fandom meme

laronmi — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 23:56:35 GMT

Graciously taken from kyarorain!

1. What fandoms do you participate in?

Tiger & Bunny, Fire Emblem, Star Driver, Mawaru Penguindrum, and Golden Sun at the moment!

2. Who are your top favorite characters from each fandom? Choose one per fandom.

Tiger & Bunny: Yuri
Fire Emblem: Legault
Star Driver: WAKO. FUCK THE HATERS
Mawaru Penguindrum: Ringo
Golden Sun: Karis

Now please choose one fandom to answer the following questions.

Tiger & Bunny, since it's my main one

3. Please explain why you love your favorite character.

FOR COPING REASONS. I have extremely unhealthy coping mechanisms.

Really, though, he actually tends to be the character type that I dislike, but the backstory and the fact that he's ridiculous and I can't take him seriously kind of catapulted him to favorite character position. RPing him helped a lot, too.

4. What character do you like least?

Rottwang. Rotwang. WHATEVER.

5. Do you read fan fiction for this fandom?

DO I EVER

6. Do you read slash for this fandom? If so, list the slash pairings you make a point to seek out.

DO I EVER. Tiger/Bunny, obviously. ...If you asked me to list all the slash pairings I liked, we'd be here for a while.

I LOVE ME SOME FEMMESLASH, TOO. TYL!Kaede/Pao-Lin? Closest thing to an OTP I have, other than Maverick/Rottwang.

7. Are there any pairings you absolutely will not read?

Maverick/Barnaby is a NEVER OH GOD NO. I dislike Keith/Yuri a lot, too, to the point where seeing it in a fic makes me stop and question whether or not I want to continue reading it. KAEDE/YURI TOO HOLY CRAP. There are people who ship this romantically and I just. Can't.

8. What about het? Do you read it? If so, are there any pairings you actively read?

DO I EVER. No one has written Agnes/Yuri, and that makes me sad. I like Karina with Keith, Ivan, Barnaby, or Kotetsu. I like Pao-Lin with Ivan. I like Agnes with a lot of people.

9. Ok, so we establish that you read fanfic. There are many forms of fanfic out there, is there a type that, to you, isn’t written enough?

PLOTTY STUFF. Like, a season-two take on the series or something. I love shippy fics, but there's so much of it. SO MUCH OF IT.

10. Is there anything surprising about the fandom?

I haven't seen any full blown ship wars! And the fandom is really chill, from what I've seen.

11. Is this your main fandom?

IT SURE IS

12. How long have you been a fan?

Since July-ish. I got in near the end of the first half.

13. Are there any fanfic authors you really enjoy?

...That would require me talking about what kinds of fic I like to read. But, yes, there are several authors that I enjoy in the fandom.

14. Anything else to add?

THIS FANDOM GOT ME TO WRITE OVER 20K OF FANFIC IN HALF A YEAR. I have never done that, ever. Even if some of it is unpublished, that's kind of ridiculous.

15. If possible, post a photo of all your crap stuff from this fandom.

Somehow I have managed to resist the siren call of merchandise. I do not plan on changing that.

And now shopping so I can have ice cream.

Originally posted here with comments!

[music] Gibberish song!

laronmi — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 22:16:17 GMT

I was digging through some of my Garageband files when I encountered this gibberish song. I get into moods where I want to sing, but am too lazy to put in the effort to write lyrics, so I just...sing gibberish.

I really like this one! It's almost three years old, so I don't even remember recording it.

Gibberish by laronmi

Originally posted here with comments!

laronmi — Wed, 21 Dec 2011 21:21:02 GMT

LJ

LJ no

nooooooooooooooooo

Do you know how hard it is to post fills to kink memes now?! /priorities

[music] I've been playing Tales of Innocence lately

laronmi — Thu, 15 Dec 2011 08:26:51 GMT

KOKIA - Follow the Nightingale
OP for Tales of Innocence for the DS

If this song was a person, I would run towards it, hug it, and then sob out all of my worries and anxieties to it. Then I would feel better because it would pat me comfortingly on the back while telling me that it's okay and everything will be all right because there is something so much grander out there waiting for me to discover it and that even if I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, if I just keep going I will find what I want and there's a whole world out there, what am I waiting for?

I love this song a lot, guys.

(Translated lyrics are a mishmash of the Absolute Zero translation patch and the translations from the Blue Light Translations of the song.

Wait, wait, fate is waiting, nightingale

Our tale began the moment we met.
Our tale began the moment we met.

Our tale began the moment we met.
Our tale began the moment we met.
March on,
March on,
March on and on.
Our tale began the moment we met.

Why was I born here?
In this age? It must have some meaning.
I'm going to find out for myself.

Our tale began the moment we met.
Our tale began the moment we met.
March on,
March on,
March on and on.
Our tale began the moment we met.

If I heard that that must be so, I'd believe myself,
Following the voice of my heart, after that bird.

Wait, wait, fate is waiting, nightingale

March on,
March on,
March on,
March on,
March on,
March on.

The die has been cast

We've only just begun.

laronmi — Sun, 04 Dec 2011 22:05:01 GMT

Hey, cinnamonical! Guess whose Madoka crossover fanfic got put up on TV Tropes' Tiger and Bunny fanfic rec page? 8D

I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THERE WAS ONE. Oh, man, so tempted to learn how to do stuff so I can spam it with recs.

[tales] Picking up Legendia again

laronmi — Sat, 26 Nov 2011 18:49:15 GMT

Didn't do much during Thanksgiving except sleep, avoid people, and play Tales of Legendia. Picked it up after...three years? I was in the middle of Chapter Six, in the Calm Lands, with no recollection of what had happened in the story before it. As much as the in-game synopsis was fun to read, it didn't much for helping me remember why I was there or what I was doing. 8D Still beat the main quest, though! Just started the Character Quests now, and the lack of voiced dialogue makes me laugh.

Especially since I loved the voices they chose for the characters, but the lack of emotion in a lot of the lines makes it an interesting experience. Like Chloe and Senel! Great choices, but the reading of the lines could have been so much better. I still miss the voiced dialogue, though, and I don't seem to be running across all that many skits, either. Alas.

CARDS AND THINGS

laronmi — Sun, 20 Nov 2011 00:35:39 GMT

I spent all evening experimenting with (And am still experimenting with) card designs, paper cut outs, pop-ups, and origami, so I think I WILL ACTUALLY DO THIS

Does anyone want cards? They won't...necessarily be Christmas cards, but if you really want them to have that holiday feeling, then I will make you a Christmas card. Otherwise, you may expect anything from animals to flowers to demonic hands grabbing for your soul if that is what you like.

OBVIOUSLY THESE WILL BE HAND MADE. I am cheap, however, so these will made of construction paper and origami paper. NO CARD STOCK FOR YOU. I am hoping that the post system won't tear them to pieces, but my faith in the post system of any country is not exceptionally high at the moment.

Comments are screened! My e-mail is jesus @ laronmi.net! You can PM me if I've got you friended! Give me you address, three colors you really like (If I do not have materials to work with in the colors you like, then I will tell you and let you know and make you choose different ones), and whether or not you want a Christmas card or a generic card of greeting.

If you want, you can go "SURPRISE ME" and I will do the choosing for you! Hopefully it will not be something you regret receiving in the mail. There may be bonuses! There may not. It depends on how much money I'm willing to spend on postage mailing things in boxes instead of envelopes. (Hint: Not much)

I will be making some over Thanksgiving break, so I really should have sent up this notice earlier. Whoops. If you want to get your card before Christmas, better let me know, because I can't make guarantees that it will arrive before 2012. ← WORST PROCRASTINATOR

SAMPLES. These were done with no effort. I will actually put effort into making your cards. Not pictured is the origami and some of the cutouts I did.

I WILL TRY NOT TO FAIL WITH THIS.

[tiger and bunny] It's an AMV!

laronmi — Thu, 17 Nov 2011 02:18:48 GMT

I made a thing. First AMV ever for Tiger and Bunny. Beware spoilers for the entire series!

[t&b] Worst Superhero Ever

laronmi — Wed, 09 Nov 2011 14:26:01 GMT

During breakfast, I was telling Monday and Tea D about the Build Your Own Hero Contest, and my incredibly slim chances of winning. (For the curious, my entry can be seen here.) During that conversation, we somehow came up with quite possibly one of the worst superheroes ever.

His power? Long distance peeing. (Up to three miles!)
His purpose? To advertise for either a toilet bowl cleaning product (Tea D) or cream soda (Monday, of course).
His battle prowess? ...He pees on people.
His name? Either Golden Shower (Tea D) or Wizz Kid (Monday, of course).

Criminals are humiliated by him! People don't know what to think of him! Sponsors love...him? Turtles hate him!

It's a shame the contest is over, because that would have made for a horrific (Read: Fantastic) entry.

Hi, I have the maturity of a four year old.