aime-moi moins, mais aime-moi longtemps.

don't mind me.

2012-11-08T16:43:57Z

baektao: funeral
baekai: theatre/pool

names of people we don't remember.

2012-01-11T01:45:11Z

bold italic underline
8 songs | 33.3 minutes | 49.9MB

there are only two genres in this mix: folk, instrumental, and some more folk. i don't even listen to folk! this is what i listen to when i write. :)

first day of my life
bright eyes

yours was the first face i saw
i think i was blind before i met you
i don't know where i am, i don't know where i've been
but i know where i want to go

in love, not limbo
of oceans

instrumental

what if you
joshua radin

what if you could wish me away?
what if you spoke those words today?
i wonder if you'd miss me when i'm gone
it's come to this, release me, i'll leave before dawn

opus 37
dustin o'halloran

instrumental

all my days
alexi murdoch

now i see clearly, it's you i'm looking for
all of my days
so i'll smile and know i'll feel this loneliness no more
all of my days

lonelily
damien rice

i gave me away
i could have knocked off the evening
but i was lonelily looking for someone to hold

streamside
the album leaf

instrumental

can i stay
ray lamontagne

so can i stay here with you, till the day breaks?
there's something you should know: i ain't got no place to go
so can i stay here with you, till the day breaks?
how happy it would make me to see your face when i wake

.zip at MF

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i just can't deny.

2011-12-23T15:31:58Z

i have dreamwidth. i've had dreamwidth for like two years...

add me over at:

butler

♥

star trek is taking over my life but that is OK.

2011-12-21T22:28:51Z

places i applied to:
1. university of michigan
2. michigan state university (i think they waitlisted me or smth... NOT MY PROUDEST MOMENT)
3. university of iowa (accepted, still thinking about... AKA a school like five states over is my backup, idk)
4. university of vermont (i have no fucking clue why i applied there, jsyk)
5. university of north carolina-chapel hill (see above... also i didn't pay the app fee but whatever, i don't really care)
6. the college of william & mary (they are really cute...)
7. university of california-davis
8. university of california-irvine
9. university of california-santa cruz

as you can see, i just want to go to california
i think i gave up where, even
so i just applied to like three UC campuses, nbd...

i think in order of where i want to go to the most, it'd be like...
1. ucd
2. uci
3. ucsc
4. w&m
5. umich
6. who the fuck cares

PRETTY MUCH SUMS UP MY SENIOR YEAR

Writer's Block: Tearjerkers

2011-12-11T15:12:42Z

FUCKING STAR TREK
every time i watch george kirk die in the first like 15 minutes i just start ugly bawling
i've watched stxi like... six times. NOPE. STILL SOB EVERY TIME.

wait, who am i kidding? I UGLY BAWL AT EVERY MOVIE

your barely broken heart.

2011-12-01T21:18:18Z

the reason why you never hear from me is because i'm too busy crying over star trek AOS... so hi, find me on tumblr and plurk and twitter! i also have facebook but this is a public entry so if you want it, ask for it! i love you lots :) ♥

laffes @ 2011-10-30T14:55:00

2011-10-30T18:55:43Z

my obsession with mblaw (too lazy to reach the Q) keeps coming and going. right now i have 말하지 말걸... on repeat, even when i'm supposed to be finishing my common app essay and finishing my art project.

my favourite has always been joon since october 2009... just because he is so dumb i can't help it.

NOPE, STILL NO REGRETS.

don't listen to me.

2011-10-17T23:34:25Z

i did this meme last year, i think. here it is again!

-

Do you think relationships are even worth it?
yes.

Have you ever kissed anyone eighteen years or older?
no.

Why are you happy?
i am happy because, even though marching season just ended, i have winter guard to look forward to!
i am happy because everything is sort of falling into place.
i am happy because i'm kind of in love.

After taking a shower, do you change in the bedroom?
i change in my bathroom! i just throw my clothes on the counter and put them on when i'm done.

Who were your last 3 texts from?
my guard captain, my guard captain again, and my friend... i think!

Are you afraid of falling in love?
a little bit!

How’s your heart lately?
my heart is alright! a little conflicted because i think i like this one person... who might like this other person, HAHA. and marching season just ended and last week i cried tuesday, wednesday, and like about ten times friday night. friday was the last time i'll ever march with my band, and that just makes me so sad.

Have you ever liked the same person for more than a year?
there was this one guy i've liked since sixth grade, but lately i've realised how much of a douche he is... even though he really is attractive, whoops...

Will you be in a relationship in the next few months?
i hope so!

If someone told you they’re interested in you right now, what would you say?
YES PLEASE TAKE ME I'M YOURS

Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three months?
yes. it's marching season! what do you expect!!

Is there a specific moment you can replay in your mind perfectly?
all the embarrassing ones!

Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?
i hate talking on the phone. i get so anxious and nervous and say all the wrong things.

When was the last time you cried?
friday night. like ten times.

Have you ever been hurt that you wanted to stop feeling completely?
yes.

What if your parents told you that you were moving, right now?
UM NO
WINTER GUARD

Before you die, would you wish to visit outer space?
no.

What were you doing at 2AM last night?
sleeping.

Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex?
nope, it was from my mom.

Are any of your friends virgins?
yes.

Ever smoked weed?
no.

Let me guess something in your body hurts?
yes. my ovaries. >:(

Ever wear non-matching socks?
i'm a sock-conformist.

Do you like your parents?
lately, no. mostly, yes.

Who is your best friend?
my guard captain, who probably is the sweetest girl in the world. :)

Where was the last place you fell?
i don't really know, i'm not too clumsy with gravity... although lately i keep hitting myself really hard with my flag and rifle??

What would your name be without the first two letters?
phie. :)

Do you have an older brother?
no.

Do you laugh a lot?
i laugh at everything.
i laugh at stupid jokes.
i laugh at my own jokes.
i laugh really loudly.
my laugh is sort of embarrassing...

Last person you gave a hug to?
um, like everyone in the band... because i was crying on them, HAHA.

-

time to do some stats homework.
also read "the awakening," which i hate.

i'm sick!

how are you? :)

laffes @ 2011-09-24T14:33:00

2011-09-24T18:33:32Z

today i sent in my application to uiowa. i actually finished the app about half a month ago but never got the balls to send it in, but i have discovered my newfound manhood, paid the fee, and now am i waiting.

in the dark

to devour your soul ಠ_ಠ

just kidding i'm not that creepy... alright, maybe i am, but whatever.

now i am going to count the number of hipsters that walk into urban outfitters at the mall for my AP psychology observation project. it's almost as bad as it sounds. it's almost like edward cullen watching you sleep at night, only less stalkerish and in public.

what a fool i was.

2011-09-18T17:17:52Z

(1) i've finally decided to actually utilise my writing journal for... you know. writing. it's at summercolor! updates are like molasses (aka: extremeeeeely slow) and like i've already given up on... everything... so yeah...

(2) it's going to be the third week of senior year, life is awful and beautiful at the same time, i give up on college apps, the end. :'|

(3) marching band has taken over my life. whenever we perform at a game or at an invitational, i always forget that i'm in, you know. SCHOOL. it's always such a weird feeling because i'm like yeah, i'm with these people and it's just so surreal when you remember that you homework to do over the weekend. i don't know, it's like time stops when you're in marching band. what i mean is... i don't have a life outside of band. WHOOPS.

(4) i was supposed to be writing college essays this morning but then i started to play pokemon emerald instead.

vanille ♀
LV. 36
poison point | modest
HP95 | ATK45 | DEF41 | SPATK107 | SPDEF67 | SPD61

giga drain | leech seed | magical leaf | poison sting

sazh ♂
LV. 36
blaze | brave
HP106 | ATK114 | DEF59 | SPATK91 | SPDEF66 | SPD66

peck | cut | blaze kick | double kick

lightning ♀
LV. 36
water absorb | rash
HP146 | ATK58 | DEF55 | SPATK124 | SPDEF74 | SPD55

water gun | bite | aurora beam | quick attack

hope ♀
LV. 42
natural cure | quiet
HP119 | ATK69 | DEF82 | SPATK103 | SPDEF98 | SPD76

fury attack | peck | dragon dance | dragonbreath

i have a vaporeon and a roselia because... well... I'M A CHEATER there i said it!!!!! gameshark is my best friend and stuff....... :( :( :((( i'm at fallarbor! anyway, i forgot how crappy and one-dimensional the movesets are for the older games!! gen V has spoiled me. :')b

not tonight.

2011-08-30T00:36:48Z

things i need to do:
- read "never let me go"
- read "emma"
- finish 1960's-ish juxtaposition idk painting
- do another painting...

colleges i'm applying to!
- uiowa (IA)
- msu (MI)
- umich (MI)
- oberlin (OH)
- UNC-chapel hill (NC)
- UC-davis (CA)
- brown LOL (RI)
- chicago LOL (IL)

i keep thinking about what happens if i don't get accepted into any of these colleges, LOL... i'm pretty sure uiowa and msu are OK, and then the next six are just like "well why not???" um, tbh, 1) i'm only applying to chicago because i really like their essay prompts SDOIFMAPE and 2) i just want to go to california. no big deal. i don't even really care about college anyway???? I WILL LOOK AT BROWN/CHICAGO/UNC'S REJECTION LETTER IN THE EYE AND SPIT AT IT is that wrong of me IDK. :')b

he couldn't sleep for seven days.

2011-08-22T03:13:17Z

try #28
august 2011

most of the time i am glad to have gotten rid
of you, but then i think about one last traitorous memory and
i go straight back to missing you again. in one of
those trances, i could have waited by the telephone all
night, praying to whatever higher power out there that you'd
remember me and call. please, please, please, just this
once, i would say in my head. we could talk about anything --
the constellations or salamanders or your grandmum's favourite rosebush --
i could care less because all i wanted was one last
piece of your voice. what i got instead was the warm glow
of the sunshine on the horizon and the murmuring static
from the phone cradled next to my ear.

people and things i was in my past lives.

2011-08-20T20:07:20Z

(or is it "were"? english grammar is way too complicated.)

1. a contemporary dancer
2. a society gentleman with a penchant for headgear
3. a peacock
4. an ugly deep sea fish
5. a 1940's florist
6. a starving artist living in an unlivable place
7. THE GODDAMN BATMAN

i'm back from band camp! i cried once on wednesday night, about six times on thursday night (senior bonfire!) and probably eleven times on friday morning. i wish i were joking about friday but i'm not... i love band camp -- part of me is so unbelievably sad to let it go, and the other is glad to looking towards a new season of life. :)

laffes @ 2011-07-24T13:22:00

2011-07-24T17:22:27Z

hi i have a tumblr.

i've actually had it for ages... only i never knew what to do with it!!

i still don't know what to do with it...

to me, tumblr is either filled with angsty hipsters, angsty teenagers, or angsty harry potter fans

i am neither!!!!

(not neither... i don't know the word for it.)

most of the times.

2011-07-18T22:25:17Z

i am a little too in love with young justice and i don't know what to do with myself.

here is the variation my elementary school had on the batman jingle bells parody:

jingle bells, batman smells, robin laid an egg
batmobile lost a wheel and joker did ballet, hey!

jingle bells, batman smells, robin laid an egg
batmobile lost a wheel and joker did ballet

batman's in the kitchen, robin's in the hall
joker's in the bathroom, peeing on the wall
penguin's on the potty, his arms are too short to wipe
catwoman's in the litter box and the riddler smokes a pipe

jingle bells, batman smells, robin laid an egg
batmobile lost a wheel and joker did ballet

always at this time of day.

2011-07-12T01:32:41Z

OK i have nothing really interesting to say except that there are 32½ more days until band camp! i am so excited, you have no idea ;; i have been waiting for this since january, LOL... think of the withdrawal i'll have when if i go to uni with a color guard. i don't even know what i'm going to do with myself...

beautiful boys go to sleep at four in the morning.

2011-06-19T23:53:24Z

i will do anything to procrastinate on my art project, so here are eight beautiful covers of adele's "someone like you", alternating between girl and boy! "someone like you" is my favourite song off of her new album. :)

an ode to roma.

2011-04-12T01:27:05Z

i like the way paint gets on your nose and
your cheeks, and sometimes, when you're trying to
pry open ivory black, the pads of your thumbs
and you track your fingerprints everywhere like
you're a dog on the prowl. if i was a forensic science
major i would have a field day. but i'm not.

but i hate the way you eat your plums because you
scarf them down like you'd die without it, and i
hate the way you always have something to say back to my
award-winning complaints. i'm sick of those smart
alec comments. haven't you got anything else to say? compliment
my shoes. i just got them on sale last sunday.

i have been in love with you for the past four years, or
how ever long ago it was when me met, and i don't trust
myself to do the math because i'm an opera singer, not einstein
or newton or any of those other smart guys. i like mozart and
wagner, you like apples and oranges, but what's the
point of listing the most mundane parts of ourselves?

the truth is that i don't get those bloodcurdling,
heartstopping, groundbreaking, soulshattering pains everyone
says you get when you're in love. i'm just not that special. you
can go to tanzania, argentina, belarus, antarctica without a
blink of the eye and it takes me all my courage to kill
a stupid spider that's watching me shower. i can't help it.

you said that in five or seven or ten years, you see
yourself travelling the world. i don't mean to burst your
bubble, but you're stuck right here with me, buddy, with paint
on your nose and gnashing on plums and simultaneously
online shopping for a top hat and climbing the great wall in your
head. i don't know about you, but it feels a lot like home.

i hate this love song.

2011-04-08T01:25:56Z

(1) i love "love song" from big bang's repackaged album. so pretty! so bgm on an epic 360 degree rotation scene!

(2) the real reason for post was

SKET DANCE

I AM SO FUCKING PLEASED. I LOVE SKET DANCE. IF YOU DON'T LOVE SKET DANCE WHY ARE YOU ON MY F-LIST. I'VE FUCKING LOVED SKET DANCE SINCE SEPTEMBER 2008, THAT'S LIKE THREE FUCKING YEARS OK. I FUCKING PEE MY PANTS LAUGHING EVERY CHAPTER (except when it's sad, then i just bawl like a baby... like the cherry blossom chapter! AND THE FUCKING VIOLIN / "FUNNY BUNNY" / BOSSUN PLAYS GUITAR ONE oh my god i cried and felt miserable AND SWITCH i cried at him too but i am getting way ahead of myself here...). MY FUCKING TWITTER USERNAME IS BOSSUN, OK.

SKET DANCE IS SO FUCKING GREAT, I KNOW I HAVEN'T TYPED IN CAPSLOCK IN FOREVER BUT THIS IS HOW MUCH I LOVE SKET DANCE. I LOVE IT MORE THAN LIFE, THAN BREATHING, THAN BELGIAN CHOCOLATE, THAN HOT BOYS. (OK maybe not hot boys... but still.) but you guys. this is like my dream come true. ;; ♥ ♥ ♥

schlieffen, you astound me.

2011-03-29T02:30:13Z

i can do the trill that ash's mamepato and pidgeotto do in the anime. i am a bird pokemon, what can i say... no big deal or anything.

sunday ♀
LV. 30
swarm | brave
HP80 | ATK72 | DEF67 | SPATK44 | SPDEF47 | SPD72

x-scissor | bulldoze | rock slide | poison jab

allegro ♂
LV. 50
motor drive | naughty
HP143 | ATK145 | DEF83 | SPATK88 | SPDEF75 | SPD137

return | spark | discharge | flame charge

holly ♂
LV. 47
torrent | naive
HP161 | ATK120 | DEF99 | SPATK114 | SPDEF64 | SPD95

slash | surf | scald | aerial ace

it took me an hour to find a venipede with a brave nature. i bred and scourged pinwheel forest and it was like god was smiling down upon me when i did. thanks bro.

as you can see, i took out sawsbuck, liepard and litwick! i didn't feel like they were such great assets to my team. i don't know if sunday will be good either... but it's pretty. (i say that about a lot of pokemon!) as far as the storyline goes, i'm at the place where i'm supposed to saving someone's butt at dragonspiral tower, and N totally wants to be in my pants (like always).

quite so darling.

2011-03-16T00:41:49Z

wait LOL i messed up on my last entry i'm cool like that!!

anyways, it's still alphabet drabble meme time.

here is how it works:
1) you give me a character(s) and a prompt / word beginning with a letter A through Z
2) i write you a 100 word-ish drabble. :)

i can write mostly anything, but right now i really like pokemon... and when i say i like it i mean i kind of want to elope to some beautiful exotic country in the caribbean. here are some other things i like! hetalia, pokemon, pokemon, reborn!, pokemon, pokemon... wait a minute.

A:
B:
C:
D:
E:
F: fight or flight (hibari / reborn!) - remap
G:
H: hollow victory (green / pokemon) - knospi
I:
J: journey (bianca / pokemon) - knospi
K:
L:
M:
N:
O:
P:
Q:
R:
S:
T: till the world ends (kida, mikado, anri / durarara!!) - remap
U: uplifting (sasuke, sakura / naruto) - knospi
V:
W:
X:
Y:
Z:

laffes @ 2011-03-14T15:22:00

2011-03-14T19:21:38Z

update on pokemon... i'm ready to go in a cave... in route 6. or something like that. some people use tumblr for this but idk how to use tumblr, LOL i'm cool like dat!!

allegro ♂
LV. 36
motor drive | naughty
HP104 | ATK101 | DEF60 | SPATK64 | SPDEF54 | SPD96

return | spark | discharge | flame charge

bruges ♀
LV. 36
limber | lonely
HP100 | ATK102 | DEF39 | SPATK71 | SPDEF50 | SPD89

assurance | cut | grass knot | rock smash

fraise ♂
LV. 37
sap sipper | quiet
HP115 | ATK93 | DEF59 | SPATK62 | SPDEF65 | SPD74

double kick | retaliate | horn leech | energy ball

my thoughts on my party: i finally have more than two pokemon!! this is eggciting for me, because in FRLG i beat the game with only three (pidgeot, vaporeon ♥, and charizard), in GSC i had four (pidgeot, typholosion, espeon ♥, and suicune), in RSE i had three (altaria, roselia, and blaziken), and right now in platinum i have three (vaporeon, luxray ♥, rapidash).

anyway, i'm not gonna lie and say that my team is the best thing ever because, to be quite honest, i thought sawsbuck was gonna be much much cooler. zebstrika is okay (that special attack isn't so fantastic...!) and liepard is more of a jack of all trades, master of none! also, look at that defense... it is quite horrible, HAHA. but even so, i like my team; they're so pretty. *3*

well what are you waiting for?

2011-03-13T04:30:20Z

maybe i'm just cheap but i am playing black with an emulator LOL LOL LOL. somehow it is so much more satisfying for me to cheat than to... not... cheat...

my team so far! i only have two pokemon... (i just beat elesa and am on to... someplace...)

allegro ♂
LV. 34
motor drive | naughty
HP99 | ATK94 | DEF57 | SPATK60 | SPDEF52 | SPD90

return | spark | pursuit | flame charge

bruges ♀
LV. 33
limber | lonely
HP92 | ATK94 | DEF36 | SPATK65 | SPDEF46 | SPD82

assurance | cut | grass knot | rock smash

as you can see, somehow my most useless pokemon is more badass than my more useful one! i actually like lepardas, haha. but, then again, i tend to go for pretty pokemon that may or not be useless (persian, ninetails, vaporeon, espeon, dewgong, rapidash, luxray...) so that's probably bias??

anyway, my thoughts on black so far: from a strictly gaming perspective, it's really really cool! especially hiun city (i need to learn english names...). it's really tedious to navigate but the 3D graphics are really nice. but i think from a pokemon perspective, it's flashy but a little lacking. my favourite types are water and fire but i've only caught two fire (pansear and darumaka) and one water (oshawott!). also, i don't like the fact that TM's are basically HM's now, only they can be erased. i feel like that takes away from the whole planning TM's out and strategies and stuff!

also why does no pokemon evolve before level 20, i'm a lazy person OK... and the names of some pokemon are just like LOL, but i will save that for another day...

but, i'm really excited to catch a deerling soon. deerling were the first pokemon that i wanted because sawsbuck are so pretty. and i want a chandelier pokemon thing! and a swanna, too, hehe. :)

we'll both answer a million times.

2011-03-02T00:43:55Z

nobody probably cares but all i can think about is pokemon. if you are ever on my plurk, pretty much 90 percent of today and yesterday was me blabbering on and on about pokemon. today i was taking the ACT and all i could think was "WHEN I GET HOME I'M GOING TO WATCH POKEMON and maybe do my art project that was due yesterday but whateva." i'm in love with shigeru / gary (again?????!!) and also my OTP is forever red/green i don't care what you say i'm in love with you they try to pull me away but they don't know the truth!!!!!

who cares about real life when i can have pokemon.. i just want to be a hermit/homeless person and watch pokemon all day long. :(

i need you to stay with me.

2011-02-09T01:43:22Z

i've been trying to write but only one paragraph comes out at a time. i can't concentrate and i'm bored and my mind is terribly flighty. i can't stay in one place mentally. it's awful and hard because i have so much going on in my head. you know that feeling you get when you're thinking really hard? i just feel like i have an empty space above my eyes. it's true.

-

From time to time, my brother thinks that he is an artist—the kind that uses mediums like acrylic and charcoal, not the one that sings into a microphone and records their voice onto a CD and sends it to people for them to listen to. Sometimes it’s hard to differentiate when both visual artists and performing artists are lumped into the same broad category—art.

No—when my brother gets into one of those moods, the only way I can describe the effects is that he wrecks havoc. Though he usually can’t be bothered to get even a new bottle of beer out of the refrigerator by himself, in a fit of artistic inspiration he will run down into the basement that might make even Usain Bolt scratch his head in confusion, pull out some rusty nails and wood and hammer away until he has a framework for the canvas. He will then fish out the old paint-crusted glass jars of turpentine and that dreaded box of oil paints. It’s the tin of paint thinner that is the worst—our grandfather had used it. When your grandfather has used the same tin of paint thinner that you’re using, it is definitely too old to be using, but my brother insists on using it anyways. My brother will then situate himself at the kitchen table, which is completely disgusting because that is where one eats. Perhaps my brother does not fully comprehend: paint fumes are poisonous.

My brother thinks he’s Leonardo, a real genius. However, if I were him, I would be more inclined to call myself Wagner, if you know what I mean. To put it in the most polite way possible, one celebrates his life and mourns his death or celebrates his death and mourns his life. I choose not to disclose my preference, and that is beside the point, anyways.

The point is that whenever I come down the stairs and into the kitchen, I feel as if I am being attacked by overgrown mint leaves that have magically transformed into some mutated crossbreed between their original form and a Venus flytrap, and it is their sole goal to kill us all.

-

Was it antique chinaware? The gold linings, the intricate, intimate decorations reminded me a lot of you, and a little bit of a fancy wedding cake—or one that the Queen would have on her jubilee. Compared to the fork resting on the rim of the plate, the china outshines the fork by a landslide.

-

It’s awful, you said to me.

What?, I asked. It was awful because I wanted to know everything. When you asked a question, I would repeat it like I could not remember what you just said, like I had a disorder of the memory. It was awful because I was the stone-cold scientist who stood their ground and dissected everything; I wanted to know which organ beat and which organ stayed still. What’s awful?

It’s awful, you repeated just like I would, which made me proud and angry all at once, because I’m always forgetting something unimportant, and when I’m trying to do something important I end up doing all the unimportant things instead.

Like what? I said.

-

I met her in Antwerp. She didn’t speak Flemish and I couldn’t understand Belgian French, but when we saw each other I thought that somehow, I could will myself for this to work—but what was “this”? We lose ourselves when we throw our bodies into the thralls of romance; instead of thinking properly, we tightrope walk across Mount Kilimanjaro and leap like gazelles, unafraid of our impending graceless deaths.

In the outdoor café on the fashionable streets, she had a floral print skirt on. From far away, I thought her face was dirty; the truth was that she had a light dusting of freckles. Her wispy hair was done in a loose fishtail braid and there was wheat tucked behind her ears. When our eyes met, I believed it was destiny. What other word in the English language was left to describe the feeling of amazement and wonder when two individuals that lived on two different sides of the same ocean meet for the first time? I did not know her name and she could not have known mine, but in our very souls a single word was resonating.

-

The man sitting across from me is a photographer. You can tell, too, just by looking at his scraggly face, the perpetual flax stubble growing on his chin, the way he carries himself like he is a detective of the mysteries of the world. When he hunches down low to take a picture of something below his center of gravity he is incredibly ugly, and suddenly his boho-chic tweed jacket and trousers transform themselves into hobo-chic.

But what is ugly? I can’t say and I don’t care. I’m watching him go through his camera

-

i can't concentrate in school, at home, when i'm taking tests, when i'm eating, when i'm doing work, when i'm writing, when i'm drawing, when i'm cooking i think of twenty things at once. i know i'm always wandering off in my head when i'm in class but lately it's getting worse. i'm writing a sentence and then i get up and do something else. but i'm not so worried; things like this pass.