Lady Fogg

Icons

ladyfogg — Sat, 04 Sep 2004 17:20:21 GMT

Good evening!

I no longer keep my journal here but recently I have gotten back into collecting and creating icons. If you are here looking for my icons and/or my new journal, you can find them here:

- My Journal
- My Icons

ladyfogg — Mon, 24 Mar 2003 17:27:00 GMT

Alright everyone, as Liz would say, I have "officially joined the dark side" (even though we all know I joined that a long time ago ;-) ). Yeah, that's right, I've finally made the move to diary-x.com. No more livejournal... ::tears up::

Hey, who are you calling a 'traitor'? Just because my journal looks better than yours doesn't mean you have to be jealous! ::laughs::

New journal:
http://www.ladyfogg.diary-x.com

Just a few more quizzes..

ladyfogg — Sun, 23 Mar 2003 11:36:34 GMT

I'm about to head out to dance, but I figured I'd leave you with just a few quizzes "stolen" from Stephanie's journal real quick...

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You are a Pegasus! You're good, but you don't like
to do things with others outside of your little
group of friends. It is difficult for you to
trust new people at times, but in an emergancy
you are there to help, even if you don't trust
those in need.

Which Mythical Beast are you?
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Water

What is Your Element?
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Thoughts on the war...

ladyfogg — Sat, 22 Mar 2003 18:43:56 GMT

Am I the only one that thinks that this 'war' is going too easy? I mean, I don't mean to be disrespectful to those who have died or will die, but it just seems like there should be more to it. Up until now people have been shouting that this would be the next World War...yet we seem to be breezing right through it.

Doesn't that strike you as...odd?

- Quizzes -

ladyfogg — Sat, 22 Mar 2003 18:23:24 GMT

Well, this afternoon I got bored so I found a website at livejournal.com/~onlinequizzes and began to take random quizzes. Here's the results!

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I am the Ideal Lover

Most people have dreams in their youth that get shattered or worn down with age. They find themselves disappointed by people, events, reality, which cannot match their youthful ideals. Ideal Lovers thrive on people's broken dreams which become lifelong fantasies. You long for romance? Adventure? Lofty spiritual communion? The Ideal Lover reflects your fantasy. He or she is an artist creating the illusion you require. In a world of disenchantment and baseness, there is limitliess seductive power in following the path of the Ideal Lover.

Symbol: The Portrait Painter. Under his eye, all of your physical imperfections disappear. He brings out noble qualities in you, frames you in a myth, makes you godlike, immortalises you. For his ability to create such fantasies, he is rewarded with great power.

What Type of Seducer are You?
created by polite_society

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ENGLISH
Nice. I know, you can't resist it huh? It's
sweet. It's sexy. It just makes you want to
throw yourself on the ground and scream
"take me now". But you won't.
Orlando here is perfect. Just watch out for
the mobs of girls and guys following him.
Might I suggest Hugh Grant. Oh well, all ya
need is Orlando.

Which Accent Makes You Melt? (for those attracted to males)
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Take the "How Do You Use Magic?" test! Written by Brimo

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::cringes:: Yikes, that's a bad picture of him!

Sean Biggerstaff is your future husband. He has an
irish accent (yay!)and is mega-cute. Have you
been to Hogwarts lately?

Which actor is your future husband?
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::dies laughing:: Yeah, like ya'll didn't know I would have a crush on the dark, brooding, and mysterious guy.

Severus Snape. He's all yours, baby.

What Male Harry Potter Character Do You Have a Crush On?
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The Cheat is awesome!!

Which member of the Homestar Runner gang are you?

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You are most likely to get something dangerous.Like
a dragon,sword,dagger,or a bleeding heart.

What kind of tattoo are you most likely to get?
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*Kind and Good-Hearted* Your all kind and nice to
everyone that everyone loves you. Even though
someone leaves you, there is a reason. And they
may come back to you too. That is, because your
so nice and good-hearted.

What Kind of Personality Do You Have?
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You've got a MUSE in you!Congrats! It gives you
creativity. You inspire people!

What is Your Inner Supernatural?
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Blue Dragon

Who is your dragon spirit guide?
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::grins:: I'm Belle! (Yeah, like you didn't see that coming from a mile away!...what do you mean 'obsessed'?!)

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Well, this afternoon I got bored so I found a website at livejournal.com/~onlinequizzes and began to take random quizzes. Here's the results!

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<div align="center"> <table width="350" cellpadding="10" cellspacing="5" bgcolor="006666"><tr><td bgcolor="009966"> I am the Ideal Lover Most people have dreams in their youth that get shattered or worn down with age. They find themselves disappointed by people, events, reality, which cannot match their youthful ideals. Ideal Lovers thrive on people's broken dreams which become lifelong fantasies. You long for romance? Adventure? Lofty spiritual communion? The Ideal Lover reflects your fantasy. He or she is an artist creating the illusion you require. In a world of disenchantment and baseness, there is limitliess seductive power in following the path of the Ideal Lover. Symbol: The Portrait Painter. Under his eye, all of your physical imperfections disappear. He brings out noble qualities in you, frames you in a myth, makes you godlike, immortalises you. For his ability to create such fantasies, he is rewarded with great power. </td></tr></table> <a href="http://www.users.bigpond.com/polite_society/seduction.html" target="_blank">What Type of Seducer are You?</a> created by <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=polite_society" target="_blank"><img src="http://www.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif" width="17" height="17" border="0"></a><a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/polite_society" target="_blank">polite_society</a> </div>

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<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/R/reserrvoirchick/1046494035_cturesorli.jpg" border="0" alt="sexy british accents like orlando bloom make you melt"> ENGLISH
Nice. I know, you can't resist it huh? It's sweet. It's sexy. It just makes you want to throw yourself on the ground and scream "take me now". But you won't. Orlando here is perfect. Just watch out for the mobs of girls and guys following him. Might I suggest Hugh Grant. Oh well, all ya need is Orlando.
 <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/reserrvoirchick/quizzes/Which%20Accent%20Makes%20You%20Melt%3F%20(for%20those%20attracted%20to%20males)/"> Which Accent Makes You Melt? (for those attracted to males)</a> brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a>

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<a
href="http://www.wiredreflection.com/tests/magic.html"
target="new">
<img src="http://www.wiredreflection.com/tests/bardf.jpg"
border=0 frameborder=0 alt="You are a Bard!"></a> 
Take the <a
href="http://www.wiredreflection.com/tests/magic.html" target="new"> "How Do You Use Magic?" </a> test! Written by <a href="http://www.wiredreflection.com">Brimo</a>

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 ::cringes:: Yikes, that's a bad picture of him! 

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/L/lilsweetie714/1045951916_CMyDocumentssean.jpg" border="0" alt="Sean Biggerstaff"> Sean Biggerstaff is your future husband. He has an irish accent (yay!)and is mega-cute. Have you been to Hogwarts lately?
 <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/lilsweetie714/quizzes/Which%20actor%20is%20your%20future%20husband%3F/"> Which actor is your future husband?</a> brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a>

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 ::dies laughing:: Yeah, like ya'll didn't know I would have a crush on the dark, brooding, and mysterious guy. 

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/P/Pidgie/1047469515_aperesults.jpg" border="0" alt="He's all yours, baby"> Severus Snape. He's all yours, baby.
 <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Pidgie/quizzes/What%20Male%20Harry%20Potter%20Character%20Do%20You%20Have%20a%20Crush%20On%3F/"> What Male Harry Potter Character Do You Have a Crush On?</a> brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a>

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 The Cheat is awesome!!

<A HREF="http://home.apyland.net/quizzes/homestar/index.html">
<IMG SRC="http://home.apyland.net/quizzes/homestar/Cheat.jpg" Border="0">
Which member of the Homestar Runner gang are you?
</A>

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<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/A/Amelie/1046563068_uresdragon.jpg" border="0" alt="dragon"> You are most likely to get something dangerous.Like a dragon,sword,dagger,or a bleeding heart.
 <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Amelie/quizzes/What%20kind%20of%20tattoo%20are%20you%20most%20likely%20to%20get%3F/"> What kind of tattoo are you most likely to get?</a> brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a>

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<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/F/FeatherWing/1046736585_od-Hearted.jpg" border="0" alt="HASH(0x873b89c)"> *Kind and Good-Hearted* Your all kind and nice to everyone that everyone loves you. Even though someone leaves you, there is a reason. And they may come back to you too. That is, because your so nice and good-hearted.
 <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/FeatherWing/quizzes/What%20Kind%20of%20Personality%20Do%20You%20Have%3F/"> What Kind of Personality Do You Have?</a> brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a>

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<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/S/Suifung/1044081170_lMuFinmuse.gif" border="0" alt="HASH(0x84ab1b4)"> You've got a MUSE in you!Congrats! It gives you creativity. You inspire people!
 <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Suifung/quizzes/What%20is%20Your%20Inner%20Supernatural%3F/"> What is Your Inner Supernatural?</a> brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a>

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<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/A/AnunNoMiya/1039213285_onsblueres.jpg" border="0" alt="blue"> Blue Dragon
 <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/AnunNoMiya/quizzes/Who%20is%20your%20dragon%20spirit%20guide%3F/"> Who is your dragon spirit guide?</a> brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a>

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 ::grins:: I'm Belle! (Yeah, like you didn't see that coming from a mile away!...what do you mean 'obsessed'?!) 

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/H/hurleygirlie09/1046568804_turesbelle.jpg" border="0" alt=""Beauty and the Beast"-Beauty and the Beast"> "Beauty and the Beast"-Beauty and the Beast
 <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/hurleygirlie09/quizzes/What%20Disney%20Princess%20Song%20Are%20You%3F%20/"> What Disney Princess Song Are You? </a> brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a>

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 That's what I am! I'm not goth...I'm just a 'tortured artist'! ::laughs:: 

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/F/FaceAndGhost/1037264624_slightning.jpg" border="0" alt="You're The Tortured Artist"> You're the Tortured Artist. You do anything and everything; from water colours, to morbid poetry, to emo music and zines. Nobody understands you and they never will, but that's alright because you have your art. You're extremely intelligent and diverse, but perhaps a little cinical. That's okay though, the world can bite you and you can make up a short story about then illustrate it yourself.
 <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/FaceAndGhost/quizzes/What%20Is%20Your%20Inner%20Artist%3F/"> What Is Your Inner Artist?</a> brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a>

My Evening Out At The Theatre...

ladyfogg — Sat, 22 Mar 2003 08:38:35 GMT

::grabs her a bowl of cheerios and decides to go on and write about her evening last night while she's not bogged down with IMs::

Watch out... This is probably gonna be a long entry!

School

School was really relaxing yesterday because there were alot of people that were absent due to having to go get their hair and nails and all that stuff done for prom. So most of the teachers really didn't have much planned (except for Mr. Fletcher in Trig who is giving us a test on Monday! ::rolls eyes:: )

Speaking of Trig, Gray and I had an interesting "conversation" the other day in Trig class. He was saying that Joe (this guy that has started to hang around us) would feel really good if I would "give him a little feminine attention". Of course my response was "yeah, and Meg Jordan would probably feel realy good if you gave her a little masculine attention!"

A little feminine attention?! What the heck? Most of the guys I know I give more attention than is even healthy for them and here he is asking that?

::rolls eyes:: Crazy things, man...

In Mr. Golden's class we had to register for next year, but I had already registered so it was basically just a social hour for me. During that time I got to talk to Mr. Golden for quite awhile and it was really alot of fun. He can be the most awesome guy you have ever met when it's just sorta a one-on-one kinda thing, but get him in the classroom and he can come off as just plain mean! You just have to be willing to see beyond that...

Oh, it was so nice! I was sitting in there (the lecture hall) and just kinda looking off into the distance because I was bored outta my mind and I must have looked sad or something because he came up and squeezed my shoulder as he passed by in a "it's alright" sorta way. It was just a really nice gesture and one I really needed...

Well, anyways, after school was over I went home and prepared to head out to the...

Theater

After I had picked Nick up from his house we went to the Playhouse to meet Allison. We were some of the only ones there so we stood out in the lobby for a bit just talking. Hah, Ben Bates ran through one time and he just had one of those goofy runs like Blake Curtis and it was just too funny!

And of course Danny was forever lurking in his little control box and even when I smiled at him he just regarded me with those icey eyes and then looked away... ::shrugs:: Go figure.

Finally we decided to go on and sit down so we could get some good seats. Oh, man, it was so nice to be back there! My first thought was Wow, it's so good to be home... I just love the way the theater makes me feel. And I mean, every theater, not just the ones I have performed in. I think it's just a kind of connection that every actor/actress has to their sanctuary.

So anyways, we sat there and waited for the play to start, and discussed the people that would be acting tonight and comparing who we knew and who we didn't know and such. Then I looked up as a few people started to file in and saw John (not Spivey and not 'other John'...lol, this is another John!) come in. (He is a really awesome guy that I know from school.) Well, he came and sat down right in front of us with his parents and grandparents and then turned around and asked me who I was there to see. When I said I was there to see quite a few people he said that he was there to see Adam...that he was his cousin.

That's so cool! Adam would make an awesome cousin! ::grins::

Well the play finally started after a bit... And I suppose this is where I should comment on who played what and such really quick.

Jeff - Mark Twain (Not only is Jeff hot, but he can act! He is one really awesome guy and he portrayed our beloved author quite well. Myra is really a lucky girl!)
Adam - Muff Potter (Incredible, as always...but I think he was much more fitted for the part of Christmas Present. Hah, humorous how he always get the drunk roles, isn't it?)
Cookie - Injun Joe ( ::shivers:: Goodness, but he makes a good bad guy!)
Joseph - Doc Robinson ( I think he was a bit upset that his part wasn't bigger, but he actually had the best part! lol, he got to knock out Adam and get stabbed by Cookie...how much better can you get?)
Will - Preacher/Teacher ( ::laughs:: His characters were so melodramatic...he kept the whole audience laughing. ::grins wickedly:: Especially when he 'stole the scene' from Cookie)
Walter - Tom Sawyer (For awhile I wasn't too sure how well he would do, but I was pleasantly surprised! He did a very good job and actually looked the part as well.)
Tommy Huckleberry Finn (Tommy was awesome like he always is. That guy has talent! For awhile I thought the role of Huck was too young for him but he pulled it off just fine and actually fit the part quite well.)
Harrah - Becky Thatcher (Okay, so she's not Kaleigh but we love her anyways. ;-) Harrah is a really sweet girl and I was thrilled to see her as Becky. She definitely got two thumbs up on her performance.)

Okay, then, now that I'm done with that, back to the 'story'...

Oh man, it was so funny! Every time Will raised his switch to whip Tom there would be a loud thunder crack and the scene would freeze. Well the first time that happened, Nick leaned over and whispered "And all of a sudden, Will becomes Zeus!" I just about died laughing!

After awhile, intermission came about and I decided to stay in the auditorium since I don't handle big crowds really well (especially in that small lobby when they're all packed in). So Nick and I were sitting there talking about one thing or another when Sylvia came up and started talking to us. She was telling me about trying out for 'Oklahoma!' and all that kinda good stuff and all in all it was just good to see her again.

So anyways, we talked for a few minutes and then suddenly I hear someone calling me and I looked up to see Allison standing in the doorway with Oliver. Oh man, it was so good to see him again! He is such an awesome guy! So I ran over to him and gave him a big hug and we talked for awhile and he told me that Joseph had wanted to come out and see me as well but that he was still in costume so he couldn't. ::laughs:: It's just great to know that you're thought about!

Well, we couldn't talk long because the play was starting up again, so I had to tell him good-bye and go and sit back down...

The play was wonderful, as you can probably already tell from all my comments and Nick and I thoroughly enjoyed ourselves making fun of certain parts and people. ::grins wickedly::

After the Play

Once the play was over, Nick and I decided to wait around for a bit and let the crowd kinda clear out some. Then we went outside and were greeted by Oliver and Allison first, then Will came around. He told me that he had a surprise for me backstage so I was forced to go back there.

( ::sighs:: I miss the theater so much... How come they gotta be doin' 'Pippy Longstockings' next?! Grr...I hate that play.)

So I went backstage and Will presented me with this beautiful hardcover copy of "The Phantom of the Opera" (which is nearly impossible to find!). He had even gone so far as to highlight all the quotes and write all the notes that I had had in my original copy in there! Needless to say, I was somewhat speechless.

Well, then there were some people that wanted to get some pictures with Will so I went on back out into the lobby where I found Nick and told him what Will had given me. (Thank God Nick was there tonight or I'm not exactly sure what would have happened... His presence was definitely a really big comfort in what might have been an otherwise very tense situation.)

After awhile Adam came out into the lobby and I got to talk to him for a few minutes before I spotted Joseph and went over to see him. ( ::laughs:: It was so wonderful to see everyone again! I was just on cloud nine.)

Well, I was hungry so after a small soap opera took place we (Joseph, Oliver, Nick, Will, Allison, and myself) all decided to go out and eat.

Hey, can you go to the Playhouse without a soap opera taking place? Nope, I just don't see that happening!

Before we left I saw Myra and got a chance to talk to her for awhile. She was about to head out to prom and she looked beautiful! Her dress was so gorgeous - all medeival and everything... Kudos to the dress! (And the girl wearing it, of course ::smiles:: )

Ruby Tuesday's

Once we got to Ruby Tuesday's we were seated near the back and I was only slightly shocked to see they were playing the news coverage of the war on the TV I was facing. It's crazy! It's like, no matter where we turn, we just can't get away from it!

Dinner was so much fun. We all just got a chance to catch up on some things and be together. There was minimal talk of Chris, which I was really grateful for. I'm just so glad that whole thing didn't blow up and start rumors flying like some other relationships I know about.

::laughs:: Oh, it was so funny! Will asked me to get him some croutons while I was at the salad bar and when I came back I said they didn't have any...then Joseph sat down and had a big pile of black croutons on his salad. So of course Will was like, "They have croutons!" and before I even thought about it, I blurted out "Yeah, but they're black!" and Nick laughed and said "Wow, that is the most racist remark I have heard all day!" (or something to that effect).

Hah, so now I'm racist towards black croutons! ::smiles, rolls eyes::

Oliver really surprised me. He is a Catholic and realized after he had ordered a plate of chicken that he wasn't supposed to eat meat on Friday. So instead of going on and eating his meal and just blowing it off like most people would, he just ate the rest of his food and decided to save the chicken for today. I just thought that was so cool because most people wouldn't care...but he had beliefs and actually stuck with them! That's just so hard to come by these days...

Random Thought: Ya'll know what? I got ripped off for my meal... Including tip, a small plate of salad and a glass of water was ten dollars! Geeze!

Well, anyways, we all had a great time just socializing and I managed to get Joseph and Oliver's screenname so now I can keep in touch with them! ::happiness!::

So after all this you can imagine I was quite tired so after Will's parents came for him, Nick and I loaded into the car and headed out...

Going Home

On the way home Nick and I joked about what it would have been like if Will and Joseph had gotten into a fight...and that was funny! I think Nick and I both really needed this night out. Weekends tend to be times that we both sit around and just feel sorry for ourselves kinda thing...it was good for both of us to get out of the house and do something with friends.

So after I dropped Nick off, I drove home with "Phantom Of The Opera" playing as loud as it could go. ::laughs:: How many people do you know that crank up the showtunes?

And I am proud to say I actually got home by my curfew (twelve) before I turned back into a simple peasant and the glamor and beauty of the night was gone...

And that was a really long entry...so I'm gonna go clean my room now!

ladyfogg — Fri, 21 Mar 2003 11:30:45 GMT

::sighs:: Well, ya'll, I have some news for you... In a few days (hopefully over the weekend) I will be moving.

No, not moving to another city (I'm not that lucky) or even into a new house... I'll be moving my journal to a new server (diary-x.com)

I know, I know, I feel like such a hypocrite doing this because I've gotten so many of you to sign up for it but lately livejournal has just been giving me so many problems. For one thing, I want my own awesome layout and livejournal is just so restricting to the free accounts.

But anyways... I'll be sure and leave a final post here before I take my leave and link you to my new journal. Hopefully it will be really awesome because I have some big plans for it.

"Close your eyes, take a ride on my carousel..."

ladyfogg — Thu, 20 Mar 2003 19:46:13 GMT

::walks into the Aurora (her dirgible) and collapses on a chaise lounge with exhaustion, having just returned from dance::

I am so tired right now! Every part of my body is aching with fatigue... But it's a good kind of ache. It's the kind of ache that reminds you that you've just done something with your life other than just lay around the house. It's actually quite an invigorating feeling all in all...

Okay then, let's play a bit of catch up on the current affairs (events?) of my life...

Going To See 'Tom Sawyer'
I got a call the other day from my boss saying he wouldn't need me to teach archery so that I had this Friday off. Hah, yeah, great timin' since I've already turned down three dates to prom..

So, in order to keep myself busy, I decided to join Allison and take Nick as my 'date' to see the play "Tom Sawyer" since none of us are going to prom. Plus, Will has been begging me to come so maybe if I go he'll shut up. ::smirks::

Afterwards we're gonna go out and eat with the cast. I'm so excited because I get to see Joseph (my husband in the last play) and Adam (Ghost of Christmas Present)! I haven't seen either of them since "Scrooge" so I'm really excited about that.

::whimpers:: Gosh, I miss the theatre. Sometimes I miss it so much that it literally just hurts!

But anyways, more on Friday night tomorrow...

Dance for Church's Passion Play

My church is putting on their annual Easter Passion Play and I have been asked to be in one of the crowd scenes and an angel in the heaven scene (which is when I dance). Ever since I was at my old church I have wanted to be a part of the crowd scene so I could go about with a basket of scarves, calling out my wares and such as Jesus comes in and all... Hah, it just looks like such a fun role that you can do so much with!

The dance has been really hard and lately my knee that I injured in cheerleading has begun to give me problems. It's so gross because I can sit there in class and bend my knee a bit and just feel the bones grinding into each other because there's no cartlidge there to seperate them. And it hurts!

But to be honest, I wouldn't trade this dance for a lifetime of good knees... I just feel so at peace when I'm dancing. It just totally takes your mind off everything going on in the outside world and makes you just kinda..distant (for lack of a better word).

Plus the other girl that is dancing with me, Brittany, and I are finally starting to come to terms. I mean, we're both very big "queens" and when it comes to dancing and theater and such we don't want anyone else on our territory challenging it.. But we're finally starting to see eye - to - eye and tonight we actually had a decent conversation.

I guess we both decided to rather join up as allys then fight against one another constantly.

Random Statement

I'm wearing toe socks with penguins on them!

Closing Remarks

::collapses in sleep and allows one of her random mysterious lovers to carry her to bed::

( ::pulls a Will Polley:: Yeeaaahhh... )

Deep Thoughts From Todd...

ladyfogg — Thu, 20 Mar 2003 11:53:23 GMT

Todd's Deep Insight into the President's Mind:

First paragraph of George Bush's speech last night: "My fellow citizens, at this hour American and coalition forces are in the early stages of military operations to disarm Iraq, to free its people and to defend the world from grave danger. "

what he was really thinking: "My fellow citizens, I have just ordered the opening of a big ol' can of all-American whoop-up all over Saddam Hussein's head. Dag, it's good to be President of the USA!"

ladyfogg — Tue, 18 Mar 2003 14:23:30 GMT

In explanation of the last entry since a bunch of people have asked me about it:

DeepFriedDragons: please exaggerate on ur recent post

MuseOfTheMusic: ::laughs:: By the Fates, I need to take that thing off... your the third person to ask.

DeepFriedDragons: then answer it

MuseOfTheMusic: How far is too far...? What I mean is, how far can you go with just 'studying' the occult and vampires and supernatural and such before you actually become *part of* the occult? I mean, where's the line?

DeepFriedDragons: when u start wondering if blood tastes good

MuseOfTheMusic: Hmm...perhaps...

ladyfogg — Tue, 18 Mar 2003 13:59:30 GMT

you ever just reach the point where you have to stop and wonder 'just how far is too far'?

HTML Class Boredom...

ladyfogg — Mon, 17 Mar 2003 12:26:59 GMT

Which of Henry VIII's wives are you?

this quiz was made by the groovtastic ghouls at Spookbot
you're scissors!

what annomous object are you?
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ladyfogg — Sun, 16 Mar 2003 20:32:47 GMT

I just wanted to say thanks to everyone that responded to my previous journal posts or sent me an e-mail with some encouraging words. Ya'll really don't know how much that helps! I love all of ya'll lots!

An Inspiration Poem

ladyfogg — Sun, 16 Mar 2003 20:28:06 GMT

6:45 p.m.

This afternoon I went and talked to Mrs. Penny (my Sunday School teacher and something of a mentor). I told her about all of the problems I was having and such (without breaking the confidence of anyone) and she said, “You know, it is so weird that you say that because I just came across a poem that I wrote in my Bible a long time ago that I think was written specifically for you for this moment.”

This is what it said:

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Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled
Whenever I am troubled
And lost in deep despair-
I bundle all my troubles up
And go to God in prayer.

I tell Him I am heartsick
And lost and lonely too-
That my mind is deeply burdened
And I don’t know what to do.

But I know he stilled the tempest
And calmed the angry sea-
And I humbly ask if in His love
He’ll do the same for me.

And then I just keep quiet
And think only thoughts of peace-
And if I abide in stillness
My restless murmurings cease.
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Well, needless to say I felt a sudden sense of peace just wash over me and it was like all those burdens that I had been bearing were just lifted and I wanted to just throw myself down and cry right there. But instead I simply requested if I could copy down the poem for later reference and she said “Of course.”

But...anyways... Forgive me but I’m gonna get on my soapbox real quick. I know that I might not be the most righteous of people and that some of you may even consider me “goth”, but this is one thing I know for sure... No matter what our problem is, God is so much bigger than that problem..and He even knew it was gonna happen!

::sighs:: God really is so awesome sometimes... It’s nice to just lay aside my rough exterior every now and then and just crawl into His arms like a child and let Him hold me awhile.

(Yeah, I know, I know, doesn’t that just give you “warm fuzzies” all over? ::rolls eyes, smirks:: )

An entry from Friday...

ladyfogg — Sun, 16 Mar 2003 20:25:25 GMT

9:23 a.m.

Well, I know it’s Sunday and all but I feel that I really need to backtrack and retell the events of Friday, just so I can get everything written down and out of my system so it isn’t kept all locked up inside... So, if you’re really not in the mood to read a depressing entry then I suggest that you turn away now and read no further. Otherwise, continue, but know that you have been warned...

I’m just going to write down the progression of the day just so you can see how many things just piled up on top of me. I won’t go into any over-exaggerated detail or anything, I’ll just tell it all how it is. Short, sweet, and simple...

-Talked the night before with a big problem that Will was having...depression for him ensued.
- Kaleigh is having problems with Jason and I’ve been trying to be there to led an ear.
- Nick still seems upset over him and Dina and I get bad vibes from him on the occaision which makes me sad for him.
- John Spivey told me that some of his poetry that I had read had been written for me and that he was “mad about me”. This of course meant that I had to turn down another guy and break his heart.
- Anna was major depressed which made me sad for her. She dumped her problems on me and told me that she was thinking about getting back with Jared.
- Clarissa was really upset because she just realized today that Allison (who she thought was her friend) actually hates her so she decided to rant to me.
- Rodney was *way* depressed in HTML class and I was actually almost scared to talk to him. But finally, later into the night on IM, I got him to open up and he told me what was bothering him.
- Whitney has been feeling out of sorts lately about one thing or another and I think that is beginning to effect me as well (because I know *my* depression has to be effecting her!)

But one thing just piled on another and another and another...and instead of dealing with just my problems, I’m now having to help deal and carry everyone elses problems as well! I am just...so...tired...

Now, please, don’t get me wrong! I love knowing that people are willing to tell me things in confidence like that and I don’t want them to stop that... It’s just that I have let all these things pull me down slowly.

Friday night was the closest to suicide I have ever come... Yet because I had to strengthen everyone else I had to keep on my plastic smile and act like everything was okay with me! Of course I had a few people ask me why I seemed depressed when I let my mask crack for a bit but that’s another problem...I can’t tell anyone what’s wrong because that would mean I would be breaking the confidence of all the aforementioned people!

::sighs::

However, one interesting thing did come out of all of this... (though those of you that lack a somewhat morbid sense of humor might not want to read this)... While being depressed in HTML class, Rodney drew a very sickly ironic picture that was entitled “Death of the Hangman” and it depicted a mere stick figure hanging from a tree.

Personally I loved the irony the picture presented...but some people were a bit less than amused.

So anyways, Friday night came around and I was in a really bad state...

::smirks:: And then Shane came around...

Hah, Whitney is convinced that Shane and I should just elope and get it over with and I’m beginning to agree with her.

For those of you who don’t know, Shane is a guy I met on the internet about...three (?)...years ago. Ever since then we’ve stayed in pretty close touch and stuff. He’s an incredible person... Intriguing and mysterious...yet terribly romantic! A lover of the arts...fantasy...theatre... We can relate to each other a lot!

Yeah, if he were “real” then we would definetly have some problems holding me back from him! ::grins::

But anyways... Shane and I got to talking for a bit and he was filled with his usual romantic/dark poetry and interesting quotes to cheer me up. ::shakes head:: Yeah, it really is a shame he lives in New York... But then, if I knew him in real life he probably wouldn’t be anything like he is on the net so... Better to just stick with my fantasies of how he “really is”.

But anyways... Please pray for me though. Times are hard and I just need strength to get through it...

ladyfogg — Sun, 16 Mar 2003 12:21:32 GMT

i am so tired of smiling and acting like everything is all right and just going through life with other people's problems troubling me just as much as my own problems

Quizzes that are really me!

ladyfogg — Fri, 14 Mar 2003 18:12:30 GMT

Oh man, if these two quizzes don't describe me perfectly, I don't know what does...

You are a quiet and enclosed sort of person.
You tend to never open yourself up to others
and deal with your own life on your own terms
because you feel no one will understand your
lapses in and out of depression. You have
friends, but what lies beneath is not known to
them. You are still searching for an answer to
your existence, but that is still a
mystery.

What kind of heart beats in you?
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Individuality

Which Life Stage Are You?
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The different girl

Which girl stereotype are you?
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ladyfogg — Wed, 12 Mar 2003 20:03:27 GMT

Nick's Theory on the word 'Blah' :
(prepare to be enlightened!)

"I think that blech is like an imitation blah, u know what i mean? Kaleigh prefers the whole blech thing but blah is the original, the 1st, the true word, while blech is like imitation cola, no1 really drinks imitation cola unless they r trying to be funny thus i relate blech to imitation cola "

ladyfogg — Wed, 12 Mar 2003 19:01:47 GMT

Quick note: Just so everyone knows, I have deleted all the "communities" I was in so that the people on my "friends" page are strictly people I know. (This would include Rodney, Stephanie, Mike, Will, Chantal, & Jay)

A new addition...

ladyfogg — Wed, 12 Mar 2003 18:55:04 GMT

::makes an addition to her "Things That Everyone Should Do At Least Once In Their Life" list::

Play in the rain!

I'm serious! Go out there and turn your face up to the sky... open your mouth and actually taste the rain... twirl around a few times... slosh your bare feet through a puddle... see how high you can kick the water into the air... dance a bit... maybe even sing some... Forget that anyone else might be looking and just be free !

Thoughts on an English Teacher..

ladyfogg — Wed, 12 Mar 2003 12:19:01 GMT

From the pages of my private journal:

There is a teacher here at Davidson that has caught my interest. His name is Mr. Golden and he is my English teacher.

At first I didn't care much for him because he always just seemed so mean and rude, snapping at people sarcastically and such...but lately he just seems so sad...

Maybe that's just the angsty Shakespearian actor part of him but I'm starting to doubt it. I just wish there were something I could do about it... I mean, I don't know what I could (or even would) do but surely there must be something...because lately I've just started to see behind his facade of disdain and carelessness. I'm starting to see that deep down inside there actually is a very nice and gentle man.

So then why this bitter sadness? Why purposefully close himself off to everyone?

Kaleigh summed him up perfectly the other day. She said, "You know, one day he is going to write that Oscar-winning screenplay...and then commit suicide."

I couldn't agree with her more. He just seems to be isolating himself more and more as the days go by...and I fear the day when there will be no one able to penetrate his final defenses and call him back.

ladyfogg — Wed, 12 Mar 2003 06:46:52 GMT

Quotes From 'Dance of the Vampires' :

A good nightmare comes so rarely,
While ordinary dreams are so easy to find,
A good nightmare comes so rarely,
I'll show you yours,
If you'll show me mine...

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Turn around, this is the night
Now I need you more than ever
And if you’ll only hold me tight,
We’ll be holding on forever

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Go break a heart
or your heart will be broken
Go betray your friend
or else be betrayed
Grab your chance before it’s too late
If you’re fighting, you must not be afraid

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There are things that must be magic
There’s no explaining why or how
And there’s every sign that once upon a time
Is starting here and now

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I'm too excited, I can't sleep
I'm awake, yet I dream
My heart's ignited with a deep burning ache
And I dream
A lovely dream

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If light were dark
and dark were light
The moon a black hole
in the blaze of night
A raven’s wing
as bright as tin
Then you my love
would be darker than sin

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There’s so much more to the night,
The beauty of darkness,
Miraculous lands,
You’ll get it all
if you give me your hands,
Give me your heart
and your soul will take flight,
Forevermore in the night...

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Everything that they told you
was nothing but lies,
Everything that they bought you
was nothing but bribes

And I know that you want more,
All you wanted was a piece of the night,
So come along and take your share,
Stop your searching everywhere,
Cause the answer’s here,
I invite you to the ball of your life

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::sighs and rolls eyes upwards:: By the Fates...how far have I fallen...?

"Can it be that you are my forever love...watching me from up above?"

ladyfogg — Tue, 11 Mar 2003 10:21:11 GMT

Today has been a really awesome day so far!

Started out by staying up into the late hours of the night reading several different stories on FanFiction.Net and gathering some ideas for some new stories of my own. I have had several requests at another mythology retelling but then I started thinking that, with my love for my heavenly hunter (Orion), that perhaps I should retell his story with Artemis. It is always a possibility...

Then I woke up at about 9:15 because I didn't have to go to school today 'til 10 due to graduation exams being taken that I have already passed. So Kaleigh, Jason, Dina and I snuck into the gym (since technically we weren't supposed to be there) and managed to locate Gray, Jared, Nick, John Spivey, Stephanie, and Stephen Gaffin.

Gray had brought this book called "A User's Guide to Ritual Voodoo" and I looked over it. There was a curse in there on how to plague a person with nightmares. Unfortunately it had to be on a certain night in the center of a pentagram of black candles, and you had to have a magic wand to perform it... Darn!(lol, I'm just kidding! Don't freak!)

But anyways, after awhile Jared offered to give me a shoulder massage and it felt sooo good! I made the mistake of still standing while he did it and I felt like I was just gonna collapse into a puddle.

After about thirty minutes of this John Spivey reached over and tried to show Jared how it's "really done"...and if I had been a big ol' buff person with plenty of muscles it would have been fine, but he just dug his fingers deep into my muscles and must have hit some kind of pressure point because I felt my entire body just lock and it was almost like I couldn't breathe...

Thank God Steven Gaffin rescued me and said "No, come here, Angela, and I'll show you how to do it." so I gratefully sat down in front of him and he continued the massage while I listened to Nick, Jared and all the other guys "reenact" some british comedies. (mainly "The Quest For The Holy Grail") Hah, now that was some funny stuff!

After about an hour or so of being in the gym they let everyone free (even though my muscles were so relaxed now I could barely stand). So we went to Mr. Fletcher's class and I found out that I had made an 82 on my Trig test that I thought I had bombed! ::does a happy dance!!::

After role was taken we went down to the cafeteria for lunch. There John Spivey and some other guy came up to me and said "Hey, we need a lead vocalist for our band, so if you see any hot girls that can sing, send them our way." Then they turned around to walk off.

Of course I was feeling really brazen at that moment so I scoffed and said, "Hey, what about me?" and they both turned back around and looked shocked.

Then the guy at John's side quickly seated himself beside me and got this big ol' cheesy/charming grin and said "Hey, my name's Joe, I'm the lead guitarist" - (or some instrument) - "for our band."

Of course I just gave him the same big, fake smile right back and said in a sugary voice, "It's a pleasure to meet you, my name is Angela." and shook his hand.

So then John grabs Joe and trys to pull him away from me and get a quick word in but Joe pushes him aside and said "Hey man, I'm working on a contract here!"

It was the funniest thing I have seen in a long time. Joe just had that way of smooth talking and I can only imagine all the girls he's probably gotten with that false pretense of charm about him.

So then John came to my other side and said, "Would you really do it?" to which I promptly laughed and said "No. I just heard you say you needed a hot singer and you didn't bother to ask me. What's wrong, don't you think I'm hot?"

lol, of course his response was "Yes, I think you are incredibly hot...but I knew you would say no, which is why I didn't ask."

So anyways, I laughed it off and told them that if I did see any hot singer girls I would let them know.

(Oh, and a quick side note: Joe has really gorgeous eyes! I mean, they are a rich, dark color... Hah, I'd never fall for someone like him but I just might have a love affair with his eyes! )

Nick has seemed so upset lately and I really wish there were something I could do about it. I mean, he's just so quiet now...well, quieter than usual. Like his pondering over some deep, dark fate or something... Heh, and you can tell he really doesn't like John Spivey.

Okay, well, all that said, I must be off. I'm in Media Management right now and I think I'm just gonna go finish up reading "Pandora" so I can get back to "Tale of the Body Thief"... Hmm, or maybe I'll write in my private journal... Either way, I need to do something constructive.

A Chat On A Dream...

ladyfogg — Mon, 10 Mar 2003 11:32:27 GMT

Here's an interesting chat that I had with Will concerning my dream...

TheDreadedChild: Did you like my perplexing thought earlier today?
MuseOfTheMusic: I'm still playing with it... But I'm almost one-hundred percent certain that his name is Zachariah... However, the thing that I want to know is why you asked? What are you thinking?
TheDreadedChild: I don't know.
TheDreadedChild: It just struck me as strange when you said you never imagined it would be something like that.
TheDreadedChild: You must have either some strong tie to someone named Zachariah, or you will, or else it wasn't his name.
TheDreadedChild: Because I don't think you would have a major character in the plot of a series of dreams from something that was not important to you.
MuseOfTheMusic: I'm not sure... I don't know anyone named Zachariah.
MuseOfTheMusic: But if he really is a ghost then it really wouldn't matter whether or not I knew someone by that name.. that was his name in life.
MuseOfTheMusic: However, the thing that scares me is that nobody has recurring dreams like this... much less dreams with an actual *plot*.
MuseOfTheMusic: To be honest with you it really is starting to freak me out..
TheDreadedChild: Well, you keep calling him your ghost... Does he only come to you in dreams?
TheDreadedChild: Which if he does, I not think him a ghost.
TheDreadedChild: Not in the typical sense.
TheDreadedChild: ::sings lets go fly a kite.. lol::
MuseOfTheMusic: Yes, he only comes to me in my dreams...unless hes whatever it is that's at the top of our stairs..
TheDreadedChild: Doubtful.

MuseOfTheMusic: ::nods:: I think I would know his presence...
MuseOfTheMusic: But what could it be? Like I said, normal people don't have recurring dreams like this
TheDreadedChild: Is he the one with the slash on his forehead.
TheDreadedChild: I have had recurring dreams, but they didn't span an entire story.
TheDreadedChild: It did have a plot, but it was not a series.
TheDreadedChild: Well, it wasn't really a dream, it was a nightmare.
MuseOfTheMusic: He has a slash on his cheek, yes. Really jagged and nasty..
TheDreadedChild: Are you certain it is you in the dream?
MuseOfTheMusic: Yes.
TheDreadedChild: Like, is it 1st person, 3rd person, but your point of view?
TheDreadedChild: Like, a lot of my dreams, I'm watching myself do something.
MuseOfTheMusic: It shifts between the two...but when it is in 3rd I am looking at myself.
TheDreadedChild: Though I don't know what the other people are talking about.
TheDreadedChild: thinking*
MuseOfTheMusic: Yes but there are more things about these dreams that are scaring me...
TheDreadedChild: Which youhave neglected to tell me.
MuseOfTheMusic: Looking back on my journal entries about my other dreams, I have woken from each of them and wrote about them at 4:00...always.
TheDreadedChild: That is probably just a coincidence. Well not like a coincidence that it's all happening, but I don't think that means anything.
MuseOfTheMusic: Another thing is how vivid these dreams are. In most dreams they aren't...like this. I mean, I can actually feel the people in my dreams...
TheDreadedChild: I know that type of dream... I just don't experience them often.
MuseOfTheMusic: That's just it! I don't either... so why is it that only the dreams that have Zachariah and John are the only ones that are so vivid to me?
MuseOfTheMusic: There's just too many coincidences here...
TheDreadedChild: They're obviously important.
TheDreadedChild: Perhaps you should see someone that knows about dreams, or try and find it on the internet.
MuseOfTheMusic: I don't believe it's a ghost. I mean, I like to play with the idea but something about it isn't right... But there's *something* to it...
TheDreadedChild: Then again, you could always pray.
TheDreadedChild: Zack ::Zachariah is too long:: is dangerous.
TheDreadedChild: He may not seem that way, but I think he will be.
MuseOfTheMusic: ::blinks:: Come again..?
TheDreadedChild: And John will probably turn out to be the one that really loves you.
TheDreadedChild: Just has no tact.
TheDreadedChild: Zack is dangerous.
TheDreadedChild: I mean, why woul he have a slash on his cheek?
TheDreadedChild: That's jagged and rough?
MuseOfTheMusic: By the Fates...
TheDreadedChild: Fates work through people and objects.
TheDreadedChild: Nothing else.
MuseOfTheMusic: ::mock glares at him:: Must you always be the one to give me more things to think on?
TheDreadedChild: It was A) an accident, B) self-inflicted, or C) imposed on him.
TheDreadedChild: If he was protecting someone or himself, he obviously put himself into a situation that was dangerous or it wouldn't have happened.
MuseOfTheMusic: ::shakes head:: I just don't see how he could be dangerous... Not with the way I feel when he's around. John is the one that has me scared if either of them.
TheDreadedChild: Did you feel that Chris would be dangerous to you?
TheDreadedChild: Or any of your other boyfriends?
TheDreadedChild: Terrible things often come in pretty wrapping.. ::can't remember the proverb.. make shift::
MuseOfTheMusic: ::places her hands to her ears:: Stop it! You're in my mind again!
TheDreadedChild: I'm just here to help you figure this out.
TheDreadedChild: ::wants to know::
MuseOfTheMusic: ::sighs:: ...no...
TheDreadedChild: No what?
MuseOfTheMusic: No, I didn't feel any danger from them. At least, not in the beginning..
TheDreadedChild: Hah! I knew it.
TheDreadedChild: You were hiding something from me.
MuseOfTheMusic: Damn it, stop getting in my mind!
TheDreadedChild: I hate to say it, but I'm seeing Zack as a Wormtongue.
MuseOfTheMusic: And what do you mean hiding something...? I didn't hide anything.
TheDreadedChild: Not hiding, just not telling me.
TheDreadedChild: You just got it out of your mouth that you felt no danger.
TheDreadedChild: And here you go saying you didn't feel danger from them until..
MuseOfTheMusic: ::frowns thoughtfully:: Well...I never felt danger from Chris because I knew he wouldn't try and overcome me...and you know the story of the other one so I haven't been completely hiding.
TheDreadedChild: Blah! I thought you were talking about the people in the dream.
TheDreadedChild: -.-;
TheDreadedChild: ::was talking about Zack and John::
TheDreadedChild: But.. I really need to go.
TheDreadedChild: I have given you something to muse over.
MuseOfTheMusic: Oh, no. ::shakes head:: I feel an immense amount of danger from John... But I feel nothing but complete peace with Zachariag
TheDreadedChild: Maybe enough make a journal entry with.
TheDreadedChild: So, my task for tonight is complete.
MuseOfTheMusic: ::sighs:: If you happen to think of any reason why I keep having these dream...
MuseOfTheMusic: Oh, there will most definetly be a journal entry come from this...
TheDreadedChild: I think the reason is obvious.
TheDreadedChild: It's prophetic.
MuseOfTheMusic: But how..?
TheDreadedChild: And if not prophetic, it's just one step behind you, retelling your life through these two characters.
MuseOfTheMusic: Perhaps...
TheDreadedChild: ::hugs and laughs...:: Au revoir, mon ange de musique (::used an online translater, so it could be wrong:)
MuseOfTheMusic: ::laughs and returns the hug:: Thanks... You've given me something (more) to think on
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Dreams and their meanings...

ladyfogg — Mon, 10 Mar 2003 10:04:58 GMT

Well, the big topic lately with me has been my crazy dreams...it seems everyone has their own different opinion on it. I spoke with Whitney at length on the subject the day after the dream and we both came up with some really strange coincedences that just didn't seem to fit into the normal "dream pattern"...

A) I always wake up from my dreams right at 4:00 in the morning.
B) Each new piece of the dream seems to progress even further on the "plotline" to a certain extent.
C) All of these dreams that I have had are extremely vivid and I can recall almost every single detail like I had really been there. It's not bizarre and hazy like most dreams.
D) Even though I have never met either of them in my entire life, Zachariah & John play a very prevalent part in each of these recurring dreams.

I spoke with Will the other night about what he thought and he surprised me by saying that he thought that Zachariah was dangerous to me. I'll have bits of that conversation posted later as it is quite enlightening and thought provoking.

Another friend of mine, Briana(the one that first gave me the theory of Zachariah being 'a ghost' ), had this to say about it...

"I've been looking at your latest dream and I've been trying to figure it out. Now, I'm not sure how it goes along with the rest of your dreams, but I think I've figured out the symbolism in your newest one and I do believe that you will agree with me.

John - John represents the boyfriends that you have had/will have that will basically treat you like trash. All they want from you is sex and they're willing to do anything to get that. At first you'll be lulled into a sense of security around them and they may even manage to seduce you. However, I noted that you ran from him which leads me to believe that you will never be forced to succumb to any of these kind of men in real life. I'll try and think on it some more.

The man at the door - Now, one thing you have overlooked is the man that you ran into his arms outside of the door. This man is symbolic of all the men that you will run into that will seem like "the one" and they will try to cling to you for a time even though you struggle to get free. However, once again I noted that you managed to run away so I assume you shall do the same in real life.

Zachariah - Here's the part I think you'll like. Zachariah is symbolic of your "one true love". After all of these relationships that are going to get you no where you will ultimately turn to "the one". The way you have described the peace that you feel when he is with you leads me to believe that he is indeed that perfect man that you will have been waiting for all your life."

There was a bit more to the e-mail but that's the basic run-down of what she thought...

This morning I managed to talk to John (not John Spivey, but another John) and he enjoys interpretting dreams and such as well so I asked him his opinion. Personally I figured I was going crazy because no one in their right mind has recurring dreams like this... but he assured me that he had had a few dreams exactly like the ones I described. He said his dreams involved people he did not know but felt strongly about and were often extremely vivid and had a "plotline" that progressed with each dream.

So at least I'm not the only one...

::sighs:: I just wish I could understand these dreams better... Why can't I be one of those people that doesn't dream at all?! Life would be so much more simple!