I will not set fire to myself

Ace!Dean is important for reasons

lackadaisy — Wed, 10 Dec 2014 10:18:43 GMT

So, I have a lot of feelings about asexual Dean. Let’s talk about that.

I know that for a lot of people, and admittedly me as well, when you identify with something, and you identify with another thing, you often try to combine the two. I dunno if I’ve ever, per se, identified with Dean Winchester but I have always been extremely fond of him. It was Sam I identified with, I think that’s why I was constantly trying to turn him into a woman and also a lesbian whenever I wrote him, that’s how I liked him best.

But Dean, he always seemed to be the person I wanted to love me, you know, in a hypothetical world, so I often utilized Adam to achieve these ends and I so I think that’s probably why the Dean/Adam pairing so appealed to me. Adam was such a blank slate when he was introduced and so yeah.

I’m not entirely sure I set out to say any of that cuz it’s kinda…super personal, gosh…
But anyways, so ace!Dean is important to me. Not just cuz I figured out recently that I’m ace but because now that I’ve imagined it, I can no longer UNSEE it. I just can’t.

Imagine a Dean who craves emotional and physical connection in a non-sexual way. Remember that people respond to him in a noticeably sexual way, and also that Jensen has mentioned or hinted at that he believes that at one point when Dean was younger he resorted to prostitution and sex work to make enough money to survive and support Sammy. Dean clearly learned the use of his looks early on and the way in which people responded to him. Being a survivalist he learned how to use this to his advantage and even figured that despite the fact that he seemed to be really good at this whole sex thing, he never seemed to enjoy it. What he liked was the part after, where he got to be close to someone physically, and emotionally close to someone in an affectionate way.

Let’s propose that in this line of thought he learns quickly that people don’t like skipping straight to the after part that Dean likes best, and he figures that what he has to give up in order to get to the part he likes is the sex no matter how little he enjoys it, which is not at all. After repeated reinforcements from frequent experience that people only appreciate him for his sexual value, Dean starts to believe it.

Enter Castiel (or Adam, ya know, for the sake of my shipping purposes), who only seems to appreciate him for the exact opposite. He appreciates Dean for everything else about him, his soul, his emotions, his intellect, for everything that he is---(except the part Dean doesn’t care about). Even though he never truly looks at Dean in a sexual way, Dean jokes about it, tries to point it out, possibly I believe because it’s something familiar. Even if it’s something he doesn’t like, and probably resents, it’s easier because it’s something he knows how to deal with. This other thing, the whole looking at Dean like he’s everything that fixes the world and holds it together for Castiel, that is something that makes Dean so happy it scares the shit out of him.

So Dean makes jokes and he pulls away and he doesn’t trust Cas all the way, until he does and when Cas lets him down it just absolutely wrecks him. I mean, it wrecks him just as much as when Sammy lets him down. Which this is also an important comparison for me because clearly I ship wincest (just not the main obvious one, I ship the other wincest, lol), but I think that ace!Dean makes wincest make so much more sense.

I’ve read so many fics where Dean is sub or bottom simply because even though he obviously loves Sam in that way he can’t justify or make sense of fucking his little brother. It makes him feel like he’s hurting him or that what he’s doing is wrong and he can only rationalize it if he’s letting Sam do something, if Sam is the dominant one taking action.

Now, if we’re using this logic where Dean would do that because he loves Sam in a romantic way, or a very deep intense way, and it’s the sex part that upsets him, but it’s sort of a part of the deal…wouldn’t ace!Dean make sense here? Like, doesn’t it make it make more sense for Dean to not quite cotton on at first to romantic love, because, hey, it’s not like he wants to have sex wit Sam, so it’s obviously just brotherly love…

Think of all the possibilities for fic, with that. Just…let that percolate a bit.

But so…now pretty much ace!Dean gives me life, and is my everything and now I need to write all the fic.

Floral Patterns | Quinn/Rachel | G

lackadaisy — Thu, 21 Apr 2011 04:15:39 GMT

Title: Floral Patterns
Author: lackadaisy @ somehotlazyday
Rating: G
Pairing: Quinn/Rachel, pre-slash
Spoilers: none
Word Count: 1,085
Previous Part(s): Out of Place
Summary: When Finn kicks her out, Quinn moves in with Rachel.
Note: I'm trying to get back into writing again, and I love Faberry, so if anyone has any prompts, please share them. :D

Quinn could tell when Rachel was fishing for affirmation. She was pretty good at spotting it because usually she was waiting for the perfect opportunity to shoot her down and crush her irritating enthusiasm.

anyone like to RP?

lackadaisy — Mon, 18 Apr 2011 03:01:16 GMT

Sunday seems to be a hellaciously slow LJ day. But I keep trekkin' forward.

I like to RP and now I've got the hankering for it. :] I don't really like to do fan-character RP stuff, I prefer original characters, so if anyone is up for that, lemme know? :D

Prompt Table: 365 | 04: Hours | Adam, Sam, Gen

lackadaisy — Fri, 04 Mar 2011 20:18:17 GMT

Title: Hornets' Nest
Author: lackadaisy @ somehotlazyday
Causation: Prompt Table
Pairing/Characters: None/Adam, Sam
Rating: G
Genre: Gen
Summary: 500 miles just to turn around and go home can be somewhat dissatisfying.

When this was the case, Adam had learned long ago that you weren't supposed to kick the hornets' nest.

Job/SPN

lackadaisy — Tue, 01 Mar 2011 16:15:54 GMT

-Finally got a job. At the petco grooming salon. I'm a 'grooming assistant' on paper, but in the salon they call me a 'bather'. :] Yay money!

-Tentatively rewatching SPN seasons 1-3...maybe a bit of four. I have my boyfriend as co-pilot in the rewatching. Who knows if this'll get me back into the fandom. If it does, it'll likely get me back into the 1-3 portion of it. :] It was just happier then.

Also, familiardevil, I saw this when I woke up this morning, and omg love, every time I see a breathtakingly beautiful mix on the fanmix comm these days, I look at the username, and it's made by you. <3 Keep it up, babe.

Terri Scheuster is not 'Evil'

lackadaisy — Sun, 21 Nov 2010 22:13:38 GMT

I've gotten so sick and tired of everyone hating on this woman. Yes, what she did was terrible. But let's look at darling William for a second:

-He sleeps with any over-age woman who comes on cast.
-He's naive and gullible.
-He's tightfisted with what control he does have.
-As pointed out by students in the past, he's selfish and hypocritical to the point he bowls over anyone in the way of what he wants.
-He has gone through two women with mental illnesses and sent them to therapy to no end other than to point out their flaws (it seems).
-Oh, and also, he likes to shove his WIFE up against a cabinet when he's mad. His wife who he'd /thought/ and /hoped/ was pregnant at the time....WHY IS THIS OKAY?

Terri is a very interesting character to me. Yes she lied about the baby thing, but if we all remember /why/ it's because her husband was having an emotional affair with another woman, and had 'a foot out the door'.

When Terri's sister Kendra came over and found out that there was no baby. Do we recall the look of absolute terror on the 'terrible' Terri's face? That was genuine fear, people. The kind of fear of abandonment that comes from serious trauma. I mean, that's what motivated her towards the initial lie. She was /going/ to tell Will even though she was that scared. It was Kendra, her stronger, conniving, controlling sister who suggested they 'get Terri a baby'.

Yes Terri has issues, but why? My guess is at the minimum she was most likely abused growing up. If you look at her and her sister they're two sides of the same coin. Terri is covertly controlling, passive aggressive, needy, and terrified. Kendra is overtly controlling, outright aggressive, dominating, and intimidating.

This is just speculation on my part, but I just, I wish /somebody would talk about this/. I've not seen any discussion of Terri's character on any of the main Glee communities, and it annoys the crap out of me.

I'm sorry that she hurt 'precious william'. But you know what?

Will Schuester lost my respect when he shoved his wife around in 1.12 'Mattress'. Not okay.

I welcome your thoughts. If you're going to disagree with me, that's fine, but please don't do so in a 'this is stupid!!!11!!1' type way. <3

!Christmas Funds!

lackadaisy — Sat, 06 Nov 2010 21:06:09 GMT

COMMISSIONS: OPEN/~~CLOSED~~

We don't have much time, it's Christmas season almost, so here's a bullet-point list:

-Kay used to work as a writer for hire.

-This means people used to pay her to write short stories, poetry, character designs, and occasionally fanfiction.

-Kay needs money for which to buy presents for her friends and family.

-All items here are under $10 and can (and will!) be delivered to you on the same day as purchase (depending on if she has to check out a new fandom to provide said item).

-Kay can help YOU get presents for your fandom friends. A pairing you just can't write? A kink that's out of your league? Want to get a fanmix for someone? Kay can provide!

-SRS INQUIRIES ONLY PLEASE.

-PLEASE ONLY ADVERTISE FOR ME IF YOU BELIEVE NO ONE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST WILL SEND ME TO PRISON FOR THE COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT. THANK YOU. I'M TRUSTING ALL OF YOU. *MAKES FACE*

Your Options

+Graphics
-Fanmix (example is locked post, srry) ~ $8 (image for each song) | $4 (front &back covers only)
-Wallpaper ~ $1
-Header ~ $1
-FO Banner ~ $1
-Misc. Banner ~ $1
-Icons ~ $0.25

+Writing
-Fanfiction (any fandom, providing I am given references via wiki or links to downloads/other helpful info)
-Original short stories
-Character designs (like a textual reference sheet, can come with a story if you like) ~ $10
-Poetry (can't do formal structures, am only good at freeverse) ~ $0.25
-Porn (fanfic or original)
*generic rule for stories (fan or original): 500 Words thru 5,000 Words (per piece)*

Het-Porn Gay Porn/Fanfiction/Original Short Stories ~ $0.50/500 words | $1/1,000 Words

*Will only go up to 5,000 Words per story*

Ordering

-Place your order here in a form of a comment. I will follow up with you via PM.

-Payment will occur after completion, and it will be via paypal. You will need a credit card/paypal account for that. If you choose to mail me hastily concealed cash, if it's lost, I will not be held responsible for that.

My address: Kay
223 NE Watson Ct.
Bremerton, WA 98311
United States of America

-Unless I have to get into a new fandom for the piece, or there are extenuating circumstances, your order shall be completed the same day it's ordered.

Thank you for your time!

PSA for straight people

lackadaisy — Wed, 20 Oct 2010 21:58:42 GMT

Dear straight people: please, stop. Stop with the “retweet/reblog/repost/like/acknowledge this if you have a gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgender friend you love and accept unconditionally!”

Here’s the thing: you don’t deserve a fucking accolade for this. I don’t give a flying crap that you love and accept me unconditionally - oh yay, you’re treating me like I’m “normal”. OH WAIT, I AM. This crap makes me feel more ‘othered’ than rampant homophobia, and I’m tired of it.

Accept me unconditionally, sure. But don’t spam it all over the internet like you think you deserve a fucking pat on the head and a biscuit for it.

-Kiwiana (inked)

RE: posted by lackadaisy

~Friends Cut~

lackadaisy — Thu, 08 Apr 2010 04:21:21 GMT

FRIENDS CUT

I'm about to do a HUGE cut of my friends list, guys, and I'm really sorry to all of you that have already been cut and/or are going to be. I know that a lot of people tend to take being on someone's friends list really seriously, and when they're removed, they're sad pandas.

I just want you to know that if I cut you, I don't necessarily think that we're not longer friends. To me it's pretty much always been a list. Whether or not you're on it doesn't necessarily affect how much I like you or don't like you.

As it stands, most of the friends I keep in touch with most often I do so outside of LJ, on AIM or some other such IM, or through txting or on the phone. And if any of you who are being cut would like to still stay in touch with me, feel free to add me on any of my IM's, the info's in my profile, just please send me a PM first letting me know who's adding me so I can keep an eye out! :D

Also, there are a few of you I'm cutting that I've been especially close to in the past, and I would still like to talk to you outside of LJ, and I still consider you friends, I just don't think we comment at each other enough to stay on each other's lists. Does that make sense? Probably not. :C

If you can see ~this post~, you haven't been cut.

BE AFRAID, BE VERY AFRAID.

lackadaisy — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 23:02:29 GMT

COMING SOON TO YOUR F-LIST, A WIP SO EPIC, SO SRS, IT MIGHT JUST BREAK FANDOM:

Watch somehotlazyday for updates.

All married people write porn for their spouse at 4am!

lackadaisy — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 20:21:54 GMT

Title: That Jerk Spuck
Author: lackadaisy @ somehotlazyday
Pairing: Uhura/Gaila, with some dissatisfactory Spock/Uhura on the side.
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Smut, with very little set up.
Summary: Uhura comes home from the worst date ever with Spock, and Gaila redeems the night with some hot girl-on-girl action.
Notes: This was hastily written for my wife, scorpiod1, at 4am, so keep that in mind. xD;;

“His name's Spock, Gaila!"

HAVE A MEME AND SOME SELFISH DEMANDS!

lackadaisy — Mon, 11 Jan 2010 23:59:05 GMT

ship me meme

Also, thank you so much pinkelephanti for the birthday card! OMG :D

Wooooo, my birrrrfday is on thursday! In 3 days! :D *flails*

I have an awesome gif partaaaay going on over here in anticipation of the day.

I don't like making demands, or selfish demands really. I always feel horrible for hours afterward.

So like, I don't really have lots of demands for my birthday irl with my family.

I WOULD MUCH RATHER SIT AROUND ON MY BIRTHDAY MAKING SELFISH DEMANDS OF MY FLIST LIKE THIS:

-You over there, you write me some Kirk/Chekov!
-You, you write me some Dean/Adam puppy love!
-You, you get to write me Kirk/Bones!
-You, I demand a happy bubbly Kirk/Chekov fanmix!
-You, get me a permanent account!

~If you can't write these pairings for reasons of 'I know not this fandom!', ask me for another fandom that you do write!~

MY FIC-DEMANDS INCLUDE HAPPY AWKWARD-UST AND CUDDLING TROPES. BECAUSE, LIKE, IT'S MY ALL TIME FAVORITE OKAY? I ALSO LIKE FOREHEAD KISSES AND HAND HOLDING AND PEOPLE CALLING EACH OTHER 'BABY'.

YOU KNOW WHAT, HOW ABOUT I JUST GO ALL OUT? LET'S HAVE A LIST OF HAPPY-FANTASTICAL-PERFECT-DREAM-WORLD DEMANDS:

-hollycomb atomicskull the_dala break out of various molds and write Kirkov, JUST FOR ME FOR MY BIRTHDAY.

*swoons and faints* Okay...phew...yeah okay, I'm done with the dreaming now cuz otherwise I might DROP DED.

You know, as it goes. :]

I LOVE YOU FLIST, I'MA GO BACK TO STALKING A DEVIANTART PAGE FOR A KIRIBAN! :D
~Kay

Friends Cut

lackadaisy — Fri, 08 Jan 2010 00:02:03 GMT

If you can see this, you're good.

I did my very first friends cut! And I feel like an uber bitch, please don't flame me! So, the reason being, I am very impressionable and easily influenced. SPN is bogging me down. Just the mention of it sways my mood. This is pathetic and horrible and I know this already. I cut the majority of the people I felt like I didn't talk to that much, totally didn't know who they were, and/or were very active in spn fandom.

The actively-spn people who stayed either: A) are a part of the inner circle, B) don't post that much C) don't post about SPN that much.

Please, PLEASE don't hate me.

GET YOUR SORRY ASS ON THAT SHIP AND GET TO WORK!

lackadaisy — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 04:10:07 GMT

SHIP WARS 2010
do you have a ship? do you love your ship? do you believe in your ship? are you ready to fight for your ship?*

THE INTRODUCTION

Now, you might be asking yourself: What is Ship Wars?

The answer to that question is quite simple. Ship Wars is a bloody* battle to the death* for the only true OTP. While some people would resort to bludgeoning their competition* with a heavy club or perhaps an out-dated computer monitor, we have decided to go with a more productive method.

Simply put, Ship Wars is challenge to demonstrate the worthiness and superiority of your ship through the creative medium. Instead of resorting to physical violence*, we will be relying on the written word and visual art to sway the undecided and decidedly decided into the grander appreciation of YOUR SHIP.

Details at SHIP WARS 2010

*there will be no bloodshed at Ship Wars (EXCEPT THE BLOOD OF OUR ENEMIES)

ETA: I've been promoted to Admiral. xD So I'm not really Keptin Kirkov anymore. :] I am now officially ~impartial~. Lol

singing dam-di-do

lackadaisy — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 21:39:19 GMT

therecommend a friendmeme

HAI HAI I LIKE NU FRIENDS. :D

My only IMPORTANT DETAILS being that I'd really like some new friends from the trek fandom. Especially reboot and TOS. I'm trying to break into this fandom so badly and I don't understand the hierarchy at all, if there is one. So any friends from there are totally super swanky.

Not that I won't welcome generally any friends, but that's mostly what I'm looking for. :D

SO GUIZ? WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOOOORRRR???? REC ME SOME NEW FRIENDS! :D

DO IT, UHURA IS WATCHING YOU, WATCHING YOUR /EVERY MOVE/

lackadaisy — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 00:59:56 GMT

SOMEBODY NEEDS TO FUCKING WRITE THIS ALREADY. I DEMAND IT. IT'S CHRISTMAS OKAY?

-Christmas Loot Picspam coming later-

<3
Kay

why do you have to make me feel small

lackadaisy — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 01:13:06 GMT

I ALWAYS FEEL LAME DOING THESE THINGS! D:

ANON CRUSH MEME

:3

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALP!

lackadaisy — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 06:41:12 GMT

Um, HELP.

WHY AMAZON, /WHY?/

Alright guys, this is how sunk into this fandom I am now. I want this book really fucking bad. Not only is the price just barely out of my reach because of the shipping and handling, but I also realized that I couldn't get it regardless if I have the money because only amazon account holders, and consequently folks with credit cards can buy from them anyways. Neither of these things do I have.

THE FIRST PERSON WHO PM'S ME WILLING TO BUY ME THIS $3 BOOK WILL GET A FIC OF THEIR CHOOSING, OR GRAPHICS IF THEY PROVIDE THE CAPS. OR A MODIFIED LAYOUT WITH ACCOMPANYING GRAPHICS. I'LL EVEN CHURN OUT A FEW ICONS IF YOU WANT. PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAASEEEEEEEE. *FLAILS*

Also, I am pleased despite the circumstances to finally have a reason to use the Zuko raaaage icon.

ETA: nola_rue = win! she's buying it for me! a;skdfj;alskj! <3333

ALL IS WELL. AS YOU WERE.

You're the lesson I never learned

lackadaisy — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 02:10:56 GMT

Okay, okay, so I've been putting this off like whoa. But here I am, five days later and finally updating. xD;; I guess that's not that long when you think about it, but it feels long to me, so there.

A few things of comm-ownerly importance:

-dean_adam 's prompting round is still going on but I didn't advertise it nearly as much as I should have, and really should get on that more. I also have a prompt to write for it still, and I feel extra lame about that.

-keepinguontrack I spammed about this already, but I'd like to mention it again because I'm so epically pumped. I'm not entirely per se handling the advertising on this one, but rather delegating and supervising as my awesome modlet faeries wutendeskind , scorpiod1 , and kiwiana are doing the brunt of the work. For which I am eternally grateful. I've had to advertise so many things over my short life here on LJ I'm pretty sure that just the mods in spn fandom alone are sick of hearing from me. I'm pretty sure they see my name pop up in their inboxes and inwardly groan, AND ignore me for at least an extra day or two just to be spiteful.

So, we won't be starting up and matching people with their partners until the first week of January, but sign ups are in fact OPEN! Please, if this interests you at all, head over there and join the comm, and fill out your form at the intro post. The more forms there are filled out on time, the easier a job I'll have assigning people to each other.

It IS multi-fandom, so anyone and everyone is welcome, so long as you're a student in high school or college and onwards who has homework they need to get done.

Rant: I'm kind of falling out of spn fandom, guys.

-So, do not freak out! I probably should have bolded that part...UM, yes. You know, like in hitchiker's guide to the galaxy with the word's "Don't Panic" in large, friendly letters on its cover...

Anyways, so, um, okay. I think I finally realize why my writing muse has died, and it's interlaced with this. I'm the type of person that hasn't been able to cling to fandoms for very long. I always obsess hard and fast and then I move on after usually a month or two. But with Supernatural, I was so happy because for once that WASN'T happening. I was clinging on! I wasn't losing the love! And I think that's what made the summer so fun was that the love I had for this fandom was just so immense, that sheer passion motivated me to write so much. I ended up turning out 11 stories a day, I'd write thousands of words, I cross posted, I made friends. I participated in as much stuff as I could. I'm pretty sure that people were SICK of seeing my name I posted to the comms so often. And I loved every minute of it.

And then came the premier, and I'm not gonna go into detail about this because it hurts to talk about. But a lot of things really blew up for me personally. I was also sick, and stressed out, and it was just not a good time. Basically all of September really, really sucked hardcore for me. I felt the worst I'd felt in a long time, and was even seriously suicidal for a period of time.

And then my writing muse just....died. So you can see how it might be hard to still feel passion for a fandom that sort of idk. It's like, I can still write for spn, and I still find it vaguely interesting, and I suppose that I'll be watching the new episodes when they come back in January. But season 5 is especially tainted for me now. It's really just been ruined for me, I can't think about the show without getting worked up and I'm more invested in fandom than I am in the show now. It's like I look up at my 4 season boxed sets, in their place of honor on top of my desk-hutch next to dark angel season 2 and 'Selma' and 'Blinking with Fists' and I just...I just can't make myself watch any of them. :/

And that really, really blows, guys.

I'm not going to up and leave the fandom, there's no sense in that, fandom hasn't really...done anything bad to me I suppose. Besides, all of my loved ones are here. My LJ-family is here, my inner-circle is here. It's...home. I just, I think that the time came for me to move on from this fandom, and I couldn't because I was so invested, so my muse just slowly started to rot, because it was living in a creatively-dead place for me.

So I think I'm going to finish up my supernatural related obligations and do my best to convert any writing challenges I have to another fandom if at all possible.

I think my apocabigbang is now going to be Star Trek Reboot, and I've already started plotting a way for my Gleebigbang to be a Glee/Reboot cross-over (it's going to be Jim/Emma/Bones threesome or Jim/Emma or Bones/Emma, whichever I settle on).

If my motivation comes back for Supernatural, then cool beans, if not, then...okay. It was its time to pass for me, and it did.

I'm going to ask my f-list, please DO NOT try to bring me back around. I think my huge problem is that I stayed too long, I stayed past the time I should have, and it started to eat at me. If I come back on my own, I will. Don't try to revive this for me, please.

-That's my latest graphics excursion, I made a Kirk/Bones wallie. Though I don't think I can post it at kirk_mccoy because it only has Kirk's face on it, though it's supposed to be Bones's handwriting on the paper, but I don't think that qualifies enough to cross post it, so I'll just be putting it up on my writing/graphics comm sometime today maybe.-

I really love Kirk/Bones. It is schmoopy and happy and my OTP for Reboot. :] I also feel really fucking triumphant about this because IT IS NOT A WEIRD OR UNKNOWN PAIRING. IT IS PRACTICALLY CANON IN THE NEW MOVIE AND IS ALSO RIGHT UP THERE WITH KIRK/SPOCK. IT'S THE 'OTHER SIDE OF THE FENCE' BUT WHAT THE FUCK EVER GUYS.

For those of you that know me at all, you know that I have always been eternally cursed to like that 'weird pairing' that no one else likes, or is very rare. This is the first time in a long, long time, where I've liked a popular pairing that's accepted by fandom at large.

So yeah, I AM SO GOD DAMN HAPPY WITH THIS FANDOM. /THIS/, is what fandom should feel like. If I'm in the kitchen, making myself some coffee or getting a fresh soda and just the THOUGHT of kirk/bones or writing a fic, or reading fic, or posting to a comm, or checking the fandom filter makes me grin my socks off and get so excited I can barely contain myself?? Yeah, that's how fandom should be. To me, anyways. :] I also know that there are plenty of fandoms that I look back on with a wistful, nostalgic happy sigh, and then go pick up a classic fic for that fandom, or something and sit down and read it again.

But anyways, BLAH. Moving on.

IT'S SUPER DUPER KAY NEVER RECS STUFF BUT SHE IS GOING TO TODAY TIME. YAY.

Fics:

THE OTP (aka Kirk/McCoy)

Once there was a way to get back home - By the_dala

A++++++ This is of course, tailored to me and my fuckery. I adore nightmare-hurt/comforts, especially if the nightmares are about abuse of any kind. Just, yeah, don't ask. But anyways, this story is perfect, sweet, and honest. I love the characterization here. And of course, you know, it's my OTP so, whatreyagonnado. *flaps hand*

the boys of summer - By atomicskull

a;sldkjfa;lskjdfal;skf JUST KEYSMASH, THAT'S IT, I SWEAR. No really though, this was so real feeling, I could totally see this happening within the confines of nu!canon. It's academy-era, and the feeling of family that the author builds for you between Gaila, Uhura, Kirk, and Mccoy is so genuine it will break you in all the right ways. Very heartfelt, and touching.

And a new one just begun - By the_dala

I'm starting to get the feeling that 'the_dala' is one of the Kirk/Bones BNF's for reboot. o.o This story is really sweet and holiday-y, and awesome and made me so happy by the time I'd finished it, it was all I could do to not run through the neighborhood screaming to the world how awesome this fic was. I am so god awful at reccing things, good lord. Anyways, though, seriously, this is adorable and awesome, and I love how she portrayed Bones's family. <3

GEN

How to avoid kicking puppies and other valuable lessons in leadership by sparky77

This was actually really funny. I'm sure some people might characterize this as crack, but the humor here is A++++, and I could not stop laughing all the way through. It's sweet and well characterized and just awesome all the way around. Now the reason I read this story in the first place is a lot more interesting than my pitiful attempted rec of it:

So I was raised a trekkie, both my parents are trekkies, and I grew up saying things like 'live long and prosper' and 'damnit mom, I'm a kid not a dishwasher!' and all sorts of nerdy things without actually knowing the reference until way later in life. And since the new movie came out, my dad has been more and more enthused that I'm getting more into HIS FANDOM. It really is, even if he doesn't know it. He's read actual fanfiction before, WAAAAAY back in the day. He even read RPF without knowing what it was!

So I went to the st_ficfinders and asked them to rec their best and finest gen fic, so my dad would have some fanfics to read. And of course the above gen fic was one of those that was rec'd to him.

It was also the first one of the list that my dad actually read. Not more than a few minutes later, MY DAD CAME INTO MY ROOM TO SQUEE AT ME ABOUT THE FIC. HE LAUGHED AND QUOTED LINES AND TOLD ME I JUST HAD TO READ IT BECAUSE IT WAS SO HILARIOUS, AND THEN LAUGHED HIS WAY OUT OF THE ROOM. I AM NOT KIDDING, OMG. MY DAD SQUEE'D AT ME OVER FIC. A;LKSJDF;ALKSJF;KJ

So, um, tl;dr, READ THAT FIC.

ART

Mirror!McCoy Manip of nu!McCoy! By spikeface

THIS MAKES ME WANT TO WATCH THE CLASSIC TREK 'MIRROR MIRROR' EPISODE. AND ALSO MIGHT HAVE GIVEN ME SOME UM..._{maybe sexy!tiemz dreams about McCoy, and all his badassery.}

A Karl Urban Picspam By totallybalanced

1.This girl is amazing. 2. The man of the picspam is amazing. 3. Go enjoy the hotness, I command you.

Some misc. Kirk/Bones & Bones Fanart By strikes_orange

This is so adorable, omg. Plus I really want that notepad. :]

Fistful of Schoolboy Love By nomorefrostbite

So, just to precede any other fanmix rec's that'll be coming in your future, you can blame familiardevil . She really got me into this medium of art, and I am so happy for it. Really baby I can't thank you enough for opening my eyes to this amazing, inspiring art-form that I wish I could contribute. As it is I'm limited to shoddy writing and slightly shoddier graphics.

Now, onto the actual rec. “Fistful of Schoolboy Love” is so...detailed. I have come to really like nomorefrostbite 's fanmixes because she always clearly takes the time to put a lot of little details and bits and pieces into the covers for her mixes. There's usually a wallie to go with it, and I could get lost in tracking down all the parts, all the little things she added in. Also, I adore all of the songs on here, I hadn't heard of any of them before, and they all had such meaning for the characters and the pairing. Much love.

From here on it got rough By prettysaro

This is another Kirk/Bones mix, just to forewarn, all of them are. :]

This is a fairly short mix, but it sure packs a punch. Each song on here is extremely emotional in its own way, and you might be able to scrape by without noticing if you don't listen too closely to the lyrics. But even the most upbeat song on here, and the most 'catchy' sounding, is really kind of serious when you sit up and pay attention.

Also, and this was something that caught me by surprise, this fanmix has two instrumental pieces on it. And they are absolutely amazing. Especially 'From Here On It Got Rough' which is the title track of the mix. And as an aside, let me say that I love orange, it's my favorite color, and the covers for this mix are really stunning.

Just Ask the Axis By affectingly

It's very interesting for me, reccing these mixes. Because truthfully I have at least 9 downloaded to my LJ folder on my desktop, and at the moment all of them were squished into one all-encompassing 'Kirk/Bones fanmixes' playlist on my mp3 player, and I've been listening to it on end for days and days. So it's kind of easy for me to forget just from which mixes the various songs came from. And I was listening to 'Wreck of the day' by anna nalick while I was jogging in the rain this morning, and now, I realize reccing this mix, that song came from 'Just ask the axis'. Anyways, blah.

This mix is very mellow, slow, acoustic, good times.

Will/Rachel Picspam By x_rose_tyler_x

Picspams are another art-form that I've really started to enjoy also. Some of them can be so complex it's really admirable! I love the themes and the topics and compilations that people come up with!

This one in particular has great coloring, relevant quotes, and reminds me ever so much how similar Rachel and Will are, in all of their flaws and good qualities. Sadly I don't ship them, but if I did, this picspam would definitely give me a healthy reminder as to why I did. <3

~Kay

'Nuff Said

lackadaisy — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 05:42:36 GMT

Got homework but no motivation? Join keepinguontrack today! The multi-fandom comm for folks high school age & up to keep themselves on track with their school work by rewarding them for completing assignments with fanfic, fanart, fan-graphics, fanvids, or fanmixes!

Check out our profile to learn more!

Lurker Rehab: An LJ-Friend Adoption Center | Round 2

lackadaisy — Thu, 03 Dec 2009 08:35:54 GMT

Welcome to Lurker Rehab: An LJ-Friend Adoption Center!

Organized & Created by: lackadaisy

Graphics by: lackadaisy

Special thanks to: coyotesuspect & scorpiod1

PLEASE TAKE THE TIME TO READ OVER THESE RULES, IT WON'T TAKE BUT A FEW MINUTES OF YOUR LIFE. ANY COMMENTS BREAKING THESE RULES WILL BE DELETED WITHOUT WARNING. IF YOU DISCOVER YOUR COMMENT HAS BEEN DELETED, REFER BACK TO THE RULES TO FIGURE OUT WHY.

BY THE WAY, THE REASON PEOPLE KEPT MENTIONING GREY'S ANATOMY AT THE BEGINNING IS THE THIRD FANDOM USED TO BE GA AND NOT STAR TREK. DUE TO DIFFICULTIES IN ADVERTISING AND CONTACTING MODS OF VARIOUS GA COMMS, IT HAS BEEN REPLACED WITH STAR TREK REBOOT. LURKER WHO'VE ALREADY POSTED, FEEL FREE TO EDIT YOUR COMMENTS OR DELETE THEM AND POST AGAIN. SORRY FOR THE MIX-UP.

1. This is a friending meme specifically aimed at lurkers who want to branch out and aren't sure how to go about it. If you have more than 20 friends then this probably isn't the place for you. Unless of course you're here to adopt a lurker. Come in, and pick out a bright eyed, bushy tailed Lurker to take home and encourage along the path of recovery and rehabilitation! Lurkers are more than welcome to friend each other as well.

2. Only reply to forms. Do /not/ comment chain. If someone replies to your form, and you want to say thank you, do so in a private message, or comment on their journal. This rule is in place to promote full reform from your condition as a lurker. This is merely a tool to add friends, now go out into that brave new world and be social! Take what you learn from here and use it!

3. As of right now, this friending meme is for the following fandoms: Avatar The Last Airbender, Criminal Minds, and Star Trek XI (see Round 1 for Supernatural, Glee, and Dark Angel). Future rounds are always announced a few days in advance on this journal, and at that time, so will the fandoms it will be serving.

4. If you really can't stand waiting for another round, please /DO NOT MAKE YOUR OWN LURKER REHAB FOR ANY OF YOUR OWN FANDOMS/. I realize that no ideas are really safe to call your own once they're outside of your head, but I'd really rather not have people taking from this idea. Please and thank you for your understanding.

5. Last but not least, let's keep this a wank-free zone! I'd like to keep this running with an honor-code system, and just rely on everyone to treat each other right and be kind, friendly people that the Avatar/CM/ST-XI communities can be proud of! Have fun!

HERE ARE YOUR FORMS PEOPLE, RETURN THE CLIPBOARDS AND THE FLOWER & SPORK PENS TO THE FRONT DESK WHEN YOU'RE DONE.

For the Lurkers & the Adopters:

Made a decision? Great! Here are some handy & rule-abiding form-replies to let your Lurker know!

PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD, ADMITTING YOU HAVE A PROBLEM IS THE FIRST STEP TOWARDS RECOVERY

For Avatar The Last Airbender:

After its wild success, the epic friending meme Lurker Rehab is back for a Round 2, serving three new fandoms!

Are you a lurker? Do you have less than 20 people on your mutual friends list? Do you want to be more social but your good intentions just keep falling flat?

Lurker Rehab: An LJ-Friend Adoption Center is the place for you! Fill out your form and post, and shop around for some friends of your own! Just reply once to a form and be on your way! One-stop friend shopping without all the mess.

More social folks (mutual friends count +20) are welcome as well, and strongly encouraged to adopt a few lurkers of their own.

Currently serving the following fandoms: Avatar The Last Airbender, Criminal Minds, and Star Trek XI.

HTML Coding:

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For Criminal Minds:

After its wild success, the epic friending meme Lurker Rehab is back for a Round 2, serving three new fandoms!

Are you a lurker? Do you have less than 20 people on your mutual friends list? Do you want to be more social but your good intentions just keep falling flat?

Lurker Rehab: An LJ-Friend Adoption Center is the place for you! Fill out your form and post, and shop around for some friends of your own! Just reply once to a form and be on your way! One-stop friend shopping without all the mess.

More social folks (mutual friends count +20) are welcome as well, and strongly encouraged to adopt a few lurkers of their own.

Currently serving the following fandoms: Avatar The Last Airbender, Criminal Minds, and Star Trek XI.

HTML Coding:

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For Star Trek XI:

After its wild success, the epic friending meme Lurker Rehab is back for a Round 2, serving three new fandoms!

Are you a lurker? Do you have less than 20 people on your mutual friends list? Do you want to be more social but your good intentions just keep falling flat?

Lurker Rehab: An LJ-Friend Adoption Center is the place for you! Fill out your form and post, and shop around for some friends of your own! Just reply once to a form and be on your way! One-stop friend shopping without all the mess.

More social folks (mutual friends count +20) are welcome as well, and strongly encouraged to adopt a few lurkers of their own.

Currently serving the following fandoms: Avatar The Last Airbender, Criminal Minds, and Star Trek XI.

HTML Coding:

Testimonials from Reformed Lurkers from Round 1 of Lurker Rehab!

"Before lackadaisy’s Lurker Rehab, I lurked hardcore. I read a shitload of fic, looked at a bunch of comms and observed for a long-ass time but never interacted with fandom, even though I loved it anyway. I lurked for years! Now, a month and a half later, I’m have over 20 friends, interacted with them often, and ever started posting fic! IT WORKS! OMG, I CAN’T EVEN BELIEVE I’VE WRITTEN FIC! I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD ACTUALLY JOIN FANDOM! Lurker Rehab is great! All you gotta do is be open to it and you’ll make friends in no time!" - scorpiod1

ANY FOLKS WHO PARTICIPATED IN ROUND 1 OF LURKER REHAB THAT WOULD LIKE TO OFFER A TESTIMONIAL, SEND IT TO ME IN A PM AND IT'LL BE ADDED TO THIS SECTION.

WOW I FEEL LIKE A CAD ALREADY

lackadaisy — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 07:46:52 GMT

THE FANFICTION LOVE MEME

Goodnight all,
Kay

It slices! It dices! It makes hundreds of julienne fries!

lackadaisy — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 07:45:20 GMT

"Oh, and by the way, he really was your brother."

Want more Wincest, but John/Dean, John/Sam, or Mary/Dean, Mary/Sam freaks you out?

In 4x19 of Supernatural, we were introduced to Adam Milligan, aka, the baby Winchester. which gives us a delectable new Wincest option: Dean/Adam.

Intrigued? Aroused _{then furious}? Make your way to dean_adam and join today! Unmoderated posting for all your Dean/Adam flavored fic, graphics, vidding, and arting needs!

Join! - Watch!

IF YOU'RE AWESOME AND WOULD LIKE TO BE HELPING ME PIMP THIS. PLEASE ONLY PIMP ON YOUR OWN PERSONAL JOURNALS OR WRITING COMMS, AS I OR DRAMAMA WILL BE DOING THE ADVERTISING ON THE MAIN COMMS. :] THANKS GUIZ! JUST USE THE CODING BELOW.

what I really really want

lackadaisy — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 18:52:29 GMT

Step One
♥ Make an LJ post. It can be public or friends only, whatever you’re most comfortable with. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes, and these wishes can be anything - from simple (a fan fiction written about your favorite pairing), to medium (a DVD you want), to really extravagant (a brand new laptop or car).
Just make sure these are wishes for things you really truly want.

Step Two
♥ Skim through your friends list and see who has posted their own wish lists.
Then - and this is the most important part - if you find a wish you can grant, and it’s in your heart to do so, make sure that person’s wish comes true.
Sometimes a person’s trash is another person’s treasure.
If you have a leather jacket you don’t want or a gift certificate you’re never going to use, give it to someone who wants it.

Step Three
♥ Post this wish list any time after November 1st. Then repost it two weeks before Christmas.

♥ You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to.
The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday fairy - to spread the joy.
Gifts can be made anonymously or not, it's your call.

♥ There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached.
Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive.
And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

♥ Someone other than me writes Dean/Adam, preferably 1k or more in length.
♥ Boxed sets of seasons 2 and 3 of Avatar: the last airbender
♥ Kung Fu Panda
♥ Have a Dean/Adam story rec'd or read by one of the higher ups. (whether this story is written by me or someone else is irrelevant)
♥ ~~A Dean/Adam fic, graphics, art, fanmix, vid, community. Clever titles such as 'The other wincest' perhaps. :D~~ OMG ILUSFM DRAMAMA. dean_adam
♥ MORE MISHA/KRIPKE FIC, AAAGH. DO NEED.
♥ DEAN/CHUCK PLZ.
♥ More 'Mr. Clean Multi-Surfaces Anti-Bacterial Cleaner' I'm running out.
♥ Bobby/Ellen fanmix or vid.

...and that's all I can think of. I never have money but if anyone has a wishlist that involves fic, or maybe graphics I'd be happy to help with that! Link me! :D

but it's greedy, just like sin

lackadaisy — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 01:51:42 GMT

Okay, just in case, like, you were wondering about the header I have up there for my new keen layout. :3

YES I MADE THAT, and if it's bad don't tell me because I'm kind of happy with it. <3

And I wanted to post to make sure that you all get I'm not being dyslexic about Dean's name. I intended to spell 'Dane'. The reason for this is detailed below, if you care (it involves wincest fic :D).

Okay, so...well, this was my first fic idea for supernatural, ever. Like, when I first inhaled the show, and saw Mystery Spot (which was actually one of the first episodes I saw because I did this weird partially backwards watching of the series...don't ask), which is probably one of my all time favorite episodes in the entire show. It holds a special place in my heart. And is why I'm pretending the trickster is still the trickster. Do not bring discussions of 'gabriel' here. Please. I will be sad.

So, basically the gist is this:

Instead of 100 Tuesdays, there are 366.

Instead of 6 months in the trickster's dean-less world after the 'first wednesday', there are 10 years.

During these 10 years, sometime around, I believe, year 5-6, 'Dane' comes along. Sam really starts to lose it, and creates this hallucination, a substitute Dean, as it were. But because Sam's crazy, his substitute Dean is a bit crazy too, a bit twisted and asshole-ish (in that irredeemable way that tends to make people either unhappy or gleefully infatuated).

At the end of the 10 years, there is a similar conversation between Sam and the Trickster as was in the original episode, with various differences due to the altered storyline, and Sam is sent back to his 2nd Wednesday where Dean is alive and well.

But Dane, and all of Sam's assorted scars follow him back. And basically the story's about how Sam copes with Dane, Dean, and his left-over crazy. It goes into Season 4 but doesn't deal a lot with the canon plot.

I've never really written this story down because there were so many plot holes and storyline variations and so on. In fact I had an excellent convo with Dramama the other night about why it hadn't been written, and I actually accidentally recorded it. *facepalm* So I can share it with you all, but it's an mp3 file and I know there are sites like youtube, but just for audio files. So you can upload them and then share them with little 'play' type buttons or whatever.

Anyone know about such a site?

ANYWAYS, this is going to be my next big project, outside of sundry writing obligations and big bangs. This'll be hopefully written in its entirety before it's posted, unless lots of people are excited about it or something. :D Also, will need beta's and cheerleaders if anyone on the flist is interested.

SECOND ORDER OF BUSINESS

I am learning how to do graphics! Hence the pretty header! And I'd love to get some practice in, I'm testing out brushes and textures and all that good stuff, if you all provide me with images, I'd be more than happy to try and make things for you. ^3^ Please give me a chance?

Much love,
~Kay