He's On My Mind

Finally Done It

kerryryan — Fri, 18 Dec 2009 23:42:59 GMT

Named a new user name and moving over to http://hufflethepuff.livejournal.com/ :) If you want to re add me knock youself out!

Can I Leave The Attic Window Open When I Go Out?

kerryryan — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 08:27:40 GMT

Mum: Well, saying that I don't think anyone is stupid enough to break in through the attic window.
Me: Mum, this IS Crossgates.

And The Countdown Begins

kerryryan — Sat, 30 May 2009 08:27:09 GMT

47 days till HP&HBP.

Fucking yeah.

LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOO

kerryryan — Sat, 28 Mar 2009 16:38:42 GMT

hahahahaaa! I don't think I've laughed so much in my life!!! My 3 1/2 year old cousin has just ran into my bedroom, looked around and exclaimed; 'what a mess!' Don't think I've laughed so much in my life!!

I WANT ONE OF THESE!

kerryryan — Fri, 20 Mar 2009 16:01:16 GMT

Imagine office sex on that! Would be amazing!

"Would Mr. Radcliffe come to my office immediately please!"

Hogsmeade

kerryryan — Fri, 20 Mar 2009 07:25:37 GMT

"Whole village up for sale

An entire village, complete with cottages, a cricket club, a blacksmith's and a manor house, has gone on sale with a guide price of up to £25 million.

Linkenholt, near Andover in Hampshire, is in an area of outstanding natural beauty and is to be sold by the Herbert and Peter Blagrave Charitable Trust.

Also included in the sale are 22 cottages and houses, a village shop, a commercial shoot, 1,500 acres of farmland and 450 acres of woodland."

Maybe I should save up, buy it, and build my own Hogsmeade?

Writer's Block: Passing Time

kerryryan — Wed, 11 Mar 2009 08:12:03 GMT

Day dreaming about entertaining and sometimes damn crude adventures with the little Radcliffe boy. These can however be quite dangerous as it leads to me loosing my concentration whilst doing a piroutte.

The Family Secret

kerryryan — Tue, 10 Mar 2009 17:22:07 GMT

Well, yes, last night I found out the big dirty family secret. And lets just say it makes me violently sick thinking about it. And ashamed and disgusted. Yes that bad. No wait, worse than you think. I'm still in complete and utter shock. What do you do when you find out the uncle you never really knew (or at least forgotton you had) is a murderer? Yes, I'm related to a fucking killer. He killed his girlfriend, and when I ask if it was an accident and get the answer 'yes...and no' to find out her beat her and which lead to him one day going to far, just makes you numb. I don't even know the man but I feel a bit lost about it all. I've got murderer's blood in me. Oh it makes me sick. I actually also find that the fact he was a woman beater even more upsetting. I wish I could wash it out of me. This is the 2nd time I've been ashamed of someone in my family, 1st being my dad of course. But fuck this was a bomb shell. And that wasn't even half of the bombshell. At least he went' to prison, even though it wasn't for long enough. Bastard.

See, that's what happens when your brought up in Whinmoor!

Politics

kerryryan — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 08:40:58 GMT

I'm not going to pretend I know anything about politics (it hurts my head even thinking about the word), I'm not even going to pretend I know what Obama is saying he's gonna do. I just can't help but like this man.

He seems genuine and thats what I like. He does actually want the world to change for the better, it's not just some power hungry trip and would give everything up for his family. I wish he was our Prime Minister, he gives me faith in the world. I've never been interested in politics until he came along. Lets hope he's gonna keep his word and theres gonna be change.

Wish List

kerryryan — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 21:00:26 GMT

Just me whining over things I want!! In no order

1. A barre http://thebarre.co.uk/BarreSet.htm
2. Dance Nike Sneakers (yellow!!) http://www.dancedirect.com/uk/Products/LoveCassius/N344307//
3. A pole (reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally want this) http://www.amazon.co.uk/Present-Time-Dance-Professional-Stainless/dp/B001CIXZSS/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&s=kitchen&qid=1236285931&sr=8-2
4. A unitard http://www.dancedirect.com/uk/Products/Ballet/P32/plume-biketard-camisole-scoopfront-midback/
5. Pineapple bag and hat and other junk http://www.dancedirect.com/uk/Products/LoveCassius/PAB08/pineapple-bag-accessories-dancegifts/ http://www.dancedirect.com/uk/Products/LoveCassius/PABH08/pineapple-beaniehat-dancegifts/
6. New ballet shoes, spiltsole but prob need full http://www.dancedirect.com/uk/Products/Ballet/P32/plume-biketard-camisole-scoopfront-midback/
7. Ballerina Minnie!! http://disneystore-shopping.disney.co.uk/details/33204/Minnie-Mouse-Ballerina-Soft-Toy.aspx
8. Ballet dictionary http://www.dancedirect.com/uk/Products/Accessories/B25/dance-books-royal-academy-of-dance/
9. Daniel Radcliffe http://www.harrymedia.com/img/data/media/22/y_cast_thatplay_radcliffe10.jpg

Notice a theme?

Really need a nice travel bag, I think though it may be the Avon one in the end.

20 Questions Meme

kerryryan — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 16:24:56 GMT

20 Questions Meme

A: People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question.
B: Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

[1] Make a list of 5 things you can see:
1. Computer
2. Beetroot boy 2 poster
3. Friends cappacino mug and spoon
4. Donatello cup
5. Mystery Detective DS game box

[2] Would you ever get plastic surgery?
Depends for what, deffo if I had burns or something.

[3] What are 5 things you usually keep in your pocket/bag/wallet?
1. Purse
2. Ballet shoes
3. A book
4. DS
5. Diary

[4] What person in your life has made the biggest impact on you?
Mum, then Jenni

[5] What is your dream occupation? (It doesn't have to be realistic)
Professional contemporary dancer

[6] Would you rather lose an arm or have an incurable headache for the rest of your life?
Headache probably, but it depends how bad really, if it's so bad that you can't think or work, I'd have to be an armless dancer.

[7] Who is the last person you hugged?
Jenni probably

[8] What is your current obsession?
HARRY POTTER.

[9] What's the last text message you received?
Just one from Pat saying she's sorry she missed me and asking if I'm free tomorow, shit I need to reply

[10] What sites do you always visit when you go online?
Livejournal, gmail, AK forums, Dan forums, facebook, then telltale games or leaky, depending on my current faze

[11] Last thing you bought?
Contemporary class I think

[12] Do you remember the name of your first grade teacher?
Nope

[13] What do you usually drink in the morning?
Honey and hot water - love it.

[14] What would you tell your 12 year old self if you could?
So many things but I don't know how

[15] If you could play any musical instrument what one would you play?
Same as Alexandra, I'd rather sing but otherwise a piano or guitar. Though steel pans would be awesome

[16] Do you have any siblings?
2 brothers, who I love.

[17] What's something you would like to say to someone right now?
I need to ring Jenni, err now, asking if we're doing yoga tonight

[18] If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
DISNEYWORLD AND UNIVERSAL STUDIOS.

Oh and Dan's bed.

[19] What's your favourite kind of weather?
Sunny if I'm out, rainy if I'm in.

[20] What's the last show/gig/concert you went to?
PCD bitches!

Guess Who's Developing A 6-Pack, Bitches.

kerryryan — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 07:42:43 GMT

Indeed, wellit's more of muscular toning than a 6-pack, dancer's 6-pack? But boo-ya bitches. I was in every man's paradise yesturday with a woman feeling my muscles. Yes, Jenni was checking me and even though she's pleased with the current development, I don't know how to feel. I mean, I'm happy that I have now muscle in my arms and legs but I was looking at myself in a leotard and I wasn't please with my body thickness. It's even worse that I'm still got more to go, 'joy'. Jenni may be pleased that my thighs now can touch when I put m legs together, but I certainly wasn't. And, worse still, the old headmaster of Northern has advised Jenni to tell me to try and cover up even more at my audition, cos they still might not choose me cos of my size, it's taking the piss.

Besides that, something weird happened yesturday. I got a message from Facebook from a guy who I had served last Sunday at Gamestation. I remember selling him the item but his face only vaguely. At first I thought he must know one of the Gamestation staff, and just added me but then I realised I don't have any of the Gamestation staff on Facebook. Apparently, my name was on the receipt and he searched that and 'Gamestation' and found me. Now that is completely random.

Oh and I think my body wants to die.

So on that note, I'm going to punish it a bit more and go to the gym this morning, then class/choreography, then go home for a bit, then to yoga and street dance.

Oh it's great being obsessive with exercise. I just got to remind my body that.

Writer's Block: Chatty

kerryryan — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 07:31:26 GMT

Text, I always feel awkward on th phone and takes me awhile to actually get the courage to phone someone. I'm also prefer writing to speaking.

Life Really Sometimes Likes To Kick You In The Balls.

kerryryan — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 08:24:59 GMT

Apparently, it's not just 14 year old boys who attact. Apparently, I appeal to chavs too. Oh lucky me. Yes, a chav lad came up to me on the bus last night and started to chat me up. First I though 'oh fuck, another one who likes to take the piss'. But apparently not. I kinda wish he was now. And he wouldn't seem to leave me alone after I said I didn't want to hand out my number. Gave him my facebook to just get him to leave it, thinking he wouldn't add me cos he'd see another blonde lass on his way home and start pursing her. Again, apparently not and he's added me last night and send me a illiterate message. I sound mean cos he seemed like a nice guy, but no.

I think I've got to change the way I dress. No more trackies, hoodies or uggs. They're attracting the wrong attention.

Besides that fiasco, stressing about my 'goal' as it's getting harder to do at the mo. Getting really frustrated and upset about it actually. But I need to stop thinking about it so I won't divulge (sp?).

As for that, now working on my audition piece for my auditions, which is geekily based on a Harry Potter topic - it was my Jenni's suggestion honest!! It's actually been productive though, and no, I'm not running around pretending to be on a broomstick. Feeling sick though cos my first audition is one of the hardest to get into, in London, and only on the 25th. Fuck.

Writer's Block: Adult Onset

kerryryan — Fri, 20 Feb 2009 15:48:20 GMT

Honestly, it depends on the person, depending on their life, how people treat them and so forth, affects how quickly you grow up. For example, because of how I look, alot of people treat me like a child, which actually, then makes me slow down in my 'growth' mentally. However, because all of the horrors I've been and seen, I've grown alot in that sense. If I have to generalise 18 minimun is that of an adult but adult resposibilities whould be given to 16-18 year olds because they usually are mature enough to make decisions on their own.

BITCHIN'

kerryryan — Fri, 20 Feb 2009 09:55:07 GMT

My bro's film is now on IMDB.com!!!

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1377765/

His own profile should be being made now too! Why am I excited? I don't know! Too bad they don't add extras cos then I'd be on LMFAO.

A background alcoholic.

BASTARDS!

kerryryan — Fri, 20 Feb 2009 08:49:31 GMT

I want this!!!

http://www.gamestation.co.uk/dsi/?cm_mmc=gamestation-_-DSi-_-Preorder-_-4

Why do they have to update it?!!? WHHHHHHHHHHY?

Rant

kerryryan — Wed, 18 Feb 2009 14:34:13 GMT

Slapturns are a bitch.

Nearly Getting into the Spilts

kerryryan — Tue, 17 Feb 2009 16:50:44 GMT

No shitting. Just a few millimeters I think and I'll be there. Kinda surprised cos I haven't be stretching to be able to. Must be the yoga, only thing that can really explain it, that or the extra weight is keeping me down! Just tried it the other week and was like 'whoooooooa! Bitchin'!'.

Anyway, as for that and my current sneezing fit (I better be careful because I need a pee), I am procastinating as usually, putting off finishing my Laban application. Don't really know why I'm doing it, I won't get it. And that's not me being my usual pessimistic self, but my logical and realistic side. Even if I was good enough, too many people apply. Bastards, get your own dream!

Oh wait, really need to piss now...

Been and I still need to go again. I ruddy hate my bladder, it's worse than an 86 year old's. Also with his bladder it isn't great as I'm trying to get used to wearing a leotard again after gaining weight and oh the issues of going to the toliet, sometimes I wish they just had poppers.

Ah no, just thought of the Soda Popper's from Sam and Max and one of them is called Whizzer and he has a peeing problem.

Time out for number 1!

http://www.telltalegames.com/images/franchise/samandmax/lincolnmustdie/walkthrough/28.jpg

Argh though I think I really need to set up the 'change kerryryan's username fund'. REALLY want to change it but can't justify paying that amount for a name change. kerryryan is the old me and I don't really look up to Lee anymore, I used to think his thickness was endearing, now it's just idiocy (ha can't even spell that). I can't wait to hear when his son asks 'how did mummy and daddy meet?' Will be pure gold. He's still a nice guy though.

But honestly I really do want to change it but I'm not getting a new account, this has everything I have and I don't want to start again. Been thinking what I would call it and I don't think I want my usual 'Harley Quinn', 'Daphne Blake' or 'Dancing Spice' and they will probs be taken. Would like something Harry Potter related mostly, but the only thing that I've thought of so far is Monkey Island related 'iamthesecretofmonkeyisland' which is long but as a gamer is funny.

Still kicks kerryryan's ass.

So really I want a new Harry themed name or Monkey Island/Sam and Max/Harley/Spice Girls would also be the shizzle.

Damn you greedy LJ bastards.

Time to pee.

Knew it bitches!

kerryryan — Sat, 14 Feb 2009 16:30:44 GMT

79%! New I was a puff!

The sorting hat says that I belong in Hufflepuff!

Said Hufflepuff, "I'll teach the lot, and treat them just the same."

Hufflepuff students are friendly, fair-minded, modest, and hard-working. A well-known member was Cedric Diggory, who represented Hogwarts in the most recent Triwizard Tournament.

Take the most scientific Harry Potter
Quiz ever created.

Get Sorted Now!

Appilications

kerryryan — Wed, 11 Feb 2009 16:57:15 GMT

Do I tick the box which says 'mental health difficulty'?

100 truths

kerryryan — Mon, 09 Feb 2009 07:13:51 GMT

100 truth

001. Real name → Kerry Hazel Holland
002. Nickname(s)→ Kezza (eurgh), Kez (eurgh again), Daphne, Harley Quinn, Kerraldine, Skiddy La Roo, Princess Kezzabella, Princess Kezzasmella, KH
003. Zodiac sign → Taurus
004. Male or female → Female
005. Elementary School → --
006. More Primary School → Barwick in Elmet for most of it
007. High School → Boston Spa
008. Hair color → Blonde
009. Long or short → Long
010. Loud or Quiet → Quiet unless I know you well
011. Sweats or Jeans → Sweats, I like to move it, move it
012. Phone or Camera → Phone
013. Health freak → I like to think so
014. Drink or Smoke? → Neither, eurgh
015. Do you have a crush on someone? → Does Dan count?
016. Eat or Drink → Depends on what it is
017. Piercings → Nope
018. Tattoos. → No

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane→ Yes, A long time ago
020. Been in a relationship→ Nope
021. Been in a car accident → No
022. Been in a fist fight → Yup, kinda argumentative.

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → --
024. First best friend → Kimberly!?
025. First award → Erm, maybe my Textiles on I got in 6th form and never picked up?!
026. First crush → Spike from 911 LMFAO
028. First big vacation → France?

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to → Mum
030. Last person you texted → Jenni but she wasn't happy :(
031. Last person you watched a DVD with → Only Fools and Horses with Mamma
032. Last food you ate→ Weatibix and seeds (and milk)
033. Last movie you watched alone--> Not sure, Flashdance?
034. Last song you listened to → Prob 'When I Grow Up' by PCD
035. Last thing you bought → Weatibix I think
036. Last person you hugged → Jenni? Last week?

FAVES:
037. Food → Cereal, honey, peanut butter, soup
038. Drinks → Mango juice, honey and hot water, honey and hot milk
039. Clothing → Any of my hoodies
040. Flower → White roses
042. Colors → Orange
043. Movies → Most classic Disney, Spice World, Back to the Future, Bill and Ted, TMNT, HP 3-5, Matrix
044. Subjects → DANCE! But I loved English too

CHECK ALL THAT APPLY :] :

In 2008, I....

045. [ ] kissed someone
046. [x] celebrated Halloween
047. [ ] had your heart broken
048. [ ] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone
049. [x] someone questioned your sexual orientation
050. [ ] came out of the closet
051. [ ] gotten pregnant
052. [ ] had an abortion (dreamt about these too tho! - Kerry)
053. [x] done something you've regretted
054. [x] broke a promise
055. [ ] hid a secret
056. [x] pretended to be happy
057. [ ] met someone who changed your life
058. [ ] pretended to be sick
059. [ ] left the country
060. [ ] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
061. [x] cried over the silliest thing
062. [x] ran a mile
063. [ ] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
064. [x] got into an argument with your friends
065. [x] hated someone
066. [x] stayed single the whole year (oh now THAT'S a surprise - Kerry)

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → Just finished my breakie
068. Drinking → Nowt
069. I'm about to → Plan to go to the gym
070. Listening to → My heater and mum pottering around
071. Plans for today → Gym, finish off shit that needs to be done and dance class
072. Waiting for → Certain things to be over
073. Want kids? → No
074. Want to get married? → Not sure, not realistically planning to
075. Careers in mind → Professional contemporary dancer, wouldn't mind being a yoga teacher on the side lines too for extra money

WHICH IS BETTER WITH A GUY/GIRL?
076. Lips or eyes → Eyes
077. Shorter or taller?→ Shorter (Dan! <3)
078. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantic, I'm not good with not knowing what's gonna happen
079. Nice stomach or nice arms → Not bothered as long as they' happy
080. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive, I'm not too good with really loud people generally
081. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship, I never 'hook up'
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant → Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts - Everyday!
084. Snuck out of your house → No...
085. Held a gun/knife for self defense → My fists are like weapons!
086. Killed somebody → Y-no.
087. Broken someone's heart → How could I?
088. Been arrested → Not yet
089. Cried when someone died → Of course

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → Not really
091. Miracles → I'm a pessermistic (who can't even spell it) so no
092. Love at first sight → No, love is also about knowing the person
093. Heaven → If there is, I'm prob going to hell
094. Santa Claus → More than in God!
095. Sex on the first date → Depends on how well you already know the person and if you want to and are ready
096. Kiss on the first date → Same as above

TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Don't know
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → Not sure, At the moment things are all over but I suppose things are coming together, I'll have to see now the next few months pan out
099. Do you believe in God → Not really, but if I find proof I would. All I know is, if there is, it's deffo a man, otherwise women wouldn't have periods or children.

100. Post as 100 truths and tag 12 people→

Most Amazing Shit...

kerryryan — Fri, 06 Feb 2009 09:56:07 GMT

EVER. I can only dream I'll be able to get to this level one day! Been doing it for bleeding 5 months now and I still can do a flipping invert yet.

GUTTED.

kerryryan — Wed, 04 Feb 2009 16:25:56 GMT

Hi Kerry,
just a quick note to say we are sorry the demonstration didnt go ahead yesterday due to bad weather. We tried to contact all of our winners to let them know. Sorry you were not contacted in time.

Kind regards
Ekta

--

[quote]Hello,

Thank you for contacting me. I'm just wondering will it be rescheduled? Just as I was looking forward to it as I'm a big Liz McClarnon fan.

Thanks again,
Kerry

--

Hi Kerry,

Unfortunately, we may not be able to reschedule. If you send me your address I’ll send you a goodie bag

Ekta

--

If it's a fucking pork goodie bag I'm going to stab someone in the eye!!!

Writer's Block: Been There, Done That

kerryryan — Mon, 02 Feb 2009 20:38:16 GMT

Probably just something simple like Christmas 1997, when the family was together and truely happy and I did have ll the shit bagage I do now. Oh and because the Spice Girls ruled the world.