Over the rocky cliffs that you leave

the return trip from hell

kellica — Wed, 08 Jul 2015 13:34:07 GMT

yesterday was the worst traveling day i have ever had. and i travel pretty frequently. i booked a flight with 2 connections because my origin didn't have anything less reaching my destination and because anything that can happen will happen, it did. the flight using the gate before mine from plane one to two ran late because of weather. this mean my first flight was leaving half an hour late. i spent the entire time hurrying gates one to two only to arrive just in time to watch my plane backing away from the gate. i am now trapped in philadelphia. i ask the women, two of which were getting off for the day, for help. the remaining representative managed to get me no a flight halfway home but all the flights for the remaining trek were fully booked. i would go from being trapped in philly to being trapped in phoenix. when i continue to ask if i'm going to have to pay for a hotel she repeatedly dodges the question and finally waves me down to the service counter where i meet cindy b.
i'm not sure why cindy b is in customer service but i believe she enjoys watching people suffer.
she assures me any additional costs, from flight changes to food to hotels will be my repsonsibility. she tells me i should have forseen this and booked the flight for the day before. that these things happen all the time. that there isn't a manager i can speak to but i can go to the service desk in the terminal of my new flight.
enter patricia m. patricia m has a soul. she still wants to help people. she manages to get me in the right state, a three and a half hour drive from from home.
and in the right state, all commuter flights and trains are fully booked but luckily i have some nice family in the town willing to put up with me for the night so i can take the train back today.
so here i sit on the floor of their son's bedroom because i am to anxious to have slept until my alarm.

To do list

kellica — Fri, 26 Jul 2013 08:52:52 GMT

Stop lying in bed thing about my mistakes.
Go to sleep.

Finally starting to read FAKE

kellica — Wed, 24 Apr 2013 04:47:33 GMT

(Backstory: A week or so back I won a FAKE contest and got the manga series)
So now that I've finished Chapter 1, I decided that I needed to find actors for my FAKE movie headcanon.

For Dee, I've Chosen
Ken'ichi Matsuyama

For Ryo (Randy) I've chosen
Yu Shirota

Keep the Streets Empty - A Peter Hale FanMix

kellica — Tue, 16 Apr 2013 04:29:19 GMT

Title: Keep the Streets Empty
Subject: Peter Hale
Length: 8 tracks
Summary: Betrayed and tapped inside his own mind, he sought solace in all the wrong places. He couldn't even find find peace in death.
Warnings: There are a couple of swear words, the first song is in french and there are two instrumentals.
Notes: Made for beacon_hills CHALLENGE 11. BEATS OF BEACON HILLS

Beirut - Le Moribond
(translation from French)
Goodbye to you, my trusted friend.
We've known each other since we were nine or ten.
Together we've climbed hills and trees,
Learned of love and ABC's,

Ahab - Of the Monstrous Picture of Whales
instrumental

Editors - Blood
This wicked city just drags you down
You're with the red lights, your side of town
Don't say it's easy to follow a process
There's nothing harder than keeping a promise

The Black Keys - Strange Desire
I don't wanna go to hell, but if I do
It'll be 'cuz of you
If your man gonna make mistakes
Until he hits the breaks
My heart's on fire, with a strange desire, Yeah

Prodigy - Run With the Wolves
You're a muck that's why I had to cut you down
You run with the wolves while I hunt like a hound
You're a muck that's why I had to cut you down
You run with the wolves, shout it out loud

Incubus - Megalomaniac
I hear you on the radio
You permeate my screen, its' unkind but
If I met you in a scissor fight
I'd cut off both your wings on principle alone
On principle alone

The Smiths - Asleep
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone

Nine Inch Nails - Ghosts I-IV
instrumental

YouTube / Box

kellica — Sun, 14 Apr 2013 08:25:50 GMT

So I'm reading Vassalord and I really like it
maybe I'm too into yaoi
I'm watching K-Project and I really like it
maybe I watch to much anime
I'm drunk and I like it
maybe I drink too much

What does your Birthdate mean?

- April 14 -
You are adventurous and aggressive, always looking for something that will make your heart race. You make all your decisions hastily and often get yourself into trouble.
Positive Traits: cooperative, versatile, organized, analytical, curious
Negative Traits: impatience, restlessness, rebellious, irresponsible, breaking promises

Veronica Mars Rewatch Day 1

kellica — Sun, 17 Mar 2013 00:50:45 GMT

SO I'm going with the vmarsrewatch.tumblr schedule to make sure I don't stop functioning as a human being and still go outside occasionally. Also to make sure I'm studying for finals?
Episode 1 - Pilot:
Firstly Veronica Mars is a marshmallow. Why can't I draw? I need to draw this. I need to google this.
Secondly cannot believe I forgot about Backup the adorable dog.
Thirdly about to google 'how to make gifs using GIMP' because there are some moments I need to capture.
(I used to make gifs with photoshop but my version isn't compatible with OS X 10.8)

Side note I made a mental note to do absolutely nothing whilst watching. No phone, tumblr, etc and it made the whole thing much more enjoyable.

I pseudo-decided to make a gifset per episode for my tumblr and just finished the first one.

“Hope springs eternal in the human breast; Man never is, but always to be blest: The soul, uneasy and confined from home, Rests and expatiates in a life to come.”
└ Veronica Mars | 1.01 Pilot

I'm not quite sure.

kellica — Tue, 11 Dec 2012 19:08:33 GMT

I wrote an anon snippet for the teenwolfkinkmeme back in October and after a few days it didn't get any comments so I forgot about it.
Well while I was purging bookmarks on my browser lo and behold it has an comment. So now I'm trying to decide if I want to continue on with it, even though I feel bad for leaving it for such a long time.
Since then I have written for a beacon_hills challenge "Write a fic that is exactly 10 words long!" which I'm not entirely pleased with but I had fun with it anyway. I also did the "Create character inspired fanworks. This time for Danny Mahealani only!" and made my first ever fanmix (with cover art). I also did "Look through LJ, AO3 or FF.net to find me fics that fit the themes below." which helped me find a lot of new fics I need to read.
I've also been toying with a Teen Wolf AU that would give Alison a completely different persective on Beacon Hills and the gang.

Also all these amazing and wonderful people made me sig banners for the new beacon_hills round and really I need to work on my photo editing because the things they made are ridiculously beautiful.
My goals for Christmas break.

keep writing
make more fanmixes
stay active in beacon_hills
run 3+ times a week
finish 2 books

Whelp.

kellica — Thu, 25 Oct 2012 22:39:17 GMT

Today is coming along pretty nicely; I am learning to use Gimp, made my first userpic, entered my second challenge for beacon_hills repping team_argent and I'm having a mini Buffy the Vampire Slayer marathon on the couch.
Also I'm obsessed with the banner sig everythingshiny made me.

http://i.imgur.com/CUW6M.png

So I posted my first ever prompt fill.

kellica — Mon, 22 Oct 2012 01:54:28 GMT

I posted it anon and if it doesn't get any feedback I'll just let it die as badfic.
BUT I am glad that I grew enough of a pair to give it a shot. I'd never seen a prompt that compelled me to write before but I found this post to be a bit cathartic. The prompt (and more my interpretation) reminded me of a situation I'm going through but don't really now how to talk about.

So I've started watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer

kellica — Sun, 21 Oct 2012 17:01:18 GMT

I officially think I am Xander.

clumsy
pining after the wrong person
great one-liners
"It's funny how the earth never opens up and swallows you when you want it to."

Quick life update.

kellica — Sun, 21 Oct 2012 08:35:15 GMT

School: Physical Chemistry III, Philosophy: Knowledge and Reality, Macroeconomics, Drugs and Poisons.
aka Secretly Calculus, Professor has a soul patch and Plato is overrated, Capitalism, Introductory Course-Yeah Right.
I'm basically just completing this quarter on auto-pilot, and that probably won't bode well when finals come around.

Activities: I've taken up running again but mostly because I've also taken up eating desserts again.
I'm getting scuba certified! Classes started last week and go through the first week of November. I did not think it was going to be so physical but it is kicking my ass. We'll see if that's a good thing later.

Books: Reading Cloud Atlas and it is blowing my mind. I really don't understand how one author can completely change writing styles to illustrate different time periods but so far so freaking awesome.

Addictions: Video games, caffeine, diet soda, sugar.

Psyche: Lonely.

Ashita ni todoke

kellica — Mon, 09 Jul 2012 17:13:21 GMT

It starts with the chase.

I'd seen him somewhere before, not here. With the overpriced coffee and snooty attitude, this was not that sort of coffee shop I would frequent. His face was so familiar to me I could picture it perfectly with my eyes closed but I don't know why. Where have I seen him? He noticed me staring and I was going to look away but he'd already started making his way towards me and now I'm stuck, frozen. It's only when I noticed his clothes, oversized and utilitarian, that I saw the 4 others, in exactly the same dress, weaving through the throng directly towards me. Something has obviously gone very wrong. On automitc legs I started for the back door, ignoring the groan from the cashier employees only. The door hadn't even closed before I broke into a run through the damp alleyway and into the maze of buildings. I hadn't decided on a destination or even a direction, the only thing I could think of was away. Apparently no one informed my pursuers of my recent 10k, admittedly I quit running pretty soon after the race but my legs still remembered what to do.
As I cut around buildings, I turned whenever I thought they had lost their line of sight while I listened for the receding sounds of boots smacking wet pavement behind me. Finally I pulled a sharp right after another high rise and heard nothing but my heart pounding in my ears and my own labored breath. I turned towards the sidewalk for the first time into the herd of pedestrians.
As the adrenaline began to leave my system I grew hungry and tired with each step, and in the back of my head fear started blooming. I pulled out my phone thank you Steve Jobs, and found the nearest cafe. I thought in a seated environment 5 thugs would stick out a bit more tha a coffee shop, but to be perfectly honest I was starving and exhausted. I was even considering needing my fatwa on dairy and ordering some macaroni and cheese.
A few blocks from my destination I realized I probably should be checking the alleys I passed, just in time to notice him. I have no idea how I distinguished him from his companions with his back towards me but everything about him screamed familiar, apart from the fact he was shaking so severely he seemed to be in his own personalized earthquake. Before I could stop myself, I had turned from my optimal path and walked straight for him.

Politely decline

kellica — Fri, 06 Jul 2012 20:54:52 GMT

Why did it have to be another wedding?

Re waited upstairs while her mother and sister got ready at their usual snail's pace. She never understood why they felt the need to primp and preen, especially when attending the wedding of a relative.
Nearly everyone there will have met us before and the rest won't have a reason to acknowledge our presence. It's not like we're a part of the wedding party.
With a shout from her other telling her to hurry up, she headed downstairs. Knowing the drill, she stood by the alarm keypad and waited for her family to get in the car so she could set the alarm.
One of these days one of them will learn how to type four freaking numbers into this thing.
Yeah shortly before the world ends.
After the alarm has been engaged, Re headed for the car and hopped in the backseat. She thought of how rarely they are all together now that her sister has graduated and relocated to Washington and she is off at college. Re considers why she can't manage to enjoy their company until their interactions are reduced to phone calls and emails.
"Don't forget you'll be shuttling people to the church grounds from the parking area," her mother told her in the rear view mirror.
Oh joy more mandatory human interaction.
"I know the drill. Greet, smile, drive, don't hit any trees or small children."
Her system turned to look, offering a look of embarrassment and astonishment, "What is wrong with you today?"
I don't want to spend my time making small talk and feigning interest in the lives of people who will no longer be interested in mine tomorrow.
"I don't like driving."

After they've arrived at the designated parking area Re parted from her mother and sister and heads to the shuttle bus she assumes she'll be driving. She passed groups of attendees headed to the already idling shuttle bus at the opposite end of the lot greeting the ones she recognized with a smile or wave.
I would who else got sucked into this job.
She racked her brain as she tried to think of someone else in the family who doesn't belong, someone she thinks like me. Coming up empty, she climbed into the cab and found the keys in the visor. She started up the engine and took off to make her first pick up. Once the doors opened a handful of people make take seats inside. She keeps her eyes on the dashboard, hands idling tracing over nobs and buttons attempting to avoid an unnecessarily interaction.
"What did you do to get stuck with this job?"
She looked up, excited to hear the voice of her favorite cousin Jack, "I admitted I didn't plan to wear heels and someone discovered I have the inability to say 'no' to simple requests."
"One of these days they will rue the day you were born", he says with a knowing smile.
"What makes you think you'll be safe?"
They laugh and she wondered if this today wouldn't be as tortuous as she thought. Jack made his way to a row of empty seats and it's only then that Re noticed he wasn't alone. A shock of silver hair caught her eye and she turned to see her cousin's friend. Not someone she'd met before, she took the opportunity to look at him. Silver hair coiffed up in the front, skater build, tall, with startling green eyes.
And now he's noticed me staring. Awesome. Great first impression.
She whirled around in the chair and without checking for any stragglers, closed the door and took off towards the church. Judging from the gasps and scuffling she heard, Re realized she probably should have warned to passengers before taking off.
Now I've stared at him and acted like a psychopath. How will he ever be able to resist me now?
They arrived at the church after a thankfully quiet ride. Jack disembarked waving.
"See you in there", he said with a smile.
Re waved, still to embarrassed to speak. I certainly hope not.

My problem

kellica — Sat, 25 Feb 2012 09:56:25 GMT

When I started watching Sexy Nerd Girl's videos on YouTube I wanted to hate them. Just for the name of the channel. I couldn't believe that she gave herself that name.
Like because she is pretty and skinny and smart and funny that she couldn't be a nerd because that was my thing. And so I had to think her videos were terrible.

But then I started watching them and they were funny and witty and she is sexy in her way and totally a nerd.

I need to stop being intimidated by other women. It's like I have to find some flaw in them that makes me better than them. How I'm skinnier or prettier or smarter etc.
Like I need to be better than them.
Fatal flaw. I don't know how to get around it.

Writer's Block: Weatherman’s Day

kellica — Sat, 25 Feb 2012 09:36:17 GMT

It ridiculously foggy. almost to the point of rain. Which made me a bit nervous since I walked to a friend's house.
She only lives a couple blocks away but I walked because I was planning on drinking there and I didn't want to have to deal with driving or getting a ride there/back. Luckily it didn't rain.
I also managed to get a ride back. A friend of mine just said she would drive me. I felt bed, like I was taking advantage of her but I was too selfish to tell her that. I wanted a ride so I took it.

favorite TSN fan-fics so far.

kellica — Mon, 04 Apr 2011 05:48:48 GMT

... and this is kelly realizing she has an RPF problem

kiss by the book by anon
college AU: andrew finds jesse in the library (where else would he be?) and it's love at first sight. neurotic jesse and determined andrew. i honestly didn't expect to enjoy this fic because i usually am shamelessly into PWP smutfests but i guess my literary tastes are maturing.

carry it in my heart by robin pulaski
aka the fic that all fics wish they could be. jesse falls in love with andrew while they are shooting the social network and can't figure out how to express his feelings without getting rejected. then everything explodes in to rainbows and unicorns and it is a beautiful thing of wonders.

just between us by anon
catholic school student/student AU: jesse is a recluse who spends his free time hiding in the school's chapel until one day, while sitting in the confession, he is confessed to by a very sexually repressed andrew. jesse then tries to tell andrew what he heard without sounding like a total pervert.

every syllable is a spark by nora eisenberg
they meet in a bookstore. jesse is the bookish clerk working while customer!andrew comes in looking for a history of a russian poet.

a sentimental jury by stickyvalentine
demanding mark is demanding and wardo can't say no.

a Love, Death, and a World In Flames by sarah elizabeth\
zombieland crossover: andrew and jesse wander the town together in an attempt to avoid the zombies complete with tallahassee, wichita, and little rock. tallahassee is still obsessed with twinkies.

come out of the shade by anon
playwright jesse watches andrew embody one of his characters and falls in love

And everything nice by anon
mark needs a nanny and, after a few misfires, realizes he can't hire a woman so he hires andrew.

i am sick of the 'make your first post' notification

kellica — Mon, 04 Apr 2011 05:26:44 GMT

gah i feel like a complete fail for never writing anything on this thing and just watching strangers like a creep so here goes my introduction and, if it sucks, at least after this i will have gotten rid of the note demanding my first entry. i created this entirely to find and keep track of fanfics i enjoy reading far too much which at this point includes the social network, inglorious bastards, and tron. eventually (after i catch up since i just started watching a month ago) i plan to start reading mass amounts of supernatural fan-fiction as well. at some point in the way distant future, after i have put on my big girl pants, i may even start writing some dribble myself.